Everyone is talking about how they miss people, but I just miss the feeling of comfort and happiness that I never really felt before . Depression ruins you and your relationships , I’m dead inside.
Pls dont be sad and dont feel empty. You didnt come to the world for nothing . Everything has a reason . And there is a reason being exist of you. Dont stay at home alone and go find something valuable. We are with you . Stay strong
How many times I felt the sadness or the emptiness inside me? Really a lot. Girl, which denied me, hard period on the work or existential crisis - I had my own reasons in the different moments of life. But... always my sun was coming back, people can't feel badly long, this is our nature. Keep this thought in your mind: sun is coming, regardless what is your mood now. It help me to live
Pqffn- can’t help it when every single thing reminds you of him. Especially when both of you were in love with each other, so close to dating. Love like what we had was hard to find. Trust me, I’ve been in love a lot of times and it was never like this. Can’t help but feel like a huge part of you is missing everytime you look at things and get reminded of him.
Killer Red you were attached, i’ve been there more times then I would’ve liked to be but have faith in your ability to find someone else, theres no promises that it’ll replace his love or the affection you two had but its better then dwelling on it. Love isn’t something to be toyed with, and i’ve been hear broken far too many times and its gotten to a stage where seeing other people hurting, hurts me. Just keep an open mind and welcome opportunity in a new relationship :)
That's exactly how I feel right now you know? And you can't actually feel better... You just want to hear those word coming from that person you love, even though is not going to happen...
I'm here again, after a whole year but this time, I'm not sad. It's still 2 am and raining outside but I'm not crying, I'm happier then I have even been. My studies are going great. And I'm with this lovely person who doesn't make me cry and cries with me when I'm sad. I would have never imagined a day like this would come for me when I first listened to this a year ago. It's fine if things are not going fine,it's fine if you're sad or crying or going through hell. It will change, you'll be happy one day. You'll be alright, just don't lose hope.💞💞💞
There's not a guarantee that it will be or that things will develop like they should hope dwindle often,miss my dog,feels like parts of my brain n inner core are getting damaged where there's no repair the parts I felt were more sacred parts of myself,its concerning...nvrmd
jdeezy Right! I did everything I could to make her happy/smile I made sure she wouldn’t face her problems alone. We would talk everyday in school and after school I would try my hardest to make her laugh at least once a day Once she got a boyfriend she would barley reply or talk to me When I needed her the most when I was facing some rough times she wasn’t there for me even though I was there for her. I would reach out to her countless of times but instead she would leave me on seen and walk past me like I didn’t even exist. Had to face all my troubles alone. I eventually got over her but I still think about her sometimes.
Fuck that was a tight SLAP (I had so many friends and all like close ones, slowly as I chose study over anything I got distant, I've been losing friends everywhere They still accept me if I approach but I feel kinda guilty so I don't) now back to watching sad anime and engineering
GetOff MyWood10 she probably misses you too even if it doesn’t seem like it she has to be it’s hard for everyone. Some people are better at hiding it than others.
My crush at least texts me once a day without me saying anything but then I see her be the happiest and I start to get sad and hurt when I think that she is with her friends I feel like a normal person but then she feels like the world to me. Im gonna tell her I like her at the end of this month
Please never delete this video, it has so much meaning to me, so many memories and so so many moments that are now long gone.... Also, thanks to the person who's responsible for this.
I remember when this song was on lofi and I used the iPad of my brother and he saved the lofi playlist and I just read all the depressing comment on RU-vid
It’s a strange phenomenon that so many people can come together in this lonely corner of the internet completely unknown to the general public, and yet feel so comforted by each others presence.
I had a boyfriend back in high school. We were only 15. Reckless. Happy. In love. First love truly is as magical as it is. I remember him serenading me with his old dusty guitar at an old abandoned park. We would always meet there and would watch the sunset together. I remember him, so heavenly and soft. He would speak and it feels like liquid sunshine would run out from his lips. His gaze were affectionate and loving. But he was ripped away from me in a terrible accident. I hated God for what happened. It was unfair. He was young and full of life. But maybe it has a reason. Now I'm 23 and still in love. Guess that'll never change. I miss you, Lee.
When you go to bed, lights out, phone off, just you with your thoughts. During the day you do something, you are busy, but at night, in bed, bad thoughts just keep coming
i don't even miss nobody, i just am so afraid of myself. i'm afraid i won't be anything in life. i'm afraid that i won't live up to what i know i could be edit- I love all of you. thank you.
