I'm so sorry that she passed. If I was her mother I would have been there feeding her everyday! And every night! I would have been feeding her slowly around the clock. Like a baby bird. RIP beautiful soul!
Happy Birthday, Lique. I've been thinking about how to phrase this correctly, so I'll just do my best. In your last few videos you've talked about how you want to get better so you can help and inspire people, but I just want you to know that even if you don't get better (which of course we DON'T want!!), you HAVE inspired and helped people, even at your sickest. You've shown dedication in making videos when it wasn't your expertise, when you didn't want to be seen, and when you barely had energy to move or talk. You've shared the dangers of eating disorders, exposed the lack of affordable specialized care, AND best of all, shared your intelligence, poise, and ability to continuously reframe the hardest moments into opportunities for reflection, gratitude, truth, and Love. So rest knowing you ARE making a difference. And we hope to see you get beyond this into recovery.
I don't have an ED, but a bunch of GI issues (too), & am very underweight. Watching her fall through the cracks of healthcare makes me see how I can follow that path & I want to avoid it. I'm still mobile, but it's freaking tough. My docs are suggesting a feeding tube, and if it keeps me from getting worse... she has inspired at least one person to avoid falling further.
I'm 59. I finally am on the other side of my eating disorder. Have had it since I was 16. I've been where you are. Breathing was hard, my heart pounded out of my chest, I had to have help using the bathroom. I never stopped believing I would make it through to the end. I think you will see that an opening for hospital will come very soon. I have a feeling. You can make it through this, but it will always be lurking in the background. Keep fighting. It's worth it.
Hi, my middle name is also Michele! So tell me, xan't the medical persons at least give you an IV? I am confused. I'm not sure how this can possibly happen. Maybe a go fund me page, that can bring you to Ameria for treatment? I am sorry, I guess I just don't get it.
I’m literally about to cry because this is my biggest fear because I’ve been having to deal with anorexia and bulimia for the last 12 years and it’s actually kicking my ass. I have a six-year-old and it scares me that I probably won’t even see her get to be grown. I am trying to recover loudly so no one else has to die in silence. It’s just so difficult.
I realize this is an extremely difficult illness. One reason being, people think "just eat." Thanks to RU-vid and documentaries, I know now that it's not about eating alone. Eating disorders have a lot to do with emotional and mental health issues. You keep trying because thru trying you are doing; when doing your are succeeding. You are succeeding and as time continues, you will become more and more and more successful. Blessings for you, dear. You are worthy - always.😇
Dear Angelique: You don’t look horrible….this breaks my heart. I have two rare spinal diseases and became tolerant on a very bad drug. Chronic pain 24/7. I have no idea what my future holds but please, hang in there…there are angels 😇 watching over you…eat whatever you can. You are so beautiful and articulate and we all want nothing but the best for you. 🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏💕🌺💐🌷 Happy happy birthday ! May you have many more.
My story is similar to yours. I’ve had 2 emergency spinal surgeries that have left me in chronic pain. I’ve had a Morphine addiction for 10 years but I’m very slowly coming off it despite the pain. I can’t function without it. My brain and body are completely dependent on it and coming off it is the hardest thing I have ever had to do.
I totally can relate.I have had 2 spinal surgeries as well. I take just enough morphine so I CAN function. I'm addicted to being VERTICAL & living. I've almost died 3 times & I don't give a fat rats butt who says I shouldn't take morphine. Did you know that the "Opiate Overdose Epidemic" stats put heroine users, illicit drug users buying opiates on the street, people who steal relatives or friends pain meds, & patients who are lawfully prescribed opiates like morphine because they have a true medical condition ALL in the same GROUP? The percentage of overdoses, specifically in those that are prescribed it because they need it, are quite low, yet the STIGMA is ridiculously high. Take care of YOU. No one knows YOUR pain. If you need morphine for chronic pain so you can have an improved quality of life, take it. If you don't need it, don't take it.
@@Rebnic24 Lique spent her last weeks in ICU. She was asked by her doctors to make a decision. Be tube fed 24/7 for at least 4 weeks. Or get no more treatment. She chose to stop treatment. And passed away.
I was anorexic for over 25 years.caused by trauma of an evil stepfather that i stopped eating as i felt it was the only thing he couldn't control. My healing cane within myself. The only ome who could help me was me . Other people could give advice and counselling but i would wallow in the self pity and attention and felt i couldn’t do without it. I loved the attention. Till one day at 3st, 4lb i was told help yourself or die. I didnt want to die so from that day on i persevered , i got mental counselling but i was determined to be the person i was meant to be . Now im married , a mother and grandmother. Only you can help you .
