I hope this video helps someone out there to know that you are not alone. This video is not monetized. If any ads appear, RU-vid placed them there...not me. I love you, Beauties. xoxo -Mel
Wayne Goss. As I was listening to Mel, I thought of you. I thought of the terrible times you’ve had in the past couple of years. I thought, I’m going to message Wayne on his latest RU-vid post, just to ask him to look at Mel’s post, and be his utterly lovely self. I should have known better. You’re a lovely man, who is always there for his friends. Of course you were here before me. Of course you said exactly the right thing, because you’re you! Mel, you too are a wonderful person. I’m so sorry to hear you are currently struggling so badly. All I can tell you is that Wayne has said it all. I’m sending so much love both your way. This isn’t about me, but I will just tell you both that ‘this too shall pass’. I know this because I’m old...57. I’ve lost a child; I’m currently living with MS... and now metaplastic triple negative breast cancer; my husband has just survived 22 days in a coma with Covid. I’m not telling you both these things to seek attention. I’m telling you because the one thing that (almost) broke me was work related bullying. Not my child’s death (over 30 years ago), not my ill health, not my husband’s coma; a mental health issue. People do not generally understand the strength we have in our survival. You’re both amazing, you’re both brave, strong and beautiful people, both inside and out. You are both survivors. I love you both. This sounds pathetic, because you are both famous and wonderful, whilst I’m a late middle aged, retired old teacher. But I’m here for you Mel, I’m here for you Wayne. ❤️ xxxx ❤️
Mel, you should ask a person you trust to pre screen your comments and delete inappropriate comments, so you don’t have to see them. You have enough going on, and negativity is not what you need.
This video leads me to believe that she was already feeling her death coming. It breaks my heart. I literally cried. How could some peoples be so harsh with someone who is asking for help?! Wow!... She was so strong to bear all this inside her and still create content that makes others happy... This is why we MUST treat ALL people with love and especially respect. We never know what others are going through. We might be killing them even more with awful comments. PLEASE BE AWARE OF YOUR WORDS AND TONE OF VOICE WITH OTHERS AT ALL TIMES. RIP Mel.. Thank you for allowing us to see inside of you so openly. You were so brave to do so. So beautiful and admirable. 🙏😞
I died in December. I obviously was brought back. But for about 6 months before I died, I absolutely felt it coming. I even had a dream that I wrote down (I just found it on my journal like 2 weeks ago) where I basically saw my death. I didn't realize that's what was happening at the time though, and didn't even remember that dream. But there was definitely a sense that it was coming, now that I can look back on it. I've always related with Mel because I also have EDS and POTS, and we're both moms. I'm just so sad. 😔
The way Doctors disregard womens pain is something that NEEDS to change. Both female & male doctors tend to disregard women’s pain & it’s honestly shocking how much things like “heart attacks, etc” show up differently for women vs men. Like Doctors need to EVOLVE & CHANGE! The fact their biases of tattoos have left Mel and other ppl in pain just because of their tattoos (or black women & men’s pain being disregarded) Because they think they want DR*GS and not medical help is disgusting! I’m so so sorry Mel, she’s soo kind and sooo sweet yet everyone in the medical field ignored her cries for help.
Absolutely right. I’m a burn victim. My back is full of scars that are deep and damaged tissues but they told me to go to a methadone clinic if I need strong medication. It’s been 13 years since my accident and I tried so many things. Just like Mel described here I stopped going to the ER because they just disregard me. My „attacks“ usually last an hour. I freeze, shiver and shake. Then usually for days have to stay on broth because my stomach hurts. It’s the deep nerve damage . My son was stillborn after medical mistake. They gave me wrong medication and the doctor didn’t even believe me how bad I felt until I started going into seizures. The cord ripped because it was so bad. I will always remember that feeling and them not believing me, still trying to calm me down because I’m just emotional and then I collapsed.. I wonder how hard it was for her and how left alone she felt by Doctors if she didn’t go to them for severe attacks…
@@MileinaJuarez wow I'm so sorry you went through that. Maybe find a lawyer who will listen to you so you can sue them for their bias. Lessons need to be learned, your sins life was lost& nearly yours. I hope the best for you.
this right here man u just don't know I went to the Dr's a few times Cayse I kept getting sick but couldnt figure out why I went to one hospital and he asked me my level of pain I said a 10 I hold my pain well and have a high tolerance so if I say 10 I'm in extreme pain he tells me wel u don't look like ur in any pain very nastily come to find out later I needed my gall bladder removed and he just disregarded me like I was nothing
@@MileinaJuarez OMG I’m so sorry. I pray things get better for you. I’m so angry at our health care system. They are killing people. Drug companies - killing people Insurance-KP All of it. Research as well from the top to the bottom.
