I Don’t Want to Be Alive Anymore (Sometimes): What Suicidal Thoughts Feel Like (And How to Help) 

Idk if I am depressed, I am not particularly unhappy either. Life doesn't excite me anymore. It's just like idk. I just want to fall asleep and never wake up. That's it.

Underrated video. I’ve wanted to end my life for a long time, and I have no idea why I keep going. I wake up, I’m empty. And I just feel guilty.

I used to say that I don't want to die, I just don't want to exist anymore. Appreciate this video, Jo ❤️

Depression doesn’t discriminate. Some of the happiest people are miserable suffering alone in silence. It’s a horrible disease. One of the things I try and keep in mind when I’m feeling down is the thought of “this too shall pass”. When that doesn’t work, and I’ve reached a breaking point, I will let myself cry, ugly cry in order to relieve that pressure and make myself feel less meh. ❤️

I blame my parents for being irresponsible and having me born. I am angry at everything. I don't deserve life, friends, love and family. They are all fake. I hate the fact that I have to live for nothing. Argggh!

There’s nothing I want in life. Literally no point in not killing myself.

I always come back to this when I need to remember that just surviving is an accomplishment alone

I’ve struggled with the constant and consistent, day to day emptiness that you describe. It never goes away and is always there, making me feel that I will never get better and that I will always be in pain, that my life is not worth living. I’ve reached the point where I have no will do absolutely anything except stay in bed. It is extremely difficult to conjure up any type of spirit to wash the dishes or do laundry or to do my weight training or clean the bathroom or even take a shower. I used to journal all of the time and read and wrote, play guitar, and even get out of the house when I am in that dark place. But now my will to exist and perform any kind of task is fading faster and faster every single day. I constantly think something is wrong with me that I just can’t not feel anything beyond the pain of my existence. Nothing jars me out of it. I can’t even rationalize forcing myself to do anything. The self-hatred I feel for myself goes beyond and completely dissolves any other feeling I could possibly feel. Leaving this comment makes me feel open and exposed and vulnerable. I can hear this little voice inside of me screaming to “close the doors and windows and drapes” so no one can see inside and judge me for how I feel and what I think. For now, this is all I can think to write. Thank you for making these videos.

Life is boring i dont have anything to look forward too. Im alone like ive always been and im sure i will always be

Thank you for your consistent transparency and vulnerability. You provide a voice for others who don’t feel so brave. Thanks for sharing. ❤️

I cannot express how grateful I am for this video. Thank you. Thank you so much.

I’m 21, I’ve been struggling with suicidal thoughts for around 4 years at this point. I go to therapy, I take antidepressants, I basically operate like a normal human on a day-to-day basis, the only difference is I just constantly hate being alive. It’s comforting to see others struggling with the same thing, I know I’m not alone, but it’s just so fucking exhausting having to deal with it on a daily basis and the thought I’m going have have to fight this for the rest of my life seems like a battle that I will eventually lose

I feel worthless but not in a sense that no one else cares about me, but in a sense I have a worthless sense of myself. Everyday I'm struggling with the thought of taking my own life, I feel like I have someone's grip over my heart l, it's been this way since I was a child. I try to look at everything in a positive manner but my heart is still beating with a faint sense of wishing I wasn't here. I don't want to take my pain out on others but no matter what I do I'm unhappy, I feel negative

Sometimes even just a smile from someone is all it takes just, I've had friends and family comit suicide, people ask how could they, unless you've felt the loneliness people don't understand, thankfully there is more services available

Your brave for admitting the things you are going thru. My father committed suicide when I was 12, I'm 31 now. It is a very difficult thing to deal with. You have to try and stay strong with whatever you are going thru. Stay strong.

started crying in the middle, just realizing how alone I'm again with this stuff.. Because th way my only friends reacted the last time this came up.. It's just.. too much.. I'm just.. too much I guess.. ^^'

Perfectly said where I couldn't put it into words. Thank you.

It means so much that you are willing to share your thoughts and experiences, Jo. I will support you by not panicking or freaking out, just loving and admiring you day after day. You give me hope.

when I talked to a counselor , she told me if I admitted that I had those thoughts, she would Have to report it... it scared me off from being able to talk to her about it

Thank you for describing how feeling like not wanting to be alive has nothing to do with the quality of one's life, or how much one is loved, but rather about a darkness on one's heart and mind that feels like it will never go away. I feel more connected to living after listening to you.

