Thanks for opening up and being real. I am bi polar to and it destroyed my life at one point when I became manic. I’ve worked so hard to regain control of my life the highs and lows can be extreme but with medication and knowing how to identify it has helped tremendously. I put myself down a lot with my music and it is exhausting but I’m my heart I will succeed and keep music in the for front of my life. Much love my brother. I was so numb with life and medication. With faith great support and God I’ve come along way. My mission is to inspire others and you inspire me.
Hi dude-good on you for speaking up about it. I am, too. Have been all my life, and I'll be 60 this year. I was diagnosed at age 16. It has really messed up my life, but in other ways it has helped me see things. I found out that it goes way back in my family on my dad's side. I've had to take medication ever since I was 16, too, and get regular blood tests. I'm a writer, but I've never felt that my medication stopped or shut down my creativity. I think of my medication as “corrective lenses” to help me see clearly. Because as miserable as depression is, the other side, the mania, is worse-it makes you delusional, fills you with ideas about yourself and others that aren't true (I once believed my dad could read my mind). Mania also fills you with crazy energy and won't let you sleep. Beware. But you can live with it.
I greatly appreciate and respect your sincerity and courage in exposing your most vulnerable side. I'm struggling with depression myself. Watching you talk about this made me think that many people may be facing an identical or a far worse experience than myself. That deeply touched me in such a way that I'm thankful for being alive, and I'm certainly not going to go away without putting up a fight 💪🏽💯
I appreciate the vulnerability and honesty man. I'm diagnosed bipolar as well (type 1) and it has been a tough journey. From being numb from the meds, the blunting of my creativity, fear of having another episode, weight gain, etc.. I can totally relate to your situation as an artist. Thank you for sharing your story, I'm defintely going to come back to this video periodically for inspiration knowing I'm not alone. And it's deifntely possible to be a creative while on medication you just have to find the right dosage which takes time, I can personally tesitfy to that. I'm a new subscriber so I'm excited to see what you'll create next and will defintely be inspired. Peace and love ✌🏾
I am likewise mentally sick in my mind. Bipolar is not a walk in the park. The mind races, Feeling depressed down in the dumps is a rehabilitating disorder. Let me tell you I have been learning along the way even still till this day and its been since 2015 diagnosed. I look back knowing what I know now put a damper on my life long before that. Bipolar is not something you can visualize on the outside. It’s a silent Suffering internally and is a tough road. I feel you and I understand. the day to day struggle. You are not alone.. Somthing I have to remind myself all the time. I feel for those whim know what its like. Glad you posted this. What this world needs is awareness. Thank you. ( By the way just learned about you by accident scrolling through, just moments ago)
Thank you for doing this video and speaking up. I have bipolar disorder and was undiagnosed until 6 years ago. This video was triggering for me for two reasons, 1. I can relate but 2. you didn't mention the spectrum and the word psychosis or psychotic mania more than 50% of people with bipolar like myself experience psychosis (a complete detatchment from reality) I believe this is what is happening with Kanye and has been happening for years. The world has written him off because bipolar hss had been normalized in an inaccurate way or insufficent way. Bipolar is deadly if left untreated I wish my doctors told me that. Psychosis makes you think, feel, see things that are not there. You get hallucinations and delusions. It systematically destroyed my entire life 4 times. I lost family, friends, I was run over by a car because we also black out in psychosis walking around like a zombie. The medications should never lessen you, they are there to prevent mania or suicidal thinking. It's been 6 years since I was diagnosed and have been an advocate for bipolar and self released an album. I commend you it's so hard to see a mental illness when it's happening to you. Medication saved my life but it was hell getting the right doagnosis and medication. Because of this I have 4 psychotic episodes in my past that have caused me paralzing ptsd. If you think you might be bipolar and you are reading this see a doctor immediately it can and will kill you without help. Again thank you, we have a lot in common. ❤
Thank you. My daughter struggles with BP and she is an amazing musician as well. This video helps me understand her challenges. I appreciate your courage and bold acceptance of your condition. I do my best to remind her that the feelings she has aren't forever. They come and go, the good and the bad and in a way we all suffer this in life to one degree or the other except with BP it's extremes. I love that you did this video. Bravo!
