My Dad was like that. A Jekyll and Hyde, and alcohol was the reason. But he became an overcomer when he dedicated his life to Christ. Thanks be to God.
I have never heard another person who understands grief and loss in the same way that I do. I heard his heart so loud and clear. This is something very few people can do. I loved the part "it doesn't get easier, it just gets different". There's nothing more true.❣
Caleb, You can see that you are such a good man! I am sure that holding in loss, not being able to communicate it, was just so hard back then. Now, look at how you can teach and preach! Keep your eyes towards the good, you being you is a gift to Granger! Thanks for sharing man. #Brave Yee Yee
I have to say God is good, This podcast could not have been a better time in my life. I just lost my father on July 31st from cancer. He was my best friend, best man, and my hero and listening to this I now completely understand the grief and the feelings that Im currently going through. And Caleb you're right the grief is the reason but not the excuse. Thank You!!
Props to Caleb for sitting down and talking with you, you can see how uncomfortable he is talking about it and how embarrassed he is of his younger self and actions. And huge props to you Granger for not kicking him to the curb and turning your back. You kept him around and gained a great friendship and devoted employee. Good ending to a crazy story.
This is absolutely my favorite podcast by far. I love to hear not just the good but the bad and bringing more light to depression. Thank you Caleb for your vulnerability and Granger for giving a voice for loss and depression. Bravo !
Thank you for doing this podcast! I feel it took a lot of courage to put this out to the public. Its one of those things that is super difficult to talk about but something everybody deals with at some point in their life. Grainger you are a good man for not giving up on Caleb and Caleb I admire you for not giving up on life.
I know what it feels like to loose a brother and to fall and hit rock bottom and having to build your self back up again but it makes you a better person and it also helps to have good friends to help you through it and God doesn't give us things that we cant handle God bless you brother
This has to be one of my favorite episodes. Grief is so different for everyone, and it seems like the least talked about things. I lost my husband 3 months and 25 days ago and its a struggle everyday. Sometimes I think I fight so hard to let myself truly grieve because I don't know how I will be. I fear the anger part of grief, my husband was my absolute best friend, I loved hard so I know that's why I'm grieving so hard. And having three kids you have to lead through grief too, adds even more difficulties. I'm so glad you used this platform to show the ugly side of grief, not just the all "wrapped up in a bow and try to make it look as good as you can" side.
I am so sorry to hear this. You and your family are in my prayers. Grief is not at all pretty. It has its ups and its downs and no one grieves the same. Please rech out to someone, even me if you ever need to talk.
This is great that Caleb is willing to share this! Can't be Easy, and probably embarrassing but there was probably someone that needs to hear this to know they can get over there demons!!! Congrats Caleb for getting through, glad you had great friends to help you get though!!
His story is touching ppls lives every second of every moment. This is from a year ago! I did not look at the date. The title lead me to this very moment from a YEAR AGO! How awesome is THAT?!!? I needed to hear and see this today! Keep on Keeping on Granger! 🙏🙏💙🙏🙏 YEE YEE 😆 P. S. I’M 70 years old!
Bless his heart Grief and Divorce are about the same to me..you are both amazing and talking about this and realizing your triggers are the most beneficial thing you could ever do..you might not realize it at the time but it is...I have went to alot of therapy over alot of years over horrible things that happened to me growing up..I started a diary because my husband never allowed me to talk about flashbacks I was having and I had to tell someone to I told Jesus in a diary..I had to go in the hospital for 3 months and the best thing that a teacher their taught me was to write down my grief and gave me the opition to read it out loud or rip it up and put into a paper bag..I chose both and omgosh it hit me so hard reading it out loud for the first time and my healing began and I haven't picked it up no more..now I sill have flashbacks about it and I just talk to Jesus like I would be talking to you guys...I love how you never gave up on your friend Granger, he will never forget that as long as he lives..I would love to hear more of his story...love you all forever and a day...
Thank you for sharing your story. I can so relate! My sister, my best friend, is a recovered alcoholic. At her worst, she did terrible things. She would never remember anything the next day. So many horrible memories coming back. But, i got my sister/best friend back. Praise God!
Caleb, I was you after my daughter passed away. Bless your heart for being so candid about your grief, it is a hard journey to walk. I was so destructive of myself, other and all personal property of anyone that got in my way. I will pray for you for the journey that you have to face for years ahead of you. Granger you are an amazing friend to stand by his side and not give up on him, I wish I could say the same of my friends and family.
