I've watched you from the start and I love seeing you have the sparkle back in your eyes and a beautiful smile 😊 Also I admire you for setting boundaries in regards to people's questions, you're so strong. I was thinking about your video intro because you're visibly unwell in it (I don't mean this in a bad way so I'm sorry if it comes across that way) but I was thinking maybe you could challenge a cake to celebrate your 1 year inpatient free and take a picture so that you can still keep the theme of little Raine happy blowing out the candles. I hope this comes across okay and please don't feel you have to take up my suggestion. Looking forward to your next video 😊
When your eating disorder moves out, life moves in. I love the freedom the recovery has brought me so far, and continues to bring me the more progress I make. You’re amazing Rain!
The "recovery community" can be very toxic and very competitive. I deleted my recovery Instagram for this reason!!! Some accounts are very helpful but the majority of them are triggering and validation seeking!! I agree with you that the comment asking you about your BMI on your last video was entirely inappropriate and I did defend you on this comment. I think you're very compassionate and understanding about it all. Bless you. It's good you can reflect back on how you used to be and how you used to think. Also the answer you gave o OTTD and bodychecking and FDOE posts. Sadly these people are so entrenched in their Ed to recognise even what they're doing. Huge congratulations on starting back in Education and doing your English exams. Especially when you have had experience of bullying in the past but good for you for facing your fears and trying it again. You're honestly so brave and strong 💪❤️ you totally got this xx
Okay this is slightly of topic but one of the things I really like about you and your recovery documentation on your channel is that you will stand up for yourself and call people out when they say something very offensive or inconsiderate, I haven’t seen many people do that and I think it’s a really great thing. People need to know boundaries and what is acceptable and what is not especially when it comes to mental health
TW I’m deciding to recover: I’m deciding to recover, this is it, that was the last time I binge and purge, that was the last time I waste food and abuse it, abuse my body and my health, if I want to eat sweets I’m just going to eat it and let myself enjoy it without worrying about compensation, I can’t keep abusing the beautiful life I have, my throat is sore and my head hurts but what hurts the most is that fact that I cry my eyes out sitting next to a bucket of all my puke, all my pain, all my problems just puked out of me but nothings changed, nothings fixed and I still keep doing it. I think of my younger self, I would never do this to her, I wouldn’t wish this disorder on anyone so why do it to myself. I’m going to really try harder to ‘recover’ from this, I’m already seeing outpatient therapy and soon I’m going inpatient, I have all the help and resources I need, I just need to use it. I’ve lost so much to this disorder; school, friends, jobs, tafe (another school), relationships, family, all to this stupid disorder and now that’s all I am, it’s all I think about, it’s all I revolve my life around, when I’m eating next, how much, what time, is it too much, is this ‘bad’ or ‘good’ etc. I’m sick of constantly thinking about food, I just want my life back, not that I have one really but I want to have a life because this isn’t living, this is not how I’m meant to spend my life. I’m deciding to choose to recover, or at least try to. This is it, I can’t keep doing this to myself, thankyou for helping me decide to recover, your videos help me so much.
I’m sorry someone commented on your snack, I am so proud you had that delicious flapjack !! (They are superior) well said for what you said about everything, I couldn’t agree more !! You are amazing beautiful, I am so proud college went well, I start next Thursday and I am super excited. You and your videos feel like a warm comforting hug there the highlights of my Friday. I love you and keep powering through. You are amazing ❤️
Given what you said in this video about people showing images of themselves when they were most unwell, are you changing your intro with the footage of you in your birthday, blowing out the candles?
I'm sorry that someone commented on your snack. I get so angry at people commenting on people's food like that, or even joking about their own 'bad' food choices. I remember in college my teacher did the same thing to me, and its a comment that my eating disorder still reminds me of 5 years later... But we just have to keep travelling our own path, and not let it affect us, and be kind, and educate people when we have the chance. All the best. I hope your English GCSE goes well. x
I'm currently showing the things I do eat on my Instagram, while knowing damn well it's not substantial for the normal needs of others, HENCE why I don't label it as ''breakfast'', ''lunch'', ''dinner'', or ''snack''. If I do label them, I start fueling some kind of competition, which I don't want. But I do like sharing foods I eat, as I think food is genuinely fun.
They aren't, I haven't watched her channel/seen her videos. A lot of people in recovery will do the same things because there's only so much content we can think of.
And regarding the specific physical issues due to your ed (weight I guess but I mean more IP stays, BP, etc) is almost pointless to compare because every body is different which is why these illnesses are so scary and deadly because your body is going to function and react differently than someone else's...and its like playing w fire. Not to mention these (often irreversible) damages are not nice and no one should want to "achieve" that. But I do get where that need can come from, but try to see it in that light, if anything I said made any sense 😂
