This is currently my lifestyle. I visit the adoration chapel daily, I pray all the 4 mysteries daily (20 decades), I go for confession weekly and I celebrate mass daily. thank you for sharing.
When I became ill, the doctor sent me home. I couldn’t really go to Mass, after getting better I changed some things, okay many things, in my life. Now I go Mass almost every Saturday morning, when school is out I try to go as often as I can. I pray my rosary, as dad just passed away I pray for his and mom’s souls as well as the souls of those who have no one to pray for them. Now as I drive to school I listen to the Bible in a year podcast and the Catechism in a year. I hope this strengthens me as school is hostile to people of faith
Stay strong! The devil opposes light cause it knows what it can never be. We don’t need other people’s favor. GOD’s love is all we need. Believe and you will be protected.❤God speed.
@@youdontknowme1258 and you pray to mary "hail mary" and you ignore the lord jesus christ who said you pray to one but the father....you better get right !
My brother married a Protestant about 3 years ago, and my family doesn’t even know if he’s Catholic anymore. We know that he’s not living in the state of grace and all I want is for him to turn back to God and hopefully convert his spouse too. I don’t know if I can do this everyday seeing as I’m an 18 year old soon to be college student, but I’ll do my best. Mr. Castillo, Mary is using you in an extraordinary way. Because of your videos, I’ve been praying the full rosary every day and go to confession at least a few times a month. Know of my prayers to you as well
God bless you for all you do and May God almighty use you abundantly when you go to college and start a group of good friends to meet on off day per week. You will be able to save many souls. Be Holy and Be on Fire 🔥. Wishing you the very best 🙏🏽🙏🏽🇺🇸
I'm a university student (2nd year) right now and I assure You that if Jesus wants You to go to Mass daily, You'll be able to go. He'll give You time for school, household chores, family, friends, and even hobbies. Try to restructure Your day and make sure that You go to Mass every single day, no matter what Your mood is, no matter how important or unimportant it seems to be, and no matter how much or little time You have. I don't know what Your plan looks and will look like next year, but for me, it wasn't possible to go to Mass on certain Tuesdays and Wednesdays, because I had classes in the mornings and the evenings. And that's okay. There were many days, though, when I had time to go, but I felt as if going to Mass would ruin my schedule and I would have no time for studying, etc. The other days, I was so ashamed of my sins that I didn't want anyone to see me - especially these old, 'judgemental' ladies (I'm kidding, I love them), who know me quite well by now, haha. I went anyways and it completely changed my life. You'll find time if He wants to see You every single day.
Bro I’m 20 and I’ve been trying doing this for 4 years. Maybe not mass everyday and an hour of adoration a day plus I was the worst hypocrite. But for sure Mass, Rosaries, Adoration, & Confession as much as I can, because Gods love is hope. With God you got this 🙏
I was praying the rosary with my wife and two sons (aged 23 and 15) a few nights ago and my heart became heavy. I felt disappointment in myself for becoming laxed in not keeping up with 4 rosaries per day. I felt a heaviness upon me that said that I need to do it for them... 1 rosary for each of them and the 4th for others. Gabe, you are a blessing to us all. God works through you beautifully, because of your dedication to His mother... Theotokos.
@@gabiafterhours: It’s all good and well what you advise in this video, and may God bless you and Our Lady keep you under Her mantle always, Gabi, for all your good advice❤️🙏🏻🕊️🌹 but what to do if you have no access to a confession on a regular basis and to Holy Mass on First Fridays or First Saturdays? I’ve been living in Japan for the last 18 years (although I am not a Japanese myself, I’m Polish), and there is a serious shortage of priests in our diocese (I’m not sure if it’s not the bishop’s fault), we have a Holy Mass on three Sundays plus some Tuesdays a month. Every third Sunday every month there is just a “service” (the priests are celebrating the Masses elsewhere) and Holy Communion is distributed by an Extraordinary Minister (always happens to be a woman) - but every third Sunday we have a general cleaning in our “communal settlement,” so I cannot attend this “service,” anyhow it’s a sad affair, I tried to attend the Holy Mass on the last Divine Mercy Sunday, I thought there will be a Mass in our church, I did some job beforehand, as a communal cleaning instead of that Sunday cleaning, and I just got cheated, there was no priest in our church, only a “service” on that Sunday - very sad🥺 And every time I want to go to a confession, I have to make a special appointment, the two priests who can hear a confession in English seem always too busy (the third one is a Japanese and doesn’t speak English, and I don’t speak Japanese…). I don’t really know what is happening with the priests in general lately, but some of them just refuse to listen to the confession and send me to another priest. I hardly ever see other people from our church going to the confession lately at all. Besides, there is virtually NO Adoration whatsoever in our little church, the only times the Host is in the Monstrance is during the Good Friday’s celebrations, in a side “chapel” as a symbolical grave… And apart from the Holy Masses, our church is just closed. What to do in these circumstances?