Well kinda feeling like someone kicked me in the stomach right now after watching the podcast ....def want to hear the end/beginning of the story of how this grew with Caleb. I can def relate to the grief and feeling like you just want to destroy something because of it. I’m glad to see he’s doing better now for sure! 💕💕
First let me say Caleb I’m so very sorry for your losses. I can’t even imagine how painful that was and still is. I lost my little sister when she was 17 (I was 27) and I was devastated. I can see your pain and shame 😪... I’m so happy for you that you have people (Granger and crew) in your life that have stood by you that’s a huge blessing!
Thank you Caleb for opening your heart to us. My grief journey helps me to relate to yours. Prayers to you and your family. It would be an honor to hear from you again.🙏🏼
Boy Granger ... well said! Exactly how I feel when I see incredible nature phenomenons. Our problems and us, ourselves, seem sooo small when seeing something so grand! Sedona AZ always brings out that emotion as well. Thanks for sharing this story. It’s very relatable. Most of us have been in similar situations or we have been that person who is out of control.
I lost my dad last year to heart failure, which resulted in my younger brothers turning to drugs to cope with it! So all in all I feel like I’ve lost my brothers as well! One of them is looking at jail time and the other brother is going to prison! It’s hard to think about it but I gotta tell myself to be their older brother and help them through it! I hope they use this as a wake up call and can come home changed! Put god first and make it a priority to change your life for yourself! It’s tough but it’s not impossible! God bless y’all and yee yee
Definitely need a part 2 to hear the rest of y'all's story! It's easy to see the bond y'all share is strong - and I'm sure even more unique with both of your stories of grief and guiding one another at different times in your lives.
Wow! This speaks volumes of both of you to be where you are today. You saw someone in need and didn’t give up. I would love to hear the rest of this friendship!!
Just watched listen to the podcast. I have to say I understand the anger from the grief and also from an artistic person. My husband passed and nearly 4 months later my brother passed. Long story I’ve never dealt with the grief until I went to therapy. Caleb I I understand. I wanna hear more from Caleb. Thank you Granger for this podcast. I pray it helps those that are grieving recognize there is another side. God bless!
Thank you Caleb for sharing your story.Grief is an awful thing I've seen some people deal poorly with it but people can come out the other side better. I'm glad that you have a good friend like Granger in your life.
Only 15 minutes in and I'm crying my eyes out. As a RN, my heart literally hurts for Caleb. What a sweet guy that's gone through so much. And the friendship you guys developed even through so much adversity. This was awesome.
I was at the Salina KS show Saturday! Was so great to see you guys perform some live country music!! All while sitting under the stars! What a great night, much needed for the soul.
I would love to hear more from Caleb. I learned from when my daddy died that it wasn’t the way to handle things. I had so much anger and hate, I didn’t know how to handle it and didn’t realize what I was doing. Took some time and learned. Also, I didn’t have God in my life. Years later my momma passed away and I did have God in my life. Made a world of difference for me. I still grieved but I wasn’t pushing everyone away. Everything Caleb said I could relate to. However, I can’t say that I know what he went through. I have no siblings. I did unexpectedly loose my son July 13th of this year and it totally pulled the rug out from under my feet. I am trying to deal with it one day at a time. Thank you Caleb for sharing and I hope ya’ll come back and finish your story. You are a an amazing man.
Please do another podcast with him and the storie of him not being your drummer anymore!!! Love u so much can't wait for the Yee Yee Nation song to come out have been loving the rebuilding earl dibbles truck series keep up the good work buddy!!!
More Caleb please. A similar situation I had with my son when he was about 14 and was having a hard time with his dad leaving us and the eventual divorce. He would take his anger out on me when he was angry with his dad. I asked him why he was taking it out on me instead of his dad. His response was not what I was expecting. He said "Because I know no matter what I say you will always love me unconditionally. I'm not sure about anyone else." From then on I didn't take it personally. As you said Granger you have to see them as not being themselves in that moment.
Life changes...we all go through hardships...loss and grief...but true friends..see one another through tough times..you guys are truely . .friends..that's something to cherish...thanks for sharing... Granger..and Caleb...
