I Can FEEL It... Types of FLASHBACKS | PTSD & Dissociative Identity Disorder

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@katykrepp7605 5 лет назад

Thank you from the bottom of my heart for always making everyone feel valid. When I have described my trauma to people in the past -- even therapists -- I've been ridden off because, by a lot of peoples' standards, my trauma isn't considered as "severe." I have only ever been loosely diagnosed with PTSD because I didn't think I ever had flashbacks (because in my mind that was the stereotype of the full flashback), but now that I've watched this video I suddenly have realized that I have. I have body memories multiple times a week and I didn't even know it. You also have helped me to come to terms with the fact that I have more than one traumatic event in my life because previously I only thought of one. The amount of power that can be given or taken away by validating someone's experiences is earth shattering, and saying thank you isn't justice.

@MetalMouth6963 5 лет назад

Dude Im so sorry people haven't believed you. It doesn't matter how severe it seems to other people, it is severe to you and that's so so unfair

@kittycartoon4173 5 лет назад

It was the same for me! I´m sorry for what you had to experience but I´m glad to hear that I´m not alone with it. Your ptbs, your feelings and symptoms are valid!

@miadvorak02 5 лет назад

it was the same for me.. please stay strong and always know, that your thoughts and emotions are 100% valid!

@perfumaphilia3246 5 лет назад

I'm so sorry you had to go through that, but happy you now have a better understanding of your trauma and are being validated. I can definitely relate. I'm still unsure of whether or not the symptoms I experience can even be called "PTSD". But regardless, all trauma needs to be validated and taken seriously, even if it doesn't fit the usual mold.

@sarahm2312 5 лет назад

I’m so sorry your trauma wasn’t taken seriously. You deserve to be heard and respected.

@jaysmindpalace 5 лет назад

“Triggers don’t have to make sense, that’s not what matters. What matters is they are triggers, & that’s how your brain is working to process that memory” thank you for this, Chloe

@salemkate444 4 года назад

i so badly needed to hear this

@bayza7955 4 года назад

Ice cubes and spongebob were two triggers of mine. Late response but I felt this was a good example. I’ve been able to have ice cubes in my drinks for 2 years now 😤👌

@pumpkinspicebleach5061 4 года назад

For me it’s sitting in the back left seat in my moms SUV, it wasn’t one of the places where he did the worst to me but my mom was up in the front seat and I couldn’t say anything and idk it’s one of the flashbacks where I feel everything and it’s going through my head, it’s painful and scary, one of my most stupid ones is when people say “oh that’s thick with three c’s” because he said that a lot

@hanns115 3 года назад

My odd ptsd trigger is seeing ambos going past without lights and sirens. If the lights and sirens are on then I’m fine, but without I can’t deal with it. It doesn’t even make sense to me...

@caitlinhunt1653 5 лет назад

This was just posted yesterday and I just saw a post today saying that Chloe and Nina integrated. I hope the system is taking it well

@raemouse 5 лет назад

Chloe, you have helped me understand so much more about my own flashbacks and triggers in this video, thank you so much. I have now made sense of a period of when I was terrified to leave home after returning from a trip. I have realised that it was probably an emotional flashback. It was a reminder of coming home after trauma in someone else’s home. It doesn’t matter that it was different houses, the fear of returning from a stressful trip and not recognising my home, was a trigger for that flashback. It lasted about a week and I was terrified of my own room, the house and any noises. I had panic attacks each day over tiny triggers or problems. It makes sense now. And you’ve helped me explain other experiences too. Thank you, Chloe. - Maddie.

@laurendotson7346 4 года назад

I’ve only been following this channel for about a week now. I figured I was fine watching this video knowing the trigger warnings although it’s brought details to mind, it’s also made me feel so much better about a few things. I’ve had 2 very difficult miscarriages in the past year and although I tell myself it’s not anywhere as bad of a situation as others with ptsd have been through which is, very accurate considering people are horrible and put others in awful situations. I still relive everything from both miscarriages everyday, from panic attacks to emotional flashbacks, to breaking down in the bathrooms at work and I could never understand why I couldn’t just pull myself together. My boyfriend is very protective and supportive of me and he’s heartbroken too but doesn’t know how to help when a panic attack happens. This video alone has made me feel like even though it wasn’t the biggest issue in the world, it still happened to me, and it’s still important. I feel very lucky that I’ve found this channel considering it’s helping me cope with everything ❤️❤️

@grim8948 5 лет назад

I was feeling pretty bad and I wasnt sure why, I clicked on this video and my brain went "Hmm we're already not feeling good, this might not be good to watch right now" but decided to anyway and it made me realize I've been triggered since yesterday and the memories are so suppressed that I've just been dealing with emotions that I felt during the trauma because I saw someone involved in the trauma yesterday. And now I feel better, and the video itself is not triggering and Chloe just has a really calming voice and talks about ptsd and flashbacks in such a scientific and non-triggering way, thank you so much

@katedavies5058 3 года назад

I've always felt that my trauma was not severe enough to be considered trauma, that depression and anxiety were the only kind of result of this but hearing about the kind of triggers that people can experience and of emotional flashbacks, I'm completely shocked. This is what I've been feeling, what I've been experiencing. I can't believe that for years now I've had these experiences and had these triggers that I've never associated with one another until you've explained them brilliantly here

@josieblue 5 лет назад

i have ptsd from incidents i was involved in but also from things that happened to another person close to me, just because i was so close when it happened. it’s so hard to explain to people who aren’t my therapist and i haven’t even told my mom i’m diagnosed with ptsd because i doubt she’d understand why

@moonlight.z6543 3 года назад

Before I coped mostly with it, I used to hear sounds, the exact words, like not in my brain, but outside. I used to freeze, thinking 'he's there'. Like I'm throwing a chocolate cover in the trash and I freeze mid-move, hearing him, and bam, my brain shuts down. I stood there for five minutes before I could move. Another is that I went through something that isn't really traumatic, but my body remembers. So when I'm very stressed, my arms and thighs start stinging in pain, specific parts that I remember being injected, and suddenly there's like needles on those spots, when literally, I'm just sitting on the couch. (Even now that I write this, my right arm is stinging like it's on fire) Thank you, I didn't know about body memories, I was always confused. Now I know.

