guys!! i didn’t make this video to encourage anyone to commit/attempt suicide. i made it when i was at a very low point in my life in order to express myself and i uploaded it thinking that no one would see it. if you’re suicidal, please reach out and talk to someone.
@@blackin4863 everything is going to be alright 🖤 patience is key and you are worth love..... Your life is the most precious..... You have to know darkness before you know light and you were given this life because you are strong enough to live it❤️ you may not understand today or tomorrow, but eventually god will reveal why you went through everything you did..... and when you think you should give up, remember the reason why you held on for so long❤️it can be very tough but you'll get through this and i have faith in you... You were put on this earth for a reason.... You are amazing and beautiful ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️👑
Yesterday I saw you're comment and say: what such a hard shit, and now, I lost someone, now I'm crying, wondering why I'm not the dead, and it was just yesterday, yesterday, just yesterday!!!!!! Sorry TT
i am afraid living life without doing something other will be proud of.I want people to know me for something good ,i don’t want to leave this word without people knowing I was here
death sounds so peaceful to me, other people are scared of death but i love death, i can finally let go of all the pain & anger that’s been building up throughout my life. i can finally rest, death is so beautiful.
I relate, it doesn't bother me either. Especially in this society there's no hope left I'm humanity we're all waiting for this covid to take us out or natural situations i see it each day
Andy i’m sorry ik it can be tough but u need to understand that no matter how hard it may seem atm things will get better trust me. please know so many people love u, things will get better think about ur future, ur family, ur friends the people that mean the most to u, u will get through this trust me 🥰
Andy Same bruh,I have only one thing wrong with me which is my family calling me names like extra piece etc.and it is not even a big deal but bruh I never thought of cutting myself and Amy suicidal thoughts I just see grey and black for some reason bruh.I cry listening to songs imagining some other stories I make up.
please dont do that to urself, there is more people who love u than u think. they would be so sad, so hurt. i know, its hard now. i know u think u can't take all this, but look. after every rainy day or even days, sun rise again. if u're feeling sick, i mean psychically, find help, talk to others about what u feel. just font hurt urself. be safe, love u♡
ya know whats crazy, its like everybody hates u and nobody cares. but as soon as your gone, everybody loves u and knew u their whole life. *is that just me?*
every night, even if i dont want to, i imagine this: my guy bestfried, secretly my crush, has depression. once we hang up together and i saw his scars on arms. i started to cry, while telling him: ,,tommy, u can tell me everything. if ur hurting, tell me. if ur sad, tell me. if u feel like u cant continue, tell me. i will always listen. always. i will always try to help u." i told his best friend dan about it. we both promised we will help him and care for him (as we always did). then, about month after dan came to my house. i opened the door. ,,he did it." ,,what? who did wha-" then i realize. *he* did *it*. i started crying. i fell on the floor. dan giving me his hand telling me: ,,they can save him, he is in hospital. we gonna visit him." then we drove to the hospital. he already was there, so he decided to leave me alone with him. this is me now. crying madly. because i feel failure. failure, because i couldnt save him. because i feel like i could help him, but i didnt. crying madly. because i want to bring him back. back to life. but i cant do anything about it. crying madly. because now i realize, how much it hurts others if i did this. so ill never do it. then, the alarm starts. he is dying. doctor came, but its too late. he died. *** few days after, on his funeral. me, being one of the most crying people here. me, having speech about him, because everyone in class felt like i should do that. and then adter it all ends, me, telling his parents and sister: *i was in love with your son* and me, nevefully recover from this. this is just what my head came up with, but it still hurts a lot. bonus: me, once looking at class photo with my kids, and them asking names of all my classmates. they point on him. im starting crying again. because even if i have husband now, i never really stopped loving him. PS: thank u for the likes, i never got that many!
