I'm Aware. I'm Trying. And I'm Sorry.

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A bit of a stream of consciousness 'update' for you all since, even though I'm struggling right now, I think it's important to be transparent & honest on my channel in the hopes that even one of you can feel less alone; we're in this together ♡✧( ु•⌄• )
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@mollymolly4074 3 года назад

Cassie, please stop with the apology videos. Everybody is going through something, you don’t owe anyone an explanation. Just keep doing your thing!

@georgielazarus4887 3 года назад

Therapist here. Also someone who has depression and anxiety. A lot of people with skin picking do it (unconsciously) to dissociate, which is a trauma response. It's often described as "numbness" as you stated. Sometimes checking out from reality is actually a pretty heroic survival response. The picking is often just a coping mechanism for something bigger, but my guess is you know that already. Just food for thought. BTW you're doing great! Thank you for your candor. You don't need to be so hard on yourself! I don't think people are judging you the way you think they might, and I don't think you have anything to apologize for. You have very loving and supportive fans. And you're making great progress! You've come a long way.

@Forever_OctobersJ 3 года назад

I'm currently working on my masters in counseling. What do you specialize in?

@nicnic6703 3 года назад

Im pretty sure i have this skin thing and depression and anxiety and definitely ocd. I haven't reached out for help yet. Any advice for me, or what to do first? Who is it that i go see first? a therapist or psychiatrist or psychologist? Any info will help me. Thank you for your time. I understand cassie. And cassie you are doing fine. I sound exactly like you. You are not alone. I really sound exactly like you.

@georgielazarus4887 3 года назад

@@Forever_OctobersJ mostly mood disorders and trauma but working on getting some additional training in other areas. :) I'm really excited about IFS in particular.

@georgielazarus4887 3 года назад

@@nicnic6703 You can start with looking for a therapist and then have that person refer you to a psychiatrist if they think you might benefit from medication. Therapists can have various degrees. Some are psychologists. Others, like myself, are social workers. A good place to look for someone would be Psychology Today. You can narrow down your search by location, health insurance, and speciality. Good luck!

@kathleenpeddell5928 3 года назад

YES! Well said!

@marie-andreec5164 3 года назад

Also, not to the brusque, but if people are grossed out by seeing someone with dermatillomania, then they should go somewhere else, because this is a place where a person with dermatillomania lives and thrives. Period.

@evelineeveryday338 3 года назад

Say it louder for the people in the back!! 👏👏👏

@emilyau8023 3 года назад

I'm doing it way more frequently now that I'm always in my house away from people. I really need to stop picking.

@sharral5234 3 года назад

If you had a friend that was struggling with mental health issues, would you tell them to decompress using RU-vid and strangers or would you support them going to counselling??

@kerrifiermonte2143 3 года назад

AMEN!!!! I’m just weeding through all of these comments and no one has said this. 😒

@aprillovesjulio 3 года назад

Depression and anxiety is so hard to deal with. Always remember you are smart, beautiful, and loved. You have many people that care about you even if we may not know you face to face but I know I feel you are a friend. Please take care and always remember you are beautiful.

@adventuresofanaspiringsome9165 3 года назад

Sorry, but... I can't get behind anyone putting monetised content on videos about mental health, eating disorders, etc. If we're really supposed to be destigmatising and having honest conversations, it just feels very disingenuous to also personally profit from those discussions. I'm really sorry you're feeling this way, and I'm sending thoughts to you from South Minneapolis. 👊👊👊

@DevonXlee 3 года назад

I just want to let you know...I never knew I had dermatillomania until I found your channel. 30 years later and you gave a name and associated feelings to something I have been experiencing for years. I knew I was no longer alone. So, thank you. I appreciate you.

@reneecampbell867 3 года назад

I agree. I thought what I was doing to myself was an issue that only I had and I was too ashamed to tell anyone. I have pcos and ingrown hairs. Most of the time I am digging to get the hair out and there is a relief when I do but other times I realize that there isn’t a hair there at all and I’ve just been digging for no reason. The scabs prevent the new hair from coming to the surface and then I have an ingrown hair all over again. It’s a terrible cycle. I just hid under my makeup. My aha moment came when I watched your video. I thank you so much for sharing your story and I will continue to watch your videos.

@ChaiChai1965 3 года назад

And this is exactly why cassie should talk about it!

@annhelfrich6139 3 года назад

As with me also, at almost 50 I’ve struggled with it my whole life and never knew it. Now my family is aware of it they catch me and remind me no picking😉

@homemakerhobbit4372 3 года назад

Cassie is how I found out about Dermatillomania too. My episodes of picking were terrible until I found her channel. When I learned more about it, I learned ways I could manage it, and generally do a pretty good job, but I fall off the wagon too. Just last week in fact. Without Cassie, I don't think I would be doing as well as I am with it.

@ashleyoh9613 3 года назад

Same!!! I just thought I picked the calluses off my feet. And scabs and pimples and cuticles and any piece of skin I can get my nail under 😄

@hannahmeehan7246 3 года назад

Cassie, we love you. I love your older content, as well as your newer content. You’re doing a great job. A lot of people today are so hyper critical, and lacking compassion. Keep your head up girl.

@StephieGsrEvolution 3 года назад

YES! 💜

@kimbasciano_ 3 года назад

So well said!

@gillypiexo 3 года назад

Exactly, WELL SAID

@AliciaAnn89 3 года назад

This! 💜

@glitzzygem 3 года назад

Cassie, you can stop your dermiltamania, you just have to want to stop like alcoholics it's a crippling disease.

