Your English skill is definitely improved compared to that of this time. But now you looks younger than this time. You must have been tired at growing your kids.
Jesus is the way, the truth, and the life! Jesus loves you!!! Say this prayer if you want to go to Heaven one day: "Jesus: forgive my sins. Help me turn away from sin and turn to God. I make You my Lord and Savior. Fill me with Your Holy Spirit. I believe You went to the Cross, at Calvary, in Israel, almost 2,000 years ago, to pay for my sins and I receive that payment by faith. I believe You rose from the dead. I want a personal relationship with You. Reveal Yourself to me in: dreams, visions, encounters, messengers, miracles, signs, and wonders. Thank you! Amen!!!" If you said that prayer, you will not go to Hell so long as you keep your faith and continue to turn away from sins, which is necessary evidence of your faith. God bless you in the name of Jesus!