You are me 😂 im imagine this too. About my best friend..... And it's so sad. She try to kill herself one time and now she's alive. And i know ahe gonna repeat it over and over
Let's be honest, we all had those moments when we wanted to end it all. Edit: I saw the replies and it made me sad. I know it can get hard at times but life will get better I promise.
my ex-best friend once said to me “i know your in pain but your ok because there’s plenty of time to get better and i’m here, i truly believe you can get through this alone but that’s not gonna stop me from leaving you” he left and i’m still not emotionally ok.
I also have said that to my friend, and I know she is dying right now, but I really want to careless about it, because I'm selfish, and I think they are better without me
there's so many comments here, so i belive no one would see this.., i miss you grandpa, im sorry that i can't hug you for the last time.. im sorry i wasn't there.. im sorry im sorry im sorry... thankyou for everything, thankyou for showing me the light in this dark world.. i miss you, i love you, thankyou
pov: you slowly open your eyes. you look around. it’s midnight, the only light is the one on the monitor. you then look to your right to see your friend crying at your bed side, then your mom to the left of them. panicking, you look at your arms only to see IV’s and tubes. confused you try to remember what happened. then it hits you. you start to have a feeling of dread wash over your entire body, as your heart rate gets faster, the more anxious you get. you know what’s happening. you look at your mom and friend and start crying. you don’t want to go. you don’t want to leave. i want to stay with you guys. i’m so sorry...i’m so so so sorry.. i regret this so much. i love you guys. i don’t want to go yet. please. you start balling and the only words you manage to get out is “thank you” everything begins to fade as you slowly see faces hover over your body. you try your best to stay conscious. this is it. your dying. you can’t escape.
Me: on a roof My depression: Jump My anxiety: What if I survive and people will be disgusted by me Edit: MOM IM FAMOUS!... oh wait... you won't even care nvm.
I am so so sorry!! You must be going through a lot. Maybe your best friend is now in peace and doesn’t have to go through the pain she was feeling here. I hope the best for you!! ❤️
That pain is hard to describe to other people who don't understand and I'm glad you could even speak of it. I can bet your friend is happy she stopped her constant headache and pain🙂. You don't have to be stable or be anything bc you don't owe anything but I think your friend would want you to keep going and have your memories with her treasured not missed but loved❤ time will change and so will you🙂
"Mama..." "Yes honey?" "Is daddy sleepy?" "You could say that..." "Mama?" "Yes?..." "Will daddy wake up?" "I'm...Not sure..." "Oh..." ------------------------------- "Oh how I will miss you..." "You'll come back,right?" "I'll always be with you..." "Yeah..." "Honey don't cry..." "I'll miss you...Don't leave!" "Shhhh....here comes the sun..." "No...please..." "Do do do do~" "Here comes the sun..." "And I'll say..." *looks at sun through window* "It's alright..."
This has made me realise how valuable my life is. I tried to kill myself at 11, 12 and 13 and I'm currently 15; alive and healthy. I've been given chances and I'm proud of myself for getting here. Bullying, sexual harassment, social anxiety and my parents getting the Coronavirus. But I'm still here. This year has been awful and I'm so proud of everyone who has made it this far in life, please remember that you are loved and cared for and that you matter. It might not seem like a good place now but trust me it will lighten up, it might not seem like it but I promise it will. Care for yourself, healing will take some time but I'm sure you'll get there. Keep going. One foot infront of the other. You will make it through this. Your friends and family will help you. You are amazing, beautiful and valid. You aren't just a person, you're a life.
Sorry, I’m about to reference something here but I think it goes well with this comment: “who cares if one more light goes out? Well I do.” To everyone out there, I hope you’re okay. There will always be people who care about you and want the best for you, sometimes we don’t see it or surround ourselves with it. I hope everybody can get out of this together
the person crying sounds exactly like my mother, it’s so identical that’s it’s incredibly scary and sad...and I think if I was actually in this situation...I don’t know what my mother would be like...maybe even worse but I hate to think more of it. I don’t have a very close relationship with my mother :/ but it’s not like I don’t react to my own mother breaking down...
This reminds me of the time my best friend attempted suicide. I was there in the hospital sobbing when she didn’t make it. This was one of our favorite songs.