I'm laying here in bed, everyone still asleep and TEARS are ROLLING down my face... Too see you be so vulnerable and knowing how much you have been through, I'm here to warn everyone right now. Anyone writes ANYTHING NASTY, I WILL FLIP OUT ... You're sharing something VERY personal and I KNOW it took a lot for you to do this and people better be nice and respectful .. LOVE YOU SO MUCH❤ I'm ALWAYS here for you and make you laugh💋💋💋 Love you💕💕💕
@@skicouture she's seriously one of the best people I know. Genuinely loves whole heartedly and we've bonded so much in the last few months. She's truly such a beautiful person inside and out❤❤ She's easy to love😍
@@graciemyers4490 She's So special, I can't begin to explain.. she's helped me throughout these last several months as well, I lost my Grandpa last Feb and I instantly become his trustee over his trust and its been so overwhelming and we both came into each other's life at the moment we needed each other most. 🙏 I am beyond grateful to have her in my life and she is truly deep down, a beautiful soul . She deserves nothing but love, always❤
Seeing this now in hindsight of today’s devastatingly sad news, gives a whole new depth to the incredible struggle and pain you were going through and how much you still were filled with care for other people… May you always be remembered for the immense light and real ness and your big heart as well as for your impeccable artistry. May you now finally be in peace even though the world is going to miss your light forever. ❤️
This video came up when I typed in her name. I remember watching most of it 6 months ago but not really paying attention or seeing just how much she was struggling.
She was worried about going to sleep and not waking up, maybe that happened. We’ll just have to wait and see. She seemed to be a lovely person who was finding it hard to cope. Sad news.
As a therapist and sufferer of anxiety, I appreciate when people like you are brave and self disclose. I know it’s hard, but your courage will help so many people out there. I’m proud of you. Lean into therapy, it’s the most vulnerable and amazing step you can take.
I know she's helped me as a Mother to my daughter who is suffering with anxiety and Mel has helped me to understand what my daughter is going through and HOW to help her. You're so right. Being vulnerable and sharing this will help so many people going through the same thing AND help those who have people they love and how to help them through it🙏🙏💞💞
When other people share, it really does help with the feeling of being alone. Going to therapy was one of the best choices I made for myself in the longest time.
@@carly9355 that's amazing, I'm so glad you got therapy and it's helping so much. I've seen huge changes daughter through therapy and it's a true gift therapists give to the world🙏
@@TaraLynnbeauty trust me, therapists are humbled and grateful to be part of helping people change their own lives. Clients are doing all the hard work! Your daughter is amazing for showing up and healing.
Fellow therapist here. I’m a psychologist and have diagnosed depression, anxiety, and a few other things due to trauma. I am so glad that Mel and others are sharing and helping to diminish even a little bit of the stigma.
It sounds like this young lady never had the correct diagnosis. She had major medical issues but assumed it was the crazy female syndrome. My heart goes out to this beautiful lady and her loved ones.
That`s what I thought in the first 2 Minutes of this video. I didn`t know her as I am not the generation that grew up with YT, but I find this very very heartbreaking... 😢
@ab9785 I have MS and it is considered rare, too. It affects 0.003% of the US population. The National MS Society gets funding for a lot of research. Is there a foundation or something that organizes awareness for EDS? Also if you have a doctor who brushes you off or is not great, get another doctor. There are a lot of them out there.
I’m so sad that she suffered so much. Sounds like stroke symptoms…. I just wish her drs. Could have saved her. 😢. We miss you, Mel. Hopefully Puffin and her kids are doing well. 🙏🏻
Mel, there are a lot of things I want to say, but I know a comment is never going to cover it all. Just know that I care about you and that I have so much respect for you on so many levels. You don't need to support ANYONE. Anyone that truly cares about you will understand. As you say that you are not alone, please internalize that. You are not alone and there are so many of us that will do anything we can to support you. Sending you all my love.
Had never seen one moment of a video this woman had made, never even heard her name before an hour ago. Just watched this and cried and I very rarely do. She seems so sincere and so genuine and in so much damn pain. When you literally feel what someone else is expressing that they are really struggling with and they are now GONE...hits so damn hard. So hope she is at peace.
This was incredibly touching, thoughtful and kind of you to say. While I've been watching her videos for awhile, I only now am seeing this video, as I missed it when she posted it. Thank you for seeing the genuine, loving person that she was. It speaks volumes of your character in that you are compassionate enough to feel sorrow for someone you don't know in any capacity. 💕
@@YourFavoriteSwiftie I feel like if you don't say what you truly feel in the moment, a part of you dies. That has hurt me badly at times in my life, but it's what I believe. And you just did that with your comment. Thank you more than you know.
It was so kind of you to post this. She rarely commented on her health, so when she did, you knew she was really suffering. There was a video a couple of months ago where she was smiling but it seemed forced. I messaged her and asked her if she was okay, and she answered back with just a ❤️. She was strong and didn’t want people to worry about her, but was always there with a kind or uplifting word for others. I can’t imagine how much pain she must have been in. It breaks my heart. 💔
The way she felt so dismissed, judged and disregarded by the outside world makes me so sad! People need to stop judging from the outside.. At the end of the day we all as humans deserve to be respected, rearguard and loved... Have empathy for each other guys. RIP Mel. Prayers for all those who love her..
Sadly the way she was treated is typical for most EDS patients. We go through a long list of doctors and specialist before being diagnosed and cared for properly. It’s a CRIME what they do and say to us. Finding the right knowledgeable doctor means the most and saves lives. I’m saddened by her loss of life. She could’ve been saved no matter what the cause was of her death it was preventable. 😢
@@lebalori the medical community is responsible for this young woman's death, regardless of what killed her. Doctors, other medical staff and mental health professionals are gradually losing their humanity and running on ego and hubris. She ultimately did not get what she needed, in time, and she is not alone. Right now, patients are being turned away, dismissed and disregarded, because doctors are overwhelmed, because doctors will not prescribe pain meds, because anxiety can look like drug use, seizures can look like intoxication, and because no one is really looking or listening. I'm broken hearted, of course. More than that I am angry. No one needs to suffer in this manner. No one.
