london diaries | feeling stuck, a slow sunday & baking vegan pie 🍂✨ 

hiiii lovelies sorry for the lower energy this week - idk was going through a slumpy week and thought i'd share but it's mad how much better i feel a few days later editing this 🥺🤍 lots of love to u all!! and eee give sophia lots of love she is a sweetheart

you’re crushing it gal :,) post-grad is such a scary season but you got this 🥺❤️

i’ve been feeling very sad and down recently, i always see other people living the life i want it’s been really hard because i’ve been hating everything about my life but i’m trying to be positive. we can do it moo

moya🥺 thank you for having us through the highs and lows. i dont know what it is but im feeling just like you nowadays as well. i started my senior year in uni and my brother got covid on my first week so we are isolating currently😮‍💨 HOWEVER in the time being i’ve been offered a dream job so i do not know what to think and feel rn honestly. i love sharing my journey w/ you while experiencing yours🤍 i wish from the bottom of my heart for you to feel on track again cus i love thriving moya💘 also pls do not say that you are not good enough to make youtube full time i do not know anyone better at it than you!!! i hope you’re considering to give it a shot💌

moya!! i just wanted to say i much appreciate you opening up and sharing the lows! we all have lows and highs. when i'm going through lows, i would get stressed watching just so many "put together lives" on yt, constantly comparing myself to others, and feeling even lower than ever, but this video reassured me that we all are HUMAN. it's TOTALLY fine to feel lost and stuck!! i hope you're feeling better! thank you so much for sharing 🤍🤍

I lived in London for over 2 years and it’s a tough city. Both best and worst period of my life. Do the things that you loved to do as a kid! You will feel 100% better.

thank you for expressing what i’ve been feeling into words 🤍

U dont hv to underestimate ur problems dear...they dont hv to hv the tag of being small...just honour ur feelings the way they are...we love you and thank you for this one Take care❤❤❤❤

As someone who has lived in London since I was 18, now 21, it makes you feel like that as a city for at least 3-4 years, it takes a while to get comfortable here. But it comes eventually. Also, London isn't for everyone and that's ok, just like not everywhere is for everyone. Also, this will be a memory one day so even if it doesn't feel right by any standards, societies or Instagrams or your own, just take a break and be present and enjoy this. lots of love xxx (also ps look in Dalston / Hoxton i think you would like the area

omg the pie baking and soup making and golden hour guitar sing song, so freaking wholesome 😭❤️

no problems are silly, love. What you are feeling is valid, it's okay to feel that way. Sending all my love to you xxx

hi moya i just wanted to pop on here and say that ive been watching your videos for a while now and im so proud of you being able to be your true self even on camera bc it can be hard ! but you’re such an amazing, beautiful person and this little-long bump in the road is only temporary ! you will get the perfect place that is meant for you !! im cheering you on 🥺💞💐🕊

about the first part: most wholesome and comfort content

hey moya, firstly i relate so hard to everything you're going through because I also just graduated and moved to the big city. i wanted to say that if you're still feeling stuck in your body and bad about exercising i highly highly recommend trying out yoga. doing it every morning helps me so much, mentally and physically. there's so many great 20 minute videos here on youtube!

you’re doing great, moya! it’s okay to feel the way you’ve been feeling, things will get better eventually! you got this!

Thank you for sharing those thoughts with us - have been having a bad day today and seeing how we are all human and we all can feel so similarly sometimes managed to open up some needed thoughts this evening. Sending you all the love and positivity in the hopes of a fresh new week giving you the boost that you need x

i've been feeling like this for a while with school & life in general. it will get better! it's easier said than done but I'm going to at least try :) everyone is at a different place but can somehow feel the same way sometimes. this vlog was sooo cute and you've encouraged me to eat a little more plant-based. sending you love!

love the support you’re giving to your roomie 🥺❤️ such a cute duo you two!!!

