How Outer Wilds Shook Me To My Core

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This video does not contain spoilers for the Echoes of the Eye DLC.
Hey y'all. This is a video about my experience playing Outer Wilds. It showed me things I never could have expected a video game would show me, and I highly suggest you give the game a shot before watching this video all my the way through, as I cover the entire story from beginning to end. Heed the warning in Part 1.
In this video, I discuss a deeply personal matter that may affect how or when content is produced in the future. Please be respectful when responding to this. If you want to see this portion without Outer Wilds spoilers you can navigate to it use this chapters below (25:41 TW: Loss)
Chapters:
0:00 Part 1 - Curiosity
3:28 Part 2 - Learning
15:19 Part 3 - Application
23:07 Final Voyage
25:41 TW: Loss
32:06 Spoilers Here
34:50 How Outer Wilds Shakes You
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@Flemmonade 2 года назад

Thank you so much for this video! The saddest part about Outer Wilds is that there's no way to experience it again, but this video feels like it lets me do just that. It felt like I was sitting down with a good friend and listening to the unique stories and experiences they had with the game! It's a video I feel like I've been subconsciously begging for forever, so thank you!

@wizawhat 2 года назад

My goal is always to connect with the viewer just like that, so thank you!

@NikolajLepka 2 года назад

Give it 2-3 years. Hopefully by then you'll have forgotten the details, only remembering the broad strokes. At least, that's what it was like for me, which has let me go back into the game and relive it

@mikeman7918 Год назад

That really is a big part of it. Outer Wilds is a game about loss, and once it's over it's over. The first time you play, the world feels exciting and new and alive. But when you come back to it, it feels like reliving a memory. The end of the universe in-game really feels like the end of a universe.

@NAJALU Год назад

Check out Soviet Womble's playthrough if you haven't already! Similar vibes.

@xjamiec 2 года назад

It's the kind of thing that makes you glad you stopped and smelled the pine trees along the way, you know? - Gabbro

@YaBoiBigNutz 2 месяца назад

Ahh, while I didn't end up "winning" the role, I auditioned for Gabbro for the Voice Acting mod and recorded that line many times and it and a lot of lines really stuck with me way more after literally reading them out loud

@ThatOneLadyOverHere 2 года назад

Once I learned what happens I thought the goal of the game was to stop it and then was absolutely devastated when I started to realize that wasn't going to happen. Then I just wanted to be able to lead other characters so they could experience something important to them in at least one timeline. (Specifically Reibeck, he just had to go down a wall and across a bridge and he would see the ancient civilization! I know he was scared, but it was a pretty safe trip before the bridge is broken.)

@RiKSh4w Год назад

I got to that place. I went to Gabbro and while the game couldn't process his response I talked about it with him which was really me talking to a version of him inside my head. It helped but it was still such a difficult place to go to mentally.

@sleeper6548 3 месяца назад

I guess I was the only "selfish" player, as i got spoiled about how the sun has no stopping, so it became my life goal to see the eye, seriously the motivation to keep playing was "I wanna see that Eye" and I was not disappointed

@25meip 5 дней назад

@@sleeper6548 Don't think that. An argument could be made that those insisting on trying to stop the sun are the ones acting selfishly, out of a sense of trying to control things. The game is pretty unambiguously set up for you to want to experience the excitement and wonder of all the other explorers before you, so that you will emulate them and understand their experiences- which isn't selfish. Just my two cents

@wizawhat 2 года назад

Hey everyone. If you're interested in playing Outer Wilds and want to hold off from watching this video due to spoilers, I made what I think is a pretty important announcement at 25:43. It may affect how often content releases on this channel in the future.

@rawky1986 2 года назад

Good on you for having the courage man. Lost my dad in 2020 right as the pandemic started. Been trying to find any sort of feeling but it's all very locked up. Your message unlocked a small bit of it. Hope you're well, and your mum is as comfortable as she can be. From mine to yours, all the best.

@innodationproduction 2 года назад

If you haven't played echoes yet, you should. Face the fear and traverse the darkness to find truth in the light.

@rawky1986 2 года назад

@@innodationproduction of the eye?

@avsbes98 9 месяцев назад

About that, i think i owe you an apology. When you said that your Mom had recently decided to switch to Hospice Care and that thus all Hope was gone, i didn't feel compassion for you or sadness on your behalf or anything like that. I felt Jealousy. Because, as stupid as this sounds, you had the "opportunity" to loose hope. My Father, someone who was probably the healthiest person i ever knew (he literally once in my lifetime was sick for two days) got his "tumorous growth" (not sure if that's the correct english term) Diagnosis a day before his 50th Birthday. I was 15. We tried it first with surgery as the doctors werent even sure it was a malicious growth (cancer) at first. From the time of the diagnosis to the surgery (three weeks later), it had quadrupled in size and they couldn't cut it all out, so we switched to Chemotherapy. It helped slow the growth, but it was too late. My Dad died just seven months after that diagnosis, suddenly and without any significant signs beforehand. To this day i ask myself if it could have been avoided, had we immediately started with Chemotherapy and i still feel guilty, because he asked each of us their opinion and i was scared of the dangers of Chemotherapy. That's why i was jealous. Because it felt like you had gotten, what was taken from me: A chance to loose hope and come to terms with the inevtiable. I also think that this "missed opportunity" lead to my poor mental health in the last years and even still today, among other problems a significant fear of loss, going as far as waking up multiple times in the middle of the night to make sure my mom was still alive, when my mental health was doing really bad. I am slowly recovering but it's still not easy, especially because it's extremely hard for me to talk about this. It's much easier to write. Thus again, i want to apologize. Jealousy isn't exactly the appropriate reaction when someone tells you that a loved one is going to die. Initially i wanted to write here that, while you couldn't help me, i hope that you could help someone else, but writing all this down, letting it all out actually helped. At least a little bit. So thank you and i hope you can help more people in the future. Or even better: I hope that we'll one day find a way that noone will even need this kind of help anymore, because we have beaten cancer once and for all. Thank you, and i'm sorry.