"was it fun being a happy kid? Smileing at the world not worrying about anything? " Yes "I thought so, I see when you got older it got hard for you. And this was your only way of getting out?" Yes "Hm,did you enjoy it all?" Yes "You wanna go back now don't you?" Yes "Well,I'm sorry sweetie but we can't go back on the things we did" ... "Everyone misses you now, but you'll be more happy here now" ...ok (Don't mind me it was Random :') hah)
This brings me back bad memories of when my brother attempted to commit suicide, luckily he survived, He would only talk to me in the hospital since he knows I'm the only one who understands him... He recently lost his memory and forgot me and my family, so now I just pray for him to remember and get better...
fatima chicati you don’t feel people will care. that doesn’t mean people won’t care. sometimes what we feel or think isn’t true, no matter how true it feels to us. have you talked to anyone?
i didn’t either. i still took the chance. i reached out to my sister, she told my parents. i felt so betrayed but later realized that what she did was problably the best thing that happened to me. i went to therapy and even thought i haven’t fully recovered, i feel so much better and i believe in myself. i believe that i’ll be able to completely recover no matter how long it takes, and i believe in you.
Lyrics: Take me to the rooftop I wanna see the world when I stop breathing, turnin' blue (blue) Tell me love is endless, don't be so pretentious Leave me like you do (like you do) If you need me, wanna see me Better hurry 'cause I'm leavin' soon Sorry can't save me now Sorry I don't know how Sorry there's no way out (sorry) But down Mm, down Taste me, the salty tears on my cheek That's what a year long headache does to you I'm not okay, I feel so scattered Don't say I'm all that matters Leave me, deja vu (mm) If you need me, wanna see me You better hurry, I'm leavin' soon Sorry can't save me now (sorry) Sorry I don't know how (sorry) Sorry there's no way out (sorry) But down Mm, down Call my friends and tell them that I love them And I'll miss them But I'm not sorry Call my friends and tell them that I love them And I'll miss them Sorry
“We’re basically just a bunch of suicidal teens with fucked up lives telling other suicidal teens with fucked up lives that it’s going to be okay” - a boy in my class
i can't put it into words how this made me feel...with the son itself slowed down on top of the heart rate monitor, gradually slowing down and flatlining, it brought back so many memories. what you've done with this video is incredible, evoking emotions from deep down in me, i can't explain it, but that flatline at the end was what had me literally sobbing into my pillow. it's beautiful, in such a sad way...
hey, I hope you're doing okay. you aren't selfish, please dont think that. I know exactly how you feel but you aren't selfish, your life is the most important thing to you right now, and that's fine. it's okay to focus on ourselves, no one should expect you to have to take care of theirs. please hold on, itll get better.
@@jams1298 you don’t know how much i appreciate you. it’s been more than half a year that i commented this and luckily i’m much better. and you’re right it did get better. people like you deserve more appreciation. you don’t know me yet your still comforting me. i literally love you
i died. i was dead. it was calm. nothing to see, nothing to loose, nothing to touch, nothing to smell. nothing to break, nothing to love. no endless nights full of crying, no flowers to admire. noone who would tell you how much they love your smile, noone to hug. plain black. and then i woke up. with no wound. with no feelings. wishing i never thought about ending it all
This reminds me of that on time my mom found me half dead in my room after a suicide attempt. The empty hospital was so scary yet so comforting so I just let everything out. I cried and cried and yelled as nurses were holding my hands. My mom was just shocked. I feel much better now after I got profesional help Remember, suicide hurts more so it's not worth it
it’s not that i’m depressed or any of those shit, i don’t feel suicidal or anything but it’s just like i’m tired of always trying and fighting...i just wanna fall asleep without any cares yk :) i’m tired of fighting to be in a friend group, to be included. i’m tired of studying just to get grades that won’t even make anyone proud, i’m tired of doing paper works that doesn’t give me any source of knowledge. i’m tired of trying to be someone i’m not just to be apart of activities. i’m tired of trying so hard to be loved, i’m tired of dressing up just to be judged. i’m tired of the two faced bitches that robbed my happiness away along with my friends, using me just to get what they want. how can human be so selfish ? how could someone be so heartless to leave someone else with nothing ? i just want to go back to the childhood days when no one created any drama or problems, when i had the thinking of a pure and innocent child. everyone was so nice back then, and now all i can see is betrayals.
