Being affected by the poor neighbourhood where I work, I block myself from feeling the rather harsh energy over there. I felt a lot for the 1st couple of days, tearing up in the morning and night on the bus on Côte-des-Neiges , feeling people and their worries and daily (survival) struggles but not I've completely cut myself out from feeling it now. The problem is that once I block myself it is kind of following me around after until I take a break from it. I've only been 10 days at the new job (counting the week end) and the more time passes, the more I notice that I don't know how I feel anymore as if I am numbing myself. I need to find a way back to myself and protect my energy as I know I've been absorbing people's negative emotions.
13 сен 2024
