I REALLY NEEDED THIS... | Ren - "Hi Ren" REACTION 

Here is some additional information on Ren's story, in case you didn't already know. I gathered it from an old newspaper interview and Ren's livestreams and posts where he discussed his condition. Ren Eryn Gill is a British musician/independent artist; born in Wales in 1990 or ‘91 (depending on which source you cite), he grew up in Brighton. Ren pursued a career in music from an early age. In 2009, while studying music performance at Bath Spa University, he began to experience health issues and was struggling to attend his lectures. In 2010, he was signed by Sony Records and was working on an album when his health deteriorated to the point where he was unable to continue and subsequently dropped by Sony. Ren's illness often kept him in bed for up to 23 hours daily. Ren was initially misdiagnosed with depression, bipolar disorder, and chronic fatigue syndrome, which lead him to experience psychosis. It would take seven years before a doctor in Belgium finally correctly diagnosed Ren with autoimmunity, Lyme disease, and resulting damage to the brain, organs, joints, and PTSD. Ren eventually underwent stem cell therapy in the United States, which improved his health, but it has not been a cure. Ren is currently in Canada for more treatments, including surgeries, and will have to be there for at least six months (Summer of 2023). Ren's Canadian doctor discovered that Ren also developed a condition called Mast Cell Activation Disorder, which has affected the myelin sheath in his brain, his thyroid, adrenals, as well as his bones/joints. Ren stated: "It's a lot to wrap my head around having to be away from friends, family, and a successful career, and almost feels like a total juxtaposition to the fact that my music is blowing up right now and spreading to all corners of the world, but that's life, we take the good with the bad." Let's keep supporting Ren and not pull a "Sony" on him as he undergoes his treatment. Check out and subscribe to his channel, listen to some of his earlier work, like and comment on his performances, and let's lift Ren's spirits. If you are a believer, pray for him. Ren is an artist with something to say to this generation, and his work is needed in these troubling times. Here is the link to Ren’s GoFundMe page to raise money for his current treatment. www.gofundme.com/f/ren-get-better-from-lyme-disease-and-autoimmunity

55yo retired firefighter, and this wrecked me. It's music, spoken work poetry, theatrical, visual arts, philosophy and just plain genius! I appreciated it was just as moving for you and your honest reaction. Hi Ren is a genius and very inspiring!

Really appreciate your reaction here. The song’s extremely vulnerable but so was your own story towards the end. Like you said, “Sometimes existing can be exhausting”… But it is good to hear the validation that we all have similar struggles. Thanks for that. Always easier to get through things together.

I'm 56, a veteran and Ren made me cry. The demons are real and not real. Self doubt can swing from darkness and light.... Ren is a true artist.

This is a lyrical masterpiece. You listen to it and say "wow".

Ren is the DEFINITION of an artist. He is wise far beyond his years.

I've lived with an autoimmune illness called Systemic Scleroderma since I was 17yo, and I've struggled with depression and anxiety as well because of it and other life circumstances. That's why I connect with this song soo much, it's very relatable to just about everybody who has struggled in life. This isn't just a song, this song is one of the best pieces of art I've ever seen and it cuts right down to the soul!!

I really hope Ren sees this. He has watched a bunch of reactions to this song and commented on the videos. I think he would love your authenticity and emotional response. Also when you said that "existing is sometimes exhausting" that hit so hard for me. Really summed up a lot of stuff people deal with in just a few words.

I have watched *dozens* of reaction videos on Ren`s "Hi Ren" over the last weeks. And btw, i get goosebumps and tears every single time i hear this. What i loved especially about *your* reaction here: You didn´t say a word throughout his performance, you let your face and eyes do the talking. I felt it all with you Aileen. Never in my 55 years of existing ( i don´t call it "living" cause i suffer from decades filled with severe Depression and Loneliness) have i ever been moved so much and felt something so intense after listening to a piece of music or lyrics such as this piece of Art from Ren. This is not only a song, this is not only lyrics written by a fine and very talented wordsmith ( someone called his style "Bardcore" ), this is an experience i will never forget. Thank you Aileen for your beautiful and moving reaction.

Man. I can't stop watching reactions to this song. Such a genius, and his lyrics hit so hard. Masterful

Reactors nearly always tear up soon after Ren stands up for the song's finale. Powerful emotions being unleashed when hope overcomes despair.

