I don't know if all you noticed brian looking at Jon through the whole song... Its like he was ready to drop his guitar in case anything happened and go with him.
"It was crazy, 'cause the song 'Daddy', we started playing that…. We hadn't played that since, like, 1994-1995, just 'cause Jonathan's really… it's really emotional for him," KORN guitarist Brian "Head" Welch told Metal Hammer. "But he said he still gets emotional doing it some nights, but he just… he says, 'I'll do it for the fans.' And, I mean, every night there's somebody crying in the front row, 'cause there's a lot of people that have been abused. It's really special to play that song. It's a dark song - it feels dark and everything - but it's kind of like therapy, I think, for people." I found that quote online
All I can say is this is proof that the shit he went through still haunts him to this day. If anyone thinks he mellowed out that much this shows that he just learned how to contain it, not forget it.
Totally agree! Sexual abuse is something that you can never ever forget, no matter how much you heal or how much help you get or how much you just *try* to forget, there is always this nagging little piece of your mind that triggers flashbacks or memories and it haunts you your whole life, you just kind of learn how to deal with it eaiser. But it never goes away.
@@Punkwashed_Bleach You never ever forget it. The memories may fad and effect you less but it will always find a way to nag you. The littlest thing may trigger a memory or a complete flood of memories to return. You survived it but it will always be there.
Coming from someone who went through SEVERE trauma myself (not the same as Jon’s case) it still haunts me to this day too....it never truly goes away. Ever.
You NEVER FORGET, you have have to try to forgive and even that sometimes isn't possible. It will haunt him the rest of his life even with therapy which I'm sure he's gotten help.
As children my brother sister and I were raped multiple times by our father. We had also told persons outside of the family about the abuse that was going on. We were not believed and the rapes continued. Finaly as teenagers we went to the police ourselves. The sick fuck only received 2 years in jail. Growing up with that kind of pain and torture has had long lasting effects on me which has haunted me into adulthood. This song has been with me since I first heard it when the album came out over 20 years ago. The abuse happened when I was a defensiveless child. I am now a 38 year old man. I am frightened to think what I would do to my father if I ever saw him again
Xx Xx sadly, this happens all the time, i wasn't raped but molested several times by a "friend" in third grade, i didn't know what it was at the time, now i'm about to be in seventh grade and i haven't told anyone, we'd probably never find the fucker anyways, he was a fatass too, i remember he tried to show me porn on his phone, homosexual porn, he probably wanted me to have sex with him, i was going to go over to his house one day but it didn't work out, i tremble to think what he wanted to do to me once i got there.
It happened to me. My grandpa raped me since when I was 6 years old. And I told my aunt, she didn't believed me. When my mom died, I think he just had a trauma. But those years was so hard for me. Then, 5 years later (2017) I told my dad, he believed me and now the police gave my grandpa just 4 months of jail bc the police said "It was cuz of a trauma, so we can't send him for so much years, so we will send him to jail for 4 months. And because it was unconsciously." I just think all the polices are rapers now, or they defense the rapers, idk. God -.- Btw, the only good thing is I'll don't see my that motherfucker for 2 more months.
Xx Xx I'm sorry that happened to you and your siblings. it makes me so angry to see how everyone is fighting for homosexual rights and abortion rights but who is fighting for the children victims of rape? why don't they believe us when we tell? I am forever grateful I didn't tell as a child or otherwise i would have been killed by my perpetrator. Up to this day and now with a child of my own I am over vigilant with PTSD depression and anxiety.
Two years?! What the fuck!! He should have gotten life sentences for each of you and your siblings! I'm so sorry that happened to y'all, i wasn't raped but my sister and i were molested every day, multiple times a day for three years until my mom finally believed me and we testified two years later and he got life. March 12 of this year makes his 1 year of sentencing. Still 46 left to go. He's going to die in there and your family deserves the same justice! Compared to you i have nothing to be traumatised and upset over. If i could I would give you his sentence so that sick bastard could rot his life away in a cell. I wish i could help y'all get that bastard a life sentencing, death is just too fast and easy. Major respect to Jonathan and anybody who has ever went through this shit. It haunts for the rest of your life and it doesn't go away and it's so very heinous and terrible.
