She nailed the feelings of having a mental illness. And she did it in a beautiful, powerful and extremely honest way. She's torn between the side effects of Lithium and how it alters the personality. She is telling us about her inner conflict. She doesn't want to go back on Lithium because of the side effects, which will make her emotionally numb. If she doesn't take them, she will slide back into that dark and painful place within herself "Here in the darkness I know myself". People who have suffered from Bipolar/Depression for an extended length of time, know how easy it is to slip back into that dark place inside ourselves. It almost becomes our safe place because it becomes the only place we know. When we can't cope or become overwhelmed, we isolate ourselves in that place. She wants out of the prison she now resides in within herself but she knows if she goes back on Lithium, she will become emotionally numb. A place of nothingness and as she see's it. Living in sorrow is better than existing in a state of no emotion. If you have never walked in the shoes of this illness, it will be nearly impossible to understand the difficulty of trying to pull yourself out of it. The illness is a brutal beast that sucks the life out of you and at the same time, you have to work extremely hard to help yourself change the way you think about everything. There is no aspirin for this. So many people lose the battle because they have fought it so hard for so long and lived in the despair and pain that they have lost all sight of hope and they begin to think that this is how they will live the rest of their lives. An unbearable thought. And generally if you announce any intention of harming yourself, more often than not, you won't. It's the people who keep it to themselves, the quiet ones, that are in the most danger of dying. If you want to die, why would you tell anyone that you're going to do it? It kind of defeats the purpose. And it's not the person killing themselves. It's the illness that kills them. The only difference is that it uses a person's own hand to do it. People are under the assumption that an irrational person can make rational decisions. As for those who say it's a cowards way out or look at what you are doing to those you left behind, I would tell you that you should try living with this for 10 or 15 years and see if you feel the same way. As for the families that are left behind, I think most of the people with Bi-Polar or severe Depression, honestly feel their families would be better off without them. They carry around so much guilt for their illness and they feel like a burden to family and friends. Sorry bout the lengthy comment, but I have very strong opinions and passion on this subject. People with any type of mental or emotional illness are made to feel embarrassed or ashamed and a good many of them don't get the care they desperately need. It's tragic.
Bourne Supremacy It's what they add to the natural drug that's frightening. To obtain the medicinal results the doctors want, it causes a high risk of toxicity in the blood stream. I do know that they have decreased the usage of this "drug" due to the high risk of toxicity. There seems to be a side affect with any medicine we are given. The question is......is it worth the risk and will you be the one who ends up with the unwanted side affect?
MissDistarr you hit every head on the nails. Living with Bi-Polar and severe depression is the worst thing in the world. There are days I feel such darkness and pain. I have been blessed with my wonderful family and friends but I try to explain to them they can't help pull me from the darkness. I feel over drugged and it doesn't even help me through my blackest days. My cousin killed herself at 40 yr old because she just could not live in the darkness anymore. She wasn't a coward she just didn't want her husband and children to be stuck in her darkness. By killing herself she said they were released from her darkness and she wants them to find happiness with another wife/mother. She cared more about them than she did about herself. I miss her so much. When I feel like I am sliding into the depths of hell and want to check out I remember her. I have to be her voice now and try to help those like us. Sissy I will always remember you and be your voice. RIP
This moment when you're in class, in Chemistry, and then the teacher says "Lithium" and the only thing you want to do is to scream "DON'T WANT TO LOCK ME UP INSIDE"
+Okami D. Yuu The science teacher asked us if we knew any song named Lithium and I called Nirvana and Evanescence and I felt proud. Sorry bout that. Evanescence is awesome.
Evanescence is one of those bands that you listen to when you're 12 and then act like you're so above it until you turn 18 and realize that it really speaks to you.
Jesus loves you and he died for you. The Love of God Love is sooo big. He can listen to your sorrow, to your doubt, to your depression, to your joy, to your anxiety... Literally everything ! He cares about you, start to care more about him. Read the Bible if you want to learn more ❤
I dont take lithium, but I take anxiety medication and anti-depressants. I can relate. The pain is like an addiction. She nailed the feelings of having depression. Definitely my favorite song.
I used to take lithium, it’s been about five weeks since I was taken off of it and I still feel the side effects, like memory loss and frequent trips to the bathroom, it sucked!
Amy Lee's music is timeless. .as a bipolar individual most of my life, I have an intense emotional connection with the lyrical content. Some may not understand, but this artist actually inspires hope through her seemingly sad songs. They are reality and a great outlet! Will forever be a supporter of her efforts n success in digging deep to express herself and touch others.
