Will he describes this moment in my life so well. I was with this girl for 9 months, we were so close. I have never fell for someone like i fell for her. I didn't believe in soul mates, but holy shit now I do. She moved and we both knew the distance wasn't working so we took a break. Less then a couple days later she got with the guy that lived right by me. And was making out in the movies. Suddenly the distance didn't matter and she was over there every weekend.That shit hurt so much, they dated for a few months. Then she had to go to the hospital and was in a really rough spot and he broke up with her on her way to the hospital, saying "I can't sit here and watch you hurt yourself" Less then a couple months later she committed suicide. She thought she needed him. She sent him paragraph after paragraph when she died, she thought she could not live without him. Let this be a lesson to you. There are so many other people that care about you and love you even if you think they don't or that there isn't anyone there. I love you, and so many other people, even if you don't know them. Do not waste your life on something stupid. "Pain is temporary, the decision you are about to make will hurt your family and friends forever." Never give up.
Lyrics : I got knots all up in my chest (up in my chest, up in my chest) Just know, I'm trying my best (I'm trying my best) 'Cause, when you look (when you look) When you laugh (when you laugh) When you smile (when you smile) I'll bring you back (bring you back) And now I'm sad (now I'm sad) And I'm a mess (and I'm a mess) And now we high (now we high) That's, why I left (why I left) That's, why I left Will your tongue still remember the taste of my lips? (my lips, my lips, my lips) Will your shadow remember the swing of my hips? (my hips, my hips, my hips) Will your lover caress you the way, that I did? (I did, I did, I did) Will you notice my charm, if he slips up one bit? (one bit) 'Cause I don't need to know I just wanna make sure you're okay (okay) I don't need to know I just wanna make sure you're all safe All safe, all safe Will he play you those songs, just the way, that I did? (I did, I did, I did) Will he play you so strong, just the way, that I did? (I did) Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah Will he treat you like shit, just the way, that I did? (I did, I did, I did) 'Cause I don't blame ya 'Cause I don't need to know I just want to make sure you're okay (okay) I don't need to know I just want to make sure you're all safe
Okay so imma come back every month to see how far I've gone September: I'm feeling pretty down October:my dog had to be put down so life's pretty shitty atm November:hey sorry for not updating, its just school is stressing me out and my parents are giving me a hard time because of my grades December :Life is going surprisingly good despite covid, spending time with my family is fine i guess Goodbye
My dog of 14 year passed away this weekend. he passed peacefully in his sleep. i miss you so much Max and I hope to see you in heaven when i’m up there thanks for the love guys
i remember being really depressed over a girl and going out for walks hoping something magical to happen, but shit got so fucked that on night on my way back to home i was listening to this song and starting to cry as the snow of december was falling and i turned the corner an literally seeing her with another dude and at this point i was baiscally limping cuz it was so hard to carry on. It was hard and it still is. I love to listen to joji for his beatiful fkn music yet i can not deny its dangerous to listen to it. life is full of pain misery if you choose it to be and people can get addicted to being sad. I am at nowhere, confused, scared, sad and i dont know what to do. i was going to write that "whom-ever is reading ur not alone" but i can not. its the truth but its that kind of truth you wont do anything with. i can ramble endlessly and get nowhere so i will finish with this. Dear Joji, your music too beautiful for this world and i does not deserve you. Note: anyone notice that while jojis music is so beautiful, yet it actually does not describe the beauty in this world or the beauty inside people but the ugly ironic truth.
Dame thing happen to me but she liked annother guy but i was waiting for to like me back like a puppy waiting at the door for their owner to come back then i see her talking and laughing with my freind and they would cuddle and hug each other
i’m so proud of how far you’ve gotten, please continue to push through this. i promise u it is not the end. it gets so much better, i guarantee that. i love u, u can do it💜💜
Keep pushing mate, we all been there at some point the things will eventually get better, someone will really value and love the way you are, if they don't... Do it for yourself, i know the loneliness feeling may not be the best but sometimes is better than someone hurting you or making you feel lonely, stay strong
There are certain songs that my mind will always associate with periods of my life, and this song is associated with when I attempted to end my life... yet it always brings me so much peace... the spin on it gives it even more power. Love what you did with this song.
Eu tô calmo, tranquilo. Dormi bem, oito horas de sono sem pesadelos. Eu estou preparado, pronto para cumprir minhas funções da melhor forma possível. Eu estou focado apenas no essencial, alheio a todo o resto. Só vou tomar decisões pragmáticas. Não vou me permitir distrações levianas. Não vou me permitir pensar em coisas não importantes. Eu não vou depender de ninguém e nem de nada. Não vou estar sujeito a erros.
