If you need someone to talk to, here are some numbers you can call: IMH Mental Health Helpline: 6389 2222 Singapore Association for Mental Health: 1800-283-7019 Samaritans of Singapore (available 24/7): 1800 221 4444
Lol talking won't do sheit. Lota of people do suicides nowadays and it's because humanity is failing and boring. Fake cheat lies all bad things in a basket. Carry it on your shoulder and go.
I am crying now as i am tyiping i also lost my Son last year on this day 17 September 2019 he also commir suicide i can feel for i am on her shoes imagine raising a child as single mom at last he just decide to end his life i feed down empty and motherless may the lord comfort you and me i am so so hurt my heart is bleeding as she is speaking 💔💔💔💔 heart broken
@@kana05 you already imply your thoughts, why even have the thought "blaming" ? Do you get my points why am I so upset about your words ? she is not trying to understand why his son suicide, she said already she want to get people understand & avoid stigma & want to help others.
Anson Lo but @NAYEONG SONG is saying that fact that how this mum is trying to understand his son this point is too good that hurt @NAYEONG SONG heart not hurting that mum heart. Did you even get the original words meaning...? And if the mum really blame the son, there’s also no reason for you to cursing here down this comment... @NAYEONG SONG is just expressing her feeling😬
*”If mommy, has a chance to be a mom again, I would not choose anyone else, but you.”* This broke me. A motherly love cannot be changed. A mom would always choose her own child out of all the children out there. Now I want to hug my own mommy too 😭🧡
People in general especially Singapore need to be more humble and compassionate with others. For me, I can see that this woman is very very strong. Imagine divorcing your husband and losing your son to suicide and am still able to speak about this is no joke. Pretty sure a lot of ppl would have thought the mother did wrong somewhere but to me I see a strong woman.
Actually, early 20’s is a very sensitive age, even more so than teen years for me personally. I have more responsibilities about my career for the rest of my life and let me tell you, the adult world is hard. It’s harsh and it’s blunt and it’ll push you down and sometimes, I was unable to find the energy to pull myself back up. I found myself looking at suicide method websites. I don’t want to leave this world when I have so much to live for and I’m much better now (a lot stronger too), but I understand this 20 year old guy.
Start praying the rosary. Pray for Jesus' guidance. Ask him to show you the real purpose of life. Ask him to come into your life. You will see life a new each day.
He is not dead. His life continues in the spiritual realm. You are the one too who needs healing, spiritual healing. Death is the death of the physical body. The soul and spirit moves on. I, myself know people who committed suicide before. The have come to me dreams, visions, two of them I saw looking at me while I woke up from a sleep. Other family members saw them too. My cats and dogs that died years ago, will come into my dreams. Some family members see their dead animals appear and disappear in front of them. Death is not the end.
Yuu Kamui Well people believe what they want and whether you believe in Buddha, or God or the antichrist because it makes you feel good, at least you have some sort of direction in your life and therefore a purpose. I think to live without purpose is dangerous because then you have nothing to lose.
micaelasebaton of course God can help people guiding their life and finding peace but you shouldn’t rely on God for every questions in life. God shouldn’t be your entire purpose or the reason to lives. I think people can look up to God for spirituality but also make their own judgements. It’s 50/50.
The pharmaceutical companies should be paying her for the ads for anti depressants. The child is dead, because somehow her mother couldnt throw out the rope while he was drowning in front of her.
We are all surviving. Not living. This is the sad and harsh reality. We all are in pain one way or another. Speaking from experiencing such period of my life, I would like to say. You'll be alright. Yes it's a difficult and painful path, time, to go through but you'll be alright. Keep breathing. Cry if you want. Rest if you need. But don't give up. It will get better, yes it will. Talk to someone. Better if it's a stranger that shares the same experience as you. Why Stanger? They don't know you, but they are you. I'm don't know any of y'all, but if I know if you were to reach out to me and talk about this issue, I understand you. And I will be there for you. Breathe.
@faridah hanum i came across your comment and i went though depression too and you because you are muslim like me i suggest you start reading sourat baqara read as much as you can everyday and start praying i really got better after doing so Time will heals everything i hope you can the strength to live on ❤🙏
Jesus is our strength. He is our lighthouse during stressful, darken, and stormy times. Seek out Jesus. Pray for him to come into your life. Accept him as your Savior.
As a depressed person, it's not easy to tell our family. Not to mention sometimes they just don't, or, seem don't care. I told my family too... but they just don't care. I even told my sister not to barge into my room, because I have trouble sleeping... and she keeps bragging in The closer we are, the harder to believe that our closest person is suffering depression, to make it worse, if it with suicidal thoughts. Hard to believe, or maybe just don't want to believe
@@minghao98 me too. What keep me alive is only because in my belief, suicide is unforgivable sin. Still, I often look at my vein, wish I could slit it off. But I do hope you'll getting better. I hope you'll never feel as worthless as I am now. My pray for you 🙂
Talk to the people that matters to you. Choose those people that are well aware of your feelings. Sometimes even talking to someone who is a stranger to you can help as well. Voicing out your feelings is very important. It feels as if a weight has been lifted.