@chijaruable 3 месяца назад

@@avsbes98I just read this text you posted 6 months ago. I hope your doing better ❤️‍🩹

@MrFreakRite Год назад

"as the credits hit, I wept" Me too bro. Me too. I cried in front of my son and told him this was the best in gaming I've ever experienced.

@blackroserevan6939 2 года назад

My grandpa just recently passed due to bone cancer. My uncle tried to OD the next day. And my father had a silent heart attack the following day. My friend recently told me to play outer wilds because it’s such a great game, and I love mysteries so I should love this game. I didn’t expect for it to teach me, about letting go. That it’s okay. I’ve always been someone who has despised change. I hate the thought of it. But this game challenged me to think a different way. And it showed me that change isn’t all bad. And that sometimes there is hope in loss. This game helped me through my grief of my grandfathers passing. Not a lot of games can do that. Spend every second with your mom. Whether it be a board game, tv show, or maybe simply making her favorite meal or telling her about your day. Hug your mom for me. Cause I never got to say or hug my grandpa before it took him. Thank you for sharing your thoughts on the game, and I know sharing your pain wasn’t easy but thank you. We are hear for you, and we love you. ❤️❤️❤️

@lejunmin7162 Год назад

I feel compelled to leave a comment here because I was literally weeping when this video ended. Thank you for sharing your most intimate experience with us. I wasn't expecting anything so personal, so soft and so timid when I clicked on this video, wishing to entertain myself a bit before plunging back into work, and before realizing that my fear and timidity of the notion of losing my cancered grandma could resonate so much with someone else. I keep dreaming of her these days in a rosy and retrospective way, myself being thousands miles away from her hospice in another country. And I have to admit that it's the same specious "hope" that calcifies my inner vast emotions. Your confession gives me strength, and like Outer Wilds, not the immediate exhilaration but a deeper crooning sound, soft but solacing, telling me that everyone should lives their life to the fullest in their own solar system before the sun demises. Thank you for everything!

@wizawhat Год назад

I'm sorry for your loss, it must be very hard being so far away. Thank you so much for the kind words and I hope you continue to find solace

@7REY1017 Год назад

“It’s tempting to linger in this moment while every possibility still exists. But unless they are collapsed by an observer, they will never be more than possibilities.” I think this quote at the very end of the game sums things up very nicely. When you’re not certain you want to move on, Solanum gives you these words. And I think this can be applied to your situation and many others. Thank you for sharing something so deep. I felt the same way when I played the game, and that reflection into yourself is the reason this game is amazing. You can run, and waste valuable time forever. Until you’re out of that time. Until you face things head on, and face the inevitable, your fears will never be anything more than possibilities. Time will never stop for anyone. But the journey and the way you spend that time is ultimately the most important part. Nothing lasts forever, and that’s ok. We may never get to experience some things that we wish to, and we may miss out on things we so desperately want to see or hold on to. But the important part is that we’re here right now, and we’re given this time and opportunity of life, love, fear, and even death as a gift. Your favorite movie would feel pointless without an ending. Your day at work can feel meaningless until you clock out and go on doing what you want to. And life would be meaningless without death. Uncertainty is in all things, but facing that discomfort is what makes everything you do in this life worth it. Thank you again for this video. This game is truly one of a kind!

@Nikolai0169 2 года назад

To me the message of Outer Wilds is this: Death is inevitable. No matter how hard you try, no matter how much you learn, you can not change this one fact of life. One way or another, death will arrive. But it doesnt have to be the end.

@DamianSzajnowski Год назад

More like a simple: enjoy the journey, the destination is secondary, to me.

@bsh819 Год назад

@@DamianSzajnowski ^ What a Feldspar here, amirite?

@bsh819 Год назад

@@DamianSzajnowski Okay.. maybe more of a Gabbro on second thought.

@doublespoonco Год назад

This, to me, is the purpose of the sun station in the game. For many (probably most) players, the key goal of the game is to stop the sun going supernova - to save everyone - and this is built up through the plans of the nomai: the sun station causes the supernova so it can be turned off! But you get there and it failed. The sun is going to explode (you cannot stop a natural death of a star) it is inevitable. It is such a good twist I love this game

@tekbox7909 Год назад

@@doublespoonco Yeah it preys on the players belief that you always are the hero that saves the day like in every other game. It's subversion on a massive scale.

@ThatOneLadyOverHere 2 года назад

My grandpa is on hospice. It's definitely not the same as what you are going through for me, but it's rough and I hope everything goes smoothly for your family. ❤️ My mom would relate more to you, especially since she is caring for him. But it is rough especially because he just wants to move on already and my mom doesn't like seeing him with so little motivation for life. Mostly I hurt for my mom.

