How I Lost Over 180 LBS - My Weight Loss Journey | Half of Carla 

I think this video literally just changed my life. I have been sobbing non stop for at least the past 10 minutes after coming to the realization that for the last 6 years all I've been hearing in my head are my mom and sisters' voices telling me I'm not good enough and never will be. That's why I'm still 243 lbs. I thought, after 4 years of therapy, that I was healed and should be able to lose the weight, but I still have work to do. Thank you, Carla. I'm so grateful I randomly came across your video. You've definitely earned a new subscriber.

When you said you walked for an hour and you told yourself, you're worth the time, that really hit home. I never took care of myself because I'm always feeling like I needed to take of someone else's needs first. It's been an adjustment telling myself I'm worth the time and effort to change.

I cried watching this ~ I’m turning 70 next summer, and have battled my weight my entire life. I won the battle until I turned 50. Menopause & Divorce were the enemies that broke me… BUT: your video has shown me ( even at this stage in life) that there’s a lot more to losing weight than losing weight. Bless you for sharing your story!!!

I have never in my life watched a "how i lost my weight" video (and i have watched ALOT) where the person opens up about how deep the problem really went and the process in which you went in discovering where that problem lay and the journey you took to the mental health side rather than just the weight, it opened up a whole new world of possibility and why i have never been able to achieve my goals and the realization that its not my voice, and i too really dont know a single thing about myself. you have well and truly opened my eyes and for that i am so incredibly grateful. Thank you 💚🖤

You are a brave and beautiful woman. You have the rare ability to not only speak intelligently and clearly on the subject, but to draw us in to a conversation as if we're chatting with a best friend. Thank you for allowing yourself to be so open that you become a mirror whereby we catch a glimpse of ourselves and realize that we too are capable of finding our way out of the dark. Keep shining that light. 🖤

I am 62 and 180 lbs. I just started walking 10,000 steps per day (which takes 100 minutes) and I am doing low carb (not no carb), drinking more water and writing down everything I eat. I used to weight 130 lbs in the Army and I felt my best. I think I can do it again. I am on day 3 and am losing 1lb per day so far. I will let you know.

I’m 133 kg morbidly obese . I have compulsive bing eating disorder. You have spoken my truth . Thank you for this video

💚🖤 Carla, the "bus" that hit you. I think it just hit me. WOW! I was so moved this is my first comment EVER in RU-vid. I have been working on my own personal weight loss journey. Since, October 2021 I have lost 90 pounds. I'm closing in on 100!! Thank you for your brave words and helping me to understand just a little bit more about myself. I have recently started therapy and I know it will be a lot of work.

💚🖤 Your video resonated very deeply with me. I am a morbidly obese 70 year old woman who has struggled with a food addiction literally my whole life. I have always felt that because of my weight, I am undeserving of any kind of happiness. I have always felt “less than” and, thus, not worthy of love or any of the good things in life. Thank you for your kindness and compassion and insight into the struggle of learning to love yourself. You are truly an inspiration.

I cried so hard listening to you because it's like I'm hearing my story from your mouth. Of course it's your story and nobody can take it away from you. But it's also the story of so many women, so many. Thank you for this amazing video. It saves lives

You have no idea how much this video has helped me. I literally had to hold back the tears when you said “fix the brain and the weight will fall off”. Thank you so much for posting this. ❤

I have to keep pausing this to write things down. “I thought I had shame because I was fat, but I was fat because I had shame.” This resonated so much with me & a reminder to look at oneself from a place of compassion. Thank you for your honesty and wonderful advice! I’m looking forward to starting my own walking journey and following you. ❤

Just happened upon this video this morning & so glad I did. Really spoke to me about my food addiction & drinking alcohol to feel like I fit in. I've been a work in progress since I was 15 I'm 64 now. I've never felt worthy. This changes today! 💚🖤

I'm not even really sure how I found your videos, but I know it was not a mistake. Your story is incredibly inspiring and I appreciate that it's so much more than just a 'visual results' story. So much resonated with me and I find parallels my life within your story that I found myself crying. I'm a therapist who needs to take some of my own advice! I'm also a caregiver which I've used as an excuse to continue to neglect myself. This in particular was so very poignant: "I thought I had shame because I was fat, but I was fat because I had shame." 10000% my life! I already started implementing the 5 habits you noted that helped you reach your goal and I don't EVER want to see the current number on the scale again either! THANK YOU SO MUCH for taking the time to record and share this 'chatty' video, highlighting mental health and eating disorders. They're so often overlooked, especially in America where I am where EVERYTHING must be in EXCESS!! I'm certain this video will change anyone who stumbles upon it. All the best to you, Carla! 💚🖤

💚🖤As the decades roll on, many of us forget the importance of slowing down the circus of life and making our mental and physical health a priority. Thank you for reminding us all that we must make the time to heal and instill the courage to follow the process through.