Ren x chinchilla - chalk outlines (LIVE) gets me every single time. You being on anti-depressants and such will identify with it much like I do. Love your reaction

I almost didn’t check this out, but seeing as Aileen is a metalhead, and I love her music choices, I gave this a listen. I’m glad I did. The struggle to stay on the straight path, all the while hearing that voice of doubt trying to pull you to the darkness. I deal with it daily, staying sober, losing my son, getting divorced. This really struck me on a very personal level.

“Hi Ren" is the song that put Ren on everyone's radar since December; it went viral and has garnered more than 5 million views since its debut, but he has been creating great music for more than ten years. Ren’s music videos are generally recorded live, often in a single take, although not necessarily the first take, and from various camera angles. His release, "Sick Boi," is almost another chapter to "Hi Ren." Many of his songs resonate with people because he addresses struggles that many others face every day. Ren plays multiple instruments (acoustic, electric, and bass guitar, piano, drums), has impressive vocals, is an excellent storyteller, and is quite the philosopher and poet. He is considered by many a modern bard. His trilogy "The Tale of Jenny/Screech/Violet" is haunting and has an unforeseen conclusion. It needs to be watched in the order given, as this is the flow of the storyline. It is another example of Ren’s genius and a master’s class in storytelling. It has been likened to a Shakespearean tragedy. Ren’s collaborations with Chinchilla (“Chalk Outlines,” “How to Be Me”) are beautiful and showcase his singing voice while addressing mental health. His live music videos are especially impressive. Ren's personal reflections are threaded through many of his songs; "Insomnia," "Depression," “Diazepam," “Penitence,” “Dear God,” “Heretic,” “Dominos,” his "Freckled Angels" album, just to name a few, all deserve a listen. His song "Money Game" (Part I & II) is another recommendation, although it is less of a personal song than it is an indictment of greed and the resulting injustices in this world. Ren’s Hip Hop/Rap style songs are all worth checking out if you enjoy this genre; they are pretty amazing. Check out “The Hunger,” “Genesis,” “What You Want,” “Losing it (FISHER rap retake),” “Right here, right now (Fatboy Slim one shot retake),” "Life is Funny," “Love Music (Parts 1, 2, and 3),” “Crucify Your Culture,” “Power,” and his latest release, “Bittersweet symphony (The Verve retake).” As I recently discovered, Ren also recorded a cover of “Can't Help Falling In Love (Elvis Cover),” that is simply beautiful. Then there are his performances with Sam Tompkins (“Blind Eyed,” “Earned it /Mans World / Falling,” “Walking on the moon/No Diggity”), Eden Nash (“Humble,” “Ocean”), Bibi (“Crutch,” “Ahiahiaoha”), Molly McKinna (“Penitence”), his former bandmate, Romain Axisa (“French Song”), which are all great. Ren's performances as a member of the band "The Big Push" (which unfortunately broke up), their busking (street performances), concerts, and their live recordings, are awesome and well worth checking out. Ren's covers of "I Shot the Sheriff," "Wade in the Water," "An Englishman in New York," “War Pigs,” the songs "Oh My Woman," “Swan Song,” “Sweet Little Lady," "It's Alright," "Watch Out," “Dignity,” and so many others are equally impressive. Ren recently released his single, “Sick Boi.” In anticipation of his stay in Canada for more treatments, Ren prepared some music ahead of time to be released over the next six months that he expects to be gone. As mentioned above, his latest release, “Bittersweet Symphony (The Verve retake),” is another masterful work.

I’ve seen dozens of reactions to this song, but yours feels special ❤. It hit you the way it hit me.

Ren touched so many people with this masterpiece. Many relate to this, me incl... Much love to all who have to deal with their inner demons. YOU GOT THIS 💪💪💪

ren is such a beautiful artist. Great reaction i love your emotions during these reactions make us not feel alone

Really excited for the reaction Aileen. Ren is a genius and a masterclass in storytelling.