@rodlimadiniz Год назад

Thank you for sharing your story. The discovery in the Sun Station is one of acceptance. You learn there that the game is not about overcoming destruction and preventing loss, but about accepting it. Understanding how frail we are. After I got the powered core, and shut down the Ash Twin Project, and as the music started playing, I immediately understood that the safety net below me, that of sending my memories back in time, had been removed. I understood that the next time I died would be the last. And then I thought: "Just like in real life." And that thought, and the weight of the whole situation, accompanied me for the rest of my journey, and it's something no other game managed to come close to.

@BishamonS Год назад

37:55 it was one year ago that you made this video. I sit at 2:30 in the morning watching this video having completed my story with outer wilds. I think about how you're doing in this moment, if you are healing from the loss, or still reeling from it. I think about my wife is sleeping in bed, knowing she has to be up in 3 1/2 hours to catch a flight for work. I think about how infinitely small we are, and that death is inevitable. And that's OK. Because in that inevitability, and existential dread that haunted me every waking hour for years of my life, I came out what outer wilds, realizing that it's OK. I felt my heart race, as I watched the universe die despite everything I tried. But in that death came music and new life. And I wasn't alone. I had those that I had gotten to know, and in that nonchalant way, they greeted the end in the beginning. I cried so hard. My face burned from the tears and my cheeks, a little sore. My wife didn't understand, she didn't understand why I was crying so hard. And I didn't have the words to describe that feeling of peace and love that washed over me. I hope that wherever you are in life right now, know that some random guy at 2:30 in the morning, watched your video, and found a kinship in you. He thought about you, hoping that you were at peace, that your fear had run its course, that you were able to smile again. Thank you for hearing me without even hearing a word. I know this is a long comment, and I apologize. So what I gain from outer wilds is that even in the inevitability of death, I can smile and love, and even if for only a fleeting moment, find peace.

@wizawhat Год назад

Thank you for such a thoughtful comment.

@govanni2224 Год назад

reading this makes me think about how this game makes everyone want to talk about their experience . I don't know about you but Im almost angry that I can't put into words what the game makes me feel like

@BishamonS Год назад

@@govanni2224 at times things can feel ineffable. I think there's some beauty in that. That means it was so powerful of an emotion that it became ineffable but you understood it.

@Fbleh 2 года назад

Out of everyong I've seen talking about Outer Wilds, yours is the only analysis that I think got what is truly special about it. What makes Outer Wilds special is the fact that through the complete freedom it gives to the player, it manages to become a mirror into one's own mind. As a player searches for a meaning to all the information around them, they naturally start to see the game world as a sort of perfect metaphor for whatever they're thinking about at the moment. It's truly magical, and a kind of feeling that no other game I have ever played has ever come close to replicating.

@jonahweiss2124 2 года назад

The other one that i think conveys something similar is razbutens video on the topic, but no one else pointed out how the game becomes a mirror for your own issues.

@Dolosify 2 года назад

Wow... I've gone through something so similar and I think its the reason Outer Wilds hit me so hard. I lost my mother to cancer when I was 16. I'm 24 now and still feel it but after playing this masterpiece it definitely helped and made me understand that finality is a normality. Thank you for sharing your story and making this amazing video. Wishing you the best

@MoonSpiritChannel 2 года назад

Man, I may regret being spoiled by seeing this, but dammit Wiz, you are just a great storyteller! I just have to hear the stories! And I feel for you about your mom, Wiz. My mom had throat cancer and she luckily conquered it, but her throat is a mess and has to feed using a tube mostly. Thank you for being candid with us, dude. We are here for you. Now if you'll excuse me, I'm gonna find a hammer and erase the spoilers from my head. *BONK*

@wizawhat 2 года назад

I'm really glad your mom is okay man, thanks for the kind words

@MoonSpiritChannel 2 года назад

@@wizawhat *sending hugs *

@graythornian 2 года назад

This vid is special ♥️ I am sorry that you have had to deal with what has been going on, but am so happy you have people to lean on.

@greafgar 2 года назад

I wish I could watch this video, but I still need to play Outer Wilds :P

@wizawhat 2 года назад

All good! I'd rather you play it then come watch this later

@rawky1986 2 года назад

don't wait, just do

@natasharebelo6819 9 месяцев назад

I finished this game last night and now I'm watching videos about to know how others felt while playing this absolute masterpiece. I was not expecting this tho. Every video I watched touches on an existential matter and emotional rollercoasters, but in a more generic way. This is one is so personal, so beautiful and so painful. I'm very sorry for your mom. I'm so happy you allowed yourself to be vulnerable and find comfort in your friends. I'm so glad I got to watch this amazing video, with great storytelling and filled with raw and real emotions. Thank you for this.

@Deadspace1996 Год назад

You're experience with your mom reminded me a bit about when my grandparents were suffering with Alzheimers and Dementia.

@johneast9190 Год назад

You are one of the most genuine, and truly human youtubers I have ever seen. Your relatable, your empathetic, your very well spoken, your content is well thought, and your skill of editing is phenomenal. You remind me that every one has struggles, many the same as my own, and many... many I wouldn't even know how to tackle on my own. At the same time you are a bastion of hope reminding us all that we don't have to go through anything alone. I'm soo sorry about your mother. I'm a complete stranger to you, and yet I feel deeply for you and your situation. I myself am 26 years old. I have a wife and 2 children. We have gone through our own trials and tribulations. I have grown numb to a lot of things through out my life so far as just a survival skill to just pull myself up and go through the day just to keep surviving. I may not be able to give you anything more than just my praise and encouragement. I have liked and subscribed to you, and I hope you never give up. I cant even begin to explain how this video made me feel. Just wow... Keep it up... and hopefully ill be seeing you around. Thank you for this video. Yes I love the outer wilds but sir you shook me too my core in 38:11.