@@gabiafterhours you will be in hellfire,with your non sense,put mary as a godess ,jesus never called her mother,but jesus tells yo to pray only one person and thats the father...when your cast to hellfire,remember "hail mary"
Online adoration, and spiritual communion prayer 🙏 can be as effective as physical communion but you still need to be in a state of grace. Regarding confession... it needs to be physically in person. Do your act of contrition in nightly examines. Jesus understand your barriers
Daily mass, daily rosary in church before or after mass. Hour of Adoration twice a week. I’ve been doing First Friday and First Saturday devotions for a year now. Glad to know I’m on the right path in helping my soul and for the salvation of others. Prayers for the conversion of my family members. We can do this . Let’s stay motivated. May God bless you always 🙏🏼❤️
I'm curious as why you're telling everybody this? It says in the Bible to give alms and pray and things like that in secret you don't go around boasting so I was wondering your reason. We went to mass 6 days a week and first Friday the all the time in Catholic school I would think I'd be covered too but I don't know. After reading that in the Bible about not boasting like the Pharisees do you I just shut up and do my thing. I don't see and I'm not making any kind of disrespect but why you would tell everybody something so private God knows she did it we don't need to know. Again not judging just curious God bless
@@bwnco 😊There is so much joy in returning to the faith and the church. We all need God in our lives. We need to encourage others and learn from each other. We need to help others in their path to God. We need to make time each day to worship, praise and glorify our Heavenly Father. I pray that others become more holier than me. I do it all for the Glory of God. He knows my heart. May God bless you 🙏🏼♥️📿
If I were told I can only choose one YT channel to watch for the rest of my life, I'd definitely pick this one. You have no idea how much my faith is strenghthened every time I watch one of your videos. Thank you for teaching us how to be better Catholics.
Increased my Rosaries to 8 every 24 hours because if I am too busy during daytime I pray at night. God has performed miracles literally saved me from electrocution. Bless be God forever
I live the Communion of Reparation lifestyle and have continued this since my father taught us this lifestyle back in the mid 1960’s. I pray for all my relatives daily at Mass and adoration as well as my past and present neighbors, friends, and all of the employees I have been responsible for over the years in my professional life. Thank you for this amazing video!!! Jesus I trust in You B
I re-watch this channel daily. Its become very helpful in directing my spiritual life. Ive been praying 3 rosaries a day for over 90 days now bc of this channel.
As a seminarian I see so many blessings from doing all those things - increased love for God and for all souls, so many signal graces, etc. Thank God and thank you, Gabi, for these videos!! They help so much at being zealous in this indifferent world. And also sorrows of our Blessed Mother are gold!!! Is there any possibility for another video about this topic? Maybe about the promises that were given in Kibeho? May our most blessed Mother always remind us of the sorrows of her Son Jesus to unite ourselves with Him!
Priests NEED TO MAKE CONFESSION MORE AVAILABLE to the people...not just have Confrssion for half an hour on Saturdays....at times that parents are running their kids to practices, etc! why not before or after morning Mass, one or two evenings a week (weekdays)? confession is not available!