This is mostly what I get emotional about. I always said I’d rather die than not being successful . But then when I have no direction in life I get frustrated cause idk what to do next. If something makes you uncomfortable it’s prob good for you. So just do it. Plan it out today and do it tomorrow. It’ll all work out bro 🙏🏼💯
Man, she was the main focus of my life, everyday I was motivated just to see her smile. But she lied, pretended to be someone else, and I was in love with a mask. Then I discovered all those promises where empty: She acted different when I wasn't around, kissed other guys, told every handsome stranger she was single. I been feeling like a piece of shit for the last 6 months, and everytime I see her, she's so different, as if she was another person. I just want to cry... It's like she died, or never existed in the first place.
She doesn't deserve you, just let it go. Take a deep breath, light a cigarette if you smoke, and let it go. She wasn't even yours to begin with. Accept it, put your shit together and let it go...
Jose Ch29 Maybe it’s not the best way to put it, but use this as motivation. You’re not worthless, she is. She wasted her chance with you, a considerate, a loving, beautiful, human being. She is nothing but trash. You’re much more, and deep inside of yourself you know that. Fuck her, fuck what she meant, fuck what she said, fuck what she did, she is nothing. Prove to yourself that you’re better, show her what she missed and what she will be missing forever. You will find the person that stays true to you.
Bro, it's hard. There are women out there who can really hurt you, but there are also women out there who can really love you. If she didn't really love you, then she wasn't the one. That is very hard to hear, I know, all those experiences you had, all the good times now have bad connotations, but time heals all wounds. There's a special someone out there that's waiting for you, and when they find you and you find them, and you will, because you always will, then it'll be worth it. Hang in there, Jose
“The loneliest moment in someone’s life is when they are watching their whole world fall apart, and all they can do is stare blankly.” It was us against the world. Now it’s just me staring into space wondering where it all went wrong.
smokey tokes anxiety would control my life and how I acted. I wasn’t me and I started to scratch myself till I bled to make the pain go away. I fought so hard with my parents and I was sent to therapy. It was a long hard journey but I was finally stopping self harm. I was clean for about maybe 5 months and I did it again. My life has been going down hill the past few years. I didn’t have a will to live and I just wanted the pain to go away. After months of therapy and I was on medication I started to feel myself. I found motivation to stay clean in my friends. If I left this world behind I just left more pain to them. Now I don’t know how my story ends but it’s not over yet and I still have a long ways to go. Addiction is hard and the want to get high and numb the pain is strong. But your stronger than that. I don’t know how to give someone good advice I just tell them my story that is still going. There are ups and downs and people who might make us happy and people who might make us want to turn to our old habits. Every time I’m in pain I struggle to think clearly but I get through it because the want to do (bad habit) is there but it is not a need. Now I don’t want to tell you how to live your life or what to do it just here trying to relate to people to tell them they are not alone. Life will get better trust me. Stay strong I believe in you ❤️. Stay clean with me and everyone else.
I've been reading the comments and I've seen lots of sad things. For the person who is reading this, I hope you have a lot of luck in your life and that everything goes well. And if things are going wrong, be calm, bad vibes will eventually leave, you always have to try to raise your head and continue with life. Sometimes love is bullshit, be strong.
@@Saxoul Shit , that happens to me almost everyday , what will someone with when i die , will they care , will they not ? then i think the same about them , life is shit , it'll always be like that , because god wrote that , whoever will be able to be strong in this world and will have a good soul will be blessed
I met someone in 2020 who used to listen to this playlist all the time and he turned out to be a terrible person and I spiraled to rock bottom after that. I used to resent listening to this playlist because of him. I used to hate the way I let someone take away my feelings for music and ruin it for me. I'm in such a different place in my life now and I found this playlist again. It felt calming to listen to. I don't have resentment anymore and I'm so proud of the work I've put into myself and where I've come. I met someone so amazing this year and he treats me so good and I get to love him too. If you're struggling, just take life hour by hour and then day by day- you'll be okay 🤍
It's not like I hate being adult, I mean when I was younger there's no difference with responsibilities. What have changed is how we look at life. And also the reason why get sadder we get to know what reality is. You'll get through with it too :) I didn't meant to say something you know Even I get tired of some stuffs
do you ever wanna call someone out of the blue just to talk and catch up but you’re too afraid you’ll bother them? that’s how i feel rn. sucks missing someone who doesn’t miss you. edit: thanks for the likes and replies guys. i saw him a few days ago but had no time to really talk. sent a text after but no reply. not sure what to do but i think it might be time to move on. wishing everyone the best!!
