Leslie's Cancer Confessions: Signing Off 

Dear Mr Leslie, i just came across this msg today. My heart is broken for your loss & your Dear Leslie's suffering. I am in tears. She sure did fight! Know that she has inspired me in my fight. I promise to keep her memory alive. God bless you, your daughter & your son. & your puppies ~ what divine angels they must have been to comfort her also. You have my genuine condolences.

My mom we took her to hospice and it was amazing. It was a facility and her room was set up like a bedroom. It was totally silent and there were 12 of us there. We never left her alone we rotated in and out. I slept by her bed til she passed and she was never in any pain. Thank you for sharing this with everyone. The volunteers slipped in and out so silently and the doctor was always there to increase her meds. We had ministers in and out along with my moms minister. It mattered to us and her. She never suffered one second. She passed on the 3rd day.

My wife was diagnosed with stage 4 cancer three years ago. I looked on RU-vid for information on this horrible disease and found Leslie's web page and have been following it ever since. Leslie always wrote back when I made a comment. I had not seen an update in a while and feared the worst. Thank you for this sign off. I will miss Leslie's updates. You have my profound sorrow for your loss. Take care Rick

My husband has terminal stage 4 colorectal cancer. I am dreading when this happens. I am so sorry for your loss of such a beautiful woman 💜

The last 30 seconds is shattering, but don't let that put you off. Leslie's husband fills in for her mission to inform others. He speaks frankly about the pitfalls of emergency rooms, palliative care units, and home hospice. He provides lists of things to look out for, what to ask in advance, and things that help you care for your loved one. Beautiful, dignified, life-affirming and above all, loving.

While we were getting home hospice ready for my Mom, she was in the hospital. In the middle of the night, two young, loud girls came in and woke my Mom up to turn her so she wouldn't get bed sores! I told them she was dying and she didn't need to be turned. I escorted them out and went straight to the nurses station and told them we didn't want anyone but the nurse or doctor back in the room again. They apologized and agreed to our wishes.

So sorry to find her channel this way. Rest In Peace love. You will be missed.

Know that when a boat crosses the horizon it moves from your sight, but it is still moving on its journey towards its destination. Leslie has gone from your sight but she is still moving on in her journey, towards a new destination. Your wife' s compassion and drive to help others and the love she leaves behind has helped many. God Bless xx

Recording this must have been so hard. Thank you for sharing this journey with us. So truly sorry for your loss.

My mum died of cancer at 55. May they rest in peace xx

I am so very sorry for your great loss. Leslie was lucky to have such a wonderful man at her side. Bless you for the love and care you gave her. I am so sad she had such struggles but you fought her corner all the way. God bless you. I hope you find happiness again in your own life. I am sure Leslie will walk with you always ❤️❤️❤️😘

This was heartbreaking to hear. I’m an RN in Australia and we do end of life care very differently here... morphine pumps are a choice for the patient BEFORE the pain gets too extreme... every person should be able to die pain free. I’m very sorry for your loss 💙

I just lost my husband on November 27, 2020 to colon cancer, he was only 51 years old. It has been very hard. My prayers are that you find a peace that passes all understanding during this difficult season.

Sorry for your loss. Thank you for your honesty and for sharing what you have learnt. I used to watch Leslie's videos.

This is heartbreaking. Of all the specialities, palliative care needs to have their act together. There is no do over. And now you, the family, are left with so many emotions and the sadness of knowing things did not work out as you all had hoped. All you have described and the questions you advised should be asked are of immeasurable value. Thank you. Please accept my heartfelt condolences. Your wife was an amazing woman.