@Heidia24 3 года назад

I feel like all of these “I’m sorry” videos are cries for attention. Getting so old.

@peggygreeby5065 3 года назад

Maybe having so much time on your hands is the problem. Why not get a job where your mind, and hands, would be engaged in something productive, plus you'd be earning an income. Couldn't hurt.

@MarkeiaYoung 3 года назад

Therapist and long time subscriber here 👋🏽 you can be aware of how you impact others without taking responsibility for other people’s feelings/beliefs about you. I wish you continued success in your recovery and hope that internal peace and self-love find you 🙏🏽 how you feel/think/ treat yourself is what really matters 💕

@samanthasapato123 3 года назад

Cassie girl you need to stop apologizing. The people that like you will stay. You don’t need to be catering, over analyzing and overwhelming yourself. Every time I see you, it seems to be an apology video. I think the apology videos are off putting. This is coming from a chronic stressor too.

@rashkaei 3 года назад

Thought this might address her video a few weeks ago where she ignored literally everyone trying to give her feedback, but nope, another clickbait title smh. Can't wait for the summer "my channel is dying" video where she'll again ignore the hundreds of people all telling her the same thing.

@rashkaei 3 года назад

@@emmad9799 it's a slow motion car wreck

@mrs_hobby_studio7422 3 года назад

Cassie, I didn't even notice if it was bad. I watch you for you.

@Kristinnnnnnlaughs 3 года назад

Same. She makes me so happy I wish I could reach thru and return the favor by cheering her up in this video. I hate when she's sad she's such a beautiful person all around.

@cherylanne6549 3 года назад

I agree with y'all. I've never even noticed any spots on her skin. I've noticed when she has a bad break out because she always covers it with concealer and makes a joke, but even though she talks about her issue, I've never seen it. I just watch even though I don't wear much makeup and I don't buy my clothes through that service. I just like Cassie, and I'm older than her mom! But if people are really writing and saying ugly things like that, they need to get a life. Would you walk up to someone on the street and say that? If not, then you have no business saying it in this forum. Just because you can hide behind your keyboard doesn't mean it's okay. If you say something horrible to someone, you're a shit whether they can see your face or not.

@brendadanek3200 3 года назад

Hey Cassie, cheer up girl! You are beautiful inside and out. These times are are making things harder than ever, can’t see our families or friends, that is depressing in itself. I think we all maybe feel kinda down these days and our habits come back to haunt us. I gained weight during all of this, and I hate myself for letting it happen. Now I either stay the same weight or do something about it! We all seem to have something in our life, that we hate. Good luck with your progress and keep going, don’t look back! Love you Cassie, 🤗

@HorsesNMakeup 3 года назад

I'm jumping on this train. I don't typically comment, but Cassie, if I got to pick you tubers I would wanna be friends with, you'd be one of them! 💛 be kind to yourself.

@missnicoledubinsky 3 года назад

Exactly! I didn't even notice Cassie, I think you're a wonderful person! That is why I watch 💖

@CourtneyinSF 3 года назад

Your feelings are totally valid. I have had acne all my life and I do pick and have hyperpigmentation and I am subscribed to you because I relate to you and it’s so refreshing and helpful to see how someone applies makeup who doesn’t have perfect flawless glass like skin. Remember you are not alone and you help so many people by being real.

@Dreamlyte 3 года назад

We all have set backs, I lost my dog yesterday, my mother-in-law went into hospice at my house, she hasn’t wined or cried for 2 months. Life is short when your dying you don’t give a shit about minor things. Very hard emotional hard time for me I’m also in school while all this is happening. LIFE. I suggest giving yourself affirmations early morning they work I was a skeptic make it a routine you will eventually convince yourself and become it. Best of luck

@nicnic6703 3 года назад

Im going through a hard time too, great job at everything youve done and made through this far. May god bless you and watch over you and your loved ones. You are not the only one having a hard time

@Dreamlyte 3 года назад

@@nicnic6703 thank you for that god bless you as well

@ForeverChiTonight 3 года назад

Lots of luck to you hope you achieve all the success ! I’m so sorry about your dog that is so hard. Hope things get better soon xoxo

@carmenrose8986 3 года назад

Girl who cares how it affects other people. I'm bipolar with ADHD. I work on improving myself and I don't use how other people perceive me to do that.

@TatteredAndTornPages 3 года назад

Yr not wrong....

@lizbethquintero545 3 года назад

I’ve been watching your channel for years now, I believe that the reason I was drawn so much to you was because of your struggles with dermatillomania. It was something I personally related to because I struggled with it myself from a really young age. It took me a while to understand what it was that I had and what I was dealing with. And, I was surprised that this thing I was dealing with had a name at all. At the peak of my disorder I would do incredible damage to my skin - my preferred picking area was my face- so you could imagine how embarrassing it was for me to face anyone after my intense picking sessions. It was definitely a damaging cycle that kept me isolated and you’re right, very few people understand what it’s like. Over the years I am happy to say that I have improved drastically. I went from 4 hour + picking sessions to rarely looking at my face up close in the mirror for weeks on end. I realized that I had made dermatillomania a coping mechanism for myself, a ritual to soothe myself from emotional pain or sadness. And it worked -temporarily, it was a temporary soothing that in the end created more pain and left behind physical damage. I believe that the strongest tool we have in battling dermatillomania is self awareness. When the impulse to pick peaks its head, be in the moment, have an honest internal dialogue going and ground yourself. Ask yourself, How do I feel? What has triggered my impulse to pick this time? What is a better way to deal with what I’m feeling? It’s not easy to stop over night, but it does get better, practice being self aware. Best of luck Cassie.