Ren is so fucn healthy in our HEALING FOR YOUNG AND OLD. BELIEVE ME I'M 54 YEARS OLD AND HAVE BEEN A PART OF THE MUSIC INDUSTRY AND CAN'T DO THE THINGS I USE TO BE ABLE TO DO

Aileen, you are a beautiful person inside and out. Your reaction was so honest. One of the lines I noticed you react to was the one that gets me every time "Some people know me as Hope, some people know me as the voice that you hear when you loosen the noose on the rope". That is so brutal but true. Every time one of us, or one of our loved ones, reaches that level of despair, we all now know that the noose can be loosened, that we can walk away from that act, and breathe again

I fell into a life lived in shadows when I was so much younger. While my parents were busy with a brutal divorce, I turned my back on God, met some guys that "let" me hang out with them. They introduced me to a life where I made insanely good money delivering "packages". As I got a little older, I worked out religiously and studied various martial arts. The people I worked for decided I was to become an "enforcer", collecting debts by any means necessary... I'll leave it at that. I have danced with the Devil, and when I decided it was time to leave that life... well, he wasn't a very happy demon! The battles that Ren presented us with, I know them well, but somehow, hearing someone else sing/rap/express them... I no longer feel alone in the world. I've died twice, even earned a Death Certificate. I know Ren has been through Hell, as well. There's a certain kind of comfort I get knowing that this life can be survived.

That was a beautiful reaction. Thank you. As someone who has battled depression for over 40 years I always felt defeated every time the depression kicked in strongly. I felt it WAS a battle I either had to win or lose. This piece of music, of art, hit me hard - a lightbulb moment. I know now that we win not by winning all our battles but in the strength we have to keep facing them. Thank you once more.

The process of watching you react is itself therapeutic. You make being human look like the wonderful state of being that it is, whether it’s RATM or Ren you’re reacting to. Thank you for having such deep empathy and compassion for everyone and everything. It’s the most precious mindset we can adopt, methinks!

if your audience don't like this, and the reaction you had, that so many of us also had, then, well, there are better audiences out there, beautiful, you melted like we all did. It was such a human shared experience knowing that we all felt like this.

I've only just been found by, and begun exploring, this song by Ren in the last ≈2 hours... and it took my fifth watch/listen, and your video here, to finally help me break out in much-needed cathartic sobbing and tears. Just wanted to let you know, and also to unashamedly document this, for myself and others. Thank you, dog bless x

I’ve watched this more times than I can count now in the last few weeks. But have been struggling today with tons of self doubt and low confidence/unworthy feelings. Thanks for echoing your struggles. So important to not feel alone.

I am really happy I watched this reaction video. I've watched so many, but i really connected with your feelings and your message. Have never seen any of your videos but i already think you're such an amazing and beautiful person. Just wanted to say that.

First off: you ARE good enough. You are NOT a joke. You ARE a special, wonderful, and kind person. Total strangers from the internet really do care! You're right- existing is exhausting, but it IS going to be all right. Sending positive thoughts and non-creepy virtual hugs! I found your reaction powerful beyond words. It seemed like you were just dialed in and engaged. It's hard not to be- he did that live. The thing I wanted to add along with your observations is that at the end of the song right before he puts the guitar down, he never resolves the chord progression. To properly resolve that chord progression, he should have played a D minor. But he doesn't. No chance that's an accident. It suggests to me that as long as we're alive, that battle between our angels and our demons rages. Great reaction. I hope you find peace and healing, and never doubt that you friggin rock, young Jedi! 👽👍🏼

Damn. Speechless. Dealing with bipolar anxiety PTSD ADHD and the death of my wife, now also a severe heart condition. So I don't know what the future holds. this is what I need right now. The world makes a little more sense today.Brilliant so thank you from new Zealand for being this masterpiece to my attention cheers hamish also I have no idea if this band has been recommended to you but while she sleeps - eye to eye full video not the edit is hands down the best music video about what it's like to live with mental illness with the message that you are not your mind

What a gift Ren has! Sometimes you come across things that are just bad for your soul. It's pretty rare you find something that nourishes it. What an amazing experience Ren shares!

Look at the lights, from one voice to the other. It's amazing and what i experience daily. Hes brilliant.

**FINALLY** 😋Been asking in your streams for a month requesting this song (I'm sure you've heard from plenty others as well lol), and you're the last of the reactors I follow to react on this. I CAN'T WAIT. Your breakdowns are always so honest and heartfelt, thank you *SO MUCH* for taking time to do this. Much love, can't wait for it to drop!!💖

Wow. I have listened to this dozens of times. I know the song. I know how masterful it is. It has moved me like no other written, spoken, or sung words. Your reaction, the unspoken, raw reaction, was beautiful to watch. And then your spoken analysis and how you opened up... that was magical and beautiful. You really ARE fine. Even though you struggle.... you are fine. As Ren said, relax, soften, and the dance gets easier. Be well you wonderful person!!