I just found this in my recommendations. First of all, I’m sorry for your loss of Leslie. I’m an RN, of 40+ years, some of those years in hospice & palliative care. I wholeheartedly agree that the US needs more PCU’s or palliative care hospitals as free standing hospices of sorts and are not constrained by stupid opioid regulations. People are suffering and NEED their rest and pain relief NOW, not in 2 hours! Patients need more control in these settings NOT dictated by “it’s not time for your meds” when you have less than 30 minutes until it’s time for your next dose. Hospice at home is what I did. I don’t care HOW MUCH PAIN our patients were in, we made sure, if we had to stay there all day and night to give IV meds if that meant every 30 minutes! No matter in the hospital or hospice, pain relief should be #1! REMEMBER: Pain is WHATEVER the patient says it is! No one has the right to judge or speak for you or tell YOU what it is. Absolutely, the patient should be in control of their pain med options. We took our own call. When our patients needed his/her team, we responded immediately and in person...no service did the call go through. Yes, hospices are money makers no doubt about it! That’s why a lot of people opened hospices for the government reimbursements. Always do your research when signing up for a hospice. Remember you CAN fire that hospice if you feel they are not doing your job. I was the hospice team leader of 1 LPN, myself & an CNA and was given the permission by the Medical Director to give not prescribe, medications or increase those medications as needed. The Medical Director trusted my judgement as well as that eliminated the need for a delay in getting the pain meds to the patient as quickly as possible. Like I said and you stated, the free standing hospices are desperately needed more than home hospice or the ER. I’m so glad you were able to get to a free standing hospice facility. I cared for my mom through breast cancer. I feel your pain Sir, both as a HCW and human being. Thank you for sharing her/your story. God bless Leslie and you for sharing your story. 💔 💝

I just came across this channel, I’m so sorry for your loss. May she RIP🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻

Hi Mo.. I started to watch and realized that Leslie had died. My young daughter got colon cancer at 27 and died at 32. Mo was a fighter and strong woman. 1 yr before she died,she lived in Kona. We went to the beach and I watched her swim her best stroke butterfly, stage 4.I cried. I'm am sorry about your loss, but you have so many good memories. Every night I wave to Mo' photo in my bedroom and tell her" good night Maura, I love you"

What a brave man she sounds like she was amazingly strong. Thank you for sharing. You truly took very good care of her. My condolences to you and your family. God Bless!

I am so sorry for your loss but also for your helplessness in trying to help her get comfort. She is so lucky to have had you!

Sending prayers and strength. My husband was 55. It’s not easy losing your best friend. ❤️💔

My condolences to you and your family. I lost my husband March 27, 2020. Its a lonely transition for you and I understand how you are feeling. Prayers for you all.

I don't know why RU-vid recommended this video to me, but I'm glad it did. Your wife is/was an inspiration - she fought so hard, for so long and was stronger than I could ever hope to be if faced with the same circumstances. If there is a life after our time on earth, I hope she is finally free of her pain. For whatever it's worth, you also deserve so much adulation and praise for supporting your wife through this years. I hope you and your family find peace in these difficult times, and take solace in the fact that she was a hero to the people who followed her journey.

So sorry for your loss. She was a fighter with a beautiful kind soul. She will be missed.

Oh Mo Im so sorry for your loss of Leslie. She was a warrior in her battle with this dreadful cancer. She would be so proud of you for this sign off. Im sending prayers, hugs , light and love to you, your children and loved ones that you may find comfort during this difficult time. 🙏🏻❤️

"Leslie's cancer confessions is signing off, forever".... that part broke me down. Life is cruel.

I'm so sorry. I can see the love and hurt in your eyes . I really going to miss her. I remember when you guys lived in another state I think it was. Anyway your sweet wife had some type of playhouse or swing in y'all back yard. I told her how I love it and she said if I lived around her she would have given it to me. Because she said she had it on Craigslist. That touched my heart. Rest in peace you sweet wonderful soul. I'm really going to miss you. Praying for your family.

Oh she looked and sounded like she was such a lovely soul, may she fly high in heaven. She was the same age as me, and I had breast cancer too back in 2014. Luckily for me mine was caught early so was treatable and beatable, and I following a very rough year I now have been cancer free for almost seven years.

