Justin's music touches a place in me that I can't comprehend. Justin, if you should ever read this just know that whatever happens in life, your little girl will always be your little girl. She will always idolize you and long to be close to you - no matter what she hears about you ( from bitches that want to keep her from you). Daughters and fathers never lose that bond. You hang in there, I hope things are better for you now. Thank you for sharing your heart in song.
What a compelling story!!! Love all your music but even more now. I was released from prison 7 years ago in Texas only to find out that I had an 8 year old daughter in West Virginia that had been born shortly after I became incarcerated. went through all the same shit that you did but, like you did, I never let that get in the way of my love for my daughter. Within a few months I was able to get her down here to me and have had her since. Last year I was awarded full custody rights, not even visitation for mom unless I chose, added to her birth certificate and changed her last name to mine. So glad to see that you went through similar stuff with Blue and got it all sorted out now. BTW I heard Breakfast After 10 while on a federal unit in Beaumont and been a HUGE fan since
As I go thru a break up I think of and listen to all of Justin's live covers of the bands greatest songs like bleed out, the feel again (stay) and of course but not least hate me. All very applicable to many people's situations and for him to put his heart out there the way he does really can get u thru it.. thanks for all ur music from 1st album all the way to sway and its great hits on it. Long live Justin Furstenfeld. Such a Stellar artist. .... James L.
Absolutely the most passionate musician I've ever seen live. No doubt at all, Justin is a special inspiration in the lives of his fans. The chills I get from Blue October are so real and that is an awesome feeling. Thank you!
My husband has not been allowed by his ex to see his son since he was 6 years old and he's now 18. We hope and pray he will come see us so he can hear our side of the story. This is so unfair. My husband struggles from depression and this did a number on him. I came into the picture soon after the last time he saw his son. I've seen him spiral out of control several times. Your story resonates with us so much.
man i can relate to this when i got divorced and things got dark my addiction led me to try to overdose thankfully i didn;t went to rehab and been clean for 15 years now have a great relationship with mt daughter God bless you Justin for writing what dad;s go thru
I felt every sentence in his story. I'm going to something similar and I feel so powerless and the world seems so unfair. The more you try to show your love, more desperate you look to the rest world. It's how Justin said: a father should go crazy for his child if it is important enough, if he didn't, he didn't try hard enough. We fight and fight, everyday, against judges, lawyers, everybody! But the most difficult part is to fight against the feeling of missing out, not being part of your child's life, letting her down. Your mind telling you that all the moments you missed will never come back to you. And you simply can't forget and continue your life as you were broken hearted and needed a new love. At the same time, you get stronger and stronger because this child needs or will need you. So I put my faith in time, make the best of the visitations and hopefully wait for better days. Hopefully Blue will appreciate all the love Justin has for her.
the music it touches my soul,like a lover.i see and feel things I didn't understand.myI greatest love died may 13,2013 while I was in a coma.we never said goodbye. the only thing I remembered was he thought of me when he heard this.i understand what brandon my son was trying to tell me.as long as we loved each other we could not love someone else with all our heart,whenever we tried to be successful in relationships we would hurt each other by our actions about one another.we were so close we held deep dark secrets.my sons voice comes alive when I hear hate me.
I hope that when Blue gets older and sees all of these videos, that she understands her dad did everything he could to be with her! and I hope she gives her mom 18 shades of Hell for it as well!!!
So much love and gratitude for this man! Many of us can relate to all that Justin shares but especially the feelings of being a parent fighting for their children!
it's so painful to see the man you Love spin out of control, I just can't imagine how painful this situation was to Sarah (Justin' wife) was going through, current situation I'm going thru and it's killing me see the man I love is spinning out of control and I can't do nothing
This was both heartbreaking and inspiring. Justin, thank you brother..you made it. I'm sorry for what you went through..thank you for you, what you do. Believe me, I feel I've been hitting rock bottom..and your music solo or w/band is holding me together. Rough times, not sure the outcome. Bless you brother...
Been going through this exact thing with my daughter. She is 13 and begs to live with me, her mom was found guilty of abusing her, and the allegations the mom made against me were dismissed but they won't let me daughter live with me, and she continues to report more abuse from her mom, and now she has started cutting and thinking of suicide. I'm having a hard time coping, I dont use drugs, but I'm in so much pain, and the courts, and anyone in charge ignores me and my daughter. And I dont care what they say about me, I can take it, but they're killing my daughter and its killing me to see her slowly deteriorate and I cant do anything to help her , and all she says to me is please dont give up on me, keep fighting. I dont know what to do anymore, so I listen to this song to help me cope...... Thanks Justin!
