i don't want to think about her anymore | a midwest emo/emo mixtape 

It’s a weird place to be in when you don’t want her back but you still miss being with her

Stay strong fellas, dont make a permanent solution for a temporary problem

midwest emo is one of the most raw true genres. It feels so real, so empathic, melancholic.. i love it with all my soul

If this is your first time listening to a midwest emo mix, welcome. There's no escape from here

5 years ago, when I was 19, I used a service where I wrote future (well, right now it would be present) me an e-mail. A big chunk of that letter to myself was about the girl I was - and to be quite honest still am - madly in love with. We had known each other since we were 12 and became closer and closer over the years. What started as a very important friendship to both of us developed into love for me at least after she left the school and city when we were 16. It suddenly hit me that I really, really loved her. Over the next 2 years we met a few times whenever she stayed here at her dad's. She then returned for good to study here and it was almost like back when we were goofing around after school a few years prior. However, I couldn't bring myself to confess my love to her. It hurt, it really hurt but I did not want to lose the friendship that became one of the most important anchors in my life. At the start of 2018, we still wrote daily. Fast forward to October/November and we were barely keeping contact. That was probably my fault but I kept telling me that her integrated degree program (I guess that's what you call it in english) was just too hard and that's why we were seeing each other and talking less and less. Losing her broke me for a time. I fell into a very bad downward spiral during which I also wrote that letter to myself. In it, I swore to myself that I will tell her what I wrote down here in an abridged version. Which I did, about 2 weeks ago. We saw each other for the first time in 5 years and reminisced. In the end I told her everything. It was a great evening I thought. Told her that via a text aswell and hoped to meet her again for a coffee or something. Guess she does not feel the same way as the message is still read and unanswered. It does hurt a lot but in a different way than it did the first time losing her. I think I'll be okay. I'm on Tiny Moving Parts - Dakota writing this and started crying a lot. That song really hits the nail on the head for me. Fuck. "I have never been so scared and sad at the same time I finally will figure out what life truly means when it's all been left behind I did not know what steps to take after graduating high school I never knew Much of anything" "If I feel this cold still buried in my throat, I guess I'll survive 'Cause it's sad that time turns its back on us, like a wood chipper eating up the lumber It turns into dust and floats in the air To prove what we have lost" If anyone is still reading this, thanks for letting me get this off my chest. And thanks to you, N. for the great friendship we had. I sincerely hope you're doing better than I am right now. But don't worry, I'll be better. I know it.

Old guy here. I’m happily married with kids. I can relate to all of this, as I’ve been there, but we had bands like orchid, pg99 to soothe the pain. WERE ALL GONNA MAKE IT, KINGS.

I want to be young again, do it all over again, even the pain

There's nothing more wholesome than the comment section of a midwest emo mixtape. Love you all, you're never alone

still convinced she was the love of my life

Hey guys, I finally decided to move on today, I took her stuff back to her apartment. All the dogs came rushing towards me so excited to see their dad, they almost knocked me down. I tried not to cry as I left her clothes by the door but we said our goodbyes in peace with hopeful hearts knowing we can still see each other as friends. I’m quite grateful to have learned the things I have and gained the memories with you. All those cold nights by the beach smoking blunts, drinking ourselves stupid and laughing at everything. But it’s about time I make those same memories with someone else. With love as always. ❤

14 years passed. It's not that bad anymore. But it still kinda hurts sometimes. You never really forget.

I’m a black dude from Maryland who fell in love with Midwest emo when I was a misunderstood loser. I wish I had friends who listen to this

Everything you’re feeling is common, even though you’ve never felt so alone

it gets better boys. whatever you're going through, remember that nothing is permanent

I’m happy and sad to say I got to a better place in my life and these don’t hit as hard. Heartbreak ends y’all, you’ll move on and get through it.

I had ordered pizza for delivery. The driver didn’t bring packets of red pepper. But ultimately, I can’t say for sure that I had mentioned it initially, so how can I fairly put the blame on him? Still, it hurts and I have no control over that. Whatever the case, pizza delivery guy, if you ever read this, just know that in my heart of hearts, I hope you and I can figure it out. #neverforget #buyonegetonefree

I loved her so much, but we weren't good for each other mentally. I didn't leave because I didn't love her, I left because she was bipolar (or BPD) and was hurting me emotionally. As much as I adored seeing her giggle at her favorite movie, playing video games together, splashing each other in the bath and kissing and adoring her, she needed help I could not offer. She's moved on, but I'm here, crying and missing her so much. Life feels so unfair sometimes. Keep your head up my dudes.