I had ED and ended up getting my heart started 5 times. When you face death sometimes you say I would rather be fat and alive then be skinny in a box. The worst thing about the world today is a push on vanity. We emphasize looks and not personality. A persons looks should be past on the list. Personality is what we should make pretty. I know it’s hard to think about putting on weight. We are taught the thinner the better. I don’t know my weight. I don’t own scales. I learned that the number on a scale should not decide how I feel about je. If I go to the doctors I say don’t tell me at all. It doesn’t matter if I’m 190 or 90 pounds the scale will trigger me. Also never care about the size of your close. Cut the label out etc. I know what your going through and I am going to pray for you. You are beautiful and you will still be beautiful at a higher weight. You have to train your mind to believe that bigger is better. You have a wonderful personality. That is the true key. I believe in you. I think you will win this battle:)
Thanks for your comment dear! But I didnt ever feel fat or too big… on the contrary… I really dislike being so skinny! Every ed is different. Mine had a different onset. I fear eating but desperately want to gain weight 😳
You have beauty that pierces the heart and makes me feel your courage in such a state of vulnerability! You have brought me comfort with your honesty and compassion. I’m so glad you shared more about how this happened, and I hope you get the opportunity to share all of it one day with the world! I understand what it is like to live in dire health circumstances, having taken care of both my daughters their entire lives, all the way to putting on their socks & shoes, and helping them just to get comfortable enough to lay down to sleep. My oldest was 26 years old when she died, and my remaining daughter is 16, who has only me to help her to survive against all odds. You have helped me to not feel so alone in a world full of people who live for self indulgence & ease! Thank you! Happy 41st birthday from Texas! Warm regards, Jenny
She has such a beautiful soul her English is amazing, my heart was breaking listening to her and the desperation in her voice. I prayed so hard for her healing but I read comments and realized she passed. She's so brutally honest, I see the beauty in her. May she rest in piece.
Recognizing a problem is the first step. You're well on your way with patience. I too looked a lot like you back in 2005. I had a massive drug problem. I wish you peace, light and recovery.
I was thinking about you in the pass few day , wasn't sure if you passed . I felt sad never knowing for sure 😢and I keep looking for a video but ther wasn't any , and a year later this pop up on my screen wow . And now I know for sure 😢 I know your in a better place where ther is no pain and suffering. Well sweetheart Happy Birthday 🎂 🥳 you touch many life , you did good!!! Farewell my friend RIP until we meet on the other side 🙏 ❤
I'm so sorry for all your troubles you've gone through. I wish you health & happiness. My prayers are with you for your recovery❤🙏 Also I wish you a happy birthday. 🎈🎉
That beautiful woman in the photo is there, she is in every mouthful of food you consume, I wish all the very best for you, your have a lot of worth, when your well again you can help so many others on there journey, God has a plan for you…Happy Birthday sweetheart..x❤️
I know it's not quite the same but I have struggled for years with addiction. I was that bad, couldn't stand up it caused me not eat or keep anything down. I was really sick. I literally was so fed up I just wanted to die. Then something snapped in me and I realised me as a person was worth saving and so are you. Use your higher power, take it minute by minute, do what you have to get through another day. You seem a bright intellectual woman and strongly believe you can do it. I'm sending my higher power to you for a couple of hours to give you more strength. Keep on keeping on lady 😊 xxxx
Totally get what you mean. I see an eating disorder as an addiction as well in a certain way. Recognize a lot in myself which is comparable. Thank you for sharing this… 🙏🏻💖
I think you are a very brave woman to tell us your story. I believe you will find the inner strength to recovery and have a bright positive future. Take care. Madelaine from England xx 🌹
I'm praying for you and hope you get a place asap. You are so brave to be so open. I wish you all the best. You deserve all the happiness and healing. ❤
Dearest Angelique, I LOVE YOU AND AM PRAYING FOR YOU....PLEASE PLEASE DON'T GIVE UP! WE ARE PRAYING FOR YOU! You ARE going to RECOVER, I BELIEVE with ALL of my HEART!! I LOVE YOU! .♥️♥️♥️♥️...KEEP FIGHTING ! You CAN do this
This is the end result of ridiculous standards of appearance of body size, beauty, fashion, and social media that exponentially spreads it. I am sorry she suffered from trying to attain the impossible. Anorexia is a mental illness as much a physical one. A very brave woman. Blessed be
You're so incredibly brave, for fighting so long and sharing your journey with others. Thank you so much for telling your story, hearing about it makes me feel less alone in my eating disorder journey that has already cost me so much. I hope your birthday will be good and that you do a little bit of celebrating. Seriously though, celebrate yourself. You're a beautiful person who is so insanely strong for persevering through all you have gone through in life, for having the courage to reach out and ask for help, for sharing your story with the world and connecting with and helping so many other people on their eating disorder journeys. You are an amazing person, never forget that. Happy birthday! ❤️
Food is energy and medicine, not an enemy. I had some disordered eating for a while and had to completely stop my behaviors to prevent it from getting worse and to stop the dangerous mindset I was in. Please love yourself and the life God gave you and see that life is much more than your thoughts. Food is meant to enjoy and share with others and socialize and make memories over. I hope you heal. Its truly sad that this exists.
