Man, the first time listening to this song when it released, I cried so much because it was as if my friend who succeeded in his attempt and I were speaking how we felt. I need to always go back and listen to reactions to make sure my reactions and feelings were valid enough
Pretty sure Joyner lost someone close to him and the song has some of the words from the note from that person, so that cry was something real, he experienced this loss fr
Naw he’s talked about it. His stepdad’s friend killed himself. He made the song after seeing how it affected his step dad. He knew the guy but wasn’t super close with him. Also says a cousin of his was depressed and was contemplating suicide before getting help. Talked to him to get insight.
Hey you two! Love your Vid. The biggest problem about Depression is the path you have to walk everyday is just Life in Hardmode where the path is lava. Its the problems depression creates ... if you cant get out of bed and you are tired for years ... its exhausting ... and Medication and therapy is just the smallest help you can get from outside.
"Fuk, pen runnin' out" Joyner's pen is truly on another level, it's the attention to detail. While his homie is writing the suicide letter, the pen runs out of ink. What artist pays enough attention to real life to add that.
7:38 life is what you make it and that’s the only truth, even I had suicidal thoughts in my lowest point, I grabbed my neck I thought it’s better to end it… but further thought made me realize that there was more to lose than I would ever gain if I let myself go.
The pain can’t be washed away! There’s nothing that can be said to make it better. It’s just like it’s a perpetual endless spiral! Especially when you are constantly in toxic environments and you feel like just a waste! I’ve lost a lot in the last 15 years! I’ve been left with an empty husk of a person! I honestly would rather not be here than keep feeling the way I do! I’ve attempted a few times but have never been successful! I think about jumping off the overpass near my house but I’m too afraid of not succeeding!! The brutal reality is that I’m a nobody! There’s a lot I can say about how you feel about how people like me feel or think about not being here. All the words of inspiration and all that are just that! Just words, yeah there may not be any flowers without rain but with too much rain they drown! And that’s how I feel everyday! Thank you for reacting to this song. I literally can’t listen to this song without bawling my eyes out.