2019 has been the worst year ever. I've lost so many people. I don’t even know what I‘m doing with my life I just feel so empty. 2020 Update: what the fuck 2021 Update: yo I’m so confused. Time flies so fast. Oh and I still don’t know what I‘m doing with my life but I‘m feeling kinda better✨🙄 2022 Update: I gotta say, life is still pretty complicated but I’m growing. I do have hope though. I will find my happiness and I‘m sure all of you will too. 2023 Update: Let's see how it will be this year. I definitely have more stamina than the years before. I have big goals, even if I have to fight hard to achieve them. I've learned to get by on my own, to stay away from people who aren't good for me. I realize that many people are trying to throw hurdles at me to block my way. It's gonna be tough, but we only live once. I will keep fighting, just like all of you!
Yeah man, 2 funerals for me. Gf also got T boned bad in her car but pulled through. Then my sister's husband cheated on her after her maternity leave ended where she almost died from child birth. Then my gf left me. Keep that chin up because things run its course. Life. Death. Relationships. I'm starting my new job and building from the ashes and it feels good man
Guys one thing: Don’t try to find happiness through somebody else. Love yourself first, work hard on your life and pursue what you love. That’s when you will be attractive to people because you are not needy of their opinion and approval anymore. For that to work out you first need to work on you technique. If you want to build a car, you first need some instructions. Same goes for a good life. I can’t give them to you, but here is how you can find them: Read books. Full stop. This is the key to success. It’s a hard path but that’s the only way. We aren’t meant to just sit around all day and play video games or watch youtube videos. Genetically seen we should be outside working out or walking, or with people, not eating too much and eating healthy (like what can be found in nature easily, like vegetables, fruits, etc.). Don’t eat too much fat or sugar either. They are like poison. You body was not meant to consume them on a regular basis. Look it up. It breaks you mood and spirit. You could consider starting with Jordan Petersons „12 rules for life“ or „models“ by Mark Manson. My life motto is this: Life is pain. Either you endure it now and get up and do something about your life. Or you can relax now and endure the pain later on with feelings of guilt, shame, anger and loneliness.
I Am a Dad,of 3 Daughters that I love more than Anything Ive ever loved in this Life,their Mom has a problem with dope and booze and so shes not around now and its just been me and the girls for years now...had to borrow my daughters phone to watch some vids my phone is Toast....anyways ran across this video,then this comment and it reached a place inside I go to sometimes and maybe itll help someone...I think about it sometimes..that I will at some point have to leave this life,as it Should be because NO parent should ever have to bury their child,its the Natural Way of Life that the old leave and the young live on..Im 47 and Honestly I Am NOT afraid of Death,Everyone must take this path..What I am Afraid of,what hurts me to my core is leaving my children behind..who will take care of them when they hurt inside,Who'll comfort them when the hands out the hurt it does:(Who'll Protect them from the evil that people do:(You must understand that the hurt you feel is no less than a Parent does when they know thwy have to move on..and the Greatest hurt I feel is the thought of my girls living on in Pain because Im gone..My God no Parent wants that its Heartbreaking...I Want my girls to LIVE this life,to feel Joy,Love,Happiness and all the Best things in Life,but their is no sweet without the sour and I Know they will feel hurt as well....but Please God dont let it be over Me..I want them to remember Me ofcourse but I want it to be with a smile not tears...I don't know you but I know one thing is for Sure...that your Father obviously Loved you because you loved him too:)And the LAST thing in this life that he wanted was for you to be in Pain:(I Understand that greiving is a natural part of loss but Im without doubt that your Dad Prayed for your Happiness:)I hope you'll consider these things and it brings you some comfort,and I Will Not belive death is the last time Ill see my girls because even the next life wont be enough to keep me from them...Best of Luck to you and I hope you are feeling better:)
When I was in primary school, I knew this boy who just really wanted to be friends with me. Thing is, he was ginger and he wore really thick glasses, so the whole school just kind of... Hated him. When I was younger, I just kind of followed everyone else, so I started to hate him for no reason. When we got to high school, he developed feelings for me. I turned him down since at that time, I didn't really know him that well. But I agreed to be friends with him, and that was the best decision I've ever made. He was really funny, he always knew how to make me smile, even in times when I felt really down... Soon enough, it was my turn to fall for him. He was always kind to everyone, but I felt like he was even kinder towards me. I mean, he probably wasn't, but I liked to think that he was. He was my best friend, and at the time, my only friend. But then... on the evening of November 22nd, 2017, he disappeared. Nobody knew where he went, not his parents, not his friends, I mean he hadn't even shown up at school that day. I wasn't able to sleep that night. On November 23rd, 2017, I was told that he had died. Suicide. I hate myself for not seeing that he wasn't ok. I hate myself for not realizing that he needed help. I hate myself for not being his friend earlier. I hate myself for turning him down. I hate myself for not telling him how I feel... Since then, time has been... weird. Hours either feel like days or seconds, I didn't see my graduation pass, I didn't see my prom happen, I didn't see my first day of college... I've felt empty since then. I still blame myself. I still miss him at 1am, at 2am, at 3am, at 4am, at 5am... And I know that I can't go back. I know that I'll never get him back. But it still hurts. And I'm just not sure for how long I can take all this pain...