Wow! What a BLESSING this video has been! I have recently begun, the communion preparation lifestyle, and not even knew that’s what I was doing. Ive been attending daily mass for years now…Because of a very difficult family situation, I started to go to Adoration every day for an hour since the middle of lent this year and I just can’t live without doing it every day. It’s just part of my life now. I just recently started praying the 4 mysteries of the rosary for about three weeks and already feel so much Grace . Ive been doing the first saturday for over a year and a half with monthly Confession. I definitely need to offer this lifestyle for my own children and many family members. This video gave me all the encouragement. I need to continue this and gives me comfort that because of our Blessed Mother ,this lifestyle will be efficacious to save their souls. Thank you for your Devout heart to our Lady & may you be richly blessed!!!! ❤️✝️❤️✝️❤️✝️
Add one more. Started going to daily Mass, and loved it. Can't say in the last year, I haven't missed a few, but love starting my day that way. Also have been doing First Saturdays for awhile now. Have to remember to offer for conversion of family, whom I do pray for daily. Also First Friday in reparation to the Sacred Heart. It's like the Holy Weekend. Your video struck me however, sometimes we're led and don't even know it. The grace of the Holy Spirit. Thank you so much for the reminder. All family members are away. This reminds me of the promises. Love my rosary, but must admit, I say one or two daily, plus the Chaplet of Divine Mercy. I believe there is a promise there, the first 3 prayers if said with faith for the conversion of a soul, will be granted. God is soooo good. Offers us so many ways to save as many as possible. I remember hearing, be an example, don't preach. Spoken by another visionary and confirmed by a very gifted priest. Thank you again. Another gift of Our Lady is the Rosary of the Unborn, extraordinary promise of saving a baby from abortion with every Hail Mary bead, (shaped like a teardrop which encloses a tiny fetus). Our Father beads lessen the punishments due to the world. Available at holylove.org.
I have often said… “I want to save souls like the little flower Saint Therese. “ In order to do this however I was praying for the souls in purgatory praying for their speedy release… but they are already saved. So the challenge now is to get souls who are lost and might not find their way without our intercession.
@@gabiafterhours jesus is the son of god not mary,she was just a vessel,you are denying jesus was born from nothing,jesus was sent,jesus is not created and jesus said,b4 abraham,i am...so jesus was born,but hes not the mother of mary.....
@@catalinapagaza5361 I want to regain my life. I ran too fast an grieved the holy spirit and went to destruction and now I want back but feel God won't help me. I needed help
I so pray that Adoration of the Blessed Sacrament is available easily in every church. Here in the UK a lot of churches are closed in the day with Adoration only for an hour or so in the morning so only the retired/ elderly can go. Please Lord, in your mercy as we are spiritually dying in the UK, urgent prayer is needed by the faithful .🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻
Amen...I hear you ... Unless you live in London ...it's pants for the opportunity to get to adoration ..or a TLM .. We should write letters to our bishops perhaps ... Of course we can do online adoration. All these things Gabi tells us are not impossible. Love this channel 🇬🇧
Yes. We must pray and request for the chance to adore the Lord. VERY IMPORTANT... until a change happens... I am a big fan of having a live stream of Jesus on while I work.
@@jojackson1573 yes Tyburn Covent is certainly holding our country up at present. Deo Gratias for their order 🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻with 24 hour online adoration - thanks Gabi for the reminder we can adore online 🙏🏻🤍
@@hailmary4259 it's a very special order. We don't see the inside ..but a friend who tried the vocation says it's very tough. Their hidden sacrifices and prayers must do much !!! But it's also telling us we can do the same in our own circumstances 🙏
With the grace of God I started going for daily mass since age 18 and daily Rosary since my childhood. Now I pray daily mass, 4 Rosaries every day and monthly confession. I am also going for 1hr adoration once a week and daily at least 30mts. Some times before and after mass 15mts. I give all glory , honour and thanks giving to our Lord Jesus Christ and thanks to our Blessed Mother Mary. The joy and peace I experience I can’t compare with anything in this world. Thanks for this video , the living truth we missing out . I pray every day for every soul to believe in this truth and experience this heavenly joy.
Thanks for this video Gabe! A lot of people in my life have fallen away from the Catholic Church and have heavy resentment towards it. My beloved, my best friends, my brother and my cousins are not at all living in the state of grace and don’t even care for a relationship with our Lord. My father is a non- Catholic and I’m concern for his soul as he get older. This lifestyle can be my sacrifice for them. I’ll probably struggle and make mistakes but I’m hoping to stay persistent for them and keep continuing forward.
@Gabby gracias I saw you over @Keith Nester today I'm great full that GOD has placed men like you guys to help us grow in our faith. Please continue to do so you've helped so many. Robert from Puerto Rico 🇵🇷
I do this, but things seem to get worse. I tend to get mad and want to quit. Somehow I crawl back into the routine. I am a late-in-life conversion with a ton of complications. I often lose hope and have to find faith again. My children are a mess. Thanks for this encouragement.
Do not be discouraged. At the Hour of death all of these people you are praying for will receive an ocean of grace. I am confident they will great you in heaven... AND... they will thank you!