He shouldn't do this.. Sure, "the whole album" but I think every fan would be okay with him skipping this song. I love the hug in the end, someone had his back.
Chriztian Wennersten that's big sleep his body guard he's a nice guy he's been jds body guard for a long time and sleep is super tall so wouldn't mess with him
For anyone who is bashing this performance, Jonathan is one of the few true musicians left and the emotion he displayed was pure and real. How many singers these days can you think of that pour their soul into a performance? If he didn't think he could handle performing the song, he wouldn't have agreed to do it. I'm sure it helped him further along in the healing process.
Oh yes!!!! Definitely, he deserves mad respect, he not only truly loves his fans but he is just soo humble, along with the rest of the members, and david too
To your question (which was rhetorical IDC) which musician releases real emotions in his songs, check out macklemore, e.g. same love, starting over or otherside
I would think that it would help, too, but it's a lifelong process, believe me. This song is so heartwrenching to me but it's beautiful that he can use his music to express his emotions, like how this ART should be! Raw emotion from the heart. I feel his pain so much.
I kind of feel like him finally performing this was a victory for him, and was like him just coming out and finally saying "it happened, I'm confronting it, I'm moving on, here it is". It took a lot and I got respect for the dude.
3:39 Are we just gonna ignore the fact that the drummer launches his stick into orbit and accidentaly grabs two and throws one of them away like nothing ever happened :O
the first stick broke, that's why he threw that one, then he accidentally grabbed 2 and when he lifted his hand after that last symbol hit he threw the extra one out
Listen to 4:42 when he says “it hurts”, I can almost hear 94 Jon coming out of him. It must’ve been emotionally unbearable for him to perform this night, and I think that this very night is when it got to him. I’m starting to think those flashbacks he had in the studio made their way back into his head. You can also hear him crying after he throws the mic down to hug Big Sleep.
The amount of respect I have for Jonathan is unreal. I could never even begin to do what he did. Go up in from of thousands of people and perform such a personal and emotionally triggering song. This is one of my favorites by Korn, I relate to it. I feel the emotion in it on a whole other level. I hope he doesn't perform this song again though, that has to put him off. Which is apparent in this video as it nears the end. Still, this is a chilling performance. It has the power to bring you to tears.
holly He said singing the song wouldn't affect him as much as it did back then, the fucker (his neighbour) who did that to him is dead so Jonathan says that he's buried it, so that means he'll sing the song as a sort of therapy for people who need it. He's always cared about his fans and sung the song for them even when it greatly affected him back then. He's a brave and wonderful guy.
RobSlipKoDi I was sexually harassed by a friend he kept grabbing me and I tried everything I could to stop him but it didn't work the bus monitor took care of it I was 8 or nine he was 9 or 10
Zyhgon I read in another interview that he played this song live one other time and the other band members had to dump a bucket of ice water on him just to get him up.
www.rollingstone.com/music/features/korns-1994-debut-lp-the-oral-history-of-the-most-important-metal-record-of-the-last-20-years-20141211 here it is. your welcome. happy reading.
I remember in an interview he said he performed it just to get out his feelings, to release, like with most of the songs he plays to combat his depression. I can't believe he performed it again. This honestly had me in tears. This took so much courage. Honestly, this man is so strong.
Speaking to Rolling Stone in advance of the 2015 performance, Davis called the song "just so old news to me." He added: "It's not going to affect me like it did back then. There was abuse there, I dealt with it, and the person who abused me is dead now. Karma took them [laughs]. And, y'know, I've buried that. I'm just going to play the song for the people that need it, you know what I mean?"
