I Don't Want to HIDE THIS ANYMORE 

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You have suffered so much loss 😢 I will light a candle for your family xx

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My compassion to you and thank you for sharing it ❤deeply thankful

I can relate and I’m so sorry for your losses. I lost 5 members of my family in less than 18 months. My dad, stepdad, grandma, aunt and uncle. Then over the past two years, my mom and both of my dogs. I am still deeply grieving them all. Wishing you love and light.

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I just lost my son and my heart feels shattered. 💔 I pray everyday for acceptance and serenity and to be able to focus on the BIG picture. It's so hard. 😢

@@artiemcfly4832 I'm so sorry and send you my deepest condolences. May you be comforted. 🙏

@@selah71 and you as well 🙏

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I am so very sorry for your pain and loss, sending you love and light.

Hello Janice. I'm in exactly the same situation. My husband was 59, appeared perfectly healthy and dropped dead of a heart attack in front of me, July 2018. It looked like a seizure but it was heart. I almost lost my mind with the grief. It was literally mind blowing, it felt like an out of body experience. Most of the time it felt more like insanity than grief. It does soften with time. I'm in control of when I cry, but I still cry. You will get through this. Sending you all my sympathy from New Zealand 🎉❤

May God hold you tight…. I am so sorry you have to go through such a nightmare. Funny use of words because I know this ‘life’ is merely a dream that is vivid and feels like a long time but it is still a dream… Prayers to you. 💖💖💖

So sorry for your loss. Three years in myself. A year in is still in the incredibly raw phase. I am better now, but it took time. Time to realize this is a new chapter in my life. To move forward but never forget or replace. Still have bad days. Maybe always will. Grief is very personal. It's your journey. Take it at your own pace. Peace be with you.

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and I hope that there is no reincarnation...why do you need another life of experiencing grieve and suffering?

You reunite with your family and reincarnation or coming back to the earth is your choice to experience and evolve. Very few remember their prebirth memories but most of us forget when we grow up

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loss my wife of 13 yrs to cerxix cancer tumor 8 1 23 within 3 mths was only 50 thinking it was menapause n butt pain :(.. we were together for 3 yrs 17 yrs ago n got back together..they gave us hope but never made it to the 1st chemo - i know your pain :(..

@@beatleme2 sending you much power my friend You are not alone

Hello, I would like share my part with you. I lost my mum just a month ago, It's has really been tough for me psychologically

Beautifully said we can honor tje ones we have lost by the way we live our lives My husband and i shared an incredible life together we brought out the best in each other played hard + worked hard shared everything so i have no regrets + know that i could not have loved him more he passed suddenly 7 years ago Truth is i am a better person for the loss of him miss him so much only one of our grand children had him as poppa he was a father figure to her and is so special to me because our love is so deep I hide the pain i feel every day Now my mum lies in bed in hospitalised care unable to move or do anything for herself so unhappy Am travelling to her but am powerless to do more than bathe her and love her So heartbreaking My mothers journey is what Den never wanted he got his wish

@adebimpekehinde9276 it is always rough losing loved ones. There really is no avoiding that. But there is ALWAYS opportunity that arises in a loss. As our expectations are shifted, we can eventually see that there is new knowledge waiting to be transformed into wisdom. It's not always easy to see at first. One place you can start is by asking yourself, what is the one thing I've never learned or tried to do that this person would have wanted me to? By taking the time you might have spent with this person and working towards that creative project or journey, you can honor their life and grow from the loss. Again, this isn't always easy, but it really does being a lot of meaning to your life and the process. Maybe there's a musical instrument or other art form they appreciated. Try taking that up. Artists often struggle to bring meaning to their creative endeavors, but you already have a head start when you come at it from this angle. You don't need to concern yourself with "being good" at the particular thing, because that's not what it's about. It's just a way to process the grief and turn it into something special to you. But you never know, you may just find a new joy in life. To this day, my art has always had more meaning because I know that the most important people that I've lost would have appreciated it. I hope that helps....

@jacquelincran3134 I just posted another reply that I think could apply to your situation and very much be helpful. I find creative practices as the best way to heal through pain. What I would try to avoid is hiding it. Pain is natural in these situations throughout our lives. But we don't have to hold it, if we can process it properly. From a very concrete biological perspective, pain is a circuit in the brain that strengthens when we feel it and believe that it's real. This is often why people feel "chronic" pain that isn't the result of an actual injury. There can be nothing wrong with the body, but because the brain believes that there is, we feel very real pain. I'm speaking from experience btw. I had terrible back pain for years that was healed simply by a shift in perspective given by a very good therapist (Dr Alan Gordon - see his book "the way out") Emotional pain works exactly the same way, in my experience. As long as you tell yourself you have a reason to be in pain, you will be. A shift in perspective is absolutely necessary. This comes from letting yourself feel it, maybe speak to someone about it, but then giving yourself permission to process it and let it go. Don't get me wrong, there will always be a sadness beneath it for having lost that person, but it won't be so painful once you've accepted the new reality. And if you take the advice of my previous comment, and find a creative endeavor that this person would have been happy to see you do, you will forever connect that loss to something positive. You will appreciate the gift of this new side of yourself that was cracked open by their loss. As for watching someone suffer in sickness, that's a very different thing that will never be easy in the moment. It sounds like you are doing what's best in just showing them that you care. Often that's all one can do. Having compassion isn't easy. It literally means "to suffer with" and hence can be very challenging. But that's also why it's such an important process to cultivate, and also why we optimistically call ourselves "humanity - the compassionate species" Hope that helps you through this a bit!

