I go back to Alabama, take a look at my life What the fuck happened here? I guess that's what they meant when they pay the price I go back to Alabama, take a look at my life Where are the trailer parks and where all the Christmas lights? I had a boyfriend, he came from this town We used to pretend we would marry and start again He read the Bible, showed me what Jesus said He said, "Only read the red" I want Jesus to take me out of this life, baby And I talk to Jesus and ask him if he'll think of saving me Ooh, ooh, ooh I go back to Alabama, take a look at my life Nothing looks familiar here, no one even that I like I go back to Alabama, take a look at my life I was so much happier when I was gonna be your wife We had a deal and I fucked it up when I made the decision to become someone We had the one thing that no one ever had True love, it's true love I ask Jesus to take me out of this life, baby And I talk to Jesus and ask him if he'll think of saving me Ooh, ooh, ooh Ooh, ooh, ooh I never meant to hurt you, baby It's so hard to be true In this world where everything's so black and blue I never meant to hurt you, darling It's so hard to be good In this world where you do what you know you should I want Jesus to take me out of this life, baby And I talk to Jesus and ask him if he'll think of saving me Ooh, ooh, ooh Ooh, ooh, ooh
i miss believing in, trusting, respecting and loving God. i don’t know where God stands with things, where God stands with me and where i stand with God. but God if you’re out there, please be kind. please find your way to me or let me find my way to you. please let that happen in the most organic way that doesn’t take me away from myself. please, at last, be a safe space and do not let me down. please don’t be what men have made You out to be. and if that’s who You truly are, then God please don’t be.
