I truly feel like I needed to revisit this message. I use to be a positive light, and have genuine concern for others and when life threw me a few curve balls (toxic abusive relationship, family trauma, hateful people, failures in my education etc.) I began to become just cold, and that light eventually dimmed. I was always naturally friendly, but I didn't wake up and have that inner drive to be apart of something bigger than myself. I fell into bad habits, and forgot about what it felt like to be of service to people. What it felt like to give to others, which to me is the greatest, truest joy. I quickly learned that lowering myself, and giving up on that cause did not bring me peace or fulfillment. I had only really felt it immensely when I was being of service to others. Caring for other people. Not discounting my own needs, and personal goals but rather align it with ultimately LOVING on people. SEARCHING for the good in them, and do my PERSONAL best at trying to draw it out. I am honestly so grateful to turn to these messages, and use the light Ben shines so I can too not be afraid to shine again, and hopefully turn on lights within others. Thank you, Ben. Thank you, Jesus.
True, the freedom and Grace of God which frees us mate comes right off the back of knowing how sinful and wretched we are in and of ourselves. We can never be good enough in ourselves. We fail. As much as we try to prop ourselves up. God knows that about us. That's why we need his goodness. Not ours.