5 years ago, I was a raging cocaine addict for roughly 3 years, and ruined my life by getting arrested with a small amount; I thought it was over and tried to take my life 3 times in the span of an hour, i had lost everything and saw no end. Here I am 5 years later; major props to my father, and Im a few years clean. Just hit one year at my job and got a raise and promotion yesterday. I graduate as a software engineer in less than 2 years. Life sucks, but the moments like this make it worth it, we can do anything. WE GOT THIS SHIT MY DUDES!!!!!!!!!!!!!! LFGGGGG!!!!! LIFE IS BEAUTIFUL AND AMAZING!!!!

Midwest emo is still the most romantic breakup music ever and I love it

Two beers in has been the opening song for everyone one of these compilation videos and I fucking love it !

8 year relationship down the drain and going through kidney failure due to a stupid genetic disease. This year is tough guys. Hope everyone else is good though ❤️

It’s weird how this is meant to be sad music but it makes me happy to listen to it, it’s such a hopeful sadness

i love the pictures for these mixes, they just seem so close to me. like they were taken just a few blocks away.

tbh I’m not even sad I just love this genre 😎

It's a bitter sweet feeling to hear these songs and not feel them in the same way I did when I was young. Im a happier person now but sometimes I miss the gut wrenching feeling these used to invoke.

oh man. these comments are some of the most comforting things I've ever read. I broke up with my ex almost 2 years ago now, we had a relationship/not relationship thing going for a while after that until she slept with my best friend at the time. the slow landslide into losing the two most important people in my life is the hardest thing I've ever experienced. I don't think I'll ever be able to forget them despite all the hurt they gave me. I still feel like it was my fault. I'm doing a lot better now and finally got pushed into therapy. it took another relationship that I ended up not being ready for to get there. I know you'll never see this, but I'm sorry Lo. you might've been the right person but I was there at the wrong time. thanks for reading this

I was emo in 2006. It’s 2022 and I’m here. Turns out it’s not just a phase.

She cried in my arms about how he treated her, now she's back in his arms not even thinking about me.

I love how the pics for these emo mixtapes are always pretty much just my neighborhood during fall or winter

I miss her and this feeling is never gonna go away

for those of you looking for something that will resonate with you for the rest of all time, camping in alaska please be nice album. You wont regret it

The little personal touches make this feel so... human? Real? I don't know but goddamn it's special.

i’m not really sad or missing anyone. im just some random girl who fell in love w this genre a few weeks ago. but to anyone who IS, nothing is permanent (figuratively) and things get better.

This picture makes me think of being 17, looking out the window at 4:40am, feeling like you finally understand everyhting, wrapped in a warm blanket of nostaliga for the past, with a slight, cold sweat of anxiety and worry for the world ahead.

better to have loved than have never loved at all, i'm so glad yall can even attract a partner

This style just brings me back to high school 2004-2007. Comforting.

Clicked on a playlist - started to think about her immediately

every song on here is in my spotify rewind. phenomenal video

The only time i feel like there's any sort of light at the end of the tunnel is when i'm stoned and listening to midwest emo

I'm a jazz pianist and i havent really listened to this music much, but GOD DAMN. its taking all my favorite parts of popular music and turning up the authenticity up to 10000%. I love it so much. the tunings, the basslines, the drumming, the samples, it's all so satisfying. Thanks for making this. I saved the playlist. It might be making me feel things... oh noooo

you didn’t lose any time, everything you have done up until now has made who you are today, and will continue to be the building blocks for the future you

