I love you so much for sharing this. Many of us experienced such but we never had platforms on which we could share these moments. I don't really know if I can say it was the momentary depression or not but for me, but instead of being withdrawn from my baby, I was like a lioness. I was extra protective, I wanted to handle EVERYTHING concerning him. I didn't truly trust anyone with him and I still don't know why it was so. I did that to the point of complete exhaustion, where I passed out next to him at 5weeks and did not hear him cry while facing him. That moment shook me to the core, when my family finally managed to wake me up, I felt like I did not deserve to be a mother, I felt like I had the capacity to kill the child because I was thinking that had we been alone, would he have cried himself to death? That guilt and shame stuck with me for months after that. I've never shared this, thank you Lwandile.
Thank you so much for sharing your story with us. I’m glad you were around family, and I hope that you’ve managed to forgive yourself and know that you are an amazing mother to your son. And that allowing people to assist you doesn’t make a lazy mom. And after your experience I hope you take some time to yourself and pamper yourself because ke Mntase you are you before you are a mother. ❤️
Ahh Mommy. I’m so sorry 😭 Been meaning to shoot a video on this as well. Watching this brought so many memories. I actually just remembered that I didn’t want to breastfeed my son as well. My son got jaundice a few days after he was born,I had a c section so I felt very alone. Mine took about a few months until I had someone full time to assist with baby. Thank you for sharing. This made me so emotional.
Eish😩 Mna I think what helped not to go through postnatal is because I went through a lot the time I found out bi was pregnant, it was not what I thought it would be like especially having a baby with someone who doesn't have a child and you also don't have, although it was nothing planned.. To cut short, I was just alone, lonely pregnant woman on the other side I can't go home because of Covid.. So a friend of mine booked me in to a psychologist because I was not coping that helped me a lot coz I was able to escape depression yes stress besikhona and but through support from friends around also helped. So the time umtana ndandisele ndizi lungisile that I am going to love this baby regardless of what I had to go through, being cheated on, neglated but the person I needed the most, and the session played a huge role.... I got out stronger than I expected... Because when I'm looking back now I'm the stress I went through was too much and I could have lost my baby especially having to see this person everyday coz sisebwnza sonke.. It was a lot nje and I thank God for the strength he gave me because ndandi gowa straight..
I’m so sorry you had to go through that, we need to thank God for your friend who knew that your mental health is important and came through for you at a time you needed her most. Those are friends to keep 🤗 I’m happy you were prepared for after birth, maybe this is something we should familiarize ourselves with so that we know what to expect.. ❤️ Thank you so much for sharing your story, much Love 💕
As much as it was a lot to handle and it still a heart aching memory, I am glad its owk now and your relationship with your son is the best thing in your life.
Lol hay sukaaaa sutefa apha. Being a mom is such a beautiful thing. It teaches you a lot of things but also comes with challenges. I’m sure you’d love it 😊
