I Just Turned 20 And I Feel Alive. 

I definitely agree with you, it has a darker feel. I myself also have a fear of death , even with wildlife and nature. I have developed Seasonal depression over the years so at around this time every year I feel a major sense of loneliness and depression due to the changing temperatures, changing leaves, etc. Natalie, you have always been so mature with your film making as someone who has been a viewer for 2 years now. I love your philosophy and I hope you enjoy van life and life altogether, you and your friend.

This was by far my fav film of yours. I loved the eerie vibe and aesthetic. Throughout the film, I got the impression that living≠existing and living>existing. I LOVED the bit at the beginning with old voice recordings and clips. AMAZING. I really hope my life is as full of life as yours is. Keep adventuring Natalie :)

I do believe death gives meaning to life. Every single moment of pain, sorrow, happiness, despair, etc. They create our stories, our memories. I think this is your most deeply-rooted philosophical film yet! It conveys every piece of emotion that a person would have when and if they question the very essence of life/death. I will always remember this quote I heard somewhere, "Don't cry because it is over, smile because it happened..." But to truly accept this message deep down we have to love it. "Amor Fati" (Love Everything That Happens).

Natalie choosing to show the shot of blowing out the candle for a second time at 14:57 was genius. It gave the shot a whole new meaning. Its not about the birthday, the light of the candle going out represents death, and Natalie celebrating represents how she accepted death. Incredible video as always :)

I really enjoyed this vid because.... well i dont actually know. There is something in the shots and the music that makes me feel uneasy but in a good way..? Its kind of reassuring to know other people think and question themselves about such a creepy thing like death.

don't we all

same

Me too!

Exactly 😭😭....wait .... I will do it😶...yeah I will 🤧💖

me actually going to do it once I’m older tho 😌

agreed, the composition and editing is very well done!

She edits her own videos 🫶🏼

Exactly

As a proffesional editor, who's been working in film and tv and advertising for the last 10 years...yes....Natalie...is incredibly talented. LIKE CRAZY GOOD. It's rare to see a storyteller this clean and thought through - especially at 20. Huge congrats.

she edits her own videos : )

sharp but in right way non annoyance

exactly, I'm sitting here at 30 being like.. wow, I will never be 20 again... that part of me is dead and gone, and every day I become older. sounds obvious, but like... young people have no idea how important youth is, and how when it's gone - it's gone forever.

Can you at try to explain? I really want to understand.

I'm damn 18 and be goin 19 next year I keep thinking like I've lost my sweet seventeen and I'd be fighting for college and etc I kept thinking abt everything I- damn man. It feels like highschool was like few days ago and I'd be graduated soon? Life is crazy

I’m 38 and it only gets more real and real as time slips. 20s went fast, 30s went even faster. Live your true purpose, don’t settle, and shoot for big goals.

You can! Keep pushing forward. We’re all in it together.

@@_tyolsen yes we are. Thanks for this.

For me its the feeling of unfairness that i have dealt with rare mental illnesses for half of my life while people like her get to experience life for what it really is while also having great and beautiful friends and actually get satisfaction from doing something and the strenght to actually live life. Yes, i need help.

@@shuttzi9878 i feel you. And when I say it, i mean it. I have struggled with mental health. I still do. It's hard to live life like that. And I keep thinking why can't we all enjoy life like some do. Why can't I do stuff like others do. I feel stuck, i feel helpless. But with time I started to see things as it is. Appreciate small things. For me watching her videos kind of inspires me. Pushes me. Makes me want to live life to the fullest. At least try to. One thing I learned over the years that has helped me a lot is to not compare your life with others.

@@halfsliceoflife yes man cheers 🥂

im so sorry for your loss

I'm so sorry for your loss. Friends are irreplaceable. I'm sure he'd be really happy to know that you're going to keep adventuring.

I’m so sorry for your loss, Luke. I lost my best friend last year and it’s been painful to go on without her. But I will say this. You will find healing in living a life that would make your friend proud. Live as if he's still by your side. I wish you all the best on your journey. Take good care of yourself, okay?

He seems to have been a great friend. I’m sorry for your loss. I’m sure the world is a little bit better because of him. Best wishes!

I am so sorry. My friend who was like a big sister to me died in may and she was the same way-always expressing love and joy. Life is cruelest to the undeserving. Her death opened my eyes because we are so young, and I guess life felt infinite before I lost her. Every day is hard but we have to learn from their loss and rememebr that at the end of it all there is nothing so why not do everything with what we have. i know your pain and it will never leave, again I am very sorry. Would not wish this pain on anyone

gerard? *crying*

It reminds me of the Netflix series, End of the fucking world-- you gotta make the best out of all situations, even though it may feel like the worst experience at the time. Everything we go through makes us an essential part of another's life; like a domino effect.