@@minghao98 what do you think about when you feel like you want to stop breathing? Is it a problem that can be solved only by you? Or is it a problem that can be solved with someone who is compassionate and understanding?
Wtf, suicide is the worse sin anyone can commit (good luck in your after life). Also it is is just very selfish of you to do it....grow up....not every solution is death..shows how much of a person you are to choose the easy/lazy way out instead of working hard to overcome it!
@@A44562g I hope you do understand that God created everything. The Angels and the Demons. The good and the bad. Everything. Suicidal thoughts are brought about by a chemical imbalances in the brain. It's not like they chose to manipulate their neurological hormones to commit suicide. Don't speak if you're not a Psychologist, Psychiatrist, or even a Psychiatric Nurse. Your negativity is pollution to the minds of these humans. If you have nothing good to say, shut your mouth!
“ i would like to ask people not to ask, “ why suicide? “ but “ why the pain “ It made me have a different perspective not just in suicide but life, this really helped me because through out this quarantine i have been thing every night to just die but this really helped me alot, thank you ( jenny teo ) so much you did alot in this video for me, it really made me think of suicide and life in a different way
i would like to know the meaning too, but unfortunately i had trouble understanding it. Would you please share what you understand in the statement?, maybe it could help myself to fight.
If you want to read something about suicide, I recomend a manga called oyasumi punpun or good night punpun, is a +18 manga but I think the autor know a lot of suicide.
Ja Ann Mikaela for me it made me ( in my understanding ) think what is the CAUSE of thinking about suicide and its the pain. Why would you think of suicide? Its because of pain. The pain makes you stress, depress, and all other things that can lead to suicide and thats why she would ask, why the pain? If you cant answer that for me I would ask “ what pain is there, what are the pains that made you think of suicide? What hurt you to feel that pain?
Death is not the end. Stop thinking of death and suicide as an end. People who committ suicide are in the spiritual realm. If you want to help them, pray for them to be at peace. Pray to God to have mercy on their souls. There are other things you can do too. People shouldn't feel sorry for other people's decision. Suicide victims can't end it. It's not in their powers. Stop grieving for them.
Mental health needs to be taught in countries in asia ! Its a stigma in our asian society i hope to see parents takes their kids for therapy and not just sweep it under the rug. Its not shameful to be seeking help.
My problem is my asian parents doesn't want to bring me to therapy,they think I'm just making up story or lazy but in reality is not,i been crying staying in my room everyday,over thinking and all,is truly painful when your own parents don't believe u
@@cascheese6934 i have been going to therapy for almost 2 years now and 1 year ago , i got into er because i cut my hands ... it just so painful yet our society expect us to not cry and be a grown up ... thay didn't go through the same pain we go through every second ... i was so afraid telling people that i have been diagnosed with mdd because i know for sure that most people will say : " oh ... so , you're crazy right ? " ... it is scary how they can pretend to be thoughtful while being so evil at the same time ...
Truth is, many asian parents have children as a form of investment when they get old. They wan u to be lawyer, doctor or engineer instead of what u wanna do and then brag it to their frens and families. Ur feeling? Its irrelevant
Amd they sometimes said that " your faith wasn't strong enough .. " ... although i am thankful for having my parents whom doesn't say anything bad after i got diagnosed with mdd ... especially my father ( a retired correctional officer in Malaysia ) ... he simply said : " take care of yourself and you can talk with me sometime " ...
Rest In Peace for the son. I was raped by one of my friend. I can't tell anyone. Feel ashamed and got depress from that tragedy. I was only 17 yo at that time. I think nobody will ever care about me again and decide to suicide. But in a moment I remember my mom's smile. She's my angel. My savior. If I did the same thing, maybe I will make her cry like this strong mother. Now, I'm 30 yo with 2 handsome sons and my beloved husband. Life is hard. Something bad can happen anytime. But family is the best place. Tell someone when you feel you can't hold that anymore.
nafisa rayya but what if all the people you love start to hate you and not help you get over with something called depression??!! All they would aspect from me is getting good grades and want see a fake smile on my face. But there is someone I love the most but someone else who I love the most too is making me stay away from the person I love the most. Why I don’t understand but that’s a good thing at least you had someone to talk to right.
"You're the best son , any parent could have" - I'm crushed... Even in death my folks would've still been criticizing. What a wonderful mom with her positive reinforcement to help. Bless her!!💫❤
Jesus is our strength during sad and weakened moments. The departed may be in purgatory. Have you done proper procedures for their souls to go out of purgatory? Have you prayed the Saint Gertrude prayer for the departed?
Her son was a good looking guy and looked kind. Really sad and terrible story. May he Rest In Peace and condolences to his mom and family. What a tragedy.
Demxnbxyxo_999 tell your parents to re evaluate how they raised you. Did they not teach you a simple saying of if you have nothing nice to say don’t say anything at all.