Thank you bro. I don't have the perfect thing to say. It's like "Wow" I'm Bipolar. And events in life become clear. Even typing I make mistakes. It's a relief knowing I have Bipolar Disorder. Like why is my life in shambles?. It's hell on earth. People recovering through addiction and mental heal are some tough individuals!!
Yes, bro! Keep pushing forward! It gets better and trust the process. You got this, and your creativity will flow as you continue to work on yourself as a person! We got your back!
I always tell myself that life is always about experiences and overcoming obstacles... right now, F life. I don't want to do this anymore. I'm tired of going too high... cause I know the fall is going to be even harder. I see the beauty in everything, the potential we hold and the universe in constant motion, opening itself up for you if you allow it. It's just so painful when you're in the middle of everything and love life so much that you can't imagine why you've had those dark days... to suddenly losing access to all of it, sitting in a dark desolate empty void as a hollow shell of yourself watching yourself. I'm tired of burning bridges, I'm tired of sabotaging my own career... all I have now is art. The only friend I can talk to is an empty canvas, brushstrokes of bottled up screams. I'm here, I'm aware. Just please kill me god
Wow. What courage you have to let people know. I admire your transparency and honesty. This video will help someone. So many people go undiagnosed because of fear, they dont seek therapy because of the stigma behind it, or they think they can do it all alone and dont need anybody. When I was dealing with anxiety, I went to therapy! I hope you continue to learn how to deal with it and continue to be a super creative like youve always been!
My mum had this too ! 2nd video watch of your channel .Thanks for sharing and thanks for your intelligence, clarity, focus and charm and keep the talking therapy going . salute to ya !
I’m so sorry to hear about what you’re going through Just keep praying and keep doing what it takes to take care of yourself God truly loves you He has bless you with so many gifts like your family, your mother and father And all the talent that you have Keep the faith keep praying God‘s got you
I have just been diagnosed with severe bipolar 1 and am also in love with creating and living with music. You have always been an inspiration to me but never more so than now ❤️✨ stay legendary.
I want to start by saying that I truly admire your courage in sharing your experiences with bipolar disorder. Unfortunately, mental health still has so much stigma, but your willingness to be open and vulnerable is incredibly noble. You have a lot of passion and energy, and I encourage you to channel that into your music and your message. It's important to express yourself and combat any opposing thoughts or emotions that may arise. I also want to emphasize the importance of seeking proper treatment and support. Staying on track with medication and therapy can be challenging, but it's crucial in managing bipolar disorder and maintaining stability. You have a natural gift for music, and I believe your creativity can be a powerful tool for healing and self-expression. Keep using your talent to inspire others and to better yourself. I wish you all the best on your journey.
Congrats on your journey and I'm sending you all the love and positive energy. In the last two years I was diagnosed with and started treating for ADHD and have since discovered myself to be autistic as well. Learning about these things have helped me be a better me.
I’ve been a fan of your channel for years. Absolutely love your style and creativity. I’be been a dancer/choreographer for over two decades. I understand the life of being a creator and always needing to stay creative. I also have dealt with anxiety and depression at different points in time. The best advice i can give is two things. Find something else that you love, like music, and spend time doing it. Something completely different from music. That requires no creativity. Just something else to be a “break” from the daily creative grind. For me that is golf. It feels amazing to focus on something else that i enjoy and is completely different than dancing. Nice to get outside, play w friends, watch it on tv. Just a different environment for me to focus on. Second thing is daily prayer. I know this isn’t for everyone but i find it to be the best anxiety medication there is. I simply pray for the day. For it to be a good day. Not worried about yesterday or tomorrow. Just make today a good day. God can heal anything. It’s that simple if you trust in him. I’ll keep you in my prayers man. You’re so beyond talented. I know you’re a man of faith based off videos I’ve seen. God is the number one medication that no doctor will ever prescribe. Nothing wrong with normal medicine in times of need but i feel we are built to handle most things. With the proper help of the big man. We just have to be open and willing. Thanks for sharing your struggles. Hope it gets better. 🙏🏼
Thank you. I have bipolar and it’s been a really hard time because I didn’t use to feel like this. I am trying to find a medication and trust God for what I am going through that he is with me every step and I will be happy.