no matter how i think suicidal thoughts get in the way it's hard to push them away so the only way to get rid of them is by listening to these kinds videos i imagine my mom crying in the background and helps me to push the thoughts away :')
Idk why im here, me rn crying silently and imagining that this is really happening, im scared when this day come to my life and need to goodbye to all peoples who spend your day with them and even those peoples make bad scenarios when you still alive, all the memories will flashback.
I wish everyone who knows me would totally forget me after my death. Then nobody would be sad and nobody would miss me. Nobody would cry. I really wish everyone would totally forget about me like i've never been born.
When i saw this what i thought was i got into accident and rushed to hospital but then i checked the comments and saw ‘anxieties’ ‘suicide attempts’ ‘depression’ etc. and idk what to feel coz the fact that i didnt think that way, did i already survive the dark times of my life? I guess i am? Sometimes it’s still coming back but yeah it’s not that dark anymore. I hope y’all overcome all those things too, thank you for fighting! You are a very strong person.
This sounds like someone seeing their relative die from Coronavirus and not being able to do anything about it. And wandering what they have to live for.
I remember today seeing this girl live her life on Tik Tok right? And I remember wanting to cry. I have no friends, I have 1 but they’re 400 miles away. I’m so glad bc I’d no significant other or friend(s) to go with. It’s kinda depressing. My friend on FT says just go up and talk to ppl, but do you rlly think it’s that fucking easy? I’m scared to talk to my mom and Step-mom half the time, and you think I’m gonna talk to a stranger...no❤️ I’ve always wanted to know how to hold a conversation with someone new, ever since I’ve moved I’ve been one depressed little shit....
I’m 17,and it seems like I almost didn’t have any teenage years,nothing like crazy nights with friends,dating someone... I can’t even dye my own hair just because of my strict parents.even if things get better,I’m never gonna take my teenage years back and it hurts a lot:( living in a country that is ruled by men and no economical balance sucks... wish I had the courage to end it all
I tried to commit suicide when I was 18, I had manufactured poison from plants. I had been homeless for a few years and was living in a girls shelter. The poison had made me go temporarily blind and I ended up in a coma. I woke up in the hospital while still in the coma and I couldn't move or anything, I was just awake behind my eyes, and I heard my mom crying like that in the video. If anything it made me angry because if she actually cared she and my family wouldn't have hurt me like they did.
