Big hugs, and thank you for sharing. I have been going through this myself, and I recognize a lot of what you are feeling as what is preventing me from digging in and doing the work I need to do. What I know for sure, however, is you aren't alone!
I have never really been religious in terms of going to church and such but I have always been influenced by family. I used to believe that things were written and set and guided. As I grew I saw how random things can be and how different things happen for no reason. Everyone deals with things in different ways. Its all up to believe "I have no control but thats okay" You control you and thats the important part. As long as you know you things will impove. Randomly in my recommended btw. Subbed and belled so I can see how you do :)
Look into the Kalam Cosmological Argument. And the evidence for the Resurrection. I recommend a Book called "Cold Case Christianity". The basis for God and Jesus is more solid than you currently think.
First off, as some others in this comment section have stated, and as someone who also has some experience in the area I also can confirm, at least anecdotally, that this really does gets better with time. Secondly, despite the description and you mentioning a failure to put things into words, this speech is profoundly well spoken. Have you considered writing some scripted content and hiring an editor? I consume a lot of RU-vid and have edited some things for a few friends and I feel as though this you convey your thought process incredibly well in this video, better than many popular creators I've seen. If creating that kind of content seems like something you would want to make I highly encourage you to do so. I can Definity say I'll be sticking around this channel to see what you choose to do with it.
I think it's human instinct to try to find a foundation in life, something 'grounding'. Often this comes in the form of our belief system, and when those beliefs crumble, naturally we are left unstable. It sounds like you want a new foundation to build upon. Entirely understandably, some people struggle with the uncertainty and use a quick fix belief that makes them feel better in the moment, which is often just as fragile a belief as that which they had previously. For you, I hope you can find the strength to build your foundation brick by brick, measured and with patience, and build something that will last. I hope you embrace the unknown and find excitement in diving deeper into science, philosophy, and your own mind; I hope you can find it thrilling unraveling the mysteries of the universe and the one within, even knowing your story will conclude with you not having all of the answers. Plenty of idiots get from A to B, birth to death, in happiness and comfort. There is no reason someone as introspective as yourself shouldn't find the same. ...I should have waited to comment until I was sober... how did I even get here? Well, I'll be keeping an eye on your channel at least :) Sorry for the length.
It gets better. I’ve been an atheist for about a decade now and I can definitely say it gets better but you still have a existential crisis from time to time and they suck. You can always talk to me if you need to cuz i understand how you feel. 😘
I went from a Christian to a Satanist and I can tell you that felling you get I fixed with time, I spent time with famly and friends, went on bush walks and it helped so my advice would be to try and ground yourself. TLDR: Everything gets better with time, find something for you mind you focus on in the mean time
People can have traumatic experiences with their religious beliefs. Your former religious belief is not good for you and sounded like a cult. I believe in the Lord Jesus Christ and He is NOT how the churches preach Him today. I believe in Him because I know demons are real. He helped me and my family. Please avoid doing tarot cards, palm readers, Psychic or any new age nonsense. I saw a video thumb nail with you doing that. You are going to introduce more problems for yourself. Please seek the Lord because HE DOES HELP. God bless.
@@triciatree There is only ONE GOD and you can know the truth if you seek out the Lord Jesus Christ. You have to commit yourself to Him. Most people love their sins and don't want to follow Jesus Christ, however, NO SIN is worth losing your life over. Jesus Christ, on the other hand, is worth your time and energy. Get to know Him. I am NOT telling you to sit in a church building. Repent of (confess and forsake) your sins and He will draw near to you. Jesus Christ died for your sins in hopes that you could be reconciled to God. If a person showed that much love for you, then is that person not worthy of your attention?
@@wesleynunez3825Oh my. Not a convincing argument. I was born into Christianity. Even as a kid I thought it was bullsh*t. Your words are lost on me. It feels like you're yelling at me about unicorns and leprechauns. I'm not interested in a debate. I don't believe in your abrahamic god. He's just one out of 4,000 different gods/religions. I respect your right to believe whatever you want. Love your Jesus. If it brings you peace and joy, I'm happy for you.
@@triciatree A person can read the Bible and know of Jesus Christ, but do they know Him? Seek Him out and you will know what I mean. I am passionate about the Lord and I KNOW He exists. You have to be willing to submit to Him. A person born into Christianity does NOT make them a Christian: *"Now by this we know that we know Him, if we keep His commandments. He who says, “I know Him,” and does not keep His commandments, is a liar, and the truth is not in him. But whoever keeps His word, truly the love of God is perfected in him. By this we know that we are in Him. He who says he abides in Him ought himself also to walk just as He walked." (1 John 2:3-6)* I was raised Catholic, but departed from it and became an atheist. I am a Christian NOW. I want to encourage you to seek Him out and KNOW HIM.
