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Lofi Hip Hop is the best for study / chill music🎶
If you are new to the channel, I’m happy you clicked on my video! Hopefully, this Lofi playlist brings you a moment of peace. ㋡
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kainbeats - Here, I Feel Free (feat. nikiie) | / kainbeats
luv pug x Spaniel Mac - Michael | / luvpug
Purrple Cat - Wanderlust | / purrplecat
Mondo Loops - Secret Forest (Ft Softy) | / mondoloops
TABAL x mell-ø - Weightless | / tabalmusic
kainbeats - Within the Rift | / kainbeats
Purrple Cat - Day’s end | / purrplecat
luv pug x Spaniel Mac - Sleepy | / luvpug
kainbeats - Before the Light | / kainbeats
Purrple Cat - Passing Time | / purrplecat
kainbeats - Parallel | / kainbeats
Purrple Cat - Better Days | / purrplecat
📍Listen to more Lofi music: / @hito7302
Thank you for your support!
🙏 If you want to support my work, you can buy me a coffee, It would be a huge motivation for me to keep making videos. Thank U (˶ᵔ ᵕ ᵔ˶)
: www.buymeacoffee.com/hito03
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@ComusCat
@ComusCat 5 месяцев назад
To anybody reading this, I pray that whatever is hurting you or whatever you are constantly stressing about gets better. May the dark thoughts, the overthinking, and the doubt exit your mind may clarity replace confusion. may peace and calmness fill your life.
@iggyvanzandt4515
@iggyvanzandt4515 5 месяцев назад
Thank you
@lofilounge88
@lofilounge88 4 месяца назад
Yeah. I agree. It's tough and sometimes I need a break to feel calmness. This helps me grow. Good luck to everyone! 🥰
@jeffboughter1031
@jeffboughter1031 4 месяца назад
From the outcast I thank you but I'm pretty sure at some point in time I brought it upon myself.
@fridamarisolcarbajalalegri2603
@fridamarisolcarbajalalegri2603 4 месяца назад
Thank you so much. You are an incredible person 😊
@kristhoferolvera1332
@kristhoferolvera1332 3 месяца назад
Ich habe diese Nachricht nicht erwartet, aber danke😢❤
@-krrrt-
@-krrrt- Месяц назад
Whoever reading this, you are amazing. Don't let yourself down, let yourself up instead.
@ChilledSheep
@ChilledSheep 3 месяца назад
Whoever is reading this comment, I wish you success, health, love and happiness 💖
@ogre706
@ogre706 3 месяца назад
...what if Hitler was reading this though.
@universilo3283
@universilo3283 17 дней назад
Ive just read this, shortly before an important and serious conversation with my boss. It gaves me a smile and a little bit of braveness. Thank you!
@user-qv8gh1iv6u
@user-qv8gh1iv6u 2 месяца назад
I'm Japanese and I'll challenge the exam in four days. It's very reassuring to think that you are studying by listening to the same song in your environment and time😌Let's both do our best, believing that a good future is waiting for us🤝🏻
@mrtire-12
@mrtire-12 2 месяца назад
Sorry, I'm actually working right now. Listening to this while making food though is really nice though. I work at a pizza shop
@user-qv8gh1iv6u
@user-qv8gh1iv6u 2 месяца назад
@@mrtire-12 That's very humorous and I admire it🥰I'm sure the food you make is more delicious than any other food😻
@tg3307
@tg3307 2 месяца назад
How was your test? I hope it went well💮. Good luck in school 勉強にも、友達にも
@user-qv8gh1iv6u
@user-qv8gh1iv6u 2 месяца назад
@@tg3307 I had an interview the day after the exam and a small happening happened... I can only laugh, but I will live positively! Thank you🥰
@RandomPersonOnTheInternet_O.o
@RandomPersonOnTheInternet_O.o 2 месяца назад
i hope everything is going well! Japanese schools are said to be quite challenging so i wish you good luck! Love sent from Canada
@ChillMelodies890
@ChillMelodies890 Месяц назад
To whoever is reading this message, my heartfelt wishes are with you for success, vibrant health, boundless love, and overflowing happiness. 🌟💖 May each day be filled with achievements, every moment be brimming with well-being, and your heart be warmed by the embrace of love and joy. You deserve all the best that life has to offer. ✨🌈
@GirlyMe-jm9mn
@GirlyMe-jm9mn 5 месяцев назад
I swear. Every Lodi comment section is the most positive place you’ll ever be in, in your whole life. You guys are nothing but nice in a world that has almost none of that today. But here, you’ll always be uplifted and I love that.