Gabrielle Caron hey I know it’s hard but you gotta keep on moving forward and just know that he’s up there watching over you and he still wants you to be happy. Remember there’s no such thing as a goodbye only a see you later. Right now you gotta make the most outta your life, you gotta give your life meaning. And when your successful, honor it all in his name. You got this and you’re not in this alone.
You should know that it’s not your fault❤️ Pain is not always worn on people’s sleeves. You were a great friend and that’s all that matters! You will meet him in another lifetime where you will both rejoice of the grand friendship you shared! Stay strong! ❤️
Don’t ever blame yourself. You did the best you could to be in his life & I bet he was happier that you were a part of his. Best thing is to move on & let his energy feed on to you & spread the same positivity this man has given you & the world. He’s angel now & his spirit will remain with you as long as you live. Live on, love life, & most importantly love yourself 💙 because at the end of the day you’re an amazing human being!!
Gabrielle Caron you aren’t responsible for any of this. That boy saw you as one of his dearest friends, and even if you think that he hates you, you’re completely wrong. He loves you and he thinks of you as an angel. You were that boy’s everything, and that’s something that he’s grateful for. Even though he passed away, I can tell you that he doesn’t want you to feel the way that he did. He wants the best for you, Gabrielle. I know I’m some random stranger on RU-vid and this’ll probably be the only time we cross paths ever again. But let me just tell you this and I hope it’ll stick with you. It’s not your fault, he wants the best for you, and he loves you. Take care. P.S. how funny is it that my real name is Gabriel lol
This is really strange, I had this on my “watch later” and I was studying math and decided to give it a shot. I just started writing my feelings and my god. I came for the vibe and left with tears reading certain comments and a feeling of emptiness. If anyone is reading this, I hope you have an incredible year and life, be proud of yourself and enjoy every moment (good or bad)! You are loved. We are all lucky to be alive. ✨🙌🏻
John Virgil Bocalere or a really faint smell of something. I hate it man this girl that I really liked we stopped talking 4 years ago but she still on my mind
I don't miss anyone but myself, i want my old self back. I'm tired of these shits that's going through my head everyday specially at night. How i wish i can sleep for some years to end this pain for a while.
Kookie Dough Hey, I know what you mean I’ve been through that same phase before. You can’t compare yourself to yourself. I know it’s hard but trust me, try as hard as you can to move on, focus and grow the person you are now. Much love
What pain? These teenage kids are so emotionally weak acting like their family got murdered infront of them when their stupid short term little date dumped em, grow the fuck up..
Sometimes life is like this dark tunnel. You can't always see the light at the end of the tunnel, but if you just keep moving... you will come to a better place. Uncle Iroh
Tbh back then I knew I was living the good old days, I just didn't know they would end in such a impactful and quick way. Now I feel like it's too late to think about that, that time is gone and buried in the past and I can't do anything to make it come back to life. It's always gonna part of me though, it's a time that was essential for me to grow and become the person I am today. That's life, I guess. From time to time, it still makes me sad not being able to relive one of those days just for one last time, but I always reach the conclusion that it's preferable for me to accept that that phase already ended, rather than to find myself stuck in a time that no longer exists, amongst people that are no longer a part of my life.
i ruined an incredible person with my insecurities and never feeling like i was enough for her. i regret leaving her so many times i regret not cherishing her. i regret wasting her time and love. she was everything to me and i threw it all away because of insecurities. i had the perfect person in life that made me feel complete but i didn’t have my life together. i didn’t have enough for the both of us. i hate myself for being so sickly and diseased. i could never love myself the way she loved me. i miss her always. she’ll forever be the ray of sunshine in my dark twisted idea of a life. i love you.
