I have Bipolar 1 disorder (mania, psychosis and my mental health struggles of 2023) 

I love you and I’m so proud of you

Corey Taylor clocking Rob's manic episode immediately and being understanding and calm about it with no hesitation is like the coolest thing ever

Man, it’s huge you sharing this. Not just for musicians but for all the people who resonate, especially those in the low place. Thank you.

Corey Tailor immediately identifying it as mania and trying to talk you through it almost made me tear up.

Finally a celebrity that isn’t Kanye West talking about their Bipolar 1 diagnosis, this is going to help a lot of people.

Well done for talking about this so candidly! I have suffered with mental health issues in the last year or so for the first time in my life and now having experienced that I realise how important it is to talk about mental health. ❤❤ big love to you Rob ❤❤

This video has inspired me to book my first therapy session

As a father with a daughter struggling with mental health, I truly appreciate this video. Thanks you. Keep on going brother.

Why does the idea of Corey Taylor being the voice of clarity and sympathy in the middle of the barrage of messages seem super fitting and appropriate?

I am speechless. You have just saved lives and explained something so complicated and difficult in such a beautiful way. This is the reason I love you, and millions of people love you and yes I agree, your wife rocks. x

we love you Rob 🖤

Jesus, you have me questioning my own mind atm 😬 Glad you got it 'figured out' so to speak.

Love ya man! It's clear it was tough on you, it's huge that you pulled through.

❤ Much love Rob

I'm so proud of you Rob, and I'm super grateful that you're doing better. I hope we get to do something together again soon!

All the strength to you. This was felt deeply. So important! ❤️

Those clips of you making faces and sighing during the filming really struck me. Being around people and things you like but not being able to enjoy any of it. Sighing from the mental exhaustion of having to exist. In that state, just being alive saps your mental strength. I'm glad you managed to get back to 90%.

Hey man! As a doctor, I can assure you that you came with one of the most complete reports about bipolar disorder that I've ever come across in media, bravely put in a video. Hope this can raise awareness about not only bipolar disorder but also other mental health issues. Been your fan for years now, stay well, Rob!

I have OCD, and some of the meds i've been on made the intrusive thoughts *worse*, a lot. I don't want to get into specifics, but parts of this video really resonated with me in a way that helps. Thank you. And for what it's worth, things are entirely better for me now. I have a healthy relationship, good friends, a great job, and am in good health both physically and mentally.

As someone with Bipolar 2, I feel you. Thanks for bringing awareness to it.

Rob, I just wanted to thank you for making this brave video. My best friend lost his life to Bipolar 1, and even after learning everything I thought I could learn about it, your perspective immediately helped me understand things that I previously didn't. You're doing an immense service to all of us by being open about this. 🙏🏻

The way he fidgeted in that one shot where he's trying to play that guitar riff but he messes up...I know how those fidgets feel. That feeling of "being inside my body/mind is unbearable right now", it's like trying to squirm out of yourself. I'm so glad he made this video, this is what people need to hear. Mental health IS physical health. It's chemicals, it's your brain, it's the same thing as any other ailment, and there are solutions and strategies to deal with this stuff, you just have to realize that, and realize that you can't "just suck it up", and look for help. Thank you Rob.

"Usually" honestly was my favorite song on last year's first of october, for what it's worth. Thank you for opening up about this, it was great to hear about your experiences with BP. I wish you the best going forward, hope you'll have tons of success with the projects yet to come. I know I'll be watching and appreciating everything that comes around here.

19:22 As a person with mental health issues, this hurts so much to watch. The feeling of not being able to enjoy something you feel you should because of your depression. Also the worry for what that means since you're in a pretty social circumstance and you're going through this. Love you Rob, thanks for talking about this.

Dude, I about cried when you talked about how much your wife supported you. I had a major health issue from mold poisoning from the house we were renting when my wife and I first got married. I couldn't work for about a year. She stuck with me. Having that kind of love and support when you feel so worthless... there's no replacement for it.

I had a pretty intense psychosis and lost all sorts of things. I hung out with a lot of homeless people. My phone was stolen, my laptop was almost stolen, my Martin, my Fender Strat and a 400 watt Yamaha PA. My marriage was going through a really rough time. Had the mania, had the grandiosity. I could relate to this. Glad ya made it through, Rob! That was 2023, too.

