Hurting, Exhausted, Emotional, and Crying… A Lot! I’m Not Okay… We Are All Hurting 

I’m an introvert and hate “socializing”. You are not alone and there is nothing wrong with you. Really.

I am so sorry for your pain! I lost my mom last October to Alzheimer. She had just turned 91 years old. I know it was time for her to be with our Savior. She lived a good life, but still it hurts not to have her. She was my person. I thought it wouldn’t be as hard because of her age, but I was wrong. If it’s hard for me. I understand it is harder for you. Your wife was young. She had so much to see fulfilled in her life. She left two young children and an awesome husband. With time I hope and pray that it will become less painful.🙏🏻😔🌷🌷🌸💐

Yes my friend,...this is a club wanted to join. Only time will help this one,......have buried two of my children 7 years apart,...both at 23,....2006 and 2013. I am finally functional MOST days. I am sorry you are hurting so much! Agape love to you Hon.

Just remember it's okay not to be okay!❤

Josh, Im so sorry. I follow Kyle Apple as well and wow the similarities. It sucks! I can't imagine that life. I can only support, send prayers, and stay subscribed to your channel to help out. You're doing such an amazing job. I have no words of wisdom here except to say that you wake up each day, take care of your kids, you go to work and you keep pushing through and thats a choice, that you have made so please give yourself credit. Who could ask for more. I wish we could do more, but no one can fill that void. Stay strong, Josh. Sending prayers and hugs from your friend in Texas ❤ 🙏 Sarah would be so proud of all of you!

My mother passed away on 9/04/2006 on her 65th birthday from cancer. I still grieve ans at times I just start bawling out of nowhere, just a fleeting memory that's all it takes. It's not dumb or stupid, when you love much you grieve much. Praying for you and your kids.

It doesn’t matter that thousands of people are going through grief. Your pain is still your pain. Sometimes tears are the only thing you can do when you’re feeling grief pounding down on you. Loss of your person is so profound. 😪🫶🏼

I would start crying any time, any place. Don’t fight it. Yes, being tired makes it even harder. I know the road you’re on. It’s brutal. God bless you. Wonderful father and husband.

Josh. My heart goes out to you. I also lost the love of my life Aug 21 last year. We were together 50 years. I was also his caregiver for years. Vascular dementia. I know where you are. It’s a lonely place. Crying comes all the times. I need to talk to him, and he’s not there . We are just trying to get some normalcy in our lives, when life is all screwed up. Let your feeling flow freely. Love you, and we will find light at the end of this backtu

You wonderful wonderful man! It’s not stupid or dumb grieving the way you are. You loved your wife and the kids loved their mother. She was an amazing person to you all. Grief isn’t cutting dry when I went through it I found it’s like you’re on a surfboard and you got a ride the wavessometime the waves are big and sometimes they’re not. But there’s always waves. Hang in there, my friend be the father to your children that you are one day at a time one hour at a time or one minute at a time you will get through it.

I’m sixty two. I found out a week ago that my son (my only child) has kidney cancer. He has a newborn, a three year old and a teenager. Scared, hysterical, calm, numb…the fear is paralyzing. Why? Why? Why did this happen?

I just watched kyle Appleford going thru the same thing it is hard losing your spouse so young but Sarah's always there in spirit and in heart she would want you to get rest for the kids

Goodness Josh, it’s only been a short few months since Sarah passed, give yourself some grace. Perhaps finding a new night time routine may help both you and your kiddos. It’s important to feel, it’s just not ok to stay in that darkness. I watched my in-laws try to keep things as if nothing happened when we lost my mother in law. I learned that was unhealthy, not only for the family but for others as well. I didnt bring her back, but instead made the loss even more unbearable. So when I lost both my parents as well as several other profound losses, you have to make new routines, new memories. By no means does it mean you are forgetting your loved one, but instead making them proud.