Suzy Manville I KNOW AND I TOTALLY AGREE. THE MEDICAL COMMUNITY IS AT WAR WITH PATIENTS SUFFERING FROM EDS AND CHRONIC ILLNESS. I HAVE EDS AND HAVE SUFFERED SIMILAR ISSUES. MY DAUGHTER ALSO. I RUN AN EDS GROUP AND ONE GIRL DIED FROM LACK OF PROPER MEDICAL CARE ,SO I DO KNOW FIRST HAND WHAT GOES ON IN HOSPITALS AND DOCTORS OFFICES. It’s a CRIME.
Being dismissed by doctors seem to be the norm these days-I’m going issues with doctors being dismissive as well and much of this has to do with us being women.
@@aprilrain2011 you're absolutely right, they do not listen! However, I lost my only psychiatrist 5 years ago and he DID listen and I would be so happy if my current doctors would prescribe the anti anxiety medication I desperately need, such as Ativan- but no one hears me. Omg, Mel's mother has cancer?!
Let’s eliminate the thinking that “you shouldn’t complain because there’s always someone else who has it worse.” This invalidates your experience, your pain, and associates guilt/shame with having your own difficulties, thus making it even harder to reach out for help. You bring joy to many people daily through this platform, and sharing your struggles only further extends the positive impact you are making in other’s lives. There is no doubt someone needed to hear this part of your story today, to give them strength, hope, and guidance. Thank you for showing such vulnerability and how it’s necessary to advocate for all aspects of our own health.
I agree. I have SEVERE Chronic pain & I was watching thinking I could never make a video discussing my pain cause I feel so guilty complaining. I lost my mom to cancer, she was stage 4 for 9 YEARS. I KNOW people are out there suffering wayyyyyyyyy worse. Some days I lie in bed crying in so much pain but Feel grateful for being able to still wake up. It's very hard, so I suffer alone. Your exactly right.
Especially when your kids are older and they watch this video, they will be reminded of what a badass their mom was. You are so brave and so strong. Beyond your passing you are helping people (and bringing smiles through the tears).
hay my beauty you were taken a year yesterday none of us will ever forget you or stop loving you, you have left such a gap in the world you will never belive thousands of people will miss you for ever you will still live on in your channel and be the kind soul you always were and shower the next generations and more with your talent expertise and your teachings rest in peace my beautiful angel xxx
This makes me so sad that I discovered her channel after she passed away. So sorry this happened to you, Mel. I have no words. You’ll never see this which makes it even worse ❤
Mel.. they said if we commented on videos. It would keep your channel active. So, I'm going to talk to you, like you are still here. I have serious anxiety and depression also. I understand. I wish I had seen this when you posted it. You aren't, were not alone. I wish I seen this sooner. I'm so sorry Mel.
Jesus. This is the most heartbreaking thing I've ever seen on the internet. At 26:10, she spoke of her greatest fear...I'm in shock that just a few months later, she'd be gone. Taken much too soon...from so many people who love and adore her. I'll be praying for her children, Puffin and everyone else who loves her and was fortunate enough to be loved by her.
Yeah I’m with you on this. This is tragic and we are watching something very sad here. She’s realizing something is wrong and her anxiety and depression are real. Very real. Poor baby.
This is heartbreaking. I hope every person who sees this will always treat people with an abundance of kindness. You never know what people are struggling with. Always be kind, always!
Crying with you. Hearing of your passing rocked me to my core. So heartbreaking and eye opening. This has changed my perspective on things in my own life lately. You were a beautiful soul for posting such a touching video. Rest In Peace Mel. 😪
THIS! When people speak, we need to listen with our souls, on a deeper level…. We are all in this together 😔 RIP MEL🙏🏼💔 Rest easy, angel 💖 Truly heartbreaking…. 😔
I am struggling with how much her passing has impacted me. For a person I never personally met, I still feel like I have lost a dear friend. I cried when she first posted this and am crying again. I already miss her so much.
@@fishandfloral Your post has brought back the tears, because I feel the same way. Her death has hit me to the core. She was the same age as my own precious daughter. 😭💔💔
Mel, get a trusted subscriber to moderate your comments. Have comments go through a screening process where you can't see them until they have been approved. You don't need the stress, so please, rely on your community to help make this a little easier for your mental health. We love you and want you to be uplifted by the comments, not stressed. ❤️❤️❤️❤️
This poor woman had so many health issues. The last thing you need when you are suffering physically and emotionally is some doctor you have gone to for help looking at and treating you like an addict. There are many, many of us that suffer from chronic pain and can't get the help we need. May Mel rest in peace. I am so sorry you had to suffer so very much in your life.
My daughter suffered with so much pain and found out it was severe RA. On top of a terribly tragic horrific event. She has talked about her pain and it's scary for me hearing it and knowing I can't help her. Please RIP.
@@cocoa-nuts2670 please show ur daughter grace. Continuoulsy Educate yourself and support her efforts to advocate for her health. Invisible illness are very real. Blessings to you and your daughter
Mel. This channel is about so much more than make up. It is community, love acceptance of others and ourselves. Although we had never met you were a dear friend. You are one of the most real humans I ever knew. I hope our comments keep this channel in the feed of others who never got to know you prior to your passing. I miss you.