Crazy I saw this today. I lost a brother 3 years ago today. In 3 more days it will be 3 years to the day I put a gun in my mouth and pulled the trigger and it dry fired on me. Still fight it on a daily basis dealing with the loss of him and my dad. It is a daily grind to try and find the good days.
My husband is a combat veteran who lost brothers at war. Grief is a hard road. Your an amazing friend to stick through it. My husband has lost almost everyone and everything through it. It has been a lonely journey but God has carried us and has been putting people in our path lately
Thank you Caleb for your transparency, I needed to hear your story. I have been a widow since 2004 and I spent all these years in some kind of a holding pattern. Just going in circles and only pretending to try to move forward. But in reality I have been withdrawing more and more from the human race. I was thrilled when we had the 2020 lock downs because it meant that I could stay inside and I no longer had to pretend that I was living my own life. I could sleep all day and only have to talk to my three cats. I no longer had to get dressed or brush my hair. Sometimes I forget what my own voice sounded like. The city that I live in had riots and lots of shootings and high crime, so after the lockdown ended I used the fact that it was no longer safe to leave the house as my excuse. Now that things are getting a tiny bit more normal I have decided to sell my house and move deep into the mountains of West Virginia where I don’t know anyone and become a hermit. I think that that stupid plan, is my ‘walk to the mountain’. Other than 3 ducks and 6 chickens, and potted tomato plants, I have no clue about how to run a homestead. Everything I know, comes from a year of watching homestead videos on RU-vid. I am stuck in my grief and I don’t want to try to even pretend anymore. Your story helped me realize that I will not go backwards but I also can’t allow myself to just stand still for the rest of my life. I need to make a plan and seeing it through. Again, thank you.
Cannot wait for part 2... have peaked our interest on what happened next! Glad to see how adversity between you two has formed a stronger bond. PS. Voting for Earl in 2020. Yee Yee from NY !
This really hits home for me after my grandmother died i got very self-destructive and handled it very poorly . It took me along time to get my life together. Thanks for sharing.
So sorry caleb for your lose. Lost my dad to cancer 9 years ago and lost my paw paw to multiple strokes 8 years, lost my granny 2 years ago all while dealing with a chronic non contagious disease thru all this I learned grieve, don't let grieve and pain define you, give it to God and let God define you.
Caleb, I Can't even imagine what you went through, Although i have lost a brother and sister, They passed away when i was a baby, so in a way i'm lucky, God protected me from really getting to know them. I know one day ill get to meet them, but i am thankful that i didn't have to really endure that feeling of loss. My older bother and sister did however know them, and i don't think i'll ever really know how they feel. The most important thing i think most people take for granted, is your family. Because we are not promised tomorrow, i think people need to just breath and tell your loved ones you love them. I can see how God has worked in your life, and how he will and has used you. And Granger, Thank you for being such a good friend, father, husband, brother, and son! Your always uplifting those around you. Even with the loss of Riv, You and Amber, God bless your hearts, Still used it for Gods glory. Your always there to be a helping hand, and an inspiration to the world. Love you man, your family, your band. And i pray that God continues to use you guys as he already has. God Bless brothers! - Yee Yee!
Thanks Caleb for your honesty I’m A psychologist and I’ve seen the doctor check on Mr. Hyde and many of my clients who have suffered such severe loss. I see you as a very strong young man keep the relationships you have
What a strong & brave man. To be able to sit down and talk about all of this. Granger I am a firm believer that God placed Caleb in your path. He knew you n your band would help him. God bless you Caleb. Would like to see more of you Caleb on the podcast with Granger. Hugs and prayers 🙏💙🙏💙🙏
(Just sharing this) I lost my mom back in October 2013... Between losing my mom and losing motivation and not caring about work. Back around in 2015 I don't know what happened but it seems everything hit then I just didn't give a sh!✓ anymore about anything and quit my job.
I’ve been known to have a Hyde episode or two myself. Its not something I’m proud of at all and this is the first time I’ve actually admitted it out loud. I found this video very interesting cause it allowed me to see how it controlled someone else almost exactly the same way it controlled me. Self inflicting pain, unstoppable, no chance of reasoning, just full speed ahead without caution. Its difficult more times than not to keep it locked away. And I agree with Caleb that once it goes far enough, $1 million dollars probably couldn’t stop it. Can’t wait to hear more about Caleb and Granger.