SO sorry that you are going through this hellish experience. About 5 months after my husband died, I really thought that I was going insane. Knowing that other people are going through the same thing, does not diminish your pain at all !

Give yourself grace❤

You are not alone. You do whatever it is you need to do to take care of you. Sleep is key to coping better. If you can’t do something then don’t. Love and prayers ❣️🙏🏻

So I suffer from mental health. Like super bad. And I do this thing where I leave old 80s and 90s sitcoms in the background for comfort and safety. It’s hard because you need someone to take care of you and you have to run the house and life. It’s like a giant hug, we need someone to take care of us when we aren’t okay. Everything was safe back then and I didn’t have to worry. It’s just this trick I do. It helps. So many hugs. Wish I could be there for you now.

I’m so sorry for everything you are going through. I have been missing so bad my loved ones who are no longer with me and I’ve cried for lots of days that’s the only thing that helps. We are all going through tough times and hour tough times matter too. Grief is not easy ! I heard this saying “ grief never really gets much better with time , you just learn how to carry it differently!” I am praying for you and your family 🙏💕🙏🙏🙏🙏

You are so spot on, unless you’ve lived it you can’t explain it. Of course you don’t want anyone to be part of this club. I want you to know you have helped me with this video. It’s not ridiculous, it’s real. It’s validating. As Always, Sending an Abundance of Love, Strength, Peace and Kindness.

I know it’s controversial, but I take Xanax to “shut my brain off” when I’m spinning - it works awesome for me and I’m still able to do my job at work with no problem. Medications of course will not take your pain away, but it might help give your racing brain a rest. You’re going through one of the worst possible experience anyone could ever go through. We’re all loving you from afar Josh ❤

Grief is temporary insanity with relentless pain. I didn’t start feeling somewhat ‘normal’ until 2 years after the loss of my husband. My unsolicited advice: accept the madness, accept the pain, know that it will pass a day at a time and you will come out the other side stronger than you ever thought you could be. Sending so much love to you 💜

Josh you are not stupid you're going through the worst time of your life. And you feel the weight on your shoulders of the world because you have a family to take care of. I hope that you've been going to a grief class if not do you find the ones right away. It is very good for you. I have been to it I know how helpful it can be. You need others that understand and are there to help hold you up. You are in my prayers my heart goes out to you. Please hang on and ask God for one more day of strength. Today's all that matters. I know that you're planning on moving eventually and I think that will be an exciting time for your boy especially. Just hang in there.❤

My heart breaks for you. It isn't a ridiculous video. You are grieving, and that's ok. I'm sure at your work and especially your friends from work understand. I'm so sorry that you guys are going through this. Big hugs, Josh!!

I’m so sorry, my friend. Allow yourself to feel these feelings. And I’m proud of you for sharing these feelings with us. We love you. You will get through this. You will. ❤

You're asking too much of yourself. You're entitled to your grief. You are so hard on yourself. Let your grief flow out of you with your tears. You don't need to be Superman all of the time. It's OK to share your grief. There is no timeline for you to be OK. We're here to love and support you and your family. It is an honor to share your grief. You can't always be strong. You need some time to rest and recharge. We all do. I hope you will be able to get the precious time you absolutely need. You are doing a two person job by yourself. Right now it really doesn't matter what other people are going through. You are unique and you are allowed to carve your own path. Ask Sarah to help you. She knows you best. Be kind to yourself. ❤

Josh I know how u feeling I was crying on and off this passed weekend was very emotional missing my mom miss her so much 😭😭😭😭

Prayers for your comfort! You will get thru this. Your tired and emotionally worn out. Your wife is right there in your heart listen to her.