Watching this after her sudden death is gut wrenching!! I'm just infuriated with the human race and what they could do to another human! This was her preparing😢😭 I'm at a complete loss!! Rest easy beautiful angel💔🙏🏼
I’m still under a great shock.. and deep sadness.. May your soul rest in peace.. sadly what happened to you is happening to so many of us.. I just can’t believe that you’re gone 😭😭😭😭
@@BeHumb13 my best guess is doctor neglect. She knew something was wrong, very wrong. But idk what actually happened. You don’t have this many serious health matters going on and then die, at 35 though. Maybe mental health related…but she was a momma to 4 beautiful babies. I don’t see that being the case.
julie she suffered from a few illnesses, one of them was EDS, it also caused her to have seizures. She talked about her illnesses at times, but it has not been disclosed as to what exactly lead to her death. People should not 'speculate.'
The fact that you were scared that one morning you would not wake up is utterly heartbreaking. Yet your concern for others always overrode your fears. Thank you, Mel, for the love and compassion you gave to all of us. We love and miss you, Beauty.
The reality of her life when this was filmed speaks volumes today. How tragic such a young woman so full of life, had such a will to live yet life still took her too soon. I cannot imagine how her husband and young children are having to deal with losing their bright light. My deepest sympathy goes out to them and much respect for all those living with Ehlers Danlos.
@@paulabrentz4331 She had multiple chronic illnesses that affected her health in different ways, left her fighting for her life at times and apparently as time went on it took its toll on her body. Ehlers Danlos was a disease that she fought for years and while it’s not been entirely confirmed it seems the effect of this disease took her.
STOP apologizing! Please, we love and support you, no matter what ♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️. Whatever we can do, we will try our best to help. Sending love and hugs 😍
Somehow I missed this and Wayne's video - it was right after I gave birth... suddenly found rhese videos roday... wow... I was so lucky to be able to enjoy Mel's videos while she was still here. RIP❤
As someone who suffers from anxiety and depression, I've said the phrase as you said, "I know others have it worse than me..." But this is about you and your experience with mental health, and it matters AS MUCH as anyone else who is suffering. Keep moving forward working on yourself and lovingly watch those thoughts that try to compare yourself to others and make you feel like you're failing. You're not. You're being very brave. ::Prayers::
People say this to me all the time. I have chronic back pain following spinal surgery. People always say, I have back ache but I know yours is worse. I always remind them that my pain is mine. Theirs pain is theirs and just as valid as mine. We all need to remember that our experiences belong to us and that they are all so very valid. Sending love.xx
Mel’s a beautiful soul, and I’m saddened that she was experiencing physical/ mental pain - I hope the trolls the commented on her videos learned a life lesson…RIP beautiful Angel..
@@shinystarsimmy , I’m an RN, from the beginning we learned that pain is objective not subjective …People need to stop judging others internal/ external pain..
I just have to say something else, I have to. My beautiful Mom just passed this October. She was so excited about Christmas, I have no siblings, she has been my life. She had chronic pain-but before that at the age of 54, she kept going to her dr saying something is wrong, I have indigestion, I have chest pain…after the third time of being dismissed-the dr said “if it’s so bad go to the hospital!” She did, she was air evacuated and was having a heart attack, and she got stints in her heart. Doctors PLEASE LISTEN TO YOUR PATIENTS! The doctor apologized to her, but had it been left to him she would’ve died sooner than she did. My mom was in her late 60s. God this just infuriates me! When someone has pain, BELIEVE THEM! 😭😡
I am sending you so much love, Mel. I am a psychologist and also have diagnosed depression, anxiety and some PTSD. The other day, I had a panic attack due to feeling overwhelmed!! I initially struggled because I thought “I’m supposed to have it together!!! I’m a therapist, dammit!!” But, I realize that my own experiences and history allow me to relate even more to my clients. Sharing this must have been incredibly scary and painful for you. Your vulnerability and transparency is already helping so many and helping to diminish some of the stigma of talking about mental health and seeking help. It’s definitely easy to invalidate ourselves because other people have it worse. That’s just a truth of like: some of us have it worse. Unfortunately, mental health disorders don’t differentiate or give a shit about who we are. Your feelings, struggles, and symptoms are all valid. Plus, thinking that others have it worse is honestly part of the depression spiral. It tries to convince you that you “shouldn’t” be feeling the way you are. I encourage myself, my friends, my colleagues and my patients to “stop shoulding all over yourself.” Here if you need me ❤️❤️💋💋
Oh I can so relate with you! I am an LPC and I have bad anxiety, depression, and PTSD. I also share my experiences with my clients in order to normalize mental health struggles and let them know they aren't alone. You are so right mental health doesn't discriminate, it can effect any of us.
OMG this gal is crying for help and understanding. How awful that she has had to go through all this awful pain and confusion! This beautiful young angel has no reason to apologize! Why could we not help her instead of insulting her or not treating her as a normal being! RIP in Mel - you are an amazing, beautiful angel..... sleep well.
You are right. Highly sensitive AND with a debilitating health issue. This world is harsh and she needed proper health support. Her condition is dangerous, but didn’t seem to be taken seriously.
Exactly what I was thinking. And now after watching this poor woman, in so much pain and so afraid looking at several points in that video, and knowing what happened - I feel like one. That KILLED me to see.