Good things to know. My dad and grandfather died at home of cancer with home hospice. I have been in the hospital after surgery and they do wake you up constantly. My husband is a dr and he consults with the home hospice nurses when his patients are doing it. The patient SHOULD be able to use a pump with hospice. The thing with pain is you have to stay ahead of it, so it needs to be be given before the pain is being felt. Thank you for sharing this. I wish you and your family peace after this long and painful journey.

I’m so sorry for your loss. She sounds like a wonderful person and the world is not as bright now that she is gone. Thank you for sharing and providing the questions/information. It will help all of us facing this difficult time.

I am so sorry you had to go through that. The Hospice here in Marion County, FL sends a doctor to your house. When death is eminent i.e. a week or so, a crisis team comes to the house and you have 24/7 RN coverage. Pain meds are delivered by liquid or IV or pump. It was so unnecessary for you both to have gone through the emotional and physical trauma. Leslie is now in the arms of God ❤️

Our hospitals don’t have a PCU. My mom had Parkinson’s disease for 22 years. We had to finally admit her to an in patient Hospice facility, which was a huge blessing. The nurses and doctors were absolutely amazing! It’s now 3 years after mom’s passing and they still call and check on our family! Her muscles in her throat were paralyzed so she couldn’t swallow meds. They put her in a drug induced coma and she left us peacefully. Her passing was a blessing. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.

Your wife was wonderful person my thoughts and prayers going to you and your family at this time bless you all so much .Thank you.

I am so sorry. I loved her videos! She was a joy and she was truly loved! You were her blessing

I am so sorry. What a horrific nightmare. I'm glad you finally got to a good hospice facility! What a journey! May her memory be sustaining for you. I've never seen your channel and this just popped up!

I am so sorry for your loss! Much love to you and your family.

I miss you sweetheart, love and kisses.

Omg! Just tears! Thank you Leslie for the strength you gave me at my weakest. Love you forever and I will carry on helping people like you helped me. From Guadeloupe.

The weekend my mother passed, they removed the balloon pump, and told us that if she made it to Monday, they would send her home on hospice. As you said, she was sleeping peacefully, on a morphine drip. They kept coming in to check her temperature, etc and waking her up, taking blood, etc. We challenged them on it, as we wanted her to be comfortable and didn't see the point (that was the only nurse we weren't crazy about, the others were absolute legends!). They honored our request to let her sleep peacefully. So sorry for your loss.

I am so so sorry for your loss. I am sure She was a wonderful wife and mother and friend. Thank you so much for taking us with you during the end of her journey and yours. You have shared some very valuable information as well. Take care and may God be with you.

This must have been a very difficult video to make. You did a wonderful job. I’m sure she is proud of you.

Oh I am so sorry that you and your family have experienced this loss. My wife is going through MSBC now. Since 2013 diagnosed stage 1 then in remission after 4 chemo rounds and 30 radiation rounds and a lumpectomy. In 2018 it went metastatic. She had to have a rod placed in her femur. She was HER2 positive then they placed her on estrogen blockers and she is now triple negative. It went into her bones. Well the Ibrance stopped after 20 months and the xgeva stopped working after 9months. My wife has not had pain the entire time. However it is now in her lungs and she has a liver biopsy 12/27/22. She is having trouble breathing once in a while. They want to start Trodelvy on the 30th. It is so uncertain and being the husband I understand the challenge that this journey has. I am fearful of the future but thankful for the present. We have been blessed with 30 wonderful years together and plans don’t always work out but each day is truly a gift. We do not have children however we do have a very strong support team in our families. We have been told by her Oncologist that there are patients that they have with this who are much older than my wife who are 10 years out with this disease in the lungs and liver. I know that you may never read this but I appreciate your story and again God bless you and your beautiful Leslie and family. It appears she really had a strong loving foundation and support surrounding her throughout her journey.