The man was created in the IMAGE OF GOD: Genesis 9:6 | View whole chapter | See verse in context Whoso sheddeth man's blood, by man shall his blood be shed: for in the image of God made he man. Genesis 1:27 | View whole chapter | See verse in context So God created man in his own image, in the image of God created he him; male and female created he them. GOD = SPIRIT + SOUL + BODY = ALL 3 SPIRITUAL. (100% spirit being). MAN = SPIRIT + SOUL + BODY = 2 parts spiritual (everlasting) 1 part carnal for a little time. not yet fully spiritual, for our bodies are still mortal /carnal, but soon: 1 Corinthians 15:53 | View whole chapter | See verse in context For this corruptible must put on incorruption, and this mortal must put on immortality. Matthew 22:30 | View whole chapter | See verse in context For in the resurrection they neither marry, nor are given in marriage, but are as the angels of God in heaven. If being in gender : male and female = the image of GOD, then the verse: Matthew 22:30 - this verse, clearly says: gender shall be lost, for there is no need for it any more. Life last forever, no ageing, no marring, no need to multiply. No longer point of being male or female. Therefore, those who claim, that being a baphomet is the true image of GOD (baphomet is the image of the false god, the devil), you all going to lose the image of the god then. But then again, all those who serve the baphomet, who is the beast, they shall not be in heaven nor shall they inherit the new earth, for them only HELL AND THE LAKE OF FIRE, SHALL BE THEIR FOREVER HOME.(full of torment). Now we should ask a question here: as we know, that SPIRIT is neither male nor female, therefore the last words in the verse: GENESIS 1:27? - the answer: TO MULTIPLY. If GOD didn`t add genders: male and female, HE /GOD Himself would have then need to created second by second the same creation: man, from dust again and again. There would have been no point for that, therefore HE added genders: male and female, so we, His perfect creation; mankind could mange to multiply itself/ourselves. We must study the BIBLE also, not just read but to study it too, for to realise and understand the truthful and real meaning behind a single word in the biblical text. But if we misread the verse: GENESIS 1.27 - then we do read out that the image of GOD is male and female together, giving us the baphomet, the image of the false god, the devil So, are you studing the bible also or just read it and end up misreading it all the time? Please souls, study the BIBLE - the living word of the living GOD, it is 100% accurate about the lives we live and about the place we live these.

Then start living!

@@daga2996 you need money to start living. Got a job yet still don't have $$ to go anywhere.

Remember: you are the leader of ur life!

No news is good news, friend. See the Ukraine rn if you need an example. Enjoy the little things more and youll feel alive, too

@@joseffranz3872 trust me im trying hard

Absolut!

Its never too late ! ❤️

Never too late while we alive!

Reading your Comment ,i know what thing I would do with myself now ,I really don’t want to waste my time I want to experience it and I hope it will be never too late for everyone out there who hope to do sth better ❤