@MrZwynne 3 года назад

How many times have your viewers asked you to stop using your channel (and them) as therapy/therapists?

@squirrel_of_mistri8565 3 года назад

Most of the comments here are positive. She can use her channel however she wants to. Get over it.

@racheldevenish6004 3 года назад

You have nothing to apologize for, I never once thought you looked gross. I was a huge picker of my acne growing up and even into my 20s. So I understand girl. We all have struggles but unfortunately some are more physically known. Love you girl!!! 💜💜💜

@TheGoldnLuna 3 года назад

It’s not that I think it’s gross to look at. I just get concerned when you put makeup over those open wounds. It doesn’t seem like makeup would help with the healing process. You’re beautiful inside and out. Remember that.

@AshleighTaylorM 3 года назад

That’s my concern as well...

@montana1080 3 года назад

Amy I have been saying that for years and the 2019 foundation reviews were I think 30 plus and I was horrified. At least her skin is healed now but I was watching her in this cycle and I knew it was painful and I just wanted it to stop for her sake of pain. Pain and possible infection. I’m a medical person and I was just so raging with worry. It has nothing to do with looks. Never. I was never grossed out. It had never a anything to do with that. She’s a gorgeous woman

@larissahostetter2335 3 года назад

I mean we all have concerns, and no we don't want her to get an infection, but then again its not your skin nor your mental health. Dermatillomania isn't my issue, although I do pick at my nails and skin around it, but not to the point like some people do, mines horrible panic disorder, but I can see how it would get to her when people keep nagging at her about it. It can get to someone and even though some of you may just be concerned, it doesn't help her.

@TheGoldnLuna 3 года назад

@@larissahostetter2335 I wasn’t nagging at her at all. I just said that it can’t be good to put makeup on open wounds. She has every right to do with herself as she pleases, but when you put it out there for the world to see - people are going to say something. It’s not like we found her in a private space. She’s literally doing this as a job. There will be comments and some people don’t care how it sounds or makes others feel.

@larissahostetter2335 3 года назад

@@TheGoldnLuna I don't mean you in general. Sorry if it cam out that way. My day has a been a shit hole itself so my words don't come out right. SOme people do. I have seen. I was just speaking in general. It doesn't help when people keep at her. Again I don't think I worded my comment right.

@kelli4542 3 года назад

My trichotillomania got way worse when I was in active addiction (meth & heroin) and I would lose hours of time (mostly plucking hairs out of my face) and now that I'm clean, I'm trying so hard to stop the plucking because it's a huge trigger for me, but I still get that satisfaction you're talking about. It's extremely vulnerable and brave of you to talk about this stuff on such a huge platform and I'm really proud of you.

@mamasita_ 3 года назад

you don’t have to apologize for going through something. we all are. i’m sorry people are rude and cannot comprehend what you deal with on a day to day basis. sending all the good vibes your way cassie✨ you’re doing great. and i’m proud of you💖💖💖

@freddystorm4847 3 года назад

I really don’t see the point in you apologizing. Like why even. There’s no proof. You didn’t even attach any proof.

@AD-wx1rt 3 года назад

Cassie, I totally get it. I know a therapist will not tell you this but I have found that working out or just walking around (I don’t care about the physical fitness part)...but it exhausts me so I don’t feel the anxiety. I exhaust myself to sort of avoid the other feelings bc I just don’t have the energy for the bad stuff or I’m not bored. It sounds too easy but it isn’t easy to say, I feel it coming...get outside or put on a video or go jump on a bike (that is the easiest). And as a bonus...I sleep like a rock.

@donnaspell8260 3 года назад

Thank you for this, especially sharing your insights. There is mental illness in my family and so many don’t understand. It’s hard to get past the ‘they just can’t help it’. As a retired RN I’ve seen a lot of skin conditions for many reasons, don’t let the trolls get to you. You do a good job covering it. I wish you the best in your journey to health.

@catlynd1 3 года назад

ive picked my lips habitually since i was a kid to release anxiety and also to be mindless for like 10 minutes. the guilt and shit feeling afterwards really suck because i know its wrecking my lips and looks awful to have bloody chapped ripped up lips. i try to motivate myself not to because i really miss wearing lipstick, and when i want to pick my lips ill just press them together instead. i hope youre able to arrive to a better state of being and love who you are even with the flaws. nobody is perfect, and youre uniquely you and youre loved no matter what 🧚🏼‍♀️

@gremlinjerky8462 3 года назад

You need to stop apologizing honestly. That’s the only thing that bothers me about this video to the core.... in fact I can argue that it triggers me and my mental illness significantly more than any of your “picking” ever has or will. Your “pleaser” stance is highly triggering. It’s king of like the victimhood complex. I don’t know... but I think you should reconsider apologizing so often.

@shelleyjack1579 3 года назад

TOTALLY

@gremlinjerky8462 3 года назад

@@shelleyjack1579 im glad a lot of people seem to agree.. I wish her nothing but the best, but I find that Cassie’s quirks, where she behaves like a wilting flower can be a little much and unnecessary. We all know she has thicker skin than this. I hope this a clickbait video for views and she doesn’t really and truly feel that she has to say sorry for her struggles.. :(

@TatteredAndTornPages 3 года назад

This

@Kristie27 3 года назад

Oh Cassie... the way you explained the numbing experience you have when you pick that’s exactly what I experience with food addiction. I’ve been in an aggressive outpatient therapy for awhile now and there’s always set backs no matter what you’re you’re addicted to.