My old housemate tried to take his own life. He took a knife and tried to slit his troat right in front of me and my other housemate. Luckily the knife was dull and i quicky took it away. Then we had a really long talk together
Do a few masses at a church for Josh. Do rosaries for him. Do the Chaplet of the Divine Mercy for him. Do the prayer of Saint Gertrude for him. But for you, accept Jesus into your life.read the Holy Bible, especially the New Testiment.
_"Suicide doesn't take away the PAIN , it gives it to someone else"_ I never had any suicidal thoughts but I can't imagine ending my life to take away all the Pain but leaving my parents especially my Mom Heartbroken her whole life 💔💔💔
I feel like its such a selfish and intimidating quote “suicide doesnt take away the pain, it gives it to someone else”. Like they should keep suffering on this earth to keep everyone around them happy? People who are about to commit suicide already know that they will be leaving their loved ones in pain and wanting answers. It litrally runs through their mind over and over which just makes them feel more guilty for what their about to do. They must be in such unimaginable pain to make the decision of taking their own life.. I think until your in that situation, you will never understand. Yes it will leave your loved ones heart broken but the person whos taken their life will be free from whatever was holding them down.. thats just how i see it.
@@m1996ix wow!! Now, THAT is really a very selfish act!!.. when someone commits suicide the whole family stays in agony!...and forever heartbroken! Nothing justifies suicide! Unless that person is suffering a chemical imbalance. Other than that, its the most selfish act someone commits.
Elizabeth Cavazos chemical imbalance tf you talking about? Like i said until you are in their situation you will never understand the feelings and thoughts that go on inside their head. Most selfish act is people like you judging others for doing what they thought is the only option they felt like they had. Yes the family will forever be in pain and will never get over what has happend. Yes they should seek help but its easier said than done! Dont judge someones situation without living it. Theirs pain on both ends!
He was so young isn't it? I'm 28 and I'm depressed. I have a family and my daughter is the only reason that i stay alive for. It's hard because I'm a parent and I can't give up now because I feel that I have a responsibility towards my young daughter. My point is, people who think about taking their own life, should stop, look around, look at everyone if no one, at least at your parents and think what situation you'll be putting them in. You got to have hope. Remember that there are people that loves you. Please, depression won't go away easily but love yourself first, that's the key. God bless all, stay safe, stay alive.
Losing a child is one of the hardest pain for a Mum. It's really not easy to watch this whole video and still remains calm. My heart fills with grief with every second of the video.💔
actually its hard when youre at that age. i feel it too when i was that age. many question arise, who i want to be? who am i? what can i do? what im good at? can i work and make money? can i support my family? not including the problem within the family or girlfriend. the more years i get, the more i know that you cant control anything in this world. sometimes you try hard nothing came out. sometimes youre like okay forget about anything just do something, actually it did something good. its miserable, funny and fun in another way of thinking about it. thats why old people when they tell their life story they became so passionate about it. coz life is a very interesting random things happening. NO ONE CAN PREDICT THE FUTURE. thats why its interesting. anything can happen while you still alive. just take another breath and go another day, it wont be the exact same thing. things happen slightly different everytime around. nothing is constant. good day and bad day is just like every other day. be sure not missing the good day when its happening. cheer up guys and girls !!!
Yeah, same thought line back then. Back then I'm one of those kids who think that good grades are everything, bad grades equal bad futures. I also think of suicide for a short while, but then I thought how expensive grave is, so I stop. In reality though if you go to the real world connections from the internship, and your friend and parent connections are more useful than grades.
Jenny, I am so sorry for your loss. My only son, only child attempted suicide 4 times during his early teens. He got help and things clicked for him. He’s 28 now. My heart is heavy hearing your story and I thank you for sharing it. Jenny you are in my thoughts and your son Issac as well.
I am sorry you lost your son to depression. It is brave of you to publicize your personal story. Being an Asian society, we need to be more educated and open abt mental health.
I almost took my life a year ago due to my depression. I had a long night thinking about how I would do it and who I would see before I did it. But I thought, “If I don’t get help tomorrow on Monday, I will die the next day.” Like a dream or nightmare, I saw the reaper in the shadows waiting for me to make my choice. I let it wait. The morning had come and I got up and acted normal. I would see if anyone still wanted me. When I got to school I told my friend with a smile, “I feel sick.” As usual, we laughed in each other’s company and she replied, “You should go to the health office.” It was a simple gesture, a simple reply that really had me thinking how I should approach things. In my mind I had no future. When you tell someone to think positively, it’s the same as cursing them. I asked her, “Will you walk me to the health office?”. If she didn’t come then I wouldn’t go. Regarding the “lame health line”, you can decide whether or not you should reach out. I for one did reach out but in a school setting where I know trusted people. I walked into my counselor’s office and sat down. I tried to speak. My throat began to close up and tears fell down my face. I could not speak. So instead, I wrote what I wanted to say. I for one, did not want to talk about it. My depression would not let me; It bottled up all my emotions and crushed them. But I had had enough of suffering and threw myself into the hands of the health system for people who suffered with mental issues. I was docile, cooperative, and calm. The paramedics were shocked how calm I was. I knew what I was doing but I did not know the plan they had for me. I just went with whatever they thought was best for me. I could not think for myself at the time so I let it be. I do not regret my choice for extending my hand out and saying, “I’m in pain”. If my friend had not been there I would have not regretted taking my own life. It’s a pity I think that but ultimately it is a person’s choice and only their’s.