You are a wonderful human being and sharing your story will help so so many people! I’m praying that you get that hospital spot very soon and that the doctors diagnose and treat your intestinal problems. It all started there God bless
Thank you for sharing....we may be just people watching this video and having hope and faith for you....but for some of us, YOU are the hope and faith we needed!....YOU are the inspiration that may finally reach some.of us and give us strength to start on our journey to recovery!. Again thank you for sharing! You will/ are changing lives!. Be strong! Be brave! And never give up!
You have an absolutely amazing soul. You're so special and rare. I have tears in my eyes. Keep fighting, because you're right, you are here for a reason.
Happy Birthday. I hope it's better than you expect. It really helps to know that there are others of us with complex eating disorders and underlying medical conditions. Love to you!
Dear Angelique, I am extremely sorry and I hurt for you. Your bravery, inner beauty and strength still shines through and that's what we all see. Lots of prayers. God can do miracles as you know. 💞 Thinking of you, Rebecca
I hope when you read my comment you feel the peace and healing vibe that I’m sending your way! 💖💫✨ You are braver and stronger than you may realize. Happy Birthday!
I’m thinking of you and hoping you will be given the insight to see what a beautiful human being you are so you have the strength to stop tormenting your body and mind. Once you begin healing, you will be invaluable to helping other people who suffer from eating disorders. You’re in a unique position to guide other people as someone who went through it yourself. You can use your experience, thoughts, wisdom, failures and successes to help other people. That is going to be your gift. You are worthy of a beautiful life and you will have it. Much love to you from Michigan. ♥️
Happy birthday, beautiful! I’m so glad you’re here to celebrate. You are such a lovely soul and as much as I (and everyone else) want full recovery and long life for you we will continue to love and adore you regardless. You deserve so much more than this illness and certainly better than to die from it. We believe in your ability and all are hoping that your body can get you where you need to be. Please be as well as possible darling
Happy Birthday pretty girl. You’re in my prayers and I wish you nothing but the best. You look lovely every day. And you WILL get better. You’re very courageous and you WILL get better. Big hugs!
I'm thinking of you darling, thank you for touching others lives with your sacrifice. You have incredible courage and goodness. Wherever you are, there's a lot more light.
To be very sick with grace and have no bitterness show an inner peace and strength the only Gid can see when he looks into your soul. Not everyone has this and it is truly inspiring and beautiful. Congratulations, you inspired a sub 4 minute miler. You are in my thoughts and prayers. Be strong. Fight like hell. God bless
I started my eating disorder in a similar way with an illness that eventually grew into an ED...but regardless still had an ED to battle....I wish you luck and that you get the help you need. Don't be in a rush because mentally you think it will be fast,you don't know that for sure until you are in that situation. It takes hard work to get well when your body and mind is this far gone. It will be a road to travel,so be patient with yourself and the people helping you🙏
I'm sorry this is so difficult. I wanted to tell you that I see you.You showed a picture of u when you were healthier, you felt you were beautiful then.Your hair, your eyes.I can't see ur hair but ur eyes are still as beautiful as ever.. and you yourself are also very beautiful as i can see ur beautiful heart clearly and ur shining spirit.You are very special sister.. please continue to fight for ur life as u are.The world needs you here strong, beautiful,woman.There are other humans here who love and need you're kindness and insight. I hope this is ur happiest most fruitful year to date and that you receive all the things you need to thrive. I will do what I can do for you which is to hold u in my heart and prayers. Happy birthday sister ❤️🤗
Sending you strength and best wishes. I had anorexia and bulimia when I was 16/17. My mom realised and she kept a strict watch on me, making it hard to throw up. I became very devious and would do it in a bag then throw it away. I luckily never got so bad and over a couple of years got myself back on track. Although years later I still sometimes made myself sick if I thought I had over eaten. I was very thin but I couldn't see it and thought people were lying when they commented on it. I'm actually a little overweight now but at 58 I don't let it bother me. I hope you get all the help you need to become healthy and are able to live a more normal life
hey , i suffer from obesity , the other way around of eating disorder . i m literally crying because we are so strong , but so vulnerable. please try anything so you can get rid of this ED. i m trying and i m on the good way . hugs and i really hope to see more videos from you,sweetheart.