@BlindBabeBeth 3 года назад

Absolutely no worries, Cassie!

@Fouloul. 3 года назад

I never got the point of any of these type of videos of yours.

@au_barb 3 года назад

Well aren't you special and lucky that you can't relate. Some of us do, and it's helpful. Just go if it's not for you. Jesus.

@Fouloul. 3 года назад

@@au_barb May be you should seek help with a proper therapist! Whining for attention doesn't help, it emphasises the problem. And I'm not judging, we all seek attention and recognition, but First world people and youtubers need to get their priorities straight, cause people like you are listening to them.

@slashie_nicks 3 года назад

what i've noticed after watching you for five or six years, you are a serial apologist. you do NOT have to apologize for having a hard time, baby! we all out here struggling lol

@Princessss_m00n 3 года назад

Anyone that’s “grossed out”or “uncomfortable” with someone else’s body needs to shut the F up. Don’t like it don’t look. You are amazing and so strong Cassie! Just always remember that. I have been struggling really hard mentally. More then I ever have tbh. And your videos that speak on mental health seem you come right when I need them the most. Thank you. ❤️

@katerichardson3457 3 года назад

Amen! People are so judgemental its absolutely disgusting. If I were Cassie I would have lost alot of viewers along time ago because I would tell them to STFU.

@toribern816 3 года назад

Couldn’t have said that any better.......

@innerview6298 3 года назад

I understand you very well. I have struggled with dermatillomania for 15 years. Only things which are helping me are meditation 1-2 times a day, keeping myself busy and very strong skincare, like my face can take alot. Duac gel saved my bumpy skin, glycolic acid 7-10% 2× times a day is or even with benzoyl peroxide together to have smooth skin and then i dont have anything to pick( destroy) . Or atleast 95% less clogged pores than before. If I did my dermatillomania sessions, they lasted 1-2 hours and in worst cases I ended up looking like minced meat , I was embarrased to go work or grocerys after that. Stay strong and authentic!💚

@RubiesChannel 3 года назад

I wish you titled this differently, I like that you address these topic. It’s so important but I feel your reach more people with a different title.

@melodynicole87 3 года назад

Hey, Cassie. I struggle with dermatillomania, too, and it HELPS me to know that people get it. You being candid about it has helped me IMMENSELY. Thank you for being brave. You don't need to apologize for the ways that you struggle. If people worry about it, that's on them. It's not yours to fix. You have your own shit, ya know? 💙

@dangerbirb4981 3 года назад

I think starting therapy again might be a good idea because RU-vid is not a safe space and is not giving you advice based on behavioral science. I know you think that it feels therapeutic in the moment, but venting has its limits and you're kind of all over the road here. I think a lot of what you're saying sounds disordered, especially you apologizing, and even worrying about apologizing in this situation is strange. You apologize a lot, not just about this... I watch videos of you from years ago and you seem so much happier and focused. It makes me uncomfortable to think that RU-vid as a job has contributed to all this. 😕

@pir8lifeforme 3 года назад

RU-vid is a hostile, competitive, stressful place. It is never a guaranteed financial success and should never be considered so. What is problematic is that using this platform to talk to faceless individuals who are going to be one extreme or another (such as cheering her every thing and enabling to outright hostility and demoralizing). That is not healthy and only further enables to put off what she knows she needs to do. I suffer from PTSD with severe anxiety and panic disorder. The global pandemic has made things even worse. I have been out of work since 2013 (I'm considered disabled due to the severity of my condition along with another medical condition). The only reason I am here today is due to my 2 dogs and an outstanding therapist, not my friends or family (sad to say). If Cassie truly wants to be well and successful she should stop turning to RU-vid and find herself a therapist. She should find herself a job off of RU-vid for financial, emotional and mental stability and only do RU-vid has a hobby, fun and only when she feels like it until such time she settles on her content and makes serious money to sustain a normal livelihood and a stable future. That may be never. Dies she seriously see herself doing this at age 40 and beyond? She says she is struggling financially now, what about her retirement years? Doubt she is thinking that far ahead, and it can come up fast. I'm on a serious road to recovery as my doctor gave me the ok to return to work and I found a job end of January and at a salary slightly more than my prior one I had to leave for medical reasons. I finished my 30 day probation and am making my healthcare enrollments Monday. I'm by no means out of the woods, and I know I need my therapist's advice more than ever. I don't need yes people around me or those who have zero idea of what it is like to go through what I have. Talking about it with friends or family directly only helps so much and has caused problems and set me back. My job has me working from home which has been huge with my move to returning to work and dealing with different anxiety than before (especially after having a 2nd Cancer scare resulting in major surgery in December that I had to go through alone, with a hospital phobia, because of pandemic protocols). If I can get my act together, get through severe trauma, and find a job anyone can. It takes motivation and determination. I HATED being broke, which made me more depressed and anxious. A hostile, toxic work environment put me in my situation. RU-vid is Cassie's hostile, toxic work environment. It is also her crutch for not getting serious help she obviously desperately needs. If you talk the talk you better walk the walk. This has gone on too long and turning to RU-vid to get quick feels and praise isn't healthy in the long run.

@5050hawaiianstar 3 года назад

@@pir8lifeforme I completely agree with you and also good for you on the new job. I actually quit watching her channel becuz her constant break downs and apology vids were so bumming to me. I struggle too, we all do in some way, but I couldn’t subject myself to this constant endless negative energy. I liked her old vids when she was happy and talked make up.