I feel the SAME way! I have that same emptiness feeling. You described it so well. 💕

the weird thing is, I've had a very opposite life to you, I have no one on my side, no friends, no one who cares, very poor, very abused, mental illness and I've never wanted to commit suicide. If I was ever felt like I wanted to end things, I wouldn't have people to go to. You've had what would be generalized as a "good life" and you feel terrible and I've had what most would call a "bad life" and I feel happy. Funny how mental illness is sometimes it doesn't make sense. (and I'm not invalidating you or anything it's just an interesting juxtaposition)

The videos you make are so so important. I've struggled with depression, anxiety, and suicidal thoughts for so long but often feel like I can't talk to people about it because they will freak out. It's a lot easier when the people you can talk to have also felt those feelings before and understand. It can be hard to explain how even though I have a good life and have wonderful people around me that i sometimes just don't want to exist. I'm sending you love and I hope that tomorrow is a better day

My counselor said I had an “overcompensating” coping skill, so I don’t appear to be depressed either. What you said makes so much sense, along with what she said ❤️ it’s good to be honest and have helplines. Thanks for your video!

I have never been able to articulate my exact feelings before, but you have 100% nailed it to the point that I could send this to friends and family, and they'd finally get a bit more about how I'm feeling. Thank you

I totally get it. I do not feel ANYONE would miss me if anything happened to me. Yeah, I smile, laugh, and have an amazing heart. (So I’ve been told), but I can’t do it anymore. And I thought I could. I’m tired of feeling so alone in this world I can’t breathe

Thanks for sharing such personal feelings with us. I relate more to Brian where if I just had what I want I would be ok. But I get what you feel too. When I'm truly honest with myself I feel the same as you describe, that even if I had what I want I still wouldn't be immune to these dark feelings. The problem of course, is I'm never really honest with myself when I'm already drowning in the darkness. Thankfully even when I have no-one around me there's always somebody somewhere that understands, cares and is ready to help. The other night that was you, and I'll never forget it. I know you have a support system in place as you've described, but if you ever need a fresh, trustworthy pair of ears to vent to you know where to find me.

These are also my thoughts in my darkest moments "...it is never going to get better..." I know it will never get better.

I hear what you're saying. I've had many days when I didn't want to be alive only a handful of which I actually wanted to do myself in. However on these days I wouldn't care if my life just ended. It's changed a lot the older I get. I was sexually abused by my father from the ages of 7 to 12 and then had to deal with law enforcement and his eventual suicide. This was back in the very early 80's when sexual abuse was just starting to be talked about so finding a good therapist was difficult. My bad days get less and less all the time but I still have them and I can completely relate to this video. Positive psychology has helped a lot but nothing is a panacea of mental health. Much love, support and understanding!!

Honestly, I've never been in that place, where I've felt worthless and depressed. It's nice to hear from that perspective, as I have a few friends who suffer from depression and anxiety. I used to think people should just shrug off those feelings, but I know it goes much deeper and it can come and go. They don't want others to try and fix it, they want people to listen and understand.

Thank you for putting this out there. You're very correct when you say that not many people will talk openly and frankly about depression and suicide. I believe you're a blessing to this world for what you're doing and the advocacy that you're giving to those with a mental health condition. Keep up the good work, and I'll keep you in my thoughts, and pray that your depression eases soon

Thank you for showing up and sharing your vulnerability with us!!!! Hearing someone else say these feelings out loud felt incredibly validating (especially hearing this on a Sunday when I struggle with what I call the Sunday Sads). Thank you for being you!!

Jo hang on! I know how you feel. Keep pushing through till you FEEL like pushing through. Im so sorry you have to feel so badly. My heart brakes for you. Keep reaching out no matter what. ❤️

This hurts. And I appreciate you so much. I thought you were going to tell about your experience and, like everything else I've ever heard, it would have many things that just separate our situations so clearly. I've never had someone relate to me like that before. This is...everything. Oh, Jesus, this is weird, because I'm usually a very articulate person. But I'm just.... Thank you very much.

Life is very hard and its only getting tougher, im ready to leave whenever.

It’s comforting knowing that I’m not alone. Sadly

Thank you Jo, since I discovered your videos I've felt so understood in a way, like I know a friend who really gets what I'm going through. My darkest days are the days that I'm done with living. For me being suicidal doesn't mean actively trying/wanting to kill myself. When I have suicidal periods I just don't want to live, I don't want to feel anything anymore, I don't want to exist. My depression is difficult to describe, but being suicidal is impossible to explain to the people around me. My hardest days I call black days, it's when I don't feel anymore, when I feel numb and like disappearing. It's though, but it's so important to know you're not alone.

