I zoned out after "I want you to look outside and see your favorite flowers growing in the garden" because that's just such a sweet line. I'm at a place in my life where I've finally realized that I deserve love and appreciation, and even if it's asmr, someone audibly expressing that they want happiness for me in the littlest ways means so much. Someone out there might plant lilac bushes for me one day :)
So when i first saw this and started listening i did start crying because one of the things i have come to realize is i feel that i don't deserve love from others and i feel that because of past events and such but even though this is not exactly about receiving love it is still a form of being shown you are loved and cared about and is a love language so it definitely still connected with me deeply and I thank you for this audio and all the audios you have given us prior and anything you give us in the future. Thank you so very much.
Felt this one on a personal level Especially around the holidays some people get really upset when I don’t have the reaction they expected and immediately assume I’m selfish or don’t like the gift. Which aren’t true at all. I usually feel like I don’t do enough to earn any gifts so when I do get one I get worried I did something to force them. On the other hand I’ll go out of my way to make people handmade presents simply cause I like making stuff that makes them happy. It’s pretty ironic ( ; ‘ ∀ ‘ )ゞ
This is so sweet omg... I always struggle to receive gifts and I'm not sure why, but this kind of persistent gentle love. It's soothing, thank you.. so much anxiety and fear, past and present, and you just touched all the right spots. Yeah it'll take time to outgrow that, it also takes understanding people, but the reminders were so needed
I feel like I'm always in the comments gushing about something but damn, I've listened to just about every audio you have so far and I still can't express enough how wonderful they all are. There's a certain cozy feeling I get every time I listen and it's kinda become a bedtime ritual to fall asleep to one of them. It always feels so normal. Normal in a sense of it feels like it's just a real conversation rather than acting. Is good shit 😌👌🏽 Definitely my favorite VA. Thank you for all the comfort you give us and doing so many different anxious scenarios justice. Also I'm sure you hear this a lot but the consent is immaculate. Stay golden and green Sundew 🕺🎉✨ -proceeds to scour the cosmos for a partner like this-
Hi sunny! I don’t think I’ve ever commented on a video of yours before; but I’ve been here for a while now. And I just want to say something This channel has helped me so much with my anxiety and stress. I also sometimes feel Like I’m to weird for people to accept who I am as a person- I don’t act like a normal person. And that has gotten me in some pretty nasty situations with other people. Not being treated the way I want myself to be treated Almost everything about me is different, I listen to different music, I like completely different things. And I get made fun of for it- But this channel has always been accepting and always brightens my day up a little bit! Thank you sunny! ❤️
Receiving meaningful things is something I've always struggled with, mostly due to some nasty habits my parents ingrained into my head as a kid. Thank you so much for making this audio. I'm in a really dark place in my life and being told I'm allowed to feel like I deserve nice things and not constant harassment or ridiculing is something I really needed. Keep up the amazing work man, you're a comfort and an inspiration
I know your probably never gonna see this, but I wanna tell you, thank you for the audios and soft comforting words, I’ve always been told or felt that I never deserved anything and that I was never enough (still kinda an told that). Thank you so much for what you do, it means a lot to me and your subscribers. ☺️❤️
THIS CATERS TO ME SO WELL OML. I HAVE SO MUCH FINANCIAL ANXIETY EVEN IF ITS NOT EVEN ME SPENDING IT. IT COULD BE PEOPLE BUYING ME STUFF AND ID STILL BE ANXIOUS.
“i could get you something else” me: no! no no stfu i love it” literally crying omfg if someone actually got me something that i’d rant over i’d literally die
I can’t tell you how meany times I listen to this audio and how mutch it still means to here the words directed at me. Even if I know he’s not actually talking to me directly there’s just so much power behind a few words
I usually don’t cry while listening to or watching smth but I couldn’t stop my tears fr. I had a really bad day today and you actually make me forget about it, thank u so much
This one hits close to home for me as well. aawe thank you so much for this upload 🥺. We all need this from time to time. Thank you ❤️. You're awesome, keep up the great work! Looking forward to when you upload again. Have a good one and stay hydrated! 👋🏼
I grew up in a veryyyy money tight family like to the point that yesterday I tried to buy sheets for myself and my friend bought it for me I had to sit down and just try to stop feeling like such shit because my friend wouldn’t let me pay them back so this helps a lot thank you so much
This is beautiful.. the way you're talking, your words. You're amazing. Listening to it feels really safe and comforting. and oh god it seems so real. But then it hurts.. the realization that this is not real. In fact I don't have person who think about me that way. The person who just comforted me doesn't even know I exist.. aand it is depressing but still thank you so much
I've always been insecure and felt guilty when people spend money on me. I've never seen it talked about very much but this video made me feel seen and helped me feel better about it so thanks Sunny :)
I immediately fell guilty when someone buys something for me. I can't forget it. I always say to myself that I shouldn't said that I liked this I shouldn't said this was nice. And I can't believe when the person that buyed the gift says 'I just buyed because you liked it, I buyed because I felt like it bla bla bla..' no. I feel like I can't get this gift. I feel like I shouldn't use it. Or give the price it costed. I just can't.