You're very brave to speak to everyone. Anorexia is tough. Because it's psychological trauma that affects your physical health. I remember my battle with it thirty-five years ago.
She needs and is waiting for a specialized care hospital. She is not waiting for a general hospital. This situation occurs every day in the US. I’ve worked in this industry for many years and the treatment for ED are limited.
Not so..in the United States there are county hospitals that are tax payer funded.. AND ALL HOSPITALS OFFER A FINANCIAL ASSISTANCE program .. and pay plans… you are not denied at any hospital here in the US if you go in to an ER. I have worked in several different hospitals in the BUSINESS ADMINISTRATION DEPT SO I know what I am saying. PLEASE STOP WISHING FOR SOCIALIZED Healthcare… ALL MY EURO FRIENDS WARN ME AGAINST IT!! Our doctors will turn to shit quality if we move towards socialism. This country is the last beacon of freedom and we must open our eyes to what is deteriorating our country.. I won’t go into it but I’m telling g you, say NO TO SOCIALISM..!.
At least you can have medical attention with free healthcare. My country has "socialized" healthcare but also private if you choose it. Although it needs to be improved, you have secured attention if you need it and can't afford the private one.
May God be with you...you arehere for a purpose. You have taken responsibility and sought help and thst makes a difference. You will recover and you will make another video. Continue to be an inspiration
I came across your site today.. it made me stop and think… having intestinal problems is not something people think of.. until it hits you.. my hubby has some of his removed due to cancer.. all ok now.. but sorting out foods.. what a nightmare! So I’m not surprised of your battle from such a young age (i know you end up being an expert in diet and adsorption rates!) . Angelique keep fighting.. there is a solution! God is with you and he loves you. Let him heal you, I pray this in Jesus name. amen. I hope your birthday was relaxing and not too tiring. Keep us informed of your journey.. hugs and kisses. From Tasmania, Australia
EDNOS survivor & overcomer here. You have the full capability love. You’re a very strong 💪🏽 & beautiful soul. 🌹🤍 Praying 🙏🏽 for you sweety. Look into EFT (emotional freedom technique) about reprogramming your subconscious mind & innerchild healing. Get to the roots & pull them out. Talk with your medical team about it.
You are amazing. You have the inner strength to carry you through. I don't think people realise how falling seriously under weight, for whatever reason, is so much more dangerous than being over weight. I hear your strong and determined voice telling us that you have not given up. I believe in you and you can train your digestve system, slowly building your physical stamina. You alone understand your body. Thank you for these videos.
I pray that you get the help you need hun❤ im glad you see how sick you are. Too bad it wasnt sooner,but Gods will be done. Blessings to you sweetheart.
Angelique, I know you must be exhausted physically as well as mentally. I hate that you are on this road in life. I am thankful that you have found Jesus Christ. I am glad that you choose to be to be grateful for everything positive in your life. You have a kind , sweet spirit. Happy Birthday! I will pray for you...Heavenly Father, I thank you for giving Angelique such a beautiful spirit. May your grace, comfort, and healing Spirit wash over her and her life in ways that are " immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us. " Ephsians 3:20.
It saddens my heart to find out she has passed!!🥺🕊️🕊️🕊️🥺🕊️🕊️🥺 and the lack of available help in the healthcare system is appalling!!😡😡😡😡😡 unbelievable!! Shame on them!!! Makes me wonder if she would have recovered if she got the help she so desperately needed!! But didn’t get due to the system’s failure!!😡🥺🥺😡
@@liquefaith thank YOU!! I have struggled with depression anxiety cptsd for years and I am in awe of your ability to fight against those days when you just can’t move. I can’t imagine your pain, but I know pain. And since discovering you, your videos have gotten me up. It’s incredible to see you begin a video in such a dark place and then as you begin to speak you transform. You show us before our eyes what strength looks like as you build towards hope, determination, defiance, sometimes all 3. I wish I knew news channels in the Netherlands bc I would be begging them to put you on and get you all the resources you need. I think it’s more than a want, we all in these comments need you ❤️
@@marleyd.3003 am a moment silent here…. This is SO sweet of you to say… and I am so happy to hear it really helps you! I am just being myself and letting you into my current life. It is also a blessing for me to not be alone in this. So thankful we can share this together 🙏🏻💖😍
Ohhhh HONEY !! I am praying for you !!!!!! You are just sooooo sweet!! Beautiful eyes 👀 and beautiful heart !!! Praying God in heaven will help you come through this battle !! Love from Hershey Pennsylvania USA 🇺🇸 ❤
First time viewing your video hun.I pray to the Lord above you receive the help you need.Please stay positive. I will keep you in my prayers 🙏 ❤️ God Bless.And sending you many hugs.Happy Birthday hunny.🎉🎉❤
I haven't had an eating disorder, but I do understand. Before I figured out how to control my Crohn's symptoms, I had pain every time I ate. It made me afraid to eat. My diet got really weird before I got on some medication that seemed to help a little bit. But the medicine also made me very sick. Eventually I found a way to control my symptoms naturally.