Aileen, thanks for being you. Not only the reactions but showing your true self. You are not just a face on the screen but the friendly and kind voice for many. You make the world better place for many of us that can forget the shitty world for a moment and just enjoy music with you. Once again thanks, you mean a lot! :)

REN IS A TRAIN HITTING RIGHT ON YOUR FACE, GOING AS FAST AS HE CAN GOES. HE'S BRUTALLY HONEST, HE'S SINGULAR, HE'S A FRESH AIR.

I've watched this song about 10 times in the last few days I still get more meaning out of it. It really is an amazingly authentic and meaningful piece of work.

Your reaction is by far the best one I have seen so far, with no pauses just seeing you going through the emotions that Ren induced in my self. Congrats to yourself and much respect to Ren as always.much love xx

I really enjoyed the fact that you listened to the whole song before discussing it. This is what a reaction video should be like! Not having the reviewer dissect each line by line and thereby generally losing the plot entirely. I feel very much as you do about this song, it is intensely moving, even now after I have listened to it over and over.

Out of the hundreds of reactions I've seen of this song this was my favorite. I can't feel music like you can but I can feel people. This was the first reaction that got me to cry as well. Thank you!

I just have discovered your channel and right away I subscribed. Your reaction was so genuine and since you are very pretty, sometimes we think that everything is alright and everything is probably fine but behind that beauty there are still struggles hidden that we don't see inside. Hope you are fine and keep doing what you are doing because you are very good at it ❤. Sorry if I did not make myself well understood , I'm French but I had to tell you. As for Ren, this kid is literally a genius. He has a way to make us, people that don't suffer from that sickness, understand what he went through and how much he suffered. But what we have to keep in mind is his message of hope and that we can achieve our dreams even with that mental sickness.

Fellow metal head here 🤘But I found this man a lil bit ago and he reminded me that hip hop/rap/busker is badass! I’ve been down the rabbit hole ever since. Ren is a true treasure I’m so happy you found him and got the emotional out of it. We’ll make it through the bullshit. We’re all just human beings ❤️🤘❤️

Been watching reactions to this video for nearly 2 days- I feel a deep need to connect with people over this song. I cannot tell you how much I appreciate your vulnerability in sharing your own struggles. This is what great art does for us- it inspires us to share our humanity.

Chaulk outlines is another profound take on mental health. The tale of Jenny and Screech (full) is a masterpiece of Shakespearianesque poetry. There are many many songs in his catalog that are top top tier. Many emotional, some just fun. He is truly the most talented musical artist of our lifetimes.

I'm diagnosed with schizophrenia and PTSD. This goes right to the core of me. I'm not just talking about the song, but your reaction. It's clear how the song affected you because you've been there, and that adds value to the song.

The emotion on your face as you watched that was beautiful... constrained, yet unconstrainable. Thank you.

Hey, Aileen I feel what you said at the end of the reaction. I think ren spoke to a lot of us with this video. I have been struggling the past week as well and this song actually really helped me. I’ve been struggling with self doubt as well. I know I’m just a random person through a screen but as you said it, it is ok to not be ok. You are not alone, you have earned a long time subscription from me mental health is no joke I feel everyone deserves happiness and help. ❤❤❤

I have seen So many Reactions to Ren BUT by far and Away Yours is the Best .. Reason You let the song Flow Start to Finish then Reacted ... Not Start Stop Start Stop ... Thank You ... Well Done

This beautiful piece of art is helping so many people, including myself. I'm so happy that this masterpiece is getting people to reaching out. We should always remember that we are never alone in our daily struggles. Big love to all and thank you Ren ❤️

Not even past the intro and i already liked, subscribed, and pushed the all notifications bc ur gorgeous inside and out and i can tell u have such a beautiful heart.

This was very moving to watch. I have seen many reaction videos to this masterpiece, this one is among the best. It seemed to help you in a big way in dealing with your own inner demons. And I am so glad you acknowledged Ren's guitar playing. Masterful and definitely emotional. I hope Ren himself sees your reaction. The way it affected you I think was the intent. To let us all know everything will be okay. We are all human beings. Loved this video!

I've heard this song so many times now because it speaks to me at so many levels. I watched your face all the way through, and I appreciate (and felt, at one time or another) everything I think I read there. Thank you for doing this one! Love your analysis, nicely done.

