I need to change 

that 73 hour video will help keep the brazilian aviation system alive

"Local Brit wins Internet, gets bored, goes back to work"

Forgot to edit in some context and visuals but the 73hour Morrowind video took under 12 hours to render locally BUT RU-vid's HD processing took over a week :D (and two uploads). If you want to watch it: ru-vid.com/video/%D0%B2%D0%B8%D0%B4%D0%B5%D0%BE-V1UuE1Qmtmk.htmlsi=SoL4EY-4Ev9S63LC

Man I'm the complete opposite, but I think the world benefits from having both kinds of people. I've never really had ambitions beyond surviving with the bare minimum (that is fulfilling in and of itself to me), because my happiness is directly tied to how much free time I have. I like to play video games with someone I love, and appreciate things made by others in this world. Sometimes I review the games I play, or write comments such as this one, but that's about as creative as I like to get on a daily basis. That's not to say I'm immune to the Squidward routine depression meme, but if I ever feel that way, then I just play something else. Work and ambition makes me anxious and sad. But for some people it's the opposite, and that's great. Though, I'm not exactly "normal". The part about eating the same food everyday? I do that. But I have hypersensitivity, so simple things like cereals, toasts and pasta have always tasted extremely good to me. Every time. I've eaten those things everyday and I'm almost in my 30s, it never gets old. Bread in particular will always make me very happy. Mac and cheese too. I've often thought that if someone can't be happy with what they have, they will ultimately never be happy, but I think "what you have" is different for each person. For ambitious and creative people, that "high score chase" is what they want to have. That's what makes them happy. So if they stop trying to challenge themselves, they effectively lose what they had. Interesting stuff.

It’s the “your decompress/fun activity becomes the job” and you don’t see them as fun anymore and it’s work on your RU-vid. I’m former theatre kid myself, I’ve gone back to community theatre now in my 30s and even jumped on some small bit/extras roles once a year or so. It’s that artistic challenge and thrill of it. Completely understand that, and I hope you sincerely pursue it and keep that passion for it alive, as an escape! Watched you for years and love your channel, hands down my favorite creator. Keep pushing yourself to find new things of interest! Have you considered writing? Playwriting even? Keep kicking ass Josh!

I know this isn't Josh's main channel, but, hoping he sees this, there was one point he put out a few skits on youtube. I havent seen any in awhile, but maybe something like that could help push you to create and participate in theater-like activity, without compromising your youtube.

One lesson I learned probably a bit too late in life, is that if there's something you've always fancied doing but have told yourself it's not a good match for your skills/personality/whatever, is to just start. You will be embassingly bad for a while but improvement will inevitably happen.

Josh Strife Prays. Time for the weird new cult story arch.

10:47 - lol, no. The only difference in the second week is that it passes by more quickly. When it's done and I have to go back to work, I still wish I had more time off. Same thing during the pandemic, everyone was happy at first that they didn't have to go to work, and then they wanted to go and see everyone. I still didn't.

I have an immense amount of respect for Josh, especially when it comes to topics like this. Not only the dude has a lot of integrity and solid values, but he's also open and direct about things beyond the numbers

If Josh goes back to the theater, would that just be a different kind of Josh Strife Plays?

this is top tier 1st monitor content, thanks josh made me rethink life

As a musician I often take unpaid orchestra positions in musical theatre because they're one of the only gigs I can do that truly challenge me while also being enjoyable. Hell, I'm barely a theatre musician and I've been musical director of a few things because it's been a valuable learning experience. Next step is get good enough to learn to conduct an orchestra.

I have that same feeling somedays with cooking, I miss the soul crushing hours and work so hard there is no time for thinking about anything but the job, waking up at 5am after working until midnight... Then I realise, I never want to do it again, If I had the gift of gab and a nice voice I'd do gaming youtube without the messaging minors parts.

It's official guys, we're not satisfying Josh! We have failed him.

Sounds like Josh is starting his mid life crisis

"a more well-rounded human being" well that's easy, physically anyway

It's important to keep challenging yourself on a daily basis. Nothing kills a man's spirit faster than comfort.

