How Being Schizoaffective Affects My Daily Life 

I have Schizoaffective Disorder and I have been hospitalized for it 4 times in my life. Psych wards are interesting to be in.... But overall the staff kind of treats you like an animal and not a human being. I am in my 40s now and feel like I am on top of controlling the illness... I have a therapist I see regularly and I'm on a couple of antipsychotics. I have a full-time job, a house, a wife who can somehow put up with my insanity, and a bunch of cats. You can lead a full life with a severe mental illness... I just sometimes feel like I have a ton of years I missed out on because of my crazy brain...

Damn, I only have cognitive symptoms and depression and its hell. Cant imagine how hard actually is for you. With all of your symptoms you still push yourself thru day and you are productive, you are very strong person my brother, it takes so much strength and courage to do what you do every single day. Wish you all the best

So cool to hear another person has supportive voices 🧡 i do too

Thank you so much for sharing! I agree that one of the great things about the internet is that people can connect over so many different types of topics and there is so much great and helpful information posted as well! God bless you and thank you again!! 🙏💖

This was fascinating! It was interesting to learn that the mood and psychotic sides act independently from each other (and I can only imagine how much more complicated that can make things). So I like how you broke the video down into those two components before talking about the day-to-day realities of your treatment. For the mood side of things, I'm glad that your medications have improved things. It still sounds stressful AF to have to deal with mood swings though, even if they're not as bad as they were before medication. Especially when you also have to balance that with the rest of the responsibilities in your life. For the psychotic side, it was really cool to get such a clear picture of what your voices are like. Especially the change from hearing them constantly before medication to only hearing them for short periods of time and having it be similar to a cell phone losing service after. The good voices sound kind of fun and helpful to have around, but dealing with the bad voices (and trying not to react to them outwardly!) sounds really tough. And I bet it's really disorienting during those times when it's hard to tell "what's the schizo and what's the Kitzo" (I love that phrasing BTW lol). I also had no idea how much else your treatment involved besides medication! So it was interesting to hear about the roles that therapy/DBT, exercise, and a low glycemic diet also play in keeping your life balanced. I'm really happy that you've figured out how to manage everything and build the kind of life that you want to hold onto. :) Thank you so much for sharing all of this!

I have schizoaffective disorder, and also take olanzapine. I also take memantine, which seems to make the antipsychotic work better. I really enjoy your videos, they make me feel less alone 😅. Memantine reduces my negative symptoms significantly 🎉

I’ve been in the hospital 16 times for my episodes I’ll think people are poisoning me or I’m being watched with a sniper scope and I get scared and don’t come back out I isolate a lot too and my diagnosis is schizoaffective bipolar type I have my good days and I have my bad days I always hear things ALWAYS trippy noises from out of this world I’m not dangerous to others people think with schizophrenia/schizoaffective disorder people with it are dangerous but that’s not true we have more issues to ourselves than we do wanna have issues with anyone else we’re just out here battling this now I know I’m not alone I’m glad I see people like me atleast I know I’m not an alien great video by the way

Yes! I was going to say, they are all you, and what was clear to me was even though you can't tell which one is you, you are still there, under it all, thinking about it, and there you are.

Just found your channel! Love the way you relate the disorder. Love your style. Keep well SK❤

Thank you for your very honest observations into your own struggles. I was diagnosed with ~Schizoaffective Disorder almost four years ago now (Bipolar type). This followed almost thirty years of a Bipolar I diagnosis. (In addition, CPTSD, and also Borderline Personality diagnoses were applied). I have often questioned my latest diagnosis, since I do not experience voices, hallucinations or other such relevant symptoms since my last psychotic episode. I can only put this down to the successful treatment of my disorder with Aripiprazole (otherwise known as Abilify). My dosage has been reduced by half, (over the four year period), and I feel a whole lot better, as a result. Whilst I feel gratitude for the effectiveness of the medication, nonetheless, I still find myself questioning the accuracy of my diagnosis. My symptoms appear to be rather different from yours, although I will say that I do not (and cannot) handle stressful situations at all well. I wonder whether the fact that I was living in an extremely stressful situation four years ago led to the onset of the latest psychosis??