I'm in the EXACT same position as you: just graduated Uni, living in London in a place where I am living out of my suitcase, keep getting rejected for flats because I have a small dog, I am staying so far from work and just feeling so uncomfortable and unsettled and just dreaming about having a place of my own to put my things and decorate and get back in to my routines. Sending you so many good vibes and hopefully soon you will get the perfect place you've been looking for xx

life has been super tough for me as well, and it’s so interesting that you mentioned how social media has started to become a bit toxic cus i’ve been feeling the same way!! i hope things get better for u & that you get to experience comfort and stability once again 💞 sending you lots of e-hugs

moya literally got me through quarantine. i couldn't have done it without her

no problems are silly, please don't say sorry for being honest about your feelings!! hope you feel better soon, sending you so much LOVE

Weekly refresher 🥰 thanks again for another lovely video, Moya!!

thanks for the vulnerable moment at the end

Thank you for this, it brings me comfort as well. Been feeling really out of it, or rather out of myself lately. Hope you'll give yourself the time to take some rest and get back to yourself again. I'm gonna try to go for walks at least two times a week, to relieve some stress, maybe that can help you too. Lots of love, Jade

hi moya lov, u r doing well ! pace urself and trust ur own timeline. U R LOVED xoxo

I’m the same age as you (22) although I’m almost 23 (at christmas) and I’ve also been feeling so slumpy and it’s definitely because it’s such a transitional period in our lives as is september/october for most people in the western world, especially when you have moved countries! as if you’ve lived in three countries already moya, you should be so proud of yourself and think of how far you’ve come, especially at such a young age !! lots of love, hope you’re feeling better now!

Your videos makes me feel safe, even you feel kinda lost, you make me feel less lost. You bring me so much peace and joy. Hope you find your dream space in London soon!!!

i feel like i should be fine because nothing is wrong in particular but i still feel overwhelmed and its a lot to cope with

Oh Moya I can relate so much! I almost cried with you, thank you for making such true/raw content. I love what you do, you’re wonderful and things will get better and turn your way soon. Maybe London just isn’t where you should be at the moment? Maybe the universe is trying to tell you that? Either way, we can only truly appreciate the good times when we get to experience the less good ones too... sending you love and motivation! x✨💕

your videos really soothe my anxiety

“It’s all about trial and error” THIS!! Everyone is pushing me to make a decision that I don’t want and Moya always grounds me to live life the way I wanna live. I FEEL SO LOST TOO BUT IM HAPPY I CAN BE LOST WITH MOYA CJDKDNSJ

I’m feeling very similarly in my new post grad life. the only thing that seems to help is surrounding myself with my really good friends (so it makes me happy when I see you hanging with Abby and your other old friends bc i can tell you feel happy). I hope your slump ends soon. :/ Would also love your soup recipe! It looks amazing and wholesome ❤️

thank u for posting this video

thank you for providing some comfort on this slow sunday moya. lots of love

love the vibe of your vlogs ❤️ never stop creating art

The best thing about a slump is you can only go forward. I also watch kdramas when I’m in a slump and whilst watching hometown cha cha cha lol I began cycling along little Venice Canal, hope it gets better soon and you can find an apartment 💚

Today was an exhausting day, so this is highly needed and very much appreciated Xx

i was like yes yes yes at every sentence i feel less alone now

u dont have to be happy and positive all the time its ok take some time for urself and keep doing stuff that makes you feel better youll get there

now my heart is full🥺✨

Omg ! I am literally having the same relationship with Instagram lately like I feel everybody is doing so good in their life and am here being unproductive but I just cannot get myself to do things because of my mental health being shitty. But definitely we will feel better and hope we get through this slumber. Lots of love, Moya ❤️

thank you so much for sharing, i needed to hear this! 💞

Moya, just had to pause the vid cos I feel like we are having v similar 'elongated moments' rn - I'm also getting down looking for a flat in London atm and feeling unhappy with my body. so i guess i just wanted to say that you're not alone and this made me feel less alone too xxx

Omg when u said condensed milk sandwich, it literally brought back memories! Its such an asian thing to do! 🥺

as an indonesian i can confirm that condensed milk on a white bread is definitely a thing

condensed milk sandwiches!!!! YES!!! :)

Moya's vlogs are THE best. I've been having a tough evening. It's raining cats and dogs where I stay for the past week, and I am TERRIFIED of thunder. It's almost become a traumatic experience by now. Everyone laughs at me, but I can't really explain it. I have a panic attack and break into hysterical sobs everytime I hear loud thunder and I immediately have difficulty breathing. Just had one of those phases a couple hours ago. Needed this to lighten the mood ✨ 💕

omg you're so so aesthetic, i love

i love this video 🥺🥺

I seriously binged watched all your videos today!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Sofia is the definition of a Taylor Swift song as a person

i absolutely adore your videos…hope you’re well❤️

ahh london flat hunting is a nightmare! hope you find something soon!