@@MattAngiono oh my goodness you have completely blown me away to care Can feel your compassion is real it is Anzac here and the trauma of veterans who are constantly made in these times is exactly that pain that you describe a pain that is imagined or remembered + takes that person completely into that traumatic experience so that their bodies respond as if they are right back in that very moment of suffering This is also what we live daily and Matt it is hidden beneath everything we do "Jobs must be held + the illusion created that alls ok??? Meanwhile loved ones are damaged daily the innocent familu members are absorbing the energy constantly... ( the knife edge of possible suicide and self harm that can present at any time when tiggered) I know what you are saying about the expansion of our heart space That is exactly why inside it feels like i have become a better version of myself The thing is life is not letting this intensity stop Matt so weird how my pain is for the ones i love am endevouring to walk that talk for them Thankyou so much for caring it gives a comfort i can not express + hope that we truely are evolving as compassionate humanity whatever come s next?

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yes, true...grief can be as hard for a person you love but is avoiding you, or dont want you (loverelationship)....and maybe even harder grief!!! because the person is still alive, but dont want to connect.....sending you love and hope there will be a change for better! 💞

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My heart goes out to you

I've been being told that phrase, ..... im trying to understand it, I can see others possibly enduring my pain, and loss....... but, im not strong minded, tough, nor very mature. I'm really not handling this well., then to loose my Career job I loved for decades, was the last straw. I had coworkers, friends, structure, and purpose. I'm alone now with anxiety, insomnia, stress and..... depression. Lost all interests, hobbies, activities... im in such a scary dark place, mentally. Guilt, shock, regret, apathy.... self blame..... are not good company. 🙏for strength I im unaware of. Take care 🫶

@klanderkal Probably you needed to become stronger. You will understand why all this happened , in time. Maybe He needs you to become a soldier. I don't know His plan but His ways are truly misterios yet perfect at the end. He knows the end from the beginning and this is all I can say. Wish you the best , be strong, and trust Him. Have you seen that meme where Jesus holds a bigger teddy bear behind His back? Search for it if you did not. Hugs, keep the faith

@klanderkal I've went through same things as you only to understand He gave me so much peace at the end and a better life. If you need someone to talk just let me know. Being alone does not help we all need human comfort too

@@notimefornonsense722 Thank you for caring about me 🫶, ... Im unable to see any good at all, .... His ways are mysterious, that I do believe, I wanted to blame 🙏for not intervening, I wanted divine intervention, anything that could have helped me as I was so stressed with anxiety, no sleep, my brain was fried, and incapable of reason, and filtered negatively. I have begun to pray, and have had scriptures to read. I honestly don't enjoy living, my life instantly turned 180. From very happy, life loving, top physical shape..... to the opposite. I don't even want to workout, surf, swim, or even visit friends. I will look for Jesus and the teddy bear. T.Y. for the lv💕 . ... 🙏🫶💐

@@notimefornonsense722 oh wow😟you've had a similar experience! I always feel, I'm the only one, who has been crushed. I am Glad for you, that you received peace & a better life !!🫶... Yes, being alone sucks,... especially since I was a city bus driver, social interactions was a daily thing. Now, with depression,... im not good company, and I wallow in self pity, and only talk about my dilemma 😩. I'm so not the character I used to be. Thank you 🙏, You're human comfort is appreciated, T.Y. for your understanding, Also.... offering to talk. 💐

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@@ToddPerelmuter thank you

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Source is what you already are naturally and it cannot be understood conceptually, you experience source as yourself., you just know that you are source, and that knowing is non conceptual. Its not a matter of trying to figure out how it was formed or where did it begin, because the harder you try to understand it , asking a lot of questions, you end in this cycle of trying to figure it over and over again and you will not no matter how hard you try. Source does not have a beginning or an end, the only conclusion i will give is simply unexplainable. Its a realization not an understanding ❤

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if she doesn't want to see you just leave her alone

Same with my adult son. I went to his counselor to let him know that he attempted suicide. The counselor said I'm not going to talk to you and slammed the door on me. I filed a complaint with the board. Posted the event all over social media and fired him. My son was very upset. Later he realized that he shouldn't have individuals such as his former doctor in his life. TBI is a incredibly complicated injury. I would encourage you to stay focused and not let ignorant people speak into you and your daughter's life. ❤

​​Thanks for the question. I want to give it the time and thought it deserves. I will answer it in my newsletter so that others who have a similar question can hear as well