I went to counseling for about 9 - 10 months from last summer until the end of February this year and the idea had been placed in my head that I may have a form of mania. I left counseling and have had time to ruminate over it and I now think that, after having watched this video, that I may suffer from both Autism and Bipolar 1, or at least something similar to BD1. This video needs to blow up and become viral because people need to see this so that people who have mania are heard.

Bro, thank you - seriously - for sharing this. It's cool to see someone I think is so talented, genuine and unique be so open about this. I have MDD and bipolar as well. It's been a 17 year journey trying to figure everything out. I'm almost 40 and finally landed my meds in a decent pocket. I've always described my bipolar disorder as going from either flat to massively, massively depressed thanks to my major depressive disorder to feeling untouchable, what it must be like to believe you are a god. I don't know you, you don't know me but we know this about each other now. If you ever need someone to talk to about this, don't be afraid to reach out. Talking to someone who shares your ailment does help, especially if you're in opposite swings.

21:00 the way Andrew Notices Rob's mood and immediatly drops the papers and gives him the attention and support he needs it's just hearthwarming. That's what Best Friends do.

WE'RE HERE FOR YA ROB!

Rob a friend of mine sent this to me. Not to share his story on his behalf but this means a lot. You are helping people in ways that you will never know.

Thank you for sharing Rob. I also suffer with mental health issues and while it has thankfully been a few years since my last episode now, it is still very helpful to hear people like yourself talk so openly about the journey you have been through. Big credit to your wife too for being so strong, my other half really helped me through some very tough times and is honestly an amazing human being.

These are the things you often don't see. We just see you upload videos and if you don't upload for a while or something changes we might speculate but most likely won't guess the correct reason unless you tell us. Thank you for making this video and being open about the struggles that are invisible to the audience.

when his wife turned off the camera and said "look at me" ffffuuuuuk I felt that, I was seing it in his eyes, if you've been there you know what he was feeling. Big hugs Rob.

I also have Bipolar 1. Raising awareness around it is so important. It took months for people around me to understand what's happening. I'm still kinda shocked I'm alive. Thanks for doing this.

Thanks for sharing, Rob. I have pretty severe PTSD and episodes can be so isolating and scary - I'm so happy you were able to find your way out of the darkness and found the courage to tell your story. It's going to mean a lot to a lot of people. It means a lot to me.

You have helped me cope with my father's passing ten years ago with your song Anchor, Take care!

Man, the look on Andrew's face when he asks how Rob is doing... That's a good friend.

I used to watch your videos ALL the time, but eventually I just stopped watching RU-vid altogether, so this is my first time watching in a while and I have to say this is an incredible video! Talking about our mental health struggles and conditions is so important to de-stigmatise, and you've done such an amazing job opening up and being honest here. I hope you know that this video is a massive help to a lot of people, myself included, and you should be so proud of yourself for making it :)

I have bipolar 2 and had a very similar episode caused by a medication being incorrectly prescribed. I never went into full mania but the hypomania lasted for over a month and I drained my savings and made a lot of very risky decisions. I’ve never known anyone else who had that happen and I feel very seen right now. I’m also on the other side of it now, it was 3 years ago but I still feel a lot of shame about what went on. Thank you so much for sharing, I don’t feel so alone in this anymore. ❤

Going back to what you said in the FOO video now - "I'm still sick" is such an insanely powerful and validating way to frame it. Whether that was the intention or it was that you were just trying to not give anything away, it honestly inspires me to hear mental illness being talked about in such so shamelessly. Yes. It's not trivial, it's not fake, it's not something to just grin and bear. Reminds me of the quote from Dimension 20 (shout out to all of you who know what that is), "You're not a coward; You have a medical condition." I have a tendency to favour an "it's fine" attitude to my anxiety and depressive tendencies. But it's not fine - not always. And just like any physical condition, we should take the time we need to care for ourselves. Thank you.

I’m a psychiatrist, currently working at the Amen Clinic in Costa Mesa. I want to clarify something, because it’s really important for your long term prognosis. You don’t have Bipolar I Disorder if this is your only manic episode. I know, per DSM criteria, you only need to have 1 lifetime episode to qualify for Bipolar I, but it doesn’t count if it’s in the context of a substance, including antidepressants. I’m assuming the medication you were referring to was either an SSRI or something over the counter, like Kratom or St. John’s Wort. If that’s accurate, then you probably had Substance-Induced Bipolar Disorder, which is its own diagnosis and, like you said, isn’t expected to result in another manic episode if you stay away from the substance (medication). This makes sense, since the vast majority of people with Bipolar I will have their first lifetime manic episode in their teens or early 20’s. You were already in your 30’s. It sounds like you probably also have PTSD since you mentioned trauma several times. I’ve had many many patients in my career with PTSD have one-off psychotic episodes with drugs or high stress, so I’m glad you have the therapist, too. Anyway, thank you for talking candidly about your mental health. Sending positive vibes into the universe that you never have another episode like this again.

