I'm with Oszi. Sometimes just reaching out to somebody who knows nothing about you can be really helpful. You can get some insight to yourself that you never would be able to get from friends or family. Huntergcarswell
Here are some lyrics I made up for this beat: Hey man, it's been a minute I feel so high.. Am I spinnin'? Life feels so hard.. ugh, should I stop livin? Sitting on my couch watching television. Life feels like hell Everyday I wake up thinking I'm in a prison cell Don't know what to do anymore, you aswell? Remember those days, we would sit in the hotels Talking about problems Thinking we were awesome Until depression came This ain't no damn game I'm feeling insane Chugging down that champagne Hoping everything will be okay But know look at us Depression caught us good man it had us. Thanks for reading :) Edit: Thank you for the love! Your positive feedback inspires me into writing again :). -7/12/22
Exactly the same everyone always says oh your so happy but really I’m ending it in 2 months that’s how happy I am 😔 I can’t keep going I’m sick of putting on a mask to please other people
yea,pretending in front of everyone so nobody can say "you just think of yourself" or "you just want attention" or "you are just complaining" or some bullshit like that i would rather die than talk about my mental problems with literally anyone again
Once I met an amazing person in minecraft. We played almost everyday all day. We started our server only for two of us typical survival. 268 days we survived in our world. We build the best castle what we could. We build the best village for our fellow villagers. We have perfected our world every day to the best. We were happy and amazed what we build together. But there was 1 thing that needed to be done. Fight the Ender dragon. We had every thing what we need. I remember, what he wrote I remember that sentence until now "Bro we are almost ready to Fight him!" "This was challenging day, meet u here tomorrow" That was last day iv seen him.. its almost 8 years now. Still Waiting on him. i died alot without him, lost our Diamond Pickaxe with Rare enchant.... i build for him nice place when he come back ... he will be exiced ! I dont know what happened to you bro, hope u doing well. i will protect our world. Didnt know i can be so depresed from game... even from minecraft.
my friend found like, well what she said, the best guy ever on minecraft and then she was super depressed because they seemed so happy until she said he said that they were forced to break up and that made me sad because he was nice and yeah mhm
I'm alright moments Them: Are you okay? Me: Yeah, why? Them: You should let it out sometimes, it's not good to bottle them in. I'm here, you know. Me: Oh, thanks but I really am okay. Them: Sure? (Says a lot more of advices) Me: Positive. Not fine moments Me: Hey.. Them: Hey, what's up? Me: I kind of need someone right now, are you free? Them: Oh, sorry dude, I'm kinda busy. Maybe next time. *Well-*
@@ahriahnamoon6237 oh there's love, real love, sooo much. Hugs are the best, feel like nothing else. Warm, soft, comforting, neverending., can't live without. Are you thinking about how it feels when hugging? Or something, someone else. I think the mind is part of a hug, feelings. Whether it feels good, feels okay, comforting, or you can't wait to un-hug.
It’s actually sad, being asked “Are you okay?” And responding “Yeah! I’m great!” And smiling when you are shattered inside.Its hard having no one to talk to when i really need someone.Because nobody checks up on me.only depression does.And he always comes when i’m happy. Its hard to cry everyday,everynight, just because of the feelings and thoughts you cant control.its hard having 1attempt that failed behind you.Its hard having scars on your arms and heart.Its hard having to hear i just want attention.its hard feeling worthless and empty (: because even tho i’m fucking hurting inside,i’m here for everybody that needs me.i give everyone fucking advice .but,where are they when i need them the most huh?.. What’s actually sad is that my parents don’t know that they lost their happy little girl YEARS ago.its hard not being taken seriously.
@@reimssi wtf dude. Don't say that! what is wrong with you!?! If you don't have anything nice to say don't fucking say it. You sound like you don't give a fuck. Your sick.
I had a freind i used to play idk what happend to them they was on a plane i last heard aint heard from them since 😭 they were nice they dont reply they aint been on the game since either
I miss the days when I was younger The days i didnt care about my body or peoples thought and did what i loved My past self would be so mad at me for what i let myself into Why did i let it get this far... I wish i never learned how to cry Or what cutting is I really miss the old days Im not okay....