It's okay to cry. You can cry anywhere you want. It makes you a human. Being in tune with your emotions and feeling makes you a person who has humility.
Thanks for sharing your story. I know how you feel about the lost of your child and I believe you will always remember this child until the day you died. I've lost 4 children to starvation from 1975 - 1979. I'm still grieving until now but not as much as I used to be.
"I would not choose anyone else, but you." What an extraordinarily compassionate thing for a Mother to say. My heart goes out to all survivors of suicide. Sharing her son's story, and her own as well, is a huge step in removing the stigma of suicide. I wish her only the best, & I am sorry for her loss. If you're going through Hell, keep GOing!
"You are the best son, any parent could have" Parents need to understand that children are sponges to their environment. Words of affirmation means so much, xdespite the relationship his mother and father were having. It is vital to make sure the son understood. And even the bullying... he needed someone to tell him *it's not his fault* Sometimes parents need to be and show they are their sons #1 fans.
Speaking from experience, get depressed because they based their identity on something. And when that something doesn't meet their expectations, they lose their sense of hope and purpose. It could be career, relationships, finances..that together with pressure. I felt sorry for myself, which spiralled into depression and then suicidal thoughts. It's not easy to get out of it alone, you will need help to see beyond you and your circumstances
Yes, true Alex. You nailed it on the part that when our expectation does not meet with others, that is when we feel depressed. We cannot change others but we certainly can change our reactions towards them. I no longer dwell about what others said or did and I am learning to accept criticism, rejections and slanders in my stride.
@@mangotango7647 or our own expectations of ourself fail. I got depressed when I couldnt continue my study abroad and had health problems, every expectation I had for me scattered, I could never feel confident again
@@ngandang96believe in second chances. My daughter's peers finished their degrees when she juz started hers. Doesn't mean you finish last, you are incapable or unintelligent. You will catch up with others soon. Don't worry much k
@@mangotango7647 wow thats exactly what I am going thru, I guess i got so down bc i expected so much for myself, thks for ur encouraging words, I guess the importance is that I will not stop and I know am capable, just was unlucky. Thk u again:) hope the best for your daughter as well:)
“If mummy had a chance to be mom again, I would not choose anyone else but you” As a single mom of 2 boys (21 &19) this words was tough I cannot imagine every mother loosing son, specially taking their own life.. 😭😭
This completely breaks my heart because almost all my life I thought of suicide too.. Until I start working in an ER and I saw a mother mourning for her son's loss because her committed suicide, she was screaming "I want to be where my son is..! My son!" Seeing someone suffer like that..made me realize how much I'd make my mom go thru.. so I didnt commit suicide. My heart breaks for her.. I'll pray for her and all these mother who lost their children.
This woman is so strong and inspiring! I was very depressed and upset when I lost my sister 4 years ago. till now i still cant talk about how i feel; i will just burst into crying.
You are a loving mother and a strong woman.Your son took his life wasn't because he wanted to leave this world and you but I believe it was because the pain that he suffered from depression was too great for him to carry on any more,he just wanted to end his pain.My son told me this when he was suicidal 2 years ago because of psychosis.He is under treatment and he is coping so much better.I hope people can show more grace and understanding towards people who suffer from depression and mental illness.
A lack of purpose. A sense that you're falling far behind others. A feeling that you're forced to find your goal in life when many others seem to have it together. Even if NS is completed? It's just another temporary distraction to the fact that perhaps, he couldn't see clearly his purpose in this world, that brought him to this point. Please, everyone, try to understand why he did what he did. I'm in the same age group. On the cusp of adulthood, no clue of the challenges that await us, frightened by the telling that life always gets harder, not easier, as you grow. I know so, so much how alone it feels, when you have no one you could bear to foist your burdens upon, no one who you think could handle the battle that you're fighting within, all by yourself. I feel trapped; unable to go back to when things were simpler, yet no choice but to move forward day by day into this great unknown; thinking a lot in this space, all on my own. I hope many of you are able to find that someone that can take the weight that you carry. Your life is worth it. Please, speak to somebody. Anybody. I feel like I'm so, so far behind.. 3 whole years behind..
As someone who is older, you are not far behind. Hold on to hope, be comfortable with the struggle and confidently go in the direction of your dreams. You are worth it, valued, gifted and cherished 💋. We don't all go through the same process in life, the secret is to enjoy the moments, share life with those you love and try to help others. Wishing you a warm internet hug!
For me,i found out that why i feel depressed is because of my ego of self.dont compare ourselves with others and dont take criticism personally.we are here for 80 years at most,live everyday in the present moment with love and compassion.this world is not a secured world,we can die anytime in a accident or cardiac arrest.eg,kobe bryant.🙂smile every morning i wake up and live another day peacefully.