God, the raw rage, terror, and sadness at the end when he whips the mic at the ground and stumbles off stage is amazing... I had enough respect for him being able to record this, but for him to be able to do this live is barley comprehensible. I'm gonna go see these guys over the summer, and honestly I hope he doesn't perform this song, though I know it's already pretty unlikely.
@@Squatchapopalus That's what makes Korn and Jonathan so special. They're true, their feelings are true. So deeply pure that people literally have therapy with them... They're simply amazing and Jonathan is a hero
Poor Jon he actually hated this song so much he never likes playing it live or even talking about it, kind of sad when you write something to let out your emotions and it ends up being something that brings up awful memories.
This is one of the few Metal songs I never want to see live, I never want to see the artist perform live.. Just seeing this is so sad. I can't express the amount of respect I have fro Jonathan for performing this and the the rest of the band. I am sure they were aware of how hard it would be and what emotions it would pull out of the dark. Respect for Jonathan and the band for doing things. This is one of the many things that makes Korn stand out from any other band.
As much as I would love to see it performed live, out of respect for Jonathan, his wishes and mental health, I would never ever feel so entitled to see him perform it live for as long as Korn keeps touring.
I saw it live during the 20'th anniversary of the self titled album at the great saltair in utah some time in October and it was just just painful to see it live. no one in the crowd was jumping or headbanging it was just standing still
@@doink. I went to that same tour in Wisconsin. I’ve seen Korn live about 25 times and this was the one and only time I’ve seen them perform this song and it was absolutely gut wrenching.
Three of my favorite bands including Korn, all of the lead singers have experienced sexual abuse as a child. I swear some of their songs reference the emotional ramifications from it.
He's a strong person, stop saying it's not healthy for him to sing it. I believe that if he didn't want to face his past then he wouldn't have written the song in the first place. Furthermore I believe that performing this actually helps him release that depression within him that could otherwise turn into something worse if he didn't let go of it. His band mates have respect and love for him and that shows. He needs positive energy to heal from all he's been through so don't doubt him and see the good in things. He's releasing the bad, he's healing.
I was there, front row on Brian’s side. This entire show was insane. I remember breaking down when Jon did. I saw them 3x on this tour. Coming from an abusive household myself I can’t believe he did this night after night for months…fucking brutal to relive it over and over. I sort of wished they had skipped this one, but he knew what was best for himself. I’m so grateful Jon is happy and doing well now. They are my favorite band forever. If the guy who let the trying-to-dress-90s-goth girl stand in his spot in the front row cos it was her birthday is reading this… that was me, and I will never forget you, thank you so much ❤️
Damn. I would've thought after all these years Jon could have made it through the song without breaking down, but I guess I was wrong. Then again, any person or situation that really has an impact on you can still trigger strong emotions, no matter how many years has passed...wow.
+Walter Stevenson Shit happened when he was really young, and that shit goes deep. Even if Jonathon Davis thought he was completely desensitized to this song, those memories will come back with a vengence. If he knew that was the case, I doubt he would have agreed to playing live, but now he's gotta do it on tour :/
when something so traumatic happens to you as a child, it shapes your whole life. there's always something in the back of your head that needs to come out every once in a while. mad respect for him doing this song, it's surely helped other people deal with similar situations by seeing a successful person interpret it so beautifully. simply realising you're not alone helps, it's so taboo that people just try and block the trauma out. a true artist.
Walter Stevenson believe me it is very difficult to get passed by it. It's only possible with chemical lobotomiy like i have to deal with every day and even then it is impossible. There will allways be triggers. The thing these pills that i have to take do is taking away my feelings and emotions. I have moments that i can cry listening to this song but most of the time i can only stare blank at the screen without even flinching. Now anyone can hurt me but i feel nothing about it. Only emptiness. I have a lot of respect for Jonathan Davis but this song made me destroy my abuser and i feel bad every day doing so. This live has made me sick of it all.