Listen Rick-D143 I understand that the dimension you come from is different and has many problems but it will all turn out okay and everything will be okay. Happy holidays
Who here loves someone who don't love u back 😔💔 Edit: This probably isn't worth mentioning but I had a boyfriend who was perfect who I loved so much, he had helped me from self harming but he just broke up today because of this other girl who is "hotter" than me, I heard on his live stream through an account he didn't know was me he said he likes her, she likes him back and he might go out with her so yeah now I'm back to my old terrible state of depression again, life's pretty fucked ain't it? Just love is fucked. Anyway I just wanted to say anyone else going through this situation or just any shit situation which feels like your heart is shattering, your mental health deteriating, it may feel like absolute shit I know. The start of it can be the worst place to be in where your feelings fuck up. But please remember sad feelings are temporary, no matter how long they last the extremity does not stay the same, suicide isn't temporary, its permanent and there's no such thing as EVERYONE hating you I'm one of the people who don't. Please don't give up, even if you feel no one cares for you billions of people are on the earth, many care for you including me, it may sound repetitive and common but I genuinely mean it. Just wanted to say, stay safe and don't give up during tough times, I know your strong you can do this!! Even though I don't know you, I care for you a lot and just know your AWESOME and you will achieve amazing things in life, we Arnet okay and that's okay!! We are all human and we all make mistakes, there's no such thing as a perfect person who has no flaws at all so don't put yourself down, I know your worth it!! Just know I love all you guys and wish you happiness even if you feel at your worst atm, trust me, I've been the slightest bit away from committing suicide but here I am, sure i'm not at my best I can be but I'm still in one piece. So please don't beat yourself up any overthinkers, heartbroken people, people who cry themself to sleep, people who love someone so much they don't like you back, remember we both know your all better than all this, and it's okay to feel depressed, it's natural human feelings which everyone in the world could of experienced it at least once. Your not alone!! Me and many other people love you and care a lot about you and would never want you to be hurt physically or emotionally. I really hope you have a good day y'all 💕🥺 Also anyone who wants to talk dms are open :) IG: tallyatkinsonmain
When i was really young . I wish i could grow up faster . When i grown up . I wish i could be young again 😪 child ; know nothing , no care , no worries , just happy. Grown up ; In pain , disappointed , depressed, fake smile , worries 😭
Hey depression how you been. you’ve been my best friend since I was ten. all the memories that I’ve ever had You were always there to turn them sad Been loosing track of time Trapped in an imaginary box,you can call me the mime Tell all my friends that they will be fine And that it’s not their fault Mentally unstable my own brain ordering the assault. Can’t keep my mind straight Ya Leaving this world would be my greatest feat Everyone dies slowly But I’ve been playing defense,I’m the goalie
I know that you posted this a while ago, but I wanted to take the time that reading the line, “Mentally unstable my own brain ordering the assault” left me speechless! Loved it! You are so much more fantastic than you know!