@@liquefaith you are very welcome and thank you, old record ikr but it makes me feel good to say it, and hopefully it makes you happy to hear it, I love you, and thanks for the reply keep well .🙏🙏❤️⭐☀️🔥💯
@@liquefaith hang in there sweetie. You got this and I just know a bed is going to open up for you. It’s like the monster from Stranger Things, it’s beating you down but you will win the war. Stay strong PLEASE!!! We are all cheering for you and we want nothing more than to see you succeed. 🤗🙏❤️
I’m just curious if they can get you into a hospital for the GI issues instead of for the eating disorder. You said you really don’t have a ED … it’s because you can’t eat without GI issues happening. They may have an easier time addressing the stomach problems and the rest will ease up if they can get that going in the right direction.
Strange thing to recommend but peanut butter and honey or maple syrup is a great way to get some calories down with all the macros. It's easy prep and fast, plus can be kept bedside
I do hope you get well. As a long term sufferer, I do understand. Are you afraid to die? Thats the ultimate question. No amount of therapy will work if you dont find something to live for. The struggle of being thin is really hard. there is a way to focus all that anorexia brain to getting well. Its the ultimate show of bravery and can do anything brain. You actually know what to do. Only you can choose it. Choose it. Force feeding just takes your control away. You eat the food. You decide to do it. YOu take control. Im in my 40's, Im ok, I fight off the thoughts and Im proud of that. I turned the fight in my mind into learning, and fighting the thoughts. Just as tough both ways lol. My intestines are somewhat ruined, but, I eat a well balanced diet, im proud of that. Brain chemistry changes at different weights. Be aware of that. Ruminating happens when at lower weight and tells you to go harder. But, the brain chemistry is telling you that. How many do you know appreciate your efforts to be thin? do you appreciate you are thin? Change your brain chemistry and you will see more clearly. Use the internet to learn about the brain, and food works for the body. No one is saying to over eat. Just eat to keep your body functioning. We all know it sounds simple. Ultimately it is that simple. I have to do it. And its an effort I do everyday. My life is important.
I just came across your channel for the first time and I can tell you have a beautiful soul. I can feel your bright spirit through the video and you have a great outlook on life despite everything going against you. I really really hope you are able to get the care you need to improve your quality of life. I don't know why there isn't more help when eating disorders have the highest mortality rate of all mental illnesses. I struggled for years a while back but had my recovery during my drug rehab program. It is very hard mentally and physically. I love to see you are fighting every day and I will be thinking about you every day in hopes that you get the help you need. I hope your story can help others. there is so much shame and embarrassment surrounding mental illness but I am so touched to see your honesty and vulnerability.
Dr’s family and friends are tired of her. Plus she always blame other and facilities for her problems and actions. It’s up to her and she failing. It’s like saving someone from themselves. It’s tiring
if you're clueless of this topic and this condition (which you clearly are it's obvious by your words) it might be the best for you to stay silent.. you know... when you're uneducated of something, staying quiet actually makes you look smarter.. your ignorant comment is showing people the exact opposite... how embarrassing for you..
She's in need of psychological help to help battle the mental before the physical. Obesity and anorexia dont start in the body, they start in the mind and also end in the mind. She needs psychological help and possibly psychiatric assistance...
It's a mental disorder with serious -cutiously or not so much- also affect the mind. Also, ir's amongsr the deadliest. She has a disease and she's stating the situation hospital-wise. If you have nothing nice to say, why comment at all?
Praying for your healing, please don’t give up. You got this and God got you please keep fighting. I need you to believe that God has already healed you, speak life over yourself. ❤❤❤❤❤🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽
