How God Told Me to Move to Dallas + My Current Life Status 

You have NO IDEA how much this helped me. Today was a very hard day with God. I was so angry and seriously questioning my faith. It's amazing to me that He put your video in my path. I was feeling completely numb and depressed BECAUSE of my faith. Sometimes I feel like the bleak side of being a Christian is not talked about enough. Anyway, thank you so so much for being real and not sugarcoating the hard stuff ❤️

I thought I would check out the video for a bit but I ended up sitting and watching the entire thing. Growing up in the church and in a Haitian house we never talked about our walks or season especially in an authentic way like this. Bc of that I try to be honest as possible and it’s so refreshing to hear you talk about the season you’re in right now. It’s gonna be so dope to see you look back at this in a year and be able to thank God for where he’s brought you. Keep going. Thank you again for sharing! 🙌🏾

Girl can relate so much this is exactly where I’m at right now, no emotions, my pain is to great for me to bare 😢, but I’m to Christians for the world.

Yeah I know exactly the place you were in. I think something that stood out to me is God isn’t a friend that leaves. And sometimes relationships look like someone holding the other up while they go through what they go through. Like God sees the weight you have on you and knows what’s possible for you to do at that moment. So it’s good to push but it’s also okay when you don’t have it. Something I learned while being a single mom is that I don’t have to fit the required expectation of me in the moment to moment but allow myself to respond with the Holy Spirits help or prompting. Like sharing the burden of the responsibility you have been given. Example when my kiddo does something that is not okay and my natural response is to get upset or yell the Holy Spirit is kinda like there in the moment before making the choice on how I respond and like water I can choose to flow with the response he wants me to give or I can choose my own response from past experiences. Ah same with just day to day stuff when depressed like showering or brushing teeth or making your bed or washing your face or anything else you struggle with before you make the decision allow a space for the Holy Spirit to prompt or encourage or take over to help you. Idk how to explain this better and I don’t it really pertains to this video but I felt lead to share I guess. In the space of feeling nothing find contentment in the Holy Spirit being beside you and living in that moment with you. There’s this book called Practicing the Presence of God by Brother Lawerence and I think it’s a really good read for anyone going through a space of hardship. And kudos to you for not quitting, I know that is soooo hard not to do when everything seems as though it would be easier. My youth Pastor told me once when he was in a dark season that something that helps him is his decision to continually say “I won’t quit today”. And that was super encouraging for me. Another thing he told me was that when you’re in a space of hurt and hardship or warfare, celebrate the small wins as you wait for the big ones. So brushing your teeth, or doing one thing for your business, or making your bed etc. It could be something as small as reading a verse today, or thanking God for someone else being able to be alive alongside you today. Any little thing can count. But I agree this walk is not easy but we do not do it alone. I know this video is two years old but I wanted to share. I pray you’re in a better place and you learned so much in this season you were in. I’m sure you did. Something that I’m learning is that there’s a necessity to not only trust the process but make up in your mind that the process of trusting God is just something that you do, despite the circumstances. And I see you have that. I think perseverance in God and with God is the best thing anyone could have honestly. Annnnd I’m rambling so imma stop here hahahaa again I know you came out stronger because of this season! And thanks for being so transparent.

I was literally telling myself I need to start a RU-vid channel telling the uncertainty and emotional struggles following God. You literally sometimes lose or let go of everything with no insight of when your blessings coming to pass

Thanks for your obedience to share your walk with Lord it really encouraged me to keep pressing forward.

When you said your Haitian I gasp. I been praying about my move and got confirmation after confirmation. I logged into You Tube and saw your video… the reason for me gasping, I’m Haitian too. 💗

This is what I relate to! Felt like the odd one out for the longest and I thought I was crazy for feeling the way I did. You’re transparency was VERY MUCH needed! Thank you for sharing! Always praying for you sis! ❤️

feel you sis, thank you for sharing. i appreciate your being, feels very calming, sure. beautiful. keep being you 🫶🏾

Hi Kiara. Blessings to you. I listened to your blog. Stay strong in the Lord. Dallas is a great place to live with all kinds of fast opportunities. There is Good and evil everywhere. God has to prepare you to see the false prophets schemes and black holes.. You are young and pretty. You will need much power and prayer to the up most. You have to be totally ready. Keep doing what you doing. You got to be able to see very clearly. I'm telling you God wants to prepare you for that first. He will pull you out of a place if you are not ready. He sees what will happen before we ever do. God bless you.