My day consists of nightly psych meds yes but mostly maintaining stress levels... Especially when I have work... I got psychosis again last year... I hadnt had bad psychosis in years and it was short but sharp... I thought maybe I wouldn't be able to get through psychosis again you know what I mean and it was one of the scariest turns of it I've had but I learnt so much... I listened this time around... The voices were scary but some had some answers to questions I've had for years... Self discovery... Or maybe someone or something was helping in points :)

i have never though i had anything but hearing you talk about how you have internal monalog and how you hear it, have made me think if i might have something to, because it sound really close to how my internal monalog is. i have been useing my inder voice to do many task and to "speak" to, so i can get advise for what to do... i dont know if i have something or i am just really good at useing my internal monalog. also fun fact i can re-creat almost any voice in my head and hear the voice say what i want it to say. also i can "place" anything in a room. i can place a person standing infront of me at will and they would look 100% realistic and real but they are not there but only at will. also i can imagen a person i see naked. like useing x-ray vision. but it all comes when i want it to. i have never experinced it happen randomly. basicly my minde is like ar glasses ("aurgmentet reality") because i can place, see and hear what ever i want while also seeing reality. but it never happens randomly only when i want it to happen.... but thinking about i also have a iq of like 150 ish so it could also just be that i am mega minde. i have gotten basicly all a's exept i got 2 b's in both chemestry and history. but i dont know if i have anything......if so it dosent cause me any issues in through out the day :D

you are so lovely, best wishes. thank you for sharing, so helpful.

My voice just screams at me the whole time😂 ahh reminds me of my drill instructors

I been diagnosed schizoaffective n all however no meds not being able to move or do anything drives me crazy.. I have episodes I can take on everything then suddenly everything is bad or not real or worth it smh this up n dwn kills me

You are really amazing❤❤

DUDE THE VOICES MAKING YOU FLINCH USED TO HAPPEN TO ME IN HIGHSCHOOL I remember listening to an angry song and jerking my head so hard in the hallway that a teacher pointed it out and was like yoo that must be some good music huh 😭

I mainly deal with shadow people but hearing voices is starting to happen more often. I start zyprexa tomorrow

I was recently diagnosed with schizoaffective disorder myself I thought about doing my own video

"To be or not to be?" Na fam, "What's the Schitzo, what's the Kitzo"

Thank you for sharing :)

can you do a video on relationships with schizopaffective disorder

It killed my childhood. It’s making adulthood tremendously easier to cope but also reorganize my perpetual chatter n audio to my liking for the day. I call it shuffle mode. Eyes open I have music already going. Already morning muster conversation get hyped affirmations ponder my dream to the beat or melody I switch up beats to gravitate towards food hydration morning habits switch beats hit up the squad find out what’s what. Start sending novels to everyone! Lmao(they love my rants now). I like how you said. Get comfortable! That’s how I mastered the schipod lmao❤️♾️🎉🎉🎉in my 💀🔀mode for loifff

good video kitz!👍

Depressive type here. We're somewhat of a rarity. Remember that

I have schizoaffective disorder. Is there any way I can be declared competent?

Did you self isolate alot during a bad episode? Or do you get paranoid or distrust ppl at any point?

This fight is not with flesh and blood

To my brain life is fake because there is no free will but real because we are the ones who have to experience everything. The joy, pain, hope, torture, serenity, numbness and our eventual expiration date. I have symptoms that are similar to yours but to my brain/reality it feels fake. Not that i am faking it, but that the symptoms and experiences are being manufactured on purpose. Im hearing, feeling, moving a certain way and have been my entire life until whatever powers that be finally fking allowed me (and hella others) to observe it. To see and feel it separately from "myself". To me everything is on purpose. Everything is lined up so the pieces of everyones mental and physical storylines line up in a specific way. I dont know what is doing it. I dont know why. What upsets me it that if this is true the truly terrible things could be so completely unnecessary. I now very much dislike when i think back to some of the sayings that were forced into our psyches. We do not need to experience trauma to have compassion. They could just allow us to have compassion from the beginning since they are in charge of our perceptions. What doesnt kill you does not make you stronger other than not killing you. No shade on the david goggins type but he was made to be the way he is and allowed to react the way he does. Im not saying this world is the absolute worst because its not but id rather not feel the need to be thankful because i wasnt abducted as a child or witnessed my parents be slaughtered in genocide. The bare minimum could be just a neutral life. Things could be better and i hope it is.