💚🖤 I'm glad I made it to the end. When you said I didn't feel shame because I was fat, I was fat because I felt shame, a light bulb went off. It wasn't a wildly bright light bulb, but it was bright enough to write down the word shame and I will explore it more later when my belly is not full of eating carbs all day, all of them empty of the nourishment I seek to fill my endlessly insatiable ache.

💚🖤. All through this video I was struck by how the frame of the mirror behind you reminds me of a halo in one of those old Madonna and child paintings. I think it's very fitting because as I listened to your story I felt like I was a child back in church listening to a sermon (not a preachy one but a comforting one). I'm not really religious but it reminded me of when Jesus said 'love your neighbour as yourself' ... and it strikes me we can't really love anyone else properly until we can love ourselves properly. Anyway enough of me rambling ... I'm delighted for you and your little family. I hope you all have long and happy lives!

💚🖤 Wow... I am sitting here speechless with a lump in my throat and tears. I am 66 years old, 5'0", over 300 pounds, feeling like my life has been wasted struggling with this weight, lack of self worth, and buried life trauma events, for so long. Sooooo much of what you said was like you were telling my story. If it hadn't been for Jesus showing up so lovingly in my life, I wouldn't know what love was or where I would be now. And although He has freed and delivered me from a lot of things, I can see that I still have a lot of work to do. Your vulnerability and honesty opened my eyes so much. Thank you for being willing to share so much of yourself. Your testimony impacted me powerfully. Thank you❣I pray I can be as successful in this leg of my journey as you have been. May God bless you, Vincent, and Finn. 💚🖤🥰

WOW! Never have I ever had the experience of someone emptying their heart and soul to me in such a public format. Carla I heard you and I hear you. You made it personal. Thank you for gracing me and the millions of others you reached and will continue to do so with not only your message but your way step by step method out of this painful drama. You didn't just identify the pain but you gave us the roadmap away from it. I've yet to see this in any other post. From the bottom of my heart to yours. You are the bravest woman I've ever encountered. THANK YOU.

I can't stop crying after watching this. I have never felt more heard by a content creator than I do now. I have been feeling so down about my life for the past few months, and I think this video is the nudge I needed in the right direction. Thank you so much for this video 💚🖤

This was a wonderfully honest testimony to your dedication and courage. I have been in recovery from drug addiction for 35 years and have been maintaining a 55 lb weight loss for 5 years. I am only now beginning to look deeper into the mental and emotional reasons for my food issues and your video really brought things into the light. Thank you so much for sharing this. And you are absolutely gorgeous!💚🖤

I have never related to anyone more in my life.. when you said you used to feel like people only spent time with you because you thought they felt sorry for you, I burst into tears. I always felt that way too when I was young and I’ve never heard anyone else express that 🖤💚 thank you and congratulations on all you’ve accomplished

💚🖤Carla I am 83 years old and your story about weight being a symptom certainly resonated with me. You are beautiful inside and out. Your videos and Instagram posts are very upbeat and encouraging. May God bless you as you embark on your next journey to be an ambassador to those looking for help with weight loss. God designed you for just this purpose! Keep up the good work! 💚🖤💚🖤❤️

Thank you so much. 58yr old here, still struggling. Initially when starting your video I thought that I wouldn't learn anything new - heard it all before etc! But everybody's story is so different. And though there may be some similarities it's always articulated differently and Sometimes in the smallest nuances of a story there's something to learn and be grateful for. Today I am grateful for you and your story. Cheers.

This is the first time I have watched one of your videos, I have never seen you, I don't know you but I wanna say this one thing: I AM SOOOOOOO SUPER PROUD OF YOU!! I feel like a proud mom listening to you. I am sorry that you went through such hard times full of pain but here you are, you've been working like a lioness and I wanted to let you know that I applaud you. You are strong, you are worthy of all the best.