@GirlyMe-jm9mn
@GirlyMe-jm9mn 5 месяцев назад
Lofi *
@KodaBean
@KodaBean 2 месяца назад
I do not know what I would do without Lofi tbh. I'm in school and have several learning disabilities including ADHD. without lofi i there would be no way i would be focused on my college classes.
@CharmwaveSounds
@CharmwaveSounds 2 месяца назад
To the lovely soul scanning these words: may your path be adorned with success, health brim in abundance, love engulf your heart, and happiness bloom around you.
@CityDrizzleLoFi
@CityDrizzleLoFi Месяц назад
To whoever is reading this, I extend my heartfelt wishes for success, vibrant health, abundant love, and boundless happiness. 💖 May your journey be filled with positivity and fulfillment in every aspect of life. Keep shining bright! ✨
@RandomPersonOnTheInternet_O.o
@RandomPersonOnTheInternet_O.o 2 месяца назад
it is so sweet to see people from everywhere come together to work peacefully to the same music
@amberlr
@amberlr Месяц назад
I'm in high school and I just got into my dream program that determines my entire future, this program will launch me so far into the future I will have a degree in nursing before I even get into college, Yet I'm so stressed that it wont work out, I just can't get over the feeling that this isn't really what I want to do, I have so many people pushing me and telling me that this is my only chance I will ever have in life to be successful, I don't know if I can do it. It makes me feel so stuck inside of this web of whether or not I want to disappoint everyone by saying that I'm not ready. Not to mention I have exams and my SAT coming up. I don't know if I'm ready to grow up yet, I just need a few more years to enjoy who I really am. But, I really have no choice in it after all.
@arapags4171
@arapags4171 Месяц назад
I have a similar experience, but mine was rather spontaneous and some supported me while others did not. I, myself, doubted my capabilities. Last August, I was given a full scholarship. I really did not think I could do it, however, I took the risk with the thought that I want to get out of my bubble and taste the world. Man, the world is bitter, yet it is delightful. My first months were hell. It was so overwhelming to the point that I had panick attacks and couldn't breathe (multiple of times), and only I knew about this. I couldn't tell anyone what I was going through, I just had to keep pushing. Now, I have adjusted. There are difficulties, yes, but I know I just have to keep pushing. Just so you know, I am in eleventh grade and before I entered the university that gave me a full schalarship, I was very reluctant and unsure, but there was that tiny voice in me to seize the oppurtunity. Moreover, this path I have chosen will continue until my career since this university's SHS is connected to College. Therefore I have to stick to it until my I finish my course. It worked out for me(for now). Maybe it will work out for you too. Trust your gut. Be true to yourself. No matter what your decisions will be, there will always be pros and cons, just remember to enjoy every moment ( even if it's hard sometimes).❤❤❤❤
@lofilounge88
@lofilounge88 4 месяца назад
Live for the moment! Supporting the lofi community while I am on break! Stay positive!
@LittleSoulStories
@LittleSoulStories Месяц назад
To the person reading this, Good Luck! Don't stress, everything will be fine. No matter what difficulty you are facing right now, you can overcome it! You are strong and brave
@ex_molly715
@ex_molly715 5 месяцев назад
Its gonna be a great day, hito lofi posted, wish everyone health and happiness :)
@SoulfulChillhopVibes
@SoulfulChillhopVibes Месяц назад
It's as if the music speaks directly to my heart, whispering tales of love, nostalgia, and peace.