i dont wanna think about her anymore. We met two years ago and were best friends. She inspired me. She made me feel like I was worth something. She got me into heavy music, she got me into rockclimbing, she got me into alternative fashion. I still remember the way her eyes squinted when I'd finish a hard route or show her a hard rock song I discovered, only for her to have been familiar with it anymore. I loved her. I wanted to confess to her. I wish I could. I remember our every touch, I remember butterflies fluttering in my stomach at every hello, at every laugh, and at every goodbye. I asked my mom for advice on how to handle the situation, but she never understood. She didn't like her. Didn't like that I was attracted to her. She hated that I wasn't straight, and she didn't care at how she lived rent free in my mind. Now she tells me she loves me, and that she would love me no matter what, but her affection only evokes disgust and pain inside of me. I lash out at her, and I hate myself for ir. She thinks I forgave her because I said I did. I know I'm an asshole, but it still hurts. Having to pretend that this person I would have given anything to be with was just an edgy rebellious phase when it really wasn't. I decided that on my last day before moving overseas, I'd tell her. That we'd figure something out together. I was ready for anything-- hell, if I saw her this very instance, and she told me she wanted to run away with me, I'd do it without batting an eye. That day I planned to tell her, we got into an argument. It was over something trivial, something that, if it happened any other day, we would have had forgotten it by tomorrow. But there was no tomorrow: she ran out the door, leaving me there, praying that this wouldn't be the end of us. We ended up talking some 6 months later. Over text. Briefly. She was dry and I didn't know what to say to her. Things weren't the same. I don't blame her-- I disappeared into another country, and we never figured out a way to talk. My appearance was just as sudden as my departure. I lost my faith after that. My mom was right-- if God is real, he must hate gays. Ever since then, I've been seeking out love: I've developed crushed on anyone whose given me the least form of affection. I can't stop myself from chasing that high she gave me. I know its a shitty habit: all I've gotten out of it was dating someone who used me, someone who I never actually loved, and overall being too delusional about dating. And the worst part is, I don't know if I'll ever be able to stop searching for someone who made me feel like her. As much as I've sought out a new partner, I don't think I've ever looked at a girl (or guy) the way I looked at her. All the butterflies inside me died. Now I'm crushing on a friend that doesn't like me back. Probably. I know its another one of those crushes that I get from someone just being nice to me, but I can't stop. They're the only thing keeping me alive at this point. As much as I am an asshole, and as much as I may lust over other people, and even though I will probably never see you again. I still love *you* A.S. -- From some stranger in your memories, M.S.

I'm 17 and I love this genre of music. I'm not going through a break up or missing my ex. In fact, I haven't had like a romantic relationship for about a year and it doesn't seem like one is coming around the cormer. However, I am anxious about the future and what's in store for me(including if I'll find a wife and have a family). Listening to this music and seeing other's comments kind of help put my mind at ease. Thank you!

This music actually makes me feel happy, like in a good melancholic kind of way. It invokes a jaunty kind of sadness like you’d share with buddies after a rough week and now you’re together again, talking mad shit, throwing beer bottles against the curb, rocking out to the jams, telling the world to fuck off for the night. We’re done with your shit today, World. Tonight I’m hanging with Amber and Kevin, and we’re trying to have a good time

Listening to this comp, I thought it would make me reminisce about my exes. Instead the lyrics reminded me of my school friends, about the things they talked about and did. How they excluded me. Excluded me from their hangouts and group chat, then talk about it right in front of me. I was friends with that group from elementary school all the way to 10th grade, before I just stopped trying to hangout with them. Just to see if they would reach out, of course they didn’t. That’s when the depression really started, I always had dark thoughts but when I stopped hanging out with them. It went from “would anyone care if I died?” To actively thinking of ways to die. No one ever really noticed because I’ve always been good at hiding my feelings. Luckily I met some new friends in 11th grade, those thoughts were still there, just quieter. Don’t know why but they treated me like the leader of the group and I made sure not to let there be another case of me. I remember one of them getting picked on by a different group he was trying to hangout with. He always smiled, but when it dropped. It was like an instinct to jump in. I’ve always been quiet and offstandish, so this was uncomfortable for me but I handled it well. All I did was act like a smartass, didn’t make it awkward, got the attention off him, and they went to talk about other stuff. I miss them, haven’t talked to them since a little after high school. Even started making social media accounts to stay in touch with them. Too bad I don’t know how to reach out to people, but I at least get to see that they’re doing well. One of the people from my old group even reached out to me, talking to him it seems he’s as lonely now as I was and still am. I want to talk with him but I also don’t, like I feel like this is karma but he was the nicest one to do. He’s one of two that actually invited me out kinda, even though I can count the amount of times on one hand. Wow this turned into a rant but it’s nice to get this off my chest :)

there’s still so many anecdotes and jokes i wanna tell her & memes i want to show her but i can’t cuz she stopped caring about us.

This was in my youtubes recommendation, im from the Midwest and never heard of this genre, Tbh it wasn't my type of music, BUT i am so glad i gave it a chance, im saving this video to listen to again and again

He introduced me to midwest emo and we always listened to it together. I never thought that I'd be relating to the breakup songs now that he's moved on I think. Idk. I don't think I'll ever date anyone ever again after him. I loved and still do love him so much. He said he wanted to break up because he thinks I can find someone better than him, but I don't want anyone else. I don't want "better". I want him. Only him. I wonder if when he listens to his music and plays his guitar that he thinks about me. I wonder if there's still a chance to be with him again. I don't wanna give up, but I don't wanna keep trying if he just wants to move on. I can't even cry physically, so all I can do is cry with my heart. I miss him so much. I miss you so much Ashton. Fuck nevermind I'm crying

i also love these spaces that we create, people from all over the world and different walks of life can bond over similar experiences and the art we use to self medicate. sometimes i forget that there are millions upon millions of people out there right now, experiencing life just like i am. i think that’s a very beautiful thing.