I know it’ll not help u but just a friendly reminder that you got the body that I want ! but don’t listen to us do what’s best for you and what make u feel better

thank you for this vibe❤️❤️

Sending you all the love, these feelings will pass! Wishing you all the best

my mum always put the condensed milk on the bread yeay its an asian thing

Where's the white sweater from in the first clip? 💘💘

i wish you a naice day, ily

always love moyaa!!

you were saying in the video that your mom would make a white bread with condensed milk. yes, idk if it's an Asian thing, but it definitely is an Indonesian thing! hahahah (since i know your mom is Indonesian 😉)

Ahhh love you Moya ❤️❤️

LOVE IT

aaaayyyyy early european time gang lets goooo

Are you only looking in central london? Its much better outside.

are we watching hometown chachacha though 😳

"I'm not unhappy, I'm uncomfortable." This suits me so properly. I'm in a very strange moment in which I don't know how to fit into jobs, or even events with friends. I'm literally redescovering myself. It's quite exhausting however it's a necessary evil. Hope you feel more comfortable soon, wherever you are. 💖

post-grad life is just about being confused the whole time, we’re all in this together :’) lots of love babe xx also, sophia’s voice is amazing 🤌🏽

this video is so comforting, i've been having an awful time of it lately and its so comforting to see someone feeling even vaguely similar to me. hopefully you feel better soon

"And the only thing bringing me pure joy is kdramas" -Moya 2021 Never related to anything more 😭🤣

I'm literally stressing over my homework then ur notif suddenly makes me smile coz ur my comfort person I love u

We so similar

everything you said in the feeling lost section, i hundred percent relate with - i’ve been feeling like that for MONTHS and it’s so frustrating trying to get back to your true self again cause it’s easier said than done

been waiting for this. can’t wait for moya to lighten up my week ✨✨

i really feel you, i haven't been feeling comfortable in a while too, but we will be ok soon

as a cancer myself I have been feeling very weird the past few weeks and want you to know you´re not alone ! also all the rejection might be your guids and the universe holding something bigger and better for you, remind yourself that you´re right where you´re supposed to be and everything you want will find its way to you in divine time ! stay strong 🧡

aaaaa sophia’s voice!! 😍😍😍 my ears are blessed ☺️ also also!! wishing you better days ahead - it sucks that you haven’t found a place to settle yet, but i just know the right one is waiting for you :) in the meantime, don’t beat yourself up for not “thriving” or sharing positive content aites we appreciate the vulnerability ♥️

This by far, has been the most relatable video I have seen on RU-vid! I have been so overwhelmed and confused lately, couldn’t quite figure out the source behind it.. however right now, after watching this, everything makes sense to me. Thank you Moya for sharing this with us.♥️ You have opened my eyes and I know now that everything will sort its way just perfectly well for us. Good things are coming ♥️

I feel the exact same way about london as well! I moved here from another continent about a month ago and it's been the biggest struggle ever in order to get a visa / enter the country / get a flat / get a bank account / phone plan / etc etc and i get the feeling of not being settled / feeling rejected by london so so much ! I hope you find your feet soon enough ! (Although I haven't found mine)

This is actually quite scary because we are km appart but feeling the exact same way. I went back to uni with my friends, I love them so much and they are so amazing but (so?) I can't help comparing myself to them. I am truly loved in my life, I know it because the people in my life tell me that they love me all the time but I feel so lonely for some reasons. So I'm binging fluffy kdramas like Yumi's Cells or Hometown Cha-cha-cha ! They are so heartwarming but when the episodes are over I feel 10 times worse because I want what they have and I feel like I'm never going to be loved like that which is fiiine, bc it's only fiction but I don't know why I am feeling like that. (Sorry for the rant)

the post-grad blues was really getting to me lately. i definitely feel lost and just stuck without many options to free myself this sluggish feeling. this video is so comforting and offers some solace that others and many of them share this feeling! if you want to paint again, i'm sure if you did a cute lil live painting sesh, tons of us would want to join 💛

this was honestly the perfect timing for me- sometimes i feel like everyone else is so much better than me at managing their emotions, keeping their shit together,and constantly seeing people at only their best moments is really a highway to feeling down through comparison. so so grateful that u shared ur not so great moments, its comforting to know that we're not alone in feeling crappy

I definitely resonate with your second last time stamp, I've been left behind and haven't been able to start university with my friends, so I'm home alone and they're all busy with work and new friends which doesn't help. But hopefully it gets better for you, I'm glad you're able to find peace in your support system and your roommate. I really really hope you get your dream apartment and your life post-grad falls into place. Thank you for sharing those feelings it's really comforting to know we're not alone.