when you realised that you can't save everything or everyone you ever loved,things come and go in this world we are in,its sad but what can we do, nothing, we could only remember them, and not forget them
God’s got it all under control. No need to worry. Pray about it and put it in God’s hands. Please repent and turn from your wicked ways. That way God will hear you. God bless❤️❤️
We may not be able to save everything but that doesn't mean we can't try. That doesn't mean we have to let them die. It just means we have to try harder. We have to become smarter. Once we nail that we might just be able to succeed. Sorry for the rhyming
"I wear a mask I pretend to be fine I say I'm ok but that's a lie No one sees the tears I cry I'm loosing count of the sleepless nights I wish you'd hold me Tell me everything was alright I'm not ok I'd rather fade away then face the pain All of these voices are driving me insane I'm not ok"
"I wear a mask I pretend to be fine I say I'm ok but that's a lie No one sees the tears I cry I'm loosing count of the sleepless nights I wish you'd hold me tight Tell me everything was alright I'm not ok I'd rather fade away then face the pain All of these voices are driving me insane I'm not ok" as i wish you'd stayed longer it made me feel stronger but it never lasted as you said we were forever Do you love me? Do you want me? Thought you promised that you'd never leave Now I lost it And your voice is calling me Saying follow me Do you love me? Do you want me? Thought you promised that you'd never leave beside me Now I lost it And your voice is calling me Saying follow me\ Yeah (hey) Do you love me baby tell the truth I've been up for days because i'm thinking about you I don't wanna hurt you baby i just want you near But you didn't feel the same you made that very clear Think it's a quarter past one, I can't get you off my mind, Realising that we're done, I know I've wasted time. Baby, tell me, that I am going crazy I've realized that you've moved on. But also that, I'm not that strong When we were together, You said it was forever Wishing it would get better, Feel's it may never go away never. And now I'm sittin' here all alone, And all of your things are gone, Your keys off the rack, You ain't comin' back, no, Do you love me? Do you want me? Thought you promised that you'd never leave Now I lost it And your voice is calling me Saying follow me Do you love me? Do you want me? Thought you promised that you'd never leave beside me Now I lost it And your voice is calling me Saying follow me\ Do you love me? Do you want me? Thought you promised that you'd never leave beside me Now I lost it And your voice is calling me Saying follow me\
Love the beat man so good. I wrote this song with it This life gets hard But we all fall sometimes Everybody wondering why Their visions are so blind But we gotta keep pushing through To see the better side But don't give up now You have a life Waiting on the other side Waiting for you The further we fall The higher we can climb People stripped away from love And losing their grip But I'm telling you now You'll get out of this Don't lose yourself You will be ok I'm here for you Every night and day Sharing my words To spread my message across the world Hoping one day we will all be ok All share our love All share out hearts Not hate one another But light the spark To a better place for us all Where we don't get separated And torn apart I'm just here to inspire you all Whenever you fall I got your back through it all Don't let yourself down for your flaws All our imperfections are what make us perfect just the way we are And don't take failure so heavily Take it as one step closer to success Cuz that's all it is Don't lose your grip cuz you fell and lost it all Get back up and pursue your dreams Because once you do that you open the door To be who you are And to see the stars shine bright On the darkest night Where you will find your love And open your arms To fly free like a dove Don't lose all your hope Don't lose all your faith It is backing you up every step of the way Even if it may not seem like it now It is waiting for you to let it all out Be yourself Be who you want to be Don't let others control you You are the only you And that's what makes you perfect to me
fung whyou fun fact it’s not the worst I’m going through. But I guess I’ll just have to be grateful to god even though I’m an atheist. I’m going through much worse rn. It was a joke. And I think the original commenter is going through a rough time too
It doesnt hurt anymore The thought of you leaving The fear of being left behind Being lonely in the dark nights Sitting Under the sky which calls out nothing but ur name But am i really over you Or maybe thats just a trick my mind is playing Convincing me to forget you But i see ur reflection in the mirror I didnt just love you i became a part of you And now my soul isnt with me anymore So i guess it does hurt
If I breathe I shake. My heart flows, head throbs. I stomp. I scream. I cry. I pray. I wish. I plead. Nothing. Nothing comes and nothing goes. Not on my side. No it’s not here. Not within. I get nothing. It leaves me with absolutely emptiness.
Hey Man I lost my grandma due to covid and lung problems a year ago but remember to live everyday like it’s your last, and to work everyday to make them proud! I pray you overcome any struggles in life.