I'm so sorry Josh my heart breaks for you everything your feeling I feel I lost my dad to cancer in 2009 but I know he is in heaven but since 2013 I've been taken care of my mom who has altimers which is a slow death basically I am her only care taker until last year my Aunt her sister started working with her 3 days out of the week but this emotional rollercoaster ride everyday is horrible and my heart breaks and not just for myself my heart breaks for all who is hurting when you said you don't want to talk I understand I truly felt that that's how I feel at times so here is a big hug from a hurting heart to yours no words but just kindness and love ❤ God bless

Hello Josh, I am sorry you're going through this. I lost my mom and a good friend to cancer and went through it all was there all along, was there when my mom passed away, was there when she was dying. It's tough, it's unfair, it's devastating. Let it out, Josh, talk to us, we are listening, we hear you, week feel for you. It's okay, it's hard, it's awful, it's not fair. We Will never understand why some things happen and happen to good people. I am sorry you and the kids are going through this. Please remember that we are here and we hear you. I am sending you all a big virtual hug, not much but I hope it can give you some relief. Much love. Xxx

Tears are a part of the journey, and please don't feel like we need an apology for the emotions you are sharing. We are here with you because we choose you. We want to hold this space for you to be, to feel or to say anything. It is a hard road and I hope seeing all these comments from everyone gives you a measure of peace that you are never alone. Sending you a huge hug from Texas.

Even though when Sarah was there she was not feeling well most of the time, she was still there. My grandmother told me that when she and my grandfather were together, he was not much of a talker but the thing she missed the most was, sitting at the breakfast table together every morning and sharing the morning newspaper and having their morning coffee in complete silence. Sarah was your soul mate and your go to person.

I lost my husband of 46 years March 1, 2021 and I still cry everyday. I cry for what cold have been, should have been. I cry for my kids missing their dad. I cry because he was my best friend, we shared everything in life. I wish I could say it gets easier, but I can’t. I can tell you that it changes. I don’t know how to explain how it changes but it does. 😢 praying for you and your sweet family that god gives your the strength to carry on without your beautiful wife.

I wrote this on the one year anniversary of my dad dying: " It's wild to me how the world keeps turning; how you are still expected to "do" and "be" and "breathe". Sooner than you think, the time comes when you are no longer "supposed" to be sad; you have to get back to the business of living. Meetings. Shopping. Parenting. Paying bills. Society (and capitalism) are incompatible with grief. People get back on their bullshit at a breathtaking speed and expect you to be ready with your shovel in hand, grief be damned." Our world doesn't seem to allow any time for grieving...you are just expected to go on. It's wrong and so overwhelmingly painful. Thinking of you. Did you watch Wandavision? There was a quote in that show; "What is grief if not love persevering?"💔❤️ Edit - Correct quote

Josh grieving is a journey….one day at a time!

It’s brutal, raw, gut-wrenching. Even without feeling exhausted. I truly hope Sarah somehow comes to you tonight in some way to comfort you and help you figure out what’s spinning. I think the OCD is really control trying to happen because so much of the grief stuff is uncontrollable. Could try to change up the bed time routine a little with Reylah when it’s getting tough? Maybe Braeden could read to her sometimes or Amelia could? Gives them a bit of extra bonding time together and could maybe take some of the pressure off you at those times. Just a thought. I think so many of us wish we were just around the corner and could offer a helping hand, ear, shoulder. I’m so sorry you’re all going through this (and for anyone else going through similar). You’re going to make it through and we are here with you. 🫂💙💞

I suck at doing life, too You are not alone..

So sad for you and Kyle Appleford for losing your wives. You both are wonderful men struggling. I wish you both could connect. ❤💙🦋

You are doing your very best and remember that our best looks different sometimes. You are grieving not only your person, but also the life you shared together, and what you thought the future would look like. You’re still going to work, taking care of the kids, and doing everything you need to be doing. Please give yourself the same grace that you extend to others. I’m so sorry.

I think when we first lose our person we experience numbness along with the grief, we get much support and we focus on our children as we create a new normal. But underneath is a deep river of loss and grief. We adapt to our new home and routine without our person, our children adapt quicker and are doing okay, we relax allowing that frozen coping to thaw and that river of grief erupts enveloping us in sadness and nostalgia. You will get through this and continue your healing.