THIS IS SO REAL AND RAW! Thank you for sharing sis! God bless you!! Keep being transparent ! We need more authentic followers of Christ! 💕

Greetings my sister in Christ… I wasn’t going to say anything but the Holy Spirit putting in my heart to tell you something and I have to be obedient to it … I love you with the love of Christ. You are very special to God and that’s why you are going through it now. The enemy now that as a TRUE warrior of Christ you are a treat to His Kingdom. I know with out a doubt your place of territory is TX I feel it all over my spirit that’s why you feel the way you feel because the land were you find yourself it’s no longer serve purpose for your calling… You will feel alive in the land were God really wants you to be to serve His people .. many times the enemy will want us to go back to old places to keep us of the blessings God has in store for us! He will put burdens in our hearts with people we love because He knows our hearts will feel heavy for them and we’ll delay the plans God has for us for them but God true desire is for you to take possession of your promise land like he told Abraham and with that comes many things we have to leave that we love… the key here is things we love… listen to this sis… and the Emmy knows this! So he puts you back in situations then you feel confuse, despair , away from the Lord because that land is no longer the place were you need to be… in order to be completely in our callings we need to be in the right destination ourselves or will be this feeling of de satisfaction because we are not in tune with Gods Rhythm in our calling… I’m telling you this because I have leaves here in Florida Miami for 35 yrs going to be 45 this month and God has called me to go to Texas. Im scare to take that step I’m not going to lie to you but I have always been a woman of Faith and wanting please God above my needs. I’m getting ready to move to Texas before the end of the year don’t know where or how.. all I know I’m doing it! Even if I have yo go a motel to start but Faith steps will open the doors of blessings through my obedience. He has always provided in my past and God and me have history together and because I’m a friend of Him I can trust t anything He tells me to do now in my life. Has it been an easy journey heck no sis …. But His faithfulness has prove me that I can rest in His Word no matter how crazy things look in my surroundings because He has never lied but has always come through and yes maybe not the way I expressed but He has! I’m going to tell you my testimony really quick so you know the history I have with God and then you’ll know why I’m taking this step of faith of going to Texas and it’s not a coincidence I saw your video and you mention being from Florida 305 …well I was sexually molested as a child by an uncle for yrs in Costa Rica were I was being raised by my grandparents, saw my aunt die of cancer and saw here purple in her bed created a shock in my heart, came to this country when I was 10yrs old, didn’t get along with my biological father he was very abusive physically and mentally , got married very young at 15 had 5 children from that marriage full of domestic violence all those yrs, got anorexia , suicidal attempts for yrs, depression, anxiety and was declared with PTSD. Had many multiple car accidents. I got until 8th grade education. I dint have a GED or high school diploma but got favored me yo work in the federal government for 17 yrs. Only God can do that! Have always being hated and people being jealous of the wisdom God has given me. You see all things made me feel unworthy of love or acceptance but having God in my life I learned my true identity in Him and now He using me to speak His word and what He puts in my heart in my fellowship with Him. He has healed me of all those traumatic experiences and now giving me a voice to evangelize … there’s one thing His still working in me and it’s my thorn I hate now but I know the reason why and it’s to keep me close to Him to depend on Him fully… my PTSD caused memory issues and at times I’m taking and I go get things in the moment but God gave me a revelation that brought peace to my heart to accept the calling He has for me even in doing my RU-vid videos I have started in being obedient to Him. I always was like Lord what if in the middle of a video my mind becomes blank like it has in the past and I feel embarrassed Lord? But then I remembered if I was doing this for the likes of people or people to see me on scowl media or was doing for God ? Then I got the courage I needed to start.. I only have 5 subscribers all this months and it’s ok because it’s the 5 people God wants now as we know not to despise the small beginnings! When we have a pure and sincere heart He will gives us the people to come and see and be part of what we are doing .. they will come with out seeking them . My RU-vid page is “ FireofGodspresence” And is to glorify God and tell my story and bring others to the feet of Jesus because when I was lost someone helped me to come to Him and now we leave to tell others so they can experience the freedom we have today! I want to end this message in telling you there are many souls waiting for you in Texas which is your true home! I’ll be praying for you in my secret place for strength and for God to show himself big in your life and put a burning fire on you like never before! I want to encourage you to stay strong in the Lord always no matter what! Your light is bright and the enemy is trying to dime it in making you feel the way you feel but know assure his only afraid of your greatness and your calling being fully manifested! I love your vulnerability and transparency because I’m like that in my channel and my Facebook page. And God wants me to start sharing more things that personal but that’s because God knows people need yo know the truth of people that have had it hard but we can testify there’s a living God because people like us are walking testimonies without having to hold a Bible in our hands because of the living Christ in us and our testimony. Glory yo God! Hallelujah! I love you and Cindy e to be strong 💪🏼 in the Lord! Can’t wait when I move to Texas and one day in the first meet with you .. I know that’s your promise land! Blessings!!!