@wizawhat Год назад

Thank you so much for your support and kind words!

@dafox6337 Год назад

Hey Wizawhat ! I don't even know where to begin. Your video spoke so deeply to me. It's been two month since I finished Outer Wilds and I can't seem to let this experience go away. This game shook me, brought tears to my eyes, tears of joy, nostalgia, relief, melancholia. It is strange how this game could reach to so many deep emotions. But I must say that what I liked the most here, was how you approached this video. The emotional way of dealing with this content rather than just doing a scientific analysis was very touching. And I don't really know how to say this but it made a connection. I could relate to so many things you said, not only about the game but on a human scale too; the way of dealing with emotions, notably fear and axiety, the will to let yourself be vulnerable in front of others, to accept this part of you. It is almost as if I was speaking to myself for a little bit. Anyway, maybe it is a little bit silly, but I wanted to share this feeling with you. I wanted to thank you for sharing your experience so honestly. I wanted to wish you the best going through all these adventures life has in store for us, good or bad. And to let you know that what you do and who you are can even reach to a random person like me, probably miles and miles away from you, but still in the same Solar System, crying over the same game ! ;) cheers man, I wish you all the best

@wizawhat Год назад

Not silly at all! I'm glad we can share this experience together. It's why I made the video! Thank you so much for your comment ☺️

@plantagominor722 2 года назад

I cheered and laughed plenty hearing about your journey through OW and also felt your pain. For a lot of people, the experience of playing OW brings up what grieves us most - whatever's most raw. And very strangely, in a lot of cases, helps us accept it. Or so I gather from hearing various friends and streamers talk about it. Thank you for sharing your version of this in a really vulnerable way with all of us.

@zeemod1556 2 года назад

Powerful stuff. Happy you got to share your experience! Echoes of the Eye is great too by the way. It doesn't cheaping the original's ending in case you're too afraid to lose that impact.

@ZargX76 2 года назад

Probably my favorite thing to watch on RU-vid are video essays like this. It's essays like this with so much heart, emotion, beauty, and meaning that truly resonate with me. You've truly created something special here and I thank you for being willing to share it with all of us. Consider me a forever fan and I wish you and your mom all the best. ❤️

@bilskibrandon 2 года назад

Genuine strife and emotion is something that no one wants to talk about. This was a beautiful video. Hang in there. ❤

@Yamartim 2 года назад

I remember catching one of the first streams of you playing the game when you weren't really feeling super sure about it, seeing this now is cool

@wizawhat 2 года назад

That's honestly crazy, it's been so long since then. Glad to see you here.

@QuestingRefuge 2 года назад

I'm so glad this game gave you that sense of being heard for all you're going through right now. Thank you for sharing this. It definitely helps even if I can't directly relate, I think we all have our stories of loss. Looking forward to checking out the rest of the video once I get to play. the game

@rockymtnjeepgeek 11 месяцев назад

As soon as you said it reflected back your pain, my tears flowed. I've always wondered how many others had a similar experience. Beautiful stuff. I've never played a game that's literally enriched my life. Thank you for this.

@kingofdefense 2 года назад

Hope the DLC makes you as happy as the base game

@Exel3nce Год назад

there is no chance it wont make anyone as happy if not more happy than the base game. its magnificent

@Table53 2 года назад

I saw Eurothug4000 share this video on Twitter and clicked because Outer Wilds Didn't realise the video was about 5 minutes old! So I'm chucking a comment in straight away for the algorithm

@MechaSlinky 2 года назад

I just want to send you, your mom and the rest of your family lots of love. I wish I could magically fix everything. Still, thank you for sharing; this video is immensely beautiful, inspiring, and turned out to be exactly what I needed today.

@devluz Год назад

Thank you that was a great video. I always come back to Outer Wilds when someone close to me dies and it helped me a lot dealing with it. I no longer see death as this scary crushing defeat but rather as the end of a great journey.

@toby8044 2 года назад

I love how so many people had such a profound, personal experience while playing Outer Wilds. But it's a feeling you only experience once. And I hate that I can't replay it - I'm left with a lingering feeling which I can't quite explain. But I'm glad you made this video because it's the second best thing with Outer Wilds - being able to share your experience with others.

@dustinthompson8600 2 года назад

Thank you for sharing this. It's honestly one of the most touching essays I've seen.

@teyyyyya Год назад

I wept, too. I lost my Dad, my favourite person, to cancer when I was 13. He fought it, the best he could. Some fights can’t be won. I think sometimes we can mistake resignation for acceptance. I don’t know if I’ll ever be able to say I’ve fully accepted my loss. A part of me will always think of what could have been. But… Well: “It's tempting to linger in this moment, while every possibility still exists. But unless they are collapsed by an observer, they will never be more than possibilities.” The trap of ‘What-Ifs’, of wishing for kinder fates, are a little like dreaming of possibilities after the fact. When it’s already been collapsed, and there is no going back. I resigned myself to my Dad’s passing, unfair and arbitrary as it was -as the universe IS- a long time ago. However, I think the Outer Wilds helped me move a step closer to genuine ‘acceptance’. Your video is a part of that, too. Thank you for making me understand *why* Outer Wilds hit me so hard on emotional level. I wrote this while rather emotional, so I apologize for if it makes little sense. Just… Thank you. I’m sorry for what happened to your mother, to all of you, your entire family unit. Thank you for sharing your experience with the world, for the chance of it helping people like me.

