Omg got me bawling Myles.....everything you said I have dealt and deal with daily.....I'm 39 and yes at times it's a struggle to understand society especially when some people are unaware of the signs and symptoms of FASD. Thank you for being an advocate and giving me strength. I hope you come to Kamloops again would love to come listen to you.
Bulling me has messed me up and I don't believe in myself. I get so worried and scared of what people say. I would love to be a singer or actor but because I have been told I am useless, worthless, retarded, people said I deserve to die. People said such horrible nasty dark things to me, that cut really deep. I believed all the negative stuff and hated myself and harmed myself because I believed that that was my destiny and my only purpose to be a punching bag and that I was only good for getting beaten up badly and sexually abused and taken advantage of. I fear that I could never perform because I am too scared and insecure. I now suffer mental illness but not because of my FASD but because of all the hard times I had in life. I had no one there for me not even one friend. I couldn't talk to my adopted parents about anything because they would just blame me and say I deserved it and I never got empathy or sympathy, I had to deal with my crap all by myself. Somehow it hasn't made me a bad person. I am able to be kind and caring and have compassion for people and empathy and sympathy for people Eventhough I never got it so I don't know how I am so lovely. I am so glad that I have such love for people and all living things. I would rather die than be like the bullies who hurt me. I choose love always and forever. I am very strongly against any form of abuse