Kiaraaaa 🥺🥺🥺 I keep typing and deleting bc I’m looking for the best way to say I UNDERSTAND! Very different circumstances for me but spiritually and emotionally (or lack thereof) I am having such a similar experience. I have ALWAYS admired your authenticity and your walk. I still do. You are transparent beyond what’s comfortable bc of this pressure to perform in our walks even when we are SUFFERING. But you have never faked the funk and I love love love that about you. You are so human. Such a beautiful soul inside and out. I will be interceding on your behalf. Your calling is HEAVY and Ik the warfare is too. Love you girl 💙💙💙

Wow! This blessed me. Thanks for sharing. Stay strong sis, You got this. & you will overcome every battle . Blessings 🙏🏽

Thank you for sharing this. I understand exactly what you mean. Omg, you were telling my story. I pray for God's strength for you to continue to fight the good fight and keep it pushing. God bless you sis!

Wow. I love your transparency, and I resonate with you in aloooot of ways. I’m literally praying for you as I type this comment. I look forward to your future videos ♥️

Hi, i just wanted to say, thank you for your honesty!. It's extremely difficult to be this open about the suffering you have went through and are going through. Your a very beautiful girl inside and out. I see myself in you literally. I wanted to share with you my testimony about how God delivered me from depression and suicidal thoughts I've had for 7-8 years!. It happened not too long ago. When i was 14 years old the spirit of depression and suicidal thoughts came upon me. I was never the same as years passed and nothing changed. I used to hate my life, everyday was a life and death battle for me. I thought God hated me, i thought He abandoned me. I thought, how could you call me your daughter when your allowing the enemy to destroy me and yet you do nothing about it. I grew hopeless and bitter each day. I fell behind in life because i couldn't function. I didn't graduate high school and i had no goals or ambitions. I remember running away from home 3 times, thinking i will never return. I wanted to die and never be found. I know what it's like to be numb and not to feel a thing. It was how i coped with my overflowing negative emotions. I was so used to suffering that i really stopped caring about my life. I saw no hope or future for me, i was mentally, emotionally exhausted. Like you, the devil tempted me with witchcraft, specifically new age. In my mind i thought, Jesus doesn't care about me anyways, at least i know the enemy for what he is but Jesus, i was confused about who He truly was. He was everything to me and i didn't know why He allowed this to go on so many years. Towards the end of 2021, I'm 21 btw😃. That's when all hell broke loose for me. I was extremely sucidal at that point, all the years of torment and suffering, of hopelessness came boiling over. My emotions were boiling over and i couldn't stop them. In that moment, Jesus led me to a women on youtube and her name is Apostle Kathyln, she's setting people free through Jesus. She was talking about keys to Deliverance. At that time i was so wary and used to suffering that i was hesitant to try the keys. I thought that it wouldn't work and that Jesus would fail me again. I also had satan tempting me in the back of my mind about witchcraft. In my last effort of strength, not knowing what will become of me. I choose to trust Jesus and He highlighted the key renouncing to me. After i renounced everything, the heaviness left me instantly!!!. The trauma and pain left me!, when i felt the power of Jesus for the first time in my life, it changed me forever!. I haven't been the same since!. I don't remember any pain or trauma, He made me a new women!!. I believed somewhat that Jesus loved me but now i know He does!. He came alive to me!, because of Him i know who i am in Him. I know that He has my back, satan will never have access to my life or mind anymore because i see his lies for what they are i would be dead if it weren't for Jesus. Praise His Holy name!. I tell you this testimony to encourage you!, that Jesus has not forgotten about you. That Jesus is our healer and our present help in trouble.for the first time in life, i have a new hope and a new future because of Him. I walked through the burning flames and the deepest darkest valleys and because of Him I'm finally out!. I urged you to check out Apostle Kathyln!, if Jesus did it for me and my situation looked impossible, i know He can do it for you!. God bless you!