Thank you for sharing, Carla. The length was exactly what your story needed! I got on my recumbent bike and worked out while watching the rest! Your video inspired me to be less negative with my body. I too haven't dressed exactly the way I have wanted to, but I am slowly working on a (hopefully) sustainable life-long way this time around to get there. 🖤💚 - I just learned to make the hearts! :D I am so grateful that I stumbled upon your video today. Thank you again for sharing your story, it's already helping me!

Alan Roberts sent me here. As a person who lost 180lbs in 10mos and kept it off almost 3years now, want to compare notes. Keep helping others learn how to lose the weight, for themselves.

Thank you for helping me realize I AM worth it. I have tried so many times to lose the extra weight I’m carrying around daily but I always give up. Some people in my life make me feel guilty for wanting to spend time on myself to get healthy when I have a husband and 4 kids to worry about. I will no longer let them make me feel like I don’t deserve to be healthy. Thank you so much 💚🖤

Oh my God! I was led to this video for a reason and I give myself permission to seek the help I need and that joyous freedom you have now. I've always known I had childhhood trauma but never addressed it, just kepi turning to food to cover it. I am now a senior citizen and the voice is saying why even try now, just keep the secrets, your life is almost over but I would love to live the rest of my life free. I can't stop the tears from flowing. What an overcomer you are and thank you for your story. I'm praying I get a chance to see this victory as well.

Thank you for sharing. I am 64 and just working on myself to get where you are. You’re an inspiration. 💚🖤

Not even half way through and I have to say that everything you said resonated with me. From the binge eating to the negative view of yourself, to not even really knowing who you are. Probably one of the best videos I seen when it comes down to losing weight. This is more of a mental journey then anything else. Once the mind gets in line the body follows. Thank you for sharing your story and bringing these topics to the forefront!💚🖤

Thank you for this reminder that we are all worth showing up for ourselves. I’ve been struggling with depression for years so it’s always ups and downs. Kind of in a down at the moment. But this made me go for a nice long walk outside. 💚

No idea how I got to your channel but I am over the moon that I did. This is exactly what I didn’t know I needed to hear. I begin my weight loss journey with many physical and mental health issues but if I can show a fraction of the strength you did on your journey, I may just have a chance to succeed. Thank you for this video Miss Carla ❤

💚🖤 I know this video is over 10 months old, but thank you so much for creating it. I have literally just finished watching it along with your original video and wow. To have someone tell their story in such an honest, authentic way, and a story I can relate to soo much was so inspiring. I am currently having therapy myself (started Jan this year) and it has been so eye opening. Recently, I kept saying to my therapist, when I look in the mirror I don't recognise the person standing there, I see a big person who looks like me, but isn't me. Your story resonates so much, and I am taking away with me to be more compassionate to myself and recognise the stories I tell myself and challenge that voice inside my head, and believe in myself. With the therapy I'm going to focus more on the trauma healing and hopefully in time, I will start looking like the true me, the person I can see but no one else can. Honestly, from the bottom of my heart, thank you for sharing your journey. I don't leave messages on RU-vid that often, but considering you were so honest with your story, I felt it was only right to leave a comment of my own ❤

Wow you are the only person on RU-vid that has spoken to my soul regarding weight loss and believe me I’ve watch MANY!! Thank you, your an angel. I’m a dedicated subscriber now. I can’t wait to watch all your videos.❤️❤️❤️❤️

So much of this resonates with me. My weight issues are also childhood trauma, sugar became my comfort. I hace also had a lot of further trauma and I see clearly now why. Thank you, thank you for your open honesty.

Thank you for this. I think I have to go to therapy too. I cried so much tonight, your story is so simular too mine, but I have 52 years of it. 💚🖤

💚🖤So happy to have found your channel! I am a 56 year old woman who has struggled for the past 25+years with obesity. Trying every single diet and weight loss fad under the sun , I still find myself weighing over 300lbs. Thank you for sharing your story and your journey to health and happiness! You have inspired me to start again!

Found you by luck. I have watched countless weight loss journeys now but wow did yours resonate. If you don't already, you should look into public speaking. You kept my attention for the whole of the video. I usually get distracted but I couldn't take my eyes off the screen. I wanted to hear every word. I'm so happy for you Carla! You deserve every bit of happiness you're living. I'm going to curl up now and try to quiet the lies in my head because the negative voices don't get to take up any more precious space. I'm not waiting until Monday. I'm starting RIGHT NOW! Thank you. x

💚🖤 I needed to hear this! 🙏🏻 I am 130 pounds overweight and I need to start putting myself first. Thank you for sharing your journey.