@wiccawicca7359 3 года назад

I had a really bad flashback today. I have tics and my friends thought I was ticcing when I flinched and said I was in pain. I had severe abuse as a child from my father. I can't remember much of my childhood but I know he abused me physically, emotionally, physiologically, sexually, domestically, ect. Had a flashback of when he abandoned me in a park in the rain, dark and fog for hours on end and then shouted at me when I found my way back. I felt the cold of the rain and the pure feelings of "I am going to die now" "I am not going to survive this" and saw little snippets of the park. Now going to that park is a HUGE trigger for me. A baby crying is a big trigger for me. Yelling is a trigger for me. Getting told off or shouted at is a big trigger for me. I also had a traumatic experience in September last year where I had to get an injection. I was dissociating, derealising, depersonalising, having a panic attack, and because I was so worked up and scared my brain decided "OK we don't need to process this we need to get through this and get away" and I thiugh I was childish for getting so worked up over a injection but now studying the science of ptsd I realise its actually perfectly reasonable. Hey I just dissociated reading Iver my message now I can't remember typing it wth

@magdalena_dewinter 5 лет назад

For me anything that sounds or feels like an aftershock is a trigger for me, and for a lot of people my age where I live

@edamame22 4 года назад

this is so so helpful🥺 thank you so much

@e5m014 3 месяца назад

Just rewatched this!!❤

@emurysorrow6632 5 лет назад

Hi Chloe! Or anyone else from the system, what should we do when someone is going through a flashback? Is it ok to talk to them? Or should we just give them their space? I would love a response, from the DissociaDID system or anyone else with PTSD, I think it's something really important to know if you are friends, or partners with someone with PTSD, even just family, we should be able to support them.

@raemouse 5 лет назад

Narcissistic Cannibal Personally, I would only want a few select people to be with me through a flashback. If I’m not with those people, I desperately need to be alone. And I want different things and support each time flashbacks happen, it depends what emotions are coming with it, which trauma the flashback is from, etc. Talk to the person when they are well, about what they would like. That’s really the only way to answer this question because everyone will answer differently. Ask them for ideas of things to try, if they aren’t sure what they would want you to do. I hope this helps

@neveragain1657 5 лет назад

You should discuss this with the person who has flashbacks to see what they are comfortable with. Not everyone reacts to care the same way.

@k.a.3614 5 лет назад

With my bf it depends on the type of flashback, the sourroundings, and my abilities. When he has a flashback and is supressing the emotions it is better that I leave him alone, and when we are at home, and he has a flashback where he lets the emotions out it he likes me holding him, caressing him. It is different for everybody.

@kaleidoscopingme 5 лет назад

Allways ask First and its Best to have them tell you what Works and what makes it worse away ahead. Usually touch is not a good idea But for some People that depends. Eventuell thought the brain is tell Ing them to be Stuck in that event, Day and age its Allways best to remind them of anything that hast to do with the present. Like what year it is how old they are what car they drive what your Plans are for today that they are Safe and have a Safe home and so on. Its diffrent for manny persons and some mich have a Skill Set with them. Asking ahead is Allways Best. ;) =)

@jacyevans 5 лет назад

Its person-specific, and even then, things can get murky. Sometimes, I need someone to hold me to keep me centered, but there are very few people my brain deems “safe.” Other times, I just need someone to talk to me and distract me and not touch me. I wish there was an easy answer, but I hope this was a little helpful.

@jaymap121 5 лет назад

'I can feel someone burning me' oh Chloe, this broke my heart. I wish i could take it away :(. No one deserves to be hurt but i can't believe anyone would hurt you, you're such a wonderful human!

@maiynnai 5 лет назад

Yeah I cringed at that. 😥

@celestestellatram1467 5 лет назад

Even worse, this most probably happened during childhood :(

@sparklight0964 5 лет назад

Also the physical feelings when she mentioned in the lower regions. Broke my heart and to think that any of this happened to Chloe. Makes me feel so sad and upset and for her Im so sorry that she had to go through that

@LunaGShane 4 года назад

I honestly didn't even blink. There are some really evil humans in the world. If you look into child psychology. I've never told anyone before, but part of the reason that I dropped my psych program is because I was so severely triggered by the book "a child called it " that a little was pulled to front. Couldn't understand where they were and lost reality. Part of me wishes that one of the people with me had recorded it, so I would know more of what really happened. What I know is that I was laying on the floor of my dorm hallway repeating over and over that I wasn't real, that nothing was real. I didn't need to eat or move, etc. It was chocked up to having an overloaded schedule and lack of sleep. Not remembering a lot of events well... It didn't help that they were dropping most of the psych program and the student funding, but it was definately part of it.

@stuff1784 3 года назад

I know!! It's so difficult for me to imagine someone hurting Chloe like that... She's so precious 😭😭

@Defunctaccount 5 лет назад

I love this soft, gentle, almost watercolor eyeshadow you have going! Also love the new editing style, very cute!