Josh,please consider getting a prescription for and antidepressant. My husband passed and I thought I could push through it. I was wrong. I started having anxiety attacks and thought I was losing it altogether. I was prescribed lexapro and it really helped take the edge off and helped me sleep( after reading the bottle to take in the morning) Not long after my husband passed my sister lost both of her sons (one just six months) I talked her through getting a prescription for lexapro and I can easily say it made a world of difference. Sending prayers of strength you way ♥️

Josh i can relate to the song conected to your loved onen That song for myself with my Mother whom has been gone for six years is by Chris Stapleton's BROKEN HALOS, maybe if you listen it might help a little because the words are so deep to me. I know that you are going to have good and bad days. Josh you sre just going through the motions are we are all here for you. When you are happy we are happy with you and when you are sad we feel it to. Just be you Josh, that is all we can ask of you because you are only human.

Sending hugs your way. You are going through tough times and its normal to break down at times. Always remember you are loved by us all.❤❤❤

If ur sitting outside by yourself look up at the heavens and say a prayer u don't have to use many words just ask God to give you strength and help you through this sad times, i promise you u will feel inner peace 🙏

I’m so sorry Josh, it’s ok to be feeling this way, it’s grief, it’s life during hard times. You are not alone even though you may feel that way. Looking after young children alone is not easy, trying to work trying to run a household, do all the stuff. Being tired definitely makes things so much worse, it’s not easy and it’s not fair. But it’s “OK”, you feel lost, you feel overwhelmed, you feel sad, all the horrible feels. Just know there are good feels that will come. I understand you’re not knowing how to be a friend. I am going through a very long 3 year divorce, I was thinking maybe I might start dating again, but I don’t think I can do love any more, I don’t think I have it in me. I don’t have any real friends close by, as I have never been one to have a lot of friends, my life was always about my family, my children. I can not tell you how to be a friend, as I don’t know how myself. Just always be a good person and love your family, I think and I hope the rest will all fall into place. Big hugs to you 😊❤

I wish I could give you a hug. You are such a wonderful person. I pray the Lord places His loving hand upon your life and gives you strength to get through each day. Your kids are your blessings and the love you share with them will help you go on. Keep the headphones on, don't interact with people if you don't want to, do whatever you want to do, everyone handles grief differently so don't feel strange about it. Take care of yourself and know we are all pulling for you.

Grief isn’t ridiculous, Josh. Try to get more sleep because when we don’t get enough REM sleep which happens mostly towards the morning, everything in our waking lives seems worse. Wishing you peace as you go through this difficult time.

Many hugs sent your way Josh. Yup, grief is so tough.

Feel pain for all people who lost their loved ones. Life is so unfair. Understand your feelings. Send you support ❤. Anyway you’re doing great. Hugs for you and the kids.

You’re not weird. You’re trying to control the uncontrollable. Emotions will come out and maybe not in a way you’re expecting. There’s no easy way to go through grief. You don’t think so right now but you will survive. We all care about you ❤

I also grieve and it hurts so bad. I don't usually cry, but tonight I saw his handwriting on a wired box that he had written which rooms it went to when he wired the house and I lost it big time. Don't feel bad about it. You are OK.

Sarah was very special. ❤

Music is my therapy. We hear you 🩵🩵XXX

Thank you for trusting us with this very personal part of your life. I am so sorry for the pain you are feeling and the struggles you are experiencing. Let those feelings out. It’s not okay, but you will be okay.