On days when you can’t get out of bed, or days when you don’t accomplish anything you wanted to do... you still matter. You’re valuable, you are worthy, you deserve love.
My sister suffered from seizures for years and years and was on medication for a long while and by the grace of God she has not had any episodes for years now. I pray that you too will get through this.
I have to be honest, I discovered the channel after reading the news of her passing. I can't believe I discovered it now... such a young, lovely lady as well. I admire this video of her opening up about such personal struggles we all go through. Mel thank you for your channel. It's a legacy you left for others to get to know you. RIP
As a nurse, I have worked with many people over the years who have similar episodes as you...either stress induced, fever induced. Etc. people can be so cruel to make such comments. You give us a glimpse of your life..no need to apologize to us. You’re brave for discussing this. We support you!
She literally was living on the edge this whole time☹️Imagine all the fear and anxiety she felt constantly, not knowing when she was going to have another episode. I think I would have never left the house, she truly was a strong beautiful person and will be missed🙏RIP Mel
The hospital judged her so cruelly because they assumed she was a drug addict seeking tattooed person :-( ! My heart is heartbroken she looked sad frustrated and overwhelmed with everything and even getting helped because when she asked for helped they judged her ! I’m in tears Rest In Peace baby girl we will miss you so much
Those people in that hospital will one day stand in judgment before the Lord’s throne and give an account for not helping Mel. I hope she has found the peace that she could not find in life. 💔💔💔
People in her age range are the tattoo generation. So that was ridiculous of them. But a lot of times people get misdiagnosed. The best thing is to never make any assumptions and just test for anything.
Seeing this again..my heart is so heavy. Mel carried so much pain, internally and physically. She had such a beautiful heart. Hearing her talk about her childhood drama made me remember how we carry drama in our bodies. I don’t know what she experienced as a child, but to repress it sounds pretty serious. People I love who have been through things as children, traumatic things, developed all type of physical illnesses. I’m not saying this would have changed Mel’s untimely passing🥺 but your mental and emotional well being is so so important. We need to be kind to each other. Let her legacy live on in this space. Let’s stop judging each other and try to understand everyone has a story, everyone carries trauma. Let’s try to be a safe space to each other. Rest peacefully Mel. My heart truly goes out to your husband and children. 🥺🥺 You left them a beautiful treasure trove of you. Your heart, your beauty, and kindness here. I’ll make sure to keep posting, to keep your memory alive.
Mel I can't tell you how much this video hits home for me.. I have chronic illness and I am pretty sure I'm dying, doctors treat me like crap. I have recurring brain inflammation and recently cant eat or drink anything at all. I don't sleep. I just wait and try my best to enjoy life. My body feels like it's giving up. I'm not gaining any weight. Every night I am covered in sweat too... I don't know what to do. Thank you for sharing this with us all. Your presence here is appreciated, I'm so grateful you left so many videos for me to watch. Thank you for everything.
This sounds like extreme hyperthermia or, more specifically, Graves disease. I was diagnosed finally after years of hell with these symptoms and trying to get doctors to hear me and understand the severity. I hope so much you got help ❤
Saying that you can't be sad because you know people have it worse is like saying you can't be happy because other people have it better. You don't have to apologize for being human, you're allowed to have emotions. Don't be ashamed to cry.. just let it out. You're not alone and I'm sure you've helped someone with this video. Sending you love and good vibes! ❤️❤️❤️
hi mel the foggy feeling and abnormal sensations is called an aura , i have been a neurosurgical nurse all my adult career , but i think an MRI scan would be appropriate, try not to worry so much , otherwise it will cause you anymore stress , please ask for a second opinion , this will help you immensely you need to understand the overall picture .before you can understand whats going on , i think your wonderful ,Mel your a breathe of fresh air , you will be fine , i too have a chronic illness , so i know where your coming from , my love liz x
I have aura migraines and it makes me feel confused and crazy and anytime I feel that fog coming it freaks me out because the lights will start and then the pain. I have my first appointment with a neurologist in a few months. Second and third opinions are always better.
After a seizure, there’s also something called the post ictal phase. That can feature disorientation, brain fog and confusion. Seizures are like an electrical storm of the brain, so things are depleted and needing a rest. (Everything you are describing is what people with seizures report. You are not alone in this.)
it is a bizarre message from the universe that you posted this today. i need you to know you're not alone because you just made me realize I'm not alone. I was discharged from hospital literally today. Why was I in? Seizures. Three broken ribs from my dad having to do CPR while waiting for help. That was 11 days ago and ever since I've been paranoid, no terrified - that it could happen again at any second. I could fall and hit my head, etc. and it just spirills deeper. I'm so scared. But somehow knowing that someone understands what that feels like helps a little. But I need to talk to someone. I can't live like this being terrified of the body I'm in. I need to learn my way through this.
I hope you get the help you need! I’m on my journey too, and things WILL get easier with time. Please reach out to professionals too, if you can! You got this!