@PixelLofiChill
@PixelLofiChill 2 месяца назад
Remember, you're incredible! Keep pushing forward with confidence. Believe in yourself and your dreams. You've got this! 💪🌟
@CozyLofiWhispers
@CozyLofiWhispers Месяц назад
May your burdens lighten, and clarity illuminate your path. 🌟🕊
@kawaiimusiccute
@kawaiimusiccute Месяц назад
Studying becomes an entirely different experience with this enchanting soundtrack.
@MellowLofiMusic-V
@MellowLofiMusic-V Месяц назад
In the embrace of Lofi music, I find solace, peace, and a profound sense of belonging.
@AmbientStudyBeats
@AmbientStudyBeats 22 дня назад
Your compositions are a testament to the boundless creativity of the human spirit. Thank you for sharing your gift with the world
@eeyaah
@eeyaah 5 месяцев назад
idk if nobody has told you this but your videos are so relaxing!! The artwork,music,the time put into this as well! I dont ever want you to stop making these!! Hard work and dedication is key in any situation!! OH i also have a whole playlist of your videos i play in school! They truly help me focus in school!! lysm❤🎧🎶
@hito7302
@hito7302 5 месяцев назад
🥹thanks
@eeyaah
@eeyaah 5 месяцев назад
@@hito7302 ofc🥺
@unwindcitysnow
@unwindcitysnow 4 месяца назад
The tranquility exuding from this is truly remarkable, creating a relaxing ambiance that seamlessly blends into the background.
@user-kd4sb8xh4x
@user-kd4sb8xh4x 14 дней назад
Its gonna be a great day
@LofiSpaceArt
@LofiSpaceArt 5 месяцев назад
Wow this is so relaxing and not distracting at all if I want to put it on doing homework or writing. Love it!
@lofi-meow
@lofi-meow 3 месяца назад
Really soothing and relaxing. It makes me feel that I am connected to the world or that whoever is listening shares the same energy or feelings with me 💕
@GiovannaPalmarella
@GiovannaPalmarella 5 месяцев назад
I'M SO HAPPY THAT YOU POSTED A NEW VIDEO!
@hito7302
@hito7302 5 месяцев назад
☺️
@gemmeix
@gemmeix 5 месяцев назад
thank you I always listen to your playlists while studying
@sayfrancais
@sayfrancais 2 месяца назад
Finally , I found a nice lofi playlist ! 🏵Have a great day , all !🍃
@LofiBreatheMusic
@LofiBreatheMusic 14 дней назад
It's so nice to listen to your music, thank you for doing such incredible work 💝
@ChillBeatSanctuary
@ChillBeatSanctuary Месяц назад
Lofi music wraps around me like a warm embrace, enveloping me in its cozy embrace of sound.
@pwetzl
@pwetzl 3 месяца назад
i put this on to sleep and study to, best nap and hw combo in awhile
@ZenStudyLoFi
@ZenStudyLoFi Месяц назад
Your compositions are like a symphony of emotion, playing the strings of my heart with exquisite precision and skill.
@edhammond3729
@edhammond3729 Месяц назад
Whoever is reading this make sure this continues onto your legacy and life. But for now, stay happy and be lofi
@tranquilcity108
@tranquilcity108 4 месяца назад
The way you curate the music and visuals is top-notch. It's evident that you put a lot of effort and thought into each video. 😊
@jenniexstarr
@jenniexstarr 2 месяца назад
I have been listening to this playlist for an hour and finished my 2 math hw :) thank youo HITO
@loficat00000
@loficat00000 2 месяца назад
I can't thank you enough for this music! It's helped me overcome my sleep struggles and enjoy restful nights like never before.
@WhisperedStorys
@WhisperedStorys 5 месяцев назад
It's really beautiful, relaxing and comfortable music. I also enjoy doing the same thing
@LoFiMetro
@LoFiMetro 5 месяцев назад
Lofi's ability to blend nostalgic samples with contemporary rhythms creates a unique sonic landscape. It's like a time-traveling melody that bridges the gap between the past and the present, invoking a sense of sentimental reflection. 🕰🎹🌌
@S.productions16
@S.productions16 Месяц назад
Whoever is reading this, i hope you have the best day and days this year. I hope you get happiness in your life because you deserve it, and if youre trying your best in life that is perfect. You are awesome and i hope you get peace and overcome anything bad happening in your life.