I thought I was alone in this. For so long I tried to explain to people what I would go through and no one would understand, but hearing this from you I finally can see that I am not alone in facing this thing that has haunted my life. Just from you being open about sharing your experiences, I feel like I can now get through this because other people have before me. I thought for so long that I was crazy or untreatable, but now there is a comfort in knowing that this is a thing that can happen, and that I am not alone in that. It doesn't make it easier, but at least i am not alone anymore. Thank you, Rob. You have no idea how comforting it is to finally be seen!❤

I almost couldn't get myself to click on this video, because of mental problems of my own, but goddamn, that was such a healing and good experience. So glad you got through this and so thankful for making this video! Thank you man!

dude thats crazy ive been watching you for like 10 years. im 31 and am currently in my 2nd psychosis of my life. heading towards schizoeffective diagnosis but it takes a long time

Big W for Tamara, for how supportive she is of Rob through his struggles. ❤

The vulnerability and honesty you displayed means the world to others, especially to other musicians with Bipolar disorder like myself. I have cyclothymia and I remember my first (and most severe) Manic episode. I'm an emo kid from Jersey, and I up and moved to New Hampshire, started dating a sex worker, doing hard drugs, and worked endlessly to unearth the secret to perfect the flow state as a musician. It lasted about 2 months. I was flying high, everything was perfect. After so much pain and suffering id been through in my 25 years at the time, I thought all of my hard work, meditation, counseling, exercise, practice and effort to give and love myself had finally come full circle. I was reaping the seeds I had sewn so carefully over time. Then finally, I woke up one morning, and the effervescent sheen that had coated everything around me was gone. The sparkle of life had transfigured into day dreaming of death. The Great Ape of Fear had planted himself fully in my chest. Sheer terror reigned supreme, as boss universal. She had replaced any high-strung, cocksureness and grandiosity I had mistaken for peace. I'd never met despair like I had that day. Rob, Thank you so much for your share. It's way past time to destigmatize mental illness like this, and open up so others know its okay, there is a light and its closer than you think.

This is the most eye opening and honest talk about mental health I’ve heard in a long time. I hope this helps others, and helps remove some stigma. Props to you Rob, the best thing that could come of this awful period is highlighting it like you have. Thank you.

Thank you Tamara. Being a supporter is hard, and often feels thankless. Just so you know, you rock!

first of october is the reason i started writing songs. i'm 18 now, 5/6 years into writing consistently, possibly having written around a thousand either full songs, or snippets of songs, whatever. when i saw you were having some trouble in the last first of october video, it kinda hit me like a truck, i'll be honest. thank you for everything man. i hope you can feel a bit better just knowing that the effort you put in to keep yourself going day after day has changed people's lives. i'm wishing you the best!

I’m really glad to hear you’re well, buddy, and I’m even more grateful for this video. As someone who’s dealing with mental illness for years, it’s always some sort of “recognition” I get from content like this. We should all be proud of one another that we’re getting the help we need and we deserve!

Rob, you are fantastic. Thank you so much for shooting and releasing this video. I have always been a fan. I am so happy you are still here.

Imposter syndrome and Gaslighting myself about my ADHD is really destructive because it stopped me from getting help.

I read something today that I was reminded of when you said you were such a burden to Tamara, your wife. A burden is something you are forced unwillingly to bear, but she loves you and willingly chooses to take on that load and help you carry it. That's true and powerful love right there, Rob. Like you said, it was her choice to stay with you and help you every day, that's not a burden, that's love.

Thank you, so much. The deep and complex interplay between personal, business responsibilities makes it feel impossible and the raw fear of feeling like you're destroying everything. Good luck man.

This was so moving, heartfelt and inspirational Rob. We all love you and you have an army of support.

I'm fighting off some serious depression and self-harm that's lasted for years on years. I can't watch this video right now and I don't know that I'll ever be in a place that will allow me to but I still want to voice my support and let it be known that you and others like you are not alone.