I'm so sorry to hear about your seizures and fear. The anxiety etc makes perfect sense though. It would be a constant fear that sits on your shoulder taunting you wherever you go. Have you looked into meditation at all? People can laugh or whatever but there's much to be said about natural therapies and remedies. I know that because I've been all about that since I was 19 years old. I myself use calming essential oils in diffusers, on pressure points and wear a bracelet and necklace with the porous volcanic beads strategically placed in amongst the other beads. The oils soak into the volcanic beads. My daughter has horrendous anxiety and panic attacks so I bought her a hand held portable diffuser. She puts the anxiety blend in there so she can get it out as soon as she starts feeling anxious. Do you think there's any chance that high stress, anxiety and fearfulness potentially bring on seizures? Probably not but I think it's a valid question. xxx
Oh my goodness ,it’s so heartbreaking hearing how many people have seizures and can’t find the cause of it , a good friend of mine had them for years we are talking over 20 yrs , she would pass out and hit the floor , went to the Mayo Clinic and hooked her brain to see it hey could find any activity that was out of the ordinary , and nothing , she goes back home can’t drive and can’t run basically has to stay home and all this time trying to keep it all together,then her son that is a radiologist tells her , why don’t you go see a cardiologist and see if anything is going on with your heart ♥️ they find out she has an irregular heartbeat, her heart would stop for a couple of seconds and that’s why she would pass out , so they put a pacemaker and no more passing out ! I’m not a doctor for sure but is good to know all the options , sending love to all of you ♥️💖♥️💖♥️
I still think about you, Mel... We never met, and still, I cried and cried when we lost you. Your beautiful face could never compare to the beauty you so clearly had inside. Have heard so many people speak of your kind generosity and need to be there for others, to help and to give and spread love and light. Heaven is one angel richer now. We miss you so much...! ❤️ Love and light from Denmark, Scandinavia ❤️
You are so beautiful and so talented. I’ve often wondered how you can look so perfect. I’m a lot older than you. I used to worry about what others said about me. Now I know it really doesn’t matter because it’s about them not you. I have major depressive disorder and it is crippling. Hang in there girl. You’re very brave! 😘
Oh how much I loved Mel! I, too have EDS, POTS & severe anxiety. I cried throughout this entire video. I am blown away that she was able to do all the videos with her medical conditions. Beyond Mel's amazing make-up artistry, what she gave to us was her true self. There is nothing more precious a person can give someone than to bare their soul and show their love through vulnerability. She was truly a gift to this world and I am so incredibly heartbroken she is gone.
Also have EDS and pots, this is such a sad loss for the beauty community and for our 🦓's she brought some light to our condition, may she rest in peace 🖤🤍🖤🤍
Hello Page. 🥰 Although I could be her mother, I to have the same conditions... For 50+ years. My heart goes out to you and those who struggle with health conditions that can be debilitating. Sending love. 🥰❤️🤗
Aw Mel I’m so so sorry you are going through this. Seizures are so horrible to experience, I had one in high school & it created intense anxiety so I totally relate. I really hope you get the answers you need soon and feel better 🙏🏻❤️
I wish you could see all the people who are so devastated by your loss. I wish you could see how many people loved you snd all the things they’ve said about you in the last 2 days.
I believe she can see all of us that are devastated by her loss. Mel knows. I hope I don’t sound silly or naive for saying that. I lost my dad is 2012 to aml leukemia, then my only sister in 2016 to years of addiction and I wondered if they knew how much we all miss them, I really believe they know. They do. Mel knows how much she is loved by her many loved ones and so many of us on RU-vid. Sending you the very best. This is yet another difficult loss.
From a person that suffers from anxiety and depression herself it hurts so much to hear her 💔 she was screaming for help and no one heard her. I am still in shock and disbelief of her passing. Mel, I will miss your beautiful soul so much. I’ve learned so much from you. Thank you for being completely genuine with us. RIP
Oh honey. I am so so sorry you are going through this. You are SO strong and I admire you so much for how hard working and dedicated you are to your career. It’s amazing. But it is so important to take space when we need it. When I lost my mom I came back way too fast and kept trying to fight though it but eventually I had to just stop for a while. And the guilt and how nervous you get about not showing up for your family and your platforms and all that makes it so much worse. But you truly have to focus on getting well. And you really deserve that. I hope thing get better ASAP for you and please reach out any time. Xoxoxoox
Best advice ever.... You're bomb Whitney.... I remember going thru this in my 30's, DOING IT ALL, 3 kids, too jobs, a house, 3 pets, husband....there was just not enough of me. Plus dealing with congenital health issues put me and everything over the edge.... In my 50's now and LIFE IS BEAUTIFUL.... It gets better as we get older, but there's trade offs of course.😉 WOMEN ARE TRUE WARRIORS!!!