@leelee2350 3 года назад

@@pir8lifeforme You are amazing!

@bkells3123 3 года назад

I have picked at my skin for years and I didn’t even know it carried a name until I started watching you. You are right. You battle your own demons and your daily burden is so heavy and you are so frickin cool for being able to talk about it.

@amandablythe6515 3 года назад

Cassie, it's human. I watch you because you're incredibly relatable. You let us in to your reality. You do it ALL the way. So please don't be so mean to yourself. It's why most of your subscribers watch you in the first place. Love you! Edit to add a PS, 10 yrs sober here. My sub abuse problem started out with chronic pain issues. We all have setbacks in life. Nothing counts except how fast you climb back up and dust yourself off.

@thriftthick 3 года назад

thank you for your kind words and encouragement Amanda 🥰 and WOW 10 years????? I hope you're proud of yourself because that is HUGE!!! Any step in the right direction is huge, but ten years.... that's incredibly admirable and amazing ❤️

@toribern816 3 года назад

Congratulations on 10, I have almost 8 years off heroin ✊🏼💯 the struggle is real.

@SunkissedMalice 3 года назад

Physical illnesses and chronic pain.. self-medicating with perscription pills. Yes. I have a long road ahead of me but I'm done. After 20+ years of chasing the pain away.. it's not worth it. I've only been clean for 6 months. but it already feels amazing to have my life back. I look forward to the day I can say 10 years sober. ❤

@nicnic6703 3 года назад

@@SunkissedMalice bless you, im so proud of you even though i don't know you, I'm rooting for you

@nicnic6703 3 года назад

@@toribern816 may you have infinity more years sober im rooting for you also

@KaitlynOxfordTV 3 года назад

I literally don’t notice your spots until you point them out. You are awesome! Keep doing your best!💜

@danielledimeo4660 3 года назад

i struggle w self image esp when it comes to my acne. i’ve only recently started clearing bc i’ve been taking spironolactone and it’s good to see results, but i still get upset sometimes looking at my skin even if it’s way better than it was 2 months ago. i think an important thing i like to remind myself is that progress is not linear! it’s totally normal to have days where you absolutely hate your skin even if it’s “not that bad.” it’s okay if you have setbacks; it’s part of the progress journey! ❤️❤️

@courtneyriver178 3 года назад

While most of us aren’t dealing with the same thing as you specifically, just know that the majority of people are in a super funk right now. You’re not alone! I’m sorry you’re struggling right now, and I’m sure working online doesn’t help and makes you feel like you need to explain very personal things to strangers. So just know that we’re super proud of you for continuing to put on a brave face and stick to making videos that bring others joys.

@PricklyCactus1989 3 года назад

For me I didn’t started watching your channel for dermatillomania, I started watching because of your reviews of products.

@stephanieden4 3 года назад

Same

@coffeebeforemascara 3 года назад

Same. I watched the dermatillomania mean because I was curious and I felt enriched by learning about it and understanding her struggles. And continue to watch Cassie because I love Cassie. But she doesn't have to apologize all the time

@Rosie-o3l3v 3 года назад

🙋🏼‍♀️ depression, general anxiety, anxiety attacks, trich and dermatillomania!! Aaaaaaaand health issues... yeah I think they come in droves. And although I’m in a place now at 34 where I’m more or less on top of both the word I was use for the feeling one gets in the moment it’s “soothing” it pacifys, it’s calms the “noise”

@hannahbella1594 3 года назад

Aw, Cassie... I’ve watched you forever and I’ll continue to watch everything you post 💕 Hang in there, love!

@thriftthick 3 года назад

thank you so much Hannah, your love and support really does mean the world to me 🥰

@bendietrees 3 года назад

@@thriftthick please check out Vacate Fear here on youtube Cassie. He helped me so much and is an earth angel. I'm having a really hard time now too. Love you girl.

@erincrawford2282 3 года назад

You don’t owe anyone an apology. You are doing a great job and you SHOULD be so proud of yourself.

@thriftthick 3 года назад

thank you Erin 💕

@britnysnyder4991 3 года назад

I do this too. Especially when i first started getting cystic acne. I thought if i could pop them they would go away. But they hardly ever pop when its cystic and all it did was make it red and swell or scab up. And then leave bad dark spots all over my face. Ive cleared my face up a good bit and try not to touch it as much now but i still have my moments. Best of luck to you!

@macmclernon9603 3 года назад

Me too! Unfortunately my cysts would get infected and work their way out by bursting through the skin. At one point I couldn't eat in public because I didn't want to gross people out. And when the dermatologist said "cystic acne" I thought he was making it up (we are talking pre-internet!) Roaccutane really helped though, but the temptation to pick never really goes completely!!

@britnysnyder4991 3 года назад

@@macmclernon9603 no it doesn't. I still do it sometimes. But only if its came to a head now.

@annahbell1229 3 года назад

No need to apologize girl !!! You are awesome and EVERYBODY struggles with some sort of mental illness..including myself. You are so brave to even talk about it on such a large platform, and that in itself is strength . Stay strong, stay proud of all your success, and don't apologize for being you. :) BTW .. Your makeup looks on point.

@The_Viking_Highlander 3 года назад

We all have 'something' Cassie. You have my full inderstanding, empathy and compassion. All we can do is try our best. Just keep being you! xxx

@TheLadyGeekOG 3 года назад

I've had trichotillomania since I was 5. I totally understand everything you are saying. For me it's self soothing and stimulating behavior caused by my ADHD. I hate it. I don't even realize I'm doing it. Sending you love and light. ♥️ We've got this.