I feel like Justin had already come a long way in his life at this point, but seeing and experiencing where he is now in 2019 is even more amazing! I am so proud of him. And it is amazing to see people can change. To hear the stories of how Sara helped save him and how she keeps him in-line. lol Hearing his story, gives me so much hope that no matter where you are in your life, you can change the direction.
happy 18th birthday Cassy .. its been 14 hard years without you in my life i will always be here for you .. someday i hope u want to get to know me and not what you've been told about me ,,I might've been gone but I never walked out.
@ 6:23 he is nodding at the sound guy for finally shutting that fucking delay off.. you can see in the first part of the song he keeps trying to signal him by looking over at him...
Lyrics: I'm tired and twisted, barely breathing, buried in the dark... A could've been. Don't be concerned, that's just the power of a breaking heart... How good am I hiding it? Look, I've got some bad intentions. Guilty as fucking charged. Still standing stable, more than able, cause I know who you are. I know the birthdays, anniversaries, all the first days I missed. I regret them all, but But now I know this; I know that God exists. I held her in my arms. I never knew I was able to ever feel this strong. Take me off your worry list, it'll be better that way. I'm really fine and Mar' there's nothing we haven't talked about. So take me off your worry list, I said "Throw it away" Yeah, this is what my life is about. I might've been gone but I never walked out. I've taken a thousand red eyes to change your point of view Of what kind of man would take the trust you break... and still follow through. Cause I'm standing right here and you may not show up. Our same gate 14 where honestly, I'm just sick of calling your bluff. And it's just embarrassing. I nearly threw up. While I'm trying hard to change the things I always screw up. And at the top of my list, this visitation is no relationship. But I've got to make the best of it. Cause I know; I know that God exists. I held her in my arms. I never knew I was able to ever feel this strong. Take me off your worry list, it'll be better that way. And I'm doing fine and I got plenty of friends around. Take me off your worry list, just throw it away. Well it's time to stand up on my own for her. Cause I'm packing it up, and I'm coming today. I couldn't wait to finally pick my family up. Everything is quiet and covered in snow. There's something wrong here... Nobody's at home. Oh, no, no, no, no, no. Now, I'm back in the driver's seat. Heading back home. Yeah, back to Texas... On my own. Take me off your worry list, it'll be better that way. I'm doing fine and I got plenty of friends around. Take me off your worry list, just throw it away. It's time to stand up on my own for her. I'm packing it up and I'm coming today. This is what my story's about, I might have been gone but I never walked out. I'm packing it up and I'm coming today. This is what your story's about. My pretty little girl, can you figure it out? If it helps to know so there is no doubt, Just listen to the stories. Not everything is glorious. Some hurt. Some love. Some shout. I fought the world and I lost that bout. And you are what my album's about. I might've been gone but I never walked out.
I always thought it was some form of ku the government secretely developed againt us musicians. Maybe they felt we where not soldier enough to have families, wife and kids that they would take them away. Your not the only one Justin.
I’m going through similar shit right now with my sons father. Really going through it. I love Justin. He’s amazing. I watch and listen to your music constantly. I’m inspired and grateful that I can do this. Thank you Blue October. I’m your biggest fan. My sons name is Dawson. My name is crystal. We live in South Carolina
The so called Child Protective Services do the same to families and they grieve for a child who is living only miles away but they are not allowed to see. The Mother who cries from her soul in the courtroom is accused of acting out. They drive parents crazy so people who want to adopt a physically attractive and well adjusted child who was never abused by anyone but the agency so they can present themselves to be the ones who saved the child from a terrible life. There is nothing parents or family can do. Many parents numb themselves with drugs and then it appears to be their fult. It's hell to have a child kinapped: removed from the life they and you loved. Justin was going crazy when his child was stolen: as do many parents who can't fight a corrupt legal system and then they are viewed to be and feel truly unworthy. No one knows unless it happens to them. Justin knows what it feels like to grieve for a living child. His words help parents and families of children who were legally kidnapped by corruption in America.
as the nighttime comes, I count down the minutes, excruciatingly slow... 'til I can be tired enough to pass out, and fall asleep. the nighttime hours bring the most unbearable, most unthinkable, most unimaginable pain of grief and loneliness and despair and desperation. my soul is tortured: raped. I am breathless in my agony. I pray only for death and nothing else.