Rob, as an autistic black kid that was navigating the beginning of college in the early years, I see you and your struggles and see the parallels and graces you've given folk like me who wanted to give up but held on trying to learn something from you, to be humored by you or the next Jared Dines collab. You don't know the people you've helped and you continue to help by being honest and empowering. Dude none of us can give you what you've given us in those fleeting moments of thinking it really is just me. No, it's us and we just need to be heard. Thank you for sharing yourself for all these years dude 👊🏿

Thank you for your openness and honesty. It's definitely hard to talk about mental health issues due to the stigma and pre-conceived notions around it. I have Bipolar 2 disorder so I can definitely relate to a lot of what you talked about. Sending my best wishes to you ❤

Thank you so much for your open honesty and sharing your story. It's really brave and will help a lot of people. We appreciate you!

Hey! I went through a similar thing! I had about 3-4 episodes of acute psychosis which resulted in a good chunk of my relationships being obliterated, losing many personal belongings such as my vehicle, a load of my music equipment, computer equipment, and I also erased everything I could find on the internet about myself, and proceeded to get into a nasty vehicle accident. All fun stuff, you know? I'm getting better by the day, and It's good to see you are too, Rob! You inspire me, with your skill in music, your easygoing, humourous personality, and content creation! It's really nice to see that despite our struggles, we are still able to be happy (ish) and successful. Stay strong, man. ❤

As you hoped, this video makes me feel very seen. "Am I sane, can I trust this decision" is the part that hit hardest for me. Once you've been out of control of your emotions, mind, and body any time you take any risk, any big investment, any joy, any sadness, any bad day all you can think is "is this the start of another year?"

Thank you Rob for not only giving insight and explaining your experience, but also for being someone that me and many others have been inspired by for years ❤

thank you for posting this. it actually means a lot and i hope you get your mental health back where it needs to be.

Schizophrenia sufferer here, thanks for helping break the stigmas of mental health, Rob. Wish you the best!

I love how understanding Andrew, his wife, and producer are. So sweet.

Rob, you are absolutely amazing for making this video. Thank you for sharing your story and giving everyone with mental health issues hope that they can deal with it

From one Rob to another, you are incredible and an inspiration! Thanks for sharing your struggles, it can't have been easy.

I have bi-polar 1 as well, but out of embarrassment didn’t work to help myself through therapy and self-care. This cost me my marriage as my wife couldn’t handle this after years of extreme highs and extreme lows. It is amazing to see someone talk so candidly about this disorder to their audience and share their story as a form of release.

rob, as a long time fan, and as someone who's suffered from psychosis, delusions, paranoia, mania, severe depression etcetera for several years at this point, i can not explain how much it means to me that you have made this video ♡ i'm so happy you're doing better and i hope you continue to help break the stigma! it's ok to not be ok! love you rob! - a schizoaffective bipolar subtype "patient"

Such a brave video. Sending love, Rob!

Rob do you know how many times I've thought that "man this guy Rob has it all going on....he's doing all this cool music stuff he seems happy doing exactly what he loves to do...I would love to be in his shoes. I've got all this mental stuff going on and my life sucks blah blah blah....." Rob I love you ...and thank you so much for putting this video out

Thank you for acknowledging your wife. People don't realize what a toll this takes on families and how much it takes to stay there for you.

Seeing someone so candidly describe experiences I've had hit me so hard. I have monopolar depression, essentially that dip period you had but unending and without any counterpart. Feeling like I'm a burden on everyone around me, that I don't deserve their help or presence, that I need to rid them of me, is at the forefront of my mind all the time, and it fucking hurts. I'm glad you're out of the trenches. No one deserves them.

Thank you for bringing light to these issues. So glad to see you back doing well and being able to talk about issues that nobody wants to talk about.

Thanks for talking about this stuff. Reducing the shame and stigma is the most valuable thing. Glad to have you back, man!

That sentiment about like "When I was there, I felt like I was making it all up, and I didn't deserve the help." I know that feeling!! This isn't a bipolar thing, but it is very much a mental health impostor syndrome. Glad you're talking about mental health more publicly, Rob.

Thanks for sharing this, Rob. After living through my wife's horrific episode with BP psychosis in 2021-2022(which included four arrests and involuntary hospitalizations), I've been on a quest to understand this insidious disease. I appreciate your insight and honesty. I'm happy you're doing well. Equally happy to say we've had 2 years of stability and healing on the other side of it as well. Love and respect to you, brother.