Everyone is saying the miss someone.. I just miss myself... I mean who am I? I have no one special in my life.. I have lots of “friends” but not a single one I can talk to about my feelings :( literally dead inside
tua- vykngz one day you and I will meet and I promise i’ll listen to every detail of your problems, you are not alone and shouldn’t feel alone because loneliness takes lives.
you've been frequently visiting me in my dreams...it makes me sad when I wake up and I realize it wasn't real. I'll never watch your mouth turn upwards into that crooked smile again, hear the kindness in your voice when you say my name, hear your jaw pop every time you chew, or grasp my pinky tightly with yours. it's cold snap season, our favorite beer that so many memories can be attributes to. it's been nine months since I heard from you. this was not a clean break so I'm picking up the pieces that were mine to begin with, trying to find out who I am without you. it's 2:50 a.m. and I still miss you. -bell
I miss having so many friends around me. I used to be loud and cheerful and a ball of sunshine but now i feel empty. I'm tired being the clown. Now im just living in the internet and having a virtual happiness. Ahhhhh life sucks.
This comment right here hit me so hard. My life has just been a downhill spiral ever since I graduated from high school. I was going to college and just became unmotivated and dropped out. Now I work two jobs and I’m trying to get into the fire academy. My life just feels so worthless and I’ve lost all my friends. My gf and I broke up recently too and she was like a bestfriend to me but my sad ass ruined things and now she’s gone. I played football and wrestled in high school and I was so happy. Now my life just feels like a waste...I miss myself.
I don't regret, I have no regret. But damn, I'm 18, just finished high school, gonna moove to the other side of the country to study in a prestigious school. Gonna leave all my friends, my family, my crush too. It feels like time is flowing through my hands and nothing can stop it. God, I'd never think growing was such a sacrifice.
Think about others, Cristiano Ronaldo left his mother and father at home when he was 13, he cried everyday, he didn’t get to see them, now he passed the hard times for greatness
We are just depressed people telling each other that it’s all gonna be ok (Edit - Thanks to you guys and your words, I’m feeling a lot better and have made things in my life better and have realized that there’s always hope 🙂 thank you)
pov: you’re constantly checking whether they texted you back, but they didn’t, and it hurts like hell. So for a little of a backstory (you can read this if you’re bored): I became friends with this boy and I started to really crush on him because he treated me really good and I never really got to experience that from a boy. So I confessed my feelings for him, but he didn’t like me back. That ruined our friendship for a while and my feelings started to fade a lot. I started to accept the fact that we would never be more than friends and so I started to treat him like a "bro" of mine too. I guess that he felt more comfortable around me around that time, because we started talking more. So it all started when I invited him to a party. We were drinking and we kept on telling each other how much we loved each other. Of course that wouldn’t have been enough for my feelings to get back, I was hurt too much. But after this party a lot went down in my private life and he seemed to be the only one that cared. So we started talking a lot on Snapchat. It sort of became our thing that we would share how our days were going everyday and whenever we would see each other we would cuddle and tell each other sweet things. It was at this point that my feelings were starting to get back again. But after a while it just stopped. He started leaving me on delivered for a long time and he would kind of ignore me in real life. Whenever we would talk he would sound annoyed by me and he never told me why. I was hoping that he was just busy or stressed and that eventually he would come back, but we stopped talking. Now he’s in love with another girl. Big L.
She broke up w me like 4 months ago I’ve moved on, on a different career path than most, happier now But sometimes, some nights, I still think about her I hate it.
This made me cry. Me and my ex broke up and i still think everyday that we might get back together, he might come back to me. But what if we never see each other ever again? This thought is so bitter I can't help but cry
@CryinSquirrel same for me, we broke up 2 weeks ago. Try to think it : The Best thing about this, is that we can think about her/him and be happy only by seeing his smile. Be happy about what u do with her/him, be habby about time u spend with, no the time u spend without. I love you, take care of u and don't fall in depression and melancholy like I try not to
@@timbarthel5739 thanks . Yeah all that's left now are good memories , but they make me feel melancholic and it makes me feel so upset that none of that continued. Memories hurt me so much, it's not worth it to keep a good thought about certain people...