@@tanjohnny6511 it is hard to not compare indeed, when every one around you is ahead, finding work, knowing their life goal, and you still haven't decided, making you feel stuck and aimless.. But you are right, we need to slow down, really take a breath, and appreciate we are here in this life.. That's what I need to do..
Omg I’m so sorry. 😢 I cried at the end when you said if you could start all over, you would choose your son again. Thank you for sharing your journey. I’ve dealt with suicidal thoughts for a large part of my life. You’re helping so many people by sharing your story. After watching your pain, i know that i could never do it. Much 💗
I’m an only child and my mum loves me so much. I love her too. We’ve only had each other all our lives. I’ve been having suicidal thoughts and panic attacks since I was 15. I’ve been through a lot. I’m 19 now and I’ve always thought about taking my own life. Sometimes bad thoughts are more frequent, sometimes I think about it less. The only reason why I keep going is my mum. I’m crying while I’m watching this video because I know I can’t put my mum through a pain like this. All she did in life and keeps doing, she does for me. If you are reading this please check on your friends and family, make them feel close. If you’re going through a bad time, reach out and I truly hope you find peace. Please stay strong. I love you and you have the strength to keep going.
I am really sorry for your lost. I admire your strength to talk about something so traumatic. I think it is very important to talk about mental health and increase awareness. God Bless You and thank you for your courage to share ❤
I'm in tears watching this! i admire her bravery talking about her most painful moments and her strength to inspire others by preventing any suicides that might happen. Incredible woman!
My heart aches alot, this was probably how my mom and dad felt when I took my life away for four times. Being the only child and all, it is really very hard. I was diagnosed with Major Depressive Disorder with Anxiety and Suicidal Thoughts back in 2017 of November, I was 23 years old, it was my last suicide attempt and I promised to myself and to God to never take my life away. I went back to church, became more social, had a few jobs and now a small business. Life is hard and it will become harder if you look on the dark side, that is what something I learned throughout my journey. I realize I am blessed because I have a home, foods to eat, a family that cares for me and a lot of common things that we take for granted to appreciate and life it self which is a gift from the Lord. To anyone out there who has the same problem as me, please hold on, we might not have the same faith but I pray to Jesus all is well to you and to all those family who lost a love one because of suicide I am praying for healing. By the way I am 26 now and life's beauty depends upon how you look life, I look everyday at the sky and the moon and stars at night and embrace the calmness of it, that's one way on how I deal on things instead of looking down. I still have panic attacks, sleepless nights, a little anxiety but still I am moving forward as well. I pray to be the last person to have depression if God will allow it. 🙏
I was at the same age as her son when my mother passed away. Father leave for another woman, and I have 2 younger sisters. I feel so much pain inside even i smile and laugh everytime around people. I think a lot about suicide ,like... "Why do i have to get this condition, this broken heart, this sad life etc". I just want my mom to comeback. But then, I see my sisters. I know even i am not like my mother, not even close, they need someone to protect them. And they have nobody but me. And I have to be strong. The difference between me and the lady in this video is, I am not accepting about losing my mom yet. I still want her back even i know it's impossible. How is it possible to accept that someone you love the most is gone and never comeback?
When our parents passed away it is said that they will become our guardian angels/spirit guides and look after us, my husband's mom passed away 2 weeks after giving birth to the 8th child. He was ard 11 yrs old, he was deeply saddened his siblings would not have a mother to take care of them, my father in law did marry again after only 1 year of his 1st wife's death. How my hubby got through is perseverance he pulled through for his brothers and sisters.
I'm very sorry for your loss. I'm very close to my mother I can't imagine the pain you're going through but I admire your strength and I can tell how much you love your family. Please stay strong. And please remember that your mother will always be with you in spirits.
Mrs. Teo, thank u for being so courageous to tell your stories. I am not a mother, but a sister's whom lost a brother to suicide. For over 10 years. It's still impact family until now. I can't believe I finally hear these 3 words (Absorbing, Adjusting, Accepting) from you and your story. Finally, I can heal from all the pain I have experienced all these years. Much love💖
What i know those who commit suicide is the one who actually have tender heart, they are kind, mistreated, mischaracterise, but also have great self flaming, a bit perfectionist ... and the end: this people without realise it has let themselves to be victim but also a way of punishment to those who have hurt them😔
Priska Wen - maybe all of what you said. Also it can be a chemical imbalance, can I say that, or hormones imbalance. Speak to an expert, perhaps get medication to control your mood.
And it’s really saddening how for some people, others will only start to care about them after they died. Never wait to cherish someone. Cherish them now.
Watching this video reminds me of this particular line in one Korean drama: A woman whose husband died is called a widow, a man whose wife died is called a widower. But there is no word for parents whose child died because there is no word to describe the pain.
