“ now that you took my sickness away who am I suppose to be?” I know this feeling, I had Lyme for the 12 years of mt life, when I started getting better and could actually go and do things I quickly realized that I didn’t have many friends and didn’t actually participate in a lot of things because I was so sick before, I had to build myself up from “the sick girl” to athlete, theater kid and friend to almost everyone. I had to find my identity of not being sick.
In case anyone needs to hear it, this is from one of Icon For Hire's more recent songs and I believe it gives at least part of the answer of "who am I supposed to be?" After having mental illness eat away at your life "Part of the process was falling in love with the person you were before everyone loved you Then you realize the point of your dreams is becoming the person that you're SUPPOSED TO BE And then it's all clear Take it from me" - Icon For Hire, "Emo Dreams", "The Reckoning"
Richard yes a lot of people suffer from it but those who don't really don't get it. I don't know if she suffered depression once in her life but she most probably doesn't now(I'm not including relapses and such) and its nice to have someone who doesn't have it understand.
This is literally how I felt for about a year and a half after the worst of my depression lifted. It was so weird and confusing not to be *"depressed".* It was such a huge part of my identity, I just didn't know who I was without my depression.
Alma Saon same. I used to cry a lot when I was very depressed. Now sometimes don't cry for like weeks and most days I'm happy. There are a lot of days where I'm just happy all day long and I feel like smiling for no reason just because life is beautiful. I used to think somethings wrong because I just wasn't used to being so genuinely happy 😅😓. Turns out I'm just a really happy and friendly and fun person if I don't feel like shit all the time ;)
Being happy feels wrong. Depression is my comfort zone. It’s been a part of me for so long and has affected pretty much everything in my life and built my personality. Who am I without it.
Lynn Bassoonist I can relate. It's so weird how I have been doing pretty well for 3 months now. I mean my anxiety disorder still makes me wanna cry and isolate but nevertheless I'm working on myself conquering life.
I can partially relate. But for me it's more like "But I feel happy now, am I just overthinking it? Am I exaggerating it all? Should I just press on and forget all of it?" Though I can imagine the way you feel. I wouldn't know how to act and what to do if I suddenly didn't feel depressed anymore. I would probably be confused and return to old stuff I did to pass the time
Unfortunately when we live with something like this for so long its hard to let go of it because you feel you need it to be normal. I can relate, I've lived with this for so long I don't really remember life before I had it.
I've been so numb to everything for so long but I'm finally starting to feel again after many many years. No therapy, no meds, just finally being happy with my husband. This song fits so well with how I felt around the time the numbness started fading
I can totally relate with Icon for Hire here as I had been suffering depression for a while and knowing that I wasn't myself, I knew that I had to let go of the problems that caused pain but I was afraid of the results, the outcome but thank goodness that isn't the case 😊
I love how the tone of most of there songs are basically “sure your life’s rough but you can’t just wine about it,if you don’t do anything about it it’ll stay like that “
I know this has been up very long, I still resonate with this song as I'm scared to let my depression go as its helped me cope and survive. It's still a part of me, but I need help letting it go. I know everyone is different but I'm not sure how to let it go and be just myself. I still struggle and would appreciate some advice or direction if anyone is willing to help of course. I'd be extremely grateful 😊
I'm not sure exactly how to help, but I can tell you that you aren't alone in that feeling. I don't believe I've ever had depression, but I do have generalized anxiety and social anxiety and I'm going to be real honest with you, whenever I feel it getting better, I freak out. It almost makes me think I like that anxious feeling or I just hold onto it in hopes that it makes me "special". Which relates to two Icon For Hire (IFH) songs like this one: "I think I'm just in love with the feeling Break my bones so I can feel them healing" - "Iodine" by IFH on "Scripted" (I actually think you might like this song if you haven't heard it already as it relates to basically everything you mentioned) And "Oh, I need my pain Don't take it away My sad makes me special" - "Get Well II" by IFH on "You Can't Kill Us" But anyway, back on topic. So I get not wanting to let your depression go, but I think we just have to remind ourselves that we are, indeed, more than this. There's a difference between living and simply surviving. Sure, your depression may have helped you survive, but is it helping you live? Does it make you happy and grateful to be living and breathing on this planet? If not, it's best to let it go. Once you step out of the dark, you'd be surprised by how much light there is. Sure, you're still going to have hard times, but you're better than those hard times, and so far you've survived all of it. You should congratulate yourself! You're way stronger than you think, I mean, look at how far you've come already! And I know that you are more than your depression, and maybe you haven't discovered all of it yet because of the depression. Maybe part of you won't shine through until you let it go. And if none of this is helpful, then it's probably best to talk to someone you know and trust in real life, like a therapist. They would know more about who you are than I do. What I do know is that there is definitely more to you than your depression, it might just be hard to see it, but I'm sure everyone else can see it. I know you can do this! (Hopefully some of this made sense. I'm bad at putting everything I think into words and complete sentences and not just a figurative way like poetry, metaphors, similes, etc... 😅) Edit: Oh! And maybe this quote will help. It's from another Icon For Hire song (a more recent one), but it really speaks to me and I think it would speak to anyone who relates to this song (as in "Supposed To Be" by IFH) The quote is: "Part of the process was falling in love with the person you were before everyone loved you Then you realize the point of your dreams Is becoming the person that you're supposed to be And then it's all clear Take it from me" - "Emo Dreams" by Icon For Hire on "The Reckoning"
I didn't relate to this before but now that I've started medication for my depression, I'm in a state where I don't know what to do now. I don't have to battle everything all the time. I never knew anything outside if it. And now I don't know what to do with all this. I feel free but what do I do now? I didn't think I'd ever get out of this so...who am I now?
I know alot of people say this on songs and stuff but this actually describes me. All because of some years of bullys and a break up with my crush.. im very sensitive with my feelings so all of those boys ruined my life. but I'm almost out of depression just 20% more to go to get out
I feel that. For me the constant bullying gave me trust issues and more anxiety. I have been trying years to fix it but I never had friends so how am I supposed to be one.
Forty years I have lived, fought to build a life as the proud and respectable, weathered old man that I made of myself. 😎 This will be my first winter as a young lady. 🥲 This will be my first winter ever, and I am thoroughly encourageable, but I am having trouble with the sorrow of letting go. A whole life, a whole-ass person with a whole story of their own.. my self. He has to go away forever.. like an old friend I once loved. 😔
To all of you who used to be were I was, you are more than the depression that holds you close. I know it doesn’t look like it right now but I promise you, you are not your pain.
Ive started by doing what I love most. Kids. I'm babysitting my niece. It's a huge step in the right direction. I haven't felt this good in 5 yrs. Fearful it won't last long.
Wait... you guys weren’t always depressed? Weird. I couldn’t imagine being normal then suddenly you’re not yourself. That’s fucking wild. I’ve always had this. So I don’t think I can physically be happy.
I don't wanna be I don't wanna be crazy, this is the way my sadness and the world made me. Now I'm addicted to the self destruction, 😵😵😝😝💀💀better come quick yeah better save me. (Good luck tho lol)
I'll say this again this young woman has dod much talent ,but as long as she has that tekno sound she'll only be mediocre! Were are the vvords and riffs