Don't worry I feel the same and I myself I am a muderer I killed the girl I used to be and I have been living like this for 3 years and life just sucks for me my parents think I am lazy but the truth is I am tired, I am tired of everyday faking a smile and living and I can't take my life bc I am afraid of what's going to happen after I die and I am 12 years old but yeah and this is due to school stuff and my friends have problems and I am afraid my friends commit mistakes like me so I pretend I am happy so they don't see me as a problem rather than a solution who ever is suicidal like me just remember YOU ARE WORTH IT DON LET ANYONE MAKE U LESS WE NEED U WE LOVE YOU KEEP FIGHTING FOR YOUR LIFE YOUR WORTH IT💕💕
I'm not okay, every single day, I listen to the voices in my head telling me what's right or what's wrong but these days my life is just the wrong one I haven't been a good friend even if I try to be everything is coming to an end, so listen here close to I wanna make sure everythings okay wi everyone, great beat raspo n much love to everyone wi hurtful problems in there life I give them respect and my full support ❤❤
I’m okay, I have the perfect family and environment. My family loves me a lot, and I have lots of friends online. But, I just can’t seem to figure out a way to fit it and find a true friend. I... changed way to much, in order to make friends, my family. People think I’m perfect, I have good grades, and my personality is nice, but that’s not who I am. I just wish that there can be a true friend who accepts all my true characteristics and personality.
I’m the exact same I’ve moulded into everyone else’s fucking perfect human to the point where I’m not happy with anything fuck this shit I’m gone in 2 months I guarantee no one will hear from me again😭
man i can relate so much I get good grades I am kind but I have no one to talk to but ya know i don't wanna be known as a smart guy i wanna be known as someone you can go to for help
Hey everyone..I hope if you’re going through something that it gets better, and if you feel like you’re going to give up, please don’t. You all have so much potential in everything. Anything that is happening right now it WILL get better. Things in the past are in the past. Forget them. They don’t matter, life is trying to bring you down, don’t let it. Keep your head held high. Things will happen that can seem like they’ll never get better, but believe me, they will. Do. Not. Give. Up. People love you, I don’t know you but guess what? I love you. With everything I have. So don’t let events that bring you down keep you down. Stay positive. Have confidence in yourself! And please remember- People care, and love you. ❤️
i remember when i was so happy and i was laughing at everything i saw but now...its just like nothing is funny anymore. im sad everyday. i cant stop thinking of the person who broke me. im crying everyday. i wonna scream in a pillow just to let everything go. i cant hold it anymore. i...cant...hold it anymore...... :(
Hi! I don't want to bother you or something, but I saw your comment and I wanted you to know that you're not alone in this. If you want to talk to someoane who understands, i'm here for you.
I ain’t gotta lot to say But I’ve gotta say I’m not ok My heart it breaks when watching you watch me walking away. Choosing Not to stay is a top mistake I often make but I can’t stop or wait until it’s all too late alternate between the loss n profit made. when I’m gambling your emotional currency that you’ve insured in me and sure believe that I’ll earn your keep but you’ll learn I’ll leave when concern is currently the current discerning me.
One time my friend asked me "You okay?" And I said "Yeah I'm good." What really hit me was when they asked "Are you okay, really?" for the second time. That's when I really cried
The worst things someone can go through is being heartbroken. Imagine this, if your throw a plate on the ground and say sorry, will it get fixed again? No. And if you throw someone’s heart on the ground and all you do is say sorry, it won’t go back together. And no don’t say “stop bringing up things that happened a long time ago” cause things we have done to eachother can stay in someone’s mind their whole life. Think about that everyone can feel just as sad as you. Everyone has their bad times. So don’t judge if someone gets sad for something small, cause you don’t know what might be going on on the other side of that persons life.