im50yr dude n age is a factor but in a positive sense

i was here😊

If you die tonight, do you know where you're going? Did you know that Jesus Christ is THE only way to Heaven? Revelation 20:15 ''Anyone whose name was not found written in the book of life was thrown into the lake of fire.'' Through Jesus Christ, God offers you a FREE gift - forgiveness. All you need to do is repent, turn away from your sins and evil ways, from now on put your faith completely in Jesus Christ and be obedient to Him. Biblical explanation of the Gospel: God doesn’t want anybody in hell, but you must understand why we deserve hell and why those who refuse to live under His authority will go there. He gave us the law (Ten Commandments) not to make us righteous, but rather to show us our sin (Romans 3:20). God gave us free will and since Adam sinned in the garden, sin is the nature of our flesh and we ALL have sinned. (Romans 3:23) The law demands death to those who sin (Romans 6:23). Since we have all sinned, we all deserve hell. Revelation 21:8 says that all liars will go to hell. Yes, even if you have lied once in your life, you are sentenced to hell - that's how high God's standards are of moral perfection because God is holy and righteous, there is not one sin in Him. For someone to be justified before holy God they have to be sinless, that's why everyone need Jesus Christ - for He lived a sinless life, died on the cross and rose from the dead on the third day. None of us are good in God’s eyes, because for God good means moral perfection. We all have broken God’s commandments, we all have sinned in our lives so none of us are good. ‘’For whoever keeps the whole law and yet stumbles at just one point is guilty of breaking all of it.’’ (James 2:10). Our carnal mind is hostile to God; it does not submit to God's moral law and it never will (Romans 8:7). We hate the thought of God for the same reason a criminal hates a policeman - we know we have sinned against God and are guilty of it and we don't want to be damned. No good works will ever save you. You can't earn salvation by good works, because God will judge us for our sin. Good News is that Jesus Christ lived a perfect, holy, sinless life and He died for our sins according to the Scriptures, He was buried and He was raised from the dead on the third day according to the Scriptures (1 Corinthians 15:3-4) For God so loved the world that He gave His one and only Son, that whoever believes in Him shall not perish but have eternal life.’’ (John 3:16) We aren’t saved by our good works, but only by the grace of God through faith in Christ. ''For it is by grace you have been saved, through faith - and this is not from yourselves, it is the gift of God - not by works, so that no one can boast. (Ephesians 2:8-9) Jesus said ‘’it is finished’’ (John 19:30) just before He died on the cross, which means He paid the fine for our sins (past, present, future) to be forgiven only IF we repent and trust in Him. This is how you can get saved from sin and hell - repent of your sins and trust in Jesus Christ. Get to know Him by reading God's Word. So if you sinful people know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your heavenly Father give the Holy Spirit to those who ask him.” (Luke 11:13) ''What then? Shall we sin because we are not under law but under grace? Certainly not!'' (Romans 6:15) ''Repent therefore and be converted, that your sins may be blotted out'' (Acts 3:19) Repentance is a turning away from sin and all evil works, and it always results in changed behavior (Luke 3:8). Biblically, a person who repents does not continue willfully in sin. While sorrow from sin is not equivalent to repentance, it is certainly an element of scriptural repentance (2 Corinthians 7:10). Do not play a hypocrite. ''God is light; in Him there is no darkness at all. If we claim to have fellowship with Him and yet walk in the darkness, we lie and do not live out the truth.'' (1 John 1:5-6) (John 3:3) Jesus replied, "Very truly I tell you, no one can see the kingdom of God unless they are born again." If you have repented and have genuine faith in Jesus Christ then you will receive the gift of Holy Spirit and be born-again spiritually. When you believed, you were marked in Him with a seal, the promised Holy Spirit, who is a deposit guaranteeing our inheritance until the redemption of those who are God’s possession - to the praise of His glory. (Ephesians 1:13-14) Whoever believes in the Son has eternal life; whoever does not obey the Son shall not see life, but the wrath of God remains on him. (John 3:36) ''You will know them by their fruits'' (Matthew 7) If you have been truly born-again with the Holy Spirit and He has regenerated your heart, you will desire righteousnes - to do what is good and righteous in God's eyes, to seek God everyday in His Word and prayer, to strengthen your relationship with God. You will no longer desire to willfully continue living in sin but will want to obey God out of your love for Him because of His amazing grace revealed to us through the death and resurrection of His Son. ''Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation; old things have passed away; behold, all things have become new.'' (2 Corinthians 5:17) ''For we are His workmanship, created in Christ Jesus for good works, which God prepared beforehand that we should walk in them.'' (Eph 2:10) You will have a testimony - of what your life had been before and how has it changed now when you have surrendered it to Lord Jesus Christ. As a declaration and affirmation of your faith in Jesus Christ, get baptised in water because He commanded us to do so. In John 3:5 Jesus answered, “Very truly I tell you, no one can enter the kingdom of God unless they are born of water and the Spirit.'' ''Therefore go and make disciples of all nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit'' (Matthew 28:19) ''Those who accepted his message were baptized, and about three thousand were added to their number that day.'' (Acts 2:41) ''And this water symbolizes the baptism that now saves you also - not the removal of dirt from the body, but the pledge of a clear conscience toward God - through the resurrection of Jesus Christ,'' (1 Peter 3:21) ''We were therefore buried with him through baptism into death in order that, just as Christ was raised from the dead through the glory of the Father, we too may live a new life.'' (Romans 6:4) ''Having been buried with him in baptism, in which you were also raised with him through your faith in the working of God, who raised him from the dead.'' (Colossians 2:12) Please get right with God and get to know Jesus Christ personally today before it’s too late, because there’s not much time left! "But about that day or hour no one knows, not even the angels in heaven, nor the Son, but only the Father.’’ (Mark 13:32) Get to know Christ through God's Word - Bible. At first I recommend reading Gospel of John and book of Romans. God bless you! Jeremiah 29:13 - ''You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart.''

i can honestly imagine commenting this one day bc i already feel like i have for some things when i see kids even younger than myself. and so being on the other side reading it, it gives me a lot of new perspective. best of luck with everything :)

hooowdy vailski

hooowdy vailski

Why are you here

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life a preparation for death

I turn 20 this December 20th, man I still have so much to figure out too and only wish I could partake in some of the many memories Natalie has experienced knowing we’re the same age. Happy birthday to her !! And I wish the best for you and your future!!

@@samanthasingleton5124 I'm too 20. So many people here are of same age 😄

@@samanthasingleton5124 Thank you so much Samantha, let's make our life meaningful！

@@gautam7087 Yeah; it's pretty cool! :)

​@@aliks2712 Most definitely try to that is; lol :) Nothing but the best of wishes to you both!

thank you so much eva

was listening to this young singer yesterday she did a cover of witney houston which blew me tha away 👆 but anyway what i notice is the depth of her feelin

Same other there ! Just turned 18 and i strongly agree ! Sorry if there's some mistakes im from france 😅😂 but i wish you Luck in your New adult life !

@@unkownels his name is Matthias! i’m not sure of the exact spelling though

@@unkownels it’s a possibility! in her video titled ‘I Left Everything To Live In A Van’ at 5:45, she introduces him to us as her friend, but i guess you never know hahah

salaamaat

I feel you! Life is crazy and fast and overwhelming and exhausting sometimes and it’s things like this that really help you keep going Sending lots of love support and virtual hugs

Hang in there ❤

love ya so much peyton

@@nataliexlynn