I’m so very sorry for your loss. Thank you for being so kind in doing this video. The information is invaluable and sadly we don’t think of everything prior to arriving at these moments we must try to get through while in shock and horror. You continue her legacy with bravery and unconditional love which is a beautiful testimony of your love and grace...and hers as well. Thank you for sharing your journey with her and I know she is always with you❤️

Rest in peace Leslie

I am so so sorry for your pain. I lost my husband 26 years ago. Still miss him terribly to this day. Leslie was fortunate to have you. You will be in my prayers as you strive to get thru the upcoming days. Continue to be strong....stay focused and keep your eyes on Him.

Thank you for doing this. Vital and powerful. All to the Glory of God. Thank you. ❤😢

My heart goes out to you. Having supported my mum and being able to give her the death she wanted, at home with the cats and me. There are so many precious moments amidst the sadness. Now it's just adjusting to a world with someone missing. It takes time to adjust to not having to rush home, fret about care and getting it right. Just one foot in front of the other for now. It will get easier over time but important to allow yourselves to mourn. Prayers for you all. She sounds an amazing woman.

What a tragedy. She was beautiful and will be missed

She was lucky to have you by her side, you did everything you could to make her safe. My husband left me cause he couldn´t handle my health issues, so maybe I will someday find someone else who will do these things to me as you did for her. My condolences to you and the family.

Truly sorry for your loss🙏🏼❤️

So sorry for your loss. My sister also passed away after more than 14 years with breast cancer, metastatic. Thank you for all of your observations and comments with questions for others to ask. I wish I would have asked some of those same questions. I am sure your words have already helped many and will continue to help others. I work in an oncology office and I will share the link to this video to others. God bless you and your family

thank you for doing this video for her, wishing you peace, thank you

I am so deeply heartbroken for your family. Leslie has helped so many through her RU-vid videos and I amongst several others faced with the difficult realities associated with metastatic breast cancer. My mom was diagnosed with the same type of metastatic breast cancer that Leslie had last year in September. Her Vlogs gave me strength and hope in times of despair and I think, when and if you are ever ready you should continue making these videos to honour her. Fighting cancer for as long as Leslie did takes a team. She was the captain leading the way and you and her health care team there to support her. Leslie was nothing less than fearless, courageous, and inspiring in her fight against this terrible disease. Wishing you and your daughter so much healing during this difficult time. Words and sympathies will never make this easier but hopefully knowing that Leslie made sure you are loved and supported by a community she built, a community of others eager to embrace and support you during this hard time consoles you and brings you peace during this time. Please Continue sharing if you feel comfortable to do so. Her legacy doesn’t end, you carry it with you. Sending you and your family Love always from Canada. Take care.

I'm so sorry for your loss. Your advice on contacting the hospice nurse, direct contact vs call center, brought back memories of my dad's home hospice experience... He died in the middle of the night. While we had his pain under control with liquid morphine, I couldn't reach the hospice nurse when he passed. Repeated calls went unanswered bc she left her phone in the car overnight. I had the hospital trying her as well. Then the hospital assured me they'd keep trying and call me back, then failed to do either one. Several hours later, we reached the funeral home and they came for him... then the nurse finally called back, 5-6 hours after the fact. It was bad enough I was the one to find my dad (in my childhood bedroom) and then had to inform my siblings, and enough that I was orphaned in my 20s, without having to phone chase professionals. One other thing I feel hospice should be better about, another question for loved ones to ask, is what to expect after the last breath. Not just signs the end is near. Bc I was unaware, I thought he'd choked/aspirated and abruptly passed, bc I wasn't right there to help. Things can be much less traumatizing if you know what to expect. Knowing this, I've been better equipped to handle loss since.

I'm sorry for your loss sir, I offer you and yours my empathy.

I know it's difficult in those dark moments to not feel bad about things that could have gone better. But in all honesty I don't know if many people at all will sit there and check Google reviews in those circumstances, especially during that time. This is not something you should be expected to check reviews on, least of all read negative ones.. the home hospice situation was not your fault, the blame doesn't lie with you and I hope you don't ever feel it does. I won't put my feelings about that that here, I just hope you and your family can grieve knowing you did your best and that she was as comfortable as possible, and most of all surrounded by so much love. My sincere condolences to you and your family. Thank you for sharing this with us, I'm sure it will help people going through something similar. Wishing you strength to see you through, thinking of you all x

Im so sorry for your loss. My mother is fighting Breast cancer that shes had for about 2 years.