As a long time fan of you, and especially 1st of October, it was honestly scary seeing you going through that last year. It's awesome hearing that you are getting this thing under control and are feeling better. You by no means owe an explanation to anyone, but I want to say that it is definitely appreciated, and I wish you nothing but the best moving forward!

I dont have BP, but I have had periods in my life of depression and that feeling of hopelessness is so scary. I got so convinced that everyone hated me, I should end my life, theres no point, etc. But once I got out of that state its really hard to believe I had those thoughts because theyre so unfounded and so easily disproved. Thanks for making this, its good to see.

Hey man. Glad you're still with us and you're on the other side ❤ (Shoutout to Tamara for being amazing)

I’m very glad that you got through the year. It is something that many people deal with and you will not lose your supporters by sharing this. You are helping others by talking about it. Please keep checking on yourself with those closest to you. The world needs your talents.

Thank you so much for making this video, Rob! I think you being so open about mental health is so important and really resonates with me. I'm happy that you're in a better place now! Much love to you and Tamara❤

Fighting late-diagnosed ADD and depression with suspected bipolar right now and I'm currently in pretty bad shape again. Your video gave me more power to continue seeing this through. Thanks, Rob!

I watched the First of October episodes on both channels and thought to myself, "oh, man, Rob's got cancer." Glad it was just a scumbag brain instead. Much love!

Thank you Rob! I am glad you got the help you needed!

I also have Bipolar 1 and just came out of hospital 2 weeks ago after a month of treatment. It’s important to talk about this stuff, so thanks.

I commend your courage for talking about this. This video felt incredibly moving and personal to me. I lost my brother in 2016 to suicide and he was, seemingly, one of the happiest, brightest people I’d ever met in my life. He was the sort of guy who you’d never guess had as many thoughts haunting him as he did. I respect the fact that you’re sharing this experience with people because so many individuals don’t understand what mental illness looks like, even nowadays. Thank you, Rob.

So, so much love for you Rob. And your wife and your crew. And everyone that rode that with you. Im so glad youre still here and you're feeling better than a year ago ❤

All the support to you. Thank you for talking about it to your audience and actively taking steps to reduce the stigma attached to mental health. You're a hero for that

Amazing honesty Rob. This helps remove the stigma. My group has a saying. "Its okay, to Not be Okay" Thank you for this. I wish you the best on your journey.

I've suffered from severe anxiety, love you talking about mental health and making it a public thing

Thank you for making this video, and particularly for not sugar coating the things you feel embarrassed about. Hearing about some of those symptoms and things the mania brought out must have been very hard, but it’s so helpful to be specific about what mania actually is for people to carry forward in their lives. I wasn’t aware episodes could last this long and I’m now much more aware of some things to look out for. Thank you.

Thank you for sharing your struggles and pain with us. Also for helping people relate and raising awareness. Excited for you to feel the love around you!!💙💙🙏🙏

I've been dealing with pretty severe mental health problems all my life. Consistent, intense depressive episode where I see no joy or hope and experience what seems like only despair. 2023 was horrible for me, multiple stays in mental hospitals, my father's diagnosis of cancer, and my own illness, making me lose 100 lbs in 5 months. Mental health is something that NEEDS to be talked about in all its painful and embarrassing detail so that others realize that they are not alone and never once have been. Thank you, Rob, for your honesty, transparency, and frankness. Your words have truly helped.

Thank you for sharing, Rob. It's not easy to be open about that, but I hope this helps folks destigmatize mental health things.

So happy this video was made. Should be required viewing. Seeing Rob smile is so reassuring. Keep truckin' my guy.

I’m so glad you had the strength to share this with us man!!! Love and respect from your homie in Wisconsin!

Ive spent 2 weeks in mental hospital, How you described your psychosis is exactly how I felt, plus some. I was diagnosed with a form of schizophrenia. It's been years, but it still feels strange to this day. (I'm doing better, the meds they gave me was some crazy stuff that I had to wing myself off of and they believe cannabis was partially responsible what caused my episode. I don't see figures and have certain thoughts like people I dont know talking about me right infront of me.) I've had some strange things happen and I believe trauma is partially a major factor into why I had lapsed into psychosis. *To anyone having mental health problems, **_PLEASE_** talk to someone!* And to Rob, We're all here for you!

God hearing you talk about the embarrassment that comes with mania is so real, really appreciate you putting out this video.