@KristinaMaione 4 года назад

Okay I just needed to say this cause I never realized that what I was experiencing was flashbacks... I break down every time I hear people screaming at each other. my friend and her boyfriend got into a fight and they were yelling at each other, and it was getting very aggressive and I heard things smashing, and that sound of that reminds me of events from my childhood. I immediately, as a grown woman, curled up into a ball and covered my ears as if I was young again and terrified. And for hours after the fight had ended I’d hear echoes of screaming in my head and it’s horribly scary. I’m starting to realize that maybe those events when I was a kid had way more effect on me than I realized if my mind and body react so negatively when I experience a reminder of it. I’ve probably overshared but thank you for the information, I’m learning more about myself even though I don’t suffer from DID😭❤️

@unicornburgers302 3 года назад

I’m like this too, thank you for sharing. It’s really hard for me to convey these feelings to others, and because of that I’ve always felt alone. Hearing from others with the same problem really helps me to validate my own experiences with trauma. (Sorry if this doesn’t make much sense, I’ve had a stressful day.)

@helleswahn 5 лет назад

"triggered" has become such a normal term that I don't know how to make people take my actual triggers seriously anymore

@mattthecreator4653 4 года назад

exactly

@eep3 4 года назад

me too. told this guy that if he grabbed my wrists i would panic and he thought it was funny. every time i saw him he tried to or would mention grabbing my wrists. one day he did, i immediately punched his side and felt so guilty and panicked for days after. fuck him

@toni5543 4 года назад

@@eep3 these people are the worst right? I had an arsehole who would jump out on me in work for a laugh, not taking my previous warnings that I could (and often did) have a full blown panic attack.

@OnlyMichaelJackson 4 года назад

@@eep3 that's absolutely disgusting. people really think it's a game or a damn joke like you're a toy with a button that says "press me!" how dare someone mess with another person's head.

@angelicaamora11 3 года назад

Trueeee :(((((

@perfumaphilia3246 5 лет назад

The whole "I'm triggered" culture is incredibly destructive, toxic, mocking, and invalidating to people who have genuine trauma and genuine triggers. I've been gaslit by it on several occasions and questioned if my own experiences were real and valid. PTSD, Complex-PTSD, and triggers are already not taken seriously much of the time and they're so personal, confusing, complicated, and painful, that there really is no room for jokes. Your videos are always so informative, accessible, and compassionate. Thank you for subjecting yourself to the scrutiny of such a large audience to make these videos!

@trapbawby 5 лет назад

omgg shut upp the meme triggered has nothing to do with ptsd. the meme triggered is like when someone makes you mad. not what she's talking about

@trapbawby 5 лет назад

has nothing to do w trauma and actual triggers. triggered is like saying your mad. its a whole different meaning. think before you type

@trapbawby 5 лет назад

your making it a big deal when you dont even know the meaning we use triggered for in memes. nobody would make a joke out of something that's this serious. calm down

@DissociaDID 5 лет назад

Triggered is the scientific term based around PTSD. Absolutely what I'm talking about.

@DissociaDID 5 лет назад

The world you and the meme are looking for us "offended"

@october4087 5 лет назад

We are, again, so lucky to have such a positive educator on DID. Thank you so much for everything you do. Thank you for this video! Also I am seriously living for your hair!! 🥰

@TheJuliaAnnabel 5 лет назад

I work at a mental health clinic. Someone with DID just started a treatment at the clinic. I never worked with someone with DID and your video’s help me so much to understand and help him the best i can! Thank you for that.❤️ Sorry for my english, its not the best.

@candelagarcia95 5 лет назад

I have complete amnesia of my childhood, my memories start from when i was about 9/10 years :/

@CarolinaRohern 4 года назад

Omg! I thought I was the only one... My memories start from when I was 8 years old, before that I just have 3 memories, one being around 6 when I had a very short haircut, other being getting back home one day from kindergarten and the last one is being around 3 years old and crying cause I has hungry haha... Other than that it is completely blacked out, like a big gap of nothing..... Sometimes I have a partial flashback and it is a combination of visual and body flashback, and it always stops, I've never been able to go through the whole memorie, it stops at the same point everytime... Sorry for my English, is not that good, but I'm kinda glad I'm not alone... Wish you the best!

@MeganAngela1 4 года назад

I don't remember much before the age of 18. I can piece together quite a lot, but there are some aspects that are total blanks. And almost zero memories before 13. I'm 28 now, for reference. I'm glad it's not just me that experiences this. People don't tend to understand.

@NanaMuffinLady 4 года назад

I can't remember most before middle school as well. A bit of early middle school. Get's better after the age of 12 I guess. I feel so weird when others tell me stories of what we did in such a detailed way and I'm sitting there having no memory of that whatsoever. And I don't know why. I had a lovely childhood, lovely parents, a loving family. But I just can't remember.

@tillyaili 4 года назад

I’m 13 and I can’t remember almost anything that happened bellow the age of 11, and I can’t remember most of the time i was 12. People be like do you remember this thing and I am like no. And it makes me upset because I can’t remember almost all of my life. It is just a blank. I even forget people I knew for 4 years. They don’t exist for me.

@NanaMuffinLady 4 года назад

@@tillyaili the brain is really weird, isn't it?

@gabzillagab 5 лет назад

I don’t think I have PTSD cause I feel like my “trauma” isn’t “severe” enough compared to others. But now I know I definitely have emotional flashbacks. I don’t feel like I shouldn’t even have anxiety and depression because I haven’t gone through enough to have them. I know that sounds completely bizarre because it sounds like I “want” to have them but I really don’t. I can’t even go to school (physically and mentally) because I start shaking like a fish out of water. Yes, my “trauma” happened in school and it’s something common that happens to a lot of people (I fell over and it’s even difficult writing this because I have to remember it) and I feel like I’m just being a dramatic teen. My therapist and doctors say different but I don’t think I have PTSD even if the signs are right in front of me.