Mel..I have watched you for 5 years. I never commented really I don’t think..I’m not much of a commenter I guess..but I loved watching your videos. Anytime you had a new one up, I would always watch it. I admired your artistry and could tell you were such genuine and a kind person. I always thought you were so beautiful and that you could have been a model. It feels strange that you are gone..like I’m waiting on your next video… but then I realize there will never be another one.. it doesn’t seem right. Although I didn’t know you personally, I prayed for you during your trying times that you shared with us on here.. I found myself upset and crying over your passing.. like I have lost an old friend. I’m sorry you had such a hard time here..filled with so much pain, both physically and emotionally. I feel heartbroken for the pain your husband and children feel with you now gone. ..The only solace in your passing is that now you are with the Lord and the angels and free of pain and sorrow. You touched so many peoples lives on here, more than I’m sure you could imagine, and you will be missed dearly. I know I will miss you being on here. Thank you for sharing your beautiful spirit with us all these years. 🙏🕊💛
💜 Never apologize, there is absolutely nothing to apologize for. Panic, depression and stress is debilitating and rough to deal with. Sending you so much love, hugs and prayers ❤️
Depression can feel so isolating, but there’s a whole world of us out here who can relate. Your strength is inspiring. I pray that your soul is at peace and you’re flying beautifully in the sky. You will be remembered forever Queen. 🙏🏽
I remember I had seen this video when she first posted it and hearing all this again makes me realize that the pain (physical and emotional) was so unbearable that our Lord decided to take her and be safe with him. I choose to believe she is in a place where pain doesn’t exist and where she is at peace and playing with a whole lot of makeup. Rest in peace beauty! 🙏😘
❤ As someone with C-PTSD, anxiety, depression, a tremor, and drug-resistant epilepsy with multiple seizures daily I perhaps have some idea how you feel. The concept of having no control over your own body makes you feel as if you're living on a knife edge. Your nightly anxiety sweats sound like my menopausal night sweats so it's important to sort them out. Some advice which is going to be much harder to put in practice than it sounds, is that seizures are made worse by stress and lack of sleep, even if it's not epilepsy. If you can, try to practice your pilates at home (try to avoid driving until your condition is diagnosed and controlled) , take more walks, or just sit in the sun, if you can do mindfulness great (my anxiety is too bad to slow my mind down enough 😆), and STOP DOING AS MANY RU-vid VIDEOS! Play with your makeup yes, but not at the expense of your health. Try to stick to a routine a much as you can and keep a symptom diary too. YOU are the most important person here. Once you're sorted, which might take a while and life adjustments, come back full on, but cut it back for now. Big love to you ❤ 💕 💙
I was watching her videos and although not consistently, she felt like a genuine person. The news of her passing are heartbreaking. I am watching this video for the first time and it's devastating. Rest In Peace dear Mel. You will be missed.
This is just so devastating and heartbreaking to watch. Doctors need to listen when us women are crying out for help! Rest in peace beauty! Love you Mel 💔
Hey, Mel. I wanna tell you, I’m a nurse, AND I suffer from anxiety and depression. I’m not going to be THAT person and give you medical advice, but I wanted to tell you a few other things: 1) Your feelings are VALID. If you’re angry or scared or sad, it is OKAY to feel those things, and it is okay to tell people that are upsetting you that they are being jerks. Just because someone “has it worse” does NOT mean you do not matter and that your struggles don’t affect you. 2) Please advocate for yourself as much as you can with your health. The most important thing I’ve learned as a healthcare professional is that you know your body best. If you think something isn’t right, tell the doctors. If they blow you off, INSIST on investigation. If they still don’t listen, go elsewhere for care. I know you’re incredibly sweet and considerate and don’t want to cause a fuss, but again, your concerns are valid. 3) Your mental health conditions are NOTHING to be ashamed of. You wouldn’t be ashamed to have high blood pressure or diabetes, right? It’s an illness. Just like any other illness, there are varying degrees of illness. Medication works for some people. Other modalities work for other people. Sadly, sometimes nothing works. I know some people just don’t “get” it and never will, but those people are ignorant, and it’s not YOU being a drama queen or crazy or anything like that. 4) We all love you here. You’re a bright light in the beauty community and the RU-vid community in general. I know this is an outlet for you to express creativity and interact with more people, but if you need to take a small break or a big break, please do so. Whatever you need! We’re going to be here for you when you get back if that’s the case. 5) Thank you for speaking up about mental illness. It’s so hard because the depression itself makes you think you need to keep it secret. It LIES, and it strips away so many things that make us “us”. It is my hope that the more people speak out and explain what mental illness is and is NOT that we all can get a better understanding of this horrible condition. 6) Just this: I don’t pity you, but I have empathy for what you are experiencing. I wish you nothing but the best, and I hope you get the answers you need to live the fullest life you can.
@linaskye You re so right, you do know your body best, but it is difficult to defend yourself to doctors and you do need the strengh to do that and the help of your GP too, i have experienced a lot of bad things too physically and with doctors
@@Zahra-wd3md And sadly it’s much harder when you’re a woman as well. Healthcare is broken in so many ways. I hope you are finding your answers as well.
@@Linaskye143 thank you so much for your kınd words, I m at the point of giving up. I m really sick, but because I lost my trust in doctors, due to some negative experiences, I don t go to them anymore and keep suffering in silence
6 months ago, when I saw this video for the 1st time I had a horrible overwhelming feeling, we would not have you amongst us for a long time 😔 and I cried. I cried because I felt your pain deeply, and I prayed for you and kept you on my prayers for a while. My heart is so sad today that you are no longer with us. I will always keep you in my heart. I feel as if I have lost a friend today. RIP Mel.
I, like everyone else, am in total shock. I saw this video months ago and am rewatching now. Rest in peace Mel. My prayers and condolences to her husband and children. 😢
1st off, YOU ARE NOT ALONE. You are not the only person who deals with mental anguish. You are incredibly BRAVE to discuss this to us all. There is no need to hide anything from us. We are here for you! Do what is necessary to take care of yourself. We adore you & your videos! I’m praying for you! 🙏❤️
I'm so sorry. I was diagnosed with Fibromyalgia in November. The chronic pain, brain fog, and anxiety is terrible. You aren't alone either and I applaud your courage for posting this. 💜
Fibro is no joke.... There are days that having clothes on is incredibly painful, and all of my skin feels on fire.... It'll be 20 years this October when I blew out my spine and went down this road of chronic pain, fibro, etc.....
