@@rumaecaa. I am also a Bengali from West Bengal, India, and generally refer to it as"Jol". But I known it is mostly "Pani" in Bangladesh because of Urdu/Arabic influence on the language. (R amio bangal🙂 and ami khali bollm...don't get offended)
I like how the girls didn´t immediately go "You were a boy?" when they saw her with short her when she was living as a boy. I hate when people ask others if they are the opposite gender just because of their hair being short or long. These girls were just like "Oh you had a different style!" which was kinda nice to see.
From what I can tell it is/was pretty common for high school and middle school girls to have short hair so it makes sense that seeing someone with a short cut in high school isn’t all that surprising.
@@shaegin it's not stupid!!! Don't worry. I'm not trans, but I'm confused on my gender so I sort of get how you may feel. Don't feel like it's stupid. It's only natural to feel anxious because some people in the world really are rude and not accepting. I'm glad the girls in this video were accepting tho
it's so nice that a trans person has finally been able to come to the show! the girls have come a long way from just reacting to 'transformation tiktoks' to finally getting up close and personal with people from the community they can talk with and ask questions to. pani is so beautiful and brave and to be able to tell her story and live her truth is such an amazing thing. her journey has been long but so inspiring. definitely shed a few tears myself so thanks for this, ossc 🥺🥺💗
Looking on old photos can be uncomfortable for anyone, especially trans folks. I look so uncomfortable in my youth, like a boy in a wig. Thank you for sharing your story so others can not feel alone
I feel the same! It's the weirdest feeling. I don't mind that my mother still has old photos up (she has a family photo shelf, actually), it's not, like...hurtful? Just weird to look at sometimes. The best thing ever was after top surgery when my younger sibling looked at me and went "its so weird...you look more like yourself somehow." The euphORIA.
me too. i once had an event where i had to dress up very professionally feminine (pencil skirt, blow dried hair, pantyhose) and i made a friend there (who funnily enough is also lgbtq even though I didn't know it then). the first time we hung out and i wore my normal clothes and had my hair undone, they said to me "wow you look so much nicer. you looked uncomfortably cishet then" like. it wasn't that they were trying to tell me i looked ugly before, but they could tell how much more comfortable and natural i acted in my own clothes and the effect that had on my confidence. every time i look at dolled up pictures of myself i feel like I'm looking at myself in drag if that makes sense. i don't think i look ugly but my current friends would probably not recognize me at first glance
same. before transitioning, i always looked so dreary and sad. now i feel like ive been reborn in some way lolol. looking back, feels like looking at myself in a cage somehow
The photo of her at 20 years old made me so sad, it must’ve been so painful and exhausting pretending to be someone you’re not and forcing yourself to smile
Just reading this made me cry... damn. Not having to pretend anymore made me want to live again and now I realize just how much pressure I was putting on myself just to appear "normal"
hi, sorry for my english but I just wanted to thank the girls in the video and the people who thought of the idea. this video was very inspirational for me since I want to change too (I'm 14). when I see how free she looks now compared to the past photo.. I can relate to the depressive state she was in, but I feel much more encouraged now. I'm afraid I'll be rejected by my family and friends since it's not a very mentally open circle, but I want to be free too. please wish me luck. edit: I know this might be cringe but I wanted to thank the people answering to this comment and supporting me. I really appreciate it from the bottom of my heart. gracias también al comentario en español jaksj tkm
hello, your english is amazing !! I know one day you will be free to be whoever you want to be. you will find people who will accept you as you are, even if it isn't your family and friends. For starters, there's me. I appreciate you, I accept you, I love who you are and choose to be. I wish you a future full of happiness and acceptance !! :))
Las personas que te quieren van a aceptar las elecciones que hagas en tu vida con tu cuerpo, si no hay más personas, siempre hay más personas. Te deseo suerte, coraje y mucha felicidad para tu futuro 🖤 Piensa en lo que te diría BangChan 😉
As a transguy myself, I feel happy knowing that Pani has those people who has stuck by her and gave her all the love and support when she needed it the most. Especially the fact that she was born in a religious family. I was from a catholic school as well, so I know how tough that can be. It would also be nice to see guys react to this too! Because some guys tend to be less open-minded and not as understanding as compared to girls, in these situations. So I would like to know what they think about it!
hi !! as a Christian, I want to say I’m sorry for all the pain people made you feel in the name of my religion !! it’s your life and you should choose how to live it, and I’m sorry we haven’t been treating you with the kindness and respect you deserve !! I fully understand if this isn’t your religion and I’m not trying to preach to you, but I really believe that God knows your heart and loves you exactly as you are and is very proud of how far you’ve come, but if that comment makes you uncomfortable, please disregard it ok ? either way, I’m glad we share the same planet and I’m proud of how far you’ve come !! let’s live good lives ok?