I've been through this myself. In fact my pain was not just mental but in fact it hurts physically. I felt suicidal at times, and finally went to my doctor for help. She put me on an antidepressant that did calm me to where I could sleep. I don't consider a little help weakness at all! ❤

Josh, i am so sorry for your heartache and pain, please stop been so hard on yourself, everybody deals with grief in a different way, be a little kinder to yourself, take one day at a time! Thank you for sharing and making a difference

You so must miss Sarah,your very beautiful, wife & gifted singing increable and mother to ur kids ,,,,, such raw truth,, that even if seem ok,, inside silently still a struggle...you aren't kidding. Griefs waves can be intense at times. Hang in there. Be gentle to self, and 1 thing at a time take care of you first before even worrying about being social, your going through alot as a single working parent up at night , grief is exhausting on top of loss of sleep with kids. I'm praying for you. Bless you for being so honest as grief is a journey I am learning too. I feel for you,

Thank you for sharing your grief journey with us. One day at a time is all I can say. 💔

🎶🎵🗣🙏"What a friend we have in Jesus...all our sins and grieves to bare...what a privilege to carry...everything to God in prayer..."🎵🎶

Sending prayers,love and hugs Josh it does get better xx

Prayers Josh

Are you leaning on people to help you? You need rest. Not getting enough sleep doesn't help this incredibly sad and frustrating change in your life.

No words of wisdom Josh, just kind thoughts sent your way and know we feel your pain ❤❤

Big hugs to you Josh ❤

My heart is with you. I'm much older than you and the pain is real. My husband passed in 2011 from complications of HepC and liver cancer. I sobbed at some point everyday for 4 years. My children were grown, but I did have a parrot that needed me. He was the reason I got up in the morning. He passed 4 years ago. My heart totally broke in 2 and half of my heart is in heaven. We go on and through, knowing that one day we will see them again. It's so hard. But, somehow we make it. Blessings to you and know you're not alone. I also have an infant daughter in heaven. Let your children guide you with their innocence.

Josh, my heart goes out to you. What you were saying is not dumb or stupid. You are going to be riding this Rollercoaster for awhile. You will get through this. It's good to be letting these feelings out. I think that anyone who cares about you will understand your down days and moods. I'm ocd as well and I know all about the obsessive thoughts and compulsions. You are struggling now but you will lift yourself back up again. Grief is a process. I'm hoping that you are getting " me" time and do something kind for yourself!!! Hugs and❤

Im sending you so much love, compassion and comfort. I know this is apart of your journey but damn it hurts my heart to see you suffer and be in so much emotional pain. Sending you the hugest, tightest hug. Your kids are amazing and will be fine. It's important that you let them see your emotions. It allows them to feel comfortable to share their own grief 🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰

You have to go through it, can’t go around. We are all praying for you. I hope you’re getting mental health help. It’s a lot. Single parenting is so hard. We love you, keep going, cry and do what you need to do❤❤❤❤❤❤

Josh my heart is breaking for you. Please don't hesitate to talk to a professional and reach out to your doctor to prescribe an anti -depressant and or something to calm you down. Please Josh reach out to your family for help or just surround yourself with those you love. Sending you strength , hugs and love. Donna P.S. The picture is my husband.

Your pain is justified, give yourself grace. Your grief journey is your own and it takes time. Take it one minute, one hour, one day at a time. It’s okay to feel what you’re feeling, confusion is natural. Grief is not rational, it’s emotional. Please don’t be afraid to ask for help. You need rest, my friend. Try to get some sleep. Your body and your mind need rest. We’re here for you! You are loved.

Dearest Josh, I wish there was something I could say to comfort you . Grief is the hardest thing to endure. My husband died almost 15 months now. Still seems like yesterday. We only had each other to. I don't have small children and your pain is much greater then mine but our hearts are broken and we understand what we are going through.I'm not me anymore and I don't know how to live alone. Please don't think you're dumb, you are grieving and going through so many emotions and yet you continue to help so many of us. We are all here for you .I always send a hug to all who are grieving the loss of someone they loved as we try to comfort one another.🫂❤️

Oh Josh I am so sorry for how heartbroken you are I just wish I could take away some of your pain. The memories are all part of the process but it doesn't make it any easier for you or your family. Like I said I wish k could help in some way. I am teaching out and giving you all a big hug. You ate LOVED Josh by all of you followers and we are all right there with you all. Please stay as strong as you can for yourself and your children.