@Equinox_Fox 2 года назад

Top ten games that I've played in the last decade. Little things about toying with the physics, the experience overall and my facsination with space. Fantastic game I wish I could play anew again.

@NikolajLepka 2 года назад

No other game in existence has made me as terrified as Outer Wilds. It's the most perfect horror game without even being one. The sensation as you go into Dark Bramble for the first time, the overwhelming nature of the raging storm within Giant's Deep, the ever looming black hole on Brittle Hollow, and the claustrophobic caverns of Ember Twin. All of it a perfect symphony of cosmic horror: fear of the unknown

@Tofubraut Год назад

I just finished Outer Wilds today and I just wanted to watch some nice videos on it, now I'm sitting here crying but it just feels right! Thank you so much for sharing your experience, both you and your mom are very strong and she has raised a very loving and kind person! My dad also has cancer, and for the moment he is doing fine but I totally get you on that constant feeling of dread because you never know how long it's gonna be fine for, and for me it's been especially hard to even have feelings of hope because I'm always scared I will be disappointed if its wrong. Nonetheless, I'm still grateful for all the time and even the tiniest sparks of hope that exist in our lives. Outer Wilds is truly amazing.

@SpittingFire 10 месяцев назад

This video made me tear up as I thought about my similar experiences with parents and cancer. Incredible work, Brother. ❤

@israelch100 2 года назад

Man this is such a powerfull and personal Video, I loved every second of it, it was masterfully crafted, just like the game itself, there were a lot of details on it that made so much sense at the end. Im sure your mom is so proud of you.

@kingpinetree332 Год назад

I’m so sorry about your mom. I lost my grandma to cancer back in 2019 so, even though it’s definitely not the same as losing a mom, I can relate to that pain. Though I think something that’s important to remember in these situations is the time you had with them. You’re mom is a badass for fighting for 12 years while working and taking care of a family. My Grandma only lived for a year and a half after we found out about her cancer, but it was so much longer than any of us thought we would get. So, even though she’s gone, I’m glad that I had the time with her that I did. And I’m glad that you’ve been able to get at least 12 years with your mom and I’m hoping you get many more 💛

@michaelthomas9790 Год назад

I’ve been wondering for the better part of 2 years why this game got to me the way it did. The theme music alone makes me weep. But I’ve been watching replays of the game just because I love it so much… This video made me realize why. It’s because I’m going through a very similar thing. Like very similar. Almost to a t, though the sickness is different. And you just helped me realize it’s because I’m worried, scared, confused and sad. Knowing that the sun will explode in 22 minutes, trying my best to figure out a way to stop it, or figure out why, or find a solution, or find a way to survive… but… it’s inevitable. Death, is inevitable. But in the game, before the end you can talk to everyone. And someone says something along the lines of “I’m glad I stopped to smell the pine trees”. And I think that’s what’s resonating so much. We all have so little time, but we have time together, we have time to enjoy and time to learn and grow and be as happy as we can be. And in the end, my hope is that we will be together, and that maybe the end isn’t the end, but if it is, at least there’s always something after.. even if we’re not here to know it.

@DavetheTurnip 2 года назад

Thanks for being so vulnerable. I enjoyed hearing about your journey through the game. Especially how it relates to what you’re going through and how you saw that reflected through every inch of progress. I wish you and your mum the best.

@iamerror 2 года назад

This video shook *me* to my core.

@PhyreSpore 2 года назад

AAAGGGHHHH! That was a really REALLY well done video. Goodness! When the explosion hit at the end I damn near stood out of my chair for a standing ovation. You really put your heart out here and I can say for sure that it's connected with others'. I'm sorry to hear about your mom's cancer, but glad to hear that she has you with her for support. I've seen what that can take and it's not easy, but being there for them is incredibly worth it in the end. When I finished The Outer Wilds I definitely didn't connect with it as powerfully as you did. It certainly felt like there was something deeper that I was missing. And hearing your takeaway from it really opened my eyes to what that something was. And it's made me appreciate it that much more! So thank you for the new perspective, thank you for sharing your story, and best of luck with the future.

@Megantopia Месяц назад

No idea if you'll read this as I'm very late to this video, but I lost my mom in April. I played Outer Wilds earlier in the year. I find myself coming back to this game again and again. I just keep thinking about it. How it's terrifying and frustrating and satisfying and beautiful all at once. Your video was so cathartic, and I thank you for making it.

@wizawhat Месяц назад

Thank you. I'm so sorry for your loss, but I'm happy to be able to help, if only a little bit.

@SpongeVolpe21 3 месяца назад

that personal bit was really beautifully said. i definitly feel you man

@PrettyObvious7 2 года назад

Really heartening story to hear about this game connecting to someone, and especially strong of you to share your pain. Love to you and your mom

@HarrySon29 2 года назад

Beautiful video. You’ve made something really special with this one man. Thank you for sharing your story.

@Westrument Год назад

What a great video! You’re awesome at keeping a video essay like this stimulating!

@emmavoid 2 года назад

I lost my mom to cancer at about 13, and... yeah. It's a lot, and it never stops being a lot. But you're never alone, either, and I truly appreciate games like this that help us to remember that. Thank you for a wonderful video. If you ever need to bend the ear of someone who has gone through similar struggles, feel free to send me a message- I'd be happy to listen.

@telekinesticman 2 года назад

This is incredibly heartwarming, thank you for sharing such a personal experience about this very personal game. I love hearing everyone's different journeys with Outer Wilds, and while I certainly wasn't expecting the underlying sadness in yours, I'm grateful I got to be here to share it with you.