I get where you're coming from, but this form of thinking really just makes suicidal people feel even guiltier for the pain they bear. It's not like it's a choice, nobody would want to feel that way. There are other reasons to stay that does not involve guilt tripping, just my thoughts :)
I agree with the 2 comments above. Get help if you're depressed and suicide is not the way to go. Don't guilt trip a person who is already down, it wouldn't help much. Sometimes suicide is a release, just like any other terminal illnesses. There are many families of patients who suffer terribly during the last phase of any incurable illness would pray for a release (death) because to witness someone you love suffer so much is pure torture. Some mental illnesses are the same, there are people who are responsive to treatments and therapies but there are some who are not. It's sad but that's the reality of some lives.
One can never understand how a person with depression feels! We all get depressed over circumstances and events but to suffer from depression is a whole lot more than this!
TW I personally go through depression myself since I was 13. At 14, I was close to ending it at one point. I was crying in my room and holding a bottle of Tylenol trying to convince myself to drink that whole bottle. I’m now 15 and it took me a 1yr 1/2 to get help. Having depression is no joke. It feels as if you are dying and nobody notice or even takes you seriously. It feels as if you are drowning in your own thoughts.
I don’t know why this popped up, but I needed this. My health is declining and having seen multiple doctors that have done nothing and finally now waiting for medical check ups I’ve been searching for answers to my pain. Sometimes I just feel like there’s no way to continue in my life, but if I can find the light, I wish to stay.
Same here, Have been experiencing PTSI? , it's an injury , there is a new treatment for depression, ptsi, anxiety, brain injury: Stellate ganglion block and Exosome therapy
My story is kinda similar. My dad was unfaithful to my mom and he thought we wouldn't find out but we did and my mom can't do anything but compromise and live like this because she thinks it will affect my life. Along with that I am loosing faith in myself and cannot find a reason to live. My mom and I both are going through depression with the same reason : feeling worthless. And my mom and I are like breathing for each other. If she is not alive then there is no point for my existence either. And right now my dad is totally against my decision to take fashion designing as a career but not something like doctor or engineer and is against my decision to go overseas to study whereas my mom is very supportive even though she knows that we cannot afford it. My relationship with my relatives is not the best either bcs I am seen as a disappointment of the family bcs I am artistic and I know what is right and what is wrong and is against my conservative family. I am also chubby so my grandparents taunt me about weight every freaking minute of my life. I FEEL LIKE LIFE IS GETTING MORE AND MORE SOPHISTICATED EVERYDAY. And I am finding more and more reasons to kill myself. But I am not doing it just bcs I hope that this will all go away someday. I know it does not sound very serious but I literally cry myself to sleep everynight.
Your dad caused all the hurt to you and your mum. I feel that he has no right to tell you what you should and shouldn’t pursue as your career. If fashion design is what you’re passionate about, go for it. Because for your entire adulthood, it is YOU that would be working and not your dad. it’s easy for him to ask you to be a doctor because he is not the one that has to work for it. When I was in secondary school, I wanted to do fashion design as well and I was really into art but I chose to take A math as my elective simple bc I had the same concern that I’d have “no future” if I pursued the art route. I took the “safer” course in polytechnic thinking that I could study hard and get a phD in uni, but that was a huge mistake that I made. Til this day I always wished I had just followed my heart and did what I loved. Being artistic isn’t a bad thing. In fact, now it’s getting more and more recognized thanks to social media. Follow your heart. You won’t regret it.
Please don’t kill yourself. As cheesy as this sounds, things really do get better over time. It may be hard, but try to learn not to care about the opinions from the people that don’t really matter. I know they’re your relatives, but since you don’t have a good relationship with them then they don’t really fall into the “people that matter” category. I used to care A LOT about what others think, from family to friends and even mean girls from my school that I barely even talk to. So I understand how you feel. It’s hard at first, trying to not give a shit. But even though It’s not going to be easy, the end result is worth it. Once you’ve truly reached the point where you realize what people think or say about you don’t matter, that’s when you can truly improve to be the better version of yourself :)
@@NERDzxc thank you so much for guiding me. I am currently working on improving my skills so that I can get accepted to art schools and hopefully will be able to finally do something that I enjoy even if it does not pay me well, atleast I will be happy. I hope the best for you and your future 😊
Hey, I don't know how much this will help you but I think you should put yourself and your mum first before anyone else, especially someone who has caused you pain. If fashion designing is something you want to pursue, then go for it! Essentially, that is something that will make you happy which is one of the most important things, and since one of the most important people in your life, your mum, supports you, you know that its definitely gonna be good for you. and like the person above said being artistic is not bad at all, in fact I think you are really so talented to be in that field. Things are definitely going to get better, I hope that good things come your way and I want you to know know that I, even though I may not know you, am rooting for your success and hope that you become happier! Please don't take your life, your life matters and I hope that this gives you strength:) sending lots of love to your mum and yourself
I don't know what to say, tbh our story is quite similar but it got better along the years at the beginning I feel like you.especially the part where you said you and your mom are breathing for each other. That just hits me. Like world didn't have any meaning, is like the lowest point in my life and I didn't have any motivation..however today somehow things are better. So I hope this gives you hope. totally relate to you.. Im also in art major! But not fashion design, they were kinda dissapointed but till today I do not regret going along with my passion I was really stubborn about this part because I could not see myself doing something else.I believe in you. You can do this, right now at this moment things might not seem that way, but please have hope! :') go and pursue what you want. I only wish the best for you...take care!!! I hope you remember to always take care of yourself, love yourself despite all the things you think you are because you are worth it.