@TheLadyGeekOG 3 года назад

Hearing you apologize is making me so emotional. A diabetic wouldn't apologize for needing insulin and we shouldn't apologize because we are wired differently and cope in unique ways. You have nothing to be sorry for. And I have nothing to be sorry for. We feel enough guilt and shame.

@graceg5876 3 года назад

@@TheLadyGeekOG So well said.

@leonora4369 3 года назад

I don't really have dermatillomania so much, but trichotillomania. You being open about your bfrb is comforting to me. Be kind to yourself! I understand how awful it feels, but it's OK to relapse! You're only human. Don't apologize for something you can't control!

@charlottecobain6986 3 года назад

I have no clue why your video started playing in my auto-play but I’m glad it did. I’ve suffered from body dysmorphia since I was very young, was very overweight through childhood and teenage years until I developed bulimia at 15. I’m barely above ‘underweight’ for my height now and I still suffer from all the awful weirdness of dysmorphia. I avoid shopping for clothing and so many things to not feel the extreme discomfort of not being able to comprehend my physical person. I know exactly what you mean when you discuss the editing process and having to sit and look at yourself when you experience dysmorphia. My ED was mostly in recovery until about 2 years ago and these past couple months have been really difficult even more so. As much as we now hear the term “mental health,” its still not spoken about very much in this deeply personal way. Thank you for posting this, it was what I needed to hear today for some reason. 💚

@bezmerka4021 3 года назад

Was this a 20minute apology over one pimple? :) now I am curious over how many views you will get .

@tracie4798 3 года назад

I love you and your channel because you are a real woman and I love that about you! I feel like I can relate to you then a lot of other youtubers. I myself have trichotillomania. I pull out my eyelashes. I’m also a single momma to 3 young children, who I have sole legal custody of, so I have a lot of anxiety and stress. Please know that you are perfect in all that you do! Our flaws are what makes us, us. It’s a constant struggle, but don’t let those relapses set you back!

@danielaah6758 3 года назад

Oh boy...here we go again.

@rikkitikkitallie 3 года назад

I’ve had dermatillomania dating back to my early childhood. My trichotillomania developed around age 16-17. I still battle both. I was also diagnosed with generalized anxiety disorder and anxiety attacks as an adult. I don’t think my picking/pulling has anything to do with my anxiety per se, but I certainly don’t think it helps. Thank you for being another open and honest voice out here 💙

@April_B.W 3 года назад

Hang in there sweet girl, the fact that you recognize the problem and you’re aware of it is a huge accomplishment. Just keep trying and that’s all anyone can ask for.💜

@hannahmeehan7246 3 года назад

Also, I’ve struggled with trichotillomania since I was a toddler. Hearing that I’m not the only one struggling is refreshing! Love ya girl

@jennyjennyjenny 3 года назад

for sure! and the foundation test videos are probably so affirming and helpful for people that have trichotillomania on their face because there's not a lot of that on youtube

@megtcollins 3 года назад

If people are that bothered, they should keep quiet and move on. The rest of us will stay and love you as you are.

@sallyrose9960 3 года назад

Aw honey. You are definitely not alone. Thank you for sharing your struggles. It's brave to use your voice and thus platform. It lets others know it's okay to not feel okay. Glad you are getting treatment. I'm a psychiatric NP and I find your honesty refreshing.

@CaliforniaDreamin. 3 года назад

We are with you in spirit! Many of us struggle with depression & anxiety - It can be crippling. Hang in there! As far as your skin, I think it’s not very noticeable to me tbh. ❤️

@aocroissier 3 года назад

Agree

@tellygz 3 года назад

Understand that some of the feelings are magnified because of this pandemic. We are stressed, fearful, and isolated, and we have no certainty about what's next. Coping in regular times was hard, but it's that much harder now. You're the best. Thank you for always thinking of others. You can only do your best. No one should ask for more. 🙂😍

@jenniferkluever4281 3 года назад

I first started watching your channel because I was struggling with very bad acne and I was looking for products to cover it up. Just a normal person wearing makeup. We are not grossed out, and we do care.

@vickimanager 3 года назад

For me, working from home for extended periods of time, or just being forced to be home for a long time, wreaks havoc on my emotional and mental health. Being out in the world Monday- Friday is the only thing that takes me out of my own head and gives me some relief of crushing anxiety and other problems.

@jesskathan 3 года назад

I struggle with a lot of what you described. Hearing you describe picking as numbing was really insightful. I am so appreciative that you open up. Sometimes it's easy to feel isolated when you struggle with mental health stuff. Hearing you talk about it makes me feel like I'm more connected. Thank you!

@hannahkayee831 3 года назад

Thank you so much for this video Cassie! I've never struggled with mental health issues, but have with other things. Don't apologize for who you are please! I don't know what video it was in and I'm not going to go rewatch just to look for it because that is sad to do to you.

@Venustula1111 3 года назад

sending you love ❤️ I struggled with trichotillamania and I know it’s not the same, but I know that obsessive compulsive disorders are no joke... the way they can hurt your self esteem and the cycle of them is exhausting. Be kind to yourself, please. We love you

@lesliecurtis8073 3 года назад

I don't understand why people give a crap about what others do with/to their own bodies!!!