As someone who used to take anti-depressants and mood stabilizers, like lithium, for bi-polar disorder, this song hits home. The drug that's supposed to make you feel better, makes you feel worse, almost zombie like
It's not the same for everyone. Too high a dose can make you feel that way but in my expierence (so far) it has completely lifted my depression and I havent had a manic episode since I started.
How to be a lot of fun to try to get to your house 😀👋😀👋😀👋😀👋 and get me and see you in a bit and it is a lot to do a lot more than a few weeks ago but it's a little late for me and see what
I refused to take lithium for this reason x but tbh I take alot of other medications to Control my illness an they make u feel jus the same x they seem to dull ur personality but that's jus me x might be different for everyone x
@@hydro_pyro please don't speak like you know what's right for everyone. When I'm manic (I live next to a highway) I like to walk across the highway and stand on the divider like its a balance beam. Among other dangerous or suicidal or promiscuous things it all seems so exciting. Also you can't speak for everyone because everyone reacts to drugs differently. So sure it may seem that way for you but it can't be stated like its some kind of fact.
+Jimmy Lacasse dont feel bad, evanescence is an old band. i listened to it when i was like 4,5,6 and 10 years old or whatevs. my mom still listens to acdc ozzy and metallica and there like old as shit. she listened to them when i was a lil kid thats how i know them. my dad likes them too. lol let them be old, and you just be "finely seasoned" in musical knowledge or some shit idk lmao
Btw its their* songs. Amy only wrote Hello, Lithium, Good Enough and a few others, but other than that she wrote none of them, like Ben Moody wrote all of Fallen.
Sock ÷ Joeart what is your definition of written? If you mean sitting down and completing lyrics, my statement is right in this scenario. If by write you mean creating all the harmonies, cord progression, etc then you would be correct.
Cole Chandler All I'm saying is even if Amy didn't write any lyrics, Ben wasn't the only one; David wrote them, too. Plus, I know for a fact that Amy wrote most if not all of Bring Me To Life, (lyrically): Reporter: How did that song come about to be written? Amy [Lee]: Ben [Moody] had the musical idea, with the programing, the guitars and everything. And then I just took it to my room, by myself, and wrote the lyrics and melodies and it all came out actually very, very easily, I was - I remember when I finished like the first, like I guess I wrote the whole first couple of verses all by themselves um, and I was just completely proud of my lyrics, I was like 'these are the best lyrics I have ever written' you know and I brought to Ben, I was so excited. But um, then we had a really big problem with the chorus, the chorus wouldn't come together. We wrote probably um five different chorus and recorded them, you know as demos." - Capital FM Radio Interview in 2003
My girlfriend showed me this song, she is as of now recovering from a suicide attempt. I have been listening to this nong for 3 hours now thinking about her
There was a time when I felt such a connection to this music.. even now that I'm in a better place in life. I remember how I felt when listening to evanescence. I was in a deep dark hole that I felt I'd be stuck in my entire life. With the help of my friends/family/God I'm SLOWLY being brought out of this hole and I've nearly reached ground level. But after I get out of this hole I still have another skyscraper to climb. The only way to really beat depression imo opinion is to find your true self. You only find your true self by experiencing new thing and releasing your comfort sheel.. imo...
I wish you best of luck! Your life story touched me a bit where i experience the same darkness when i was younger. This was one of the songs of my dark and depressing past, and today there is so much light and love. Life is still gonna be tough but i have more hope now than before, i hope you do too! God bless and stay strong!
Bunnylambe There is always a way. Positive energy activates constant elevation. Who are you bunny. You are amazing okay.. and I haven't even personally met you. You need to think of the ONE thing in life that makes life worth it. If you can't think of something.. find something.. I can't make you believe. , but if you feel, in any way, how I did. IM letting YOU know there IS a way OUT. MY way may not be the same as YOURS. Just a piece of advice.. Think of all the NEGATIVE habits you have that hold you back. Act oppositely of them every chance you get.. Bunny I need you to be strong okay?
So, i guess all the rest of them folks who never made it past their pain and misery are people "God" doesn't care about, somehow, right? But you're special.
I barely even mentioned God but you somehow picked that out of everything else I said. How astute.. I'm really sorry you feel this way. I feel joyful, not special- and instead of feeling happy for me, you get upset with me for some odd reason.