Thank you for this video!! I’m ready to quit but at least you’re blessed with a husband, family and support. You’re amazing, I could be gone for weeks before anyone would realize I’m not here, even if I just ran away. I think we knew each other in another life, God you’ve said exactly how I’m feeling!!❤️❤️❤️❤️

I've been struggling with depression and anxiety for like, a year and a half now. And I've been having suicidal thoughts for a long time as well. I know that nothing really happens to me, I have a happy life, I have all I need, but it feels so empty, lonely, difficult, and meanigless. I often feel so worthless and crying makes me tired. I feel so much hate from others and I now that they really love me but some other side of me always tells me I'm dissapointing them constantly, that they never really liked me at all. That they love me for pity. It feels like I can never get better. And even though I'm going to a psychologist, and my life is so awesome, but I know, and I aknowledge that I don't wanna be here anymore, I know that I want to die. But I really don't want to die. I'm sure I'd never have enough courage to hurt myself, and I want to live, but on the other side... And it's so difficult to understand or make others understand. I'm so tired, and I can't do anything. And it's just so scary...

i am 41 and I have always dealt with depression, literally praying asking God to not wake me up. Scared of suicide but I am so tired..."love" has too much control on me... and now once again I have been lied to, cheated on (in my home while I'm asleep), beat on, manipulated, told I should kill myself, no friends, no family, just a sad lonely person that wants to die. I have resulted to posting my private feelings on some random video I came across because I have no one to talk to, literally 211 won't even answer the phone. not looking for pity etc just trying to figure out why am I still here😢

I’m sorry you’re going through that Jo. I’ve had those thoughts and feelings on and off for a long time too. It’s interesting to hear someone else talk about it though because your experience does seem very different from mine. Mine is very much the stereotype of withdrawing from life and feeling like I’m not valuable to the world. Luckily, with counseling I’ve been able to work on those beliefs and realize that there are a lot of people that do value me in their lives. Those thoughts still pop up from time to time but I don’t spiral the way I used to. I’m glad you decided to talk about this because I never would have guessed that this was something you struggle with even though I struggle with it too. It’s important for people to be aware that suicidal thoughts don’t always look the way we expect them to and everyone is a little bit different.

Validation is so important and people who actually struggle with serious mental health challenges need it more. Whenever you’re made to feel like your experience isn’t valid - intentionally or unintentionally - you’re segregated into this lonely, isolating place. And a lot of times because of the nature of the illness, you feel like you deserve it. I’ve always believed that emotions mean something, it’s pure science. When you’re feeling these emotions so intensely and for so long, it’s your body trying to tell you something isn’t functioning right. I’ll never understand how so many people continue to undermine mental health.

Footless Jo! This totally ties in with your 3 minute vid from the other day. We develop survival tools/techniques & self-analyze to watch out for the warning signs. I have a really strong feeling & I hope I am right that YOU HAVE GOT THIS darlin! Your truth helps many. love Steve Holliday

I'm struggling right now because I was diagnosed with muscular dystrophy and 2016 and I just see it getting worse and worse. I know eventually I'm not going to be able to walk at all anymore and my mom warned me that a suicide rate for people who have this is very high. Now I see why, it really affects your quality of life. You can't do a lot of things that people take for granted and it is hard watching your body slowly get worse than worse. There can be times that it progresses rapidly as well. I'm just tired of not really being able to work and not being able to have a normal life. It keeps me in the house so hot because I live in a big city and people are stupid here and drive carelessly and pedestrian deaths are a huge thing here because of the careless driving. Every time I go out, I'm terrified that I'm going to get hit by a car and the fact that I have PTSD already just makes it worse. Sometimes I just get tired of living this way. So I guess not exactly feeling worthless but I think that's why my depression has been slowly creeping up on me. I'm just tired of struggling all the time. I can't even lift my 14 month old without help. I have to hold on to something and I have fallen with him a few times even though he wasn't hurt. I have to ask for help and I get really depressed because I don't really think I can take care of him because how the heck am I supposed to take care of him when I can't lift him? It makes me feel like a bad mother and like people are judging me. Thank you for posting this because I'm really struggling right now.