@Bruxy thanks bro, i’m doing fine. make sure you do everything for in your power to keep her because that girl rare, many people don’t stay in relationships with their first “everything”
You know, I fell in love with a girl, and I loved her for about 8 months. I didn't tell her about that. So, once we went for a walk and she asked me to text her crush from her phone, 'cause she was like scared to text him and she deleted all messages she wrote. I texted him from her phone about her feelings to her crush, and he said that it would be better if they continue their friendship. You know, I was a bit happy about that. I almost forgot about that situation, and in general we haven't been even chatting after that for half a year or even more. But I was in love with other girls, so I didn't actually care about her life. We started chatting again when coronavirus pandemic came to my country, and at that time I started dating another girl, and I stucked in abusive relationships. I managed to get out of it, but after I felt empty. So my ex crush helped me to restore my self-confidence, we met many times, chatted a lot, and i fell in love with her again. I thought that we could actually date, and i will do everything for her to make her become my girlfriend. Do you know what turned out later? That she's dating her crush, like that guy I texted to. I have started their relationship and ruined mine. Perfect. I still love her, and she still loves this guy. I'm sorry for mistakes in English, I'm just learning it. And thank you so much if you've read my story 💖
keep ur head up man and leave her get her out of ur head I know iths hard bat that is what u have to do chase ur dreams and work on urself bro u got it!!
trust me i had some relative shit like that its besser to drop her trust me i dropped her also and now after 1 1/2 months i realise what idiot i was for loving her so long and she never be thankful for that sorry for my bad english, i'm german
If you truly love her, don’t let her go man. It’s a mistake i have made, so you better not. Even, even if she doesn’t love you back don’t hold your head down. Leave her knowing that you gave it your all and that you will find the one for you. Good luck dude
I grew up with a schizophrenic paranoia father on hard drugs and a mother that loves me but worked from 7am to 9pm. So, I would go to school and then come home and be alone for hours on end and even when my mother got home we wouldn't talk much and then bed time. I'm now 25 and still have problems wanting to be left alone most of the time. I find myself just sitting in a dark room alone yet finding comfort in it.
trust me, the time when your worst memory turns into a beautiful one will come, I promise you. You will not regret anything you did with that person, you'd be grateful because it taught you many lessons
It’s 2am, and 4 years later I STILL miss you. Thank you for this, I use to listen in HS a lot when this was first uploaded. 4 years later I still find myself here time to time thinking of the old memories from back then. Those were the days😕
Think about all the people scrolling through the comment section, not commentating but are just reading our comments. I wonder what they are thinking about.
Saturday night, 2am in the morning, the coffee has gone cold and the sandwich looks damp and unappetising. The house lights are switched off, the table lamp flickers, the computer screen is dimmed, lines and lines of text sprawled onto it. A yawn, a sigh, a distracted, anxious mind whirling on and on. The neon lights outside the window have a gravitational pull. Fumbling hands and fingers, an awkward walk. The keys allow a metallic click and the door rattles open and shut. Slouched shoulders, stiff jaw. The air is cold tonight. The windbreaker is pulled tighter and closer. The pace hastens. A hundred metre long walk, two buildings away. An abandoned alley. Narrow, tackily-painted open staircase. Thirty minutes of lofi till the top, thirty minutes of thinking, of missing, of numb and emptiness. The rooftop is spacious, ground wet from the rain, smelling like moss, childhood and forgotten memories. Lighter in hand, cigarette in another. A spark of light. Smoke. Stiff legs cross over the ledge. The city offers a striking view, but it’s hazy and underwhelming behind the dull smoke that numbs the pain and the senses. “Missing you” The letters jump from a building to another. A sigh. Footsteps. A tossed out cigarette. The rooftop is empty when the city turns bright and bustling. -Been having half a year’s worth of writers’ block, this is nice for a change, if anyone comes across this thanks for reading
Damn its been 10 months huh? a lot has happened since then. i went through a bad depressive episode and was diagnosed with depression and ocd, i was put on meds, went for and am still going for psychotherapy, i also got through the toughest academic year so far and this year i will be taking very different subjects, in fact im going for a linguistics selection test in two days time. Things are getting better, sort of. I haven't written anything since I posted this, but I promise myself that I will write something, anything, soon, and I will post it here for me to see and to remember. Also i guess the theme of missing someone finally make sense for me, i started crushing on someone and is still crushing on them. Would totally take them out, 2am at night, two coffees in hand to the rooftop for stargazing or something.
Does any body feel like me? I mean I have everything but I have nothing... I got good friends, really good friends but I have no one who I am really emotionally connected with. I feel literally like an empty Void.
i was just reading the comments and i saw this one... you literally wrote the things in my mind. stuff that strangles me. there are lots of people for me but i feel alone in the crowded. so you're not alone buddy.