@thistledownz, please don’t give up on prayer… our Lord is with you! Pray always to our Mother, St. Joseph, the Holy Trinity, St. Monica, St. Augustine, and St. Michael. I promise you changes will happen, but you have to be patient, love sincerely to our God, and let Them take over. Our Lord has a path laid out for your children already; your prayers and sufferings are in His heart and hands ✝️❤️🙏🏻
Hang in there, it can be a battle sometimes, but worth it beyond what we can even imagine right now. I have been through this too. Trust if you are doing your best and it is not getting better, it is a Grace from God in His Providence. He knows every hair on your head and will provide. Be at peace, and persevere! "Pray, hope, and don't worry" -St.Pio
I've heard it said that "anything worth doing is worth doing badly." I firmly believe this is true. Pray the rosary, even if you can't focus perfectly on the mysteries. Pray the liturgy of the hours, even if you miss hours or pray them late. Pray, even when you can't feel God. Trying matters. God won't punish you for praying imperfectly. Mary won't be upset that your rosary has a few wilted roses. How happy would a father be that his son chose to ask his advice at all? How happy would a mother be to receive a gift of roses, even if a few pedals are bruised?
You are so right. Our daughter has left the Church and I’m going to try these things if I can. I know they work as I’m a revert and came back after 20 years. My parents, both deceased now, not only said rge Rosary every day but attended Mass too after they retired. I’m sure they’re prayers brought me back.
Thank you for this video! Yesterday I talked with a relative who is a Muslim. I was discouraged because he didn’t seem to take what I said to heart, and I felt like I did an ok job of telling him about Jesus. A few hours later I saw your video. I’m not Catholic yet so I’ll just pray the rosary and go to adoration for now (I’m a Protestant), but Lord willing I will convert to Catholicism around Easter. I don’t think I saw this by coincidence, but God wanted me to see it.
YES! There are no coincidences... Confess directly to God with the intention of going to Confession as soon as possible. Make a spiritual communion. No prayer is wasted. So happy you found the Catholic Church!
Salve Maria! I didn't know we could do the Communion of Reparation daily. My dad just passed away on 23 June 2024. I will begin doing this immediately. God bless you
I literally was just thinking about how to save my sons soul. Last night he reiterated that he was not interested in going to church and refused to believe. I asked the Blessed Mother to help me. So I’m sitting here and the thought crossed my mind again today, when this popped up in my RU-vid feed. I already attend the First Saturdays and Fridays each month, but finding this was like our Lady telling me that I need to step it up! I have so much hope through Her! I love our Blessed Mother. I can feel Her love for us all. Ave Maria! ✝️
*Thank you my Lord Jesus, for everything. Lord, have the miracle of healing for my sick brothers. For those who suffer. Daddy God you have the power and the glory. Amen 🙏🙏🙏*
Gabriel came to Oregon not too long ago and was excellent at the conference! Be sure to invite him to wherever you are! If you don't have an event, make one! God Bless you Gabriel- the Strength of God!
I try to attend church to do a holy hour every week, but most of the time, it cannot be done because I am disabled and cannot drive. For those who are homebound (like me), there is a solution to Eucharistic adoration! Here on youtube, several channels have live adoration! You can pull it up on a phone or the tv or whatever! It's a wonderful solution for people who can not attend church every day! I turn it on whenever I need Jesus! During my prayers, when I am sad or in pain, and at Night when I sleep, it is wonderful! And I noticed a huge difference when I didn't have it on! Hope it helps
If, "an army praying the rosary (could) conquer the world." as Blessed Pope Pius IX said, then imagine the unfathomable potential of an army of Masses offered for Her intentions! Only Jesus and Mary can provide the true solutions we need. They are the two pillars in the end times, as St.John Bosco pointed out from his famous dream. What better way to have childlike trust by putting it all in their hands?
SIMPLY THE BEST. I cannot sing the praises of God through Gabriel and this channel enough! I meant it when I prayed in my own heart while watching this that this is my favorite of all channels that I have ever watched, and I prayed to Jesus Himself to promote it however possible and to help me by His Grace to be part of that. AMEN-and so be it! 🙏
The fact that everything about the way you approach these talks, lectures, videos is all in absolute accordance with authentic, traditional catholic teaching is a sure-fire sign to me that you are reaching a very, very large number of souls. I stumbled on the pints w/ aquinas interview and laughed at how similar my personality is to yours - which is also a CURSE! I am a very thick headed, very black and white REALIST (not a pessimist) but I know I must come off very arrogant to some people, especially my wife. However, Im all in for 4 rosaries - I have the time throughout my day and my spouse needs them desperately, please pray for her in your rosaries Gabe and EVERYONE reading this, even just one Ave...her name is Ellen. Lots of depression tied up with a miscarriage last year but I will never give up on her and our Lady's intentions, please pray and God bless you all!