Thank you, I needed to hear this :’) this made me happy stim lol. It’s my birthday tomorrow and this convinced me to get myself something nice that I’ve been eyeing for a while. 💜
Ye I feel like this alot- I get embarrassed or something or guilty when someone buys something for me so I tend to pay them back or just pay for it myself
I have 2 names riot and angel so the pet name angel always shocks me to here cos my brain goes "HoW dO YoU kNoW mY nAmE?!?!" But then I go "wait no pet name!" Thank you so much sunny you have helped me through alot!
I was not emotionally prepared for this today. But I needed it, I think. Side note; I also need therapy? Sunny: why don’t you deserve nice things? My brain: I don’t even deserve you. Even in a fictional scenario I’m self deprecating 🙃 Sunny thank you for making these ❤
I wouldn’t be upset because of the cost, I would be upset that I wouldn’t be able to take my boyfriends hoodies… even if it’s not manly, i’d still want his hoodies
Ima call u Sundew I have a littttttttleeeee question :> May I make an oc inspired by your name(Sundew) :> I shall credit you when im doing said oc description :> Its ok if I cannot But my heart would go up in a million pieces if i could! *patiently waits for a relpy with a big smile*
This js a vent post that contains topics of abuse and bad things in general. . . . . . . My mother just told me i dont deserve anything form the store sje normally tells my dad to get me; eg, fruit and things so i dont fet more malnutritioned than i am already. The was over me taking a diet coke from the fridge. There's another one, its not even the last one. Shes a diffrent perskn after she had her stroke, and she treats me just as bad as my father now. If i didnt have my dogs, i would be far away with soemone else- i have options, but none will take my dogs, but i grew up with kne and the other is mine. Neither of us could take it if we were separated. I just feel so hopeless and like im waiting for something, anything, to happen. With the track record of recent, it will probably be bad. Theres onyl a few things that can make my situation wkrse, honestly. Getting kicked out of the mitel room, having thr digs taken away, the place catchig on fire (again, but this time actually burning down wkth all my stuff.) i think even physical abuse would be better than this mental torture. Either i did something really fucked up in a past life or this js a necessity to make my life better in the futre, but god that last one is a strech. So surprised ive held back on sh. Ive already got the scars form when i was 11-13- ELEVEN, still cannot get over how they refused to get me to see a psychiatrist even when i said i think i have something wrkng- but instead i do, i guess, mental sh with severe dissociation every day as much as i can. Its the only reason im still alive, i think, is that im just not here. Ever. Im off in my current hyperfixation, and i avoid everything in reality. I sleep 12 hours a day and i have slept 18 at once. I sleep all day sonce i want to avoid them as much as i can. My extreme depression meds stopped working a while ago, so i cant even take those. The happiest ive been lately was when i was with my cousin, over a hundred miles away. I cant even accept help in form of mkney from strangers or a job simce i dlmt know how to do that. I havent felt safe in over a year, and o dont now of o ever will again. I have no fucking doing im geing ptsd as i speak. My joint pains have been getting worse, and couplkng with what feels like nerve damage foem sitting next to a freezing ac fir so long. I miss a few years ago. Bakc then all my troubles were relayed to how my ex frkm middle school was bulling me and hiw hard geometry was. Im exausted. I just want to all to stop. I want to have a proper caretaker and to not have yo think about if my dad is lying about looking for a house kr not. All i want ot be loved and to be shown that k am by people i love bsck.i love my dogs but they arent peole. Im so fucking alone. I dont think ive talke dot someone my age in almost 8 months. Theyre all old people and millennials. Maybe my life will mae an interesting story, later, about how soem people are just born to suffer. I ahve to foght bakc to them, becaus eif i dknt, theyll kill me, either by forgettign about me or bg letting me kill myself. I almost do wish my dad went rhough on the psych ward threat, at least ill be xared for there. Fucj, i havent even had milk in month. Nothing good has ever happened to me without something much worse following it, with the execption of 2021- early 2023. I was hapoy then. I think my hope dies along with the plants o had kept alive for over three years. I felt hope a few months ago. There was a place kn teh market we could dfford that i lived. But my dad refused to get it. I get that this situation benifts him much mor ethan us. But i ahte it. Ive hated him since a little kid. Now i hate my mother, too. Neither have been a good parent to me, but thats becaise my dad was never a oarent to me and my mom apparently only cared about me enoufhr to where a stroke can make her hate me. Im so fucking dkne wigh everything.
Thank you for this a gay commenter commented on someone else channel saying girls can’t listen to m4m audios because we are females and since I listen to m4m as a girl it kinda hurt
This whole video makes me so happy. Not only because it reassures me that people buying me stuff is okay, but it also shows me that I can find proper and a happy relationship even as a transman. This really makes me super happy, Thank you so much. 🤍 - Ruki