Neither do I, life’s too shit to live to the fullest it always puts you down, never happy and even if there is happiness it’s very limited and temporary

I’ve gone through a lot. I have childhood trauma and was always hesitant on making friends because of it. I was always surrounded by people but was too afraid to open up because I was told not to as a child. So no one ever really knew what I was going through. Until junior year of high school I started opening up to people and connecting and making friends. I met someone that year and he made everything feel okay and I actually felt accepted with no judgment and we were on the same level. He was my rock for 3 years and I actually felt like life was worth living. But we went our separate ways and now I am struggling to find my own reason to live. I spent so much of my life alone and in silent struggle and I got so used to having someone to lean on that now I feel like I’m drowning again. I don’t know how to be here. I will be here. But I am drowning.

I have so much respect for you, for putting this video up, and for fighting against all the things you're fighting against. This definitely needs to be talked about more than it is, so that we can all learn that being suicidal looks different in different people and feels different for different people. Thank you so much.

I'm nearly 40 living on my own. I've had countless failed relationships and I feel like no one wants me. I'm crying most days and feel like life is pointless. I don't look forward to anything anymore. I often want to fall asleep and never wake up

I identify with so much of this video. Thank you for giving me a moment when I didn't feel completely alone.

Thank you for sharing this. I don’t have anyone in life anymore that I can call. You’ve made an impact tonight ❤️

I'm so glad that someone is willing to talk about these things that most people avoid. It helps to diminish the taboo surrounding them. Suicidal thoughts, depression, low self esteem are things that I have struggled with for years. Am I broken? NO! I'm human. After struggling with postpartum depression and long term sleep deprivation my brain had convinced me that everyone would be better off without me. Ended up in the ICU after attempting suicide by sleeping pills. After being put on a sleep aid and my hormones leveled off I thought - how stupid of me to think like that! That my husband and kids would be better off without me? Yep - I was definitely in a dark place. Now it mostly starts feeling like that when it's been a long hard winter. I have to force myself to have little victories - getting some menial task done is something to celebrate. Virginia Clearbrook MN

I love you Jo, thanks for sharing!! Very educational and helpful. I also struggle with depression and anxiety. It's been pretty high lately but I'm working through it and won't be going anywhere either!

I am 62. I have struggled with depression/anxiety/PTSD for over 30 years. There have been many many many days where I didn't want to be here anymore. Suicidal thoughts were nearly constant (and it didn't help to have a counselor in college tell me, "You have a great husband, a beautiful child, don't worry about it!" I left his office, crying more than before. And, he didn't have tissues.) I had an epiphany in the last couple of years that has helped me (ME, not necessarily anyone else.) I got angry. Angry that I believed for so long that I had to be perfect, angry that my life experiences - and chemical imbalances - caused me to feel I was useless and a failure, regardless of all the amazing things I have done. I GOT ANGRY. I realized that many of the things that contributed to my mental state were now gone, but my brain still hung on to the dark place. I got angry, realizing that all of those things were outside my control, but I was letting them control me. Not any more, I told myself. I might still go to that dark place, but I made a conscious decision that I'm going to win this one. I am going to outlast the dark place and my torturer (already done that, actually) and the bad decisions I made when I was younger because I was so messed up already. Basically, spite is keeping me going. And medication. Take. Your. Meds. I'm going to win this one.

I also don't fall into that suicidal box. I hide it very well I even look like I'm well-adjusted sometimes but I feel dead inside so often. The PTSD and depression gets the best of me quite often

Your video felt like such a relief to me. I feel heard and understood because I am finally hearing an experience I can relate to.

Thank you for taking the time to create this video for so many people who are struggling. One thing that helps me a lot, when I get in deep depression it’s when I start thinking of taking my life, I’ll say out loud so that I can hear myself say it; all the wonderful things about myself and about what’s going on in my life that are blessings. You can’t think something and speak at the same time. In order to get those thoughts to shut up, speak out of your own mouth out loud the good things that you’ve recognized about your life. I promise you it makes a world of difference! The enemy has tried to get me to take my life ever since I was a teenager and in a couple of years I’ll be 60 years old, so I have dealt with this horrific disease or whatever you wanna call it for decades. I’m really getting tired of it.

