I came to think, and maybe he's with her because he knows she loves him truly. And the one person who is now gone is the person who HE truly loves but he messed up with her, or they are simply not totgether anymore
I'm actually surprised to see a clique member on one of Keaton's songs. You're pretty cool considering you like two of my favorite artists. Keep staying street |-/
I know no one will see this comment, but I feel I have to write this. I heard this song at 16, the day after my best friend’s mother died of cancer, also my mum’s best friend. We were very close, she called herself my adoptive mother and I her daughter, her children are mine and my sister’s age, and we are still so so close. I remember sitting in a campervan once, just us two, everyone else was at the shops I think and it was just me and her. I remember her saying how much she loved the sound of the rain on the tin roof, that she couldn’t think of a prettier sound. You could hear in her voice that she meant every word she said - that was just Deb. The night she died, no one in my house could sleep, it was 3am, and we somehow all ended up in the sitting room, silent. We put on a film on Netflix, the first one we could find, just to fill the silence, called X and Y, I think. I can’t remember anything in the story, but I remembered the music. The next day I searched for the soundtrack, then searched for Keaton Henson on the family computer, headphones in, and clicked on this song at complete random. I have never sobbed so harshly, or felt the raw agony of my grief with such intensity. I have never connected to a song quite like this. I know it’s a song about someone falling out of love, which in no way applied to what I was experiencing, or have ever experienced. But that riff, that opening riff in the first few bars still catches my heart. Four years on and I’m much better, although parts of me will always feel broken, but that is the sacrifice we make to love someone deeply. I would break my heart every day for the rest of my life if it meant I got to love the ones whose hearts I adore. I do think about Deb a lot, and the rain on the tin roof, and I just think how lucky I am that I heard this song, and that I heard her warm laugh and that I heard that rain. This song, that riff, that voice is the only voice and song that takes me back to that exact moment, and I can see her eyes when I hear Keaton. I used to ache and long to be anywhere but where I was, all I wanted when she died was to be back there, back when I was a child, to feel that safety, cocooned in the feeling that nothing bad could ever happen, and all that life was made up of was laughter and beautiful moments, And now I just feel bittersweet, and nostalgic about it all. A part of me will always grieve for her, and my secret heart will always wish for the carefree and safe child I used to be, and feel the way I used to feel about life. Having this song to come back to fills my heart with that feeling, if only for 3 minutes, I am taken back to that feeling. And I’m so grateful for that, I feel only Keaton Henson can touch the dark and light of my soul, bring them together and paint a rainbow built from nostalgia and memories.This song will always be the most heartbreaking song in my world, but also, the song that makes me feel like I did when I was a child, nostalgic about nothing, only looking forward and eager to love every second, craving to live. Deb never lost that ‘craving to live’ quality, even in her darkest days, and I plan on making her proud and being the same way. I hope you, dear reader, do too. There is still light in darkness, always. I promise.
The way the girl carries herself and looks and just herself gives the perfect vibes for this song. His videos are beautiful. They're simple and elegant, which is beautiful. Great job Keaton Henson and the crew that helped with this and other videos.
How many of u know what its like to hear a song for the first time and the lyrics are so powerful, so moving, they shake you to the core? This song just did that for me.
I was the girl being lied to. But, after listening to this song, I think it hurt him just as much as it hurt me. I have to remember that I'm kind and beautiful, and in a way, he did love me. But, it was hard because he couldn't handle being treated good, he liked being alone better because that's what he believed he deserved. He didn't think he deserved me, and maybe he didn't, but he certainly doesn't deserve to hate himself. And he does.
+Sarah Hi :3 I think this is a good interpretation of the song. The boy that is "not in love" represents an emotionally unavailable man with his own hurts and baggage. They are hard to reach.
+Sarah Hi :3 I'm sorry. I think it hurts as much both ways. It's horrible being hurt and it's horrible being the one doing the hurting. "Some people feel like they don't deserve love. They walk away into quiet spaces, trying to close the gaps of the past." Well, I don't want to be like that. Rumi said you have to break your heart until it opens... And Oprah says love doesn't hurt. So maybe what hurts isn't love itself, but what we expect it to be. If we lose our sense of control, ownership, entitlement (fearing what we'll lose) and gain openness and gratitude (being thankful on what we have and approve of changes), then maybe we may love more and hurt less? I don't know, I feel like I'm shooting in the dark here...