All that is spoken by you is exactly everything that im went through. Five years on and im still grieving and i dont think that i can ever be healed. Listening to your testimony stirred up my emotions and i cried. Im feeling so tired everyday and everything around me seems meaningless. Im staying strong for now because of my mother, my wife and my other boy. I missed my son so much.
Godbless this beautiful Mother, for her bravery talking of her precious Baby boy, sending you lots of love Thankyou for being bold and sharing your heartbreaking story ❤️❤️❤️🙏🙏🙏🙏
Its Suicide Prevention Month! always remember to be kind towards others we all are fighting our own battles that we hide. Someone may be hiding pain through their smiles. Check on your friends, drop little encouraging notes and messages. It'll go a long way:)
What an amazingly courageous woman you are Jenny! I am so inspired listening to you and your detailed explanation about grief. As a mother, my empafhy flows out to you my dear! God bless!💙
I cry for your son ,and I cry for you too ! I can really feel your pain when I look at the boy's very soft and kind smile. Deep down he must had his reason to leave the world because he knew another better place to go. His short life has longer meaning for sure to you and to this world too which is much deeper than his physical appearance .To ensure this meaning to be delivered to the world , he sacrificed his life , and because he was so confident of your motherhood love , he knew you will be carrying on his life massage for him-------so gentle and so kind, but so hard for him to express himself--------- but now, with a mother's courage, his words is delivered to the world. Thank you for both of you! May God bless you !
Dear jenny, I shared Yr pain. I will be losing that I had worked for 40 years. A life that I only know and have cry myself to sleep. I thank you for sharing the need to Absorb, Adjust and finally Accept. It is extremely painful for me but I am grateful that I did not lose a dear life. I am sorry for you but we need to finally ACCEPT. Love from another mum.
You are an incredible mom. Thank you for talking about the subject of suicide and also sharing your sons life with us. In a year or ten years or forever I won’t forget you and your incredible words. I will also remember your son because of those words. Thank you.
The pic of Josh army solo shot. All of us in SG has one. Just painful to know that he could be anyone of yr friends 😢😢😢😢😢 Time heals but never forgets 😔😔😔😔😔
This video reminded of what my mother had to go through after my brother died . I'm an only child now . People think I have it easy because I don't wear what I'm going through on my face .Since the death of my brother I started having sucidal thoughts before I even reached my teens and suffer from deep anxiety , PTSD and depression . I was never happy with my life or the things I did . During those times people around me never took mental health seriously . When I tried to talk to someone I was always turned away or some thought I'm just going through a rebelling emotional phase . I went through a very rough childhood . I have felt empty like a shell for so long and even though I fight these feelings off it keeps coming back at me .I am 25 years old now and I know that it's going to stay with me forever even though I'm struggling everyday I wake up and try harder to live for the people that I love .
..cried buckets watching this.. I recently lost a very cherished friend from suicide. A year ago we took her in after she lost her job. Because mental illness is heavily stigmatised in the malay culture, our friends thought she was being "bewitched" - and blatantly told her she should see a bomoh whatnot..and telling us not to take her because that "thing in her" could effect our household. Sadly, these type of mentality still exists.. Sometimes, I wonder if people would have different perceptions had Mental illnesses able to manifest physically just like any other physical ailments? Not from their symptoms but the physical deterioration that people could OBJECTIVELY see. Will people take mental illness seriously? Her life was cut short because she was in pain but noonelse except us and mental health professionals believed her. And when she died, suddenly people around us took interest on this news (because suicides are a rare occurrence in my country) and showing pity on her. Sad but true... I really admire the mother for taking her stance and raising mental health awareness to the public..I hope this could change the societal perception on mental illnesses and provide support to those in need..
I agree mental illness being stigmatized in Malay society. But I have to point out its a bit difficult to differentiate between being ill and being 'bewitched' so people tend to assume the latter. Science and medicine can't explain the supernatural. I have a friend who has sleep paralysis to no explanations why. The doctor was clueless and when she recovered, the doctor accused her for faking it. Depression is dangerously becoming common nowadays. Families need to educate themselves to understand that it can't be simply brushed off under the rug. People need to be compassionate. Not spouting slander or questioning a person's faith.
Ms. Tuo after learning about the level of mental health stigma in your culture, I just wanted to commend you on your bravery and honorable leadership in sharing your story. I'm sure your son is very proud of you for your bravery and helping others.
This made me cry, when she said if she could be a mom again she’d choose to be his again! I always tell my boys in what ever lifetime we live, the next and the next they are mine, we will always be together, and find one another ❤️🤞🏼
Depression is very frightening, enter slowly in the mind slowly and until the time becomes a despair and then suicide, this mental problem should get attention and don't take it lightly, prayer is not enough as a way out of depression
I would really wanna give this strong woman a big hug. I lost my beloved pet recently and I went thru that same 3 stages she had described. I can only imagjne the immerse grief and pain she must have felt which would be many folds of mine. Thanks for sharing ur experience so that others may learnt. God bless you.