My grandpa raised his kids and his kids raised their kids and now I am raising my daughter to pray the rosary in family every night Monday to Friday. We are way far from being a perfect family, yet we are blessed every day. I recently started praying in my own room in private the Rosary in latin and it is marvelous to say the least, I do it in the middle of the day and it completely shifts my days. Our Holy Mother is the true and most powerful intersector. God bless everyone! ❤ I pray for all of you 😊
Hi Gabi, awesome video. I just finished my A level exams and since I didn't get any offers to University I am taking a gap year. I finished school on the 23rd of June. I'm going to Portugal for World Youth Day in July in about a months time. Luckily I will get to visit Fatima too. I had heard of World Youth Day before but I never thought I would get to attend it let alone have the opportunity to visit Fatima. Now that I have free time I decided to give up my phone and other such distractions as much as I can and spend time praying the rosary every day as well as to attend Mass as often as possible. There was a time I stopped praying the rosary and I was struggling with some mortal sins but after watching your videos I started to pray the rosary again and I got the courage to go to confession and now I try my best to pray at least a rosary every day. My two sisters still don't pray the rosary every day and they don't care very much about praying. Also I wanted to pray for my grandparents. So I will consider this lifestyle. Thank you for making the video❤.
THANKS SO MUCH FOR PROMOTING THE FIVE FIRST SATURDAYS!!!! It's truly the remedy Our Lady wanted us to do, we didn't pay attention, our leaders never promoted it, her apparitions were swept under the rug, it's why we're in this diabolical madness. I try to promote it, along with the first nine Fridays, it's great to do the double devotion too, do the first Fridays and Saturdays back to back, it's never to late step up to the plate if we care about our loved ones everywhere, it's so simple and easy, even if you're on vacation, there's a church near by, another great devotion, Saint Gertrude's chaplet to help release souls from purgatory, this increases the church triumphant army in heaven, that army in turn can better assist the church militant army (us) on earth! It's all so beautiful and simple! Let's do this!
Yesterday was the first Saturday of October and I was going to start Fatima's Communion of Reparation. Had planned my day out from Adoration to Confession to Mass, but my daughter got sick and did not want to be alone. She is doing better, but I know that evil was at work. I went to Mass today and plan to go to adoration this week and a start praying the rosary daily. I will do everything in my power to get my family to Heaven.
You are different. I think you do have something special. You encouraged our couple to pray 4 rosaries everyday and my wife is still doing it for a half a year, unfortunately I dropped a month ago but I will try again. Thank you.
brother, keep it up. the one thing missing from every other catholic youtuber and every other catholic teacher in my life has been an education in how to WIN. this... this is the way!!
I would love to go to confession. I would love to receive the holy eucharist but i cant. I'm still in rcia😢. Since coming to the Church i see clearly how my family and i were going down in this world. I am constantly praying for my husband and all my children to come to Christ and to be a member of His Body. Pray for us O Saints in heaven and on earth. Pray for us O Blessed Virgin of Virgins, my Mother. We need your prayers
This came on my feed the perfect time. I've been living this lifestyle the best of my ability since this past lent for my loved ones and myself, to the point of praying the rosary in my sleep lol. But I've been feeling guilty for choices I've made that caused me to start praying fervently. I prayed for affirmation today and this was on my feed. I didn't realize how powerful it was nor that it was an actual formula. Thank you
Excellent Video Gabi! I go to Confession every 2 weeks, daily Mass, at least 6 Rosaries a day and try to obtain a daily plenary indulgence for a soul who may be in Purgatory. Also visit a cemetery daily to pray for my son Sean and all souls there who may be in Purgatory. But now I will also add a daily Communion of Reparartion to my spiritual arsenal as well.
Gab is one of the few Catholics speakers I've heard who sounds caring while saying the harsh truth "you might not want to or decide that you won't but you can" [edited qoutefor accuracy]. Your videos encourage my devotion to the Rosary. May God continue to guide and protection you!