+Sarah Hi :3 In my case, i truly and deeply understand what that boy feels. I have passed by the same situation as you, but in my case, on the reverse side of the coin. I was (and i am) the one who leaved her because i didn't (and don't) deserve her. And i only want her, i don't want anyone else. I'm sick in the head for her, and there isn't a cure. She is all that there is. But i just don't deserve her. I couldn't match who she was, so i made her leave, she didn't want it, but i closed up to myself, and she got tired of trying. The worst day of my life so far. So, my advice to everyone is to hold tight to your love, cause you'll never know.
+Sarah Hi :3 I'm in this same exact situation right now and it is truly the hardest thing in the world to deal with. One day he wanted to go on a break and we were still so close and then two days later he broke up with me and then 5 days later he expressed that he did't love me anymore and did not give me closure. I can't take it.
I wish I had the same feelings about this song. But after it was said to me, that guy married someone two weeks after dumping me. He never loved me and dumping me didn't hurt him one bit. And now I have this uncontrollable hate for all things related to love. And this song just tears me apart from the inside out.
Here u go guys, now u can sing along better :) I can see in your eyes that you mean it I can feel in your arms that it's true And though I just heard myself say it, Baby, I'm lying to you Baby, I'm lying to you All of these years you've been lonely, And knowing not what you should do And though you are right, I've been looking as well Babe, I'm not looking for you Babe, I'm not looking for you I'm just as damn disappointed as you, Only I just do better to hide it And the one thing that keeps me from falling for you, Is I'm truly alone and I like it I'm truly alone and I like it As we lie in bed, I feel lonely Though we're young, I feel eighty years old And your arms around me are keeping me warm But baby, I'm still feeling cold Baby, I'm still feeling cold And, girl, you must know you are lovely You're kind and you're beautiful, too And I feel in some way I do love you But babe, I'm not in love with you But babe, I'm not in love with you It may seem strange that I still stay with you, If it's true you're not really the one And why don't I just keep on looking for her? Cause I found her, but now she is gone Cause I found her, but now she is gone Cause I found her, but now she is gone Cause once I found her, but now she is gone
The way this girls acts and the way she looks is what makes it powerful, this song isn't about being "normal" its about someone like Keaton who battles with himself everyday, just as i'm sure the girl in this video does. If your looking for a normal video with normal girls accompanied by normal music, you've come to the wrong place.
I just broke up with my girlfriend for this reason... The realization that what we had wasn't love, and that I didn't love her is killing me inside out. I'm sorry, Riri, I truly am...
I can see in your eyes that you mean it I can feel in your arms that it's true And though I just heard myself say it, Baby, I'm lying to you Baby, I'm lying to you All of these years you've been lonely, And knowing not what you should do And though you are right, I've been looking as well Babe, I'm not looking for you Babe, I'm not looking for you I'm just as damn disappointed as you, Only I just do better to hide it And the one thing that keeps me from falling for you, Is I'm truly alone and I like it I'm truly alone and I like it As we lie in bed, I feel lonely Though we're young, I feel eighty years old And your arms around me are keeping me warm But baby, I'm still feeling cold Baby, I'm still feeling cold And, girl, you must know you are lovely You're kind and you're beautiful, too And I feel in some way I do love you But babe, I'm not in love with you But babe, I'm not in love with you It may seem strange that I still stay with you, If it's true you're not really the one And why don't I just keep on looking for her? Cause I found her, but now she is gone Cause I found her, but now she is gone Cause I found her, but now she is gone Cause once I found her, but now she is gone
"I'm truly alone and I like it" That evolutionary fuck-up in every human brain that pulls us into the abyss! From Freud's 'deathwish' to Milan Kundera's "insuperable longing to fall." There will always be poetry in decay. And I'm not half grateful for it.
My god, I broke up with my boyfriend a few months back and tried to find songs to help me with it, but all of them were about being dumped rather than the side of the person who did the dumping. Thank you for this Keaton, I can relate so much to this song, thanks for giving people in this situation a voice.