whoever you are please stay strong we are all fighting own battles and i have no clue what you are going through and I probably won't understand but you are strong and you will overcome whatever this is, the world is unfair and cruel but you only have one heart and although it feels like it's broken now I promise it will get better just please please please be patient do what makes you happy just hang in there and hold tight because you aren't alone and someone is definitely going through something similar or the same thing as you are no matter how big or small or in between so please just hold tight and just take it one day at a time, don't think abut the future so much it's far far away think about how grateful you are for today and please look forward to tomorrow because your life can change in an instant so just look at the small things and be happy and thankful for living today even if it was the worst day because today was someone's last day, i love you a lot i really do even though i have NO clue who you are i'm not only saying this to make you feel better although that is one reason but i actually do truly love you
start(0:20) i can't stop thinking about her and everything we spoke about crying in my room outloud asking myself these questions like why'd you turnabout was it because of my self existential thoughts or cus you didn't wanna see me rot i think it's just because you wanna self preserve yourself and that's okay because i know you don't wanna be hurt it's all i do it's all i know ill grab my blade and put it to my throat but ill never fucking do it i know just leave me to die im an empty soul something you probably should've known ill throw our relationship away if it means you'll be okay don't have any words left to say i don't want to be some throwaway but if it means you'll be okay, ill go away this time for sure i won't even stay it'll break my heart in so many different ways but atleast ill know that you'll be safe thank you for staying with me up until today
“I promise, to be honest”/ don’t take my kindness for my weakness/ then Why do I feel betrayed and cheated?/ why do I feel this way? Defeated/ why does the pain decide to stay? It beats me/ looking for a moment of peace I need it/ but you got me picking up the broken pieces. / Was just feeling this beat. Haha.
I’m not ok. I’m alone I’m afraid don’t like this pain can’t leave this cage I won’t ever be the same cuz a what’s her name still miss her face can’t shake this haze brain stuck in a maze I’m amazed I remain still not ok maybe someday one day till then everydays Monday
If u're reading this comment, i just wanna say *you're loved, the world needs you, there's a lot of reasons to live for, don't quit, no one can do ur role, YOU HAVE ME, i love u so much ❤️, cry it out, I'm sending u loads of virtual hugs, everything has an expiry date so has pain, I'm never gonna leave u like them, smile your smile matters to me the most, i love u*
All by myself feeling’ lonely as hell Like I fell in a well, no one hears me yell Someone get me out of this pit someone get me out of this shit Sorry drippin’ down my pen Bleeding out when I spit This is a verse for the lonely When you’re hurt mission’ homies Poppin’ perks cause your’ lonely on earth It’s the worst when you immerse into solitude Your shadow is the only one who follows you The mirror is the only 1 who talks to you It eats you alive till it swallows you Wallow through feeling hollow thinking no 1 understands God is just a man who let the illusion expand I once held love in my hands But fuck she ran And the pain snapped back like rubber
I always ask for hugs form my mom and try to give everyone I can a hug if I’m comfortable with it I just want a hug that sticks with me, a hug that will last, a hug that understands my every thought, a cozy hug that I didn’t have to give or have to ask for.
I’m not ok... I have this just big fear inside of me... that fear is getting killed in school. I know most of use have it ,but with the world we live in know it’s become so much of an issue that my 9 year old brother came to me and said “big sister I don’t want to die in school” with his eyes tearing up. I start tearing up to knowing I’m going to a new middle school. Knowing I’m going to have to keep caution, not hang around any form of bully, try and make as many friends as possible with those that are like me or lonely... I need to be self aware now because of this issue that being nice is just a way to survive school. Be kind to anyone even if they bully you.. please know if you ever cause harm to a school that you might traumatize so many people , that you will be known as a demon , that you will get sent to jail. I’m afraid of so much but this fear... I holds me down the most. I try and try to be people’s friend. Now to only to survive but I also want to be kind... I know this is cheesy and only a small amount of you will see this but please. Please. Please. Please. Know that everything will be okay. I tell this to myself, my friends, and family.. and now I’m telling it to you
when they were upset we rescheduled all of our works just stay with them. when we're upset theyre like "gotta go home real quick man, watch yourself"....
for the first time in a long time now I felt happy , most days during quarentine and isolation I felt lost , lonely and upset but going to school for the first time in a while and seeing my closest friends and laughing and enjoying myself I was actually happy
To anyone out their dealing with depression , anxiety , family problems anything that puts you in the wrong mindset your not alone. Push until you have nothing left. My dads always told me suicide was a selfish mans mission but when you deal with it you look at it from such a different perspective remember y’all are not alone heads up y’all got this !!