Thank you, I'm glad you decided to upload this. It helps to come watch your videos and read the comments and just relate this was a year ago I hope you're in a better place now ❤

I sought this video out... I've watched you grow as a motivation in my life for many years. Thank you for sharing this with us. I'm in that place right now. "Activity trying to distract myself".... It came to a head when family went from loving, and supportive; to wanting NOTHING to do with me as a result of dealing with the aftermath of what happened in August. It wasn't my fault; I know that... I can relate SO MUCH to the feeling of it will never get better. I know intellectually that this is not the case. But when it gets and to a great extent literally looks so dark it's dreadfully and horrifically HARD! I can't do that anymore. So it's hard to admit that I need help. But I do. It's coming up on 8 years since the last time I felt this down, this dark and this empty. I overdoses and shouldn't have survived if not for the yard maintenance crew found me. My brother called me on that day. Odd because it had been years that we hadn't talked. I'm sorry this is jumbled and possibly making no sense. I too will be okay. It's just hard; surviving when it would be so easy to just not live anymore. I never expected this thought process to come back but given recent events it's supposedly "normal" to be depressed. I'm sorry I was long winded in explaining things. You're doing great and have come so far. Kudos. Thanks for reading 😭

I broke up with my girlfriend 6 months ago, few days ago, i found out that she moved on, and have a new guy in her life. It broke me. I spent few days in bed just crying and being mad why this happened, for 3,5 years while i was with her i did eberything to make her happy. I think this night is the night to end this pain. I've been thinking abou that a lot, but this new that she moved on, clicked me. This world is to cruel, i know that some people might get help, and thry can get better, but for me its over, i just wanted for someone to know why im leaving this world, too much pain. Stay safe guys, stay strong...

Jo- you do an incredibly valuable service by doing a video like this. I do hope that you feel better as you put together your personal infrastructure to help with these feelings. A lot of people aren't as articulate as you and don't know what to do.

Its vile. I hate being alive. I actually dont see the what the attraction is. Every day I want to die and just stop the pain of existence. No joy in anything at all. Why do people like to be alive? It's a mystery to me.

I'm glad you exist in the same way I'm glad trees exist. You're a good part of the universe.

I am glad to watch your video. I sometimes want to stop living. It is not just depression but there is something more behind it which cannot be explained.

Thank you for this video! Honestly, I really really needed this today. I haven’t felt good in a long time. Although I’ve never attempted suicide - yet, I’ve been thinking about it a lot lately. What you described is exactly what I’m going through and it has provided me comfort because now I know I’m not alone. Despite having great friends and my family by my side, I can’t shake this feeling inside of me that I’m a burden and that the world would be much better without me. 🙏🏽💕

Thank you for sharing your thoughts and feelings. You put into words that I have tried to but never been able to . Thank you

The world would be a better with you in it jo I have experienced suicidal thoughts it's a tough place to be it's a brave thing to end your life it's as brave to stay alive your an awesome beautiful person jo the world needs more sweethearts like you love you jo

Feel like this everyday! Wish I could just end it but don’t want to hurt my family hate the world we are living in

I feel this all the time i sleep alot and try to block everything out i feel numb most of the time.

I relate to this so much and even shed some tears. I just have little to no desire to live anymore 😭

I have chronic suicidal thoughts as well. Which I've had to varying levels for 17 years. People don't realise most severe mental illness can be invisible.

So I sent this video to a couple of my family members and two of my best friends. It helped get a conversation started and I’m so thankful for that. ❤️

That was very refreshing! I really benefited from this video, I still feel like I'm drowning and will never know what it's like to breath again, but for the duration of this video I didn't feel weak or alone 😊

This showed up in my feed at just the right moment. Thank you for sharing honestly. You have made a difference for me.❤

change of location changes things a lot! Environment makes such a big difference. We have habits attached to certain environments. Also, surrounding yourself with emotionally stable people is one of the best things. Don't isolate. even sitting at a coffee shop or just talking to people like the barista, going to the park, buying a cup of drink, or snack, chatting with random strangers....all help. I find myself at my worst when I am in an environment that gives me stress. such as my home when my parents are home.

I have family that is currently in a bad place and therapy doesn't seems to be helping. I have an other family member that I was very close with that took their life 4 years ago. I have what I consider "down" times that feel overwhelming and I can't see the light at the end of the tunnel. I don't know that I have ever thought about ending it though thankfully. Anyway Jo, just know your honesty helps a lot of people and I am glad you are surrounded by a good support system.