Thank you for the perfect summary of what Ren's art means to people all over the world. His art knows no boundaries and embraces us all. Yes, we are all human beings and we are never alone in times of suffering. Take care out there.

I deal with chronic pain and it makes everything in my life so much harder. Existing is exhausting, it's something I've been saying about my own life for years. Discovering Ren has been absolutely life changing for me, not only in the comfort of knowing I'm not alone in my struggle but also seeing how much beauty can come out of your struggles, how many lives you can touch, who you can inspire, if you just keep going and don't give up. This is the only artist I've ever found who pours out their heart and soul into every single song and all of it has resonated with me on such a deep and personal level, it feels like it's my soul he's poured into them and I honestly don't know how to feel about that. As far as suggestions go, Dominoes, How to be Me, Freckled Angel, Everybody drops, It's Alright, Heretic, Sick Boi, and Dear God are all songs that are so beautifully profound, they left me in tears.

Have become obsessed with listening to peoples reactions to this masterpiece of performance art for it goes way beyond music. It hit me like a train and I am so glad that it is getting shared so widely and getting a serious response from most of the people that listen. As Ren says in the song ‘ the people that hear it respect it ……….not half. This really ought to be on the Grammy list dont care if they have to create a whole new genre award to fit it in.

My first time on your channel and I already love it here. It makes me happy to know people like you and Ren exist. I am rooting for you both.

You felt this song just like so many others have. It really hits hard when you take it all in. Ren is a lyrical and musical genius and amazing storyteller. Thank you for reacting to this song. ❤️

I’ve seen many reactions to this particular piece; you are very genuine and articulate in your relating to Ren and this Conundrum of life we all wrestle with…I feel like you and Ren are kindred spirits and we all relate….thanks….Stay awesome!

Great reaction. Ren is a true bard, connecting with our souls and waking us up to our deep feelings. Take care, you are a beautiful soul.

This performance is a gift to humanity, nothing less. Your reaction was heartfelt and beautiful. All the best!

Ren's Depression,insomnia,chalk out lines and how to be me are all excellent song! Having said that Ren never disappoints he's the poet of our times! Nice reaction BTW. He pulled me from a hole when I first heard this!!

YOUR REACTION WAS BEAUTIFUL NOT SURE WHAT YOU HSVE BEEN THROUGH, BUT SURE GLAD TO EE YOUR GORGEOUS SMILE. I THINK REN IS A GENIUS...

Ive become a fan after this song ,his ole life is sad but unique, i love ❤️ ren x

One of the best reactions on RU-vid ! Goes well with one of the best performances on you tube ! 🥰

This song has made me discover more than a dozen reactors I had never seen nor heard of, but, while pretty much all the others are moving, too, your reaction is the only one that managed to be just as touching and tear-wrenching as the song itself. For that alone, I'd sub to you, but then you seem to have a lot more to offer on top of your openness, vulnerability and honesty.

@RenMakesMusic you have to watch this reaction my man. This is EXACTLY how all of us feel experiencing your beautiful art. Much love. And @AileenSenpai, your reaction was beautiful. You did such a wonder job really allowing yourself to fully feel this to help you heal on your own personal journey. You are amazing in your own right!

this IS A VERY POWERFUL piece of ART.... its WAY more than a song..... ty for reacting to this.... take care and may the sun always shine for you! ✌🙂

This is the best reaction to this song i have seen, you're the first one that looks inside instead of what Ren is saying. Stay strong girl, you're on the right path! I've been dance a long time, and as long as we stay dancing we'll be okay..

Even your broken voice at the end says everything bout how intensive this young poet has touched your soul. Me as a (hobby) musician for 21 years now, this young guys highly artistic poetry and his very unique talent has hit me really hard and let me talk bout him like a groupie. Nether thought a guy of the newer generations could ever clench me so deep. I am really proud of him and he is at the time the single real artist I know.^^ Loved your reactions.

who dont cry by this showing of soul and the trouble inside is not an musician. Every Human... here or everywhere... no mather Musician or not.... a Human. Thats the way to be and this is a trip To finde a way with yust one voice inside. love your Videos. greets from Munich Germany

this is the second time I've watched this video with you and I teared up with you both times. It's a true work of art.

As someone who also have struggled with mental problems and suicide thoughts this hits really close to home. It's a genius artwork that perfectly depict the struggle people have inside. Never seen a genius like this tbh. Never let the voice win! You are a beautiful person!

