i've watched a few of your videos lately, and it's taking me back a little over a decade, when my overall situation wasn't favorable like yours, and i decided to shut down and disappear, and just like you i went through all the stages of emotions first anger, frustration, and at times hurt, then other times loneliness, and eventually solutions, which for me was downsizing so that i could have a couple of dollars to try and learn different things, and joining meetup groups to attempt to build with those attempting to be better versions of themselves, and continue to distance myself from those that aren't, so eventually i suspect the universe will allow you to find some solutions and blessings at some point also.👍🏽
The new Batman movie has a protagonist (Bruce Wayne) and antagonist (The Riddler) who both had childhood trauma that has followed them into adulthood. Even though Bruce on paper seems to be in a better place than the Riddler due to his good looks, wealth, status, the film still shows both characters struggling with their current dilemma and both characters were actually inspired by Kurt Cobain, who unfortunately couldn’t find a happy solution to his depression. I recommend The Batman, although if someone’s really battling demons at the moment, it might not be the best choice, even though the film has a somewhat positive ending.
Incidentally, you can't hang a jumper in the closet, or it will stretch and deform at the hanging points. You need to fold it and put it away on a shelf.
There's a big difference being sad, and being depressed. Depression is a medical condition that can drive people to suicide. Being sad is just being sad. Why are people sad, in this case its because your life isn't what you want it to be. The remedy is to decide what you want your life to be, in specific terms. Don't like your job, then decide what other job you'd rather be doing, then go after it. If you don't have the qualifications then go back to school and get those qualifications. People feel sad when they're trapped and feeling helpless, but people are seldom really trapped. They just lack the plan to achieve what they want, and they lack the motivation to act on that plan. Decide who you want to be and be that person.