I was inspired by Keaton Henson's songs and he made me write this, I do feel a little love for you, but sadly, it's only caterpillars creeping around my stomach and can never be turned into such lovely butterflies no matter how much love you will feed me. I might just even vomit for too much sweets, because, love, it's not my favourite. It's hard to admit for I know you'd be hurt but I think it would be better if you know it. I'm a liar whom you believe. And everything I did was too far from my reality. And every 'I love you' was just only meant to say to make you happy. Love, I do love your smiles when those words slides through your heart. I do love your eyes when it twinkled to me from the very start. But I don't love you wholly enough to catch you when you fell into my arms and be my whole life. I can't spent my time with you going on the road trips or reading the same book from your favourites. I can't do what you love and the things you want to discover. I can't imagine my life being with you forever. Apologies are not enough from the lies of sweet kisses I put on your lips. Bended knees are not enough to grant those broken promises. But I want you to know that I somehow want to give you happiness but then I happened to give the opposite, I gave you ton of loneliness. And I know, you are wondering why I still stay, love, it's because I don't want to lose you, I don't want you to be far away because you love me. Selfish, I am, but love, it's only because I'm lonely.
I love the lyrics, "I am just as damn disappointed as you, only I just do better to hide it. And one thing that keeps me from falling for you is I am truly alone and I like it." It just fills my heart with empathy. I just go back again and again just to hear someone say it like I feel it.
i feel the girl he found but is now gone is also the girl hes "lying" to. Maybe he felt she was the one but she changed and is no longer "the same person". just a thought but this was probably just influenced from the situation i was in.
How so? I don't think is the same person, as he says i am not looking for you. I belive that in someway men just want to feel they've earned something, and love when they are afraid to loose something. Perhaps this girl is just there not giving him the chance to long for her o appreciate her.
I'm going through a breakup at the moment, and this song speaks to me. My ex boyfriend told me he still loves me but he wants to focus on myself and he doesn't want a relationship. Maybe this how he feels. Maybe, he's not in love with me anymore, but still loves me in the sense that he wants the best for me, but I'm not the best thing for him.
Man can I relate to these lyrics. Once you get over losing a girl you truly love and I mean TRULY love. You find it's best to be alone because that way no one has to know your struggles. At that point you know what true love is and anything less feels empty in comparison. So you grow to enjoy being alone. So you never have to feel again. Until true love comes around again and you have to start all over. But that's just life.
Soko brought me here, and this is the best thing that has happened in a long time, his songs are so touching and they show how beautiful his soul is, he's one of those man who make you fall in love with his soul by touching you in levels others just dont understand.
Battling with mental illnesses of many kinds, causes me to have an interpretation of this that makes me almost feel like this song is about me, talking to me, and my body. With life comes dysphoria and aching, and this almost makes me understand, and appreciate my sorrow in many forms. These songs I appreciate so much, because they've shaped me, and helped me so unbelievably much.
I've honestly listened to this song many times over the years and not once did I try to listen to the lyrics to know what it's about but now that I do know, my heart is shattered like hell
Feels like the soundtrack of my life because he's truely alone and he likes it and even if I'm beautiful and kind I'm not enough.. This song just hits my soul
I am in a longterm, healthy, intimate and happy relationship I feel loved and I love as well I don't relate to this song in any way and yet it destroys me in a way I can't explain What the fuck this is art
I never fell in love and I have this childish inner conviction that I'll never be able to truly love someone , how ever , I feel close to this song and I dont want to think that it's the sad melody that captured my heart, the words just mirror a truth that I want to be intimate with.
i've always been afraid of relating to this song. Yesterday morning, on the 3rd day of Christmas, I broke up with the most wonderful, supportive person I've ever met. Now I'll have to live knowing of all the pain I've caused and hoping we're gonna be happy again.