it is so sad how a parent can put their child through such lies. My brother got 17 years for his step daughters accusations. my brother had full custody for his first 2 boys , lost them due to his new wifes daughter. The little girls father was the one that started the motion .. Sad my brother had to leave his home and lost his boys. The little girl had accused her own dad and grandfather of the same but was proven wrong....7 years my brother jumped through hoops with classes they made him do amd reporting to bail bonds men, having court date after court date postponed. My brother being who he is went to police dept. when asked to answer questions alone. Cop played the "im here to help you" role. asked maybe you helped her to bed one night by careing her to her bed maybe you accidentally touched her butt while doing so. My brother said i might have. When finally went to court he was found not guilty on every accusation she had made against him every one but because he signed that statetment on how he might have touched her butt while carrying her to her bed they gave him 17 years for endeceancy with a child. 17 years my brothers only law he broke was speeding tickets....he doesnt drink he didnt party he was about his boys which he has 6 boys. he worked for the same company for 20 years his idea of going out was going to eat out and a movie. The look in his eyes when they passed is sentence killed me . I could not believe what i had heard. NO NO was all i caould say...i almost got dragged out by the court officer...my brother told me that he heard my scream all the way down the elivator. its been almost 7 years since he as been in prison..it hurts me to even admit to this i cant write to my brother because i hate where i have to send it..i know he needs me to keep those letters going go for him to make it i just cant. Help is what he needs he needs some one to fight for him.....Justin even if you just pointed me in the right direction in finding someone to even listen to his case ...appreciation woulnt even express how i feel. i miss my brother so much just know the stigma that he will have to carry even after he gets out is beyound ...my brother will nerver be the same and it was all thanks to a parent that used his own daughter as a pown to hurt his ex...but even the mother was to blaim in all this....but God is good and one day he will be free.
the guy is a mess...an open sore....songs are so good cause you feel it all in the lyrics. His live versions have all the feels that the glossy album versions miss. I am sorry his situation is a such a broken thing...its certainly a busted sitch he helped create though.
went through it, and im the mom. my son was accused at 9 of molesting my 3 yr old, proven untrue, then i was an addict of every drug, hell i was prob addicted to midol if they could say i was. i fought 2 yrs living 2 blocks from my 2 youngest kids im not allowed to see, talk to, nada. well almost 4 years i live 30 mins from 2 kids i cant see still... why because i brokedown mentally and had 3 seizures, so im not competent. funny, because my 3 eldest still live w me. let me ask you, if im guilty enough not to be fit, why did not one person worry about my other 3? it tore them up. my son, whom was accused, doesnt handle anything normally anymore, my middle daughter cries and cuts, and my eldest pretends she is fine, when all she does is wk school wk school. she saw one of my gorls at a resturaunt once, she was getting a milkshake and started shaking and then dropped it and ran out. ya kk you are coping great! thanks to my ex and his 3rd wife. found out after rights were stripped it was actually arranged in the county i had to petition in. conflicts aplenty. i spent 48,650. still in the red, and an attorney just taking it because its right, nah, another 5000 retainer. get this i pd gor their attny and mine. i also hored an attorney for my children. but when your family is in the judicial system, u could give them 1 mil and it wouldnt make a difference. so this song, is for me, a lucky circumstance. for mine was devastating and unfortunate. 4 yrs and still a no contact order, 4 years of not one innocent smile, 4 years of grief and anger. 4 years to heal.
I work witha guy who had a daughter and all he woudl talk about is fights with his ex and the court system and how court system HATES fathers...frankly got sick of him talking about it but listenin to Justin and what my coworker has said he seems perpahs their is something wrong with the way court systems treat fathers in custody disputes.
If you subscribe you'll see "library" at the left side of the page. Click on "show more" and then click "Justin Furstenfeld Open Book Washington DC" (I forget the date) and there's a playlist with the songs in order. I'm pretty sure I captured all of the songs from the show. Thanks for watching and be sure to see Blue October live! (or one of Justin's shows!)
I can sympathize with him for his desire to be with his daughter. However, why would someone want their child around a person with a drug and or anger problem? It’s a good story and his wife sounds like she treated unfairly but it doesn’t sound like he was fit to be a positive role model in his daughters life. Anyway I hope it works out in the end.