@AninoNiKugi 2 года назад

The "Fight your instincts" part was pretty cool 😄 The lack of traditional game mechanics and the non-traditional game designs are the main reasons why people love Outer Wilds and it's the very same reasons why some people don't like it or not even giving it a chance after barely playing it. I think Outer WIlds is a game that every gamer should play or at least try. It really doesn't matter what type of games you like, if it clicks to you, it clicks. LobosJr is a known Souls-like player and he evolved from not caring much to really liking Outer Wilds to the point he bought and recommended it to his friends. As for your personal struggles, this may be controversial and hopefully won't offend anyone especially you but these are just my personal beliefs and mindset. I'm sorry in advance and I'm not even sure if it would really help or what 😅 I always think that acceptance of reality will always help us deal with difficult things in life. As well as turning negative things into positive ones and I don't mean trying to lie and fool ourselves into believing something that isn't true but actually accepting a reality in a positive way. And here's a big example for that. As bad as losing a parent is, it is actually the ideal scenario to have in life. One of the worst things that could happen to a parent is to bury their child. Another thing is that there's a common thing between a completely healthy person and a terminal ill person. Both of them don't know exactly when they will die. And because of that, we should always live our life to the fullest regardless of our situation. So I think in your case, accept your mother's decision and just let her feel that things are normal and you live your life normally and happy with her 😄 My father was diagnosed with early stage of cancer 5 years ago and he started chemo last year. I know it's not possible to actually be ready for a big loss in life but at least consciously, I think I am ready because I accepted the reality of life. I just try to live happy with him everyday and spoil him with whatever he wants...except having a grand child from me 😂 I'm not really good with conveying my thoughts into words especially in English but hopefully what I said made sense 😂

@wizawhat 2 года назад

I think you did a great job conveying how you felt in English. You could have fooled me into thinking it was your first language. I really appreciate your comment, I hadn't really thought about death in the family from that perspective, and I'm really glad that my mom has been around long enough to see me grow up. I have to be grateful for that. Your comment was very insightful and I value that perspective. Thank you.

@shneancy220 7 месяцев назад

thank you for making this video, it's genuinely moved me to tears i just finished outer wilds, after 4 years of it gathering dust in my steam library, always downloaded, waiting for me. i don't know why i waited for so long to play it, it just kind of turned out like this. And i honestly still don't exactly know what lesson i've learnt, i feel like there's more i'm not seeing, i feel like there's many, many small lessons this game taught me. but thanks to your video i know one thing for sure! you've helped me overcame the guilt that came from googling a tutorial when i was felt truly stuck in some places, when i had all the pieces but the gears kept grinding in my head, i tried my best, but when i needed it - i sought help, a small push forwards. I wish I could write this comment as well as you did your video hah! but once again, thank you for telling your story

@AintYourChannel Год назад

Hey, man. My mom was diagnosed with breast cancer when I was six, and she managed to hold on for almist ten years, passing away when I was 15. I feel you. Outer Wilds made me feel things I hadn't felt in such a long time. Thank you for this video. You've put so many of my thoughts into words, I'm honestly at a loss. I really really needed this today. love you.

@LordTelperion Год назад

Wonderful analysis. Ok, trying to put this into words...I also felt an echo of what you did. I lost my mom 15 years ago... it feels like both a long time ago and like it happened yesterday. It was personally a world-ending event. It taught me that death is the high cost of living... that we were dead for billions of years, alive for a few decades, and then back to incorporealness again. The discovery of the inevitable final end of the Heat Death of the Universe, that this isn't just the end of only you, but of the Cosmos... why not live in the perpetual loop? But there is an escape... that some part of us will endure and continue on into the world after us. That hope of an imprint of immortality is so emotional, powerful, and comforting. That she mattered... that we will matter. The ripples remain. Here's to a an Ainulindalë in our own future...

@BerkeHitay Год назад

What a touching slice of your life and experience that you've shared. Thank you for this wholeheartedly!

@Miko-Works 2 года назад

Thank you for sharing what you and your mom have been going through. It’s sad. It’s painful. But, you are courageous, strong, and loving for being there for your mom through it all. You are seen. You are heard. Sending many condolences your way. Thanks again for sharing with us.

@Conbus Месяц назад

Thank you for this video, not only was it exceptionally well made- it was also incredibly kindhearted and genuine.

@DumtheShiz 2 года назад

goodness I just stumbled into your videos today and the stories and feeling you convey have already made me cry twice. Keep doing what you're doing! I love the vids

@NickLeonard 10 месяцев назад

Beautiful review, and to tie it in with a real world loss as big as that just shows the power of this game. It's not even the game itself, but the way it makes you feel and think. You did a great job expressing that.

@hachiko2 Год назад

Although I randomly stumbled across your channel in the first palce, I want to say tank you so much for this video I am in a terrible state right now I struggle with anxiety, and frustration, and slowly loosing hope The message you convey is very powerful and gives me the currage to keep going and to be open about my feeling with my close ones

@wizawhat Год назад

I wish the best for you, try to do little things to put your mind in the best position to cope with these feelings. I like to go on walks, get sun, exercise, and eat clean diet. It seriously helps

@Peter-qe1yh Год назад

My mom was diagnosed with early onset dementia when I was 20. back in 2010. She died a year and a half ago. I moved away to got married to the woman I love and have been with for a decade as well. But I always felt guilty and terrible because of it, leaving my dad to deal with that on his own. I always felt guilty and terrible about leaving my dad to take care of my mom. I really really felt you talking about that. I actually played Outer Wilds pretty much one year before my mom died. I dont know how to describe my experience with the game but the ending did hit me a lot at the time. I don't know why I'm commenting on this right now other then to say I really identified with your experience.