Josh should be careful with the possible shift into acting as a way to "challenge himself artistically". Acting can be fun when you're just starting or when you're the top dog. Being a regular actor is not a prestigious calling nor is usually artistically fulfilling. The industry is a toxic cesspool.

The cut at the end man... 👌

It's good to hear this point of view. I'm in a lull at the moment between university years, the end of week 1 i was feeling an itch that I was wasting my time. I've started designing a video game that I'm about to try programming (not an MMO!). Not expecting it to give instant gratification, but writing down the ideas for it is giving me a great motivation to keep it going.

I'd love a second golden sun video. Your first one was so good. Such a great format for replaying old games.

Very insightful monolog, my friend! Totaly agree almost with anything that You said, especially hit me thing about seeing who people really are when you gave them anything they need... God bless!

With my nuclear strength executive disfunction doing anything is a challenge. Brushing my teeth, cleaning, walking out the door are monumental battles that I don't always succeed in. Before I hurt my foot one of the few relaxing things I found was running. I let my body go through the motion and can focus on one thought at a time. To put it another way, the body tires and the mind becomes quiet. It's one of the few things I do where there's no expectation of accomplishment. I just DO.

you're right; you need a top hat

really refreshing too see someone with such success, still be so grounded and at the same time inspiring.

While I grasp you just want to do something else with your life, I want to impress upon you how just how privileged it is to be able to say "I'm making a great living doing this but what am I getting out of it other than money?" Most of the world goes to work in jobs they hate just to pay the bills because their choices otherwise are slim. And there's a million people who only wishes they had the pretty face and British accent that would give them an advantage in being successful on Twitch/RU-vid so they could stream for a living and make it. Pursue your dreams. But grasp that your phrasing is honestly soul-crushing for many of your audience when you say that.

:) You got this. Those are good insights and goals Josh! Good luck ^^

Finally Josh is gonna get as buff as Henry Cavil and no longer be “Henry Cavil from wish”. Now Henry Cavil will be the “wish version of Josh Strife”.

"I need to start becoming a more rounded human being"... instead of a more round human being 😂😂😂😂😂 xxxx

Thanks for the monologue. I’ve had a bit of thing too where I’ve had not enough time to be creative due to my professional life. I can have hobbies around it but it’ll never take off without luck. You can put hard work in but sometimes it’s just better off staying a fun hobby I guess

Can't relate. I take month long vacations all the time and I hate having to go back to work every time. Being a lazy bum is bliss no matter the length.

This makes me think of the healthy mind platter construct. I like to refer back to it whenever I feel like I’m missing something or life doesn’t feel as good as it should

I deeply love the deep, thoughtful conversation followed by a punchline that immediately ends the video

Alternate title: "Suffering From Success: No Longer Content With Producing Content" But I totally get it. You've succeeded against odds and it has become routine. The question comes unbidden, "is this all I can do, or is there something else here?"

Good Luck Josh in whatever you do!

Something similar is why I hope that I never lose the opportunity to take more classes. Yeah it is stressful going into take tests and especially at the end of semesters wrapping up assignments and prepping for the final, but sitting down to learn something I probably didn't know before is a great feeling. It is not the same feeling from just watching videos or doing software based courses - it is way too easy to just view something and think I have the gist of it and software grading lacks variety in feedback. Now if I could just find a well paying job that could harness knowing a bit about a lot of things...

I just can't really relate to this. I don't really feel the desire to challenge myself in that way anymore, I've done my dues at uni, I work a job I hate and all I really crave is just time alone to do nothing.

The part about a long vacation is so true. I was injured at work and ended up spending a year off. The first couple weeks were great, but then it REALLY hit me. I took that extra time I had to learn how to cook, now it's one of my favorite and most relaxing activities.