Idk if this will help the people who are feeling like this... but it gets a little bit better . Sure my life is still fucked up tbh but it’s better than it was a few months ago when I felt like that. But then one day I just said “fuck it” and tried opening up to my friends who I felt like I didn’t have much of an emotional connection with and slowly but surely I guess we kind of got a little more emotionally connected than we we’re before. There were a few rough patches and times when I felt like really confused and asked myself what was the point of me opening up. I guess I never believed the crap that if you open up you’ll feel better and at first you don’t but eventually you do I guess... and it took me my whole lofe to realize that and I hope you realize this sooner so that you yourself can find peace/happiness sooner. I’m am definitely not close to being happy but for sure I am closer than I was before. For the first time in a long time I actually have a little hope. It’s not that much hope but atleast I have it . I hope you guys find happiness one day whoever you are! :)
its been 9 months, since the breakup 12 months since I felt you drifting away 15 months since you told me it was going to be okay and there was nothing to worry about 18 months since my grandfather passed on and you said I love you 21 since i asked you out. 2 years since I was happy Now I lay at night, not most thinking, crying of those memories we had But I smile most, because I’m now more me than ever before.
the comment section makes me feel at home. I believe i’ve found my people. Edit: Not long after I made this comment I got back with the ex who i thought was the love of my life. I was wrong. Things were terrible. I still struggle with moving on. we broke up christmas day 2022. He left me again, and has no feelings left for me. I’ve come to think of it as a good thing. If someone could pack up one day and stop caring about you, then they were never worth it. Do not spend your time lingering on someone who wouldn’t put in that same time in for you. you are worth, and you are deserving, of so much more than that.
I know 3 months ago I was here listening to this or reading the comments but then my love of my life gave me a 3rd chance she’s broken up with me before twice and we were together for 3 months then she broke up with me today now I’m back here thinking about her
Dawson Morrison i was here 6 months before a left the comment above thinking about how i lost mine too, eventually i accepted it and now i’m just waiting for someone better. it’ll come to us no doubt :)
Kyle Majerczyk we all are humans and feel emotions expressing ur sadness and finding comfort in it isn’t all that bad you can be positive and be sad but being negative and sad now that’s bad
it's so sad knowing we could've experienced so much together, overcome our problems, and so much more. But because I was too selfish and left you. And here I am now hoping for us to be together.
this is the most accurate thing ever. for the first half of my year i was living ny best life, always having fun with my friends and acing school. then the second half came. i stopped caring about school and lost all my friends. not sure what to do. i have several therapists and they arent helping :(
I was 17 at that time and he was 25. I had gone to visit my hometown during the summer break. When i first saw him i instantly got this giddy weird feeling but did not understand what it was all about. He decided to drop us all home that night. It was a cool night even though it was in the middle of June. When i was getting dropped off i caught him looking at me from the center mirror of the car. That night i was thinking of him untill i fell asleep. All this feeling was so new to me but it felt really good. The next day i asked a friend if he was seeing anyone and she understood i had a thing for him. The weird thing is even though she felt that i liked him, because i did not understand why all of a sudden i was asking about him either. I guess that was what the first real crush felt like. The next day he called me because she gave him my number. I remember walking out of the house and even though there were so many mosquitoes biting me i was standing there talking to him. The rest of the summer was a blur and beautiful. He would call me up in the middle of the night if it rained because i told him i loved rain. We would go for drives around town eating good food in cafes. Summer afternoons in a lake. Ice cream in a mall. The whole shenanigans. I once told him i liked Bryan Adams songs and he came down my house and sang out loud! it was just crazy! I was slowly getting swoon by him. But he had problems. He had a lot of problems. He had drinking issues and not a long time ago back then he was into drugs. He had friends who were only in it for the money and had bad influence. I soon had to leave and go back to my residing city and he called me up and said wants to see me for the last time. He hugged me and told me I was too young for anything else lol. His hug. The scent from his cologne. I still remember. Back in the city he calls me up. My dad did not like him at all so he shouted him over the phone to never call me up (for obvious reasons). After months i call him to ask how he is doing but he tells me i should not stay in touch. And that was the end of it. Fast forward to when i am 30. Over the years I would occasionally think of him, especially when it rained. But life got in the way. Work, marriage and then children. I just learned that he has passed away. He over dosed on drugs and he died in rehab. His parents too passed away before him so he probably died alone too. Now i think of it, if i would have been able to save him if i had ever gone out with him. Or at least have an impact to save his life? Now I am getting a divorce and think if he was alive would i be in touch with him? I still remember him always standing next to his car when he would wait for me. My mind would always wonder if i did go out with him what would have been.