Like you. I'm a trans guy who grew up in a religious family. My father is a narcissistic, charismatic Christian extremist who abandoned 3 families including mine, to end up on a commune with 3 wives where one is his second cousin. I only know of 4 siblings, but I was told if I took a DNA test I'd find 10+. He emotionally abused and manipulated the wives in all three marriages, first one killed herself and left two kids behind. He kicked out the son from that marriage at 18 for being gay, and to this day still refuses to admit he kicked him out. My brother went on to get a free education in Europe and now runs a booming public estate business over there, where he travels to many countries often. He lives to spite our father. My dad would drive me to school and tell me right wing conspiracy theories presented as fact. I was mentally fucked by the time he suddenly left us with no warning. He'd been cheating on my mom with several other women. I believed all sorts of Bill O Riley shit he parroted to me. Luckily he left when I was 13 so I grew out of it. He wanted to have lots of kids and indoctrinate them into his cult, but in his efforts he drove away every single child he had. His Father's Days are much lonelier than his Valentine's Days. Edit: The comment above is nice and is appreciated. It doesn't change the pain thrust upon us at young ages. It doesn't stop the memories of my father screaming the N word. I can't unhear him calling my brother a faggot. Want to know how to change these things? Be there for young trans kids. It can't fix those who have already experienced it, but you can be the deciding factor in some other kid's life. You can help the kid who used to be me. Be there for them.
Watching Minji S L O W L Y realize the story unfolding before her eyes…. 🤦🏾♀️🤣 I love the reactors on this channel so much! Much respect and endless well wishes for Pani! I hope, one day, her parents DO get to see her living as her true-self and realize she’s still their baby and nothing can change that and then they can just…LOVE her…their baby. 💝
I cried too, especially when the girl said "it's sadder when you say it with a smile" She looks happier now and that warms my heart also she's so pretty
I like how when they realize she's trans they're like "OH! ... oh okay" and continue the conversation respectfully. It's sweet in my opinion as a nonbinary person.
This is such an eye opener. It shows how much struggling trans people have to go through. So before you judge someone, please know that everyone have a different story and their hardships are different than yours.
im honestly so touched that heejin got as emotional as she did. im a long time viewer of this channel and i happen to also be transgender, so her reaction made me feel very comfortable
girl is living my dream.. 😭 bottom surgery in the U.S. for FTM patients is $25K…top surgery can be up at $10K. losing my shit being trans is gonna make me broke
When she said “Computer Science” every trans women in a 1000 mile radius giggled. As a trans guy, it’s very refreshing to see trans people treated with dignity and respect.
My absolute favorite thing about the OSSC channel compared to other reaction channels is that they always seem to do their research when it comes to stuff like this and they do try to be open and respectful. Great video!
As a non-binary Korean American this just hit really hard and I just wanna be Pani’s friend the Korean culture specifically older generations can be so closed minded to anything lgbtq+ related and for her to be so open and share her past with us is so courageous and you can tell just how beautiful a woman she is both inside and out
OSSC , thank you very much for this video. It really means a lot to me( I'm a trans-guy myself) Is there gonna be a similar video but with FtM transperson? If there will be one, it would be amazing. Thank you
I cried so hard. This was a really hard video to watch. I cried not because of her whole life situation but because no-one should have to go through this alone. As she was going through that door in the hospital I couldn’t believe not one of her family members were with her. She is such a strong person❤️
I'm crying. I just can't imagine how hard it must have been for Pani to get through such a tough transition and to do it all by HERSELF. God, she's so strong. You are doing great Pani, I would have hugged If only I could, thank you for being an inspiration ❤
If Heejin doesn't leave with a new bestie every time she's in a video, then I don't know anymore lol Her and Pani were so sweet together - it's like they've been friends for forever. Thank you for giving people a space to feel safe in and share things with people who are open to learning. I was so touched
That must have been really scary having to travel to another country to get bottom surgery. You'd think with South Korea being the plastic surgery capital of the world, different surgeries would be more accessible. Hoping that changes for Korea in the future
I’ve heard of trans women getting a kind of vocal chord surgery in S Korea (enables a higher voice- it’s a pretty new and unusual surgery from what I understand) but perhaps bottom surgery itself is either much more expensive in S Korea, or not as readily available?
To all of my sisters and brothers who chose to be the person who you want to, i just want to say thank you, thank you for choosing your happiness and i hope you'll be happy for the rest of your lives and find true love along the way! ILY!
Thank you so much! I’m a trans man and it means a lot. But just a note for the future, some trans people might find it insulting if you say that they chose to be trans. We really don’t choose to transition or to be the opposite gender, but it’s just kind of like a birth defect. It’s either we choose to transition or choose to be unhappy. That in itself is what i think you were going for. But thank you for your support, just one comment means a lot to trans people. We love you too!