Thank you so much for this video and just really being honest with the people and yourself. I love you more than ever ❤️

I listened to your "self hate" podcast the other day and I related with everything you said in the podcast, as well as in this video (about your current status). I just wanted to let you know that you are not alone and thank you for your transparency, because I was certainly starting to lose my mind since the people around me didn't understand what I was/am going through. I am praying for you & may God restore joy in your life. Love, from South Africa 🇿🇦

I definitely feel you on the suffering and doubt. It can get so tiring and frustrating.

Thank you for sharing and I’m praying you reconnect with your secret place 💓🙏🏾

Praying for you!

I gave my life to the Lord when I was fourteen in 1974. Time want allow me to give my testimony, of the troubled life I had in my first fourteen years of life. Seeing some of my friends drying and I should have dried as well. But the Lord saved me in time. After forty five years of being in ministry, and now a lots of young people see me as being old. But my encouragement to you is, that God is preparing you for your generation! Because it’s going to take great faith and long suffering to reach them. God’s best wine comes in the slow process of purification. And that process is very painful. But as I listened to you I can tell the Lord is getting the resource he wants in your life! I rejoice and is greatly encourage to see that God has graciously chosen you for your generation. Never give up! It’s is a honor to be a chosen vessel for the Lord use. Satan is fighting you because of that honor. I am praying for you Daugther of God.🙂

For the past few days I’ve been trying to record a video, attempting to explain something similar, but couldn’t find the right words. You’re definitely not alone sister! ❤️

Share your testimony! Worth hearing !

Wow. I’m up to 25:14 - so much you have said reasonated with me from Dallas to business , lust , dreams, intrusive thought, witchcraft & even the blood on hands apart .. WOW smh. May the lord bless you & keep his hand on you in Jesus name.

The difference is the enemy gives you fame but at a cost, you will have to give him something in return (your soul) but God gives influence/ etc. and Jesus already paid the price for your soul. The enemy came at you because you are making a difference in the kingdom and he has to stop you. It’s only a test, stand with the armor of God, and know that you can’t walk this journey alone. Ask the lord to show you those that he has given/called to walk beside you.

What part Texas you move too?

What state you came from?

I'm so sorry to see how down you seem!!!! I feel like God wants me to tell you to spend more time with him!!!! I have been struck by the enemy with suicidal thoughts as well!!!! Go and seek the Lord!!!! Get on your knees and ask for his help every day!!!! God wants to spend time with you!!!! You need him!!!! Please go to God!!!!! I will pray for you GOD bless you!!!!

God told me he wanted you to move to Maine, not Dallas!

It hurted Christ Jesus...so you have to have same demonic attacks to prove your love meaning you have to make the same sacfices...long sufferings is one of the fruit of the spirit..but the pruning is the reveal of what's evil in the world...they have not cause you ask not..go to the secret place but go high see his face ask the father to use you in Dallas..I've been there but it gets easier in the process and yes some have lost there minds that's why a lot of people don't take the mantle.. I believe in Christ Jesus and he lead me to the father..call on the name YAWEH and Jesus will step aside an then and father will have Jesus to fight your enemy's.. But there has to be a revelling in the spirit...search the father with all your heart mind and soul give to the father..denounce Satan and rebuke the devil...woman of GOD I feel your spirit here in Dallas ..don't give up..Yahweh will show in your test..it will get better you was called to over come..by the blood of the lamb in Christ Jesus from the crown of your head to your feet..cry out to the Father and wait on him...keep your eye's on the father even when you see demonic attacks...everything belongs to GOD..his peace .rest .love.and the joy of the lord will over flow in your heart...be in Christ died and rose and YAHWEH is sitting on the throne...I was spiritually lead to speak to your soul mind and spirit...Amen