Good for you dude. Switch it up 🤟🏻

If you don't feel "challenged" despite the comfort, and if that's creating a certain amount of disharmony, there's a very real possibility that ignoring said disharmony will just make it worse, which will in turn impact the things that keep you comfortable. So while you have the option to both be comfortable and experiment with a new challenge, you may as well because that way you can figure out if the thing you want to do is really the thing you want to do, without any added stress.

You do you my man. I will say there are many many ways to combine acting and RU-vid, if you wanted to go that route. That said I do understand that the immediacy of a physical audience and applause hits different.

Not wrong. The man's not wrong at all. When Covid jumped off, I was out of work for 3 months, and at first, I was absolutely loving life!...but it did get boring after about a month. When I finally went back to work, I damn near cried. As much as people may say that they hate their job, deep down, no matter what you're doing, it's that sense of purpose, I guess. I have also noticed that i've started exploring hobbies more, branching out interests, meeting new people, overcoming things I never really bothered to do before, and it's fulfilling! Things I thought of before that were relaxing, have turned into things I just do regularly. I'm not relaxed, i'm not working hard, i'm just doing them. You know when i'm most relaxed? When i'm at work, whether it be my actual job or making content myself. Crazy how growing up works, and finding new challenges is ironically a challenge in itself. Love you, Josh! I hope you find what truly makes you happy and you can freely enjoy doing what you love most!

I was recently off work for the longest period of my life since I began working, and I've had this exact feeling so many times over this period. Not that I didn't enjoy spending time with my family, getting to be part of kid's school activities, having more time to game recently than I have since I was 16, but I totally get what he means. I don't hate the type of work I do, can honestly say I enjoy the challenges, but it's still weird to be looking forward to going back to it for more than just a monetary reason. Though admittedly that's a relief in itself. Severance pay went a long way, but it's certainly not a long term option (not that it should be either).

Where's our food tours and reviews channel, JoshStrifeCraves?

11:00 This is me... one week vacation, perfect, two weeks... wtf am i doing

I had a period of 5 months after unit of not working - just doing nothing then felt as good week 1 and it did by the end of that time. I think being bored is just not having a thing you enjoy doing.

Welcome to climbing mazlowe's hierarchy of needs josh

My time off (2-2.5 weeks at a time, I find it weird some people can get a full month off) is always amazing from start to finish. I have all kinds of free time, but I am not doing a lot of nothing that entire time. I grill, I do chores, I clean, i continue to exercise, I get stuff done (I live by a “play can’t happen until the work is done mentality”). As a homeowner, and with a family, I never have that much time with nothing to do. I feel sluggish and depressed if I am purely sedentary, but I also have stuff that needs to be done that cannot be ignored (I am an adult, everything in life does not stop because I am on PTO).

From a man whose struggling in the same position of work vs passion, heres what I will say: A man who works for a purpose instead of materialistic pleasures will find his rewards in life far more bountiful than anything money can buy. Your name is more valuable than riches, and your principles more valuable than your prizes. In a way you've proven that already with youtube and twitch. People enjoy watching you. I say go for the challenge! You'll find it more worthwhile than other ventures 👍

This is the real "problem" AI would impose

Hoping you find a way to do what you want Josh

For me, I get to do major projects at work every few months and I love to go all in on them when they come up.

I love that the video cuts off immediately after "I have literally never started [ME3]"

Absolutely agree. I could go work for more money, but absent the passion. But I don't want to, sure I get paid less now but I love my work, and it gets me up everyday doing so.

I go for a walk in the woods when I wanna relax. Just roam around and let my mind just wander and make up stories or characters or music. I will walk for hours most times.

was in london for a layover, stayed in hounslow. as an american with a passion for fire arms, i know what smalls sound like, 90% sure i heard a shoot out that night

I'd say there is a very fine line between comfortable and stagnant, and my life has been truly stagnant for as long as I've known, having no ambition or artistic outlet is utterly suffocating, i have had no hobbies other than burning time infront of a pc, i really understand that yearning for a creative outlet as I've never had one and always told myself its too late to grow and change from the person i am now, but recently that desire for change and something to pursue is driving me forward and after some investment i wish to begin making music and painting, i don't really have much deep to say, more just sharing my experience with "getting comfortable" and how it can stifle your personal development and goals, much like many others here have said, if you have something you think you're not good enough to do or you're too old or late to do it, get out there and do it ❤

I'd love to see Josh's theater content.