@MightyMinty777
@MightyMinty777 5 месяцев назад
Thanks 🙏🏽
@SM-sz9bx
@SM-sz9bx Месяц назад
love to listen to this while studying thank you!
@L-fChill-oj5wo
@L-fChill-oj5wo 2 месяца назад
I've been listening to this music and waves for many nights to help me rest. I struggle to fall asleep because of pain. I read a few comments for the first time tonight and my heart was warmed within me. To those who come after me and read my comment, allow yourself to be encouraged by the words of others here. Let your heart, mind, and body be put at ease, at lest for the night. You are not really alone.
@BuddhasLofi
@BuddhasLofi 3 месяца назад
Love it ❤❤ So relaxy music .
@Lofiwithmybeagle
@Lofiwithmybeagle 2 месяца назад
Enjoying the vibes, I hope everyone reading this has a lovely day ❤ 🐾
@Sofiarosaa4
@Sofiarosaa4 Месяц назад
This is the most beautiful calming magical loving music I've ever heard this makes me trascend 💖❤️ I feel love all around me
@icywavs
@icywavs 3 месяца назад
Love the vibes here, my friend! This is awesome! Keep up the amazing work 😍
@CalebWhitekeyblade
@CalebWhitekeyblade 5 месяцев назад
Glad there more music, I like the gifs as well
@Lofi.freaks.
@Lofi.freaks. 2 месяца назад
Tysm for sharing this playlist, I do make Lo-fi videos to play my cafe and this gives me so much motivation and calm energy to move on. Good as gold. For everyone who reads this comment may the best of love and luck be with you today. 🤍
@LOFIWITHME-jw4ju
@LOFIWITHME-jw4ju Месяц назад
For YOU... the person who is reading this comment I wish you a lifetime of happiness, laughter, love, and prosperity! All is well! The Universe is providing! You are safe in this benevolent Universe!
@SoundPharmacist
@SoundPharmacist 3 месяца назад
relaxed and comfi, thats what my ears feel like. hehe thanx for the upload
@insertdecentname4136
@insertdecentname4136 Месяц назад
whoever reads this, i hope you are have good day
@ranosattorova8698
@ranosattorova8698 2 месяца назад
Если ты это видишь то знай,ты сделал достаточно,иди вперед и люби себя как ты и есть💕
@serenecity88
@serenecity88 4 месяца назад
Drifting through the sounds of Lofi City, where music becomes a sanctuary for the mind."
@LofiStudy02
@LofiStudy02 2 месяца назад
The music is very good, it helps me relieve stress after a tiring day!
@1lazymow.
@1lazymow. Месяц назад
That introduction track though... Them feels.
@TheIndianPrince_
@TheIndianPrince_ Месяц назад
reading chemistry while listening to this>>
@user-bu1wt1zp7t
@user-bu1wt1zp7t 28 дней назад
You
@elizar8672
@elizar8672 15 дней назад
There is something better waiting for you in the near future, keep trying. 💙
@achanjiaramas3893
@achanjiaramas3893 Месяц назад
Nice music! Thank you👍
@nelj3376
@nelj3376 12 дней назад
Have a nice day! ❤
@KawaiiChillwave
@KawaiiChillwave Месяц назад
You have selected good music, very suitable for listening to late at night
@CityChillNights
@CityChillNights 5 месяцев назад
Very unique image!
@LostinLoFiCity-vg8mx
@LostinLoFiCity-vg8mx Месяц назад
Beautiful video beautiful vibes ❤
@chill-lofi-chronicles
@chill-lofi-chronicles 3 месяца назад
Niiiice! ❤❤❤
@ranosattorova8698
@ranosattorova8698 2 месяца назад
Просто не думай о плохих вещах,успокой свою душу❤
@SoftLofi134
@SoftLofi134 Месяц назад
Awesome! This is literally one of my favorite channels
@zumzum7386
@zumzum7386 2 месяца назад
29:29 ♥️ very comfortable while reading manga, With a fairly relaxed genre.
