32:23 omg 🤯 again...this explains so much. I always manage to coincidentally just luck out. It's crazy! Also, the forbidden love/enemy thing really amazes me as well. One time I had a stalker & I was afraid the cops wouldn't do anything. He would ask me out all the time & I refused... so he started breaking into my house and I would wake up and he was watching me sleep...creepy! The especially scary part is the fact that I know for sure I would lock all the doors and windows and I have no idea how he got in. I know how these types of things can escalate to violence especially if the guy feels rejected. So, I told him if he's so in love with me he should probably stop creeping me out. Then I gave him the key and asked him to come in through the front door instead of however he was getting in. I also asked if he would be so kind as to announce himself when he came in. Try saying hi...girls like that. I figured since he was getting in anyway it would just be way less creepy and weird if he came in through the front door. And like I said the cops have a horrible track record with stalkers so I felt like there was not really much else I could do besides try to run away. Anyway, after I gave him the key he stopped breaking in and came in through the front door and said hello like a normal human. When he showed up, I would just try to be polite but fairly indifferent so as to not get his hopes up. My intention was reverse psychology. I was just hoping by giving him the opposite of what he expected, it wouldn't be fun, he'd lose interest and leave me alone. Well, he kept coming over and just making small talk and he actually turned out to be a super cool person that was just very socially awkward but very open to suggestions on how to behave normally. So we ended up actually being like besties for several years. He turned out to be like this super rich super weird kid and in the end the relationship was actually extremely valuable to me because he had so many connections through his family. He actually helped me a ton & in the end, ppl were so jealous bc he repaid my actions by spoiling me financially. He also helped me start my own business bc I don't like 2 depend on others. Super strange, I know, I just thought that would be a fun story to share because you were talking about how sometimes we have lovers that we don't know if they're friends or enemies & that guy was definitely a great example of that. I mean, at first, I was terrified of him...
I channel it through my writing mostly. I'm an 11th House Stellium, but I have Moon, Saturn and Lilith in my 12th House. And I can safely say my thoughts are QUITE dark. But I've found the best way to channel it harmlessly is through writing. I did have a lot of Nightmares and Night Terrors as a kid. Saturn isn't conjuncting Lilith but they're real close.
Sorry I kep posting. But you guys made really great points in this video. The "Blocked" Aspect I definitely felt when I was little. I'm a Capricorn Sun. So I try to "follow the rules" and did what I was told a lot as a kid. I saw "rebellion" as evil. It wasn't until I was in my late teens that I realize sometimes the authority figures aren't always right. Basically I tried to conform a lot. But my Lilith was locked away in my 12th House and only really came out when I was losing my temper.
I watched the Lilith in Scorpio video a few days ago since I have Lilith in Scorpio in the 12th house (along with my Sun, Venus, and Chiron). I pretty much daydream or escape perhaps 3/4 of my waking hours. I've definitely grown up in an environment that had drug use themes that were happening behind my back. I've felt that I have undergone a loss of personal power because I was raised in a household of emotional neglect. Like I almost always felt very alone and isolated since my parents were largely unavailable or dealing with their own issues. Even when I left home, I promised myself that I won't put up with that s#it ever again. My Lilith is also squaring my Uranus in Aquarius (which is the most dominant planet in my natal chart) and I just ended up signing a petition to protect abortion rights for women in the US, I don't even live in the country nor am I a woman! But I was like, I'm doing it anyway because I believe in freedom of choice, individuality, and egalitarianism. So I'm basically like 'stuff what the authorities say' lol.
This is so accurate especially the scare tactic when it comes to religion, and that’s how my parents taught me but I learned to look at it differently and have a better relationship with religion and try to not look at it as restricting and it’s honestly hard but i take it day by day.
I have the same placement. Do you happen to be a writer? Writing has come up quite a bit for me lately and I always seem to doubt my capabilities and lack of experience or knowledge on how to get into that scene so I haven't allowed myself to do make anything of that idea yet.
@@r00t3d4 I write a lot - almost everyday for my social media and business content. And it took me a very longggg time to own the skills I had, sometimes I still doubt it for sure. The amount of times I’ve created a blog but never followed through 😂 Even though people compliment it sometimes I still look at it from a perfectionist stance. Having in Chiron in Leo doesn’t help 😂
I know someone with that placement and her moon and she has secret feelings for someone. What if a man has Lilith in a woman’s 12th but her 12th is empty?
I absolutely loved this video like I can especially relate this when it comes to love affairs cuz tbh I would always have crushes on people that were taken and it would lead to me to want to sort of break this person’s loyalty with there significant other to be with me because I would just fantasize the heck out them. Like I had a crush this guy that was dating someone and when you mentioned the synastry of this Lilith my Lilith conjuncts his Saturn which take that as you will but something about that dude was irresistible to me even though I knew he was bad for me. But MY LILITH DIDN’T CARE.🫠
Same happened to me he had also sun mercury in aries in my 8th and moon in my 12th house also my mars conjunct his sun and my venus opposite his mars, he had a very bad character and and talked aggressively when he didn't got what he wanted from me , also I was going trough a transit of pluto in my 5th house and it makes sense
