Thank you so much for your beautifull, artistic, inpired and profond video! "Reality doesn't allow for any imperfections. All must follow the laws of nature. Even...the Inquisitions and the pogroms, all the wars and the hate." It's a difficult part here. As I witness all of this, my human heart can't bear the immense suffering of innocent people, particulary children... Let there be light ,light, light.
If you consider the totality of all lives, the misery far outweighs the few fleeting moments of contentment and love. And if each life is being lived by individual selves, blown about by the winds of cause and effect, then there can be no true justice. The scales are only balanced by the fact that all these lives are not being lived by separate sentient entities, but by the very same Sentience. And the original and natural state of Sentience is prior to experience. The deepest possible peace, where there is no knowledge of time, space, or anything at all.
I just can't listen to videos about "awakening" anymore... I have a strange feeling when I do that... and think: "What nonsense"... what is the trigger?... I used to like it!... It always seems to be just thoughts that tell a story❣️
Haha! As the true point of all the wisdom teachings becomes clear, anything that deviates even a bit, or adds any new concepts just fails to interest. Your own affinity to the truth decides what deserves your attention. It may be that the interest in all the videos and books just fades away. Or you may still enjoy listening to the truest, purest descriptions. But there will be no concept of awakening or attaining anything at some point in the future. All the wisdom teachings are simply pointing out this current and natural state of being aware.
This is kind of what I mean every time I write that I feel like I understand or it makes so much sense, but I don't have the felt experience of it (except maybe occasionally for brief moments). I don’t have this feeling of purity. I don’t abide in ease. 😔
Try to find out what is different in those brief moments. It's the same you, same kind of usual stuff going on, so what's different? If you examine the internal state of mind in those moments and compare it other moments, the problem and solution will be clear. You do abide in ease, but when you imagine being an individual, the experiences absorb attention completely and veil that inner peace. So the main factor to feeling at ease is a turning away from the experiences and towards the awareness of just being aware. Seeing this just proves that peace is your natural state. But as long as there is life, there will be the flow of all sorts of experiences, and you shouldn't expect to be completely in bliss all the time. "The undisturbed state of being is bliss; the disturbed state is what appears as the world. In non-duality there is bliss; in duality -- experience. What comes and goes is experience with its duality of pain and pleasure. Bliss is not to be known. One is always bliss, but never blissful. Bliss is not an attribute." -- Sri Nisargadatta Maharaj, I Am That.