i'm tired of this slowed - rebzyyx feat.Rezlaine 

its currently 1am, I'm listening to this as rest break cuz I'm studying math for my sec final exams which its after 6 days from now :(

finished final exams, cried for hours and I always end up here.

Almost did it yesterday’s morning

its almost a year cant stop listening

love this song

I'm so tired these days, got headaches and back pain, sleeping for 13 hours and still cant even hold a glass. my body is so weak and I keep getting weaker everyday and there's nothing I can do about it. got a new piano few days ago and I'm glad to have it cuz I was waiting for so long to get a new one, but I just keep losing interest in my hobbies everyday and I have no power to do anything, I'm really lost and confused. idk what I want and idk what to do I just have the desire to sleep and let go of everything else. I don't feel safe at home, and I feel being watched as always, I cant get comfortable. I keep on losing power and my sanity each day and I will just keep it quiet. seems like this version of this song its what keeping me sane.

i had a friend, i didn't rlly want to have one but it happened, been 2 months since ik him. i feel guilty about it i don't want him in my life, i don't really want anyone i just keep on hurting people then feeling empty after, i destroy whatever i have and its really sad i dont wanna see em destroyed cuz of me at all, so im ending this friendship, i cant stand people or deal with anyone anymore.

I feel a lot and nothing at the same time

8 hours left and ill turn 18, ill def play this song :}

ill definitely play it on my 18th birthday

I end it, ended my friendship with that random person who entered my life. I feel nothing daily I just keep on sleeping for hours my body is too tired to move a finger, I keep on having nightmares it’s so complicated and blurry i don’t even remember em. I went out yesterday to buy shoes (old ones completely destroyed) i fainted twice outside and wish they didn’t bring me back home. I hate everything everyone I hate myself this is disgusting

if I ever graduated, then I don't want to go to collage its my biggest fears

I was feeling quite lonely so I went out and it totally was a bad idea. streets are crowded there’s so many people outside I can’t even pick my face up I wanted to take a walk but I couldn’t I felt watched and my heart beating so fast it was hard for me to breath. I hated it I hate how crowded the streets are I hated people out there I hate fireworks it’s so annoying and the fuckshit music that was so loud everything is annoying outside. I got back home now and I feel extremely fucked up, it’s dark here and so calm that I can even hear my inner voice. I wish I was born another person or in someone’s else’s life.

I escaped, but it was weird, so weird, and I didn't feel alright. I couldn't stay, so I just went back after all the hard steps I made that morning.

I feel really awful, it's been 4 days I can't get better

my pills aren't helping me anymore

its been a week already and I'm truly tired

my marks r bad and my final score is literally fucked up I cant go anywhere with 64 score and I feel really bad about myself, I hate how bad everything is going. I've decided to repeat the year maybe it will turn better or ill do better at finals, but still I feel rlly shameful about myself and guilty also so much hating is going on towards myself. if only my father is here for me. I went to school it feels so fucked up and I feel so tired and drained out, I have no energy fr.

its already 19 of Dec, I'm feeling so lost and empty for 3 days I d rlly k what to do I just keep writing about it, I feel so guilty and idk why, I just wanna vanish fr I cant stand how my days and I'm going its completely fucked

I have broke someone's nose, blood looked horrible. I feel so hopeless at school, everything makes me go insane. and I can only sleep for 4 hours.

I wanted to meet a therapy and finally got a number of one, but mother said no.

I've failed at math test, when will I actually do better at anything

also i want a cat

I drew 2 sketches with this song on, I didn't like the result but whatever :[