Jesus loves you and he died for you. The Love of God Love is sooo big. He can listen to your sorrow, to your doubt, to your depression, to your joy, to your anxiety... Literally everything ! He cares about you, start to care more about him. Read the Bible if you want to learn more ❤
Lithium is NOT an antidepressent and this song is not about a phone Lithium is a mood stabilizer for bipolar disorder althought it more often than not leaves you with absolutely no emotions what so ever do your homework guys . . . - Bipolar sufferer
+Tiffany Amber - Maybe after you graduate you can help manufacture medications that are not so harsh on the body - for instance - side effects may include: suicidal idealization, new or worsening depression, weight gain, anxiety...I took Medication for years and it always made the sadness worse!
+Tiffany Amber HI! I'm chemist and do you know what I wonder about while listening to htis song? Poor little piece 0f lithium needs to make lithium-hydroxide and it is so very sad because it can't leave its bottle :( Guys, kill me, all chemists are f*cking mad!
Elizabeth Blott so did I... I'm 6 months clean from doing that, now. I know you don't want to hear this but it gets better. I wanna tell you that depression comes and goes but you will always be here. depression is a passing phase that will come back. But you will remain because you will come out of this time in your life
It doesn't feel like I'll ever get out of this. It seems to me that the only way to get out is by committing suicide. I'm seriously debating whether or not to kill myself.
And it's not as if my parents would miss me. They don't notice the cuts and they should considering that I live with them because I'm only 14 years old. My parents don't give a damn.
I felt the same way. I felt that my parents didn't see that I needed medical help, and I still feel that way. I still haven't forgiven them... and I know that's bad. but I can't bring myself to. I truly understand how you feel. but believe me, killing yourself won't get you anywhere, trust me, I've been there, gone through that, but... I would've regretted killing myself because I have more now than I ever did. and I feel good. I feel really really good. so it does pay off. going through this personalized hell pays off.
Thank god I was never given Lithium for my bipolar disorder. They gave me lamictal, cymbalta, klonopin and zonegran ( i don't even think that is a fucking mood drug) . The Zanogram made me lose extreme amount of weight. While the Cymbalta cause me to be not hungry. The withdrawals from Cymbalta are horrible .. think of it this way you know the side effect of your bowels get when taking pain killers.. Imagine that in withdrawal form, but having to go to the hospital for help. Finally on the right meds. Still on lamictal and klonopin, but now have wellbutrin and it's worked for my depression. This song deals with that struggle to remain yourself , but getting better and fearing losing yourself, especially when your in the arts your mind thinks you need your sorrow in order to be good and that's not the case at all.
way to young for a regime of this sort. change your environment,and leave your inside torture where you reside now. start anew as I tried. the older you become the more stronger it appears to get. I will be alone before long. a stiff drink and a quick decision. it was disappointing for all the work
Zonegran is an anti-seizure medication. But they may have been using it to try and counteract adverse side effects from other medications you were on. Unfortunately it is fairly common, get one medication to fix your problem, and two other medications to fix problems caused by the first medication.
As a singer myself let me tell you that this is incredibly difficult to sing! Never have I been physically incapable of hitting any note. But when she hits that high, high note at the end, I can't do it, and 99.99999% of people probably can't. Amy Lee is the greatest rock singer of at least the decade, no doubt.
I used to hear olot of Evanescence, it always makes me feel happy .. I think I'm going back to this beautiful trend again, cause it makes me feel young and special ^^
If you have never had depression you might not understand but I think this song is about that point you reach where that weight is all you have. where everything is so very heavy that depression becomes your addiction. it is all you have left
Now that I've really had time to think about it I really understand what she's saying. I spent the first 17 years, 8 months not knowing who I was until I started taking Lithium. It made me depressed to realize who I am because when I started taking it it enlightened me enough to see who I really am. Crazy as it sounds, I know. But then again... What really liberates us and delivers us is the fact that we cannot ever stop changing. Don't want to lock me up inside.
I totally understand where you are coming from, I started on lithium in August and yes it has enlightened me, I am not sure yet if that is a good thing or not.
Terra Somarah No you aren't being rude, you can take lithium in tablet form and sometimes liquid form. You are correct, lithium is a mineral it was first discovered as a chemical element in 1817. By the mid-1800s, there was great interest in "urate imbalances", which were thought to explain a variety of diseases, including mania and depression. It is now mainly used to treat bipolar disorder.......
After hearing this song (and having it explained to me) I totally feel it. When I'm on my bipolar medicine it feels like I have no energy, I feel inferior to everyone else and I just feel down. When I'm off it I feel like I could conquer the world but I get angry easier and I don't listen very well. The decision of not being able to stop myself from hurting the feelings of those around me or sacrificing my personal happiness to prevent that is a tough one.
She honestly nailed the tearing feeling Of wanting to get better, but not wanting to be numb completely. I’m bipolar and hearing her beg to let it go, while also being fearful of what might come in place of her pain really hit home for me.