By this video you can tell that she was an exceptional mother, despite battling her own depression. Breaks my heart to see when a Mothers Love is not enough..to save her child.
@@limyanming9721 he was accused of stalking, molest and all sort of accusations the girl made up. I'm a woman who welcome the protection from Women's charter but these days are misused by girls and ladies. I don't mean that it's right to molest or touch a girl. But using it to abuse the system to bully that's not right. We had meeting in the school and with her friends in front of us, they said when he like her Instagram, It's stalking. She knows how to shed crocodile tears which will make any law enforcers to believe in her. My child was forced to rush out of the classroom. I know he was trying to jump off the building that I shouted for the teachers and friends to hold him. He ever threatened to jump off the building before that. Thankfully, the teachers and some friends know him well that he did not do it. He proved to them he did not. It happened to my friend's son too just because he showed interest to a girl. Both boys did nothing nor touch them.
@@jinidesilva6 He develops panic attack from those constant bullying by the group of 13 or 14 people. He has to go to psychiatrist for help. He has graduated from that school but not able to meet the criteria for diploma. What the girl did was after accusing him with so many accusations, messaged him and ask how he was?
I'm so sorry for your loss mum. I'm so happy to see you are doing something amazing with helping others stay alive. The Singapore educational system and expectations system are way too hard psychologically on a child from the time they start schooling! I am a product of Asian educational system and I cracked when I attended UK Ivy League in my 20s too, the years of pressure and absence of 'normal childhood' just became too heavy.
I was traumatized back in the days of my high school life. I don't have friends since elementary because they tend to bully me or use my knowledge to benefit them like copying school works etc. That my life is a piece of trash... I discovered a lot about my family at those difficult times in high school that I tend not to attend anymore its really depressing that you cannot talk about anyone; nor friends, family, or strangers or virtual friend. But they make sure that I will attend college.... During my entire college life, I've experienced many things that triggered me to suicide... Firstly, I don't like the course that the school offered to me. The result of course, low grades. They also cancelled my scholarship.... Like it's the end for me...since then I have to repeat few subjects in the second year. Until I met this professor that so hardworking who handles major classes. I attended his class and I would say he's different. He's super strict and so neat to the subjects. He's so articulate and professional in teaching the subject that you could listen to him all day.( Btw I was planning to shift my course before I attend his class but it was too late to be done so I enrolled to it and planned it next semester.). I managed to at least have a passing grade for our midterms but sadly I cannot continue the project is so damn hard for a person who has no laptop or pc. So I dropped it.... I was so depressed that time to sign those papers. And I asked him to sign it but, he asked me why. He told me that I'm a good student that I should continue. He pushed me to continue it. Eventually, I agreed. But I failed. I don't know it was so depressing that I want to take my life.... But I managed to continue up to my fifth year but sadly I got a dumb lazy narcissistic thesis mates that i could not managed....That I wouldn't wanted to seen the disappointment of that professor who show so much kindness to me. It was the first someone told me to stay. ...Theyre just want to pay someone to do the research than helping me finish it. It was so painful that I need to left school since I'm going to take another year and my parents could afford another year.... So I left last year semester last November..... I don't know what to think up to now..... I just want to stop breathing any moment... I stopped functioning.... I stopped doing everything... Then this pandemic came out of nowhere.... It's intoxicating, suffocating to the point you just want to left........ I couldn't sleep. I forgot to cut my hair, nails, or even fix my self now.... I guess I should leave.. But this video shown up. The traumatic experience I'm saying was I've seen my mother taking her life that I don't stopped her that time.... And seeing you reminded me of her.... Since she didn't to it. I'm glad that she's alive up to now.... Thank you.... That's all I could say .... I don't want to expose so much details.
Sacred Lotus glad you share your story what you went thru I'm sorry but you're very brave to share it I commend you for it. Someone going thru what I went thru learn and realize they're not the only one. Stay strong you're blessed you're still here you have your mom and she doesn't have the. tragic pain Jenny has loosing her only son.
@@luseanefakatou7578 thank you so much of your kind words. I appreciate your sincerity. I haven't talked to anyone since November.. I deactivated all my social media account except for RU-vid since I love watching videos. I dunno but these days are weird and I got a recommendation of this video. And I felt weird that I'm doing something wrong. Hope you're doing good as well. 😍
Jenny I am so sorry for your loss. My heart goes out to you. Your son is lucky to have a mom like you. Even though you are grieving you are not blaming your son instead you try to understand and acknowledge his pain. Not everyone can do that. As you are aware some people will say 'he is selfish to leave you behind'. You are his mum so you must feel the most pain over his loss and yet you don't blame at all. You are very mature. Josh, I am so sorry some people can be ignorant and judgemental. You must have been under so much pain to go through with it. Considering you had your mum in your thoughts before you died. You are not in pain anymore and rest in peace xx