I'm so very sorry for your tremendous loss. My mom is fighting brain cancer right now, and it just so very hard.

Typing this in tears.. reading previous comments and hearing about Leslie’s experience breaks my heart. I’m so sorry for your loss. ❤️🕊

I never watched any of Leslie's videos and stumbled across this one. Thankyou for sharing this on her behalf. You did a fantastic job. RIP Leslie

I`m so sorry for your loss.. She`ll truly be missed!

Thank you for being able to share this with all of us. She is at peace & will forever watch over you all.ucj love & many prayers.

My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family. Thank you for sharing her last days with us.

So very sorry for your loss but being in control finally must have been so helpful..

I just wanted to let you know how much this video helped me thank you so much for the information, I hope you are are doing well, I never watched any of your wife’s videos,but plan to now I know I will end up crying prayers to you and your family

So sorry for your loss. You are a very brave Man, who God gave a very brave woman!

Thank you for sharing all your knowledge with us..we feel your pain.Much love to those who loved her the best!

I am so sorry for you loss. Leslie was brave and courageous and helped so many people. Keeping your family in my thoughts.

😭😭😭I’m so sorry for your loss. She and I share a similar journey. I only knew her on RU-vid and was amazed. Thank you for keeping her channel up so her journey can help others. She and it are both a blessing to so many others. May your fond memories comfort you. May she rest in peace. 🙏💝

So sorry for your loss! And thank you for being brave enough to share what to do in these difficult times!

Rest in peace Leslie, many prayers to the family and friends.

I volunteered for Hospice for years. They are an amazing organization. I’m sorry you felt your wishes weren’t met.

What an incredibly beautiful woman, you were lucky to have each other. That kind of love is hard to find. She fought hard for so long. Way to young 😢 My condolences to you and your family, she is forever young, beautiful and pain free. Much Love xx ❤️🦋

Just the simple words “signing off” shattered me. This is the first video I have watched on this channel but plan to go back and start at the beginning, with the very first upload, 11 years ago. I am profoundly sorry for the loss of your beautiful wife. It seems she was a very amazing person who lived a great life and fought hard. I am so sorry the lack of understanding on the hospice part caused you unneeded stress in the last few days where you shouldn’t be stressing, you should be resting and loving up on your wife. Make your voice heard so other families don’t have to experience what you did. I pray you are doing ok, as I am commenting a few months later. Praying for you and your family and everyone who Leslie touched 💜

Thank you for your generosity in making this very detailed and informative video. At a time of tremendous personal sadness, you reached out and helped others. She was an amazing person and will be sorely missed. I pray that may God bless you and your family with healing and peace. RIP, Leslie

Mo, what an amazing & heartfelt video at a truly difficult time for you & your family, & I include your beautiful fur Angels in family as they are. I am truly sorry for your loss & she was clearly a beautiful soul. I think she is flying high now watching over you all. You were truly blessed to have known such love & she was to have such a loving husband daughter son & fur family. I want to commend you on the courage it took make this video & for the kind advice you gave which will be added to her legacy. Be kind to yourself & look after yourself & your beautiful family. With love from 💚Herts💚 UK

You are so kind to have posted this..i will think of your courage in the future..thank you for you.

Thank you for doing this video. You are very brave and very helpful. I have been through hell and I could have taken the hospital to court but I was so heartbroken I couldn't face it. I wish you peace x