I came here by accident ..... and I didn't expect to watch a video that will almost 100% tell my life .... I'm proud of you, I know that telling all this was not easy, especially coping with such a lot of shi..... the more I'm proud of you. I know I'm just an anonymous voice in space but I wish you everything you need to be happy.. I know that at some point I will be in the same place as you. Thanks for the hopes

❤Thank you Carla. I am so glad to have this video show up on my RU-vid feed. I’m on a journey to lose weight (again). I really appreciate your story and strength.

Thank you so much for sharing your story, you are beautiful, brave and strong. I too need to lose about 70 pounds and just thinking about it seems impossible, but listening to your story helps me believe that it is possible.

This video made me realize there's much more to myself and things I haven't discovered...acknowledging the trauma we endure and realizing that my body is screaming for help ...thank you for your words! 💚🖤

When u said u had the epiphany when riding in the car "that u didn't know who u were".... OMG.... that keeps playing over and over in my head....I didn't grow up overweight but have been struggling with it for the last 25 yrs..... I know I binge eat...but have never thought of that specifically being tied to trauma in my life....I put on a happy face and push through....it's time to stop and deal with things.... Because that's what I "see" is the weight.... Lose that and I'll be fine...oh boy, was I wrong.... Very transparent video...thank you

💚🖤I’m sobbing, thank you so much I have been going to therapy and everything else trying so hard to be better in every way but I was so close to give up then I accidentally clicked on this video and I am so happy I did You have impacted my life. Thank you

I listened to the whole video and would have stayed for more if it were longer. You’re a captivating story teller. I appreciate your accountability and honesty. I’m going on a walk now :)

💚🖤 this was like a mirror. Almost scary how similar muy struggles are to yours Thank you for sharing so bravely and openly

This video spoke to me on a level I can't fully comprehend yet. The last five to three minutes, I was literally sat speechless listening to you, it felt like you were speaking directly to my very soul. I've already managed to convince myself on some level to be kind to myself and to take all of these changes slow, and I've also managed to lose some weight in a healthy manner, but the part about listening to the voices in your head and learning to identify them for the liars they are was lifechanging to me. The next time I feel like eating past being satisfied - something I struggle with to this day - I think I'll just try to ask myself why. Thank you so much for this, I admire you

❤a red heart for your compassion and honesty. I’m 64 and just now realize one thing…I need to stop blaming everyone else for my actions. Thank you.

What a gut wrenching revelation! Bless you for being so real!

I really didn't expect this to make me cry but I resonated with this so much. This video gave me hope, it's like seeing that there is a light at the end of the tunnel!

Thank you for sharing your story. So much resonated with me, it’s been an eye opener and I’m 54 years old! 💚🖤💚🖤💚

💚🖤 thank you for your courage to speak your truth that resonates with so many of us. As I was watching your video I heard words that expressed so much of what I was feeling and didn’t know how to express. Thank you Carla for helping shine a light on a new journey that awaits.

I am riveted listening to your description of the light switch flip that led you to realize that you had every reason and right to love yourself. So powerful - and it makes absolute sense that this is the state in which fundamental change can take place and stay in place. Once you banish that negative voice that was not even yours, and let in the loving, gentle, spirited and self-worthy voice that is you, then indeed the steps you next take are assured to get you to where you aim to go. I want to take this in. It is the absolute truth. I just turned 66 last week and when I do a self-assessment, I recognize that for some time now, I have been saying similar loving and supportive things to myself - and why not? No one can be a better me than me - and the net result is that it is causing me to strive for my best health and my best outlook. And that is a great thing to believe at any age! 💚🖤💚

Thank you so much for sharing your story. I’ve struggled with my weight my entire life, and I genuinely never attributed it to trauma or negative self talk. Now I’m starting to think that the things in my life affected me more than I understand. Wishing you and your family the best ♥️

New subscriber, you spoke nothing but the truth. I can relate to you 100%. Food addiction, anxiety, depression, not knowing my worth till this year. I learned to heal from within. Not listening to that voice from inside. Once I figured that out I started losing weight. Thank you for sharing! 💞

💚🖤 I keep thinking exactly like you did, “Once I lose the weight everything else will fall into place.” I know exactly why I’m the weight I am yet I hide that and say it’s hormones or residual work stress. I really need to stop that and start dealing with the real reason, or the work I’ve put into myself to lose 40lbs since October will come back like a bad smell. This is the first video I’ve watched of yours and I’m so glad the algorithm brought it onto my feed. It’s the sign and push I needed to finally address the entire mental side (not only the side of that I don’t mind hiding) of my weight issues. I know it’s going to be rough, but seeing how you dealt with yours, and the fact that it didn’t break you, helps me to know there is hope in facing the truth and working to overcome it. Thanks so much for sharing your story, struggles and strength. It’s appreciated more than you could ever imagine. 🙌🏼

Carla ... thank you so much for this incredibly open and honest video .... I have just started on BS 4 days ago and already you are my role model ... your life mirrors mine to scarey proportions. In one years time I will be posting my own video of how I have lost half my body weight with BS 💚🖤

💚🖤 Thank you very much for sharing. I also have been overweight since about 7, went through yo-yo dieting, and am now on the journey to lose weight while teaching my brain to be in less anxiety/survival mode and more in a healthy space. I am about 30pounds (13.6kg) on my way to a goal of 120 pounds (54.4kg) journey. I can say as a mom who also had an emergency C-section, it's much more emotionally difficult than dealing with the physical healing.

this was already going to be one of my favourite videos here, and then you mentioned morning pages. they have seriously saved me!

You are so incredibly brave and beautiful. You’ve made yourself completely open and vulnerable to help others. Beyond inspiration. Completely raw and put your past shame out there that we can relate to. I am touched and have a lot to think about.

Such a brave and honest account of your journey! Good on you for sharing your journey to connect with others who have been there and those who are trying to find their way. As a GenXer, I marvel at the openness of younger generations. Good things come from shining a light unto darkness. Owning your truth is powerful.

💚🖤 listening to you tell your story (this time with a few additions), I’ve just experienced my own realization. I have been aware of three significant things in my early life, but hadn’t understood how they fit and paved the way for addiction and morbid obesity. Hearing your story, they just fell into place. I can see clearly now, and I am able to pinpoint when I first began hearing that destructible voice in my head and also understand why it was able to take root and flourish. Still a lot of work ahead of me, but a part of “my head” just got properly adjusted. (And yes, I’ve already made note of it) Thank you Carla, for your courage, vulnerability and willingness to share in hopes of helping those still trapped inside layers of undesirable fat.

💚🖤 I discovered you on insta during the week, I wasn’t even looking for a channel like yours but when I saw it I had to know more about you. Such an incredible story. Thank you for sharing. I had so many issues with food in my late teens and early 20s. Over the years I’ve improved but I’ve only truly started to lose weight in the last 18-20 months. It’s been slow. A pound or so a month. But I’m so much happier in myself. I didn’t even have a whole lot to lose but I feel a lot better. I haven’t binged in almost 2 years. I’ve found so much peace. Them food demons still exist under the surface but I check in with myself often and now I’ve a much better relationship with food and myself. I’ll look forward to watching the rest of your videos and your journey. You are so inspiring. Sending love and appreciation from Cork! X

I have to say you are a brave young woman, I admire you speaking out. I, too, have been dieting since a very young age, I ended up at close to 300 lbs. I am older and I have to tell you, I got sick and tired of the medications increasing. I had Bariatric Surgery, Feb. 2021. I am down 105 lbs. and working out 4x per week. The Journey(s) seem similar and yet different. I was shopping today for my husband and saw myself in a mirror and was so surprised at the changes. This is a Journey, a life Journey and I, only speaking for myself, I can not go back to being a heavy person. My goal within a year, is to have skin removal surgery. I have been putting off watching this. I am glad I did. This is a huge help, knowing that I am not alone.

Im so glad you were brave enough to tell your story. This has been a huge help and I really appreciate it! Im so grateful for you!

💚🖤 oh my goodness! I had to watch this in 3 parts as there was just overwhelming flow of emotions for me. You are describing everything that I have gone through and still going through. Your video is incredibly valuable. Right at the end when you are speaking the mirror behind you is like a gold aura! That actually spoke volumes to me! Wow! Thank you ! 💚🖤

💚🖤 Thank you for sharing this so vulnerable and powerful path. Love you Carla!

💚🖤 wow, Carla. Thank you so much for sharing your journey - the pain and beauty alike. I am inspired by your courage, insight, and kindness. I feel that wonderful feeling of having just had a vulnerable conversation with a friend after watching your video. Thank you 🙏

Amazing, I learned so much more in these 45 mins than in years in therapy. Thank you for showing up to share. You give me hope.

💚🖤 Your story is beyond powerful. I thank you for sharing it with us, you have and will continue to help so many around the world. I have already been helped and will share this with others. Only found you yesterday, this is the third video of yours I’ve watched. You are an incredible person. You should write a book!!

I feel deeply seen. Knowing the mechanics of how to lose weight is so often not enough. Hearing and validating the emotional side of it is everything. Seeing your story and how you transformed trauma, pain, and abandonment, into love, kindness, compassion, and freedom is life-giving. The beauty of what is on the other side is not just a thin or healthy body, but also a more confident and emotionally regulated person more ready to deeply enjoy life. Thank you for sharing this :)

💚🖤All I can say right now is WOW! I am grieving right now over having to say goodbye to my dog. I don't know how I came across your video but everything you said hit home and I went back to when I was a child and so much of the pain I had over the years. I thought I was better and I am but I see now that I could use some help and that I use food to handle the pain. I have a therapist that I used to help get through grief in the past but I think I need to talk with her regarding my relationship with food and my addiction. Which I just realize I must have. Thank you for sharing such a personal journey and I wish you the best and pray that you continue to live the life you deserve and feel happy as you should.

This video is pure gold! I felt your emotions through the screen. Thank you so much for choosing to be vulnerable with us while encouraging us 🤍

💚🖤 this story is so familiar 😢I went through a lot of what you have not exactly but enough to be very relatable and inspiring. Still trying to overcome the weight and bad thoughts.

💚🖤 crying listening to you and just processing it because I feel like you are giving words to my inner turmoil.

💚🖤 Thank you for being so honest with us. I can relate have have never heard a version of a story that has made me feel emotion this way. Everything you said touched me as I have felt pain that same pain my whole life. My parents had their own pain and couldn’t be there fully so I looked for love elsewhere and got pregnant at 13 and have had depression ever since. I became nothing but the stupid teenage pregnant girl whom no one could love anymore but I’ve also felt that way for as long as I can remember, when I was very little but this time during and after they showed their disgust and disappointment to me every day. I’m 48 and will be 49 tomorrow and these feelings of I’m not good enough are still in my head. I’m on medication but it doesn’t seem to help. To give an example of what my childhood was like I was in therapy after I had my son. My therapist wanted to have a family session with my parents but I was told they don’t need to go because I was the crazy one. I was very hurt by that and many things from them but I needed to tell my dad that his eldest daughter from another mother molested me when I was 7 years old. Years later (when I was 44) my father told me to just let it go. It happens to a lot of people. I was crushed yet again. I am very overweight and do not have any kind of support from family and I’m to embarrassed to talk to my friends. I’m the girl who pretends she’s skinny in hopes people will like me but when I look in the mirror I feel so disgusting and horrible about myself. There are many times I want to end my life and wonder why I’m here if no one can love me and I must be not lovable. My mother even turned my other sister against me and she doesn’t live in the same state. My sister would call to tell me off until she heard my side of the story then say oh ok. But then my mom would do it again and again so I just stopped talking to her. I’ve done my best with my parents and my son is no longer in my life and I’m alone. I’ve always been alone. Sometimes I feel like it’s best though because no one can put me down and I can try to have a clear head but that’s when I start to eat. There’s so much more than this that is so wrong. I want to thank you for this. I will keep rewatching this when I feel this way which is normally everyday. I hope to start this journey to happiness. Thank you 💚🖤

I love this video Carla! I’ve watched it a couple times. I don’t even have *that* much weight to lose. But the way you word your experience is so beautiful and I relate to so much of your story. ❤

💚🖤❤️‍🔥you are an incredible human, a strong woman, and a builder of a house you call your body. You did that with courage and an open mind. Your story is inspiring in so many ways and levels. I’m in my 40s, and could easily said could’ve, would’ve, should’ve. That doesn’t serve me. Today, this moment, being able to relate to you and countless others like us, I am drawing the line in the sand. I will never see this number again.

💚🖤Thank you for this. The value of your sharing this is immense. This resonates with me so profoundly. I remember vividly walking down the hallway at school for my first day of first grade, thinking, 'My teachers won't like me because I'm fat.' A six-year-old. Breaks my heart. Lived with anorexia in high school. Of course it was an expression of years of trauma, shame, and pain. You are so right--'I thought I had shame because I was fat, but I was fat because I had shame.' Thank you for being on my team as I get better and better at acknowledging the voice and knowing just what it is: Lies. Peace, love, and light...and best of health to you and yours.

Watching this made my cry. It hits so close to home. Thank you , thank you, thank you so much for sharing this. It touched me so much 💚🖤

HI Carla, thank you so much for sharing your journey. I don't think I have ever encountered anyone on youtube this honest and I believe because you have confronted your "mountains" that you are able to be successful not just in your weight loss but clearly your life as well. God bless

💚🖤 Thank you for being so open and giving me hope...I'm still on the other side, but seeing you makes me believe it is possible to get out of this cycle.

Thank you SOOO MUCH for putting out your vulnerability and your journey out in the world! I am at a place where I have been having lots of a-ha moments (through therapy) about my body and my relationship with food. I have been overweight my entire life, and there has been so much shame around my body and my identity. And slowly, that's changing. So glad to have found your videos :)))

Your mental health videos are so useful, we can all find pieces of us in you, pieces of our stories in yours. You inspire me to self-reflect. Thank you for being so brave. Plus your aesthetic Is beautiful 💚

I have never come across a story so close to mine. You’re a blessing for your courage and openness ♥️

💚🖤 I'm crying now. Thank you for sharing your story. I heard of you through Alan Roberts. I want to be free of this pain so much. I don't know how much I can take. You spoke so eloquently and your accent is gorgeous too.

14:12 "Alcohol helped me with the outside world, food helped me with my inside world". That hit me a little too hard but that's exactly what I did in my late teens/early 20s to cope with social anxiety, low self esteem, and stress. Also dealt with terrible relationships and dangerous situations as a form of self destruction and self hatred. It took almost another decade to overcome it but I'm glad the algorithm recommended this to me. Definitely needed a little validation that my experience wasn't uncommon and that it CAN be overcome longterm

💚🖤 Carla, your openness and vulnerability is admirable. Telling your whole story can really help others relate and acknowledge their own struggles. You are such a beautiful human being for sharing your story to help others. You brought tears to my eyes. I truly appreciate you. 💕

💚🖤 thank you for this wonderful video! I have so much love and respect for you. I need to lose almost 150 lbs and struggle with anxiety, sugar addiction, and destroyed satiety markers.

💚🖤 thank you for being so transparent... I've been overweight my entire life and I definitely feel like it's held me back from living happily... I thought about therapy but I never went through with it. Listening to your story makes me want to really try it. 🙏🏾

💚🖤 Never before has a youtube video had me in tears, especially towards the end, it felt like you were talking directly to me. Thank you so much for having the courage to put yourself out there for people like me.

💚🖤 Carla you are such a beautiful soul. I am so happy that you had the awakening that you did and were able to recognise and break the shackles built around you. I came across your 5 non negotiables video first and it’s just what I needed to get up and start walking. I listened to the rest of that one and then this video on my walk. I had been procrastinating for weeks! Sending so much love ❤️. Thankyou for being the change and the inspiration for so many of us . X

Carla, your story has had a huge impact on me in ways I can’t explain with words. Thank you from the bottom of my heart for sharing your personal journey. It will be a ripple in the pond that reaches so many of us and helps us start our own healings. You are a beautiful inspiring soul. 💚 🖤

You are such a brave person to bare your soul like this in front of all us semi-anonymous people. I am so humbled by you.

You’re incredible! I can’t tell you how much your honesty and openness is going to help people. I feel like you wrote my story (right down to your birth story!). Much love from Newfoundland, Canada!

Thank you for sharing your personal story, for being unafraid to share it…. I believe you will help so many with this one segment…. I have shared it with my adult children 4 daughters & 1 son! God bless you, Gloria

Oh my goodness!! What you went through, sweetie!? Congratulations on your precious little boy!! You are beautiful inside and out!!❤️

You look fantastic. You ought to be congratulated. Thanks for telling us your story. It’s sad. Glad you rose above the trials.