12:38 "But this is my problem: I don't understand it when people are...good to me." That line hit so hard. Like hard. That's exactly how I feel towards anyone who is remotely nice to me without asking for anything in return. And then, because of overthinking, paranoia, and trust issues, that feeling of confusion manifests as suspicion towards those people so I end up not leaving behind people who treat me poorly because I'm afraid the people who really care about me are trying to "win me over" or use me so if I leave the awful people and the "nice" ones turn out to be using me, I'll be alone and have no one to talk to. I have some really sweet friends and I love them to death but even though I'm slowly learning to trust them more and believe their kind words and actions at face value, I still don't understand WHY. Why am I worth people's kindness? What do they see that I don't? I just....don't get it.
I'm sorry in advance to interfere with a hypothesis, hopefully might lend a hand. Assumptions involving whether one actually deserves a particular object or the other way around are doing no justice towards such trivial matter which level of complexity require further measures other than pointing a number over immeasurable things. Worth aren't price tags placed over us, it's alright to perceive like the moon instead; which revolves over time and going through the same cycles round and round, but even cloudy nights doesn't bother it to make its presence unknown. Sorry for beating around the bush and making it sound jumbled, I'm trying to pinpoint that there are days when we feel under the cloud (allowing insecurities to rise), but then again, every cloud has a silver lining (a valid fact). You're worthwhile in every way possible even if it's rather unbelievable. *I'm aware that I'm weeks late, but in case passersby come and go ^^
God I really hate how much this is me, getting scared and getting mad and lashing out on people cause of it. I remember my ex I would do it, and a lot and I hated myself for it I wanted him to just leave me and I was so scared to say I’m sorry cause I was scared he would hate me and never want me but he always had went through with it and to imagine we broke up cause I was to sensitive. How things play huh
Did I just binge most of your videos over the last week? Absolutely. Is this some of the best ASMR content on this platform, 100%. The quality from the very beginning is FANTASTIC, and you deserve so much more attention.
id like to give you an award for being the first boyfriend adiou out of a lot to make my heart actally hurt and make me cry .all need to have your quality and effort you give 👏👏👏
I honestly feel like if someone is so genuinely sorry for what they did and they work hard to make up for it then it should be forgiven. So Imma just casually commit arson on his mean inner voices😀
wow, im not the type of person to do this. this audio has actually helped me understand how to empathize with people and be patient. the listener is a god send and i wish i were like them, and also the reader, i couldn't be able to cry or confess all of that.
Ok, this was a hard one - made me reflect on some things that did happen in the past. It took me several hours to even consider what to write. And I really like your performances because these are very natural and hit so close to home.
This was heartbreaking in the best way. I feel like I've had this conversation with at least a few people, and the arguments the other person makes usually sound just like this, all based around the idea that they're not worth it, and it breaks my heart every time. For whoever needs to hear this, your worth as a person is not merit-based. YOU, the person, are NOT worthless, nor have you EVER been worthless. Work you do to improve yourself should be BECAUSE you're worth it, not to MAKE yourself worth it. Remember, the most precious gems start rough, but that doesn't change the fact that they're gems. They can be refined, polished, cut, set into more and more beautiful forms, but they START as gems (scientifically, sure, they start as elements in the earth before they're gems, but...just go with me on this one). They START good enough. Yes, we should always strive to be the best humans we can be, and strive to be excellent to each other. We don't get a free pass to do whatever, whenever at other people's expense, but in my opinion, our failures as humans never make us worthless so long as we can admit to and do what we can to fix our mistakes. As much as the world needs love right now, make sure you start by loving yourself first. In doing so, I promise you'll make the world a bit better just by being part of it.
Anytime I get in a fight with anyone it's very one sided most of the time. Cause I freak out and suddenly my anxiety takes over and I can't breath and my legs get all shaky. I start to cry and it sucks cause I always feel bad cause then the other person feels bad and it's an endless cycle of people feeling bad and I hate it. I've only ever lashed out at anyone once back in like 5th grade because he was hurting not just me, but his other friends and his own sister and I lost it on him and it was terrible but I wouldn't take it back beacause he hasn't hurt any of us since.
I loved a guy with parent issues and because of that he did drugs and he used me. I want him to be happy even after all of that, cause I understand why he’s the way he is. So I get it, you’re forgiven, you’re trying at the very least and because you’re trying... that makes you worthy. That and I have a bad habit of not being able to let go, sooo had you been a jackass and not even decided to apologized I would’ve ran back to you with three weeks. Congrats, you’re not jackass. A relationship is 100% and it’s not always going to be 50- 50, if one day you can only get to 30% than I’ll be the 70%. Cause I’m a hopeless romantic like that UvU
There’s so much I want to say to this character, especially about the ugly voices telling him that he’s worthless and doesn’t deserve love. But I’m broken, too.
i got so scared and i hurt someone who cares about me last night. he doesn’t know if he can trust me because i punish myself by trying to get others to not want me. i went too far and i might lose him forever. i love him but if i tell him now he might just think i’m tricking him.
Mc: I'm forgetting because I love you. Me: okay, you don't want to forget you, fine. As for your punishment, free back rubs anytime I want. Dinner and chores are on you for a month. No make it three months. Small homemade surprise gift every two weeks, they must be cheesy and full puns if possible. Then all is forget. Do we have a deal, love. Side note: Always proof read before you hit enter. I've edit this four times 😅. 😞 Grammar.
In real life, even if he apologized this sincerely, I still wouldn't live with him. He's clearly emotionally unstable and as much as I cared about him, I'd say, "Well, when you *do* get your crap together, then come talk to me." Maybe. 😓
You see, Nomad sweetie, darling, sugar😂😂😂 Don’t mind me The thing is, I have listened to all your audios and I realized on Monday that I had nothing else to listen to So you know what I did?.... I started re-listening to everything again Bye...❤️
For those out there who struggle. There is help, there is an outstretched hand to help you. And if you want a listening ear, send me a message, I'll be here to listen, to bitch with you or my current favourite, drool over Tom Ellis 💞😈🤗
![I Want To Be Better For You[M4A][Apology][After A Fight][Reverse-Comfort][I'm So Sorry]](/img/logo.svg){kind=logo}