I’m graduating next month and really feel like you sharing your experience post grad is helping me not freak out about my own path. Xoxo

Could you post your soup recipe? ❤️

I have been feeling so uncomfortable in life since a year ago - my body, my habits, my career choice, my coping mechanisms, everything. You're not alone Moya, we will get through this! Thinking of you and sending lots of love

The london personification as a guy was perfect. Sorry you’re feeling weird, I think it’s a very collective feeling at the moment as I’m feeling similar. Sending love❤️❤️

I feel you sis!! London is a no go zone when buying a house 😩😩😩

post grad life is so tough and unsettling, i wholeheartedly understand wat ur going thru moya. life comes in waves and when we get hit by one, we have to remember that the amazing thing about humans is that we float

THANK YOU for this video, Moya. You have no idea how much it helps. I've been feeling shitty and demotivated for a couple months now. And I'm having the exact same problems as you. Thank you. We'll be alright. Sending love

sometimes when you're uncomfortable, that's when you know that you're growing. or the next stage is growth. hang in there, good things are coming

i felt this so much!! also in that post-grad limbo stage of life, and having similar feelings - i'm not unhappy, but i just wish my situation was different and also can't help comparing my life to others. anyways, we got this and i am rooting for you!!

Thanks For Sharing with us a part of your heart 🧡

My biggest disappointment in your generation is the obsession with Taylor Swift. Her music is terrible. Most music today is really terrible. Your roomie has a lovely voice, though, as do you @moya

It's your diaries in here, as you mentioned,. So just feel free when sharing these down moments. We love you the way you are and everything is gonna be okay. THE REJECTION YOU ARE GETTING ARE A DELAY TO GET MORE THAN WHAT YOU ARE IR WERE EXPECTING.❤️❤️😘😘

Awwww, Omg, I LOVE YOU SOOO DAMNNNN MUCH MY BEAUTIFUL ANGELLL !! I ABSOLUTELY LOVED THIS VIDEO AND I ADORE YOU SOOO MUCHH MY LOVEE !! I’M EXTREMELY EXTREMELY PROUD OF YOU ALWAYS, NO MATTER WHAT MY BABYYYY !! YOU’RE SUCH A BEAUTIFUL, AMAZING, LOVING, ADORABLE AND GORGEOUS SOUL MY LOVEEE !! SENDING YOU LOADS OF LOVEEEE, BLESSINGS, POSITIVE ENERGY, BIGGG HUGSS AND KISSES !! MAY GOD BLESS YOU SOOOO ABUNDANTLY !! I can deeply resonate with you babe, even though I’m still in college, Life’s been really tough and overwhelming lately but WE’RE GONNA GET THROUGH THIS TOGETHER MY PRECIOUS BABYY !! I LOVE EVERYTHING YOU CREATE SOOO MUCH !! I MUSSED YOU SOO MUCH HONEYY !! PLEASE TAKE CARE AND STAY SAFE MOO !! PLEASE DON’T BE HARD IN YOURSELF MY ADORABLE LOVEE !! PLEASE BE KIND AND COMPASSIONATE TO YOURSELF AND YOU’RE ABSOLUTELY SLAYYING IN MY QUEEN !! I’M ALWAYS ALWAYS HERE FOR YOU MY LOVEE !! I’VE ALWAYS GOT YOUR BACK !! YOU ARE INSANELY WORTHY AND ALWAYS MORE THAN ENOUGH MY LOVELY ANGEL !! I’M EXTREMELY PROUD IF YOU ALWAYS MY QUEEN !! I ADMIRE YOU A LOT AND CHERISH YOU SOOO DEEPLY MY BEAUTIFUL ANGELL !! ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️🥺🦋

heey it’s all guud, just like nature, we go through seasons aswell! Now it is time for shedding and rebuilding 💪 play some tennis or something with ya homies thats a fun and good way to break a sweat and also have a nice n sweet time at the same time win win! thank you namaskar and have an extraordinarily wonderful week ✌️🍁👏🎨🤍💯🙏

hey, I honestly loved this video, because it helped me see that ever people who I think have to best lives also go through struggles and feel stuck. I am always feeling stuck like in a loop and um when you said how you have been feeling uncomfortable I've never heard that word been connected to that feeling but I get it and idk just thank you for sharing that weird feeling that a lot of people feel. I LOVE your videos, and I hope you stay strong till things start to feel like your living again. xx

9/10 comments are literally the same: young adults struggling with life. We all got this babes❤️‍🔥❤️‍🔥❤️‍🔥