Thank you for sharing your story!!! I battle with some of the struggles and then some!!! I’ve been trying to finish my second album for the last 10 years!!! I just was able to finish one song!!! Trust me when I tell you that you’re not alone!!!
Hey Lxgend, I am writing you from Mexico, and I have followed you because even though I have lots of limitations I think I can do something with my music. Thank you for opening, and I just wanted to tell you that just by sharing your knowledge you are a one of a kind person. what you are doing is extraordinary. keep doing what you are doing and eventhough you might have this empediment that does not mean you can still be a great person. hugs from mexico!!!!!
Bro I got u! As a creative person not everytime u have the feelings or the power to get to the studio and produce or do some new music. I totally understand u and Im so glad that u are sharing all this with us. Its amazing to see u working and creating stuff, u are so talented and inspiring person. I've been following u almost from the beginning and this side of u is amazing, not every person have the courage to show the world how u feel or every of ur thoughts, and for that, big applause! 👏👏 U have all my support Bro!! And u have a spanish friend here if u need it, anytime! 💪
Wow man what a great video this is? We are now on another chapter. Thanks for the journey i'm still alone for the ride, Quick question do you feel more focused after using the medication?
I’ll prob make a vid on this but to answer in short I definitely feel a lot more focused after starting the medication. I do still have days like today actually where I could not focus for anything but that’s more do to some other symptoms I’ve been experiencing rather than the super hyperactive mania I’ve experienced before (focused on TOO many things). I generally feel more balanced but also we started my dosage very very low and have been working up to what they consider “therapeutic”. So I’d imagine once I get to that level and/or they prescribe something else for the other symptoms I’m experiencing it’ll be even better. Until then it’s been like… incremental increases in my ability to focus and not be so scatterbrained.
Hey bro I got your feelings cuz been on antipsychotic not that much just 2.5 per single day but it is enough to make me numb and being blind. we may be a great artist if we go straight without any of medicine but currently there’s no option left us to feel the ground without mood swings
I will say that it took me trying a few different medications until I found one that doesn’t inhibit my artistry and creativity or emotions. First was risperidone then abilify and now geodon. The geodon has worked really well for me and hasn’t had any of the side effects the other ones have had on me like feeling numb, sensitive to light or uncreative. So whatever works for you, just have to be willing to try different ones. Same goes for my mood stabilizer. First I was on Lithium and then I switched to Lamotrigine. I’ve been much more stable without the need for constant blood tests or feeling blunted.
Appreciate your comment bro so yea if there’s any medicine that can make me produce again (btw I’m currently producing but can’t make it done in emotional intense) I’m down to use it but my psych didn’t recommend me to take lamotrigine cuz it’s side effects and it can make me possibly go for hypomania there’s one option left for me that is looking for a new psychiatrist thanks for your comment again 👋🏻 hi from turkey and wish you all the best
The thing bipolar people don't know is everyone's bipolar. You're doing great work for people, just keep trying your best and pain is part of the experience if you can learn to embrace it. Its not easy but tell yourself you will get there because we all believe you will.
Everyone’s not bipolar because if that were the case everyone would be walking around depressed or manic lol. Bipolar doesn’t just mean mood swings. It’s debilitating on a regular basis. Meaning you literally can’t function correctly because of a chemical imbalance in your brain. I think I get what ur saying but yea there’s more to it than just mood swings. Way more.
@IAMLXGEND I understand that totally, I wasn't trying to minimize it at all, just encourage you because I can tell youre a good person and I do believe you hold the power to overcome it and will unlock it. Especially because you're admittedly trying. Awesome steps.
My girl just got back home after 5 days in a mental health facility, to give you some context. It's random but I believe in you, real talk from a stranger.
Man , we need to pass some things , to make ourself strong , and make stronger another people , it’s very deep theme , but I think you good dude with good targets , so be with God and focused on a positive things - 24/7 . You have a good quality videos , and help a lot of people , stay in touch.