Damn, this is good music.

The girl that made me feel that way I had to let go about 4 years ago. Painful stuff, we spent almost 24 hours a day together for 2 years. But eventually I moved far away from that city to a small town and thought I'd never heal. Celebrating over a year with an amazing, wonderful girl and we're planning a life together now. It gets better guys. Don't get me wrong the painful memories can creep up and she still appears in my dreams every now and then but that's par for the course with love. Time and distance can heal even the most broken. Stay strong 💪

Stay positive everyone, we’re all getting through this together. No matter how alone you feel, there’s always another person in a similar, if not the same, situation. Nothing but love to everyone 💚

The girl i loved and lived together for 3 years, left me 4 month ago. I know for sure i still have feelings for her. I wish i could just let it go like a "click". Still hurts and it's hard to stay sharp and cool, because we are still working together at the same job. It's hard to stay focused and my heart twists around every time i see her. Changing the job is not an option due to covid crisis, so yea, pretty rough. Oof and this is a valentines day. Happy day of loneliness everyone. Stay alive, cuz ur not alone in here.

From reading these comments it feels like I'm the only one who starts playing midwest emo when I'm not feeling like shit

Just got out of an 11 year relationship with my highschool sweet heart. 26 years young and I’m basically starting all over. I identified with “us” as a couple to where I lost myself. I felt like I was nothing without her in my life but I’m slowly getting out of that mentality. Feel I’m broken beyond repair for any future relationship but I know that’s a temporary feeling. Fuck…what id give to be back in high school. Bringing your skateboard to school the last day before summer break just so you could skate down the hall on your way out. Yep

Ending with Mineral is literally the cherry on top, so glad I got to see their last show in 2014 for their reunion tour at the Glasshouse in downtown Pomona. Almost cried seeing them live lol.

i loved them so much. they broke up with me because they were in love with my best friend, but lied and said "i was too anxious" which could also be part of it. i just wish i could have helped them more. they were going through a lot when we were together, and i tried so hard to comfort them. i did everything they asked and more. on valentines day when we were together i poured my heart out into a song and gifts for them and when i sent them the song recording i didnt even get a response. i wish i didnt love them like i do, but i just cant move on. its been months and it still stings like yesterday. they asked my best friend out only a week after we broke up, and luckily bsf said no. it doesnt stop them though, they keep pressuring my best friend and going against her boundaries. i just wish all of this was over already

Saw the title and clicked, four seconds in and it fits the mood perfectly.

that picture, it’s everything

every time i see him or even think of him, my heart drops and i have a full blown panic attack. sometimes it makes me feel like id rather become a hermit than see him again, but then i think of what he was going through. i dont love him like that anymore, but i just care for him and hope that his life gets better. until then, all i can do is hope. hope my anxiety of him goes away and hope he gets better.

this playlist has genuinely gotten me through a lot. i’m in a tough spot right now and i’m trying my best, look for the small things in life to keep you moving forward

not a her, but a him. he was my best friend and i genuinely believe that we were soulmates. it's weird to admit that.

We started as friends, then sleepovers, to make out and sex, to moving into his house, helping each other emotionally, to getting kicked out and finding out he got his ex girlfriend pregnant. But told me he needed the room for his grandma…

Gonna get stoned and cry my fuckin eyes out to this

It's alright to cry my guy... washes away the mud little by little... one day again you'll shine. And taste again life's Skittles. And that's alright my guy.... we all be alright

this was the video that got me into midwest emo and oh my god was it ever the best thing i've ever come across. i love you tanju

I’m not even into emo music, but I can’t stop listening to it for the last few days. It instantly gave me this weird sad feeling that I used to get in high school.