@-LILTHSDIARY-
@-LILTHSDIARY- 4 дня назад
100 reasons to live: 1. to make your parents proud 2. to conquer your fears 3. to see your family again 4. to see your favorite artist live 5. to listen to music again 6. to experience a new culture 7. to make new friends 8. to inspire 9. to have your own children 10. to adopt your own pet 11. to make yourself proud 12. to meet your idols 13. to laugh until you cry 14. to feel tears of happiness 15. to eat your favorite food 16. to see your siblings grow 17. to pass school 18. to get a tattoo 19. to smile until your cheeks hurt 20. to meet your internet friends 21. to find someone who loves you as you deserve 22. to eat ice cream on a hot day 23. to drink hot chocolate on a cold day 24. to see untouched snow in the morning 25. to see a sunset that sets the sky on fire 26. to see stars light up the sky 27. to read a book that changes your life 28. to see the flowers in the spring 29. to see the leaves change from green to brown 30. to travel abroad 31. to learn a new language 32. to learn to draw 33. to tell others your story in the hopes of helping them 34. Puppy kisses. 35. Baby kisses (the open-mouthed kind when they smack their lips on your cheek) 36. Swear words and the release you feel when you say them. 37. Trampolines. 38. Ice cream. 39. Stargazing. 40. Cloud watching. 41. Taking a shower and then sleeping on clean sheets. 42. Receiving thoughtful gifts. 43. “I saw this and thought of you." 44. The feeling you get when someone you love says, “I love you." 45. The relief you feel after crying. 46. Sunshine. 47. The feeling you get when someone is listening to you/giving you their full attention. 48. Your future wedding. 49. Your favorite candy bar. 50. New clothes. 51. Witty puns. 52. Really good bread. 53. Holding your child in your arms for the first time. 54. Completing a milestone (aka going to college, graduating college, getting married, getting your dream job.) 55. The kind of dreams where you wake up and can’t stop smiling. 56. The smell before and after it rains. 57. The sound of rain against a rooftop. 58. The feeling you get when you’re dancing. 59. The person (or people) that mean the most to you. Stay alive for them. 60. Trying out new recipes. 61. The feeling you get when your favorite song comes on the radio. 62. The rush you get when you step onto a stage. 63. You have to share your voice and talents and knowledge with the world because they are so valuable. 64. Breakfast in bed. 65. Getting a middle seat in the movie theatre. 66. Breakfast for dinner (because it’s so much better at night than in the morning). 67. a feeling of being loved 68. Forgiveness. 69. Water balloon fights. 70. New books by your favorite authors. 71. Fireflies. 72. Birthdays. 73. Realising that someone loves you. 74. Spending the day with someone you love. 75. Spending the whole day in bed. 76. Eating a whole pint of your favorite ice cream. 77. Floating in water on your back and just staring up at the sky. 78. First dates (even the bad ones make for funny stories.) 79. Bonfires and smokes. 80. Relationships where you love someone but aren’t in love with them. 81. Coming home to someone you love. 82. The color of autumn leaves when they change. Summer. 83. Sing songs at the top of your lungs with your friends. 84. Cuddling. 85. Being wrapped up in a warm bed. 86. Someone’s skin against yours. 87. Holding hands. 88. The kind of hugs when you can feel a weight being lifted off your shoulders. The kind of hug where your breath syncs with the other person’s, and you feel like the only two people in the world. 89. Singing off key with your best friends. 90. Road trips. 91. Spontaneous adventures. 92. The feeling of sand beneath your toes. 93. The feeling when the first ocean wave rolls up and envelops your toes and ankles and knees. 94. Thunderstorms. 95. Your first (or hundredth) trip to Disneyland. 96. The taste of your favorite food. 97. The child-like feeling you get on New-Year Morning. 98. The day when everything finally goes your way. 99. Compliments and praise. 100. to look at this moment in 10 years' time and realize you did it. SN (SIDE NOTE): I hope everything will get better for you
@antoniaaraujo689
@antoniaaraujo689 2 месяца назад
Esse é um ótimo canal! Gostei muito amigo.