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what is your diet

I have the same diagnosis and Your the most beautiful Darkest looking woman ever , And the voices in my head tell me we would make a perfect couple 😂 No meds baby !

have you heard your voices screaming out loud like they are dying

Do you get delusional

There’s nothing quite like genuinely thinking that people are after you, the TV is talking about you, strangers are all looking at you and know all your darkest secrets. I Do not recommend going insane however, it is one hell of an experience. Please God never again

It’s funny that she mentions the voices always being on the right side of her head. Mine were always on the right side too, I had them for 30 years before I was diagnosed. After my first dose of antipsychotics, they went away. It’s like having a conjoined twin removed. A really terrible, mean twin.

I was diagnosed with schizoaffective disorder but found out I have the MTHFR mutation causing methylation issues. All of my symptoms including depression, anxiety and extreme mood swings along with the schizo stuff is kept in check by using NAC and methylfolate which is what my body desperately needed to function. If you haven't been checked for MTHFR I can't stress enough how important it is to find out. It's been linked to schizophrenia and other psychiatric disorders. It's because our bodies aren't able to process folate and we don't make enough glutathione to help us process oxidative stress and toxins so we have to supplement them daily. Learning about this changed EVERYTHING for me!!

I don't experience voices all the time, I experience a shadow / demon / spirit that chases me and haunts me, causes me to look behind me all the time, and then I do see a ghost cat and occassionally a ghost girl around, whereever I go.

I was diagnosed with schizoaffective back in 2012, I failed out of college because of it. Basically ruined a lot for me but I’ve been hospitalized for it a lot. Never stayed on my meds, but I’m medicated now and in a homeless shelter and sober pretty much. I hear voices all the time. They’ve made me cry, laugh, angry and I’ve basically felt every emotion. But when I hear them it feels like from all around me or ppl around me. It’s hard. But I get through majority of the time, I respect you. I’m the bipolar type as well. So I know how you feel! Big ups! I do music, so I have an artistic said too! Cosplay is cool! I love anime. So that’s sweet! 😊

I get an immense amount of comfort from your videos. Well done ❤

Thanks for sharing, I recently came out of a 3 month episode where I was diagnosed with schizo affective disorder. This episode has thrown my life on in its head and I've pushed alot of people in my life away through my actions but stories like yours give me hope that things can and do turn around when we are willing to work on them.

I have Shizoaffective disorder,ive been on medication 24 years,since 19.im 43 now.I have been in out of hosptial over 20 times.I take olazpine and Amsulpride.Thank for your video's, very informative video.take care love ya Tasha.xxxx❤❤❤

I'm autistic. This makes me hyper sensitive to light. The sun is generally too bright for me and thus i live a mostly nocturnal life. It has become so troublesome that i cannot leave my house before 10am because of it.

Question.yall say voices.wouldnt they just be your thoughts? negative thoughts, intrusive thoughts, etc?

Thank you sooooo much for this video. I have a dearly loved almost-family member who at age 30 has just been diagnosed for the first time with schizoaffective disorder bipolar type. Before your video i knew only very distressing things about it. I want to support her in every way possible, and this video has opened the door to hope! Thank you

I've had schizoaffective disorder bipoar type since i was a teenager. I'm 42 now and it has driven my life to shambles. I went 25+ years without being medicated. I've been homeless, jobless, not having a license for 20 plus years, ruining relationships, pushing people away, being in jail, losing kids, extreme drug use disorder, being an alcoholic, etc. I managed to pull myself away from the alcohol and drugs and I've been stable in that aspect for 4 years except for a few relapses/slip ups. I'm living with the mother of 2 of my children and if it wasn't for her supporting me, i would still be homeless. I recently got my license back (also because of her), but i still can't hold a full time job. I always end up thinking my coworkers/employers/bosses are plotting against me or are trying to harm me. I recently applied for SSI and i hope that i get it so i can have some kind of stability in my life. Anyone else here apply for SSI and win by having schizoaffective disorder? Any info would be greatly appreciated.

Hi Kit, thanks so much for your videos. I’ve been a psychologist for 46yrs and am only just about to journey with a new client with schizoaffective disorder. You are really helping me understand how they experience life. I believe they have experience recent trauma. Do you know of any resources we can look at together. Thank you again.