Helgi Hilmarsson true but that's the cost of art. especially if you use pain as a paint brush. you put your own blood and tears into it. Johnathan is a perfect example of this. it takes a very brave soul and mind to do what he does.
I don't know the real reason why, but what I think, and hope, is that he did this to get it off his chest so maybe there is a chance he can get past it by confronting his demons.
When he throws the mic and walks off for that hug, I broke down. You can feel the raw emotion through out the whole song. This took so much courage to perform..
I have nothing but respect for Jonathan Davis and I love this song, but when he screams "WHYYYYYYYY?" at the very end of the song, I can't help but think of the scene at the end of the movie The Room where Tommy Wiseau is screaming and having a tantrum.
i dont wanna sound wierd but i love the way Jon performed this song. His ''possessed'' voice perfectly suited the portrayal of the man he called FATHER
Why the fuck did fans agree to this. People should have petitioned for him to not sing it. It's a song meant to be done once to put his anger out. Have it live on through the album. Unless he wanted to do it to get over it but I feel he didn't have to. As a fan I get nothing from this. I see him hurt and I can't enjoy a song with these lyrics. I feel really sorry for him. All for entertaining "fans". Fans can listen to the album, watch the 1-2 times he performed it and be good. No need to see him bring back old fucked memories. And I bet he had to rehearse it too. Poor guy.
yeah, i bet they played it over and over before those concerts, i mean ray never played this song, he's new member, but head, munk and fieldy played it long ago so..i think it has been even harder to play it on rehearses, cuz there were only few of them, and ive seen few of their rehearses, they always feel kinda claustrofobic..if you can realise what i want to say..its not easy for him..id like to see a interview or smth with jon, i want to hear how does he feel after performing it again
I needed him to perform this. When it's someone you have to go through yourself, it helps seeing someone who inspires you live through it, too. I understand your point, but he needed this to heal.
This is why we shouldn’t easily judge people. We have no clue what has happened in their past. I’ve been a fan of Korn for quite a while, and I never knew this about Jonathan until a few days ago. I have gained a new form of respect for him. It definitely takes a lot for someone to talk about these things.
Never thought I'd see this live,...ever. Some wounds don't ever heal. It took a lot of courage for him to come up and sing this one. JD is a huge inspiration for me and countless others that have had some type of torment afflicted upon them in their life. His drive to overcome his personal demons has ultimately led to his success and I'm so proud of him because not all people can accomplish that. This band has got me thru high school, my worst years of my life back when this album came out in '95. I love these guys. I feel like they grew up with them in a way, and can't thank them enough for the dedication and heart.
Idk bout you but I would never do what he did, it takes a lot to put yourself out there so much, it must be a way to help cope with it to vent like this idk but much respect to Jon for doing it
This one versus the first night in vegas is night and day. He said "this song is old hat I've burried this event, it died when the person who did this to me did" and vega he performed it. Angry growl. Mic back in stand. This the second one, shows maybe he isn't over it. Maybe it is getting to him. He seems truly affected by it. From the low whiney voice cracking at the 3 minute mark to the head down and throwing the mic.
Dude I completely agree. From 3 mins in it becomes 1994 again! I know how horrible it feels to be a victim of that kind of abuse. The person who did it to me is dead too, but the pain is still very real at times. God only knows what it must be like to perform that pain for thousands every night!
I always come back to this very rare moment! This is why I love Korn and why they are so different from many other bands. Jonathan Davis took his trauma and showed the world the reality many people go through. I will always remember the first time I heard the song Daddy and how I cried like a little baby afterwards. Not only did the song help me through my abuse with my mom, but how my Mother grew up with a sick father who raped his own children. It's a extremely beautiful thing when you take real pain and the destructive, turning it to something constructive. It shows us we are human and mental health issues shouldn't be ignored! Korn is one of the few who dared to do this.