@xxMrEndermanxx Год назад

I don't know anything about loss but I don't yhink you should feel guilty about it all. If you're happy with your wife it's probably all that matters to your parents. But maybe you should talk about it with your father? know what he think about it? Again, I don't know anything about this so take it with 5 pounds of salts, but I do hope you can cope with it.

@wizawhat Год назад

I'm sorry for your loss, but I think you should try to find a way to release that guilt. Your mom would probably want that.

@SolidArf 2 года назад

Thank you for sharing your-and so importantly, your mom's-story. As others have said, we only get one true playthrough of OW... but the emotions you hit on, the journey you've fought through, the way it impacted you; it's such a powerful way of taking us back through the game, while relating it back to your own experiences. This is one of the most profound readings I've seen yet. Which is saying something! It's incredible how many honest, thoughtful, vulnerable, and hauntingly beautiful videos have come out of this game. (Also, OW showed up on my "Most Played" list last year at a whopping ~60 hours [base + DLC combined, admittedly]... so I promise what you experienced at the Quantum Tower is 100% relatable haha)

@leftovernoise 2 года назад

Thank you for this video man. Outer wilds hit me incredibly hard. So much so that I can't even watch a regular video essay about it without choking up. But this is another level. I've lost a lot of people over the past year, including my best friend. Two of the things that kind of helped me with that was outer wilds and spiritfarer. Seriously Amazing video, thank you

@ReavoEnd 2 года назад

Thank you. You've created something truly special. For as much as I love this game, maybe I needed to hear these personal insights of yours, too.

@ArrogantDubs 2 года назад

Hey, you're awesome and deserve basically all the views ever. I am unspeakably sorry about the things you currently have to go through but know that your content is amazing and that you have a support group here full of people who care if ever you require it.

@lia-ci8sy Год назад

Hi, I don’t know you and I just stumbled onto your video after finishing playing outer wilds some days ago. Truly a magnificent experience. Thank you for sharing yours, I can imagine what you are going through as I lost my mother to cancer when I was 18… I know you will surely cherish the memories and the love you shared. Even when there’s no hope you have to remember there’s still that light, that love will always shine within you as you progress with your own journey. Trust your instincts and remember to enjoy the sweet time you share with the ones you care for, may it be in front of a campfire with good music and some marshmallow or anywhere else. I wish you all the best~ Thanks again for sharing

@cordycat9798 Год назад

This is the first video i've seen from you. Thank you for sharing this struggle with us

@mastertehwill 2 года назад

Incredible work. You've put into words a lot of things I didn't understand about how this game made me feel. Thank you so much, and hope you are doing well.

@DiamondRocket13 2 года назад

Thank you. I really appreciated every part of this video.

@NickNoobles Год назад

This video is special, thanks for sharing your experience with the community

@werwolfnate Год назад

The most heartwarming and hope filled story about the inevitable heat-death of the universe.

@Totallyneutral 6 месяцев назад

Thank you so much for talking about your experiences. As someone whose mom has a brain tumor that she refuses to have treated or tell anyone else about, it means so much to me to hear someone else found a different kind of hope from this game, too.

@wizawhat 6 месяцев назад

My heart hurts for you, stay strong.

@razbuten 2 года назад

@Ghost_Hybrid Год назад

I have watched your video probably five times through, and recommended it to others. My own journey through Outer Wilds was very similar. I had been living through a personal crisis for almost 10 years. This game helped me let go of the many things I could not change, and was an important reminder to stop and smell the pine trees along the way. Thank you for sharing your Outer Wilds adventure and personal story.

@TheSilentVictim 2 года назад

Thank you for sharing this part of your life with us. This game brought out genuine emotion, and how you were able to relate it to your personal life speaks volumes of you as a person. Thank you for making this video, your mother raised an amazing kid. Thank you.

@kevlar427 2 года назад

Thank you for telling your story. It takes courage to lay it all out in front of thousands of people. This video deserves more views. Keep exploring, traveler

@danielbueno8474 Год назад

This video was an absolute blessing to watch, man. I can tell how genuine and kind of a soul you must be just from seeing you put your heart out about your mom's situation. I don't know how things are for you guys right now, but I hope you don't mind if I put you and your family in my prayers from now on. God bless you, man.

@xkupi 2 года назад

Hey man I hope and wish the best for you and your mother. My heart goes out to you I'll be praying for you guys.

@ThomasWagteveld 2 года назад

Wow. This video has touched me. Opening up like you have, describing your pain and experiences. Truly puts another light onto what this game can truly mean to people. Thank you. Best of luck.

@user-de7uu8ce9y 6 месяцев назад

I can relate to everything you said. Although my personal situation is a bit different, I think we can all agree that Outer Wilds taught us something profound. Something that is not about video games at all. I played the base story a year ago and didn't have the courage to start the DCL until now because I knew that I'd have to go through all those emotions again. Turns out a year was not enough beacuse I find that I still had not been able to genuinely calm down. I've read great books, heard inspiring music and seen amazing movies yet this is the only story that has kept me awake at night, in a good way. Every time I see the title somewhere or hear the music I still get goosebumps.