To be fair, if acting and taking part in theatre plays is what you want to do, go for it. You know for sure that we, your audience, is here if it doesn't work out. At least you then know that it didn't work out. If you don't try you'll never know. I had to convince a good friend of mine to try again and she at least made it into a local theatre group now and she enjoys life now much more.

Josh Strife Fillets, his side hustle cooking channel.

Prophet to Guru in one take....Netflix contract incoming, great vid

If I became fabulously wealthy, I'd finance renovations on our home and my grandparents summer home, buy a baller PC, a bigger desk, a second monitor, everything on my wishlist and then just continue going to work.

Not that everything needs to be "muh content", but I'd definitely like to see more of Josh's acting. I really liked the sketches he used to do, and even if he winds down the channels for a bit to focus more on acting, with the occasional sketch here and there, I'd be down for that. I really liked his NPC's and stories in the studio Session Zero games. I'd love to see more of what he can come up with in terms of stories and characters. As long as he doesn't overwork and burn himself out and activate shingles in his body like a certain other youtuber did while trying to chase the high of challenging himself and achieving new things. (Markiplier regularly injures himself and makes himself horribly sick in pursuit of theatrical achievement.) Achievements are great, but take care of yourself as well.

Never did I get bored during a holiday, only absolute dread on the last day before school and now work, even though I had/have a comfortable time at both.

do whatever you want ma dude , we will be proud of you either way. gotta say i would love to see a stream of you painting and not gaming ( bob ross style ) that would be amazing.

I messaged Josh one time on discord asking if I could post my book (one which is a work in progress) in his discord as I wanted more people to have a look at it (as I am constantly looking for more feedback) He told me no nicely and wished me luck. Ngl, I wasn't even expecting an answer at the time, but when he responded I thought "mad respect for taking time to read this." And wanted to share my appreciation. I always found that writing can be challenging, but I found drawing, cycling, gym, animation or making a model castle/ship to be even more challenging. So to me rotating these hobbies/habits helped me push each of them forward whenever I could dedicate some time doing so. So even if I make a career out of writing, I would not want to stop the other hobbies I got for they are a part of what helps me push myself in writing more interesting stories.

I would love to see some videos of josh in theatre

Currently recovering from a burn-out, and I think it's good for people to know that if you take off three weeks or a month from work/school and you're doing great, then maybe it's time to evaluate your time spent. You can have fun during work, and you can have fun during education, but it needs to be something that you would be able to enjoy doing in your free time. And then when you stop for three weeks or a month, you'll find that you're way more inclined to feel the way Josh does.

josh stryfe hays conquers addiction on ice

I love the 72 hour video it is great to have it in the background when sleeping

Josh talks about London like US southerners talk about NY

"a lot of what people create is going from being art to content" this is so true and it hurts a lot, not going to be any better with the accessibility and use of AI tools

Tldr. I am very rich and I don't have to worry about my basic needs anymore, therefore I am seeking personal fulfilment. I am also discovering that being rich does not equal happiness, but it does get your mind off of thinking about bills all the time. That is great, good on you man.

Josh is an artist to the core, and his values are solid. I bet he’ll scratch that “itch” he’s talking about.

Actor? That's a fancy way of saying "long term unemployed".😂

Some people are just built different, I LOVED covid lock downs. I very much enjoyed my like year of just hunkering down at home, doing fuck all productive stuff, and just playing video games all day. If I was rich and didn't have to work, I for sure would retire and never work again

The last time I had 4 weeks off, I needed one to recover from stress, one to realize I am allowed to chill down, and then it was two awesome weeks. Most people around me feel similar, they barely can enjoy 2 weeks because they are so exhausted. We are Germans.

