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"Ah"
I was dreaming again
Dreaming about a dream pouring from my wounds
It pours out in droplets and stains the ground
And I was dreaming that it'll turn into a song one day
I had already forgotten
Forgotten how hot the burns were
I had also forgotten how scary it can be
When words start to get colder and colder
I wanted to continue being an angel
That's what I wanted
I wanted to continue being a mirror that
Reflected all the words
People wanted me to say
One time in the mirror
Someone was glaring at me
A black shadow was
Glaring and scowling at me
You probably don't know but
It stabs at my chest and it stays there
The curse you spat out that day
Clings to my heart
You probably don't know but
I've even forgotten how to cry
The pain from that day
Still burns inside my brain
You probably don't know but
I'm human too
I crushed one or two things
I couldn't forgive in front of you
You probably don't know but
I've gotten really bad at smiling
For some reason, what I remember
Are those days that should still be painful even now
You probably don't know that though
*
I wonder if you've realised that
The number of smiles is the number of people leaving
I wonder if you also felt that
The warmer you feel the sadder you become
It's true we wanted
All of our dreams to come true
But I wonder why it only makes us sad
That's right
You're not god
You're not god
Even if I know there's no rhyme or reason
To keep your mouth closed
I couldn't deny it
But even so, a desire for it grew as I was looking at it
I wanted to be loved even if it was in the form of pain
Being forgotten was what
Frightened me the most
You don't have to know this but
We were crying that day
I was trying to protect
All the things you resented
You don't have to know this but
Even I had a dream
The words that were stuck in my throat that day
Are rotting in the bottom of my stomach
You don't have to know this but
Even I wanted to smile
Even someone like me wanted to
Protect something to the very end
You don't have to know this but
I had a feeling that I could fly right now
Even if they're fake wings
I wanted to keep yearning for the sky
You don't have to know this though
*
"Ready?"
Surely, no one will call us weak anymore
Surely, the days of killing will crush my heart
Surely, people will still point fingers at the smile that day
Surely, a pink shade of embarrassment will be painted on top of the regrets
Surely, the more you dream the more of your past you'll have to shoulder
Surely, the tears you shed will cause your heart to be heavy
Surely, you'll want to keep breathing because you don't want to die
"I'm ready."
*
I'm sure it's because you don't know
The fact that I knew the sky was blue
And the scenery we were painting
They were just so small in comparison
I'm sure it's because you don't know
The fact that I'm still singing
And the sound you let go of
It rings deeply in my heart
I'm sure it's because you don't know
The fact that I still look up to you
And the smile you gave that summer day
I wanted to know the reason behind it
I'm sure it's because you don't know
The fact that I still remember your name
And that day, I lied and said I forgot
Those days are what my heart is made of
You probably don't know
You probably don't know
You probably don't know
You probably don't know
Even if you don't know
I was human too
Even if I locked it up and swallowed the key
Maybe, still,
I wanted to remember you
"You probably don't know that though."
17 окт 2024