@arshsharma9704
@arshsharma9704 3 месяца назад
4:42 soul touching
@MelodyVoyage-zb1ft
@MelodyVoyage-zb1ft 29 дней назад
Very Good
@WorkinCalm
@WorkinCalm Месяц назад
Nice!
@KarakanPhipimsarn
@KarakanPhipimsarn 2 месяца назад
I like it🎉❤
@william68060
@william68060 5 месяцев назад
Who does the artwork? Love it!
@user-ie2gf3si1w
@user-ie2gf3si1w 18 дней назад
amei 🥰😍😘
@anastasialiapkovich4590
@anastasialiapkovich4590 2 месяца назад
I am in the IB program at my school, and the last couple months have been gard. But i have lof-fi to help me through it!
@PopStars886
@PopStars886 5 месяцев назад
Shoutout to everyone reading this, probably during a late-night study session or just soaking in the calm of the night. Take a break, step outside if you can, and let's savor the quiet beauty of our world. Embrace your flaws, they make you just as unique as our Earth. Dream big, follow your heart, and surround yourself with good vibes. As strangers sharing this moment, know that brighter days are ahead. Love will find you, connections will flourish, and your dreams will come true. Keep being your awesome self. ❤🌙
@user-bf4nj7wo3i
@user-bf4nj7wo3i 2 месяца назад
YALL ARE SO SWEET ILL CRY :< WISH U NICE DAY EVERYONE REMEMBER TO STAY POSITIVEEEEE
@ThienThien-gh6gz
@ThienThien-gh6gz 2 месяца назад
chill
@user-wf8ep1pd5m
@user-wf8ep1pd5m Месяц назад
У меня дома шумно и это помогает мне сосредоточиться на уроках .❤
@lofichill944
@lofichill944 20 дней назад
be happy
@odeyalko1
@odeyalko1 2 месяца назад
hi~ can I use your music on streams? I hope it is without copyright, because your songs are very pleasant
@Artcollectionworld
@Artcollectionworld 3 месяца назад
❤❤❤❤
@AvinHasPaws
@AvinHasPaws 3 месяца назад
love you all and i hope you have a great day
@LoFiMelody-2024
@LoFiMelody-2024 Месяц назад
Отличная музыка для поднятия эмоций...почему ты такой талантливый
@thituongvivo9291
@thituongvivo9291 Месяц назад
great
@tracy2919
@tracy2919 Месяц назад
Fantastice mic! I only wish there were timestamps with the name of the songs
@TigerGill220
@TigerGill220 3 месяца назад
@OUCHANN1
@OUCHANN1 5 месяцев назад
ありがとうございます ドット絵はどうやって作ってるんですか?
@Lofijunglebeats
@Lofijunglebeats 5 месяцев назад
Hi fellow lofi-people 🙋‍♂ Take good care of yourself! join the lofi jungle 🌱 🙏
@WasabiLofiBeats
@WasabiLofiBeats Месяц назад
👍👍👍
@PeacelandLoFi
@PeacelandLoFi 2 месяца назад
🌊 Find peace in the ebb and flow of these calming tunes. Release your worries and let serenity wash over you. 🌊🎵 Drop a 🌊 if you're feeling at ease!
@Cherish-qv6jn
@Cherish-qv6jn 3 месяца назад
Stress free I didn’t think I’d be here I’m so happy I could cry Happy I deny Only when I see your eyes Your eyes Your eyes Your eyes I see the world It’s so beautiful I wonder if you know You make me feel So many new things I can’t wait to hear you say my name Cause I always wanted You you you you you You you you you you You you you you you It’s always been you you you When will. If it is. Just you.
@ChillBeatSanctuary-V
@ChillBeatSanctuary-V 21 день назад
Hope your day is filled with love and laughter! Embrace the peace and tranquility of Lofi music.
