Sometimes I always think that everyone is just pretending to like me, and they talk to me just so I can let my guard down and think that they actually like me, and they just reveal it to me and humilliate me, and I'm just left there regretting ever becoming their friend, or they just talk shit about me behind my back and eventually I find out of this and I silently cry to myself while realizing my entire life was just a facade, and I was yet again the muse to their entertainment; just a pitiful jester to entertain them, and I mean nothing to them.
You know, my life is horrible, my mother us absolutely insane and makes my dads life absolutely hell, I’ve done so many terrible things I cannot tell anyone in real life because I’d be sent to a ward, I think I am the cause of my family’s problems because the world is burning around me, what should I do?
Friend, even if you don't believe in God, seek him, ask him for guidance on the right path, ask him for help. God who created and has everything, won't be difficult for him to solve the most complex of troubles.
In 2022 and 2019, i was about to kill my bully but... I remember his mom so i decide to calm myself and all night thinking want to kill my bully and i almost lose control on my body. I mean its like my body want to kill everyone.
"Whats the matter lost for words I expected more I'm hurt" "Joker sent me the film I saw him kill you-" "Dont you dare lie to me, how long did it take you to replace me, a month a week I TRUSTED YOU AND YOU JUST LEFT ME TO DIE" "THATS NOT WHAT HAPPENED" "You always told me bruce focus on what I want to achieve and it will happen, you wanna know what I want now I want you dead".