To everyone who has attempted suicide. Trust me, it’s the only time we are glad you failed. I, the person you talked to for five minutes online, that person that always rings you up at the cash register. Anyone. Loves you.
honestly i cant even bring myself to attempt. im 11, my moms a raging drug addict that's mentally abused me throughout my whole life- i live with my grandma now, but nothings the same. nothing feels right- i cant feel anything other then regret/guilt, other then that im completely numb. ive tried self harm already to distract myself but i cant bring myself to do that either- i cant do it deep enough- they just clear up after like a week. theres been a time where one stayed for longer then a month- i was in online school and i got so frustrated with the work that i stabbed myself with my pencil and started making lines :/ i know theres people that care about me, i just cant bring myself to realize that. i shouldnt feel this way- i literally just got outve elementary school- everything is so hard to do, not schoolwork in general but doing simple things like getting outve bed to get online- or, again, just getting outve bed in general- i dont self diagnose but im pretty sure i have some form of depression. theres been a time that i asked my grandma to take me to a therapist but she stayed in the room and i felt so pressured to answer the questions wrong on purpose- she legit r e f u s e d to leave me and the therapist alone and i felt so uncomfortable- they sent me home and didnt tell me anything. i cant explain everything thats going on in 1 yt comment because i feel like im being annoying and idk why im putting this here but my disc is ᐟᐟ - korisiku ︶꒷꒦ 🐇#0950
I love this person.. Im in love with them.. But after we broke up, they got into it with the other person while I stayed single, fell apart and just begged the universe to have that love again. The person I know that they are getting in to it with doesn’t like me at all. They tell me they aren’t seeing anyone. But, I don’t trust them, I think they just don’t want to tell me because they know Im fragile. But this thing is.. All I’m waiting for is for them to come forward and choose. I almost want to just text them and say choose them. Because if you really loved me I wouldn’t be an option.
My cactus passed away this weekend. I kept over watering it. i miss you so much Max and I hope to see you in heaven when i’m up there. Let this be a lesson to you. If you love someone too much don't water it all the time or something.
I've genuinely never fell for someone the way I fell for him. He left me after 10 months because I was annoying then dated my friend he told me not to worry about 3 days later. I just miss him man I don't wanna feel like this anymore
Man I thought I wouldn't get back to this point but I'm back here again. Life hits with hard times when you least expect it. Hits harder when you do expect it.
I remember this song a lot when I was walking alone at night seeing the engagement rings that I had bought 2 months before my 3-year-old girlfriend cheated on me and I wondered how someone you loved so much becomes your living hell. this was in January.
Keep your mind in hell and do not despair. This might hurt now, it may drive you paranoid or insane, but it is all temporary. Everyone come and go eventually, no one is special after some time. Death awaits us all...
Don’t listen to that other comment but It’s gonna be okay my guy you got this surround yourself with better people/ a group of people who don’t like being stagnant and who will push you to do better and don’t hate her for it appreciate the time you were with her everyone comes into our life rather to teach us or we(u) teach them something but now you know that she’s not the one so take some time to grow mentally and figure out what type of woman you want
Guys don’t be sad over a breakup too many sensitive people man there’s plenty of fish in the sea always work on yourself take that anger/sadness out at the gym go grind for money on your purpose. Crying over a boy or girl won’t get you anywhere get over it never overthink about it because you’re only hurting yourself… Words from your big brother
I got knots all up in my chest (up in my chest, up in my chest) Just know, I'm trying my best (I'm trying my best) 'Cause, when you look (when you look) When you laugh (when you laugh) When you smile (when you smile) I'll bring you back (bring you back) And now I'm sad (now I'm sad) And I'm a mess (and I'm a mess) And now we high (now we high) That's, why I left (why I left) That's, why I left Will your tongue still remember the taste of my lips? (my lips, my lips, my lips) Will your shadow remember the swing of my hips? (my hips, my hips, my hips) Will your lover caress you the way, that I did? (I did, I did, I did) Will you notice my charm, if he slips up one bit? (one bit) 'Cause I don't need to know I just wanna make sure you're okay (okay) I don't need to know I just wanna make sure you're all safe All safe, all safe Will he play you those songs, just the way, that I did? (I did, I did, I did) Will he play you so strong, just the way, that I did? (I did) Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah Will he treat you like shit, just the way, that I did? (I did, I did, I did) 'Cause I don't blame ya 'Cause I don't need to know I just want to make sure you're okay (okay) I don't need to know I just want to make sure you're all safe
this single image... i dont know how or why but it reminds me of the times i was in the philippines... the bucket, the little cement bridge, the cobblestone layed road... it gived that sense that im there-
i’ve never been through a break up before or have had a partner, but i did have a couple bsf breakups. one actually happed like last week. i’ve known her for only 5 months and we got in touch bc we both ran fan accounts for the same person. we got really close in those 5 months and i me and her swore that we were gonna move in together. she said on new years that she’s never had an online bsf that had lasted this long. well that’s all out the window now because not even a week later she just left like that. i should have seen the red flags tbh. she unfriended me bc i passed her crush on snap. she did this weekly. i get it. her crush is 100% more important than me. her happiness was way more important than mine. even though we barely knew each other for a while, i miss her so fucking much. i pray every night that she comes back to me. i miss her and i wanna work things out again and i wanna reach out to her to see if we could make it happen again but i’m too scared to do so. zoey if you’re reading this, i’m sorry. and i love you.