Hi Josh, I am so sorry dear one, my heart is with you. It is so hard and you are doing a phenomenal job. You are not stupid, you are enduring and you are showing steady courage. Of course you are tired beyond belief. You will make friends, believe me, but now may not be the time, it takes a lot of energy and its okay if you don't have that at the moment. Friendships will come with time. Sometimes all we can do is live moment to moment. Can I make two suggestions as someone who has come to really care about you Josh, you need a small break from the routine, you need your family to come and take the kids for a few days. Don't worry about incoviencing them, tell them what it is you need. You need a couple of days of deep sleep the kind that comes from knowing that you won't be woke up. The kids may need a little break from you as well. The grandparents would probably like some one on one time. Its a win win. Please please do it this weekend don't put it off if you can help it. Its okay if the kids routines are off for a few days or a game is missed ect. They need you feeling better more than anything else. Also keep your head in the moment, at this very moment all is well. The kids are safe, you have a job, all the plans and worries that are whirling around will be figured out, but not today. You are right where you should be the "feels" are appropriate and need to be felt. Don't compare yourself to others in your group or to some ideal that you have in your mind. Its going to be like this for awhile, but the pain. You will get there Josh, stay grounded and please get someone to take the kids this weekend so you can have the time you need to rest your mind. Its the only thing I know of for sure 100 percent that helps.

It’s you. That’s okay. Flow as best you can. It doesn’t get easier but it does get better. We love and pray for u to ok and your family.

You are doing well Josh, we are very proud of you ❤

You are overwrought, insomnia and racing thoughts go hand in hand sadly. How long has it been since you packed up the kids and sent them to someone for the weekend? Be good to yourself, if you need a weekend to let racing thoughts and sadness rule the day then I think you should give yourself the space to be unhinged, you know what I mean? You'll come out the other side better for it. I remember in the early days soaking in the tub for hours crying and just letting everything I have been holding together just go. Take care of yourself, Josh.

What you are feeling is the same thing that felt when I was 42 when my husband died. I have had 23 years without him and it is still have hard days. Not having a spouse by your side makes it hard because that was your go to person. I really hate you had to join this single hood grief group. Just know that what you are grieving. This is something you have to go through during this time. You are normal. Take care of yourself. 14:21

It’s okay your going through a rough situation counseling helps

I have been crying all day, missing my husband. But having to take care of children too, has to be so difficult. When I cry, I literally whail! I don’t like talking to people either. My heart is just not in it. I must have cried 2 hours today. Many prayers for you and the children. Keep your eyes on Jesus. You are right. People who have not been through it do not understand.

You are a great human. What you are going through is normal. This is a very helpful video. Remember that.

Josh, I’m so incredibly sorry that you have to go through this process and pain. I hope that one thing that will give you a measure of comfort on those extraordinarily hard days, is knowing that you have a community on here constantly thinking of you and your family and praying for you all. You mention that ‘I know I’m not the only one going through this..’ That’s correct. But just because you’re not the only one going through it doesn’t make your pain any less valid. It’s very real. Music can be very healing, so it’s great that you’re putting on your headphones and listening to music. Continuing to send you strength.

Josh I am so sorry you are going through this. Your feelings are not ridiculous. There is no guide book to what you are going through. Be kind to yourself. I am praying for you and your family.

I’m so sorry you have to go Through this. Grief is hard no way around it. I found my first year when I lost my parents was the hardest bc I kept thinking a year ago she was here oh this holiday dad was here. It’s hard thoughts and Prayers to all of you.