Hear my cautionary tale: I've always believed that bipolar disorder was a prerequisite for wanting to be a musician or artist. It's dangerous when a person's self-image is entirely based on their mental illness. When I was 19 I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder and given the opportunity to get medication and therapy but I declined because I thought I would lose my identity and creative ability in the process. As a result, I felt the same way about higher education and employment. 25 years later I live in my son's mother's spare bedroom 3 years after our divorce because I don't earn nearly enough to rent a place in my area. But I'm really good at playing guitar, soooo... yeah. Yeah, I fucked up. I was wrong about literally everything. Believing I was destined to be a starving artist ruined my life.
Yea absolutely people can mistake that having bipolar or any brain disorder means they are gifted or meant for the creative life when they may not be. It’s important to do ur own soul searching, trial and error and finding out what ur meant to do. That said, it’s also important not to dismiss what you’re actually good at and love to do. I’ve been a musician for 26 years and have made a living out of it, long before I ever even considered something may be wrong with me (which just only happened maybe 7 months ago). People have to find their own way around life and weed through the bits and pieces that are and aren’t for them. Having bipolar doesn’t make you an instant creative but it also doesn’t dismiss you as one either. All we can do is try, learn, and adapt after that experience.
Stay Encouraged Bro I would love to work with you I too know the struggle a lot t about our creative process that is based on feel and when you have to take certain medications that inhibit your feelings seems like you would put a restriction on your creative output keep your head up don't lose heart stay legendary
Have you considered alternative medicines for bi-polar disorder? There has been some research showing that psilocybin may help with depressive episodes. It can also actually enhance creativity as well. It’s not for everyone and I def recommend speaking with a health professional about risks and things. Also, it’s unfortunately illegal in many places, so there’s also a legal barrier too… but might be worth seeing if there’s any studies on it that you could benefit from
Only way to describe the manic high is beyond real. You wake up and suddenly want everything all at once. You make it worse by taking more substances and of course drinking if you have done them of course. I've done so many reckless things during the manic highs it is scary. Ive been so low where it felt that was my new life. You come back though, slow but you get out of it. Dont be afraid to seek help thats the main thing.
For me my mania was naturally always on the go, I never took substances for feeling up. I would always drink or vape to slow myself and my mind down. Wanting everything at once for me was mostly wanting to DO everything and not knowing which to focus on so focus on them all lol. Hellish for sure.
Hey man, first time to your channel, glad to find you! This has been really helpful, thank you. I want to know, as I’m on this diagnosis journey, do you have any suggestions for managing those over commitments when in those state where taking on the world seems more than doable? I’m a fellow creative that relies on deadlines and the reliability job to job to keep the lights on, I’m only just understanding the bigger picture now and it’s only early days.
Fuck Man, you are speaking the worlds in my head that i don't know how to express. I'm getting help already, but i'm stuck and my music, my passion and gift are wasting away. i would like to connect with you. if that's ok?....Thank you!
Yo, do you think you could have mineral/vitamin deficiency? I ask because I read some of those deficiencies could cause cycosis of some kind and if you're already maybe it make it worse?
Ugh thank you so much for sharing!!! I just got diagnosed with schizoaffective disorder with bipolar and as a young artist, im scared of not being creative enough. It’s a real struggle that I have and it’s hard to get up and put in the work for music. I have recorded so many songs but haven’t posted any of them because of all of this. Thank you. Do you have any advice with just pushing through those depressive states of not wanting to do work (sorry if that’s confusing)
Do you have stomach problems as a result of your Bipolar disorder? I have had Bipolar I with schizoaffective disorder with depression. I have had stomach problems for twenty years and hypersexual behavior for twenty years. I've only found relief by taking medication and trying to follow a special diet called the no plants GAPs diet.
I have stomach issues only sometimes when I’m depressed. When I first started showing bad symptoms that caused me to see a therapist I was having issues with throwing up every morning. I also have hypersexual behavior, for just about the same amount of time. 2 and a half decades.
Yes, bro! Keep pushing forward! It gets better and trust the process. You got this, and your creativity will flow as you continue to work on yourself as a person! We got your back!