@flowing_waters94 5 лет назад

I totally relate to what you say. But we need to learn that we're valid and everything we are or were going through is our own hell. We don't need to have "worse" experiences than others to be suffering. Feel hugged 🤗

@moccijiminie3688 5 лет назад

I wouldn't judge the severity of the event as a key definer into whether you do or dont have PTSD. I always thought my trauma wasnt too bad and held onto everything for over a decade. Now my ptsd has developed into C-PTSD. It takes courage but you should probably seek help/professional advice to be on the safe side

@emmahayward6333 5 лет назад

@@moccijiminie3688 can I ask what the difference is between ptsd and cptsd please? Thank you in advance and sending love and support to you all x

@therock-zl8du 5 лет назад

you don't have to have severe trauma to have ptsd, I used to think this but really anything that could have been traumatic can cause ptsd. don't invalidate yourself plz

@breakfastbear239 5 лет назад

There is no trauma Olympics. Your feelings and trauma are just as valid as everyone elses

@courtneyhansen9686 5 лет назад

Just had a flashback when I almost blacked out, and it’s comforting to know why my complex brain did this, thank you 💛

@MMDAMV 5 лет назад

Remember that you are safe. You are safe and loved and valid.

@courtneyhansen9686 5 лет назад

Professor JAJL thank you, I needed to hear this today.

@MMDAMV 5 лет назад

@@courtneyhansen9686 Of course, friend. Take care of yourself.♡

@koiyei 4 года назад

Seven months late, but I hope you’re doing ok and taking care of yourself

@tofutofutofu444 5 лет назад

putting a tangible description to something that feels so illogical and overwhelmingly confusing is a life saver. suddenly things make sense when you explain them, and i can’t tell you how valuable your knowledge is

@PieOfEpicness 5 лет назад

I used to love watching David Attenborough documentaries. Then a trauma happened during one of these documentaries, and now the sound of David Attenborough's voice is a trigger. It's such a shame, because he's such a cool dude.

@DissociaDID 5 лет назад

Im really sorry :(

@mariannamycroft2611 5 лет назад

I have the same with songs :( I can't listen to some of them anymore

@mariannamycroft2611 5 лет назад

Because you listen to them to focus on something else, but then they become triggers 🤦

@emmathefabulous 5 лет назад

I absolutely hate when the few things you enjoy get turned into triggers. It really feels like you cannot have a single good or nice thing in your life.

@allisonfogg 5 лет назад

I don't have DID but I love this channel and its message on self acceptance. It's an amazing channel teaching us to be a little kinder to ourselves every day

@krys8748 5 лет назад

Hi there! I've watched this channel for a while, but having Chloe validate my trigger of a certain shade of green, or a certain body spray is so comforting! I've had a lot of different therapists look at me funny when I brought it up, and just knowing that there are people trying to explain this to others is huge to me! Thank you so much!!

@raemouse 5 лет назад

Ellie Patches I also have a trigger of a specific colour, for me it’s a dark blueish grey. Usually it’s only fabric of this colour but not always.

@trekadouble757 5 лет назад

I have that problem with my phobias , I have a phobia of lobsters, shrimps, and nobody takes it seriously, to the point that they would show me their shrimps heads to test me at the restaurant. It's annoying, but for me that is all it is, I don't go to the restaurant everyday and you don't see lobsters and shrimps on the streets. It could be really dangerous though for someone with ptsd or anxiety attacks, it could send them right into an attack or a flash back. And I find it quite shoking that your therapists look you funny, your triggers are perfectly valid and therapists should know that.

@kirstenbakker839 5 лет назад

It is quite disturbing that some therapists seem to know so little about PTSD and other mental disorders. How are they supposed to help their patients??

@20Unbelievable06 5 лет назад

I'm so sorry you've even had therapists be so cruelly invalidating! your trigger(-s if you have more than one, no need to confirm nor deny), your trigger(-s) is(/are) incredibly valid!

@alejag6614 3 года назад

When she said "or someone yelling at you" my eyes started watering... I think I have a trigger and I didn't even know it. I felt so scared and confused, I can't imagine what people with several trauma have to deal with, I hope you the best, you deserve to be happy

@lookitsdebby 5 лет назад

2016 was such a horrible year and I feel like so many people suffered, as well. It's shocking to me how many people agree

@wiwka13 5 лет назад

Yeah :/

@dutchik5107 5 лет назад

It is i guess the year my finally turned around.

@winterbyn8388 5 лет назад

@hymn3539 5 лет назад

for me it was 2018, but i hope it got better!

@keldakellie9164 5 лет назад

Agreed 2016 was a very bad year for me as well.

@theinternethastakenovermyl7209 5 лет назад

Seeing Chloe pre-integration is kind of sad now.

@jackalsblood8403 5 лет назад

Wait, what? Did something happen??

@rosaliehawthorn 5 лет назад

L Christensen my thoughts exactly

@bluejay4072 5 лет назад

L Christensen The system announced on Instagram that Chloe and Nina integrated at the end of September. The newly integrated alter still goes by she/her pronouns and the name Chloe. I’d recommend checking out their insta if you’re interested.

@twylabobette2012 5 лет назад

Just for anyone reading this, the new alter (Chloe and Nina post-integration) is now going my the name Nin (rhymes with pin)

@MiSaLiAnW 4 года назад

@@bluejay4072 but isn't this a good thing? (i just started following) i only have theorys, that if all the characters built up into one, then she may be "healed"?

@kait.theidiot 5 лет назад

goodness, sometimes i really just wanna hold the system and give them my love

@mrpoki9 4 года назад

Can’t relate more to a comment than yours.