Life is constant struggle, but it is cyclical. Enjoy the ups as they come and be thankful for the downs that give them meaning. Everything happens for a reason

Midwest be having the best rock music no cap

It feels great to listen to music and read comments that make us feel less alone tho

3:34am. I am missing my old lover from the past. My very first love from my youth. I'm about to reach my 30s now. I still remember how she smelled. I still remember how she smiles so beautifully to me. I was dumb to let her go because I was afraid of my own feelings - I'm afraid I might not be able to make her happy. Maybe I was immature back then. I was a jerk. We were able to talk a year ago after a very long time about things on what could have happened if we stayed together. A long relationship, maybe? But will it be a harmonious or toxic one? I told her I still have my feelings for her, but she's happy now with someone else. I hope she's doing great. If only I could turn back time, but that's how memories work to make one a better person. If you're reading this, Ching, I really hope you're doing great.

why does Midwest emo feel so damn nostalgic???

me wondering if midwest emo is actually the genre im thinking of vs me knowing the first five songs within the first bar. what a genre

i used to get hurt so much by the thought of you, but i've definitely improved. i'm not saying that the feeling is entirely gone, but it's been reduced significantly. i hope you're happy now. a part of me wishes i could experience that all again, the feeling of someone truly understanding me. the feeling of a close friend, the one (and possibly only) time i made a "true" friend. it's all turned to shit for me after that eventful day, but i do hope that you're happy with whatever guy you replaced with me.

This is like the 6th or 7th night in a row I've come back to this mix. I love it. Luckily I'm in a really good place in life. But I think there's a dormant melancholy that'll always live inside me now. Like a year and a half - 2 years ago I was in a real rough spot. I think I hurt people trying to protect a version of me that needed to die. Still sometimes feels like it was only yesterday. Plus I live in a small town and that's always the feel I get from Midwest Emo.

I dont know man this is dangerous

Cowboy Hat Jack says stay strong, also does anyone else just love looking at these kind of pictures in Midwest emo mix tapes. Something about them feels so nostalgic to my hometown. Love yall.

playlists with movie quotes as intros are top tier but hearing your irl audio just makes it all the more genuine. great job!

I was in a horrible job and my current partner was goin through a really tough spot. I was unavailable to help them in that time and it got to a point where I was i afraid of losing them (in the worse sense). I started listening to a lot of these songs during that time waiting for the day it happened. 3 months later we’re both in a better position in life but I still listen to Midwest emo as a form of healing. Things will always get better, and I consider myself lucky that we’re still here together and the fact that I had something to listen to to help cope with these feelings helped immensely. Life gets scary, dark, and really kicks you in the ass sometimes, but it’ll always get better. I just discovered this video but thanks for playing songs that really helped heal not just me, but my partner to a healthier and better spot in life

That IRL audio you added was just perfect. Genuinely improved the song and overall atmosphere of the mixtape.

Feel like I'm at the end of things and this playlist is really getting me right now.

Playing the two Hotelier songs in the reverse of what they are on the album messed with my head. Great mix!

i've been missing out on midwest emo fall glad this came in clutch :")

I needed this, thank you. Thank you very much.

Thanks for the feels man. 32 feeling 16 again

"you're drinking? it's 8am!" " oh, right. " pours shots into coffee cup.

that's my secret, cap. i'm always thinking about her

Damn, the algorithm really knows me. Thank you for introducing me to some new bands :)

Everything about this makes me feel oddly nostalgic. It feels like this sums up a time period of my life long ago. And the picture gives me déjà vu, it reminds me of the town where I grew up.

I was jamming with some new musician friends I made and after I sang an oasis tune they told me I have a Midwest Emo kinda voice. I didn't know wtf that meant, so here I am now 2 days later listening to this, and I fuckin love it!!! Good job guys 🤟🏻

idk why but the irl audio before the second song and you saying it makes the video more special evoked something in me

i needed every second of this im so glad that this type of music lived on cause it has got me thru so many years of pain its so hard to hold on anymore and music like this helps so much

well she just left so i’m here

we just broke up, then this. Just hits different. fuck.

The video that got me into Midwest Emo Thanks so much for making this video. I've found my favorite music genre thanks to this video

love u for this, and just finding out that u posted this one day b4 my birthday :0))

I've been on a massive Midwest Emo binge and this mixtape resonates with everything I have been feeling and wanting to hear for the past few years now. It's kinda weird but if you think about this mixtape in the album sense, it flows so well with one song to the next in message and literal sound that it *feels* like everyone contributed each song in this order. I dunno. I am pretty fucking drunk but everything hits juuuuust right. Thank you so much for compiling this mixtape!

all feelings and missing her aside, this mixtape is awesome thank you so much for making it :]

I've never been through a rough break-up, but I really just love this kind of music. It's very real and has a neat texture to it.

This just brought me to some of the greatest experiences and beautiful pains. Amazing flashbacks to 20 years ago then 10. A decade of my life like no other. I really needed these memories right now. You brought me home for a while.