Be thankful that your alive because me I have a heart disease and honestly I don't have enough time in this world and I just want to live long your life is precious don't throw it away time is precious use it wisely Pain makes a way for happiness even if you don't see it you will soon Nobody will be truly happy without the struggles and pain
1: We would miss you. 2: It’s worth it to be alive. 3: It does get better, believe it or not it will eventually get better. 4: There’s so much you would miss out on doing. 5: You are worth it don’t let anyone, even yourself tell you otherwise. 6: God made you for a reason, you have a purpose. 7: There is always a reason to like you may not know it right now, but there’s always a reason to live. 8: So many people care about you. 10: You are amazing 11: I don’t even know you and I love you. 12: I don’t even know you and I care about you. 13: There are plenty of other people that love you. 14: There are plenty of people that care about you. 15: God loves you. 16: God cares about you. 17: Sometimes will be really tough, but it will just make you a stronger person. 18: What about all the things you’ve always wanted to do? What about all the things you’ve planned, but never got around to doing? You can’t do them if your dead. 19: I want you to be alive. 20: People care about you, they are about you even more than you know it. 21: You won’t be able to listen to music if you die. 22: You’ll never be able to listen to your favorite song if you die. 23: You’ll never be able to listen to your favorite singer if you die. 24: You’ll never be able to listen to your favorite rapper if you die. 25: listening to really loud music. 26: Killing yourself is never worth it, you’ll hit both yourself and the people who care about you. 27: There are so many people that would miss you including me. 28: You’re preventing a future generation, your kids, from even being born. 29: You are Gorgeous. 30: Someone out there loves you. 31: How do you think your family would feel? Would it improve your life if you die? 32: Proving people wrong with your success. 33: Watching the jerks that doubted you fail at life. 34: You’ll never have the feeling of walking into a warm building on a cold day. 35: You’ll never have the feeling of waking into a cold building on a hot day. 36: Being stupid in public just because you can. 37: Helping other people. 38: You have a future to live for. 39: Being alive is just real good. 40: Not being alive is just really bad. 41: Finding your soulmate. 42: All Nighters. 43: Sleeping in all day. 44: You can look back at your self later in you life and be glad you didn’t commit suicide. 45: Nobody will ever be like you. 46: Your Unique. 47: Puppies. 48: Puppy Kisses 49: Netflix. 50: Decorating the Christmas tree. 51: The kind of dreams that wake you up and you can’t stop smiling. 52: Breakfast in bed. 53: New Clothes. 54: New Shoes. 55: New books by your favorite authors. 56: Sunrises and Sunsets. 57: Friends. 58: The Ocean. 59: Sunlight that is warm on your back but not too hot. 60: Your Family. 61: Inside Jokes. 62: Birthdays. 63: Christmas. 64: Family Traditions. 65: The taste of your favorite food. 66: Watching your favorite tv show. 67: Watching your favorite Movie. 68: The adventure of going somewhere new. 69: The ability to persue what ever you choose ( there are over 7 billion people on Earth, don’t be afraid to be you ) 70: To earn money and rewards. 71: You can always flip your life around. 72: To find the perfect job of career. 73: Pizza. 74: Kittens. 75: New Haircuts 76: Awkward moments you can look back to and laugh. 77: God is Good. 78: The world needs you. 79: Roller Coasters. 80: Showers. 81: Cake. 82: Growing old. 83: Growing old with the person you love. 84: Singing. 85: Sleeping. 86: Ice Cream. 87: Eating warm cookies straight out the oven. 88: Food in general. 89: Movie nights. 90: Candy. 91: Popcorn. 92: Daydreaming. 93: The happy moments. 94: Halloween 95: Sleepovers. 96: Parties. 97: Having a good personality. 98: Making people happy. 99: Bonfires. 100: Sitting on rooftops. 101: Going on vacation. 102: Hearing crazy stories 103:Telling crazy stories. 104: Treehouses 105: Starbucks 106: You’ve changed someone’s live. 107: If you end your life, you’re stopping yourself from achieving great things. 108: Everyone has a talent including you. 109: Eating crazy food. 110:Hanging out with your friends. 111: Nobody can ever replace you. 112: You have so much to live for. 113: Your dreams need some fulfilling to do. 114: Living life to the fullest. 115: Heck, I would miss you like crazy. 116: Your family and friends would be devastated if you died. 117: Someone out there is constantly praying to meet someone like you. 118: Your future kids will never come to existence of you die right now. 119: You could save someone’s life. 120: You are too beautiful to disappear. 121: You are bigger than any of your problems. 122: You are never alone in this struggle. 