@chewy1497 5 лет назад

It’s nice to know I’m not the only one. Where I live, there are officially only 2 people recorded of having DID. You are very inspiring, thank you so much!! I’m (host) 16 years old with 8 alters💙 Thank you💖💖

@madiejones129 5 лет назад

I have ptsd from several traumatic events in my life when I was younger. This video explained some things I didn’t even know having this disorder. I didn’t realize all of these things were flash backs. I’ve had full on flash backs but experienced several of the other types and not realized that’s what it was and just dismissed it. Thank you for this helpful video! Love you all

@olivewrites5672 Год назад

dude i forgot how different chloe talked

@AlyssaA117 5 лет назад

I adore you Chloe! You make me feel normal, in a world that makes it seem that having mental health disorders abnormal. I have 3, generalized anxiety disorder, depression and most recently PTSD, diagnosed on September 3rd, my husbands birthday. Since then I've gone back and re marathoned all your PTSD videos. They help so much. All my love to you and your system.

@sunflowerthebunbunbunny 5 лет назад

So please correct me if I’m wrong, but is Chloe saying that the terrified feeling in the pit of my stomach that I experienced for a few seconds this morning due to my mother saying something that reminded me of a scary incident in my past was an emotional flashback? Or is this feeling too weak for that and I was just scared of something bad happening again.

@FizzyNightShade 5 лет назад

No, that's an emotional flashback and the alternative you just described is a symptom of PTSD.

@sunflowerthebunbunbunny 5 лет назад

Thanks guys. Just making sure!

@isthisnametaken6618 5 лет назад

Sounds like an emotional flashback to me. ❤️ I get that same feeling sometimes when something like that happens.

@ky024 5 лет назад

If your really curious, you should ask a professional. Once they get to know you, they can tell you the difference between trauma and ptsd. No one truly knows you from the comments, so I recommend a therapist or someone with experience. :))

@kellyv6075 5 лет назад

Sounds like trauma

@outrobiscoito9552 5 лет назад

Chloe looks so much more confident and overall happier in comparison to older videos! I'm so happy to witness this transformation!

@wolfer3255 5 лет назад

I've been stuck fronting and stuck in an emotional flashback for over a day now and it is exhausting. And no grounding tools seem to be working for it. So now I'm just trying to ride it out. And doing the best I can for self care for the body. But I wish I could get out of the front.

@trekadouble757 5 лет назад

It will go away, stay strong. I'm sure that you are already doing your best with the body, you don't have to do more than you can. Stay safe

@cheetahtfk7274 5 лет назад

I'm so sorry you are going through this right now. I don't have DID so I can't really give you advice on this but I sincerely hope this flashback ends for you soon and that you find comfort and peace. You were strong enough to make it through the trauma once, you can make it through this. You don't have to go through this alone though. I'm here if you need to message someone, feel free to message me. You're going to be ok.

@jodz0291 5 лет назад

Sorry if you tried this already but if the other alters have positive triggers you could try that chloe did a video on them hope things calm down soon

@heidibaltom8138 5 лет назад

@@jodz0291 i was going to suggest that too. If you can trigger someone else to the front or even co-concious maybe they could helo them fronting.

@allinkedupalways4163 5 лет назад

Close your eyes and allow yourself to imagine your you're a big Bountiful beautiful tree and allow yourself 2 imagine you're rooting yourself into the ground Deep Roots. That's one way to ground yourself another really useful tool is to imagine yourself at the beach on a beautiful day and imagine your feet in the sand and the water comes up on your feet and pulls back and allow yourself to imagine your feet just stinking little by little into the sand. I hope you feel better

@iamthemarshmallow7695 5 лет назад

Now I can understand what’s been happening to me my therapist has told me I’m having emotional flashbacks but this video really made me understand I feel understood I can’t say thank you enough

@rebekahzammit6482 5 лет назад

Thank you, Chloe. It's been tough accepting that I have ptsd because somehow my mind has decided I'm bringing this on myself. So your video has been really helpful in showing me that although I have many partial flashbacks, they are all still very valid.

@RialVestro 5 лет назад

Chloe: Talking about smells and weather... Me: Is that why it happens every time it rains and there's that weird smell in the air just after it stops? It's kind of a pleasant smell but for some reason I always feel scared and sad... also confused I'm pretty sure that's just because I don't know why these other emotions are being triggered. I think most of my triggers do make sense except that one I don't know why that's a thing. I also get flashes of an apartment we use to live in when I was 4 years old but it's never been clear exactly what happened when I flash back to that time... The apartment wasn't even clear to me at first until I was about 10 when my grandparents were living in the same apartment complex for a while I suddenly remembered after a rain that I lived there before. My parents even confirmed which apartment it was. But I still don't know what actually happened there. And I think I just triggered myself... because I can suddenly smell that just after it rained smell even though I'm inside and it hasn't rained in weeks. Just talking about it and suddenly because I'm thinking about my brain brought it to the front. Going to go focus on something else now.

@mariannamycroft2611 5 лет назад

I get it. Sometimes we have little traumas we don't even know about

@lllevokelll 5 лет назад

Just conversationally, there are three different sources of after-it rains-scents: ozone, petrichor, and plant oils. All of them are generally described as pleasant and inviting, with distinct characters. The ozone comes from lightening turning O2 to O3. (Aside: rarely, cloud to cloud lightening before rainfall can bring the scent early). Petrichor is from a chemical reaction involving soil bacteria, (streptomyces spores making a chemical named geosmin) with a very distinctive green/earth smell. Usually when rains after a dry spell causes the bacteria to build up spores. I don't know a single word name for the third scent, but it's from a build up of plant oils that the rain suddenly aerosolizes. (2-isopropyl-3-methoxy-pyrazine is one of the main rain smell oils, isolated by Nancy Gerber in the 1970s). Generally, these are all rain specific, though electricity splitting air into ozone can be encountered in some other settings, like walking past power grid transformer stations, or electric gas ranges sparking a lot. Hopefully chatting casual rainstorm science has been intriguing rather than distressing, so you can pull apart your scent triggers and know how they work / which rainstorms will or won't evoke which scents strongly. All the best for a pleasant weekend.