I dont hear or see things really but i feel very disconnected from reality and feel like I'm not alive. It scares me and i was told i have schizoaffective disorder. I'm trying to get help but it still scares me

Hello, I want to let you know that I live with autism and bipolar with psychotic features. The autism makes me stick out like an odd duck and the bipolar makes my behavior wild. Believe it or not, I had a manic episode that lasted almost an entire year. It lead me to believe I was God and the archangel michael all in one. None of the medications they tried me on worked until I was put on clozapine. Clozapine manages the psychosis and mood symptoms that cause the psychosis. Now that I am medicated,I typically don’t have an episode that lasts longer than a day and if it does it is usually mild depression rather than severe depression and mania. Im usually not psychotic during these episodes. Anyways, that’s my experience. I hope this blesses someone today ❤

I have Schizo affective disorder and OCD I'm 35 and was diagnosed when I was in my young adulthood. I made it this far by sheer will power and luck, because I just recently found the meds I needed and I'm in the process of building back a routine after not having one since i left college in 2009. I was hospitalized in Florida, I was told, over 30 times and here I. NYC I lasted 5 years no hospitalizations then a string of them this past winter. It was this time that I found out I have an OCD component to my illness, and asked for OCD treatment. it worked mostly for my anxiety. I was very suicidal, tactile hallucinations around my wrists kind of thing. It freaked me out and I went to the hospital before I did anything stupid. I am now seeing new doctors and therapist soon next week. I also want to say, I'm impressed with how well you've handled your symptoms,meds, and routine to where you can live a normal life. I haven't figured that out yet. I found pieces that worked for me, (yoga works, meditation, probably diet if I stop eating bad food and eat good food, exercise) but I haven't been able to put it all together in a weekly routine that I actually stick to. I've been without a routine for so long I'm not sure how to rebuild myself, but I'm going to keep trying. Thanks for you thanks for this channel I wish nothing but the best.

What exactly would you do in a pharmaceutical shortage?

Hey! I am from Poland, and I have had schizoaffective disorder for the most part of my life already. I got sick when I was 17, now I'm 35. Thanks for sharing your experience. The way you describe this disease (I'm unsure if it's a proper word to use?) gives me more recognition and teaches me how to be able to describe it well in English. Similarly to you, I have my YT channel and blog for the Polish audience. Psychiczne Pojednanie - what means "mental reconcile". Even though there is not much content in English I invite you to subscribe :-) Thanks also for sharing about DBT therapy, I didn't hear about it before. The CBT didn't go well for me. I might consider going for it. Learning skills to focus and chill out the excess of thought would be great. Thanks again and take care!

The worst of it for me are delusions. Fighting off delusions feels like a daily negotiation to not go down any rabbit holes. And I have mostly visual hallucinations, which are distracting at work. I always have to quadruple check everything so that's fun. I hear the insults too but only when im in public unfortunately lol or really stressed out at the moment. I figured out how to make the voices work with me than against me too. It took years. I appreciate you sharing your experience and help normalize talking about this.

I was diagnosed with schizoaffective disorder in 2007 at the age of 38. I really started going off the rails in 2005. Don’t ever want to repeat those years again. I did a lot of weird things. My worst symptoms were the voices. They were constantly negative and would even wake me up at night and tell me what an awful person I was for dreaming what I was dreaming. I had mixed episodes of mania and depression together and rapid cycling. Zyprexa and lamictal have helped with all of that. The main thing I deal with are the negative symptoms along with ADD, anxiety and OCD. I did neurofeedback training for those and that has helped. Your videos are great!

Actually I only went to therapy once in my life which led to my first psychosis ever yay 🥳 that happened way back in 2018 …my delusions were really bad and I was so suicidal. After a year I was treated for half a year in an clinic and it took me months to behave “normally” again. Now I am left with a bunch of things that impact my daily life. Medicine, the side effects of my medicine and thoughts that “do not belong to me”. But overall my life got so much better and I am very thankful for my medicine. Sometimes I wonder what a healthy brain would feel like though.