@alexandram1301 3 года назад

A lot of people don’t, I would venture to say most do not

@BlancheTecson 3 года назад

I just started my youtube channel this year and I totally understand what you mean by editing yourself and feeling a disconnection. Ever since I started this channel, I've noticed I'm a lot more critical with my looks and my outer appearance . I've actually started to lose my hair this year as well and I can tell a difference when I watch and edit myself ... it rlly is tough, so I feel you on all of this 💞

@suzylove92 3 года назад

Hi Cassie, I have seen you for years and I have struggled with the same anxiety and depression disorder. I started picking my scalp two years ago, but I kinda learned to to control it. First it started as petting my hair then it turned to rubbing my scalp then scratching non stop. When I start to irritate my scalp i just need to stop. I'm with you girl it's a struggle but your not alone and we can get through this. I believe one day you'll be able to stop and not need to soothe yourself this way. I ❤️ you so much and don't want to see you hurt.

@jarman2011 3 года назад

I have anxiety and depression I have a son with additional needs I also pick alot, i never really chat about it, because of crappy reactions that's why we all suffer in silence

@nicnic6703 3 года назад

Me too

@isabellepirkl4791 3 года назад

I’m new to your channel but I love your content! You always seemed so confident and I would have never guessed you had such struggles. But good for you for being so transparent! It’s a brave thing to be so open, and It’s refreshing to see someone not hiding the bad days as the struggle is real! Im even a bigger fan now! Genuineness is rare, and you are a gem! Keep moving forward and never apologize for who you are. Sending you hugs! And by the way.... That eye make up look is fabulous! 🥰

@LisyCO 3 года назад

🙋‍♀️ Cassie, talking sometimes does a world of good and you feel like a weight has been lifted off your shoulder and you feel better, my experience anyway. Thank you for sharing, stay well. Sending positive vibes out into the universe 🙏💐

@LordOfFries3 3 года назад

Hi cassie! I'm a long time subscriber but don't comment as often. Just wanted to let you know, I love your videos, your personality, and will continue to support you! 💖

@MissHappySmily 3 года назад

You have nothing to apologize for, Cassie!💕 if anything you should feel so damn proud of yourself for the progress you’ve made! You’re so right about how everyone has setbacks. I can’t imagine how much tougher it makes dealing with them when they’re visible on your face days after they happened, but in no way should you be beating yourself up or feeling bad about it. We see that you’re working really hard on your mental health and we acknowledge that it’s probably super freaking. We’re so proud of you and we’re all here cheering you on! You’re an amazing woman and you got this - one step at a time💕

@trinzy3000 3 года назад

TGIF Cassie!! I have never once thought you looked gross or even thought twice about a blemish. I think you really do help people because you are open about your compulsion as opposed to denying or ignoring it. You will overcome it one day!!

@courtneylalonde3240 3 года назад

I appreciate you talking about your mental health. My mental health hasn't been great over the past year. I've been struggling with other health issues that have worsened my mental health issues, and I've been trying to take care of my parents who also have health issues. It's been rough. I also struggle with trichotillomania. I've been trying to stop pulling, but it's really hard. I've struggled with substance abuse in the past, and it was definitely similar to what I go through with trichotillomania. I like how you put it in terms of whether or not that hour of pulling (picking) is worth how it's going to make me feel for the next week. I can relate to this so much. Your not alone, and you shouldn't feel sorry for being yourself ❤❤❤

@MrsPinkyChiChi 3 года назад

I see all of your nice, respectful, supportive comments and I have been seeing these type comments for the years that I’ve watched Cassie. Don’t feel defeated. I’m sure you all are helping others reading those comments.

@annettelundy7426 3 года назад

I watch your channel because I like it! I like you. It's awful that cruel people need to make themselves feel better by hurting you. Thanks for doing this kind of video. You help a lot of people, including me. You are kind and thoughtful. I'm glad I found your channel last year.

@Marilunita83 3 года назад

Casie! The REASON I'm so glad I found your channel is because you're not one of many that have absolutely perfect skin where everything looks gorgeous. I dont look like that so the fact that you look beautiful and are great at the art of make up is awesome! You give me courage 🤩🥰

@TheNomadgirl 3 года назад

Funny enough,i am a subscriber of yours for years and not once did i think of how many wounds peep through your foundation. I've always watched you and thought : " how nice it is,to see some normal people that i can relate to,in the sense that not all has to be smiles and rainbows" . Two steps forward and sometimes one step back it's still a win in my book,as long as the end goal does not leave your thoughts. Lots of love and support!

@livelongandprospermary8796 3 года назад

I actually first discovered you because I was sure I was alone in skin picking. (I pick the skin around my nails/cuticles). I literally enjoy popping blackheads and pimples on other people, I’ve got it so bad. I tried stopping chewing my nails and literally tore my toenails off picking so bad. Basically you made me feel like I wasn’t alone. I genuinely care about you as a person. I hope you feel better! I’ve started saying I’m not feeling well (it’s not covid!) when I have bad mental health days and that helped me feel more valid.

@laineybugger 3 года назад

I understand friend, and we love you. For me it’s a numbing thing but also a control thing, when you feel like you don’t have control over other aspects of your life. I went through a year long set back last year while going through cancer treatment.

@nicnic6703 3 года назад

I hope you are doing great

@plainfac 3 года назад

My mom actually deals with this so I try not to point it out as she already knows it’s there it can be hard but that’s why I try to uplift her even more by telling her when she looks pretty it’s easy to point out someone’s flaws but it’s hard to remember that they are their worst critic

@livelongandprospermary8796 3 года назад

Oh I forgot to say, something that helps me is watching enlisa brown and Josefia reina on RU-vid. They pop pimples/blackheads and clear the skin and it’s SOOO satisfying. Usually soothes me enough that I don’t pick my own face/skin

@shayw219 3 года назад

Maybe you should go back to the gel or powder nails. I know when I have those on its really hard to pick or even scratch. And I know you did that before and mentioned that it helped a bit.