I’m sorry but gosh darn she looked so pretty from now to back then. And I’m really glad she’s more comfortable with her body now and is looking gorgeous while doing so
I love this channel, no matter what the subject matter is, the reactors are always respectful and showed really empathy to what the process must have been like
as a trans non binary person I absolutely love this video. there’s nothing else I can add that other people haven’t already said. I do have one small thing, though. you don’t have a “bad memory”. what you went through was traumatic. the surgery was traumatic and I am certain there was a lot more trauma from your childhood due to you talking about religion and how you had to run away. I have a couple different trauma disorders, one that affects my memory a lot, so I completely understand. you look at that picture of you after surgery and you don’t feel anything. you see a sad person, but you don’t feel any emotional connection, like it’s almost someone else. that’s okay. that happens to me a lot and it doesn’t mean there’s anything wrong with you. you went through a lot. your brain is purposefully blocking the memories and the deep feelings associated with them to protect you. at the time, it worked, you got through. but now, the missing memories and buried feelings become an issue. so, the best thing you can do is work on it with a professional (though I understand how hard it is to find one). you will eventually feel the feelings you felt in those photos again, but the difference is that you’ll be able to process it healthily and in a safe way/place. you won’t have those feelings that you don’t quite know what they are deep in your stomach, or the absolute fear when something that should not be scary at all makes you have a panic attack. you will be able to live and process good and hard times in the moment. that’s the biggest issue for me currently, my brain thinks it has to continue to protect me even from good things. but we can grow from it. we can really be free of the hard times. we’ve already been through the hardest parts.
As a trans enby person, seeing the journey of other trans people become their most authentic self is so beautiful. I am privileged to not feel dysphoria in a way that needs me to make major surgical changes as of right now. I think it's a huge step to get any surgery and I hope we continue to advance in technology/medicine and socially to make these major life changes easier. This video feels like a step in that direction. Thank you for sharing your story Pani!
The girl in pink is a real empath. I think she felt the heaviness and sadness that Pani once felt. It was beautiful to see her understand what Pani had to endure
I really appreciate how open the girls were about this. It was so nice to see them still think she was beautiful and not immediately change their attitude towards her.
Pani is so beautiful!!!! And such a strong person. The girls reacting were so nice and polite that melted my heart and gives me hope in humanity and korean society in particular
It must be really hard and sad at the same time to be entering the surgery procedure (or procedures) without her family supporting her... This is why it is important to support your children in whichever decision they take, you have to think on them because if they're doing that huge change in their lives it's not just anything, it's because they have thought A LOT about it before taking the leap of faith into their new life. Parents have to stop thinking about what would they say about them as parents and think more about "how do I support my son/daughter in this process", it's a life that THEY are going to live so you just can support or not support them, but if you wanna keep being good parents, keep supporting even though it's not what YOU wanted for him/her to live. Remember that your children's life is something that they are going to live and not you. Thank you for sharing this story with the world OSSC and Pani, I hope there'll be more comprehension and support for anyone who is struggling.
It's my three-year anniversary of starting hormone therapy, so I've been watching a lot of transition videos. I think the thing we (those who medically transition) all have in common is that we're our most visibly depressed when we know what we should be, but aren't in the place to change anything, or the changes are going too slow. In my first year I cried because I didn't have a beard, and now I have a full chevron mustache! Waiting is the worst part for sure, but it's been soooo, so worth it!!
This makes me really happy. I was so worried to click on the video, but I’m familiar with the channel so I shouldn’t have been. Pani’s life story is so familiar to me & several people in my life, I can empathise a lot. I’m so thankful that she shared it with us, & everyone’s responses seemed kind & warm. Looking forward to seeing more interesting guests in the future, thank you for your hard work! :)
I dont really like showing photos of me when i was a girl but i do sometimes. This made me very happy because Im trans too and its so cool to see their reactions
That was the best reaction you could ever get! They didn’t react at all when they saw her as a boy. They acted as if it was nothing, as if it was completely normal, as it is.
From the moment she became an adult at 18 years old and the moment she became a woman is not even 10 years not even a decade. In less than 10 years, in only 8 years she did something that people take more than 10 years to do and in a country where homosexuality, gender, identity are still subjects put in silence. What an amazing woman she is, she did all these changes when she was pretty young (20,25 and 26). She is so inspiring.
Must be really nice to live without pretending you're someone else, Pani is so beautiful and strong, I wish I could be more like her TTTT I enjoyed a lot this video
This made me cry because the thought of going to another country and risking your life to feel like you're whole is such a hard thing to do. I don't have that experience exactly, but as a nonbinary person, I know how it feels to be seen incorrectly... I still feel like my experience pales in comparison. She ran away, made herself free, escaped and changed her entire future. I will look up to her forever now.
I admire Pani for taking such a bold decision and for having the courage to face all her issues. Wish you a wonderful life ahead. And thx for another wonderful video.
This is why I love this channel so much, I hope they continue to make more videos like this!! To everyone involved in this video and in the past ones that have been made, thank you so much as a queer person myself. Fighting!!!
Watching video gave such a warm feeling. And to think that the gov of my country banned these kind of operations, and use failure stories as propaganda against the operations AND against trans people. We need more videos showing how happy and free people really are!
thank you OSSC for being able to bring this kind of content to your viewers, your staff and crew and espicially to your cast, the more you know the more you grow
She’s so brave, and that goes to any trans person out there! It takes courage to be yourself even when everyone is telling you not to. I hope everything works out for you!
Nice, I am happy for her finding her path and taking it and being a happy beautiful young woman, thank you for sharing, best wishes for you and maybe we will see more of you around here.