I have bipolar anxiety and depression, it sucks I'm on meds for it and I hate taking them, but got no choice I thought I could control it on my own, without em so I haven't taken em in a month, and my mood swings are bad .... Guess it's time I take them.😭
I have been suffering from depressing for the last decade..this song is pretty much my life is in a nutshell..its creepy..its a dungeon..hidden darkness..pls dont mistreat anyone who has it..It only takes one to know one.
I have BPD (Borderline Personality Disorder.) and I don't have Bipolar, yet this song feels relatable. Even if I don't have Lithium for my BPD, cause it's specifically for bipolar. (I think), but yeah this song is so damn good and the lyrics...I get chills every time I listen to this.
"Look at the sky. It is full of stars. And maybe there is some of them with a planet that have a little boy like you, looking for another you. I hope this day will come and they will see how beautiful our planet is"
Mireya B I hope you realise that the song is about an addiction to Lithium, used in medication for Bipolar disorder. The song is really serious. It's not a song meant to relate to angsty teens
I have bipolar disorder. Both my brother and I. It's a terrible suffering that I don't wish even to my worst enemy. Every day is a struggle. A misery. Unfortunately I'm just taking lithium while listening to this song. This is my song definately. It describes me in such a way!
This song has always been a huge motivation to me as well as amy herself. As someone that suffers with bipolar and depression and multi personalities Disorder As well as someone that waas on lithium I know what exactly she's talking about. It's a huge battle every day dealing with bipolar depressionAnd not knowing whether you'll be able to pull yourself through.It sucks and especially when you have no oneAs a friend or someone that you can talk to. Have attempted Multiple timesAnd it's part of Whymy family hasAbandon Me. I pray for everyone and anyone that struggles with this illness. I know right now it seems hard but you can get through this and you can be bigger than your illness. I love all Of yall
Can’t talk about bipolar and schizophrenia because I don’t have the experience. I do know what they are and I’ve seen their manifestation because I work in psychiatry. I have experienced depression. Depression can’t be cured, it can only be understood. It’s a cycle of life. It’s dark and scary because it makes you feel empty, gives you anxiety and suffering. But emptiness is the nature of life. What we’ve been conditioned to see life as is not the truth. That’s why we expect too much from life, then feel dissatisfied, disappointed and slip into darkness. Cant say much in text but embracing deep dark emptiness is the cure for depression. It’s not scary when you understand depression. Embrace life, embrace pain, emptiness in all nuances, you’ll stand above your depression
I listened to this song in my darkest moments. I was diagnosed with bipolar 1 and I actully take the medication lithium. I can hardly sing this song with a straight face lol
Hey, I actually got diagnoses with scitzo-affective disorder, and I know the struggle of medications messing with you and your personality. Sometimes it feels like feeling good isn't worth sacrificing who you are as a person.
Do you know what is worse than feeling sad? Feeling numb and dissociated. You no longer feel like a person, completely disconnected from the world. You wanna feel something, anything, so yeah, you miss your sadness...
This is so f ckin true.I no longer enjoy things I used to have fun to do. Not interested in sex and pleasure.Isolating from the outside world..I'm in the point where I would rather feel sadness than numbness. Even tho I never been to antidepressants, depression makes me already numb.
Did anyone else notice that this was made in 2006? This is actually a really impressive lyric video for it being made that long ago. Most lyric videos from back then had a background with just one plain color and the font was comic sans.
my therapist diagnosed me with possible Bi-polar disorder and I don't want lithium so this describes how i feel right now. and I almost cried, I get told that I can sing evanescence and I am not going to toot my own horn or anything but I agree, and I can feel my emotions and hers when I was hitting the notes. and I almost cried.
I was prescribed lithium by a doctor who I told I was pregnant. 2 and a half weeks later, I had a miscarriage. On a slightly lighter note, I definitely know exactly how she feels in this song.
I got took straight off my Lithium with both kids first took it after this b ur t this one there wanting me to start in the 2nd trimester which is a. Week away nooo it’s a bad drug also diazepam pregablin amyttriptime all the others heart goes out to you 💖💖💖
Lithium a medicine used to treat BPD and severe depression with suicidal thoughts and tendencies. From experience, the medicine stops you from feeling depressed but it stops all emotion. You take it and feel nothing but if you don't take it you feel your depression. Some think feeling nothing is better but I can't explain how horrible it is. You become locked in your own head with a gag on. She explained both the medicine and depression beautifully.