@funny.gon-12 5 лет назад

I love rain I hate bees though they make me sick in the stomach I don't know why but it make my heart rate go up and I cant do anything but run or stay still

@a.g.8225 4 года назад

@@lllevokelll Wow, just wow. Medal for this, please!

@HaleyAleina1 5 лет назад

Your hair looks awesome, thanks for making such informative and amazing content!! I never knew this much about DID and I’m really happy that you destigmatize PTSD and mental illness. Triggers are no joke!

@sourgummiez 5 лет назад

I KNOW violence isnt "the answer", but i seriously want to hurt the people who hurt you.

@furballscave4431 3 года назад

@@purplebanshee y e s

@delete7316 4 года назад

I had to change school because one of my ptsd triggers was the school I was at.

@analuizafelixdesouza6336 5 лет назад

I get flashbacks when I smell the perfume I was wearing the moment the traumas happened. I used to wear this one perfume all the time, so every time the traumatic experience happened I was wearing it. I started getting frequent flashbacks, and only after 6 months I realized it was mostly because I was still wearing the same perfume I was back then. I still have that perfume, and sometimes I use it purposely to "harm" myself... because I keep thinking the traumas were my fault (I feel guilty), and that I must relive it in order to be a better person... I have BPD, and I hate it. The feeling of being guilty of the trauma and "wanting" to relive it, and therefore hurting my emotional state because of the flashbacks... Does anyone have any tips?

@valeriatrejogomez8755 5 лет назад

I just discover this channel, I'm having a maraton of the videos and this come out, that's crazy (sorry I'm bad at english)

@cheetahtfk7274 5 лет назад

Your English is wonderful! I could understand what you were saying.

@valeriatrejogomez8755 5 лет назад

@@cheetahtfk7274 thank you!

@valeriatrejogomez8755 5 лет назад

@@Margitkam-h3s I'm mexican so I speak spanish, and yes, Listen to them is a great exercise to me

@kirstenbakker839 5 лет назад

I just wanted to say that I love how people in the comment section of this channel are so open about sharing their own experiences, and other people taking the time to help and reassure them whenever possible. So much love and kindness here. You are a bunch of awesome people. ❤

@kiwikeys7707 5 лет назад

Hey, you did amazingly with this. I can imagine this wasn't very easy to do but you aced it! It was a great video as I had been wondering whether I'd actually been having forms of flashbacks or not so this really helped.❤️❤️

@ClosetDemon 4 года назад

i often see my trauma from a 3rd person view, does that count as a flashback? like, i don't think i've ever had a full flashback, but if i remember what happened i cannot get the image out of my head.

@Paprepkanela 4 года назад

I also go through this and it’s very confusing, I don’t know if it can fit into a type of flashback

@ChloeBxoxo 4 года назад

Yes you might be having a flashback of you dissociating

@lunanatalya2721 3 года назад

@@ChloeBxoxo oh wow, I get this too- that's so- wow that makes sense, thankyou 🌸

@peachykeen2921 3 года назад

Yes this happens to me. I get images and its like passes fragments of images frame by frame before my eyes.

@NoLOVEinFEAR333 5 лет назад

Thank you, thank you, thank you, thank you, Chloe and DissociaDID System! This video is so validating, helpful, and informative! I was just asking the other day if it is possible to have a flashback that is just feeling the emotions (rather than a full flashback). thank ya'll for helping us better understand what we are experiencing!

@tashabalmer3361 5 лет назад

Thank you so much for this. I have PTSD but only really suffer from emotional triggers so it's very difficult to not feel like my PTSD is insignificant. Especially when talking to people who dont understand. This made what I feel validated and like I'm not just "over reacting" or "too sensitive and emotional" which is what I normally get told. Thank you so much for everything you do x you are all a true light into this world that can be so so dark.

@DissociaDID 5 лет назад

You're so valid, and not being dramatic 💖

@that_silly_ginger 5 лет назад

I mostly have emotional triggers as well, good to know I'm not the only one with that experience. Do you mind my asking if you have specific triggers? Mine are much more general in nature, I can't seem to pinpoint exact triggers, they seem more situational.

@19BandGeek94 4 года назад

Me too

@liviatrevejodellacoletta8612 5 лет назад

As someone who doesn’t have ptsd or did I just want to send love for everyone who has. You guys are so strong and brave.

@JustJAINE 5 лет назад

This is such an important video. I wish I had known what I was going through sooner. I hope this video helps others experiencing a non-stereotypical flashback feel valid.

@stingray1798 5 лет назад

Ok, It's official I NEED their hair, like first, rainbow and now this beautiful colour scheme, you're getting greedy!

@PitacosDaBruBrunaGarcia 5 лет назад

I didn't know I've been having partial flashbacks, I just feel myself in that moment again but felling my chest being squeeze just like I felt when the trauma happened, ashamed, neglected, feeling stupid, all at once but without the image of the moment ... I thought it was normal... everyone had it...