Josh dancing around the importance of a sense of purpose

"Once you give someone everything they need to live and survive, and thrive if you will, then you get to see who they actually are based on what they choose to do in their free time" sounds a lot of like people on social media who get upset about the wildest things, their life has lost a bit of meaning and so they look for something new to do and it just happens to be weird social media things or outrage or whatever it should be.

This is how a normal brain works. meanwhile, my brain needs half a year break every 2 years...

I have an idea Josh why don't you combine your two passions into one product, you can make a channel where you put skits and short films where you perform as an actor or even better, start experimenting in directing and writing, or even better start doing stand up comedy in local pubs and post it on youtube , comedy would suit you very well because your acting and dry humor is top notch, you will combine all your passions at once.

Still waiting for that second week feeling to hit, 2 years later

Thank you for being here; And thank you for saving the brazilian aviation save.

Me when I'm wearing really sweaty and gross clothes:

I suggest Josh takes youtube along and into the theater one time. It could be interesting.

time is the one Resource we will never have enough of.

The action is the juice.

5:17, my man is literally giving me flashbacks to EA reddit post.

Josh is truly an artist. Not everyone understands that itch when you're a creative

Losing with extra steps. That sounds about right.

Well said my dude

The online stuff can maybe be a safety net for when things didn't go well out there. Of course momentum needed to be rebuilt, but then that's a new challenge itself. I didn't know Josh started out during Covid. To reach this amount of numbers for such a short amount of time, it's impressive to say the least. I think he has answers in him already.

Been watching the Morrowind video and loving it.

In his old vlogs, he really looked like Jonathan Larson (at least in the movie Tick, Tick... Boom!) and at his most artistic form.

I lost 3 years of my life to autoimmune disorder. Almost killed me 3 times. Was in pain the whole time. The purpose of life is to be comfortable. The reason you are uncomfortable with being comfortable is an adaptation that is making you uneasy about your survival odds. Some part of your brain is concerned your complacency is going to get you killed. So you need to feel productive, instead of comfortable. But if you have TRULY been uncomfortable, you'll get the value of comfort. Consume art, eat food. That's what life is for, because one day you won't be able to. It could be when you die, it could be in your early 20s, or it could be the day you were born. Anywhere between the beginning and end of life you could lose the ability to enjoy being alive, and sometimes you don't even die when you do. People just aren't good at dealing with that complacency discomfort, and so they squander their capacity to be comfortable to get rid of that. Because they aren't comfortable with comfort. Basically, people are insane contradictory meat machines that aren't actually intended to live fulfilling lives, our biology has been evolutionarily shaped not to be happy, but to survive and procreate and that's all. It's our job to find happiness on our own. There isn't actually a universal answer to it. Trauma has shaped my opinion, as it does everyone who experiences hardships. We all have individual insanities to wrestle with on our way there. Any tight blanket statements and observations are of hollow meaning because they simply don't apply to everyone. Humans are messy.

Mangaka Gosho Aoyama got started making a manga of a gentleman thief with magical powers called the Kaitou Kid ,but it didn’t get enough traction and he had to start over. He then made a manga of something much more grounded in reality, a detective serial but with the twist that the genius detective had been scientagically aged down to a child. This manga was Detective Conan and is pretty famous now, but once Mr. Aoyama was well off enough he DID pursue his original story again, it even became an anime itself, so I think it did okay. I like to think that there are stories, projects and goals within all of us that we just need to do. Regardless of if it makes financial sense, or even social sense with the expectation of others. I press on because I keep in mind that if I don’t make this thing, no one else probably will and thus it will never have been created and to me that’s sad.

josh became content with his content

I think it’s important to impart on maybe the more impressionable viewers, that satisfaction doesn’t come from artificial adversity. Intentionally making your life more difficult will be hollow. It needs to be real risk and real adversity to overcome.

Aww getting older and trying to find meaning in the world. Authentic moments are what I feel like you're talking about. Not that you aren't authentic in your youtube channel, but your acting as you say is where you find your "meaning" perhaps. Appreciate these honest videos/clips a lot!