I felt your emotional connection while watching your reaction. I remember the first time I saw this video. I cried and felt so many emotions myself. You are not alone. You have found your tribe. You are amazing and I am sending you some light and love.

This song hit so close to home for me. I have been battling my own demons of depression, anxiety, ADHD, bipolar, and who knows what else. Each day I wake up and can’t function without medication, yet the medication makes me feel bad too. There is no real fix other then to just go inside myself and try to climb out of the darkness. I am doing well, for the most part things are pretty under control. It’s just reminders like this that are needed to snap me into a mindset of trying to heal and grow. Also, my son was very pre-mature, and suffers from many conditions. More then a 6 year old should. He has a particular autoimmune disease that has no cure, and no real proven treatment, though they are making headway in that department. His esophagus is attacking itself, based on food allergies. Because of that condition, he has developed others, the biggest being a pediatric eating disorder that is pretty severe and takes constant work to help him overcome. Asking him to try a good he doesn’t know is like asking me to let a spider crawl all over me. I relate to Ren and his struggles because it’s never one thing that afflicts you. One thing leads to another and soon you just feel sick and like you can’t over come it. Thankfully we are dealing with our sons problems early on his life, and I hope that leads to better coping as he grows up. He’s a warrior though and I can see him doing big things because he has an unlimited mind full of big thoughts. He might be small and so skinny, but his mind is brilliant.

You are beautiful when you get emotional, but you are beautiful anyway. Also you seem like you have a beautiful soul and a good person!!!! Much love from Australia.....

"I was made to be tested and twisted, I was made to be broken and beat".. that hits me so hard every time. That is how I feel about this thing called life. It's a constant struggle of being tested

This was soooooo good. Just recently subscribed when you did NF hope, big NF fan and loved your reaction to it, idk why I decided to try this video but I'm so glad I did and definitely will be checking out more REN songs. Also if your going to do NF Mansion get your tissues ready.

Love your content; was moved to see your emotions spike at the same time mine did when I first listened. This song is flooded with the Holy Spirit, and it’s reaching so many people including myself. Through childhood I struggled with manic depression and ever since I got back from Afghanistan in 2014 I’ve been a functioning alcoholic, struggling with faith. I’ve been married for 11 years, and with my 3rd child on the way I am now working on sobriety and prioritizing God and my family over and life has only gotten better. I don’t know you, and I don’t want to preach but that “angel” on your shoulder.. lean into that and know there is a God who loves you and every flaw you think you have. TLDR; You are fantastic, we are all imperfect, Jesus is King. Much love

Thank you for being willing to cry for and with others who won't, can't, or have no one else to with. You're amazing

hey girl from Baltimore, i don't often write to you but i couldn't help myself. i am 55 and have been playing music(guitar, keys, piano, sax) since i was 4. i recently had a stroke and i have lost a serius amount of motor skills. muscle memory is gone, so i am currently fighting to get some of this back. i will never be what i was but, i don't know anything else! to be so far along in the journey, and not have the time to rebuild, is utterly heartbreaking. i praise this shooting star for giving me hope where there is none. i always had my music and time. my two best friends they were, and now they are gone. enjoy all you have, for one day it will be gone. i unlike Ren, can't see the other side of this cloud. but i know that somewhere, there is bright sunny skies and i hope to feel that warmth someday. awesome job and i hope to see you again. all my hopes Rich

There is nothing more beautiful then to watch a face of a person taking in the universes message. Wonderful reaction. This is why we are here on this planet....not the hustle and bustle out on the street, but to take in and learn all we are together in our beautiful chaos that becomes us.

I've watched a lot of these Ren reactions because I love to see how people will react to something I reacted so profoundly to. Aileen nailed it for me. I could tell her reaction was honest and true, because I did the same things. We know. Thanks for this video, Aileen.

You can’t help but shed tears, when you actually listen to the lyrics of this masterpiece.. We have all been in a dark place at some time in our lives!,

Awww loved that. Wasn't expecting to. I've seen a lot of 'reaction' videos. First time me experiencing Ren "Hi Ren" too. Watching you vulnerably react to it too took it to the next level. Strong. Thanks.