This video takes me back to a day back in 2020 where I was so happy & excited because I was gonna see my crush & I was watching this specific video....now I'm just thinking about how better things were before & how badly I miss the past, her & how she used to make me feel :/
TW:coming back each month saying what is controlling me atm. oct: anxiety, jealousy, attention. nov:anxiety, depression, sh. dec:anxiety. jan: may: hello, yes its been a long time since I had recorded for each month, but just know the months I didnt record for was the worst I've ever been. I am very grateful that I am doing MUCH better. I've stopped sh, I got my grades up, and I am much happier. please, stay, if I can do it, you can do it too. it gets better i promise.
In this case I am not a male I’m a female.I had a crush on this one guy. I was the only girl he would talk to. He would tell me secrets,his life and feelings. He would always come up to me , for advice or just to talk to. He would also defend me and would always believe me bc he knew I wasn’t lying. After I told him how I felt about him. He said that he liked me back ,but nothing happened between us. We would just flirt with each other here and there. After a while I realized he seemed he never express himself the way he used too. So I kind of got over him. I was ofc best friends with him but at times things would feel awkward and I never knew why. So one day I told him that i didn’t like him anymore. Then he tells me he was just lied to me that he liked me. I was shocked and I ignored him for a couple of days. After I was calmed down I went to talk to him but he ignored me. After awhile he started to talk to me. Our friendship fell apart. Then the next school year came. And I went to go say hi to him. And he just ignored me. So I didn’t talk to him for the whole year. My Best friend (at the time) was secretly dating him. She didn’t tell me after they broke up. But, at times I would sense that he liked her. I would come sit with her and he would give her his lunch at times. And he would only pay attention to her. So after awhile whenever her would come I would leave. Then quarantine started. And me and him started talking again. We both would bring up many memories we had. Then I asked “be honest ,Did you rlly not like me when I said I did” he kind of dodged the question. But then he told me he liked me. And I was confused. So then I said “what about my bestfriend?” The he said something about them having a fall out. I didn’t like him ,but I wanted to give him the taste of his own medicine. So I lied and told him I liked him back. After awhile he got with best friend again. But he doesn’t look as happy or she doesn’t even know half of the things Ik. So if JAYDEN SCOTT GUSMAN IS READING THIS. TY FOR BREAKING MY HEART ,CAUSE NOW I AM HAPPIER THAN EVER. I DONT NEED YOU AND IDC IF YOU GET BACK WITH SHERLYN I DINT NEED YOU OR HER. GO GET MARRIED HAVE KIDS IDC CAUSE I WILL BE SO SUCCESSFUL YOU WATCH!
Wish i could go outside and just sit and watch the view. But i cant. Im a girl, and bad persons are in my town, i prefer listening to this in my room, safe.
so many thoughts and feelings, but no one to tell them to. too many feelings. but at the same time being numb hurts too much. i hate this. i hate living.
Hey, ik you dont know me but you don't have to know someone to talk to them. So I'll listen to your problems because you matter no matter what others say ur just as valuable as anyone else.
This pain is something I will always remember the way I feel today is the same as two years ago two different times, two different people I entrusted with my heart, but the same thing always happens leaving me to pick up the pieces of my heart one by one with only one thought in my head…. I can’t keep doing this anymore
The worst type of pain is loving someone who doesn't even exist, you can't confess to them, and you cant get rejected and move on, it's an endless cycle of tears.
I constantly come to these songs to share all my hurt and I get nothing out of it except more hurt. I've been having it rough for the past year or two and a month ago was about to be the last straw. It's getting worse and better at the same time.. I'm alive and thankful God is keeping me here. I believe in God because I want a purpose in life and with all this hurt I want to be loved by someone even if I can't see them.. just like i want her-
since this comment section is basically venting I guess I will too . when I was 2 my father died from a drug overdose, after that everything was bad. my mom attempted suicide, we had to live in a homeless shelter, I almost died from asthma and while I was in the hospital I was drugged up and I had the most terrifyingly hallucinations. I remembered them so vividly even though I was four. I went through an abusive relationship, my friends would cut them infront of me and my older brother physically abuses me. I was sexually harassed when I was 10 and never really got the help I needed. i have really bad adhd and ptsd but have never gotten help with it. when I did help with my adhd the pills made me depressed and I wouldn't eat so i was taken off them. right now I'm going through a stage of depression im not taking care of myself and all I do is lay in bed all day. the only thing I've done during this quarantine talk to my discord friends.
I used to listen to this doing my homework regretting my decisions two years ago. It was my coping song. I come back two years later because I’ve been in a very serious relationship and im pretty sure it’s about to end tonight. She’s on her way right now and im kinda scared she’s gonna end it. Im gonna just say okay and accept it if it happens