You are a beautiful human being...thank you for sharing your story. I have struggled for a long time with anxiety and depression and refused to admit it to myself and others. I'm lucky enough to be surrounded by caring strong family members, and it seemed to me like I would be admitting defeat. I now know there is nothing further from the truth. We all must practice compassion and understanding for one another.

I finally found something I can't totally relate with. I have ppl who genuinely care and love me and that makes me feel guilty because I still feel empty and still want to stop existing. 😔😩😩

😔💜 I'm so sorry you are carrying this weight with you. It might be nice to hear that I am learning a lot about my own struggles by hearing you phrase things you are going through. So, I wish we didn't have to suffer, but as we already are anyways, I want to say thank you for sharing it with us 💜

I genuinely don't want to be alive like I don't see the point of anything I don't enjoy anything anymore at all I just don't want to be here but I know how much my absence will hurt my parents but this is an infinite crushing feeling

I resonate with parts of your description. My therapist labels this as suicidal ideation. Thank you for your vulnerability in sharing this with us❤️

I watched this video AND the puppy video 😍

I do not want to be here anymore. It’s draining in every way possible

Makes me so happy you address these tough topics and that your reaching for the help that you need... Hope your feeling better x

Hey Jordan, I’m also there right now. Like you suicidal ideation is constantly a place my mind goes. I made a counseling appointment for tomorrow. I hope this one helps more then the last which was awful. I hear you. Your not alone. I hope we both can get out of this dark place soon. All my love and thoughts going out from one person struggling to flip the funnel to another.❤️❤️😢🥺

Thank you for this video hun. I know now that I'm not the only one who is feeling this way. ❤️

Thank you for sharing this with all of us it’s nice to know that I’m not the only one that feels this way. Still terrified to admit these feelings to anyone do to that chance of people around me over reacting and the possible hospital visit or have the police pop by for a “talk”.

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You are so brave for sharing this! Thank you for your honesty.

I relate to this so much right now. I am so hyper and outgoing sometimes but for periods of time I am discontent with my life and see no reason to go on. I’ve also found my self acting like everything’s all good and fake laughing etc. even though I do genuinely laugh quite often. I’m glad I found someone who feels similarly to me.

I’m done. I’ve had enough. I’m so very very tired of being here and feeling horrible every second of my life and having to fight endlessly only to lose every fight. I’m really tired. Time to go. Nothing is fixable in my life. Things only get worse and worse the more I try to fix them. I’m really really tired. Time to go. Time to rest now after all these endless battles on this planet.

I just wish I could lie down and not be bothered with no responsibility no stress for a while just exist I want to live but I just want to disappear and watch people watch life from a distance but not forever just a while

This video is sooo appreciated.!! Thank you ❤ and may God continue to bless you !!🙏🏾 especially when you mentioned about knowing that "you're loved" and being aware of how many amazing people reside in your Life! And that always makes me feel worse about my suicidal thoughts; being that I come from a pretty good home, have an awesome Mother, and I'm a Christian. Because many people out here are doing this all alone.. and it makes me grieve for them 😢. I can't imagine where I would be if I didn't have the support I did.

I’ve got experience with this. You are valuable and needed

This video really spoke to me. I feel the same way you couldn’t have put it in better words. The emptiness and no desire to live has been my biggest battle as well. I love to make people smile and laugh, but can’t do that for myself😓. It sucks and a lot of times it gets to be too much. Haven’t worked a solid job since 2014, interaction with others I have been having trouble with. Don’t think I’ll ever be able to work again. Thanks so much for this video, I was looking and searching for help today.🌻

Beign suicidal sucks. I know what you mean. If your ever need to just talk and let it out, I'm here. I'm not a therapist, but my 5 years of depression and anxiety, 2 of suicidal thoughts certainly made me understand dark periods❤ stay strong. I'm recovering. Sometimes I stop and remind myself that I'm strong because today would have been 5 months from my suicide, but I stayed. Lots of love❤

Thank you, just for saying the things some people can’t. It does help

You don’t understand how much this helped. Thank you. Truly.

I don't know how this is possible but this is exactly how I feel and she explained it perfectly and thank you for that

I just want to stay asleep forever. I don’t have anyone I can talk to, I feel like a burden when I ask for the littlest of things.

I go through that everyday . I already suffer from depression. It's just living like this is harder than people realize. Some days I just want it all to end . Now after 1 year of ptosethic I have blisters and skin ripping . At times I feel I'm done .