My wife is schizoaffective with depression and I'm bipolar. Thankfully my meds work 100% and I do not have bipolar mood swings anymore. I know it's not always that effective for others, I empathize. My wife takes meds, and her depression does tend to be the primary setback when her psychosis is in check. But even medicated, she instantly decompensates when she gets a new job, so we're hoping she gets disability pay. She does not have positive hallucinations either, they are all purely terrible 😅

My voices like to shoot the shit but then they like to overcriticise and pick on my insecurities for days on in... it's like they butter me up. Also my hallucinations makes me think I'm talking to old friends and people I grew up with and exs through psychic connection. It's hard to shake because they have proven they really could be psychics in many ways

I wish I had good voices, mine are usually family friends or random voices I've never heard talking bad about me or plotting to kill me when I'm hallucinating

I'm in the process of being diagnosed, I suffer from visual, tactile and auditory hallucinations and mood disorder so I strongly suspect I'm schizoaffective. On sertraline (Zoloft in the US) and olanzapine, olanzapine really knocks me for six, I've had about 4 naps today and I'm still tired. I'm eager to get a diagnosis so I know what's wrong with me.

I can’t seem to keep a job on abilify 😂it’s so bad

That is where I have been for years...voices constantly. Been on multiple meds and they still haven't gotten rid of it.

Hi, I am very much pleased to have access to your experiences here, as I am looking at a Psychiatric assessment myself soon. I wonder are you in the uk please ?

You are awesome! I'm proud of you.

Please tell me more about the shadow people. I have only seen one recently and she was dressed like the women of the serpent couple in STNG Times Arrow. I will🎉 Authenticate this. Thanks!

Yah ive been hospitalized 5 times in my life. My family would funny buy me gifts when i was younger when i went to the hospital. But iam not going to be hospitalized anymore and that is fine with me. What this lady needs to do to quit being schizoeffective is stop being a good guy and be evil for once then get forgiveness from the lord jesus christ and then move on. I think her problem is shes such an angel not a devil, she needs to just be a woman.

I was diagnosed with bipolar I a couple years ago (before that, my diagnosis was schizophrenia, but that was changed). I don't get depressed as often as I used to, but I've had a lot of hypomanic and mixed episodes (and full mania before I was put on a mood stabilizer). I also used to be extremely paranoid, and I had delusions about being watched and thought the government was after me. The paranoia was the worst part of the illness for me, and three of my four hospitalizations were mainly because of it. The paranoia was horrific. Thankfully the antipsychotic I'm on now helps a ton with it, as did years of therapy. I still have paranoia at times, but it's not as bad as it was, and I'm usually not delusional when I'm taking my meds correctly.

Your description of auditory hallucinations is very similar to my own experience.

Thanks for the video, i have Schizoaffective Disorder too. Your doing well if you work too. When I'm ill which tbh is all the time, i don't. I have had a few hospitalisations because of it. Had a lot of visual hallucinations with mine but no auditory ones.

God bless you. I think you're so strong!

I have Schizoaffective disorder and I’m on 7 different medications and I go to therapy as well. I don’t have to work right now so that’s been a blessing but I’m ready to get back out there. My antipsychotics made me gain weight so I’m working on losing that and getting healthy so I can work regularly again.

Falling and breaking my head they had given me dangerous injections and wrong drugs

I have schizoaffective disorder too but when I have psychosis I get visual hallucinations. It’s horrible, people just think I’m on drugs. I feel like nobody will ever understand me. I remember as a kid I used to stare out the window at night and look at the trees and I’d wish they would turn into people so I could see magic. I started doing this after my uncles suicide. Then when I was 24 I saw a tree with a woman’s face and it was the scariest thing I’ve ever seen in my life. The worst thing about it is that I’ve never been able to fully be aware that I’m hallucinating, because people go along with my hallucinations when im around them and other times I’m alone so nobody is there to say “you’re hallucinating” I’ve been so sick before I hallucinated for a month and at the moment my stress levels have been triggering me. I don’t want to go through all that again. Thank you for sharing your experiences on this channel, it really helps.

I worked in mental health and yea the staff looks down in mental health patients . It’s almost like they couldn’t figure out life ? Is that what this is ? You can figure out basic skills and feel Left out and lonely

thank u so much for this video u r so brave. I have schizoaffective bipolar as well, i have 1 nice voice and the rest are mean and evil as well as bipolar 1. Just started a new mood stabilizer after a 9 day mania cycle, thank u again for this video i also subscribed

I love you. You are an amazing and beautiful soul😊❤

Without going into details, the most important thing for me, which also includes taking my meds, is to be mindful of my timing, like when I eat, take meds, get up, go to bed. Not saying I’m good at this, but I do notice that it makes a difference for me. And one more thing I feel led to say is that you are amazing! Thanks for being willing to be so boldly, publicly vulnerable. May God Himself bless you a bunch!