@alfredovazquezh4444 5 лет назад

You're so mature, thats all I can say

@remi6656 5 лет назад

Thank you for this Chloe. I didn't even know I've been having flashbacks for months now, especially since the relationship with my parents has been incredibly unstable for a long time, a lot of things make more sense to me now. 💕

@jilianm.3810 5 лет назад

I have to go to bed but I would rather watch this lol I absolutely love their hair!! I don’t have DID but I love knowing more about it. I’ve learned so much from watching dissociaDID’s videos, and I feel like if someone decided to tell me they had DID, I would be able to offer support rather than having to ask so many questions about it. ☺️♥️✨

@savanahavery7773 5 лет назад

you’ve really helped me a lot through my dispersonalization disorder diagnosis. Thank you so much ❤️

@ravenheart0185 5 лет назад

Hi. I'm sorry if this sounds too personal, but I wanted to make something in the future for your System. I wanted to know what everyone's favorite colors are and who specifically likes what. I also wanted to know what type of sensory items/textures, (beads, soft stuff, bells, tassels, etc.) everyone likes and who specifically likes what for that as well. You don't have to answer if it makes you uncomfortable. If you do answer, you don't have to name someone specifically of you don't want to. I understand either way. P.S. Love you channel! ❤

@cheetahtfk7274 5 лет назад

This is such a sweet sentiment! You are putting so much thought into what you will send them and I think that is so admirable of you!

@ivyedan7183 5 лет назад

I know kyle loves hats, they love tea I think,, their littles love stuffed animals and glitter...some of them love to write...I know our system loves really feel good pajamas...I'm sorry for answering for them. The fact you agnolige. Them all will mean so much to them all.

@ravenheart0185 5 лет назад

You guys are so sweet. Thank you. And thank you for the information. I just recently found their channel and I find what they do really inspiring. As I watch more videos, hopefully I might be able to gather more information to make sure they really enjoy anything I make or give them.

@haileyh6196 5 лет назад

There is a video called switching on camera 9 times where they unbox a hat and it has everyone’s favorite color!

@Mitschki92 5 лет назад

I think they list some of that on their patreon page.

@person603 4 года назад

I am so so so late, but I just wanted to say thank you. I always seemed to think that I was going crazy when I was triggered, but now understand that a flashback can be many things. From this video I have learned that I have experienced many emotional flashbacks. I always wrote it off as really bad anxiety but now I get it. I always knew that this wasn't anxiety, this is different, but I dont know what's happening and I cant explain it, and it wont stop, and I hate it. But you helped me figure it out. Thank you so much, this makes me feel so much better. I don't know if how I'm saying this conveys how grateful I am but seriously, this is so amazing.

@UniqueSouls 5 лет назад

Thank you so so much, most of what I've learnt about my diagnosis is from your channel.

@ImHanzVT 5 лет назад

Omg hiii fellow madder😀

@kenziebritton3580 5 лет назад

Chloe, your system has been through so much and as someones whose been following you for a while, im so incredibly happy that you're in a place rn where you are freely speaking about this sort of thing. You guys have been through so much and I'm so proud of you guys for continuing.

@alexisstamp7608 5 лет назад

your channel has helped me so so so much, and has taught me more than most websites and articles can

@georgias3674 5 лет назад

So true

@cora.artist4067 4 года назад

I thought I was “pretending “ or my brain was “pretending “ but, this made me feel like I am valid. Thank you.

@peachykeen2921 3 года назад

Yes! I feel like this sometimes too!

@grayisnotok5206 4 года назад

One time I ran downstairs because I heard my parents yelling and I was crying and I saw my parents sitting down smiling and I was really confused.

@charlsw2773 5 лет назад

My dad also has PTSD from an abusive childhood and I accidentally triggered an emotional/visual flashback I've never felt so bad in my life never seen him so distressed before :(

@connermcintosh4322 4 года назад

I have no words for how validated I feel. My friends have been telling me I have ptsd for the last few years and I got diagnosed last year. It was hard for me to agree with the diagnoses because I didn’t think I was having “real” flashbacks. It was confusing and invalidating. Thank you so much for explaining that body memories are a type of flashback. ❤️❤️❤️

@psyix8288 5 лет назад

Seriously, such a great and imformative channel!

@HuntressWizard 4 года назад

Some ways that I try to prevent anxiety attacks when I get "body memories" is instead of feeling like it is something that makes me feel uncomfortable I think of it as a small creature such as a rat (which I like, they are so cute !!) crawling on me and just generally keeping me company which makes me feel much better

@delenaheaven 5 лет назад

2013 was a pretty bad year for me and there are some songs that I used to love which I can't listen to now b/c they remind me of that time. Thank you so much for making this channel you make such a positive difference 💕

@majorthompson1548 5 лет назад

Hello! I don't have PTSD but i have a question for you guys :) I was wondering why the same flashback of the same traumatic even can occur more than once? What is confusing me is that, from what i understood, a flashback is the brain processing the event as memory so why doesn't it stay as a processed memory after it's been flashbacked? Why does the brain process it over and over? Thank you for answering and thank you Chloe for this very informative video!

@rizzythebadger 5 лет назад

I'm not too sure about all of the science behind it. I'd love to see a video by DissociaDID talking about this though! My understanding of it, is that it's actually part of the primal need to survive. If a zebra was grazing in a field and attacked by a lion, but survived, the zebra would learn to stay as far away from lions as possible. However, for us humans, sometimes our brain gets confused about what actually affects our survival, or what is safe and unsafe. A traumatic event doesn't even have to be harmful or life-threatening for our brains to think that something is dangerous, it just is wired to go into fight-flight-or-freeze (survival) mode whenever a potential danger is around. The reason it is difficult to process the memory, is because the brain is using the non-filed memory to know when it needs to help you survive. However, sometimes that part of the brain doesn't know whether something is actually safe or not, it just knows that you felt unsafe for some reason and is trying to help you get away from unsafe and to something that is safe.

@taylormccoy6341 5 лет назад

Thank you! I’m sharing this video with my boyfriend! I’m a survivor of sexual assault and have PTSD and I feel like this may help him understand all of the things that can trigger flashback or even just an anxiety attack or depressive/mood switch. My flashbacks mostly aren’t always full visuals.