@@rondameier8168 I agree. There are a lot of things about living with fibro I hate...like having to deal with the brain fog - not being able to string a sentence together etc. I hate having to deal with debilitating fatigue - one minute I'm fine then one minute later, I'm not. I'm too freaking exhausted to get up and to walk to the bathroom for a pee. I do find it hard to breathe because my chest muscles are too tired. I don't like the fact I will have a sleep disorder for the rest of my life because of fibromyalgia. If I don't take my medicine every day, I know I will scream being in pain 24/7. Yup. I also deal with neuropathic pain. It sucks but it is what it is. Oh, I almost forget about costochondritis...not being able to breathe is a bitch! People, please don't take your sleep for granted. :)
@@rondameier8168 I know it is six months later, but I was reading about your issues with pain and feeling on fire. When this happened to me I found it was compression of my spinal-cord in the neck, I had to have a discectomy and spinal fusion.
I'm so sorry, Mel. When you first published this video, I was going through my own traumas and didn't finish watching it. Scrolling through your videos now, I realized I hadn't watched this one all the way through....and I am so heartbroken for you. The physical and mental anguish you were facing was monumental. I hope you found some answers to your medical issues before you passed and found a way to deal with your anxiety and depression. I would hate to think you faced fear everyday of waking over the last 6 months. That makes my heart break even more 💔 I hope you many moments of joy and happiness before your passing and that you found a way to relinquish the fear that pain and death placed on your shoulders. I keep thinking of that diary you had under lock and key, and I hope at the end you were able to share you deepest secrets and private thoughts with someone you trusted. I hope you felt safe and loved. I wish you were still here. You deserved a long and happy life, spreading your enthusiasm and positive energy into the world. I'm reminded of the show the Good Place...in the end, the energy of the departed, who finally found peace in the unknown, went out into the universe and was disseminated over the living. It's a beautiful thought that you are still with us. I truly hope you are at peace. Rest in Power, Beautiful Mel. I will never forget you. 🙏🕊🕊🕊
My God in heaven, is there anyone this kind, this honest, this sweet? Apologizing for crying before a video? She was just way too good for this world. So beautiful, so talented, so open….she’s still teaching me, she will ALWAYS TEACH ME-and not just makeup, how to be a kinder person! You will ALWAYS BE LOVED AND REMEMBERED, Mel ♥️🐝
Dear sweet Mel.....I'm so sorry you have gone to Heaven so soon. Surely it is a better & brighter place with you there. I'm so sorry you suffered so much. As an Emerg nurse I can totally see exactly what you experienced & I'm sorry you were presumed to have been using drugs, or "its all in your head". In order truly understand mental health we have to shut our mouths and open our minds and JUST LISTEN. God Bless you Mel and may you finally rest in true peace. xo
I just don't have the words. Watching this is heart breaking. I hope and pray she feels peace now. I pray for strength and peace for her babies and husband.
*ADVOCATE FOR YOURSELF* people. My heart is so broken. I am so sad I didn't take the time to watch this 6 months ago. This poor woman....I am sending so much love to puffin and her kids.
I lost my mom in February and when I came back to RU-vid, I found myself apologizing over and over (noticed it in my editing) in my first video back. I did it again in the next couple videos and I FINALLY said "I know I don't need to apologize for taking time off after my mom dying, but I feel like I let people down if I don't post". The pressure we put on ourselves is ridiculous! Take time for you, make your healing a priority. It was hard for me, but I'm getting better at it. And lastly, as was said, stop apologizing! We all just want you to take care of yourself and be ok. 💜💜💜
I'd never heard of this lovely woman before seeing the notice of her death, and had my curiosity piqued from something in it to try to learn something about her. Her bravery and determination to live as fully and freely as possible were apparently always a part of how she approached her life, in spite of having what seems to have been a string of unusual physical conditions. In this heartbreaking video, Mel talks about the hereditary nature of what she and her mother have endured. I believe I read in the news article that she has four children, and wonder if they are being monitored. I hope that whatever led to Mel's death at this point took her from enduring any more or worse suffering.
ONE OF THE MOST BEAUTIFUL SOULS ON EARTH IS WITH GOD. Watching this today 10-3-2021 made me feel her pain which beautiful Mel no longer feels…her “Hey Beauties” will never be replaced. Always Mel, In Peace and Love.
So sorry you had to go through this, we are in a dark place now, people is just so cruel, detach from reality, it’s just so sad. I wish you are at peace now and may your memory be a blessing 👼
The strength it takes to talk about health, both physically and mentally is the hardest to bring to the fore. You are a fantastic person. You are not alone even when you feel nothing but alone. Hugs from Ireland
Bless her, she was having so much trouble. She was really ill and I am sure we will find out what happened to her. I feel so bad for her, what a struggle
Oh my beautiful Mel. Honey, you ARE supposed to talk about this and you DO NOT need to be sorry. You are so brave and so strong to let this all out. I wish I could put my arms around you and cry with you. I’ve suffered from panic attacks for years. It is the scariest thing and it just takes over. I can’t say enough how proud I am of you for sharing this. And I hope you know how much I love and adore you. ♥️♥️♥️