for anyone worried about finding the right one, or even someone, just know that they will eventually come along. I'm listening to this just because it has some sweet lo-fi beats, but I've really found the perfect one. she's amazing and truly cares about me and it's an overwhelming feeling of just pure happiness. it takes time and it always comes when you least expect it. stay positive, you'll find what you're looking for I promise. you got this I believe in you. maybe no one has said that to you before, but just know if you are reading this, I truly believe in you and I love you
Q Ff you can’t have such a constant pessimistic view on life, yes sometimes it feels like there’s an end to everything but maybe this guys really found the one, you never know until the end, whether that’s with her by your side or you all alone
tbh i don't believe in loving a stranger anymore, loving someone, everyone just breaks up, divorce, whats the point? I believe in romance in drama, but i don't believe in those things in this reality. Cuz in reality u spend most of the time being alone. In a movie things are just made to be like that but life is not. I made a promise that i will not fall for someone real cuz i first of all idw to waste my time and second, im used being just someone that exists randomly
i know what you’re feeling brother.. i got the same situation. I swear you’ll eventually find someone that’ll give you all of the love and affection you need. Love you, take care.
It’s funny how time flies, I was 14 in love with the girl who lived around the block. She kept me off the streets when I was so young and easily swayed I thank her for that, I remember when we first met in 7th grade and the years later, we never went out but we were the best of friends she knew my feelings for her and I knew her feelings for me but we never acted on it, we were on and off all through 8th grade and high school. It’s crazy we met each others entire family, spent Christmas and New Years together, I remember the first time we ever kissed it was a rush and a high, so comforting. We haven’t talked since the beginning of our senior year (we graduated in 2018). Maybe it’s just me but I long for her comfort, her presence kept me sane, whatever we had was something I couldn’t put into words, I miss her like crazy we’re both set to turn 20 before the New Year and every Holiday or birthday is a heavy reminder of what we had and how we spent that time together. I don’t usually vent like this but the music kinda just had me in tune and I went for it, but I pray everyone going through something makes it to the end of the tunnel. Much Love !
Hey brother reach out to her and try your best, conquer her. Cherish her and love her. Don’t ever lose her. I’ve lost my soulmate and it’s put me in a black void I might never make it out of.
am i only one who feels empty right now.not because i am heartbroken. because i have no one by my side and i really need someone who will love me as i am🥺
same here i'm absolutely alone probably why i'm listening to this right now... fak this shit atleast im not the only one suffering ... hope u all get better
You are not alone.. i feel totally empty and vulnerable right now. We all need someone to love us because we have a whole lot if love to give back. Your love will walk into your life and never look back and all pain will be gone instantly. I wish the best for you and i hope that person is closer than you think. Much love...
Crazy, its 4 years ago, and when I'm listening to this Music, and close my eyes, I see her smile, smell her perfume... and she was right... I'm a loser, living in the past.
You can’t make someone else happy till you make yourself happy keep your head up there’s many people out there to create a new future with you’ll find your flame I promise ❤️
@@billy2485 I'm nvr doing better,my life is how is been n I'm miserable,dying inside doesn't make me appreciate life or seeing the world from here,doesn't help,miss my dog,if I had an abrupt n quick death I wouldn't be living like this,shrug mmhmm,nothing/nobody in my so called life/world makes me happy it isnt even tolerable,just is I suppose n I dont even want it to be like this..yet it hasnt changed for the better n I've obviously not moved from herenmydogisntwme
Once you’ve been broke and at ur lowest you can finally appreciate the little things once you’ve been broken you slow down to 10 where the rest of the world speeds up to 100 to find something they will be going to fast to even see
experiences are on a range the more you've had good and bad feelings in part of life, the more you see life those who explored what it is to be alive have the most battle scars and know what drives the human being more than others
"It's funny how these 8 letters from your mouth can change my entire life. But these same letters from my mouth won't make a difference to you." ~Yours truly
Will Fallon I still find it weird that we are still texting to this day. Like hell I even told her we could always text other day but she is like yes !!! I’ll text you tomorrow , or I’m sorry I’m really busy then she talk about her day... idk I’m surprise she hasn’t left me on open. Any thoughts?
I think 2019 really taught me some life lessons. You can love someone deeply only to realize it's one sided. You can have the best of friends only to notice you're still alone. You can give people the world only to be told it's still not enough. 2019 was a blessing now that I deeply think about everything that's taken place this year. 2020 I'm going in with no friends, no love and my own world. 2020 will be the year I dedicate true love to myself, heal my soul and rebuild my world around me. I will not associate myself with people who use and abuse my love, I will not surround myself with "friends" who make me feel alone , and I will not give anyone the world because I will be giving it to myself. Anyone reading this should do the same, because we deserve the purest form of happiness, love, and belonging. xoxo God Bless, May 2020 be YOUR year and every year after. YOU matter. YOU.