@Shavaaa Год назад

I have a simmilar story, but with my grandmother. Outer wilds reminded me, how precious time is

@henryzelman4541 2 года назад

This video is truly amazing. I've never had to experience loss or prepare for loss in my life yet, but I have a really hard time accepting that something is over, which is one of the reasons I still watch videos on Outer Wilds or first playthroughs. I'm sure at this point you've already played it, but the Echoes of Eye dlc cranks up everything you've talked about in this video by 1000%. Without spoiling the DLC, the meta commentary that Outer Wilds provides is "letting go" in my opinion. The sun will always explode and it is impossible to stop. The universe will die no matter what you do. You will not be able to replay Outer Wilds. Yet, because of your journey you're able create a new universe and by playing the game you are able to get other people to experience it as well and connect to them like you did in this video. I can't wait to hear your thoughts on Echoes of the Eye.

@williampicard818 2 года назад

truly one of the best video essay I watched in a while and no doubt the best one on outer wilds

@pumpkinqueen6278 Год назад

I think this might be the most important perspective of Outer Wilds, and it really, truly understands why the game is so important. Thank you so much for this.

@ShadowNinja1027 Год назад

I appreciate you sharing your personal story to everyone. I went through a very similar experience a couple of years ago when my mother passed away from cancer. It didn't even occur to me that something like that could even happen, even though she was in Hospice Care. Losing her was the hardest thing in my life, and even after almost three years it still hurts. I hope you are doing okay, and keep doing what you enjoy.

@desmondtheotter7613 Год назад

thank you, for allot of us who love this game, the only way we can play it again as if new is hearing or seeing it played through by someone else and their thoughts and feelings, you got me choked up a bit and that ending dedication gave that extra push tide in with genuine real emotion that always hit me, trully thank you for your experience, and although im sure you have been asked maybe even already done it, but id love your feelings and experience on the DLC echoes of the eye that really changes things up while still making sense and fitting in the game story

@PossumGamer 2 года назад

Amazing video man, truly great stuff 👏

@weempwomp13 Год назад

i came here for a nice little video about someone else's experience as someone who loves the game with every fiber of my being. i did not come here to cry and remember some of the worst times of my life, when i had to face fear and uncertainty while grappling hope and acceptance from any source i could. but you put it in the best words that can describe how it is to be deeply affected by outer wilds. thank you for sharing your story

@thejoyfuldragon887 Год назад

great video. amazing how powerful an interpreted message from art can be despite not being intended. appreciate the honesty at the end. must be scaring being so public about it. good luck.

@mlu42 2 года назад

such a beautiful video, thank you

@orbitaldrive 2 года назад

While I was beating the game, I kept saying to myself, out loud, with a completely straight face, "Why am I crying? ... Wh ... why the fuck am I crying?" Thank you so much for sitting me down and explaining why I was crying.

@UltimateDrDoom Год назад

It is fucking hard some times. I was your age when I lost mine. Her sickness just wore her down. And it hurts. And it is easier to put that face on. But we wake up and do another day. Cherish the memories. Take the pictures. Love. Live. And you are heard.

@Brian.Henken 6 месяцев назад

This was an incredible video. I remember seeing Outer Wilds at Pax well before the game came out and thinking that it was something truly special and that I'd really have to wait until it was released to really get a true grasp on just how special it actually was. Even that was an understatement. It's one of the best games I've ever played, and probably ever will play. I didn't beat it until much much later though. This was right before covid. In the same week I finished it, both my grandmother and grandfather ended up in the hospital. They died within a month of each other. It was easily one of, if not, the most difficult times for my family. After they were both gone I remember I couldn't stop thinking about outer wilds, and those themes of the unstoppable movement of time, loss, and rebirth. And at least for me, it reminded me that everything was going to be okay because, even if it was in a way that I couldn't fully understand, I was part of something bigger, and death is just part of the experience. No matter how much it hurts. Absolutely incredible video! I hope it brings comfort that so many people are connecting with the stories you tell and that you're not alone.

@wizawhat 6 месяцев назад

Thank you so much, and I'm so sorry for the loss of your grandparents.

@stephenmurray5276 Год назад

This absolutely captured so much of my experience. From the fear of dark bramble to my shame of needing help to understand how teleportation works, down to my deep sadness about the inevitable loss involved in life. Thanks for sharing your experience and giving unique words to help me grasp why this game had such an outsized effect on me. I’ve had this video sitting in my “watch later” category for way to long so I’m incredibly grateful that, much like outer wilds, I came back around and gave it a shot.

@LeCrabeASMR 2 года назад

I watch every Outer Wilds video I hee poping on my RU-vid feed, it really is the best and only way for me to enjoy again my favourite game. I was not expecting this video... but everyone has such a special journey with this game that I'm not surprised It helped you the way it did. Thank you for sharing, I enjoyed listening, cheers mate 🧡

@toasternova 4 месяца назад

Thank you so much for this video. It not only encompasses the majesty of the game, but that of your life aswell. Thank you for sharing and expressing your view on life. The good and the bad.

@miniman6565 2 года назад

Just wanted to say thanks for making this video. Outer Wilds for me was such a deeply comforting experience at the end of it all. The feeling of something taking my most fundamental existential fears and dread, putting them right in front of me, and saying “It’s okay. You aren’t alone. It will be okay.” I appreciate your experiences and how they colored the game for you in a way I wouldn’t have considered, which only makes me appreciate it further. Be it accepting the lack of control we often have over our lives, our own insignificance, or the cosmic transience of everything, I’ve never seen another piece of media elicit such feelings of solace through it all, and I’m grateful for you adding your experiences to the shared experience of playing and understanding this game.