No words Josh for the pain you are going through. Sending hugs and prayers to help you. 🙏🏻❤️

My Dad was going through Lung Cancer from effects of agent orange from Vietnam I lost Dad on Jan 8th 2023 and I was watching your vlogs and people just don't get it I am still going to counseling and I still have the nights of no sleep or barely any. I have my days where its a day to stay in bed. I miss my Dad badly I took care of him for 14 years I was at his side from day one to end of life! I did all I could to help Dad there just was nothing that could be done. Dad was 74 he passed 1 month prior to his 75th bday! I am now in group counseling and it shocks me that I am not the only one I am not nuts like I thought I was! I thank you for your vlogs they help me and a lot of your bad days I've either had them or know what to look for.... THANK YOU! Sarah and Dad I know met and are watching us from above and guiding us ! ❤❤❤

Ahhh please don’t cry it makes me sad! I know your pain it’s so incredibly intense that it feels so crazy and being alone doesn’t cut it but trust me in time it will heal so try to occupy yourself with challenges yup you might not feel like it but it does help most of the time!! Keep smiling 😊

Much love from Ohio, Josh. I hope wish I could give you a great big hug right now! 💞💞💞💞

Reaching out to others who are in your position would be so beneficial for you both. I hope you have retained a close relationship with Sarah's family because they love your children and they are your family too. God provides

I'm so sorry😢

I’m watching this because I’m depressed too , life can be very hard & sad 😢 hope you start feeling better . ❤🙏🏻

It's heartbreaking that you're in so much pain. Like many others here, I also wish I could reach through the screen and give you a big, comforting hug. There is NOTHING "overly emotional" or "ridiculous" about this video. It's good for you to express how you truly feel and release the tension that you continually hold inside while you're doing your best to function amongst others in your daily life. I really hope you'll be able to sleep better again. Liquid melatonin for sleep support helped me get through my tough times. Thinking of you and wishing you well.

Prayers for you 🙏🏽

One breath. One minute. One hour. Repeat.❤

Much love❤

Sending big hugs & lots of love. I’m so sorry Josh. I agree it’s so much more heavier to handle anything when you are not sleeping well. It’s hard having patience with every situation too. I am a grumpy monster until I have my first cup of coffee lol. When my kids weren’t tired at night. I would make them a peanut butter sandwich NO Jelly with a warm glass of milk. It would work wonders. I made sure they wouldn’t eat any sweets or drinks early in the evening. Otherwise I would be in for a long night with them 🤦🏻‍♀️. I would read them books and before you know it they were sleeping and I could spend some me time before going to sleep. I couldn’t sing to them before bed otherwise they would get so overstimulated and would take even longer to fall asleep. On weekends when they didn’t have school the following morning I would sing songs to them. If the weather was nice I would take them to the park after doing homework and let them use up their energy. Don’t be so hard on yourself. You are doing a great job. You will be okay Josh. I hope you are able to sleep very well tonight. Good night and sweet dream. We love you all ❌⭕️🥰😍😘❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

I just lost my husband of 55years on December 2 2023. I feel your pain. Just when you think you are doing ok you crash and burn. Hang in there. I’ll be keeping you in my prayers. 🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏❤️

I hurt for you as my family has gone through this for the past year and a half, I commend you for showing how hard it is losing a spouse, I just can’t imagine, put God in your prayers and leave it to him, we are all here for you🌻

❤ 4 years a widow, I feel your pain, your videos bring me comfort because I relate to what you say, stay strong x

You are doing good. Must be hard to balance life and work but it's okay to let it all out by us. You are one amazing dad and you must take one day at a time. Your grief is deep and just know we have you in our prayers. As far as South Africa. May God take your heart in His Hands and guide you. Sarah is looking down on you and leaving you signs that she is with you in Spirit.Lots of love

❤️ and hugs to you.

Josh, grief, depression and anxiety are exhausting in themselves. Trying to hold it together for other people is exhausting, just waiting to be alone so that you can brawl your eyes out. ALL of this is exhausting. You are a lovely guy, once you feel better and at some point you will, you will have no problems attracting friends.Like you,I am grieving, happy things make me cry even more so than sad things. Again ,like you sometimes I use ear plugs so I am in my own little world and can't hear the outside world. Thankyou for opening up your heart, listening to you today has helped me ❤ xx