I used to listen to this song when I was maybe about 9 or 10 years old, imagining my characters I had created in my head along with it and.. I didn’t really grasp the meaning of the song, or that she was singing about the effects of lithium. I just thought it was some emo song. Now that I’ve got diagnosed with major depression and put on Fluoxetine 45mg, it’s became more clear to me about the meaning of this song. So difficult to be caught up in wanting to feel alive but also not wanting to hurt others around you., my heart goes out to anybody dealing with any depression 🤍🤍..
Even when I am 90 I will still LOVE Evanescence And to the people That still like Evanescence Y'all have a great taste in music this is the best band ever
Lithium is used for mental illnesses, including bipolar disorder, depression, and schizophrenia; for eating disorders, including anorexia and bulimia; and for blood disorders, including anemia and low white-cell count (neutropenia). Lithium is also used for headache, alcoholism, epilepsy, diabetes, liver disease, kidney disorders, arthritis, a skin condition called seborrhea, and overactive thyroid. Other uses include treatment of asthma, Huntington’s disease, Graves' disease, herpes simplex, a movement disorder called tardive dyskinesia, Tourette’s syndrome, cyclical vomiting, Meniere's disease, a tingling or “crawling” sensation in the skin (paresthesias), and aggressive behavior in people with attention deficit-hyperactivity disorder (ADHD).
Lithium is also used in medicine that helps with epilepsy. I know the battle, and I listen to this song to empower me over my PTSD, depression, anxiety, anger, and epilepsy.
This song was to her ex husband shaun morgan....lead singer from Seether. After the divorce she pretty much stayed to herself. Shortly after...she got on meds for bipolar and depression. These were her written lyrics as she shut the world out and stayed behind the doors of her apt. Call me when your sober is another one to her ex-husband.
this song is actually about a toxic relationship. lithium, reffering to the psychiatric drug used to treat bipolar, manic depression, and schizophrenia to stabilize patients without sedation but had horrible side effects; is used in this song as a metaphor for a person and a toxic codependent relationship ."come to bed dont make me sleep alone" "you just didn't drink enough to say you love me" "I forgive you after all, anything is better than to be alone" they are her "Lithium" something that comforts her but is bad for her.
Lithium refers to the antimanic drug, lithium carbonate, which has many uses in regulating mood and behavior. For the treatment of bipolar disorder, it is on the World Health Organization's List of Essential Medicines, the most important medications needed in a basic health system.
Man, I always loved this song but it resonates differently now that I'm taking medication to manage my depression (which was caused by several things, including childhood trauma). I feel SO much better on my medication. My insecurities and trauma triggers used to make me spiral into really fraught head spaces, and my emotions would overwhelm me and make me lash out at people I love. And then I'd be kind of shocked by my own behavior and emotional state afterwards--it was like Jekyll and Hyde. It's a big part of why my most recent relationship ended (even though we're still good friends). I would also have a lot of days where I wouldn't feel anything, or I wouldn't know what emotion I was feeling, and BOY was it hard to do my schoolwork.This is all in addition to seeing a therapist and a psychiatrist. I fully recommend both therapy and medication if you're having a hard time with your emotions and/or mental illness--I really wouldn't suggest asking your regular doctor for antidepressants or other similar meds. There won't be the same kind of follow-up and monitoring that a psychiatrist would provide in order to make sure the meds are working for you and not making you feel worse. Talk to a therapist and a psychiatrist about it, they're the professionals. A therapist can also help you work on the problems that contribute to your depression--like, medication can help you feel a normal level of emotion, but it's not going to magically cure you of your self-esteem issues, or your phobias, or make your trauma less painful. It just makes it easier to deal with those things. Something else about this song is the idea of letting go. Change is scary, and becoming a better, happier person requires change. It's really tempting to just stay the way you are right now because it's familiar, and familiar things often feel safe. But you have to let go of the worst aspects of your old self if you want to improve. For me, a lot of who I am right now is informed by my childhood traumas, and because of those traumas I have a lot of behaviors and reactions that are unhealthy and kind of toxic. I need to work on understanding those parts of me, and then letting them go, so that I can be happier and so that I can have better relationships with other people. "I wanna stay in love with my sorrow / But God, I wanna let it go."
I've constantly been battling depression. There was one time which was 2 yrs ago... I got bullied so bad I almost completely gave up. My mom sent me to get help all they did was throw me in a mental hospital. Never helped btw if you were wondering. I'm constantly everyday battling depression. Doctors think medication works all the time truth is it doesn't. I am still getting bullied. But thank God after the hospital I grew enough courage to stand up for myself. Now anytime I see a bully I go off on them and they eventually quit.