123: Tomorrow is another day, please be there to see it. 124: You are worth more than you think. 125: But, the final and most important one is, just, being able to experience life. Because even if your life doesn't seem so great right now, anything could happen. if anyone wants to talk about something: All suicide hotline numbers if you need someone to talk to: Argentina: +5402234930430 Australia: 131114 Austria: 142; for children and young people, 147 Belgium: 106 Bosnia & Herzegovina: 080 05 03 05 Botswana: 3911270 Brazil: 188 for the CVV National Association Canada: 1.833.456.4566, 5147234000 (Montreal); 18662773553 (outside Montreal) Croatia: 014833888 Denmark: +4570201201 Egypt: 7621602 Estonia: 3726558088; in Russian 3726555688 Finland: 010 195 202 France: 0145394000 Germany: 08001810771 Holland: 09000767 Hong Kong: +852 2382 0000 Hungary: 116123 India: 8888817666 Ireland: +4408457909090 Italy: 800860022 Japan: +810352869090 Mexico: 5255102550 New Zealand: 0800543354 Norway: +4781533300 Philippines: 028969191 Poland: 5270000 Portugal: 21 854 07 40/8 . 96 898 21 50 Russia: 0078202577577 Spain: 914590050 South Africa: 0514445691 Sweden: 46317112400 Switzerland: 143 United Kingdom: 08457909090 USA: 18002738255 Veterans' Crisis Line: 1 800 273 8255/ text 83825 i love you
Take me to the rooftop I wanna see the world when I stop breathing Turning blue Tell me, love is endless, don't be so pretentious Leave me, like you do (like you do) If you need me Wanna see me Better hurry 'Cause I'm leaving soon Sorry, can't save me now Sorry, I don't know how Sorry, there's no way out (sorry) But down, mm down Taste me, the salty tears on my cheek That's what a year-long headache does to you I'm not okay, I feel so scattered Don't say I'm all that matters Leave me Deja vu If you need me Wanna see me You better hurry I'm leaving soon Sorry, can't save me now Sorry, I don't know how (sorry) Sorry, there's no way out (sorry) But down, mm down Call my friends and tell Them that I love them And I'll miss them But I'm not sorry Call my friends and tell them that I love them And I'll miss them Sorry
All the comments are too depressing but here I am just chilling🤠 (anyways don't you guys ever give up I'm sure there's something for you ending it all will not help and it will make things worst sometimes you just need a hug yk? So here🤗 *gives virtual huggies* cheer up okay? Feel free to cry if that's what we'll make you better, don't hold it in because your sadness will only become worst. We all have our ups and downs even me but I swear things we'll be better soon if you ever need someone to talk to just comment I'm here for you :))
This hits hella hard when ur granny dies in fucking hospital beacuse of fucking covid like 1 month ago (i miss her sm, she could have lives more, if she listened to us. But she did not and she ended on pulmonary ventilation where she died after 2 weeks.) fly high granny 🕊
I ain't afraid to die. I'm just afraid of waking up in a hospital, alive. The only reason I've to got to stay alive is others. I don't wanna hurt others. I really don't care about myself. I'd be happy to die. At this point in my life, the only thing that matters to me, is "not hurting others", because I know how being hurt feels like. Because I'm hurting. Sorry for my useless comment. It just feels nice to share a few words.
Just about 4-5 months back, I think I was at my lowest. I could not bear to breath even a second more. I would go to the rooftop early in the morning and cry my heart out and fall asleep till the sun was up. I called my only friend, telling her I want to give up and that I was sorry. She begged me not to. Honestly I had no reason to stay that day except that I realised, that one of my cousin has lost too many people to lose another. Did I think I mattered that much to someone? Not at the time,no. But just the possible thought of my friend and cousin crying alone like I had always done, made me stay. And I won't say it's all better now. I'm still struggling. Maybe the situation is even worse but there are some bright spots here and there, that I then thought would never be possible. For e.g. I am going to give an exam in 15 days and if I get selected, I might be able to go to college away from my family. I will finally be a little free. If I had done something that day, I would never be here. I would never have discovered what it meant to listen to this song and not relating to it. So yeah, if anybody is considering it rn, please reply to this comment. If I am available, I'll surely get back to you or maybe some other kind hearted soul will. Things do get better, and I hope you know that very soon
I bet when you die while lying down, you get that shaky falling feeling again but this time it's not falling, it's floating. It must be such a relieving feeling to just... be weightless. Bet i could do that! But there's still my Grandma to live for. I love you Nana!