@kristincunningham1253 3 года назад

Thank you for sharing this with us online. Reminds me personally that we aren't alone. Your videos are always so comforting, and I always feel like I'm in good company while watching your uploads. I really appreciate you. ❤️

@bookishchloe3872 3 года назад

Hope you're doing okay Cassie 💕 You also have absolutely have nothing to be sorry for, your true supporters would never want an apology for your mental health struggles we're just here to support you! xx

@sunshineprinces 3 года назад

your dermatalomania doesn't effect mine, it shows that I'm not alone with that.

@nicnic6703 3 года назад

Yep

@HuhHowboutThat 3 года назад

Watched both videos. What'd I miss? You look BEAUTIFUL. During the "try on", it seemed like you were feeling good. The pants were hysterical, as some noted in the comments. (I'm laughing WITH you, not at you. I've BEEN there!) You are good at covering your "sins" with makeup. I should be covering MINE with false lashes, but I just pack on some extra eyeliner. I'm sorry you're struggling Cassie. I certainly didn't notice. I love you. If people can't deal with you & all your goodness, BYE. Lose em. 💙💘💙💘💙💘💙💘💙💋

@sloanadkins9463 3 года назад

Cassie, you are not alone. And it doesn't make us crazy. Panic attacks, depression, anxiety, and OCD are all individual syptoms. I think most of us in this time are all just trying to survive. We all have problems. Nobody is perfect. Love you Cassie. Be strong. Women bring women up.

@kellylambert4153 3 года назад

Hi Cassie, I've had my share of struggles with mental health issues. While I've never been professionally diagnosed with dermatillomania, I could have been. But it was something I was embarrassed and ashamed about and I would hide it (as best I could). I feel so much compassion towards you - I know how you feel - at least I think I do. I haven't picked in over 2 years, but my legs and arms are still covered in scars. It sucks. It makes me feel ugly. It makes me not want to wear shorts in the summer. It makes me want to wear long sleeves when it's 90 degrees in August. And that is really sad that I feel this way. I do think my picking was related directly to my past drug addiction. But, I've been clean and sober for a while now (I'll have 6 years clean on March 4th). I can't say for sure that I'll never have an outbreak again. All I know is that I feel for you and I understand everything you've shared. While I know it's easy for people to say, "You have no need to apologize, etc..." But I get it - because, I, too, used to say "sorry" when someone would say something or stare at my wounds. Hang in there, Cassie :) xoxo

@nicolemickle1851 3 года назад

I try to keep my emotions about my appearance in check and it can be a struggle. I see other people with skin issues and it doesn't bother me a bit and I still think those people are beautiful, however I can't look at myself and see the same beauty. You are beautiful and inspiring! Keep doing what you do so well!

@jelatinosa 3 года назад

You're not alone. I've been stressed because the timing in my life has been inconvenient, and things are not working out as I planned and worked hard for. I currently have 3 scabs on my right cheek, and a huge one on my left from picking. While I do it, I know it's bad and I should stop, but I feel like I can't. I feel compelled to keep digging at the damn cyst until I make a hole in my face. It doesn't feel good for me, it feels like an obsession, but I do understand how it can be comforting and a distraction in a way. It's like destructive self soothing, like how my cat overgrooms when she's stressed.

@Ashleyiza 3 года назад

Cassie, I have OCD and been struggling / recovery for 7 years. I completely understand. I really do. I recommend you watch Ali Greymond on RU-vid. She is amazing w. Mental health!!!! We love you. And if anyone is calling your face gross or whatever... Fuck them. Setbacks happen. They're normal. Just keep going. I know its easier said than done.. But you DESERVE to be happy

@carriew662 3 года назад

Big hugs ❤️❤️❤️ It’s okay, Cassie. We all have our struggles and it’s been such a hellish year. So many are having setbacks and you are not alone.

@cindybrown191 3 года назад

The derma problem reminds me of what people get out of cutting themselves. Would you agree with that? Believe me I understand your fight with all the mental issues. If you wrote it all down on paper & physically saw it. It would be overwhelming. But we are not crazy. I think everyone has their "thing" they deal with. So does that make us all crazy? Yes...No...Maybe So...? I love your content & appreciate you. Keep fighting the good fight. You are worth it! ❤🙂😘

@KateSpadeAddict 3 года назад

I’ve struggled with depression for most of my life. I just wanted to tell you your skin looks flawless. I can’t see any scars or any bumps or anything. I know you can probably zero in on like every bit of your skin. But, I can’t see it. I hope you have a good day!!

@thriftthick 3 года назад

I think you'll be able to see it in an upcoming video where my skin is up-close, but thank you so much.... I wish you the best on your own mental health journey as well 💕

@KayteePhilly 3 года назад

I think these types of videos make things worse. Yeah, okay, you had a little set beck, big whoop. Pick yourself up and keep on keeping on. Do you. That is all that matters.

@cathkirkers 3 года назад

I totally agree

@jessicajones6271 3 года назад

I swear sometimes it seems like she does these types of videos for the views, which is just so bad and insulting for all of us with mental illness issues

@alexandram1301 3 года назад

@@jessicajones6271 absolutely, look at the numbers, these videos get 3-5x more views, I hope that’s not the case…it’s sad to see someone so stagnant for so long