I've been there Caleb. Within a few years, I lost my only child, my teenage son, and I also lost both of my younger brothers. It leaves this empty space inside that my emotions bounce around, bounce through it, and sometimes get hung up in it. And when I get hung up in that empty spot, how I react and or respond depends on what mood my mind is in at that moment. Sometimes I'm so angry, other times I'm very emotional, then there are times I just want to be left alone, and sometimes for days. It's hard to explain, and hard for many to understand. I find a lot of my prayers is me praying that nobody else will ever have to go through this and feel the things and the way I feel. I hope everyone has a wonderful week, and God Bless.
I didn't feel real "your heart breaks" grief until age 52 when I lost one of my top 3 favorite people, my Dad. Even though I've always been kind, I feel now that my words after a death are not fumbling so much💔. Caleb you've gone thru hell & back and I think you should be proud!!✌ My mom lost 2 brothers & I've said she shut down bcuz she's never been there emotionally & will not speak of them. That's not healthy. So keep that head high!!!
I absolutely want to hear more of Caleb's story. Please do the other podcast with him Granger telling what happened. I can COMPLETELY relate to handling loss the same way you did Caleb. When I lost my mom I went on a downward spiral that costed me A LOT. It took years for me to get back to who I was before and rebuild bridges. So many of us aren't alone and sharing these stories shows that!!
YES! Please send me the link to your second part. Like the whole world my world 🌎 is spinning out of control. I need your second part, please. I can and swill do a search to see if you already have uploaded the second part. Granger thank you for setting up your podcast. Our planet is flooded with tears from more people than I could ever count in a billion lifetimes. I saw you uploaded about y’all’s new baby. I’m gonna watch that first. 🙏💙🙏
Great Podcast.....one of my favorites. Caleb has a great personality, but also deals with demons and shows how good of a guy you are for seeing through the bad and forgiving him and helping him. Would definitely love to hear more from him, soon and to hear how he has grown and learned to deal with the anger and internal sadness.
Loved this podcast!! Way to go. I'm sure you still fight those demons daily but way to overcome that and have a healthy way to battle them. Would love to hear more!
Hi yall. Listening to this and nodding my head almost every 5min in agreement! Grief and trauma changes even the nicest person into a stranger. Would love to have the next installment with Caleb. WANT MORE CALEB!
I do relate to the pain.... severe pain of grief and loss. This really is a good story, of the realization on how grief runs through one's body like a Superball of LOVE...... you know that expression Love hurts..... well that superball pings in places you didn't know existed in your body, it can make it hard to breathe at times. Thanks for sharing this story.
I completely love the story of Caleb! I’m one, myself, who has destroyed the world “alcoholism”..... I’d like to believe so at least!! It’s a horrible disease that so many wish to overcome and this vlog me wishful!!!
I have to know more about the Caleb/Caleeb back story. Y'all are such great people, I'm glad you're still friends through all that.True character. You both have endured such tragic loss and heart ache, I'm glad you're overcoming it every moment you keep going. Appreciate your Monday morning podcasts! Always interesting, inspiring, and entertaining. Yee Yee
Its crazy listening to this. I've been in this position as Jekyll and hyde more times than I'd like to admit, and pretty much the only thing that can calm me down is the police. So much of this really resonated with me. Took years and many relationships to fight hyde off. Took me being completely sober from alcohol for 8 years and having a daughter, for me to wake up.
I am #3 of 3 girls. We go by numbers too. 3girls 2 boys. I am still catching up on past pod cast. I have had to struggle with losing my brother. (#1. Lol) And it’s been years. And I still feel that pain. Praying for your and your family. God bless you Granger and your family. ♥️🙋🏻♀️🇺🇸
More Caleb time for sure!! It may be different from the Glam Jams, But It Is Real Life Experience between you two, & why you guys are Still Here TOGETHER STILL!!!!!
Absolutely, we want more Caleb. Appreciate you, Caleb, being willing to share your story. Liked how you put it, about dealing with grief. “It doesn’t get better; it gets different, and sometimes the different is the answer to prayers.” I am so sorry for your loss. You two are so funny. Granger: “I was Hillary.”🤣😂 Caleb: ...”Hard crossword puzzles or knitting pattern to not give up on.” “Khalid is a big fan of law enforcement.” ... having an “affinity to corrugated paper.” Being an “onion of a man.” I can see why y’all are such good friends. 🙏❤️