God bless all who are going to start doing this. I also recommend Pompei novena, 15 decades for 27 days for petition what is needed and 15 decades for another 27 days thanking. It is a powerful way to ask God for blessings and get closer to Mary and Rosary mysteries. Thank you for this beautiful valuable video 🙏🏻🕊️
Omg, this is so powerful to hear. I really want my family to save their souls, have started some of this, but need to work harder. Virgin Mary 📿, help me
I found doing the Rosary of the Seven Sorrows helped me move my family back to the Catholic faith. Doing daily mass and confession is a great idea but our priest doesn’t offer a daily mass. Confessions are only on a Saturday morning at his house. Between 9 to 9:30. Sometimes our only option is prayer and our small sacrifices. 💜
Please pray for the miracle healing of my Heart teeth gums eyes ears stomach lungs and all the organs and parts of my body mind spirit and especially for my family 🙏
I listened to the information yesterday and immediately embarked on the message for i have family who are lukewarm and others have left the Church. Thank you Gabe, we stand in need of prayer.
I was just talking about this with my one sister who is very devout last night. It’s been a week since I started praying four rosaries a day, up from one the past few months, and I feel more resilient to not drink, not get upset over trivial matters, and more courage to witness to my family and friends. But I said, “Yes this is good that we’re talking about our faith with each other, but I want to know how to better reach the rest of my family.” This is what I needed! I know God promises fruits for my family through praying the rosary. Thank you Gabi, and God bless this channel. I truly believe this is due to Mary!
Dear Gabriel, with your great, valuable mission you give us fathers (and mothers) a lot of power and motivation. Your serious, loving and authentic manner is fascinating and captivating. Greetings from Europe.
I have been experiencing diabolical oppression and when I started adoration a few days a week that changed the playing field .... I do a lot more than this but I'm so happy to see you encouraging souls ... Keep it up Gabi !
Gabi thank you I was raised by a violent biological dad who hated god and the thought of god and told me from a child god wasn’t real and why people are dumb who believe in god, I spent years of abuse and felt my life slipping from me through his beatings that were so severe I had to get surgeries because of it, I have been close to death many times and have survived two murder attempts, I had a near death experience about two years back and could feel my skin on fire and what I could only describe as my soul bending backwards and forwards all at once and it was terrifying, I ended up studying the Bible and started trying to be a better person but struggling much, I have been through hell and have always been strong I thank god for the pain and suffering in my life because god made me strong, but it took me a long time to get close even a little bit, once I started praying to marry my life changed fast, I have many spiritual gifts that have intensified lately because of my connection and people don’t like me now that I’m Christian and people generally hate me when they find out I’m Christian and had to leave a job because of it, it’s disgusting the animosity I get from people, but I don’t care because I know what’s coming, I try to suffer now to save myself and others, I learned how to love again and feel like I have finally arrived in life, I don’t work because I am sick and have a crazy disease, but recently just bought a bunch of miraculous medals to give to people, I love marry as much as my own mother and she has brought me to Jesus, I have no friends because most are dead or I can’t be around that sin and cut them from my life, I have no wife or gf but I don’t feel lonely and I’m so greatful to have no one because it allows me to solely focus on what I am speaking about, people tell me I should write a book about my life, and I tell people no one would believe it anyway lol 😂 I have survived two murder attempts and lived a life of blasphemy and sin and have been through more than anyone I know and I can see the rotting heart of society and I am a survivor because god willed it I want to let you know you can change and you must change if you want to make it to heaven, I want to help people and that’s all I have ever wanted to do and now with the guidance of my lord I can, thank you Gabi I love your channel, it inspires me, I try to stay away from anything secular and have become obsessed with the Holy Spirit, I speak to god and marry and the saints all day long in my head And I receive many messages, messages of love letting me know they have always been with me and will always be with me, I am now looking to become a monk or friar maybe, and I want to say one last thing When I was 15 my father attacked me and I remember floating in and out of consciousness from the blows of his elbows and fists and would come back and see him choking me, I remember knowing I was dying and was scared, and knew I was getting closer and closer and couldn’t control my body, was so weak, and for some reason I felt more at peace than anytime before that, and praying to marry lately she let me know she was with me that day 😢 so beautiful….i would love to speak to you to ask about advice on becoming involved with a church and giving myself to god, I am willing to because I’m too sick to work and I just had another good friend kill himself a few months back and tired of it, so many of my friends were defeated by Satan and I know I can be a guiding force with god pulling the strings to help people because my life has been so crazy and wild no one thought I could change let alone pass the age of 21 and have lived well past that age lol, is there any website I can go to, to find an email or contact info? Or any place you can send me to speak to someone that can help? Thank you my brother