First time I've seen one of your videos, I'm in Awe, of you. Your a young person who does what she needs to do to stay Healthy, both body& mind. You seem to have it figured out, goog for you. I hope you continue to do well. I will watch more of your videos.Thank you, there are lessons here all of us can use.

WOW you are so beautiful

damnn that instinct to quickly react and turn and look back to the right gets me everytime.. the someone talking right behind/beside you. the feeling the pressure of density of someone actually being there bewilds me in amazement sometimes.. all fascinating intriguing yet scary all at the sametime

I got schizophrenia. I didnt like the voices at the start 😔 but now i feel like a celebrity 🥳

We love you too. You’re brave!!!!!!!❤❤❤❤❤❤

Thankyou for the information! I was diagnosed with schizoaffective disorder in 2018. I have been hospitalised twice and treated at home. I have a voice 24/7 he is male and he really gets on my nerves. I say he, but I know its me, I didn’t though, I thought I had a neural implant and it was part of a world wide conspiracy (delusions) I also have psychosis. I have visual, tactile and the auditory hallucinations. I have periods of being well and long periods of all of the above. It’s a very frightening experience at times and other times the voice keeps me company. The medication helps.

Only if you’re willing to share, I’d love to hear how your mental health journey started. From childhood till now. If it was since childhood etc.

Thank you for another informative video. I learn more online about schizoaffective than I do in therapy or my groups.

6:33 THANK you for having the courage to share your experiences. Also , you are quite self-aware.

I relate so much. I was just diagnosed & to be honest... I was relieved . I'm 38 and it's cost me everything relationships, family, kids ...all of it. Just getting back on track. It's been a few years and I thought I had it "tucked away" ... now it's coming back even though I've been happier than ever. New marriage, got my kids back, a new kid w my wife. I'm on 3 meds. Zyprexa, Lamictal, abilify. Makes me sleepy & groggy in the mornings . I hate it.. anyways it's coming back. My wife doesn't know sbout all of it , meaning every single instance I experience.. afraid to become a burden. It's a lot to handle... would love some advice. I've had a few fights over things I knew I heard them say..but they didn't ..so it's hard. I don't want to lose everything again. She's too sweet & too good for me. I know she'd understand but its hard. .. thanks for sharing. -J from WV

Stay strong girl. Keep going and fight for your wealth 💪. Thank you for your experience.

Hello! I also have schizoaffective disorder. I would love to do a youtube collab if you are ever interested? I love this video - you are so articulate and well spoken. I heard you say something about therapy isn't effective for you. Do you think that is true of all schizoaffective people? Personally, therapy helps me. Looking forward to hearing back from you!

I have schizoaffective I had it for last 9 years found out last 3years I also I have autism as well it's crazy life to live with

Great video, Kit. May I ask...the story of your earrings. My big struggle is getting through moments/hours when I just can't function. Especially when I get up. Those around me don't understand. Have a great weekend.

I can’t get a job

After this I know I do not have this disorder

Your aesthetic is amazing. I really appreciate your honesty and ability to articulate. Charisma is great as well. Wishing you success.

r u enfp

That room is a vibe 🎉

This might be the wrong place to ask but does anyone have advice on how I could bring up potentially having this disorder to my psychiatrist? I’m already diagnosed BPD, schizotypal, and major depression. I’ve had lots of visual and some audio hallucinations since I was 12. I know they’re not real but they cause me distress. I also used to be on antipsychotics. I’m afraid she will say I’m making it up since most people aren’t aware that they’re hallucinating and I don’t wanna be turned away from getting help and making it stop. Any advice would be so appreciated. My appt is in 2 months.

“The Collected Schizophrenias” by Esma Wang was good. She mentioned Ms Hammer & others on YT. The Hammer fem stood near me at Whole Foods Chelsea NYC. Wang & Hammer both into clothes. Me too, books/ clothes. And www.

Wow the right side voices, I’ve never heard described, I struggle with the same thing. Sometimes my neck hurts from having my head turned right constantly. Sometimes when I’m in psychosis I lean all the way to the left with my body trying to get away from them or let gravity take me away from the noise. Thank you for describing your struggle so intimately. It really helped me grasp what I needed to.

Attitude about the condition seems to help and having a good supportive team around you ❤

What are your thoughts on schizoaffective bipolar and NPD/ASPD? I need help.