@vampbat
@vampbat 2 месяца назад
2:41 this one is beautiful. I wish I knew who made it so that I could find it on its own! I will try every description link and see if it is there, I suppose.
@littlesoul-lofigirl
@littlesoul-lofigirl Месяц назад
The lofi community is the safest place on RU-vid, im sure. I don't want much, I just want the person reading this to be healthy, happy, and loved. Wishing you a good day my friend.
@harurihu401
@harurihu401 4 месяца назад
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@Blueberriee
@Blueberriee Месяц назад
I’m having a rough day and I really need to vent abt my life before I go to sleep (this help me sleep) I’ve never had a friend I felt comfortable with talking to, crying to, or even saying anything about my feelings. U think the root of the problem is my mom and a girl (let’s call her Z) My mom is a great mom- exept for her anger issues and a mental illness that makes her believe everything is wrong (like she believed she had cancer because of a fever) She’d lash out at me all the time even when it wasn’t my fault. I was the oldest child and my little brother was 2 year’s younger than me. My mom loved my younger brother a lot more than me it seemed because she would spend 10 minutes in his room talking to him and scratching his back before bed then come into my room and say goodnight and walk out. My brother would start fights and by simply talking back to him I’d get in trouble. She always said to go to her if he annoyed me but when I did she got mad and said it wasn’t her problem. She gets mad when she has to be a mom and do mother things, like cleaning and getting us ready. She acts like she never wanted kids and all my life I thought she didn’t love me. She’s scream at me for telling her stuff I wanted to get off my chest (like this) and I learned it was best to bottle feelings up. I didn’t trust anyone and had no friends. I also thought that if I take all the pain from other people, it would help everyone because no one cared if I suffered as long as they didn’t. I felt so alone. She said some mean things to me that followed me even when years had past. “If this is motherhood I’d rather jump of a bridge” and “I feel bad that you have to look in the mirror and see what a monster you are”. I cried so hard those days and from then on I’ve never been the same. Now I know my mom loves me and cares, but it’s hard when she hates responsibility and loves my brother more than me and shows it clearly. She always hugs him and walks past me. I never even tell her I am mad or sad because the last time I did I got yelled at. She is a lot better now but I still have trust issues. And now for Z (the girl) I was in 6th grade. No fiends. I was desperate to make friends because of my home life. I met a girl let’s call her Z. Z was popular and she seemed nice so I joined her table. She loved me and we became besties. Over time she started to say things like “take that off” or “you look ugly in that” and I started to change. She told me to do her work and ignore me at lunch. We had a group and they all blocked me out. As soon as I talked they’d say “who asked you? Your so annoying” so I spent my much silent. This really hurt me but at least I had a friend right? Well once I saw Z in public and waved to her. She walked the other way after giving me a dirty look. At school the next day she went off on me for being a public embarrassment and annoying. I cried for weeks because I thought I had a friend and I was wrong. She even tried to make me black mail someone and when I said no she told me I wasn’t a good friend and that I’m ugly and not important. Still I wanted to be her friend so I shut up and let her put me down. I felt stupid and ugly and like no one cared about me. It got so bad I almost ran away. I had really bad social anxiety now because I thought if I see anyone in public they will think im ugly and a public embarrassment. Turns out the entire year, she was talking bad and spreading rumors behind my back. So at the end of 6th grade I asked my counselor if she wouldn’t give me classes with her. Next year I didn’t see Z In my classes but my issues were still there. Around fall, there was a church camp and it changed my life. I got the help I needed and my social anxiety slowly faded. I am not an extrovert and forgive Z for what happened. I know im not perfect but that’s ok. Im so great full for everything I have and even though I have my issues, my life is great. Thanks for reading this ❤
@frederick7452
@frederick7452 8 дней назад
Just personal interest timestamps 39:05 39:37 ❤️
@Gingerbread_74
@Gingerbread_74 Месяц назад
My exams are ending in 3 days im just gonna push through it tho..... Cant wait to not go to school
@Zanbz-jb3kb
@Zanbz-jb3kb 20 дней назад
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