One if not the heaviest song ever It’s so pure with real anger and emotion. I can’t even listen to it all the time. I like it in a way because it’s so real and honest. But sometimes I don’t know if it’s okay to like this song.
me too. i feel a little guilty and almost feel like i don’t have a right to listen to it but jonathan davis is a huge inspiration to me and i’m glad that he was able to let his emotions out through his art. i wrote lyrics about something i struggle with after listening to the song for the first time
I first heard this track when I bought the album in 1995, I actually teared up because of how emotional it was. this is an amazing performance and he is making himself vulnerable for his fans and that is something not many artists do
The real emotion shown in this song is an inspirational sight. To have something so devastating happen to you and agree to play this song for the celebration of this great for album, that takes real guts and passion. Everyone who has watched or is going to watch this video should see it as pure passion. Well done Korn, we love you!
Never thought JD would perform this, that must of brought so much trauma up. It really doesn’t matter how much success and fame came with Korn he will never fully overcome his childhood. Legend
Him throwing the mic on the floor at the end of the song just shows how much this song means to him in the sense that it’s deep and personal. i love Korn and support Jonathan it’s sad that he went through what he did
I hear him crying and i wanna be there to help him get better..EVEN IF IM 10 YEARS OLD, I LISTEN TO KoRn AND I SUPPORT ALL OF THEM! IM BEHIND ON THIS BUT I WENT TO MY FIRST KoRn CONCERT IN AUGUST 13TH OF 2021..sorry im just mad at the babysitter that molested him!😭
The pure fact that you can go through the shit that jonathan went through and be able to tell that story to a live group of people when it was hard enough to do it in the studio proves that he's got some serious inner strength. I have NEVER seen a more emotional performance. From the very start before he even started when he was smackin his head, i knew. It's kinda like talkin to a therapist, but for him it's the supporting roars of the crowd, their fans, as well as the other bandmates and roadies and whatnot. I give major props to those who are able to take that pain and express it in such a way. I can't even think about my own father dying still, he was close and all. But that's nowhere NEAR the pain or trauma this song portrays. Guess imma pussy or something lol, but mad respect for anyone who's able to do what jonathan did here, don't be silent forever.
This is the only part of the concert that I actually stopped moshing to watch. That one song that I always wanted to hear live but never prayed for bcuz I knew how painful it was. I'm greatful for them and especially JD for sharing it with us. Thank you!
This one always has given me chills. Always thought his Dad was the one that took his innocence but when I found out it was his babysitter it’s almost to much for me to take. Hearing his tortured soul release this hell is therapeutic in the end. Even for this weary fan
I'm late to see this very late I have a Personal emotional connection to this song and see him face it and do it live is a mixture of victory for him and my god how can he korn got me through so much and I love Johnathan and the band mates for it.
I can't believe Jon actually performed that song live this has ro be the first time Korn agreed to do it live. Jon Davis deserves massive credit here as the song daddy is a based on a true story that happened to him a child. He has announced the family member who abused as a child (friend of the family) but only after he had passed away
To have your innocence taken from you like that and have the one person you love and look to for protection dismiss you I could not imagine. I had something happen to me when I was a kid and ever since I first heard this and what Jonathan went through It has helped me deal with the shit in my head. Jonathan's dark past shared with us has helped many. Thank you Jonathan.
I’ve always loved korn. My family is even from Bakersfield. As a fellow survivor myself, this makes the music all more personable to me ❤️ So much respect to Johnathan for doing this song and being vulnerable
oh Jon...I'm so sorry. i know it was an anniversary of their debut album, but i think everyone would understand if he skipped this song.. its traumatic and sad. raw. i know its not easy to talk about or in case, sing. its sad to see and a million more times difficult for him. i feel like crying.
There's a reason they never perform this song. It's a window. The lyrics to this song clearly put him back into a horrible moment in his life he left behind. Jonathon performing this song is a very brave thing to do.