First off I want to say that I've seen easily 50 reactions to this song so far, and besides the first time seeing the actual video, none of them brought me to happy tears like watching your reaction just now, It was soooo authentic and I could tell from the start it was touching you deeply, excellent job!! Secondly, I have been a sub for a minute now, and seen lots of your reactions, I know you get emotional at some and have a huge heart full of empathy for the human condition. Until your post reaction synopsis though, I had no idea the you suffered from depression, past suicidal thoughts, anxiety and all that other fun stuff. Maybe I just missed your reactions that you've talked about it, or maybe I need to join your Patreon and you discuss it further there, I'm just saying, please don't EVER feel like you need to hold back when It comes to talking about such things. I left a 27yr career a few years early that I adored, and thought would do forever, due to the PTSD that same career created, I have a panic disorder and GAD from it too. I've always admired you and the way you do reactions, and your heartfelt honest breakdowns, and it doesn't hurt you're just as cute as a button, but you talking about some of your past mental health trauma, just now, made me feel the same way this song, this piece of art, made you feel, not alone, and comforted that others have the same struggle. Not in a cruel way either, more of a kindred spirit sort of way. So keep doing what you're doing, and keep your chin up, and don't be afraid to talk to us about what's on your mind, you just made my whole week by doing so just now. Hope I didn't ramble too long, I'm going to check and see if you have a Patreon now, have a great day!! ✌️💚

I feel you and so do a lot of beautiful people on this world and others. You are not alone and will never be. Thank you for sharing a peak of your own story after this masterpeace of Humanity. Greetings from Germany.

It's definitely worth looking into Ren's other stuff as well. He's such a uniquely refreshing artist. The latest single Sick Boi is really amazing and has multiple layers and messages intertwined. Violet's Tale is a fantastic mixture of theatrics and music (and it's the Part 3 of a trilogy, with the first 2 parts equally captivating). Chalk Outlines is another one that hits hard if you know what it is to be depressed - and who of us doesn't these days? Money Game shows Ren's talent in tackling serious social and political topics, and lastly Diazepam and What Went Wrong are lighter in their tone but carry a heavy message as well. Good stuff and hope to see you do more videos about Ren! Always respecting someone who goes against the established industrial norms and does something that is so unique in its creativity that it can't but stand out from the rest.

I loved watching every one of your facial expressions and seeing this performance penetrate your soul. Beautiful

This is a beautiful emotional reaction. Thank you for listening to your patrons and To Ren. You’re amazing! 🖖🏻🫶🏼

Ive watched literally dozens of reactions to this and some things have been consistent with most, but i found it fascinating to watch tye pulse monitor. It definitely showed the moments that particularly hit you.

This song gets more emotional the more I hear it.. and my first reaction was only slightly less emotional than Aileen's. Even as an atheist the Christian imagery still works so well and the internal struggle here is so cathartic. ❤

Thank you for allowing the entire song to finish and not stop it prior to giving your reaction. So many who react on you tube stop and talk so much that it becomes very frustrating for me, so much so that I gave up and stopped watching reaction videos for a long time until now. So for that you have earned my subscription and like and I hope you continue to respect and react for your audience exactly like this...

*hugs*

This is exactly why I followed you. The emotion you let us see during your reactions 🙏

Ren did this this whole take/music video in one go, there was no multiple takes, no breaks no repeats of sections....everything your saw was real, all the emotions and feelings were raw and unfiltered. That's what makes this a master-piece of connective relatable expression.

The very moment he stands up, and in alignment with the lyrics, and knowing about his illness.... it all comes together and hits me everytime. Empowering!

to me at 63 now and a life long music lover, of all types, just personally speaking, this is the most profound 10 minute piece of art that i have ever seen, heard in my lifetime, bar none, iv'e been waiting for years for something like this, it's unsurpassable, and what a lovely review, bravo.

I love your reaction, I think I have watched Hi Ren over 40 times now, his experience allows me to learn so much about myself watching backwards in life with all bad stuff even recent time and also makes me understanding more how others have it inside their head and how difficult many have it which we often doesn't see. 😢❤️

Just found you with this video - I love the way you took this one in and were so honest about how it affected you - thank you !

Thanks before your really touching reaction. My daughter struggle with issues you’ve mentioned with borderline personality disorder for a decade and I struggle with extreme anxiety disorder so can relate to a lot of what you’re saying…. You seem like a beautiful soul and I look forward to more of your reactions! Seek the Light! ❤❤❤

I've watched a lot of reactions to this and yours was really touching & beautiful.