Cette chanson est une pure merveille, sa voix est si douce. Et que dire des paroles... elles sont incroyablement tristes et profondes :'( This song is incredibly beautiful ♡
Sara x poor you :( does not fit my current situation because I'm in a happy relationship but it's true for my cousin she's married to a man and admitted to me that she isn't in love with him and that she misses her ex :( x
Sara x aww bless you sounds horrible!! Good luck with everything friend crushes are hell let alone bet friend ones!! God bless and good luck my dear xx
This hits me very deep. It really hitted home as that is how I ended up being in any relationship. The last time I fell in love with my first boyfriend, and ever since I've never experienced falling in love. At one point there was a person, I loved him so much. I had a constant struggle with myself because of not falling in love. I however put through it,and fought for him because I loved him so much. It ended up that he wasnt that strong and in the end broke up because he had started feeling like what I fought through. This person defenitely scarred me deep, and maybe even deeper than my first boyfriend. I put all my effort into loving him, and then he just gave up. Even though I think falling in love is overrated, because that passes, and true love is much more valued, like I feel I felt with the person that ended up leaving me, oh god how terrible it feels not being able to fall in love. If I hate anything more than getting hurt it is hurting. I hate how I feel empty. How I feel fake with anyone I'm ever with anymore.
does it ever get better? trying to get over my first love after 3 years being with him and hes the only male in my life thats ever showed me love and now i have to see him with another girl every day infront of me. how did you manage? its unbareable
This song is so relatable. I feel pressured to stay in the relationship because she hasn't done anything wrong and she's beautiful and perfect but I just like being alone and detached and idek anymore.
I love that keatons videos show the opposite side of who he wrote the song originally about. For example with this one the song is wrote as a message to a lover informing them nicely that this whole relationship was a lie, but the video shows the other side. The girl acts like shes so fine but she's "lying to you". Well that's how I interpret the videos
I don't know why, but I kept on smiling throughout this song. Despite the words weren't exactly something to smile about, I felt happy. Simply because I was listening to your voice and watching the scenery throughout the video. Through your tradegy I...became happy.
you never expect to feel the things that come with this song.. things feel like a dream and you're in love but then it ends. if it does happen to you, remember the good times but don't dwell in them. remember things go on, you'll be alive. everything that happens to you makes you stronger. (I'm recovering from heartbreak if you couldn't tell 😂)
this song now reminds me of my boyfriend who I plan to break up with soon and to be honest i dont know how im going to do it because i love the guy and i want to be friends but I'm not in love like i thought i was i just dont want to hurt him he's so sensitive and insecure ugh
I'm the one who sings. Still haven't found any way out after 5 years. I like to think that I was wrong, that that was not *her*, but who knows :) Life is beautiful anyway, in many other ways.
Sometimes I realize that I will never be the same person again. I have already suffered too much ... It happens that we love someone deeply, that chooses to offer everything including the feelings that we dared to share only with our conscience ... Finally this person makes us Believe that we are important to better destroy us ... Lovers we think we are stronger than anything, that nothing will ever hurt us ... Reality we are weak, unable to see the truth. We invent a truth that will do us less harm ..
I can see in your eyes that you mean it. I can feel in your arms that it's true. And though I just heard myself say it, Baby, I'm lying to you. All of these years you've been lonely, And knowing not what you should do. And though you are right, I've been looking as well. Babe, I'm not looking for you. I'm just as damn disappointed as you, Only I just do better to hide it. And the one thing that keeps me from falling for you, Is I'm truly alone and I like it. As we lie in bed I feel lonely, Though we're young, I feel eighty years old. And your arms around me are keeping me warm. But baby, I'm still feeling cold. And girl you must know you are lovely, You're kind and you're beautiful too. And I feel in some way I do love you But babe, I'm not in love with you. It may seem strange that still I stay with you, If it's true you're not really the one. And why don't I just keep on looking for her? Because I found her and now she is gone.
How am I just seeing this. I listen to this music all the time. And this is one of the most beautiful songs. I started bawling. Thank you for writing and singing this song.😌
The way I interpret this song is that the one singing lost the love of his life a long time ago, ( maybe through breaking up but it feels more like she died) and while he wants to love the new person he is with, he can't, because his heart will always be with the person he lost. Heartbreaking for everyone involved. :(
Obviously this video is about the coming of age, awkward, all around around confusing part of every person's where growth spurts, new bouts with self esteem and yes puberty come into play (hence the tampon)
“But babe I’m not looking for you” wow this is so beautiful I don’t know how to say this to the person I love without destroying both of us and I can’t lie to him.