All done my soul got crushed cant be undone wrote a letter but no reply i want to no the reason why? Please dont make this be the last goodbye... Sick of staying up all night wishing I didn’t have to choose to fight i wish i loved you more and respected you wish I didn’t really put you through them horrible things i said to you.. im sorry i was just mad at you you see sometimes we say things we dont mean to wish you could forgive me but guess its so late to say how much i miss you I really sorry what i put you through, but now your gone im so lost with out you cant really breathe need you back in my life cuz you was the reason i wanted to breath, my soul is roaming this earth hope you reply back to me if not then there’s no point of running back to me cuz maybe I might be dead or maybe I wrote this song before you left... You see all the hungs and kisses we gave all that love thought it couldnt brake but guess im to late this really cant be fixed feel like if I prayed so much would god help me find my way all this darkness feels like its closing in but i keep saying I really cant give in, but with out you in my life where would I begin so I standing up on this bridge thinking whats the point to live? keep asking for gods advice but he still doesn’t reply wish i had a reason why... i cant be strong enough is enough got nothing to live for so really cant find the strength to hold on...
L J I’m in the same boat. I messed up. Lost the one I love. Sent love songs and a letter, but no reply. Now I’m planning on taking a one way ticket off this planet because this pain is to painful
It's sad always putting on a smile for the sake of other people who could care less if you were okay or not. I know because I did it for years. then one day I stopped because I realized they didn't care at all. I don't smile for anyone now and it's because of the way I was treated...
This life gets hard But we all fall sometimes Everybody's wondering why Their visions are so blind But we gotta keep pushing through To see the better side But don't give up now You have a life Waiting on the other side Waiting for you The further we fall the higher we climb People stripped away from all The reason their grip But I'm telling you now You'll get out of this Don't loose yourself You'll be okay I'm here for you Every night and day Sharing my words Spreading my message Accross the world Hoping one day all will be okay All share our love All share our heart Not hate one another But light the spark To a better place for all of us Where we don't her separated And torn apart I'm just here to inspire you all Whenever you fall I got your back through it all Don't let yourself down For your flaws All our imperfections Are what makes us perfect Just the way we are And don't take it fear So heavily Take as one step Closer to success 'cause that' s all it is Don't loose your grip ...
I had a dad. Never knew him though. I hear he was a bad guy, in jail most of my life. Always wanted to meet him despite what I’ve been told, he was my dad, no one could replace that. In the end drugs were where his heart was, never in me. And they killed him too..
These are the best "goodbye, will I see you again?" Kind of beats where the answer isn't clear - there's just enough hope to keep you listening but so much sadness at the same time
Past: Brother's friend: Let's go outside! Me and brother: Yes let's gooo! Present: Brother: Hey bro wanna play fortnite? Brother's friend: Yeah Me: What about me? Can we go outside? No?
funny how people in real life tell you they’re here for you but once you need them they’re not there so you have to go to youtube and talk about how you’re feeling with strangers buy they actually get it. sometimes complete strangers are actually better than people you actually know in real life if you actually have someone whos there for you all the time and that cares about you please be there for them too and go give them a hug and check on them. be grateful. because there really arent many people that will be there for you
Tell me you're sorry, I say its okay Tell me that I'm everything to you and that'll never change Tell me I'm the one but you let the light fade I know the person that you see isn't a perfect one My life's a book and I feel as if I'm always stuck in chapter one I know the things I say hurt you, I know I was wrong Tell me that you love me I'm the only one Promise me you'll stay, where did I go wrong I know we just met but it hurts like it's been so long, so long I need you in my life I guess that's to much to ask for Everyone leaves me I swear my life's an open door So tired of feeling this way, I just wanna end it so I can't feel no more...