@ashleycook300 5 лет назад

Thank you so much DissociaDiD! I honestly have known that I got PTSD from an emotional trauma 6 years ago but this video and it's comments helped me recognize that I have been experiencing partial flashbacks and emotional flashbacks to two traumatic events in my life. I never knew about emotional flashbacks or that I was experiencing them. Thank you for helping me recognize that. I have actually been triggered more than I've known but it's been emotional/physical flashbacks and I just haven't recognized.

@leokarim1148 5 лет назад

omg!! i love y'all!! i have d.i.d too and its so hard, if the dissociadid system see this i love u so much, i love the video's thank u for making them

@januarywynter6632 4 года назад

Chloe: it’s 2019 Me, on January 1st: hehe no it’s not

@okaywhynot4728 3 года назад

Me, in December: oh god go back we fucked up bad

@voldemortsnose6654 5 лет назад

She's so beautiful, it hurts.

@demonicartist1920 4 года назад

I think you’re skin cells completely replace themselves after 7 years, so if you’ve ever been assaulted and it was 7 or more years ago, the skin cells that the abuser touched are no longer attached to you. Idk if this could help at all.

@Alf258 3 года назад

this is very liberating I'm going to remember it and say it to myself next time i have a flashback.

@mondayswithmarshall6058 5 лет назад

You inspire me with your videos each day, and I just have to say how wonderful it is to see you and Team Pinata so happy, dispite what you've been through. I can only pray that you both get the life you've always wanted. Stay safe, and don't forget to smile.💌

@kraljevstvoknjiga 3 года назад

I've only recently realized that what I've been experiencing are actually flashbacks from one of the earthquakes that hit Croatia last year. Really, anything can be a trigger. There was one time I was shopping and I think I've accidentally bumped the hangers with clothing on them and when they started swinging my brain thought that there's another earthquake happening. My whole body, especially the hands started shaking and the floor under me felt so shaky, unstable and unsafe. Things shaking, swinging and the sounds associated with that, as well as many other sounds are often unbearable for me. Thank you so much for making this video.

@allidanij2238 5 лет назад

Thank you so much for this video! I've never seen anyone describe flashbacks other than the full blown, total immersion ones. I didn't even have the vocabulary to explain to my family and friends what I was feeling, but now I know the words to use and I can even send them this video! This made me feel so seen, heard, and just so validated. Thank you all for the work you do ❤️

@x_candyj_x1856 Год назад

Certain bedsheets and room placements and colours sometimes trgger me and I very much stay quiet bc I'm scared people will think it's not real and it frustrates me so much.

@GreenPiano21 4 года назад

I’ve gained more knowledge and understanding in these videos than I have in any science class I’ve ever taken. The way you all are able to explain things so clearly makes these conditions so much easier to understand. I’m so glad I have found this channel. Much love xoxo

@lileereeder4524 4 года назад

This helped me understand emotional flashbacks that i have, and I appreciate this so much

@user-lm5sb5vl9s 5 лет назад

Love how your hair has washed out! I'm bleaching my hair right now and I've been wondering more about flashbacks lately so this video is really appreciated. Love you guys and your channel

@Niki1588 4 года назад

I really appreciate the dedication and love which you explain the reality about the DID... it's so important for me . Thank you so much for sharing all the experiences and make a safe and educational space . Gracias desde el fondo de mi corazón ... gracias por entregarme seguridad y ayudarme a comprender mejor lo que una persona a la que amo está pasando ... gracias

@pollyester7834 4 года назад

Got this link from a person with flashback issues and you informed me well

@kcsunshine7408 4 года назад

Oh huney, thank you. This explains alot 🙏 Do you realize I am 39 years old and I have never been educated on some reasons I reacted the way I did in certain situations 💔

@pumpkinspicebleach5061 4 года назад

Your system seems so wonderful and kind, I feel like I would let y’all hug me ( I don’t let many people hug me)

@itsQUINNderful 5 лет назад

Coming back to this video after learning about Chloe and Nina’s integration. I hope the system is doing well. We love y’all ♥️ Please take all the time you need before coming back and making more videos. Don’t feel like you need to rush a video and explain to us about the integration. We’re all hoping for the best and sending all the love ♥️

@sootycat2740 Год назад

This was surprisingly hard to listed to but really helpful. Thank you so much x

@rhyssaunders9863 3 года назад

It feels so nice to be told it's okay if a trigger doesn't "make sense" because most of mine don't

@connorclifton45 5 лет назад

Thank you Chloe, it's been a pleasure watching your videos.

@ceryssachristensen6831 4 года назад

Chloe's voice breaking through this whole video makes my heart hurt.

@abbysworld05 4 года назад

I didn’t even know i was having a flashback because it’s emotional and I thought it was only in nightmares or seeing everything from the event

@salemluna9533 5 лет назад

This. Video. Is. So. Important.

@lovelylady8913 5 лет назад

Honestly, your channel has helped me more than i can explain. Its even been a lot of help for my fiance as well to help support me. You guys make me feel like everythings going to be alright even when I feel like nothing but a trainwreck. Coming across your channel going on 3 months now I never would have guessed the amazing impact you have had on my life. I was able to seek out the treatment I needed because I felt encouraged to do so. I just really want to say thank you. From the bottom of my heart. Thank you.

@ananniesday 4 года назад

Ok but can we have a flashback to positive things? Like one time my friend told me that some random person on the phone was tryna sell him something, and I got a flashback to the time I called my parents and pretended that I was a dishwasher company.

@emmaleegrauman2997 5 лет назад

This was so incredibly therapeutic for me... Ive had therapists talk about my flashbacks like a medical condition but i still always had this fear that I was just crazy... The physical sensations and the "overlay" visuals in particular... So hearing it from someone who KNOWS not just... Knows about is so... So important. Thank you for this video.