I hadn't seen Leslie's videos, but for whatever reason, this final video popped up. I can't tell you how sorry I am for your loss! I lost my husband 17 years ago to leukemia, so I can relate to much of this. Home hospice was virtually useless. The nurse came out once on the day he went home from the hospital, while I was out going to various pharmacies to get meds. I had requested the hospice visit to be later so I could get everything together, but they didn't listen. That was the Friday before Christmas. He came again on Monday or Tuesday, was not of much help. He told me he'd be back on Friday. I called hospice on Tuesday trying to get someone to come on Wednesday, as I had financial stuff I HAD to do before he passed. They couldn't send anyone. That night I actually had to take him to the ER, as he was vomiting blood and passed out. I was told by the doctor (the hospitalist who attended him on the cancer floor), that he was on hospice and I wasn't supposed to bring him in. Reluctantly they gave him a blood transfusion and sent him home. On Wednesday our pastor came over and stayed so I could get everything done. He passed on Friday morning, which was Christmas day. When I called hospice, they told me I was going to have to call the coroner, because I took him to the ER, he was taken off of hospice. I argued with them until they agreed to send someone out. I didn't know about that. If you have someone on home hospice, make sure you ask lots of questions before, so you know exactly what to expect! Sorry this is so long. I like you, want people to be prepared! Blessings and prayers for you and your family!!

I am so sorry for your loss and the terrible pain that is in your heart. God bless you and your family . 🙏🙏😘

My sincere sympathy to you. It’s very upsetting that when you reach this stage you need to fight for your loved one. It should have been a peaceful time and I’m glad your in patient hospice experience was a good one. God bless her and you.

I am so sorry for your loss. I only knew Leslie from here on RU-vid but, she was a special sweet soul. May she rest in peace. Deepest condolences to you and the family. You all will see her again. God bless. Ant

I’m so sorry, I just found her here! My condolences to all💖

A beautiful tribute Mo for your beloved Leslie. Thank you for sharing such a difficult time with us. Take care ❤️

You offer a lot of good questions to ask and things to be aware of. You should write a book.

So very sorry for your loss. You honored your wife very well with this video znd continued her legacy of helping people, both the patients and those we ho love them.

So sorry for your loss. I’ll keep you in my thoughts and prayers. Thank you for the information you shared with us.

What a sad situation. I'm so sorry that Leslie, you, and your family had to go through this. Sending healing thoughts....

My condolences. I just came across this video. She sounds like a wonderful person. It is very brave of you to make this very informative video. Best wishes for you and your whole family. Merry Christmas.

I am actually lost for words after hearing yours and Leslie's end of life experience... extremely distressing and traumatic 💔 I am so so sorry

God bless you. Thank you so much for making this video. Praying for you and your family.

Thank you for all the personal pertinent information! You have given so many who are facing the end of life so much insight into preparing for the end. Much love to your whole family and best wishes for the future! I know she will be in your hearts forever!

Thank you for the update, incredibly sad. 🙏💕😢RIP Leslie

I am new to this channel but wanted to say I am so very sorry for your huge loss! May the good memories comfort you... God bless you and your family!

My mum passed at 52, 11 months after her cancer diagnose. Similar story, so heartbroken to hear your wonderful wife had to go through so much pain. As for you, thank you so much for for telling her final story. She was clearly loved by her family in a special way. I’m so sorry for your loss. Stay brave and positive. Sending love from Germany.

Bless you and your family ~ I’m so very sorry for your loss and my sympathy to Leslie’s best friend as I would be lost without mine. 🌸

I am so sorry for your loss. My the Lord Bless and Keep You.

Bless you and your family. My heart breaks for all of you. She was so lucky to have you and such a loving family. This is the only video I have seen about her, but will go back and watch more. ThAnk you for telling about her last days and your hospice issues. So sorry she went through such pain and you and your family also seeing her endure this. You are an awesome person to tell this story. My prayers go out to you. God Bless,🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻

This is a beautiful video. Thank you for posting it and thank for the information. I am sorry for your loss.

I just found her channel yesterday and have been binge watching through today. Wow - you all put up a long, hard fight against this disease. I include her family in this because you all were affected by her cancer and were a strong support system for her. I have worked in medicine for many years and am appreciative of how detailed and descriptive she was in her videos about her procedures, results, drugs, side effects, etc. She was an educator when it comes to metastatic breast cancer. You can be proud of her job well done in releasing this information to the rest of the world.