A good friend is just like a wind... Sometimes it's feel good and it vanish in the thin air...Saying nothing... And don't worry if their is no one for you...Just remember your happiest memory and smile...Every just like normal...🙂
My dog died when I was just 5,i couldn't save him, I couldn't even understand what was going on,I wish I could go back in time and save him, the only thing I could do now is remember him, I'm sorry bro🐕
when i was 8 my cat got ran over right in front of me then the car that hit my cat proceeded to crash head on into another car, killing both the drivers
Whenever someone asks if I’m okay, I just feel like screaming “NO! I’M NOT OKAY! I FEEL LIKE A WASTE OF SPACE! I DON’T WANT TO LIVE ANYMORE!! I’M TOO BROKEN TO BE FIXED!!!! PLEASE HELP ME!!!!! PLEASE!!!!!!!!” And crying and sobbing until I can’t anymore. But what do I say instead? “I’m fine. You?”
Pain in my heart Where do I start Thoughts in my head Wish I was dead Dont know what I gotta say To keep this pain away Talking to the therapist He says I'll be ok Going through shit I wish didnt happen
I am not okay I ’ve never been Pretending that it’s alright then crying myself to sleep I am filled with misery Can’t face my insecurities No matter how hard I try Never works for me This is how it is This is how it has been for me Take me somewhere Far from my pain and misery Where I can rest in peace
" *its the moment i realized i was lost, its the moment i realized i was...not getting through this.., it was the moment i realized that all those time i was told i was okay or it was going to be okay,i....was lied to and maybe i just kept telling myself that,and maybe i knew all along, maybe i was to scared to face it, but its okay because ill face it and ill embrace it...ill embrace it* "
Poem i wrote: “Sometimes the person you would take a bullet for becomes the person holding the gun” That is something that hit me. It made me realise that i have things that i want to get off my chest. Lately i honestly haven’t been feeling anything. It’s not like im numb. I just don't feel anything, when it is day. When the night slowly starts to appear it’s like everything hits you, like a bullet. You go onto RU-vid, and listen to all of the sad music. Honestly i have been thinking lately, “why do i go to RU-vid and listen to sad songs? it only makes it worse.” Honestly i think i know the answer. They can explain it. They can explain how empty, sad, mad and upset i feel. They can make me realise that hey, i am not feeling well. I haven’t dared to open up about those kinds of things lately. Mostly because i don’t feel safe opening up. That is why i chose that sentence. I was scared that i will one day be able to relate to it. Now that i do relate to it, it breaks me as much as i thought it would. After my suicide attempt i haven’t trusted anyone, mostly because i don’t trust myself. I’m scared that someone will push me over the edge, so i will try to hurt myself again, but mostly i’m scared of myself. I am so fucking scared of myself, that i get scared of other people. I realised that you can not trust anyone, without trusting yourself first. I don’t want to hide the fact that i’m terrified of myself, from myself. I don’t want to hide all of my scars anymore. I don’t want to hide my biggest secret anymore. I’m not hiding those things from people, i’m hiding them from myself.
I’m not okay 0:06 Why did you have to leave me on this earth alone on my own It hurts me to know that you’re gone now But you are there’s no saving you now You’re my guardian angel Falling from the sky Don’t know what I’d do without you but I guess I have to now Just know that I’m trying to be happy Trying to go on with my day My heart breaks a little bit more than ever Singing part: I’m not OK I’m not OK no I’m not OK I’m trying to hold on to my life Comment more lyrics if you can
Every single day, you won’t leave. Get outta my head. I try! I wanted to make this something. But no. I wish I could say I love life that’s not possible.
It's so messed up that in this world a place we're supposed to be happy in and love it n enjoy it we're finding so many ppl who don't wanna be here ppl who r suffering so badly that it makes my heart break 💔 I love each n everyone of u..big hug
if you need help go talk to your Friends, family and people you trust, life can be great and will get even better after the pandemic ends so do not waste it and life have a lot of good experiences and memories that are gonna make you think it was all worth it, a lot of people who tried to end their lives remember that they changed their mind and are happy to be alive, if necessary search for help in the internet and if you can afford it call a therapist "ending your life is a permanent solution to a temporary problem" also do not be shy to call for help.
It's my grandmas funeral tomorrow and.. I don't think i can ever get through this.. She was the one who actually cared for me.. I miss you grandma... 💔
